#AND I WILL GET TO SEE MY FAV CHARACTERS AGAIN AHHH CALM DOWN MY HEART

[afternoonblues]

just got my hands on the last two volumes of koukyu no karasu (raven of the inner palace) LN and the clock says 2 a.m but what is this sudden energy flowing through me? where was all this enthusiasm for the last few days? suddenly my slump has evaporated in a flick, i feel so overly motivated (& scared because i will finally get the closure to this masterpiece of a story) that now i can not just jump into these these last 2 vols but also finish the novel i was originally reading (kokoro by natsume soseki)....

[multi-fandomedfreak]

Comforting Logan, who's been having nightmares/insomnia?

(guy needs a hug, just... in general)

Authors note: This is so FRIKIN CUUTE AHHH my fav, cool teacher will get the comfort he deserves. Funnily enough I can’t sleep either rn so I thought why not just write this sweet drabble

Characters: Logan x reader (established relationship)

⚠️Warnings⚠️: Angstttt. hurt/comfort. Pretty fluffy towards the end

💙 💙💙💙💙

You were deep under your warm duvets when you were woken up by the moving arm under you. A sleepy groan escapes you as you searched for a pillow to replace said arm but stop in your tracks as the sound of sniffling catches your attention.

Although your mind was still clouded with sleep, you recognized the sound to be Logan. While trying your best to wake up, the dip from the bed lifted as he walked out of the room, the door closing with a soft click.

Your whole body felt heavy from sleep but that didn’t slow you down as you lugged downstairs to find Logan. It was difficult but you managed to make out his outline in the inky darkness of the living room. Even with the limited light, the way his body shook was no secret to you.

One could only assume what this meant.

With the moon as your only source of light, you made your way toward him and saw that your suspicions were right. He was crying. No. He was sobbing. Knees to his chest, head tucked away from view, knuckles white from gripping his pants so tight.

Your frame froze at the sight of the usually composed side, crying his eyes out in the comfort of the darkness. It was a sight not even you had seen before. Sure he had his moments of vulnerability every now and again but never like this. It made your chest tighten with grief and tears pool up in your eyes.

Seeing the man you loved more than anything in the world be in such a state of sorrow...it broke your heart.

Kneeling down in front of him, you made your presence known by whispering his name. His body tensed at the realization you were in the room but his sobs didn’t stop. Only slightly subduing in a futile attempt to appear fine along with the rest of his body.

He uncurled himself and plastered the emotionless mask he was so familiar with. All while knowing that it was all in vain. You already saw his breakdown.

And now that you could see his face, you also saw his tears and puffy eyes. There was no point in hiding. He knew it. So why did he hide?

Simple. Muscle memory was being a douche right now.

As soon as he’d realized what he’d done, his body went limp again. Angry tears mixed with sad tears spilling down his face, frustration at the core of his body language.

Upon seeing this, you couldn’t help but reach up and cup his face with your hands, your thumbs wiping away the tears. Logan didn’t seem to notice that he subconsciously leaned into your touch, chasing what little comfort he has.

“Logan…what happened?” You asked even though you knew the answer to the question already but he liked it when you asked anyway. It made him feel better.

He managed to suck in a shaky breath before answering in a tone that made your heart break.

“It’s the nightmares again. I…I-I can’t sleep because of them. They were too real..gosh they were too. real.”

The cracking of his voice and the way it shook made you immediately get on the couch with him and pull him into a big hug. His head fell onto your shoulder where he let himself be taken over by his sobs again. His tears left dark patches on your shirt and his shook from the force of which he was gripping your shirt.

The soothing feeling of your warm hand rubbing up and down his back seemed to help as he, truly, let himself break down in your arms.

You both stayed there for a long moment. Logan’s shaking sobs calmed down after a while and now you were left with him breathing shakily in your arms. You don’t know when but you somehow found yourselves laying down on the couch with him resting on your chest. You and him laid there in the darkness, the only sound being that of his shaky breathing.

You stroked his hair out of his face and began to massage his scalp, which emitted a small sound of content from him. A small frown decorated your face even though it was nice to see him so content because you couldn’t help but think back to his words.

He had nightmares…again?

“How long has this been going on?” You ask gently as your fingers grazed along his head, feeling his chest rise and fall as a sigh escaped his mouth.

“..a month.”

Your frown deepened at the sound of his words.

“Why didn’t you tell me? I could’ve helped.” You muttered sadly.

“I...I wanted to tell you. But I also-…I just didn’t want to burden you.” He shifted his head up to look at you, the tear marks that were still wet glistened in the moonlight. His eyes were filled with so much emotion. Guilt, sadness, frustration. A hint of what seemed like anger was hidden among all these other feelings.

The sight made you cup his cheek with one hand and lean in with saddened confusion written across your face.

