#ALSO! MAD! you still can't be a guy. 20+ years later and you still can't play as a man... ugh

[tvmblrdotcum]

girl what dark romance ass scenario did they put in my candy love newgen 🤣??

[charmwitch]

Radiant Dawn Play Through 01

I beat Radiant Dawn (FIrst Playthrough) yesterday.

Notes: A-Rank with IkeSoren transferred from PoR. THis file was to set up a completely fresh NewGame+ with my own stat boosters from PoR. I will be playing NewGame+ on stream.

Radiant Dawn is kind of a mess, but I think it's even more of a mess on your first playthrough, which is probably the only playthrough people are ever going to do. I'm thankful for save states from GameFAQs, but I wanted to challenge myself this year.

(This is all based on the US Version of the game.)

Hard Mode is worthless and while in Japanese there was an extended script in Hard Mode, I would not wish that on anyone. I'm never doing hard mode in this game.

The English version lets you class change at level 20. Note, the Japanese version does not. You need master crowns for anyone you want to take to the end.

The English version has special weapons for the Dawn Brigade (that are canon in FEH which is incredibly funny) but the JP version does not. I can not imagine playing these games without the boosted weapons for The DB.

The second half of Radiant Dawn, without Pelleas, without a conclusion to Izuka, without the conversations about the Branded and the weight they have on the world is absolutely pale. I really think they should have just asked you if you wanted to replay from the point you have to kill Pelleas, rather than having to restart all over. There are no script differences before this point.

Not knowing the true identity of the Prince of Daien is wild. It's such an empty area. The biggest difference is that Almedha is depressed and listless for the rest of the game. We don't get a conclusion for her, she is just unhappy and her whole life was one mistake after the other.

If you don't deply the BK, you don't get Ike's memories back. It's weird.

Lehran dying is so funny to me because bitch deserves it but also I think it's WAY funnier for him to go "Zelgius is waiting..." and in new game+ Micaiah goes "PSYCHE!!!!" and doesn't let him die. Zelgius is STILL waiting, like, 700+ years later.

On that note, Yune being like "oh, Lehran I'm sorry. I understand having hatred for both the Laguz and Beorc. I was too callous" is so funny. Everyone has hatred in their heart in this game, but knowing to grow out of it is what matters.

I understand this game came out in 2005 and like, replaying the game was a thing, I guess? But in order to get Soren's special conversation, even if you transfered files, requiring TWO playthroughs because gay boys can't have anything is so funny.

I am glad there's still some paired endings, but the game really needed more conversations between characters.

Give Soren boss convos in Endgame.

Anyway, here's some screenshots from my run.

Ilyana about to fuck up PEEPAW!!

My top 3. I have NO idea how Nephenee became queen of the battlefield, but you go girl.

If you don't save Lehran/newgame+, Ike and Soren swap places. (I do not know if Ranulf takes Soren's spot here, or if his portrait stays near Skrimirs if you A-Rank them.)

Me being absolutely mad I can't talk to my little guy:

Ike about to fuck up a bird.

Also, interesting. Is Lehran the first laguz to use weapons?

And finally, here are Ike and Soren's capped out stats.

That's the power of love, baby.

[xhoess]

Forbidden desire: a winter Vacation romance

Masterlist

Seonghwa x fem!bod reader

Summary: your brothers best friend and girlfriend get invited to your family vacation. You are all going to you parents house in the beautiful Austria. But what nobody knows except for you best friend is that you have been crushing on your brothers best friend seonghwa since the day you met him.

Genre: smut with a little plot

Word count: 2.2k

Most people find themselves to have a crush on someone for a short period of time and for you it was the same, or so you thought. When you were 7 years old your brother hongjong invited a friend he made at the playground to eat dinner with your family. That was when you met seonghwa. Now 13 years later you still feel like the little kids you were back then every time you see him.

Seonghwa is 4 years older then you, when you where younger that seemed like a big difference but during the years you've started to see that 4years is not even a big difference. 20 and 24 is normal right? But unfortunately that isn't the only thing holding you back, seonghwa met a girl around 6 months ago and they are dating. When they came over to pick up seonghwa for some sort of activity you saw how beautiful she was. You can't blame seonghwa on that but you still couldn't help but feel really jealous, every time you see them together you get mad at yourself for not confessing to seonghwa before they met.

