#ALSO Y'ALL SHOULD READ SHARK HEART

[nidstiniens]

What's your favorite part of Nara and Estinien's relationship? What's the hardest part to write for them?

*screams* omg tysm for asking ♥️

god, there are so many things that i love about them, i'm not sure how to pick just one. they're my first endgame ship, and my first ship with a happily ever after, and there hasn't been a single thing i've put them through that they haven't been able to climb back out of. and... i don't think there is anything i could put them through that they wouldn't recover from (eventually), which gives me a lot of freedom to work with.

i feel like i tend to gravitate towards ships that start out more cosmic and fate-driven (if that makes sense) and the fact that they're so grounded while still being able to cater to my love for star-crossed lovers, soulmates, broken people finding their missing pieces, etc just... i don't know, makes me fall in love with them all over again every time i write. i'm immediately reminded of a quote from shark heart by emily habeck:

"Feelings fled under pressure; feelings did not light the darkness. What remained strong in the deep, the hard times, was love as an effort, a doing, a conscious act of will. Soulmates [...] were not theoretical and found. They were tangible, built."

this is also my first time writing a friends-to-lovers ship (i've always been an enemies-to-lovers person) and GOD why did no one tell me about all the mutual pining i could have been writing all these years??

the hardest part to write for them is probably anything fluffy, but that's mostly because i'm so angst-oriented and conflict-driven that fluff is just difficult for me to write in general. also, while nara wears her heart on her sleeve, estinien is more show-don't-tell with his feelings, so it's a challenge coming up with situations that don't involve angst or a misunderstanding for those feelings to get communicated.

SORRY i don't think you expected a novel but i never get asks for them outside of ask games so i'm like MASSIVE heart eyes @ you right now 😍

[38sr]

How did you get your first job in animation. Specifically in storyboarding

Industry Q

Ooooooh my first storyboard gig....hm, technically it would have been for the Nick Artist Program since I was a storyboard trainee which I go into detail in this previous ask. But I never told the story how I got my first revisionist job after the Program. Sadly, it's not as eventful as getting into Marvel or the Nick Artist Program. But I'm willing to share haha. - So around April/May of 2020, the Nick Artist Program (which I will call NAP for the rest of this post 'cause it's too long to type haha) was gearing up to place the trainees onto productions once our 6 month training period was up. For those who don't know, NAP is a 6 month training program at Nickelodeon where you get trained in your respective track (Storyboard, General Design, CG) by being assigned to a production and a mentor. Normally, NAP trainees get hired after the 6 months by their assigned production or a completely different production if there is an availability (recruitment usually helps with this transition). However, there are instances that trainees don't get hired and move on to a different studio. I am one of those instances. So at the time, I had learned that Rugrats (the production I was assigned to) didn't have an opening for a revisionist anytime soon. So my mentor and I worked together to find another production I could jump on. After asking around, I managed to get a test for the Baby Shark show over at Nick Jr. It was the only production that was looking for revisionists because they were using Adobe Flash and not Storyboard Pro. I knew Flash so I took the test....and I got offered the job. The only thing was....I just didn't feel excited to work on Baby Shark. By no means I'm trying to downplay Baby Shark. If that's the type of show you wanna work on, go for it. But I just knew it wasn't for me. Sure, I would have a steady paycheck and job security for more than a year (yeah preschool don't play y'all). But my heart wasn't in the project when I was taking the test. So, I sat down with my mentor and told him how I felt. I apologized so many times 'cause I felt like I wasted his time and effort...and I was really torn about not wanting a job that didn't speak to me as an artist. And in that moment, he actually praised me for being honest not just to him but to myself as an artist. Sometimes...

Sometimes it's hard to say no to a job. You don't know where the paycheck is coming from, you got bills to pay, living becomes more and more expensive by the second. Sometimes you feel like you can't risk saying no because you have to survive. So you take what you can get, hustle while still trying get to where you want to be. But it's also okay to not say yes to the first thing that approaches you. Often times when it happens once it will happen again and it keep going. Of course, I didn't really learn this lesson wholeheartedly until a year later when I was hired to work at Marvel (you can read that story in this previous ask). But it still felt good to hear that it's okay to pursue projects that will challenge you creatively and make you excited. Sometimes we gotta work that one job just for the paycheck. But as an artist, you deserve to work on projects that bring you joy and growth. So, after that I finished the Program and left Nickelodeon. Even though it should have been a scary moment, I remember feeling at peace with my decision and just hit the ground running again with applying. I did it before and I can do it again haha. It wasn't until 2-3 weeks after finishing NAP that I received an email from Titmouse about if I'd be interested interviewing for a revisionist position. I agreed and the show turned out to be Star Trek: Lower Decks and I got to speak with Barry Kelly (Supervising Director) and Benjamin Kaltenecker (Line Producer, and yes my Voltron fans it's that Kaltenecker). We ended talking 30 minutes over the scheduled time since we were having so much fun chatting about Star Trek, anime, animation in general! Apparently, they found my website online and thought I would be a good fit so they requested an interview. I wanna say 1-2 days after the interview I got an offer to work on the show and that's how I ended up at Titmouse for almost 2 years haha. That pretty much sums up how I got my first storyboard (revisionist) gig after NAP and I'm sorry it's not has grand as Marvel haha. But I think that experience taught me a lot about how I should allow myself to be creatively satisfied in my day job. Granted, now that it's been 3 months since I've been laid off from Marvel (as of this post) I do work a bunch of freelance gigs to just pay my bills. But sometimes it be like that. Though going forward, I hope I'll continue to work on productions that excite me and push me to improve. I hope that answered your question!

[pinkcandycat]

Loco-over-Rocos: The Biggest Journeys... Yet - Chapter 1

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~~~PROLOGUE~~~ Y'all remember playing video games in the past that were very popular and very underrated. Well you can! You may play various video game ports like Nintendo Switch, PS5 or XBox Series X or S. But that's not all! We'll be going waayy back since the late-2000s, the nostalgia, the kidcore, everything.

Check out this adorable video game featuring jumping, fun-loving, bouncing candies or gumballs called "LocoRoco" which is basically for girls or maybe kids like that. Bet ya know, after you play the game and the sequel, you watch a random magical girl anime called "Cocotama" or "Catch! Teenieping" then playing "Animal Crossing: New Horizons".

After you found out... There is something, you started to play "Undertale '' for the first time until you draw the LocoRocos as humans in Undertale style. Then you sleep, and you have a dream about the humans you drew. It's been a long time for that...

