#AND ALSO 👀 and👂together. i’m looking and i’m listening

[nightsandreala]

can i say i love your usage of the pointing forward emoji (🫵)

thank you 🫵 for this ask also yes the pointing emoji is one of my favorite ones along with 🥺 and 🤝

[underthecitysky]

You opened with your song "Mexico.

"I saw that movie On the Road and I read the book years ago after my mom died. It's a very hedonistic work. [The song] is just the idea of being free and going down to Mexico and having a hedonistic time. I was conceived in Mexico – in Puerto Vallarta. I once went to Mexico City with dad, mum and the family on tour, and we were in a jet circling, and I remember looking down and looking at all the [VW] Beetles cars – which is kind of ironic.

James McCartney

I’m listening 👀👂

Also:

Tell me about your song "You and Me Individually.

"I had a bit of a meltdown and had a little bit of a spiritual epiphany. Me and my family drifted apart a bit, and then came together again. When I hit 30, we hung out more, me and my dad. I just realized how amazing he was. Ultimately, I always knew that. I think it's a coming of age thing as well.

Maybe you took him for granted a little bit?

“Yeah, and the older I get I realize what a legend he is. I think it's like wine – maturing – isn't it?”

Credit to The McCartney Photo Blog (x)

(I think this originally appeared in Rolling Stone 2013)

[waitingformyfavoritesongs]

21 December 2022 Wednesday 4:39 pm pdt

{updated 22 December 2022 Thursday}

This week the heat got hotter & lasted longer. It got so hot 🥵 it hurt & I screamed from the pain & intensity. I am starting to feel scalded inside, the inner most layer of skin. I think I will be dead before new year or an end up looking like a wrinkled old woman before I’m 40 years old. 4:43. Pm pdt

a song the incubus husband wanted me to like when I was in high school 🏫, before senior year, when my mom still drove a van (the only van we ever had): incubus pardon me & I remember harder to breathe 🧘🏻‍♀️ when it came on the radio while riding in that van in blossom hill. 4:47 4:48 pm pdt

8:02 pm pdt

If this is true, he’s probably a friend of incubuses? Hpv.

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8:43 pm pdt

I believe I started listening 👂 to *NSYNC & Backstreet Boys when I was in middle school 🏫. I once got an *NSYNC cd 💿 from my middle school 🏫 when my written response was selected for a prompt the principal probably put out to I don’t remember if it was to only my grade or the whole school 🏫. I remember it was required to do interviews for some of the prompts. These groups are perhaps given a little too much trust & seem to be attracting young people. Are they marketed that way?? 8:52 pm pdt

1:36 am pdt I side with Shannon Ruth. Even though I don’t know her I think 🤔 I probably should believe her. These guys like to play games it seems. Please look 👀 at previous posts to know what I mean. 1:38 am pdt. 22 December 2022 Thursday

1:47 am pdt a lot of bad stuff happened to Britney Spears. Incubus husband is also friends with Justin (Randall?) Timberlake. They were in concert together singing 🎤🎵🎶this love ❤️? It’s on my Twitter hopefully 🙏 still. A lot of my feed was deleted by Twitter even though I think 🤔 I only started this year? 1:53 am pdt