But now you are standing in the living room of your parents vacation cabin with your suitcase next to you and headphones laying on your shoulders. "Seonghwa texted that they will be at the cabin soon!" Hongjoong yelled from up the stairs. And yes, 'they' are seonghwa and Nali. Your mother was kind enough to invite seonghwa to your yearly ski vacation in the mountains but when Hongjoong mentioned that Nali and seonghwa have been together for 6 months she also invited her to come.

The door breaks open and seonghwa enters with a big smile "Hey guys!" He greets, not much later he gave everyone a quick hug en you where next, his arm quickly pulling you in his embrace and God you hated how good he alway smells. It's the kind of vanilla scent that you want to have as your home spray.

"Hey y/n long time no see" He says while pulling out of the hug "well yeah but same old really, how are you?" "Good really, nali and I are still together and I couldn't wish for more" He said with a smile. Well you could definitely wish for more. A few hours later everyone started unpacking, you already did that before seonghwa entered the cabin but you still went to your room upstairs.

There where not many rooms upstairs, only yours and hongjoongs the rest was all in the downstairs area. You quickly jumped on your bed and called your best friend. "Rico I swear seonghwa got even more handsome, HIS MUSCLES GIRL its like he has been hitting the gym for the past 4 months" you hear Rico laugh at your excitement on the the other side of the room "girl you say this every time and every time I get no proof, I swear FaceTime me and walk up to him. Just say I wanna say hello or something"

Rico has been your best friend since you excellently bumped onto him in your first year of high school. 2 years into your friendship he came out of the closet as gay and some people overhead him saying that to you and decided to make fun of him. But a few days later Hongjoong walked up to you guys, Hongjoong was rather popular at your school and told Rico he was proud of him for being his true self and that he should do the same. At that time you didn't know what Hongjoong ment with that but that changed a few months later when Hongjoong gathered the family together to Also come out of the closet as gay. Ever since that point you have been shipping Hongjoong and Rico but they both are still denying it.

"Okay okay I will give you proof this one time" You walked downstairs and gave the phone to seonghwa, you can hear your friend laugh at this comment seonghwa made but the conversation died pretty fast after that so you quickly grabbed your phone back and went back to your room. "I am right, right?"

"Yes girl you are oh lord" He says overly excited "but now you go skiing or something with your future boyfriend I need to go to work" and with that Rico hangs up the call.

A few hours later you and everyone else were sitting at the dinner table, waiting for your mom to bring out the dinner. Nali was sitting on your right and seonghwa was sitting on the opposite side, the amount of eye contact they made made your appetite go away in seconds, how can they be so lovey all the time.

Your thoughts got interrupted by your mother walking out of the kitchen with the first plates, you decided to get up and help your mother quickly so you didn't need to see seonghwa and his girlfriend being all sweet.

While eating dinner your were cutting your meat aggressively, "yo y/n, calm down the meat isn't walking away" Hongjoong said, it made you realize what you were doing and quickly looked if anyone else saw it "I wasn't paying attention" you say "I think someone is a little jealous" Hongjoong snickers. And ofcourse Nali needed to hear what your brother just said "y/n is jealous? Of who, I didn't know you liked someone" she said with the most sarcastic smile.

She obviously know that you are absolutely obsessed with her boyfriend, you can't blame her for being annoyed with you. "Its noting" you say, trying to change the subject but you don't get away with it so quickly "no no, now I'm curious too tell us" Seonghwa said while raising his eyebrows. God you loved it when he did it "no really Seonghwa its nothing"

Eventually the subject died down and everyone went back to what they were doing. The dinner was comming to a end and everyone just started playing games or started texting people on their phones but you were still eating your ice cream. Your phone suddenly lit up and you see it was a message from seonghwa, you couldn't have opened it faster and your eyes widen at the text. Well image to be exact.

Seonghwa just messaged you a picture that was definitely ment for his girlfriend. It was a dickpic. And hongjoong being the nosy boy he his was also looking at your phone when it lit up. He spat his drink out and quickly pulled you with him to the kitchen. "Wtf?! Did Seonghwa just send you a dickpic?" He asks with his eyes as wide as possible. "I think so? It's probably for his girlfriend joong" you say, trying to calm yourself down.

But how could you, you have liked this man for so long and now this?