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~~~Chapter 1 - Getting to Know Them... Greetings to Euphoria~~~ Wanna read the story? If so let's start! These not-so fellas were LocoRocos! They're almost like humanoids right away so yeah, you know about them! (they now also have animal companions/or "pets" and to the official descriptions here by @pencakesstuff)

what abt our lil heroes?? 💛Kulche: 3 yrs, 1′3″💛 the soon to be guardian of Perculoka!! very curious, often gets into trouble that way! keeps trying to make friends with everything even if it trys to kill him ;O; should be too young to go on missions, but his unique ability to understand all languages is very useful so they bring him along anyways~ -animal companion: syrian hamster -sea animal companion: dumbo octopus

💜Viole: 17 yrs, 5′8″💜 the guardian of Kelapton!! very ride or die and luvs to jump into the heat of battle!! not scared of the mojas at all, thinks of them like a joke~ takes things seriously when it matters tho! -weapon of choice: guns -animal companion: betta -sea animal companion: jellyfish

💗Priffy: 21 yrs, 4′8″💗 the guardian of Franzea!! very serious, apathetic and sarcastic~ despite being a negative nancy all the time she does care a lot for her friends!! spends a lot of her time caring for Kulche n whatnot, he is her top priority!! -weapon of choice: crossbow -animal companion: sparrow -sea animal companion: dolphin ❤Pekerone: 19 yrs, 5′6″❤ the guardian of Tropuca!! very smart but very cowardly~ usually just tries planning strategys! kinda crazy and erratic too, likes to drink moja blood O~O  -weapon of choice: machete -animal companion: european rabbit -sea animal companion: red crab

🖤Budzi: 20 yrs, 11′7″🖤 the guardian of Dolangomeri!! a moja rly, but has lived on Euphoria for his entire life~ despite not being a locoroco hes still been recruited by the world heart to protect the world!!! might seem kinda mean and aggressive but at heart hes rly a softie! has to be very careful when fighting bc, since hes not a locoroco, he cannot just be reborn when he dies, his death would be permanent ;O; -weapon of choice: battle axe -animal companion: border collie -sea animal companion: great white shark

💚Chavez: 21 yrs, 6′7″💚 the guardian of Shamplin!! very serious just like his twin sister but not so mean abt it~ luvs guarding the world and gives it his all!! kind of a scaredy-cat but usually pulls thru anyways~ -weapon of choice: spear -animal companion: tree frog/green frog -sea animal companion: sea green turtle

💙Tupley: 43 yrs, 4′2″💙 the guardian of Chapo-Wahr!! the oldest of the locorocos, very mature and wise~ still kinda goofy tho despite it :> knows a lot of stuff, taught the locorocos abt defending the world and how to care for it :D -weapon of choice: shield -animal companion: persian cat -sea animal companion: blue whale

Now there you have it, you knew them right now. And thanks for stoppin' bye! There will be more soon. "This is gonna be great!" said Kulche happily as his pet hamster peeks up.

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[feitansluver]

WOAHH ok so those machi hc's were just so in-character ?? I was reading down the list and I was just like 'yup yup, I agree with that, yup' the whole time. you're a really good writer and it shows wow !! may I ask for the same dating hc's but for feitan :D

Author's Note: AHHH! thank you so much, darling. I'm such a perfectionist when it comes to my portrayals of anime characters, so to hear that is a relief. I adore writing for Feitan ahh, I love this request. (that's why this one is so long omg). Keep on the lookout for a Feitan x Reader series starting on here really soon. Anywho, enjoy! Reblogs, hearts, and constructive criticism are always appreciated.

Feitan: General Dating Headcanons

to put it plain and simple: feitan's a bitch. he's not a heartfelt person, and he is SO brutally honest, it's insane. it's a hard to make this man catch feelings, or to even catch feelings for him.

he's so loyal to the troupe, so very loyal to the point he WILL NOT date a troupe member. but he also won't date your average joe.

basically, what i'm getting at is that you have to be from meteor. in fact, that's probably where you two met. meteor city before the troupe was created.

the reason I say this is because feitan is not going to date someone he sees as socially above him. he's also not going to date someone who's more vulnerable than him. now, having a s/o from meteor is a for sure sign in his own mind that they can and will be alright when he's away.

now that I've cleared that up, onto the actual dating headcanons:

In meteor, feitan most likely realized he felt something with you, however, it wasn't really enough to make him stay and/or confess to you in that time before the troupe had left. regardless if you two were friends or not, he left w/o saying anything, that's for sure. he justifies this by saying he doesn't like saying goodbye, but the real reason is he doesn't really enjoy seeing you upset.

Alright, well, Jojo, if we don't get together in meteor, then when do we link?

A day or so after the Kurta Massacre.

Yes, that was many years after the troupe was banded, however this time period is so important for the development of y'all's soon to be relationship. It was during that time that Feitan realized that he really couldn't be away from you. He missed you so much, it was unbearable for him, truly.

He'll never admit this, but he actually went to shalnark several times to try and find you, but would change his mind (and cuss out sir shark) after hearing shal's relentless teasing.

back to what I was saying, it was the day after the massacre, and the troupe had already gone their separate ways. Feitan was walking through that town that was outside of the clan grounds (the one shown for the kurta trials in the phantom rouge movie.), and there he spotted you.

God he couldn't believe how stunning you were. He stood there staring at you, contemplating whether he should actually go up to you or not. Before he could make a decision however, you went and noticed him.

"Feitan... Is that really you?"

After a small confession on his end, (I won't go into too much detail, but basically he kinda just grabbed your wrist firmly and dragged you with him, mumbling a short "I missed you, y/n." as he took you back to his abode.) you two ended up together ta daaaaa!

When you two first started dating, he wasn't super comfortable around you since it was more like that awkward talking phase, but he would listen to everything you had to say and commit everything he deemed useful to memory.

He wouldn't talk too much about himself, only telling you bits and pieces of his troupe work. (yes, you know what he does, he just doesn't go into detail because he prefers to focus on you when home.)

Feitan is okay with cuddling. He's not super against it, but he isn't excited about it. He'll do it with enough begging or if he notices you're upset about something.

On that same note, he's so good about detecting your emotions. I believe this is because he can read body language and facial expressions well, being a master torturer after all.

Good luck with trying to get this man to sleep with you. It's not that he doesn't love you, it's simply just a preference after living in Meteor and trust issues. Either you two have separate beds in the same room, or two rooms connected with a large doorway (w/o the door ofc). He'll cuddle on either the couch or the same bed w you, even watch movies on the same bed, but never sleep on the same bed and that will not change.

His love language is acts of service and quality time.

He's the type of guy to always make you breakfast in bed whenever he's home, simply because he's awake at the crack of dawn. that and he loves you but mainly the dawn thing.

Feitan enjoys watching movies with you, but it's only those really boring documentaries about old art periods and gothic literature, maybe some translated Russian literature as well. However, feitan will sit and watch a movie you'd like to watch as long as you play w/ his hands or hair. He adores the feeling, it relaxes him quite a bit to the point where he will not complain.