"You are not a burden, Logan. You never were and never will be. Especially to me." Determination gripped fiercely onto your words and you could only hope that they made their way into Logan's stubborn skull.

Logan’s eyes swelled with tears as he heard your words. Happy tears.

In finally letting it sink in that you were always there for him and he could always count on you.

His head dropped onto your chest and his grip tightened around you. His head buried deep into your chest while your arms cradled him.

With one last sigh of relief, all the tension left his body while you two remained there the rest of the night.

[heroes-writing]

Write about whatever character of your choosing teaching their s/o how to cook! (headcannons seem easier but whatever you want)

Oh the power!!~ To get to choose~~  Ahhh I can’t decide so I’ll do my fav boys!!

(Also sorry if I made Genos’ s/o particularly bad at cookinglmaoo I found the situation too hilarious to ignore~)

Total Word Count: 1877

Genos: Word Count: 758

When Genos was behind the counter in Saitama’s kitchen, itwas like watching a magician perform.

With steam rising from multiple pots on the stove, and defthands moving in hyper speed-- he chopped, sliced, peeled, and seasonedeverything to perfection. Sometimes, for your benefit, he performedintricate techniques to crack open eggs or flip a something into the air.

You were content to watch him work, to taste the aftermathand give him compliment after compliment, but when it your time to cook for him…

It was all too easy to become intimidated by the masterhimself.

You stood in your own small home. Your kitchen…well it wasn’tused to its full potential to say the least. You had all sorts of pots and pansout, one measly steak knife in hand, and a crummy peeler you bought at thestore that very afternoon…

Your kitchen was inexperienced to say the least. You werefond of take-away, Genos’s food, or premade meals from the store.

You had dewy grocery bags gathered in a large pile on thecounter, and you weren’t sure how to start.

When were you supposed to cook the vegetables? The meat? Thecooking times were different but, you wanted it done at the same time…

You sent a nervous glance to Genos, who for once was in yourusual position. Sat at the kitchen table, watching you silently. The smile onhis face was small and so blissfully content-- damn it! You were determined tokeep it there.

You turned around and adjusted the pots and pans on thestove to your liking. You turned on the burners, figuring the pans needed towarm up properly. Then twirled back around to the grocery bags with raisedhands. Okay. No problem. Start small with baby steps, and you could have awonderful meal by the end of it!

You took your time unpacking everything, then decided toneatly arrange it all in rows—Wait, you should wash all the veg right??

“…Do you need my assistance at all? (Name)?”

You jolted and waved your hands wildly, knowing he wasgetting concerned by his sweet tone.

“N-no no!! I’m fine. I uh, I can do it. Just finding arhythm here...That’s all.”

Genos gazed at you blankly for a moment. His was stillsmiling with his eyes blank—somehow his expressions were softer without thepiercing yellow pupils.

“Do you have a recipe?”

You wilted, “Um, not—not really. I’m kind of wingingit.”

Without pause, he stood and approached the sink to wash hishands. His posture was nonchalant, and his smile was completely reassuring,even as you gestured for him to sit back down.

“Wait! Remember I’m cooking for YOU tonight—"

“Yes.” He replied stubbornly, “But I can teach you what Iknow too. We can do this together if you would like?” He said this as he driedhis hands, and without losing your gaze, he reached for the other (purelydecorative) apron you had hanging on the kitchen side. It was pink, yellow,and completely garish against the shiny black metal of his arms. Genos didn’tseem to care. He already seemed determined, and you knew there was no stoppinghim.

You head drooped into your shoulders, “I wanted to make youa meal…”

He rose his brows, his tone shifting into something soothingfor your benefit. “I understand, but I also want to make sure you cook…safely.”As if making a point, he turned off all the burners on the stove. Much to yourconfusion.

He answered your unspoken question, “You’ll ruin your potsdoing that, or burn your house down. Especially if they’re stainless steel.”

“Huh?” You gestured to them, “They’re made out ofmetal!”

“Metal can burn, (Name).” His smile grew wider as hechuckled to himself.

Your cheeks puffed as you dragged your hands down your face.

“Here, let’s make a salad first--”

“Salad! That’s too easy—” You whined. You hadit all pictured in your head of what you wanted—you wanted it to be the slickand fancy meals they served at five-star restaurants—

Genos hands were quick to calm you. He gently coaxed you tostand in front of him, pulling you into something of a half hug. Blinking inconfusion, you let him move you like a doll, till your back was against hischest, and he had your hands in cradled in his.

In the shell of your ear he murmured, “I’ll walk you throughit. We’ll wash, peel, and cut the vegetables. Then we’ll make our ownvinaigrette…”

You felt him press a sweet kiss to the back of your head,and that was all it took to wipe all the fight from your form. With hisproximity, you found the idea rather appealing suddenly.

“You’ll teach me?”