"Are you gonna say something?" Hongjoong asked "I mean he should know he send it to me right?" You say unsure of what you should do. "Just send like 'uh, thanks? But I think this isn't for me' Like you don't wanna be rude the man just literally showed his dick, and plus you probably don't find it gross that is the worst part" you gently shove your brother at the last comment he made. But you send the message to seonghwa anyway.

From the kitchen you could see the dinner table, so you could also see seonghwas smile go down. His girlfriend obviously saw it and asked what was wrong but seonghwa was just frozen. She took his phone and looked at the message. And man she did not look happy. They excuse themselves from the table and walk into their room.

You didn't see them for the rest of the evening and eventually everyone went to bed, including you. It was around 2 am when you head a knock on your door.

"Who's there?" You ask "it's me" and you recognize the voice immediately "Oh come in" Seonghwa enters your room and he closes the door behind him.

"We broke up" he said "oh, shit I'm sorry I shouldn't have responded, I just needed to talk to you in private or something" you say, slightly panicking. "Hey, it's okay don't worry, it's probably for the better. Turns out she was still sexting her ex so" He steps closer "y'know, you've been really obvious the last few months, am I so hard to resist you blush every time I touch you even if it's just a hug" He says with a smirk "w-what are you talking about?" You say, trying to act clueless, but that doesn't work at all.

"Y/n" He puts his hands on your shoulders "do you remember 11 years ago, when you walked out of your room with your bight yellow minion pajamas, and you were complaining to Hongjoong about how all the girls in your class where dating someone?" "I do" "do you also know how bad I wanted to tell you I would be your boyfriend but didn't do it because you were 9 and I was 13?" You shake your head, blushing hard "no, no I did not" " I thought so, but now, you're 20 and I'm 24. It's not weird anymore" He says, eyes shifting to your lips.

"Maybe it's better I send the picture to you. Did you like it?" He asked "Seonghwa you just broke up with your girlfriend, do you really want to do this?"

"Don't get mad at me for doing this" He said before connecting your lips together with his, you were caught off guard and didn't react "y/n please I waited so long for this" He whines against your lips. You started to kiss back, after that the kiss quickly became a sloppy kiss while you were trying to unbutton your sleeping blouse.

"Let me do it" He demanded. He did it with ease and admired your curves, "God your so beautiful" He whispered in your ear while walking you to the edge of the bed.

"You weren't the only one waiting for this seonghwa" you breathe out. You swiths positions with seonghwa and push him on the bed. His hair was messy and his forehead was getting shinier because of the sweat. You slowly open the button of his pants and he groans at the feeling of your hand slightly sliding over the bugle in his underwear. "Y/n I swea-" you cut him off with a kiss "calm down baby boy I'm admiring you like this" He obeyently nods.

Putting him out of this torture you finally pull his pants and underwear down in one pull. His pretty dick springs up and touched his stomach for a second. "Mhmm the real thing is always better" you Humm while taking the base of his cock in your hand "fuck y/n" He curses and bucks his hips up to feel more but you stop him by pushing his hips down "no no, I will pleasure you, you just lay still and moan for me okay?" You ask with the sweetest tone.

He obeys and you continue to move your hand up and down, the other one now playing with his balls, and he did moan when you first touched his balls.

You quicken your pace and see that seonghwas lip start to bleed because he is trying so hard not to be loud. You decide to make him feel even better and give him a kitten lick from the bottom of his cock to the top of his mushroom like tip. Seeing him squirm like this makes you feel so powerful and you love it.

A bit of pre-cum comes out of him, seeing that you start to take him in your mouth. Bobbing your head up and down and your hand touching the parts you can't reach. "Y/n I'm gonn- ngh cum" He says, "alright baby, where do you wanna cum" you ask "tits, tits please, I've wanted to see them for so long" He said so desperately.

You quickly pull your bra down while still bobbing your head up and down. Your hand takes over and you move your hand up and down real fast. And he came, it did not only cover your breasts but also your chin.

Seeing you like this made seonghwa almost hard again."Come here baby" He said, you moved closer.to him. He swipes the cum on your chin away with his thumb and puts it against your lips "open up" and you do, licking his thumb clean and enjoying the bitter taste of his cum on your tongue. "

Well this was a first" you say

"Yeah, and definitely not a last" Seonghwa said with a wink.

(Sorry it's so rushed, didn't like the story line anymore but had to finish it!!)