He keeps you away from the troupe for a good amount of time, but eventually Phinks and Shalnark will show up at you two's house while he's out for a few hours.

This brings me to my jealousy headcanons for fei. He's SO jealous of anyone who you keep your eyes on for more than a few seconds. He's not insecure at all, he just doesn't like the thought of you being with anyone besides himself.

That's why when he sees Phinks flirting with you since he has no idea you're with Feitan and Shalnark doing the same, knowingly, to get on Feitan's nerves, he kicks them out in two seconds and throws you over his shoulder to spend time together on the couch.

When Feitan's away, he leaves his cowl, to be specific the one with the red wing-like design besides the skull. (he has his other one w/o the red wings so he's okay.) He likes the way you look in it and knows you like it too. It's a token for you to remember him by, since you cannot reach him by phone when he's away. (for your safety.)

Speaking of safety, if you have not learned nen yet, he's teaching you right away. He hates having to explain things w/ the whole language barrier, but he'll do it for you and you only. I'm not kidding, he may seem a bit harsh w the constant working out, but it's for your own good. You need to be able to protect yourself from nen users when he's away.

Speaking of his speech, he hates if you mention it or try and imitate his accent/way of speaking. I'm serious, he may just ignore you for a few days to a week depending on how severe your teasing was. Once you sincerely apologize, he'll spoil you with attention to make up for lost time.

OOO, he'll cook you traditional food that he remembers being made by whomever taught him his first language. if you try to comment on it, he says:

" yes yes… less talk-ing… more eat-ing, s/o. or else i'll… eat for you." (I typed like that so you could imagine his voice, yw:'))

When he's home, he keeps the cowl off after you pester him about it so many times. He actually gets really flustered from compliments, but only his ears turn red, which is under his hair so.

Feitan does not use the phrase "I love you" sparingly, but he always says it before he leaves for a mission, regardless if you're awake to hear it or not.

Contrary to popular belief, he doesn't care that he's short. He doesn't even notice half the time because he's so used to it. He sees it as a combat advantage lol. If you are taller than him, he'll just snicker if you make a /good/ short joke, otherwise he'll just roll his eyes in annoyance.

To wrap this up, Feitan is a great boyfriend. He may have his own stoic ways of doing things, but he makes sure you're aware you're cared for no matter what. He loves you just as much as he cherishes the troupe.

END!

[tessatechaitea]

Wonder Twins #7

I didn't realize the Wonder Twins were Gen X.

Oh yeah! Zan had just saved the world by stopping a plot that was going to save the world.

I just realized I hadn't scanned the cover yet and as I did, I noticed the Wonder Twins fist/star emblem marks a striking resemblance to a goat.se riff. Zan and Jayna get taken off of monitor duty at the Hall of Justice now that they've stopped the League of Annoyance. You'd think that doing a good job would get you a promotion but those of use who have always done spectacularly good jobs know better. While everybody else works down to the lowest common denominator (because who wants to do more work than the next guy?! A fool, that's who!), good workers just put on blinders and do the job they were hired for until the time they're being paid for is up. Sure, that sounds like I'm describing a sucker who's been completely manipulated by the man! But I'm also describing a person who fulfills their end of whatever bargain they've agreed to! So when I say Zan and Jayna wind up giving tours at the Hall of Justice because they were too good at catching criminals, you'll understand why I went into the previous digression. Maybe? I don't know. Have you seen what state the U.S. is in?! Why are you picking apart my writing style?! Mark Russell takes a few pages to shit all over hockey fans and now I hate Mark Russell with a burning passion. Even though I'd hardly call myself a hockey fan. I mean, I loved NHL '93 (unless it was '92 (or maybe '94?)) and I loved going to San Jose Sharks games when I was still living in the Bay Area (plus my friend worked equipment for the Sharks and would get us free tickets). But it's not like I follow it much anymore. I just like the feeling of being angry at somebody for writing a satirical critique of sports fans rioting because they're so happy that their team won. Although why would I be angry when I've never done that nor think Russell's wrong in his pointed and humorous critique?! Oh, who cares why! Being angry is just more fun! Oh shit! I finally understand people's attraction to Fox News! I just watched a YouTube clip of somebody's Jeremy Roenick highlights from NHL '94 set to the song "More Than a Feeling" and it was pretty awesome. Also, that was definitely the one we played nonstop back in 1993 and 94 and maybe even into 95. Roenick unstoppable down with the puck while Sharks players lay splayed out on their back all across the ice. To stop the riot, Superman calls in Repulso! He's a guy whose super power is super stink and he's kept in a locked room with a bare table and a microwave and nobody wants to be his friend because he smells like a garbage dumb that vomited on top of the diarrhea it shit out while standing on its head so the stanky muck ran down his body absorbing all of his body odor and then somebody cut up a durian and tossed it in the mix.

Superman is a dick. Get this guy some friends with no sense of smell. Or at the very least, an Xbox Gold account.

After the hockey riots, some "the end of the world" riots take place because Zan and Jayna screw up something or other. Basically what that means is that Repulso gets to be let out of his airtight containment unit again! He's a pretty optimistic guy for being sealed away by Superman (which is just Superman's way! Is somebody a problem? No problem! Put them in the Phantom Zone!). He's so happy and not bitter about his living arrangements that I feel like Zan and Jayna had better figure out a way to give him a better life before this issue ends. Because if Mark Russell fails this character he created before this issue is over and I have to face reality after snot crying about a fictional person, I'm going to be pretty upset when I continue to buy Mark Russell comic books because what other choice do I have? Am I going to stop reading DC's best written comic books because Mark Russell betrayed poor Repulso? Of course not! What am I? A person with integrity?! Repulso winds up getting his ass beat by rioters as Repulso's handlers flee the chaotic "end of the world" downtown riot scene. Luckily the Wonder Twins are headed downtown to save his life and maybe become his friend or something? Please? After Zan and Jayna save Repulso, Jayna goes to Superman to tell him everything sucks. He gives her a big speech about how being a hero is lonely work because you don't always get to fuck the hot chick at your secret identity's workplace and also fuck an Amazon warrior while also getting to fuck anybody at all whose initials are "L.L." and also have a best friend who is the coolest guy in the world with a butler who makes the best pancakes. Sometimes you're a fat jerk who smells who even Superman won't fucking give the time of day because Superman has this speech about how being a hero is lonely and that's a good thing so you should embrace your loneliness because who wants to put up with your super stink, fatty?

Jayna is a way better hero than Superman. At least in this comic book that's all about her and not Superman so of course she's going to outshine him!