“Mm, then when I know you’re safe you can cook whenever youlike.”

Blushing, you nodded and pressed back against him, eager forthe rare affection. The whole of him was hard, but warm and always hummingslightly.

“Let’s begin…”

You smiled, although he couldn’t see it— You remedied thatquickly by slipping around and planting a quick kiss on his lips.

Mischievous, you tugged his arms to bring them tighteraround your waist, the little bump you felt as you pressed against thecounter’s smooth edge gave you immense satisfaction.

“Okay! I’m ready when you are!”

 .-.-.-.--.-.

Zombieman: Word count: 1119

“If you weren’t immortal, you’d be dead of scurvy.”

“Would not.” Z paused, giving his next words some seriousthought, “…I like Umeboshi just fine.”

You sputtered another laugh into your first, your smile alreadygrowing sore, “Oh come on, Z!”

“Dying of scurvy though, that’s a new one.” Zombieman was raisinghis brows at you, his lips twitching into a handsome smile.

“I don’t think Umeboshi from rice balls counts as a source ofcalcium, babe.” You jibed, and he shrugged.

“If I eat enough of em, they will.”

Shaking your head, you watched him press the stub of hiscurrent cigarette into the crowded ashtray on your porch railing. His own silentchuckle was shaking his broad shoulders.

Along with the small gas grill Z was currently standing infront of, you had bought the ash tray just for him.

There were small, little objects that the two of you hadbegun to buy for each other. Little possessions to make staying with oneanother comfortable an easy…Every time you thought about it, your heart burstwith love and affection~ Z tended to purchase comfier blankets and pillows foryour stays at his place.

While you finally gave under the need to cook food yourboyfriend preferred.

Z-man loved his steak, burgers, and yakinuku meatskewers after all. And apparently, they didn’t taste the same when madeon an electric grill. Hmph.

He seemed to love grilling at least, since getting it, a lotof your meals had been prepared on it although you were still somewhat skittishof the flames.

You sipped your small drink, to ease your throat, and placedit gently on the table between your chairs. The summer air was loud withcicadas, but they couldn’t completely beat the loud sizzling coming from thegrill.

Whatever he had under the lid tonight did smell tasty.

As if on cue, your stomach growled, and Z looked at you witha raised brow as he clinked the grilling tongs together.

“Hungry?”

You nodded desperately before jerking your head towards thedoor, “When should I start on the sides?”

“Mm.” He opened the lid, letting oppressive heat and flamejump out. “I’d give it 20 minutes or so.”

“Okidoki~” You were looking forward to making his plate andfilling it up, just how he liked it.  

“(Name), you haven’t even used this thing yet, right?” Hegestured to the grill as he picked up his own drink to take a long sip.

You hummed, giving the silvery and red finish of the grill aperturbed glance. “…I’m more of a baker, I think.”

He snorted, “What would you do if you had to survive in thewild though?”

“Oh no, this conversation again!” You grinned, “First ofall, I’d have you, and you could deal with the—” You gestured with yourhands, “Being a caveman, making a fire or whatever...But how is workinga grill anything like working over a campfire??”

His grin was purposefully teasing, “It’s basically thesame thing.”

“You don’t have those fancy knobs in the wild, Z.”  

He shook his head, and clicked the tongs again, “C’mere,I’ll show you how to work it~”

“Oh, come on, it’s hot, and you want me near a flameright now?”

“It’ll give me peace of mind if you knew how to work it~”

“That’s bullshit, you just want me to suffer and sweat withyou.”

He grinned and laughed in that carefree way of his that madehis tired eyes crinkle at the edges. It made your heart melt—just a little…

While shaking your head and rolling your eyes, you couldn’tdeny him when he was holding a hand towards you.

You put your hand in his and let him pull you out of yourseat all too easily. His strength allowed him to tug you close and under hisarm as he used the other to raise the grill lid.

You recoiled from the heat that blew over you. “Ugh!” You complained,straight into Z’s shoulder.

He jostled you playfully and offered you the tongs. “Doesn’tit feel great?”

Almost choking on the heat, you gasped, “Literally feelslike I’m 2 feet away from the Sun.”

He hummed into your hair, and it only served to make the warmthmore obvious.

You gazed into the black and flaming insides of the grilland jolted in surprise. “Ohh! You’re making some peppers too?”

His hand slipped across your own guiding you forward, “Mhm.We should flip em over, so they don’t get too well done.”

“I love these!” You insisted, and you felt him chuckleagainst your temple, “Oh, I know.”

Tentatively he guided you to raise the tongs, but youstalled as you watched the flames licking high and then ducking low into thegrill.

He answered your unspoken question, “You won’t get burned,just don’t linger, and use the tongs.”

A little uneasy but placing your trust in him anyway, youshrugged.