[kurczeno]

ok so a little rant about DA:V, because I feel like it needs to be said. First a disclaimer: if you are hyped, thats good for you, really. Enjoying the final product is absolutely fine. However, I've seen SO MANY people, especially here on tumblr, but also on tiktok and reddit acting as if any criticism of the game is just people being mean haters or homophobic.

And don't get me wrong - there are probably people taking things too far, just for the sake of it. There are also people mad about the wokeness - though as a person that is very interested in the topic, I've seen only one? discussion about this matter and it wasn't even made by people that like the series, they just wanted to complain about wokeness in games, etc.. But I'm not saying these people don't exist, because I haven't seen them.

However I am seeing so many valid criticism of the game being discredited for no reason and I feel like there is at least one thing that needs to be said.

I played Origins over 20 times. DA2 and DA:I - also more than once, but I didn't count it. I loved all of them - even the Inquisition, despite its many flaws. But it's not a post about them - the thing is, I am a fan of a series. I've been since I was little and later I got that stupid hyperfixation. I was extremely excited about the game, despite SO MANY red flags - I'd say it's still Dragon Age and I'm sure it won't be that bad.

But at this point even I can't cope that hard.

First of all - it's barely Dragon Age at this point. I just want you to remmeber that most of the staff that was working on the first three games got fired or resigned themselves. The LEAD WRITER himself, David Gaider (he's incredible btw, go follow him on twitter and play stray gods!!!) has been trashing Bioware on TT for years and he's been there for 12 years. He tried to highlight just how badly the company treats its workers - and it's not only Bioware, it's gamedev in general. I have many friends that work in gamedev and whenever we talk about situations like this their reaction is "yeah, but thats what happens in gamedev every half a year". You know, it's so bad, we just treat it as a standard. Why am I bringing all this up? Because I think that countering every argument with "you haven't played the game yet" or, even worse "people are only complaining because woke" is just buying into their narrative, taking the responsibility from them. When the truth is that every single teaser looks, to say the least, outdated. The graphics are very, very bad, the designs are mid at best (I'd single out Neve and technically? Emmerich, but he looks horrible because of the graphics, so...), the reps show that they know little about Dragon Age (I'm in love with that one recording in which they collectively barely remember Zevran. The companion in the most beloved game. The guy that is basically the only source of info we get about the Crows. The Crows that are a fraction in their game???), they have already stated that your choices don't matter. I can elaborate on each of these, but the post is already to long and my point is different - don't excuse Bioware. And I'm sorry, but "play the game first" shouldn't be the argument here, because the things that should be good, regardless of the game itself fail - I'm sorry, but this isn't an indie game. It's made by a huge company, with loads of money after two commercial flops. I know some of you (including me!) are nostalgic towards Bioware, because of their games and what they meant back in the day, really. But at the end of the day, the games were made by people and Bioware is just a company. A big corporation, that just wants to make money, has a long history of mistreating their employees and has delivered the worst teasers I've seen in a long time.

TLDR: I'm not trying to tell you, you are wrong to be excited. I'm just kindly asking you to stop coming to Bioware's defense at all costs, because they don't deserve it.

(also I know David himself has reacted to the teasers and reviewed them in a positive way but I am talking mostly about the things that I blame on higherups. However I personally think that Gaider, as someone who's worked in the industry knows that there are many people there that ARE actually passionate about the product. Not the reps, please, they are embarassing, but the animators, writers, etc. And trashing their work as a lead writer of the first games would be a little too much, even if the final thing is not their fault. They don't need any more shit)

[hostilemuppet]

I know it's been a while since you've talked abt mouthwashing but it really is driving me crazy seeing people reblog their little cutesy aus of the game. like I mean whatever in the end I can just block and ignore but it's funny bc it's like. you guys are basing this stuff on nothinggg wdym "reverse personality au" what personalities do they all have. you just assumed personality traits for them. and there's a racism problem (as always) with everyone infantilizing daisuke bc he's an asian man like yeah he's the youngest but. even if he's 18 years old exactly (I assumed 20/21 personally), he's not the little baby child everyone seems to want to act like he is. going back to the personality traits thing lol some people seriously seem to think that sexual assaulter is like. jimmy's personality and not something horrible he chose to do bc they need a villain and they need that villain to be born villainous and not someone who did the wrong things. bc the average fandom simply cannot comprehend that people aren't just born evil. if they can't dehumanize one character to the point that people won't even say his name then what's the point. like it's crazy to me. you can say you want jimmy to suffer and die without acting like he isn't human and was just some evil force who forced his way into the crew with the rest of them. do people just not see how theyre minimizing what he did to anya when they act like he's some creature from hell and not a person like the rest of them