Oh yeah, the ant in the above picture is Jayna. It can't smell. Wonder Twins #7 Rating: A+. I should probably be less cynical when reading Mark Russell comic books because he's as earnest and serious as he can be while also providing lots of jokes. He takes writing seriously because what else is there? If your message isn't going to matter, why bother? (is his philosophy. I think. It's not my philosophy! I don't think? Maybe it is! I just write things that matter in a much different way than Mark Russell writes things that matter.) I should probably read Superman's speech and be inspired by the idea that you don't do good because you want adulation; you do good because it's the right thing to do, even if the entire world thinks you're an asshole for doing it. Even if all of the other superheroes think you're a stinky fuck and only keep you around to use as a tool to oppress and manipulate the masses without having to use logic and reason on them (because, let's face it, the people doing terrible things don't understand logic and reason. Or they're do but they're just selfish and greedy so nothing is going to reach them anyway (which maybe is part of Superman's message?)), you're still a hero at the end of the day. You can still be proud of your stinky self. And even if the life is lonely, you should remain positive and upbeat because Superman really doesn't want to be reminded that you exist every time you complain about the lack of reasonable living conditions. Being a hero is a state of mind, says the guy who also looks great and is invulnerable and has the best wife and a cool son and doesn't have to fear death! So inspiring!

[alex-baebae]

Immaculate

Chapter 22

TOP's point of view

The next day I was going take a shower, I could still hear that guys laughing. She was going to take me to those places, she needed money.

"Look at you" she held my face smiling she forced me to look at myself through the mirror "you are so dumb sometimes, you know..." she chucked "does this hurts?" Her grab got tighter, she didn’t loose it. tears fell on the dirty sink, I sobbed it actually hurt a lot.

“Please..” I tried to beg, she laughed “oh my God, you’re such a funny stuff” she commented “what about if I touch you here?” she buried her fingers slowly on my tummy “ahhg” I sobbed hard then, my breath was heavy.

I thought about begging for not being beaten again but that could annoy her more as always, then she grabbed my hair “you should wash properly your body” she pushed me, I was already naked under the shower. The cold water made me shiver.

"My angel" a voice called me. That magical voice always makes me feel better. _____ was home, I put my tablet on the sofa and I ran towards her "____" I hugged her from behind.

"Sweetie!!" She turned around she hugged me back, she put her beautiful arms on my shoulders. "I missed you!" I said "I missed you too, sweetheart" she kissed my face many times.

Months ago whenever I hear a door being opened I got scared to the point I could hear my heart beating... but now, it is different I had never imagined that someday hearing a door being opened could make me so happy.

"Let's go for the jacuzzi!!!" she said "are you hungry?" She asked looking into my eyes "no" I said "what about you?" my turn for kissing her face "neither" she told me.

I took the origami I had made for her from a small table "this is for you!" I said exited to see her reaction "oh, it so amazing. Thank you sweetie!" She hugged me again "it contains a small letter inside" she was surprised "oh! A letter, can I read it know?" She asked me "yes!".

'I can't believe a person like you is real, you are so kind, intelligent and pretty.

Thanks a lot for taking care of me, I've never be so happy.

Seunghyun'

She read the letter, she was crying "ah, sorry I didn't mean to make you cry!" I was panicked "N-no, it is just so lovely... what you wrote, I'm not crying, I just..." she hugged me tight as before, I hugged her waist "thank you, my sweet sweet angel" was she happy? I guess I had never seen a reaction like that.

Everything slowly became better, even doing the housework... of course ____ didn't allow me to do many things because I could got injured, so I had more time for gardening.

"What do you think about this one?" I just nodded "so we are going to choose one, could you give us a minute?" she asked to guy who was showing us the tubs.

"So... Which one do you like?" she asked me "I don't know, which do you like it the most?"

I loved when we did things like buying furniture and doing the shopping, she held my hands all the time. When people didn't see she hugged me or kissed me, she knew I felt embarrassed when someone saw us like that, it's not like I didn't like it, but I don't know why I feel that way. She really cared about me, I was falling for her hardly...

I enjoyed a lot spending time with her but also I got pretty nervous. When she got home I felt the same nervousness. I didn't want to stay near to her because I thought I could do something stupid or that she will notice it... That I was in love with her. However, at the same time I didn't want to be far from her I wanted to be as close as possible to her being, to her body, as close as possible to her soul...

I wanted her to know it.

'But this is real life not a movie and what could her think about me? She's only helping me, maybe someday she will tell me to leave the house... After all, who would like to be with a thing like me? She even didn't want to use me, I’m not a human, I'm nasty'.

After some hours we were at home, three guys were installing the jacuzzi. We were eating the cake I've made for her "you really cook delicious food!" She complimented me "thank you, I did my best" I feel better when she tells me good things about what I do or who I am.

Then I thought that if I confessed to her she wouldn't be rude, how can she ever be rude?

I wanted to confess, I wanted it badly but in an appropriate time to. "Honey" I called her "yes?" She smiled at me "l... I want to show you something" I guided her to the garden "I've planted this roses for you" I was nervous for her reaction again "really, for me?" She seemed happy, I nodded "no one has ever done anything like this for me, thanks you" she hugged me, it seemed that all the punishments became hugs.

This time the hug felt different, now she was letting me 'protect' her, I don't know how to describe it. One day I tried to hug her this way, when she was stressed, I tried to do the same when I had nightmares or when I was scared, but she rejected me.

I knew also that I was not in conditions of being able to protect her, 'but at least I will protect your feelings, your happiness, your heart' I though while I kissed her hair.

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Many months after I found him he seemed to be a new person, I was proud. In one year I was going to graduate, and I would start to work full-time in our company. Maybe... You are thinking about what the hell was going on with my feelings for him, well... It was still difficult, because I didn't want him to felt 'forced' to love me. I mean, I was supporting him, he was living in my house, so he could felt that way.

I also though that the things he used to do for me were only made due to pure thankfulness. So, I didn't believe that he was doing it because he was afraid or he was too shy for telling me about his feelings for me, I he had any.

When he hugged me in the garden while he showed me the flowers he planned for me, I felt like in heaven. All my life I had to be strong, I had never experienced such a nice feeling, the feeling of being protected.

Of course I felt the protection of my parents but it was until I graduated from Primary School. Then I had to move to the city, my aunt was there but you know not as many time as I could've wished.

Perhaps you are thinking about that one of my parents could had gone with me, but believe me they had so much work to do at the countryside that I asked my father to not go with me and better help my mom.

So since I was young I had to take care of myself, that's why when someone wanted to made me feel protected I used to reject it somehow. I didn't accepted it although it was from my friends like Josh, don't misunderstand it, he's not in love with me, he had been in love with a girl who he had never talked to. I guess he's afraid like me.