“…M’kaaay.” With your approval, he guided you with your armheld high and the tongs at a safe distance away. With the summer wind dyingdown, the jumping flames settled... It suddenly seemed about as dangerous asanything else on the stove.

Zombieman’s head rested on your shoulder, “We shouldprobably put the peppers on the other side of the grill. You keep a hot sideand a cooler side, you know?”

“Oh.” You said, as you flipped some of the peppers and meatskewers around.

Focused and moving with more of your own will than Z’s youchirped “Okay! I got this~” Now completely confident in yourself you arrangedthe contents of the grill to your liking.

Then you gently elbowed his stomach, “Alright Z, I don’tneed your help anymore.~” You made sure to make your voice proud and playful.

“Eh? You’re through with me?” He curled his arms around yourwaist, not even seeming to care about the heat, and while closing the lid, youtried to half heartedly pull his arms away.

“Oh no, it’s too hoooot, cuddle me in the winter.”  

He squeezed just once before laughing and slipping away. Amutual sigh of relief rang through you both, as cooler air washed over yourback and arms. Z shook his head and pinched his shirt away from his body, “Yeah,it’s a little too hot for that...”

“You’re too hot.” You joked, and just for the hell of it, yougot on your tippy toes and blew a cold stream of air over his neck beforekissing his jaw.

Upon seeing his shiver, you laughed to yourself, and skippedaway before he could pull you back in for another too hot hug.

[jeonmefortae-blog]

What If? (BTS Q&A)

Hey my lovelies, HAPPY SUNDAY! Hope you all had a great day whether you are stressing out >< or whether you are having holidays. Good new is, if you are living in Malaysia, you will have Gawai holidays! (or only Sarawak for that matter?) 

But anyways! Thanks guys for leaving me ‘What If’ questions to answer on instagram. I find this really fun as i saw a lot of people doing this on instagram! It would be really nice to know what would you do if you got caught up with your favorite celebrity nice to know about your thoughts on something as well! Anywayy, i want to thank you guys deeply again. 

So basically, my ‘What If’ questions are about BTS in general! Like for example: ‘What if i met Jungkook?’ 

So shall we start?

^^ very cute picture or gif above by the way! 

Okay. 

1) What if kookie asked to stay in my house because he doesn’t have any place to stay? - asked by @/pewtaepie 

Answer : 

Omg, this answer got me shook, thanks so much ;-; Okay, OF COURSE i would i mean- but the problem is it would be more awkward because i stil live with my parents. But however, if that is the case then ofc i would still offer him a place to stay, because poor kookie! :( But if i was staying alone (no dirty thoughts here) of course everything would be less awkward because there will be no one around except me. Of course being me, i would be breathless and freak out like a potato. I would REALLY GET HEART ATTACKS. Don’t blame me if i DIE on the spot. Then, once i calmed down i would probably ask him whats the matter! Of course, (i want life to be as good as the fanfics ;) ) Hopefully by him staying at the the house we can be close friends because kookie and i share many similar interests. I would ask him to cook together and do chores together. Go to the mall together and help me with those groceries :’) Oh! and also play piano together with him singing by my side. (and you know hopefully it gets somewhere) JUST JOKING! OFC OBVIOUSLY in reality we have to sleep seperate rooms because if my virginity was lost I WOULD BE DEAD MEAT. My mother would slice my head off :”) lollll sorry the answer was just supposed to be short, but i made it freaking long. 

2) What if you found out you were childhood friends with one of the members of BTS? - asked by @/yourbutterflyy

Answer : 

Holy moly. The answer would be that im very very absolutely shook. I mean out of the blue someone tells me that i am actually connected to them? :’) daebak. Of course, knowing me i cannot sit still. I have to meet my childhood friends because i mean- childhood friends are precious. However even if i meet them they have got to remember me right? :D  If our memories were rooted very deeply or in the case that maybe he got amnesia, i would ofc try and help to recover his memories :’) And me myself would try and remember all the things we did together and then as we reunite we would have many things to talk about and so that we can recreate these memories together again :’) 

3) What if you had to choose a BTS song that you have to sing in your life forever? - asked by @/namjinmochi 

Answer: 

WOW. I had a hard time thinking of this one. But i would choose ‘Butterfly’. Its the song i fell in love at first sight. BTS songs are mainly really catchy and energizing and there are less ballads (won’t really call this a ballad) (i think its a cross between a ballad, and hiphop?) but this song gave me FEELS. IMMENSE FEELS. I cried when listening to just the instrumental version, and don’t mention the prologue. The prologue got me bawling and i could hear the butterfly instrumental in the background. ;-; This song gives me feels that can break my heart but at the same time heal it. Its like a lullaby that heals my tired and weary heart. The melody of it is very easy to remember and so its pretty chilly and cool when you can easily hum its melody :’) another song is probably run (ballad ver) i cried literally! those high notes hit my heart & also Spring Day. the lyrics are really meaningful and its a melody that you will remember for quite a long time. 