3:23 am pdt there was a video I watched many years ago, probably 4-5 years ago? Difficult to remember. Maroon 5 was in it. Something about opening an umbrella ☔️ in the house 🏠 & superstition & karma. Adam Levine said he doesn’t believe in karma. If he is incubus husband 😖😑 then that is probably true. The karma I’ve experienced in my life is not equal. Karma is way harsher than it needs to be imo. In kindergarten I pushed my classmate because I was interested for him to be my boyfriend & I didn’t know what to say. Maybe I watched too much bongo the bear 🐻? I will have to look 👀 it up to see it the release date of the laser disc (bigger than dvd) 📀 came out if it coincides with this or the devil 😈 possessed me or tricked me. I pushed him when we were both on the grassy field, I don’t remember anything rough. He didn’t cry 😭 and he was able to get up & say I’m going to tell on you. I had no malice towards him. Only being stupid. Then years later after parents separated a boy a year younger than me pushed me from behind when I was on roller skates 🛼 and my wrist broke and I had to get a cast. Karma, if you wanted to teach me a lesson not to do it again all you had to do was not make me stupid and have someone talk to me, or maybe have him push me back after that. I remember I got scared 😱 after he said he was going to tell on me so I hid behind a storage container shed thing that was on the field. Minutes passed, and when I look I’m surprised that everyone went back to class and I didn’t notice I think like maybe change in noise levels? I remember being surprised. Anyway, I went back to class and he’s holding hands 🙌 with a girl 👧. Not crying still. For a weird reason my mom invited this same girl 👧 to go to the circus 🤡 🎪 with us. When we get back to my home she starts chasing me and I feel like she wants to kill me for some reason. 3:41 am pdt Adam Levine doesn’t believe in karma maybe because god doesn’t treat him the same as me, so maybe karma doesn’t happen for him.

3:43 am pdt also years after the skates 🛼 and the wrist in a cast I flew over my bicycle 🚲 handlebars while trying to learn how to ride without training wheels and I almost landed 🛬 on my head/face but I “luckily” pulled my head up so only my shoulders got scrapped and scabbed up. That was the first and only bicycle 🚲 I recall ever having & my parents gave it to me for Christmas 🎄 between the age of 6 & 8 years old when my size Barbie was advertised on TV 📺. 3:49 am pdt

3:51 am pdt so Jesus Christ getting punished for every one else’s sins I guess is why karma is uneven. Some people get no karma and others get it in large portions and the consequences far outweighs the offense. 3:53 am pdt

4:06 am pdt

I’m confused 🤷🏻‍♀️ about the apocalypse. Is it only me or did the internet (is it correct?) say Jesus Christ has written on his thigh a name? That means king 🤴 of kings, lord of lords. I tried looking up 🆙 some stuff. Don’t know what is correct. Adam Levine has too many stuff on his legs 🦵 already. I don’t believe there’s any room for any such tattoo. Also a picture of the text supposedly in Greek that means lord of lords doesn’t look like the word repeated twice which makes me think 🤔 that it might be mistranslated? 4:13 am pdt

5:14 am pdt I guess I didn’t remember correctly. There was a picture of something saying Jesus is lord in Greek. & I used word hippo 🦛 website to look up what lord of lords looks like in Greek. I think when I probably looked up king 🤴 of kings it looked like the same word repeated twice in the translation, yet it did not follow the same pattern when I looked up 🆙 translation for lord of lords.

also around 2004/2005 probably after I met Sagittarius ♐️ incubus friend, I thought I saw my incubus husband crossing my path in front of my home 🏠 in blossom hill south San Jose and he was looking 👀 at me like he hated me, with a stink eye 👁 type of look, snobbing me. At the time it crossed mind I think 🤔 that he looked like that guy from that band I saw on mtv. And then I forgot because I was busy and we didn’t talk and I probably had a real boyfriend at the time. Full time at community college. Also, friend of incubus said his sister lived around the block. 5:35 am pdt. 22 December 2022.

6 am pdt

I’m glad I’m not young anymore 🎼🎤🎶🎵

6:15 am pdt the incubus husband = fallen angel = devil 👿 possessed my youngest nephew while I was on the phone with my mom and sister (her son). He made him drop the phone 📱 on the ground and stomp on it while my face was on face time. After that I asked what happened and I thought I heard my sister say he accidentally smacked his head/face into the floor. I think I vaguely remember that he was crying which I think was the reason I asked. Him stomping on cell phone with image of my face -> him smacking his head on the floor = weird uneven karma. 6:20 am pdt it’s also a generational curse too probably bcz my sister had a similar thing happen to her when she was around the same age, and also her first born smacked his head really hard into the wall bcz he was holding onto the dog 🐶 and the dog stopped abruptly I think is what happened. Bad karma! My sister chased me around a glass shelf display at a clothing store 🏬 and she took a wrong turn by herself and ran into a sharp glass corner. 6:24 am pdt don’t know why karma likes to attack children as young as 1 or 2 years old. Are helmets 🪖 ⛑ a good idea 💡? 6:25 am pdt