My birthday was soon but I forgot it because I was working at the company, by the way, please, don't tell my mom about this... Well and the university... I had to think about a tesis.

I remembered it was my birthday until we went to Neal's house. That day TOP insisted on going to the varsity with me so I did.

"Happy birthday to you!!, Happy birthday to you!!" My friends and TOP we singing to me "happy birthday, ____!!! Happy birthday to youuuuuu!" Josh exaggerated the last part, we laughed all together.

The party was good we eat a lot as usual, we had fun, then Neal took us to the beach, we make some grilled chicken while that sunset took place "let's swim a little!!" Neal said clearly exited taking his shirt off then he carried Takashi bridal style then they both were swimming in the warmth water

"You gonna be drowned without me!" Josh said running towards them "wanna swim?" I asked TOP "I-I don't know how to do it" he told me clearly afraid of water "I'll teach you, is not too deep so... Come with me" I held his hand, he nodded and smiled "woa! It feels nice" he said when the sea foam touched his feet. I encouraged him to walk more into the water, as I said it was not deep, the water only reached our knees.

We were playing around like little children, then Neal took of nowhere a shark-shaped inflatable, we took many photos riding it

"Guys! guys! I brought my camera let me take photos of you beautiful couples!!" First he photographed Takashi and Neal, his 5th anniversary was going to be soon. He photographed TOP and me too, his photos were really artistic, after talking about silly and important stuff until the sunset, we returned to our house.

"Did you have fun?" I asked when we were home with our hair still wet "yes, a lot" he has a really big smile on his face "let's take a shower and then we can get into the jacuzzi!" I held his hand guiding him to our bedroom "you first, ____, I have to wash the swimsuit that Neal lend me" I kissed his cheek "sure, oh! For the jacuzzi just put on any short and a shirt" he nodded. TOP used a sky blue swimsuit for surfing, so his body was all covered.

I took a shower quickly then I got into the jacuzzi of course 'dressed'. I shut my eyes, I was relaxing with the warm water that was massaging all my body.

After some minutes TOP was there "can I...?" I opened my eyes, I smiled "of course" he entered "wow it feels nice" he sat down next to me "TOP" I hugged him, he seemed to be surprised nevertheless, he hugged me back, I rested my head on his shoulder "does your shoulder hurt?" I asked "no, it's okay".

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“I really hate to bother you right now, with you still fresh out of recovery, but it’s important we get your statement.”

“It’s not a problem Detective Green. I am ok as long as I don’t move around too much,” I reassured him.

“Thank you. I will try to be as brief as I can.”

Dean stood up and motioned the Detective towards the chair.

“I guess I’ll head to the cafeteria and see if I can scramble us up something decent to eat,” he told me.

“Actually, Mr. Winchester, if you don’t mind I would appreciate it if you would stay. You were a witness also so I need to get your statement too.”

Dean walked back towards my bed and Mr. Green sat in the chair. Pulling his notebook out, he paused as he appeared to be reviewing his notes.

“Witness’ has stated that your ex husband was in the restaurant earlier in the day, correct?”

“Unfortunately, yes he was.”

“Can you describe the nature of his visit?”

“The nature of his visit?” I chuckled. “Plain and simple, he wanted money.”

“Did you owe him money?”

“Hell no. While we were married, without going into too many detail, he managed to worm his name onto the deed to my place. During the divorce, I bought him out. Paid him exactly one half of the value of the restaurant. Ever since then though, every time he gets his ass in a crack with one loan shark or another, he comes hounding me for more money.”

“When he came to see you this time, it was because of another loan shark?”

“I didn’t ask because I don’t care. He isn’t getting another penny out of me, ever. That’s pretty much exactly what I told him.”

“How did he respond? When you told him that?”

“Aw man, he was pissed,” Dean threw in.

“You witness the argument?”

“Bits and pieces of it. But I was sitting kind of close to the door when the guy left. He deliberately bumped into everyone there on his way out the door.”

“Ok, Y/N, let’s move on to last night. Is there anything peculiar that stood out when you went to open up? I know you locked the place up and left for a few hours yesterday afternoon, correct?”

“Yes, I always do. The dinner crowd, especially on the weekends, is always our busiest time. I leave for a few hours after the last lunch patron leaves. It gives me a little break, to clear my head before I throw myself back into the kitchen.”

“So, you left, came back, opened up. Did you notice anything at all? Strange smell? Slight motion in the shadows? Anything, no matter how big or small?”

“Everything seemed to be normal when I pulled up. Except for Randy. He was sitting in his car about a block up on the opposite side of the street. I really didn’t think anything about it at the time, just figured he was doing one of his weird ‘let’s freak her out’ kind of things. But I kept checking throughout the evening. He never left. I remember now after the explosion, I jumped up and started looking around for him but I didn’t see him anymore.”

“And you are sure he was there? It wasn’t just his car parked there? Maybe he left with someone else?”

“Yep, I am sure,” I answered, trying to hold back a snort. “Couldn’t miss the middle finger he threw up at me every time he caught me looking at him.”

“He made visual contact with you then?”

”That’s definitely one way of putting it. Look Detective Green, I know you have to do things by the book and all, but there is absolutely no doubt in my mind at all who did this. He did. He did it out of spite because I refused to give him any more money.”

“I can't speculate at this time on anything specific but he is definitely wanted for questioning.”

“If there is anything you need from me, please call me. If he is responsible for this I damn sure want his sorry ass to pay!”

“Mr. Winchester, do you have anything else to add to any of this?”

“Sorry but I don't think so. I am new to town and yesterday was my first time to her place. I came for lunch, witnessed him leaving. I came back later on that evening for dinner. And then everything was blown to hell. That's about all I know.”

“I hate that one of your first encounters in our town was all this mess. I hope it won't jade your thinking about our town?”

“No, not all. There isn't anywhere you can go these days that doesn't have some kind of crime. Just another town like most others.”

“I think I have all I need for now Y/N, Mr. Winchester. If anything else comes up, I will call you.”

“Thank you. I appreciate all of y'all.”

“Yes ma'am. On a side note, I hope you get back up and running soon. My Wednesday night's aren't gonna be the same without your meatloaf!”

I smiled at him and watched as he turned and left the room. It warmed my heart a little to know I made a few people’s day with our food. I hated knowing that the restaurant was gone, burned to the ground. Thank God for insurance! Hopefully it would go smooth and I would be able to get the place back up and running soon.

“Out of curiosity, is this how your life is day to day?”

For some reason, Dean’s simple and honest question struck a chord with me. I couldn't help but laugh. And laugh. And laugh some more. I looked up at him, standing there so beautiful, and started laughing all over again. Then the tears started. I felt so foolish, sitting there in the hospital bed, laughing at Dean and his very serious question, with tears rolling down my face. God, what he must think of me.