4) What if you had to choose one song BTS sang to you? - asked by @/unnati_8230 

Answer: 

Hmm like the previous question, one of my fav songs is Butterfly so i would love them to sing that :’) because i really want to see their passionate faces when they sing this song. its really aesthetically pleasing. 

5) What if i found BTS living a block down from me? - asked by @/taes_suga_kookie 

Answer: 

ASDFGHJKL!!! WOAHH WOAHHH okay. I need to chill. Like this, i am practically good as being their neighbours! Being a good citizen i would probably send some gifts for the new comers :’) because i mean its BTS and of course i have a high chance of seeing them so i want to do good deeds as their fan! Of course, if i had the chance i might even get invited to their house, but due to manyyy privacy reasons i would also try to limit myself, because their neighbourhood might be flooded with fans, and i hate crowds so... advantages and disadvantages. (the neighbourhood would be filled with screaming fangirls) but hey at least i fulfil my wishes right? :’) i am already pretty fortunately staying close to them. maybe i hope we can all be good friends too haha! there would be soooo many things to talk about. 

6) What if you became BTS’ new manager? - asked by @/bangtanfamfic 

Answer: 

OMFG WHYYY OMG AHHH - ;-; umm umm of course i would be freaking happy for this job offer like- omg! BTS’ manager its like the best job on earth :”) however being a new manager i should not attract much attention. Also, i think i need to toughen myself up because of all the fans who love to push people. I cannot be fragile on this job :’) but i am willing to learn. But things like planning schedules and doing things for the boys is a-okay! IT WOULD BE HEAVEN. I would get to talk to them everyday, and there are so many opportunities for us to get close and ofc i would get to see them in their everyday lives (it would be pretty interesting) because all i can see is them outwardly on stage and everything- but not like behind the scenes. I want to see yoongi working on music, i want to see them practicing and everything! :’) ofc, i want the previous manager to teach me many things as well! SEJIN OPPA! TASUKETE. (LOL Y JAPANESE HAHAH) 

7) What if you found out that your bias is actually studying in the same school as you? - @/preciousbngtn 

Answer: 

Hi i love you Christina and i will answer this question HAHAHAHA. BUT OI OMGGGG- If Jungkook was studying in the same school as me i would be shook asf you know. I WOULD FLIP. Obviously i want to introduce myself to him like ‘welcome to this school im rachel’ or something like that. BUT I BET THERE WILL BE SO MANY GIRLS GOING AFTER HIM  which leaves me out a chance :’) because i am always super slow hahaha! if its like this, i won’t really bother until i see him with no one. I don’t want to cause a ruckus either :’) (ill be a good girl thank you) i want to treat him like a normal classmate and friend. the rest can be all up to fate :’) of course it will be a distraction in class!!! i will not be able to pay attention damn it. 

8) What if i was BTS’ girlfriend? - asked by @/ttaevmin_ 

Answer:

OMFG!!!! OKAY UHM I CAN’T BREATHE. Okay, let me start with each member. Because you said BTS, so i will just cover members one by one. 

If i was Namjoon’s girlfriend, we would sure talk to endless hours because i believe i can talk comfortably with him, maybe even learn new things together :’) and he can teach me many new things as well! I am sure there’s lots of things to share! our dates can be anywhere! 

If i was Jin’s girlfriend we would soooo go grocery shopping together and cook amazing stuff for the boys :’) we would scold the bangtan kids together muahaha! ofc, because we share our common love for pink we can fight people who hate pinkeu :’D and ofc our date can be something simple like just stay at home and eat each others food! (i don’t mind!) 

If i was Yoongi’s girlfriend, i would try to get his ass out of bed, cheer him up with my wierdness and optimism. (we are total opposites btw) i will cheer him and motivate him daily as thats what he may need? (i will make sure i see his gummy smile) And because i love to compose, i would also do lots of composing works with him :’) i would soooo drag him out of the house and have fun HAHAHAHA but its a win win situation, at times i would just stay at the house if he wants too! however, on days 

If i was Hoseok’s girlfriend, that would be heaven on earth because Jhope is mostly similar to me. I am positive and optimistic, always happy,bubbly and friendly. We would so laugh at a lot of things and entertain the boys and be second hand embarassments as well :’) our dates can be anything! i mean- i believe hoseok seems like a very mature man to me.  

If i was Jimin’s girlfriend, i would treasure this little precious mochi :’) i would treasure him more than i treasure myself. Because his sweetness is no joke, it needs to be soooo protected. i would proabably cause lots of embarassment to him anyday, HAHAHAH but my main goal would just to be a good girlfriend and give him lots of love. Our dates can be anywhere! im not picky :) 

If i was Taehyung’s girlfriend, that would be heaven on earth as well. because uhmm character wise i am like Taehyung as well and also because taehyung’s ideal type is very much like me. i would get along with him pretty well and i think taehyung will be reaally sweet and also a protective boyfriend :’) i can very much imagine that he will love his girl til death and so being his girlfriend i would love him wholeheartedly and give him my all. 