6:54 am pdt also I think was after my parents separated: before 4th grade picture day I reluctantly tried to do a cherry 🍒 drop from the highest bar on the school 🏫 playground at the request of my best friend at the time. I don’t know 🤷🏻‍♀️ how tall it was. I was short and it was tall to me. I remember feeling scared but doing it anyway and dropping face flat into the tan bark, which was probably the only thing between me and the concrete ground. I probably was between 3-4 feet tall ? I don’t remember. The bars had 3 tiers side by side each taller than the next. I was able to reach the shortest one first grade year and I fell off of that too upside down I think face first, too. It might have been 6+ feet tall. My chin and nose 👃 got cut when I tried the cherry 🍒 drop. while my mom and I played catch with a softball 🥎 while she dated a guy when I was in middle school 🏫 I think it was? I stupidly looked away for a moment and at the moment I turned my head back the ball met my eye! I got a black eye 👁! 7:05 am pdt

high school 🏫 in late 2000 I think 🤔, I hit my head very hard into stainless steel frames/beams of futon black bed. It hurt a lot! The next morning I forgot I was sleeping 🛌 in the bunk bed, had difficulty opening my eyes and waking up 🆙 and before opening my eyes 👀 I finally popped up my upper body/head in bed and hit my head again! On top of my head again against stainless steel (it was painted 🎨 black, probably should not say stainless??)

oh also in middle school 🏫 8th grade year I was punched in the head at the very top by a classmate who l didn’t talk to much or know. She seemed to hate me even though we never talked before that. I remember my vision blackout for a minute or more after one of the punches 🤛 2-3 punches. It hurt a lot! But I sat there and took it without retaliating. She had very thick wrists. Very strong 💪 punches.

and the weird thing is I got punched again I think 🤔 in October 2011 by my 9/10 year old cousin who will eat a whole pizza 🍕 by herself if you let her I heard from her herself her dad would buy her a whole pizza 🍕! I didn’t see it though. Anyway I think her shoe size might have been the same as mine (that’s what I remember her saying, although I now I don’t remember if I checked) at the time even though she was shorter than me. She punched me exactly the same way that I was punched in middle school 🏫. After that my memory started going, I had difficulty staying awake indoors at work one day or more? I think I did not feel very well after staying at work late during tax season? I got laid off from my job a year after that. I had difficulty with sleeping 🛌 I think and it was difficult for me to change my schedule and get to work earlier so I stayed until late. Oh after middle school I had developed the tendency to look down a lot, after getting punched.

going back to high school 🏫 those weren’t the only times I hit my head. I don’t remember how many times. At least 3xs on the bunk bed very hard. Probably more than that but I don’t remember. And then senior starting from when my mom got a new old 🚘 car that looks like it was made with all metal exterior and plastic interior the summer before senior year started, probably august? I hit my head on that probably 3+ times, too, and it hurt a lot!!!! And I remember not feeling normal after that especially. I don’t think I felt normal for a long time after each thing happened. My head trauma is probably a generational curse, too, starting with my aunt on my dad’s side at the least. 7:34 am pdt in college In late 2005 probably? I tested at the community college for learning disability and I got help for reading 📖. Because I probably had attention disorder undiagnosed?? I’ll I can say is I had issues and comprehension problems with reading textbooks 📚. I would try to read and I have to read the same line over and over and over again and I would not remember the whole sentence sometimes, sometimes I can’t comprehend what ideas they are trying to communicate, & often my mind would drift off sometimes thinking about things my dad said. reading non-textbooks books is easy. A lot of non-textbook books seems are written to be easily understood in comparison??? After the Learning disability tests I was given cd-roms with copies of my textbooks on it so I could paste the text into a computer program that read it to me in a computer voice. Somehow that helped a LOT!!! It’s strange. In community college I took college success summer online and failed because it was too much reading 📖 in too short a time. I also took speed reading and comprehension - and that I think helped me, too (taught me that I needed to group words into phrases and use my finger like a moving bookmark under each phrase versus individual words) - and learning strategies that they I think they enrolled me in it? Or they told me to and I did it myself, after the tests. 8:01 am pdt