“Hey. Hey, stop that. I didn’t mean anything by it. I was just, I don’t know, kind of curious,” he said, trying to sooth me as he climbed on the bed with me.

He wrapped his arms around me and pulled me onto his chest. I guess it was just the stress of the whole night, but laying my head against his strong chest, I couldn’t have held back the tears anymore than I could have held back the sea. I wrapped my arms around him and cried until I was crying dry tears. The whole time, he just held me tightly, like he was scared I would float away. I don’t know how long it took for me to get myself under control, but I finally sniffed one last time and reluctantly broke contact with him as I tried to sit up. After all the laughing, and the crying, my side was definitely pinging.

“You’re hurting? Geeze, I didn’t mean to hold you so tight. I’ll go get the nurse,” Dean immediately responded as he saw my pained look.

I smiled at him, weakly I am sure, and watched him practically run out of the room. This man is an absolute saint Y/N, DO NOT FUCK THIS ONE UP! I attempted to get comfortable in the horrible bed while I waited on him to come back. How did I get so lucky to meet this guy? Seriously, he breezes in town, comes in for lunch, comes back for dinner, gets blown up with me? What in the hell? Thankfully, Dean came in, ushering the nurse in front of him.

“He says you are hurting pretty good, huh? Where’s your pain at right now?”

“Honestly, I would say an eight right now. I think my emotions got the better of me for a few minutes.”

“Totally understandable. Y/N, you’ve been through a pretty severe trauma, not to mention the emotional trauma. I didn’t say anything earlier, but I have been eating at your place for the past ten years. I was horrified to hear to what had happened.”

“Thank you. That really does mean the world to me. I hate that this happened too. Hopefully, this will get cleared up soon and I can move on to rebuilding and getting back up and running.”

“If it means anything to you, pretty much all of us here are hoping that too,” Nurse Susie told me with a warm smile. “More nights than not, we would call in an order before closing time so we had something good to eat during the night.”

“I remember. Most of the time y’all would call on meatloaf, chicken and dumplings, and the prime rib nights, correct?”

“Yes,” she answered, laughing. “That is so cool that you remember that.”

“Are you kidding me? For the past three years, we get a call in for fourteen plates each night! How could I forget?” I told her, laughing some more myself.

“Well as much as I would love to stay and talk, I do have rounds to make real quick and your medicine should be kicking in by now. Are you getting any relief yet?”

“Yes, I am Thank you so much. Go make your rounds. I’m fine now.”

“Ok, but don’t hesitate to buzz me if you need something else. Or you can just send this fine looking young man to hunt me down if you prefer.”

We all laughed at her last comment as she left the room. I repositioned myself in the bed so I would be able to look at Dean, who had gotten comfortable in the chair again as we had talked. Poor thing, he looked miserable with his head wrapped and trying to get comfortable in that god awful chair.

“You don’t have to stay, you know? I am sure your motel room is way more comfortable than that chair.”

“Nope. You don’t get off that easy. We have shared one day together and it was a dozy. No way in hell you are shoving me out of the drama that quick.”

“Oh, I was just thinking about that earlier. How are you even still here? Why haven’t you run for the nearest interstate by now?”

“Run? Woman, please. Why would I run? I thought this was just your way of flirting with me. You know, the things women do to get a man’s attention?”

I couldn’t help but start laughing again at that. The idea of having my restaurant blown up to get his attention was hilarious. Not that it wouldn’t have been a bad idea. Man, just look at him!

“Now, I think the real question is though, what do you have planned next? Your next move? The one that will keep me hooked?” he asked, teasing.

I looked at him when he said that. His eyes were sparkling at me. This man’s emotions could definitely be read in his eyes.

“Now that you asked, I was thinking maybe a murder sometime next month? How would that do?”

“As long as I am not a suspect, I am game. Or the victim!”

“How about I make a victim of this poor bed? I believe we can both fit up here and it has got to be a bit more comfortable than that chair.”

“Wow. Are you asking me to sleep with you already?” he asked, feigning embarrassment. “This seems a bit fast.”

“Yea, I know. I have no scruples at all. Do you think you can handle it?”

“I don’t know. I am not used to girls being so forward with me.”

“Oh really?” I asked, blurting out my laughter as I spoke. “Somehow I find that a little hard to believe.

“Are you questioning me, Ms. Thing?”

“No. Not all. Just get you butt up here so I can get some sleep. Please?”

“Since you said please. Your wish is my command, ma’am.”

I pushed myself over to the side of the bed as he slid out of his shoes and second shirt. He climbed up on the bed, gingerly, and positioned himself behind me. For someone I had known less than forty eight hours now, I immediately felt comforted by the feel of him lying there behind me. Much to my pleasure, he snaked an arm around my waist and gently tugged me closer to him.

“I hope I am not being too forward,” he asked softly.

“No, not at all. This is probably the best I have felt in ten years.”

“Ten years, huh?”

“Oh hush. Get some sleep. I am sure I am going to be extremely crabby tomorrow. You need to rest up so you can take care of me.”

I felt him chuckle against the back of my neck. I reached for his hand that was gently pressed against my stomach. He took my hand in his and I pulled his arm around me a little tighter. With the smell of him blocking out the smells of the hospital room, the weight of his arm on my side, his steady, rhythmic breathing against my neck, it didn’t take long at all for me to drift off into a peaceful slumber.

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how do you feel about dmtnt?

Lmao oh. Oh, gosh, anon I. /sweatsOkay, yeah, no. I’m glad it’s breathed life into this fandom that I hold nearest and dearest to my heart. I’m glad to see more people in it and talking about it and drawing fanart for it (like this one bc I am not a Sparossa fan at all but the art is lovely and it’s still cute even it’s not my thing and I now subscribe to the headcanon of Hector with full-body freckles). Like I’m glad to see new people come in, and old people return. Feels like home again. I’m glad it’s made so many people happy.ALSO LET ME PREFACE BY SAYING: These are my feelings on the film. In no way do I feel this way about any DMTNT rpers or their interpretations on my dash. You guys are all fucking fabulous with what you’ve done, and I am here to play with you all, no matter how I feel about the source material. You’ve done an amazing fucking job with what you were given and I am in awe of every last one of you. Which goes to show how I feel means not a fiddly fuck, because you guys are giving pure gold. And know that if you wanna ever do a thing, just hit me up. Because I don’t give a good goddamn, we’ll figure it out. I want to write with you. Keep rocking the fuck as hard as you do, and know each of you are here because I want you to be.HOWEVER I have a lot of issues with this film.