Lastly. If I WAS MY BIAS’ GIRLFRIEND. 

If i was Jeon freaking Jungkook’s girlfriend i won’t think i will able to live for even a second. The moment i saw his smile i immediately knew that there was something about him. and from that moment, we actually have lots in common (except the fact that he is good at everything) being his girlfriend would be really humurous and funny as i feel like i am dating someone near my age. (he is just one year older than me) i think we will share lots in common and we will have many things to say as well! i don’t care if he is not good with dates or girls, i just want him to be jungkook. :’) our dates can be anywhere! but since he loves the beach we can take a drive down to the beach and hold hands in the sunset like how romantic right??!! i would live to see his cute smile anyday and i will do my best and my all to see him genuinely happy with me :’) not because he is my bias but because i love him as he is. 

9) What if Yoonmin isn’t real?- asked by @/lustyoongi 

^^ OII HOTNESS OMFG

Answer:

I WOULD FLIP. IMMA PACK MY BAGS AND GO TO KOREA AND SEE WHAT’S WRONG jokes i cannot do that but IMMA PACK MY BAGS AND GO TO KOREA. And i am not leaving until i attend all their fansigns and get them back to shape :’) anti climax : on the side of reality i would be really devasted and just cry tissues away. 

10) What if BTS had given up from the beginning? - asked by @/hoseoklq

^^ this is so funny like omfg 

Answer: 

To be honest, if they have given up i won’t be as crazy and wierd as i am now. BTS has been a factor that pushed me to become a stronger person. They are people that inspire and admire me. If they had given up i would no longer acquire this strength. BTS all in all is my happy pill, just seeing them brightens up my day. it will be a huge mistake if their group wasn’t there anymore :’( there would be a hole that kpop is missing out on. then they wouldn’t know what they would be able to achieve and how much their fans adore them. BTS’ music leaves a strong impact on the young generation. Not just the lyrics and music but also their power and image that they bring. BTS is also known as a group filled with members of different unique personalities and together they are the most beautiful moments of our lives :’) teens need to know a lot about youth and they need someone to speak up for them and to tell them ‘i know, i have gone through this, but its gonna be okay. ‘not today. today we fight.’ they need message of love and strength. thats why BTS is a group that i feel is close to me even if they are miles away. 

and finally, if they had given up, IMMA PACK MY BAGS TO KOREA. (lol why am i like this) LIKE YOU AINT GONNA LEAVE LIKE THIS BISH (JOKESS) 

11) What if Jungkook wants to be my secret admirer/what if he admirers me? - asked by @/kookienochu  

Answer: 

oKAY...OMG. Uhm, of course i cannot stop him from ‘liking’ me but it depends. Speaking from reality point of view, i don’t really believe in love at first sight unless love builds up through genuine relationships, but if he likes me i would totally feel the same way. but if we aren’t really close yet i always suggest to be my friends first :’)  but if he already knows me so well, then i think i will be ready to be his girl. I mean i may like him and all but in the end, relationships need to be genuine in order for true love to exist. i mean- no matter how much  i claim to love him, i would only like the idea of dating him, but that doesn’t mean i love him. Okay, so if i was already his really good friend and he knows me like so damn well, obviously i am ready to start this relationship. There needs to be a perfect timing and a perfect bang! to it. Even so, i need to know that whatever obstacles may pass, we must sort it out rationally and not just fight and break up for stupid reasons. Moreover, i would really feel grateful, because i was always called ugly in school, so its good to know that he finds me beautiful in my own ways. :’) remember guys, its not love just because your heart always beats around a person. its not just love if you are crushing on love. love withstands time and it takes lots of time and effort to accept someone and know their flaws and accept them still :-) 

lol i would save love talk for later. I am considered a ‘love doctor’ by my classmates and i always give ‘advice’ so if you want you can always DM in my instagram! :) 

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continuing the hiatus with 4.05

Well I'm here avoiding responsibilities as usual, pretending that I don't have class in the morning or any laundry to do but like I said I've been watching shameless and I need a little wholesome ctm to balance it out lol & @ilovemushystuff recommended I watch 4.05 *thank u 😌*but let us go on this journey together 🙃...

the clothes lines remind me of home bc we don't have a dryer in our apartment haha & when it's cold out my mom hangs everything up around the house it's a hilarious nyc struggle lol

my bby shelagh!! 💕 so precious pushing the pram! omg we get to see this again next series *hopefully* with unnamed baby turner 😭!!

aw I miss summer!! I love being out in the summer *plus my birthday is in August*🙃

Ahh aren't we glad Shelagh got new dresses, cause I'm not feeling this one lol

Jenny Agutter's smile w/ her eyebrows raised >>, am I right

Wait this is the osteogenesis imperfecta case right ??