8:18 am pdt “hot” “ I can’t take this” 🎼🎶🎵 8:19 am pdt

incubus husband’s signs look like they could mean something nice sometimes but usually it ends up disappointing me and hurting me A LOT! 😖😞😭😭😭😭🥵🥵🥵🥵 8:21 am pdt I can never expect anything nice or kind from him. He takes what he wants when he wants and leave you high and dry. 8:23 am pdt he will put on a show and then fake you out. 8:25 am pdt I.e. serenade, give jewelry (it will look expensive but it’s probably not), say he will do nice things, does nice things for show in front of the camera 📸, say he’s in love 😍, then turn around and hurt you in anyway he possibly can (when no one is looking, especially cheat/slide in other women’s dms). 8:31 am pdt and incubus has super powers so he can leap tall buildings in a single bound, fly higher than a plane ✈️, faster than a locomotive/train 🚂 . He can probably fly like a ghost 👻 halfway around the world 🌎 every night and take you on a magic carpet ride. After he’s told the whole world that he loves you, he will “get away” to see his side chick 🐣. Bcz what is Love ❤️? Baby don’t hurt me don’t hurt me no more 🎵 do not swear on the moon 🌙 the inconstant moon 🌝 Romeo is fickle. No cap 🧢 you let? A few days ago this came to me after seeing a caption saying “no cap” 🧢 months ago. Probably June ? 8:38 am pdt if you have looked at behati’s Instagram you might find a picture of Leonardo DiCaprio as Romeo the true love tattoos on his fingers. 8:41 am pdt. 16 of September this year incubus husband tried to break my neck bones 🦴 apart. It was brutal. It hurt a lot. It felt like he was trying to decapitate me at least 3xs. 😭😭😭😭😵😵😵😵😖😖😖😖🥵🥵🥵🥵 8:44 am pdt

celebrity men are scary. Tom cruise romanced Katie Holmes . I hope the incubus wasn’t gas lighting me on it. He jumped on Oprah’s couch 🛋 and said he’s in love I heard ? Tone of their first dates they took a helicopter or flew somewhere? Where was that again? I heard a rumor that when giving birth 🤰 you cannot make any noise as a Scientologist?? To get divorced she had to sneak away and she was on a weird contract when got divorced that she was not allowed 🚫 to show that she moved on and had secretly dated people like Jamie fox 🦊?? Tom cruise might look real happy and nice, and do a Donald Duck 🦆 impression, but something seems ... scary. 8:52 am pdt.

9:24 am pdt also 2008 or 2009? I went for a walk and I think I found the maroon 5 tour bus 🚌 maybe 🤔 possibly but I’m not sure 🤔 I think it was near the grrreek theater 🎭??? Nothing happened that I know of while I was there. 9:26 am pdt

🎤🎵🎼bing bang I say the whole gang. I didn’t know there was a party going oooon 9:27 am pdt

10:26 am pdt

After I wrote the last part he cute the bones 🦴 of my little toes again 😖😖😖😖 this month he grated the top left part of my brain 🧠 and poured acid on it from the way it felt at least 3xs this month. So you know, I don’t really have any reason to hold back. Because he’s gone this far. Burning me alive until my skin hurts and I scream from the heat and pain. He plans to kill me. What can I do. Also I think he creates a lot of imitation accounts pretending to be Chilean to drive down my friend’s comments. Because they all ignore her, act like they don’t care about human trafficking. Maybe they’re guilty of it. I think I read they got prostitution there, too. Something about Justin Bieber. The initial story was with an actual picture that he had spent the night with a prostitute and for some reason she felt like posting a picture of him sleeping with I think she was in the picture, too??? I wish I could remember what I saw on the news online. Years ago probably before he got engaged. 10:34 am pdt.