I haven’t been shy about my issues with characterization and canon non-compliance within the film. And I’m not about to start now. Me? I hated it. There were a couple of things that rang true to me, that sounded IC to me, but on the whole I felt like it was a tangled, disjointed mess of a movie. But also understand I’m looking at it from a I really love my boy and how does this even work in actual canon standpoint. I think I’d be a lot happier with it if it were treated - in fandom - like a soft reboot with no bearing on the original trilogy? It could work that way. But as it stands, there’s just so much that directly contradicts 14 years of standing canon, I can’t love it, and I can’t really use it.So from a Hectormun perspective:Hector is hollow in this movie. I know a lot of people have feels about him, but from a squinting at his character from every angle view that I have, he doesn’t sound like himself. The Hector Barbossa I know and love would never hide in his cabin with a private band. The Hector Barbossa I know and love is an active, working captain, who is boots on deck at eight bells and out and about amongst his crew. Because he understands that his position as captain only lasts as long as they want him to be captain. He’s vain, but he’s not really flashy. His biggest physical vanity is his hat, and even then it’s feathers in muted, natural colors. He wears old and tattered clothes because that’s not what’s important to him. He doesn’t trim his beard because fuck what Jack thinks, have you seen Jack? He’s a walking disaster.From a character perspective, I have a hard time believing a man who baby talks his pet monkey could leave a daughter of his at an orphanage. Especially an orphanage of the 18th Century. I have a hard time thinking that he would let other people take the experiences from him of braiding his daughter’s hair and reading her bedtime stories. Say what you want about Hector - he’s a hard man - but once he loves, he loves just as hard. And if you don’t think he’d love his baby girl more than anything on the planet you are wrong. It would probably be the first time he’d experience the want to put someone else before his own desires and wants. I’m sorry, I just literally cannot buy he’d do this. Maybe it’s wanting to believe he’s better than what he is, but I don’t think so. I’m eyes-open on the things he’s done for survival. Aware of how terrible he can actually be. But as attached as he gets to his pets, and how the compass pointed to her the entire time he held it, I cannot believe he wouldn’t have had her literally strapped to his fucking side the moment she was born.I have issues with Jack. I have issues how we go from “I’ve never actually been that drunk,” to slurring his words, when Jack has never been like that. Ever. In four movies, and about twenty books. I have issues with Jack demanding tribute. @pearlsparable has written a great thing here about it, you should go check it out. Pirate captains do not demand tribute, or they do not remain captain for very long. I have issues with the production value, too, but that’s another thing entirely. I have massive issues with the change in how Jack got the Wicked Wench. It’s so integral to who he is I feel like changing it cheapens his character so much. It takes away so much depth the original storyline gave him. I have a lot of PoF love, y'all, you’ll pry it from my cold, dead hands. I also have issues with the compass giving. This whole thing has been built around him bartering it from Tia Dalma, and it cheapens her and him to rewrite it because…I haven’t figured out why. I feel like this whole script could have used a cursory wiki check.I have issues with Will and his being a morose bastard about things. Will knew the duty. Will knew he was more suited than Jack to do the duty. Remember that talk on the Pearl? “You have to do the job, Jack. Or end up just like Jones.” Will was meant for the duty. “A touch of destiny.” Tia Dalma knew, too, I believe, when she she laid eyes on him. Also lots of issues with how Henry (I’m sorry, babes, they should have kept with the Williams and this one should have been Willie, Henry jars really bad for some reason) is kind of. Left to swim back to his own boat. I have problems with Henry not being given any depth when he could have been so much more. Like there was so much potential in this film and it all feels flat.I feel like Salazar was so much wasted potential. As is, he’s still great, those special effects are hell unnerving and fucking zombie sharks, I am always here for zombie sharks. But I feel like he could have been expanded on so much more. Look at Hector from CotBP. That’s how you write a sympathetic villain. And Salazar tries to reach that same level of writing craft, but it’s not a fault of Javier Bardem, who is fabulous, but a fault of a shitty script that left him filling in too many details. I’ve seen rpers here who do a much better job of giving him depth and feeling and a solid feeling than that script did. So kudos to you guys for being awesome, too. You’ve made him into what he should have been, and I’m so grateful to see so many talented people picking up the slack there.I’m disappointed in the handling of this romance of Hector’s. She’s a name. A throw away line. If she’s someone Hector Barbossa fell in love with, then she was someone worth remembering. That I promise you. She should have been more than that.I’m angry that the writers can’t seem to write an intelligent female, apparently, so everyone else feels a bit dumbed down to compensate. I’m angry, because this is Hector Barbossa’s fucking daughter and they wrote her so blandly and I saw nothing at all of him in her and I wanted to. I wanted her to be as witty as she’s supposed to be. I want her to be everything she was supposed to be. I’m fucking pissed they give Hector this backstory that 1. doesn’t really jive with original canon and 2. do nothing to actually explain it, on top of short-servicing what should have been the two most important people in his life. You don’t give my boy this and tear it from him two seconds later. You don’t. I’m so glad to see so many good Carinas out there fixing this, making her everything she’s meant to be and more. I’m so glad. I know I can count on fandom when the official source fucks up.I’m super fucking pissed a lot of this with Hector was for a tortuted metaphor. I get why it’s supposed to be super feelsy, but for Hector’s character in totality it makes no sense. I’m angry his death was actually pointless as hell. I know it’s Geoffrey Rush bowing out, he’s said he’s done now, but I’m still mad.I’m just mad, anon. I’m mad I waited this long for this movie, and this is what I got. One that doesn’t even make sense with the rest of the canon and treats all the characters like cardboard pieces that can be moved with no autonomy. One that could have been amazing with a cursory continuity check and some better writers (we also almost had Russio back and I’m salty af about that, too). This movie is an example of something that could have been a wonderful chapter ending, that ended up a goddamn disaster.  I’m mad for all of us, because I feel like we all deserved better.Now that I’ve said all that, lemme say this. You DMTNT rpers? Keep doin’ what you do. Because you guys are 10000% better than the writers of this movie. You’ve actually given these characters some life, so I’m so glad to know each and every one of you. I may not be canon compliant for your guys for all of the above, but that never means I don’t want to write with you. Like I say in my rules, hey. My Hector won’t really have a clue who you are, but he’ll roll with it. And so will I. You guys are 100% welcome here, always. In no way is this a reflection on you, or your quality. Because I wouldn’t be following you if you weren’t quality, and you can take that to the bank like money.