Laura looking angelic but that is not at all new, I just have to always mention it

Now all I can do is stare at her hair bc of this debate earlier 😂 what color?? 

but damn I don't like this dress either I forgot how disrespectful the costume designers were in series 4😂😂

Patrick grabbing her hand saying thank you ugh so pure 😭😢

"Two weeks in Lyme Regis does sound nice" ugh Shelagh's so adorable but LETS HERE IT FOR CHARACTER DEVELOPMENT™ BC SHE DIDN'T EVEN REALLY ASK TO GO ON  HOLIDAY EVEN THOUGH SHE OBVIOUSLY WANTED TO & IN THE NEXT SERIES SHE PLANNED THE WHOLE DAMN TRIP WITHOUT TELLING HIM👏🏼 LOVE IT lol even though camping was a disaster

It's been 3 fucking mins and look at all the shit I've said wow I hate me

Pats and Trix!! I miss their friendship

Haha omg this is right after Trixie and Tom broke up #awkward

"Wild peach, isn't it glorious?" I love my other bby trixie. We are so similar but she's better 💕

PHYLLIS OUT HERE YES

"Roasted like a Sunday dinner" LMAO

aw this is the episode with the Sylheti mum, here's some quality early Babs

SISTER E 😭😭😭 I miss her aww

Omg &Sister Mary Cynthia! she just became a nun aw I miss her being so happy 💔 I hope she's in the Christmas special or Series 7 Premiere

"Ready?" ugh I just think of all the times we're heard that, like Trixie asking Shelagh when she was about to get married *hello my two favs interacting its iconic for me* or when Trixie told Sister MC off she wanted to ask her if she was ready when she went to become a postulant like if she was getting married,  my heart 😭 UPDATE: I made a post about it

speaking of my gal Beatrix here she is again

I want to be that platinum blonde tbh

Sister Julienne saying "little man" yes I'm here for this such thing

little Raymond like ST Raymond or the baby that was left on the steps .. wait what happened to him? I forgot lol it's been a while

I do not like Sister Mj's absence

but yes her nephew! Did he just like stop picking her up??

Aw Trixie wanted to hug sister MC I can tell, nuns can hug though why didn't she?

we were robbed of a cute sister MC & sister W young- nun dynamic duo

but I like sister Winifred so much more now she's lowkey golden

Diphtheria yikes

LMAO FRED HAS A DU RAG ON ??

I forgot that the old nurses uniforms were so washed out looking

sweetie, if a ANGLICAN NUN is telling you the baby needs more than prayer wouldn't you believe it ??

like wtf is Christian scientist anyway, yo no se

lol calm down Barbara that's a lot to translate

woah Pat's looks hella good with her hair like that 😍

my bby Trixie serving looks but is heartbroken 😍😢💔

THE PICTURE OF HER AND CYNTHIA!! THAT IS NOW ON HER VANITY MIRROR !! MY H E A R T

*twerks to the bicycle song*

"She says where he goes, we go - even the moon" ahh again my heart!! & it's so similar to what shelagh said in the last Christmas special 😭💕 *i think it was a bible reference but I can't remember bc my memory is fuzzy from being a reckless heathen* jk jk😂

How does a faja type belt help her?

I initially really liked Trixie and Tom but I'm so glad they found better matches

yo I'd be shook though if my baby's bones kept breaking and I didn't know why omg

The nurses being cute eating popsicles outside lol

aw wait Fred and Violet weren't together yet here, they're so cute haha

again so wild, like imagine no one knowing what your baby is hurt and no one believing that you didn't abuse your child?! I cNt

so scary

Ameerah is so pretty & how sweet omg she brought Babs a dish. She misses having girl friends omg!

The Poor Pentergasts

I feel you Mrs ^, I scream into my hands at least 3x a day *for obvs diff reasons*

Baby Angela💕💕 so precious

aw Patrick & Shelagh😭 but now that shelagh's been on her nightie game this blue nightgown should finally go #hereforthebrinylon™

Shit now Patrick is going to realize and blame himself

let Patrick not feel guilty for anything in series 7, cut this guy a break pls

osteogenesis imperfecta yup I remembered ✔️ well I remember watching this with my mom & her calling if before they knew it and I was annoyed bc She can't just watch she always has to be a nurse & put her opinion out there😂 like we watched the finale yesterday and I thought there'd be some suspense but nah she knew the pill gave her a deadly blood clot😒she was surprised they killed the first women described it to though

Shelagh's face while Patrick gets in the ambulance 😭💔

I miss the nuns singing !! mainly miss Laura singing but still!! it's very peaceful you feel?? let me hear some hymns

I feel you Patrick, you smoke that cig

Alright damn Mr Pentergast, I feel your anger but wtf were they supposed to think??