11:06 am pdt I did not type cute. That was auto correct with the demon lord incubus husband control. He’s I think secretly narcissist. Isn’t dame woman in French? Notre dame. Adame Levine. A= to da=he give? Me, a dame. Maybe 🤔 that’s what Adam means. Or maybe only a dame. he likes to dress 👗 in drag. Too bad Maryka has no clothing he can borrow. 11:12 am pdt I think he’s going to get bored if he can’t have any clothing to play with. 11:13 am pdt. Because he does what he wants when he wants. 11:13 am pdt 11:15 am pdt incubus husband messed with my cell phone time11:15 am it went from 11:13 to 11:15 am pdt. 😑I wanted a wrist watch ⌚️ so I can compare the time I case he would mess with it but he controls my mom and she always has an excuse not to get a new battery for my old wrist watch. 11:18 am pdt I suspected that he would and could do it. Now I see it getting messed up 🆙. 11:19 am pdt 11:20 am pdt he keeps on burning me until I screamed. I guess he doesn’t want Maryka to ever get clothing for him to borrow. 11:22 am pdt

11:44 am pdt I have family that lives in SoCal because my grandparents moved there after World War II. Ever since I was little until I was 18? We visited maybe 2 times a year. 11:46 am pdt lots of chances for incubus husband to get to know me. Maybe he was forced to by his incubus parents. Now that he’s older he does what he wants. Without me. Forever. 😖😭😖😭😖😭😖😭😵😵😵😵 11:48 am pdt

12:34 pm pdt my sister caught up to me and I think she might have been taller than me by the time she graduated middle school 🏫 she also started wearing thongs when she was 14 years old. When she graduated middle college she wore a green cap and gown 👩‍🎓 like that picture I thought I saw Adam Levine posted of that stranger things actor with the rings 💍 and his middle fingers r 🖕 🖕 up 🆙. I hope incubus isn’t gas lighting me on this. And she looks like Kiera knightly and they I think there was a make out 💋 scene with him and Kiera. And I remember when we lived at blossom hill south San Jose one summer morning we woke up to find the door 🚪 not locked 🔒 and it was a metal safety screen? type of door. I wonder if incubus husband raped my youngest sister for years? Maybe since she was 14???? I also once suggested to her to spend the summer at our uncle’s in SoCal on her own to work in his newly purchased sandwich 🥪 shop before she turned 16. For some reason my mom accidentally gave my uncle my social security number instead of hers, so that’s misleading 😑🤬🥵. I wonder if that served any purpose in deception for the future? Whenever people saw us when she started going to high school 🏫 people thought she was older than me. 😑 12:47 pm pdt 12:48 pm pdt 🥵🔥♨️

1:04 pm it was a story, not a post, around July 8 ? this year. Somehow I the last line got deleted and had to rewrite. 1:05 pm pdt

1:07 1:08 pm pdt I think her husband’s first name is John , like John and Virgin Mary in the Bible. 😑🥵😡🥵😡😖😭😭😭😭 1:10 pm pdt

1:39 pm pdt he has torn away at a lot of my bones 🦴 and my whole body has shrunk/sawed/whittled and deformed, abused everything including flesh/muscle/skin. I formerly had long monkey 🐒 arms that probably would have been good for holding a baby 👶 but I don’t think I ever did? I was always too afraid for various reasons, one of those being I accidentally dropped a toddler when I was I think 7th grade? (1:48 pm pdt reminds me of Adam on Ellen, throwing a little girl into the air and catching her. Which felt like an attack from the incubus husband. I’m not perfect. There are things I regret I did. And I’m hoping all things I did wrong did not damage anything or anyone. 1:52 if I did damage anyone karma got me back 100 to a million times fold and I’m sorry. I’m a coward in every way. And karma probably got me back before I ever did anything. I think some stuff was prepaid 1:54 pm pdt.) I caught her in time before she hit the ground but she got scared 😱 of me because of that. I thought she was adorable and I carried her even though the daycare lady warned me not to. 1:45 pm pdt I cannot believe in something I have no proof of, and when I have proof proving the contrary: the abuse of my body and me. I have no husband and therefore I have no offspring. I will try to ween myself off of saying incubus husband 1:48 pm pdt.