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1. 6 songs I listen to most? Currently it's been lick by cardi b, rainbow and praying by kesha, grown ass kid by chance, big b's by young thug n chance, and like all of sza's album bc I'm still obsessed w it??2. If I could meet anyone who would it be?Oh no there are so many angels I wanna meet I can't even pick one3. Find book nearest to me pg 23, line 17?I'm sorry I'm in bed n not in reaching distance of one lmao4. What do you think about most?Probably my future5. Latest text from someone else?"WHAT"6. Sleep w or w/o clothes?Depends on how I'm feeling tbh7. Strangest talent?Turning trauma into biting sarcasm lmfao8. Girls? Boys?Girls? AMAZING Boys? Also amazing, but y'all loud lol9. Ever had a poem or song or written about me?I know of 2 poems written ab me10. Last time I played air guitar?Not sure11. Any strange phobias?Clowns and like slimy food?? Idk if those are strange but ik they make me cringe12. Ever stuck a foreign object up my nose?No, I was an advanced toddler13. Religion?Nothing concrete currently but I'm very interested in Buddhism14. If outside, what are you most likely doing?Either w friends or my dog15. Prefer to be behind the camera or in front?Behind16. Favorite band?Florence + the machine17. Last lie you told?I'm waking up at 718. Believe in karma?Definitely19. URL meaning?Lol one of my old friends came up w it and it's basically just ab loving where I'm from I guess20. Greatness weakness/strength?Taking care of everyone else before me lol21. Celebrity crush?TOO MANY22. Ever gone skinny dipping?No23. How do I vent my anger?I usually just needa rant for like 20 min straight then I don't care lol24. Own a collection?I probably have an unreasonable amount of things associated w marching band in my room25. Talking on the phone or online video chatting?Talking on the phone26. Happy w the person you've become?She's def still learning but so much better than where she used to be so yes 27. Sound I hate/love?Any type of metal scratching against another metal and I love hearing dogs run up to me28. Biggest what if?I guess if I had moved away for college? How different I may be rn? All the different ppl who may be in my life rn? 29. Believe in ghosts/aliens?Yes30. Stick your right arm out, what do you touch? Left?Right: My bedside fan. Left: The wall31. What do you smell in the air?Coffee32. Worst place I've ever been to?Probably a court house33. East or west coast?West for the culture34. Most attractive singer of opposite sex?Let's go w either miguel or frank ocean35. Meaning of life in your opinion?Doing what makes you happy for as long as you can while you're here bc at the end of it that's what you'll want, knowing you found peace and happiness for/within yourself, in my opinion36. Define artYour own creativity that makes your soul just feel right ya know? And it comes in all different forms37. Believe in luck?Eh, somewhat38. What's the weather like rn?Hot n sunny39. Time?7:54 AM40. Drive? If so, have you ever crashed?Yes and yes41. Last book you read?Not sure which one but I'm almost positive it was Mary Higgins Clark and if not it was a text book lol42. Like the smell of gasoline?Not at all43. Have any nicknames?Aimster by my parents and a few friends lol44. Last film you saw?To the bone (should prolly finish it)45. Worst injury?I've had a few bad scrapes n cuts nothing really major unless a few bad illnesses count46. Ever caught a butterfly?No but I need one to catch me47. Any obsessions rn?Just coming off of an obsession w the show ozark48. Sexual orientation?Bisexual49. Ever had a rumor spread about you?Many lol50. Believe in magic?Somewhat51. Tend to hold grudges?No I find it best to let that hurt GO52. Astrological sign?Pisces53. Save money or spend it?I wanna say save but my bank account know I'm lying54. Last thing I purchased?Soup, crackers, ice cream, n candy bars (im sick lol)55. Love or lust?Yikes that's a tough one. Both are very good but can be dangerous56. In a relationship?No57. How many relationships have you had?Real ones? Just one. I had at least 4 situationships we're just not gonna talk about lol58. Can you touch your nose w your tongue?I actually can't lol59. Where were you yesterday?The doctor, a pharmacy, popeyes, a store, and my bed mostly60. Anything pink within 10 ft of me?Yah my phone charger61. Wearing socks?Not rn62. Favorite animal?SHARKS 63. Secret weapon to get someone to like you????? Let u know when I find it??64. Where is your best friend?Prolly sleeping65. Top 5 blogs on here?I'm not sure of all of them but def check pelvicthruster and my-secret-life-as-ren for some bomb ones66. My heritage?Black??67. What was I doing at midnight last night?What I do best, sleeping68. What do you think is Satan's last name?Idk omg69. Biggest turn ons?Pretty teeth!! Being nice to me!! Slow kissing!! Neck kisses!! 70. Are you the friend of a friend you'd hope to have?Hopefully, I consider myself a pretty good friend71. There's a dog drowning on my way to work but if I'm late again I'll be fired, what do I do?Save the dog and get away from a heartless boss if they fire me after that tf??72. If given one month to live would I tell anyone n everyone, what would I do w my remaining days, and would I be afraid?Probably only close friends and family, I would want to travel any and everywhere until I couldn't anymore, and I'd be scared of all the unanswered questions ab death but I think I would have to sooner rather than later accept that I can't change what's happening and just live out my fullest life73. Can either have trust or love? Which one?Trust. In my opinion love can't exist w/o trust so74. A song that always makes me happy when I hear it?Too many omg I just rly love music75. Last 4 digits of my number?4061??76. What makes a great relationship?Trust, honesty, attraction, healthy actions from both partners, and NEVER stop doing the little things. So many relationships go to shit bc one or both stopped cherishing the other person in the relationship77. How can I win your heart?Animals!! Good music!! Genuine company!!78. Can insanity bring on more creativity?I think it can in theory, but it doesn't mean you have to be some kind of mad scientist or in an unhealthy mindset to have creativity79. Single best decision I've made in my life?Letting go of people who are no longer good for me or vice versa. Holding onto that hurt does nothing but drag you down80. What do you want written on your tombstone?I actually have a thing w quotes, meaning I have so many I LOVE, I wouldn't even know where to start81. Shoe size?10 (Switch 80 and 81 I mixed up the numbers)82. Favorite word?TOO MANY83. First thing that comes to mind hearing the word heart?Passion84. A saying you say a lot?"It be like that" (probably what's gonna actually end up on my tombstone)85. Last song I listened to?I think it was caretaker by dram and sza86. Favorite color(s)?Blue and gray87. Current desktop picture?I don't have a computer anymore so :/88. If you could press a button, making anyone explode, who would it be?There's a lotta ignorance I wanna get rid of in this world but I don't even think I could explode anyone lol89. A question you'd be scared to tell the truth on?And expose myself..I think not lmao90. Turn offs?I really don't line unnecessarily rude/mean people or anyone who speaks to you as if they're superior91. If I ate a vegetable that gave me superpowers what would it be?Hopefully mental stability tbh92. Where are your parents from?My dad's from Vackaville, California and my mom's from Abbeville, Louisiana93. If I could erase any horrible experience from my past what would it be?I could definitely get rid of a lot of painful things but I feel like I could also be a drastically different person94. Opportunity to sleep w a music celebrity of my choice, who('