I get anxious watching Patrick be anxious tbh omg xzjkalsfo

the way he fidgets the pen so relatable

Shelagh kissing him on the forehead and the cheek 😢😭💔💕melts my cold little heart

"I don't want my Geraldine being seen by the receptionist" fuck u lady she's the best damn nurse out here Lmaoo

But seriously did everyone just forget she was a nurse/midwife when she was a nun? it has only been like a year since she left and got married so I wouldn’t think people would forget just yet but maybe? wtf lol. I feel like their story was such gossip that it'd be unforgettable? that's just me Lmaoo

Go get that uniform Shelagh!!!

she's so patient, dios te bendiga. She’s too good.

my angry self would've been like "do 👏🏼 ya👏🏼not👏🏼get👏🏼that👏🏼I 👏🏼was👏🏼 a nurse 👏🏼and 👏🏼delivered 👏🏼like 👏🏼half 👏🏼of 👏🏼your👏🏼 gremlin 👏🏼 children?!" Or "you don't want me to help? Okay there's the door, don't let it hit you on the way out"!

SHE'S GETTING THE UNIFORM PEOPLE

okay I don't think I've ever thought about it until now but Shelagh talks about Patrick's war neurosis with Sister Julienne like she already knew?? I bet Shelagh went to her after the adoption interview 😭

ugh I love their friendship/relationship it's so pure

This whole show is so pure! how can it remind you of the darkness in the world while still giving you faith in humanity??  There's nothing like it

I told you I caught my mom up with series 6 & she was just like "I can't believe we have to wait so long. Why can't America make a show as great as this?"

I then said "I know I have like no reason to live until Christmas" but she said i was being dramatic oops

*cue in the mirror*✨

SHE'S PUTTING ON THE UNIFORM PEOPLE THIS IS NOT A DRILL

you guys don't get how happy this made me when I first saw it omg, I was so tired of seeing her sad/upset and lost and distressed and everything but happy but THEN SHE PUT THE UNIFORM ON AND THE LITTLE HAT AND LOOKED IN THE DAMN MIRROR WITH HER MILLON DOLLAR SMILE AND I WANTED TO COMBUST I WAS SO HAPPY I WAS IN TEARS😭😭💖💖

SHELAGH TURNER DESERVES THE WORLD AND MORE, I WILL ALLOW NO ONE TO DISAGREE

AND IF U DO WE CAN FIGHT RN

I'm so proud of how far my bby has come ugh I can't deal

It's 1am why am I being a little emotional bitch™ ?? Ugh I just love this character

I'd fight for Shealgh or Trixie/ Laura and Helen in real life. They are gifts we don't deserve

BUT ALSO, YOU MEAN TO TELL ME ALL THESE PEOPLE DIDNT BELIEVE SHE WAS A NURSE & THEN SAW HER IN A NURSE UNIFORM THE NEXT TIME AND QUESTIONED NOTHING???

Like I know it wasn't the same people but still word gets around?

Shelagh and Tim's hug aww

Can we pls see a cute moment between them? We were played with that hospital scene in 6.4 bc it was like 2 seconds long

Patrick's pyjamas though >

the flat filled with things from patients is so sweet aww

How did no one else in Ameera's house get sick though?

Angela looking so adorable wow what a pretty baby

the real million $ question is, will we ever see Mrs B? Probs not Lmaoo

Still waiting for the day Timothy Turner has an angsty teen moment bc his unrealistic perfect child-ness has been going on too long

Disregarding that time he was mean to Shelagh in series 3, I won't forget it bc I wanted to smack him 😂👋🏼

*shelagh voice* Dr Turner's back to save poplar from ill health and disease

THE WAY HE LOOKS AT SHELAGH WHEN HE REALIZES IT WAS HER IN THE NURSES UNIFORM

ALSO I'm sure he realized a kink he didn't know he had lol 😭😂

tracheotomy 😬 how do they make it look so real ahhh!? wild

"..Because I have you" BYEEEE 😭😭💖💔💔💔 my heart melted into a puddle & I can no longer live

the first kiss that you can't even see !! But still it took a season & a half for the married couple to kiss!😂

Ok shh Vanessa is gonna say something profound I must hear

Who tf am i talking to? I'm losing my damn marbles

And yes that's a Hook reference

"Humanity is fragile and all the sunshine in the world can't save the frail or make the delicate invincible but love has the power to strengthen and protect and guide us to a place where we feel sheltered and fulfilled. Where it doesn't matter if it rains for we are home and dry"

UGH SUCH GOLD!!!

And Shelagh holding Angela next to Ameerah and her new baby, my heart!!

such an amazing show

The End.. until next time..