i agree with literally everything you said its so crazy 😭 it really does make me feel like the "no fun allowed" guy when i say this but mouthwashing did NOT need the typical fandom. it was an incredible work of fiction that used its medium to its full advantage to tell the story it wanted to tell, but people will DIE if they cant make silly "and then nothing bad happened!" aus bc they see ALL fiction as a sandbox game, or like playing dolls where they just smush their blorbos together and thats all they wanted to take from it

AND DAISUKES TREATMENT SPECIFICALLY MAKES ME SOOOOOO MAD between the way they treat him like some kind of toddler, and the way no one even cares enough to pronounce his name correctly... i KNOW youve probably watched naruto you KNOW the "u" is basically silent youre just being deliberately obtuse and racist. there was this one tweet that was like "the way you all infantilise the asian (and only non white) character is kinda weird" and people chewed them OUT saying "um its just bc hes canonically the youngest 🤨 it has nothing to do with race. that one friend whos too woke" like... okay yeah even if he was white hed probably still be infantilised (especially to make him out to be The Good Guy who wouldnt have let that happen! more later) but youre fucking braindead if you dont think its substantially worse bc hes ASIAN and people infantilise (and simultaneously sexualise) east asians to a disgusting degree 😭 people were acting like an artist made child porn for drawing him with a little hint of a thong poking out of his jeans... in general ive noticed people arent taking anti asian racism seriously lately, especially on twitter. there was this on tweet going around defending the use of HIGHLIGHTER YELLOW SKIN on asian characters with a LOT of interactions and i was going through the qrts hoping SOMEONE would say "hey this is fucked up" but there was NOTHING i felt like i was going INSANE 😭

in general i think a lot of the fandom struggles with "every character is either 100% fully good or 100% fully bad" which is. EXTREMELY FRUSTRATING! bc theyll say that curly is just as bad as jimmy for not immediately killing him, while also saying that swansea is a perfect angel and if he knew he would have killed jimmy. even though SWANSEA LITERALLY DID KNOW. ANYA TOLD HIM. SWANSEA KNEW AND HE DIDNT DO ANYTHING AGAINST JIMMY BEYOND GIVING HIM THE EVIL EYE (and he already didnt like him anyway! not only did he not treat him any different, he wasnt being manipulated in a codependent friendshp 😭 just turning a blind eye to rape for the love of the game (hating women)). he only did anything once jimmys actions hurt daisuke, a man. i always call mouthwashing "bystander effect: the game" bc it really fits with how no one on that ship actually bothered to help anya so by the fandoms logic, swansea is also just as evil as jimmy is. really the only character who didnt fail anya is daisuke, but thats only bc he wasnt given the opportunity (that we know of)! and since anya thought "curly will help me" and then he didnt, and then "swansea will help me" and then he didnt, chances are, if were thinking "daisuke would have helped her"? he would not have done that. im sorry. i like daisuke as much as the next guy but that useless ray of goddamn sunshine looked up to jimmy and would be just as easily persuaded as curly was. sorry to burst your bubble that daisuke and swansea probably arent the rapist hunters youve decided they are bc the only way you can interact with the game all about rape getting swept under the rug is by insisting that the two dudes you like would not have done that, actually. they are still men. even if daisuke is "nice" and swansea is a "jerk with a heart of gold" they are not immune to upholding rape culture just bc swansea had a soft spot for daisuke (again. a man) and daisuke didnt want anya to kill herself. curly didnt want anya to kill herself either is all im saying

[ivysangel]

I’m so glad I’m not the only one who was raging at the massive ass time skips in yj cuz the 5 year skip had me ready to knock out my own teeth!! I used to watch this show when I was in grade 6-8 and it first came out so revisiting it and seeing the skips had me ready to rage at what I missed out. That and a few other things as well like how we keep getting new characters that we see for an episode and maybe see like a season later or way later. But mostly the time skips cuz wow they really could’ve paced themselves and maybe stretched out the og yj team for another season or so before jumping ahead to when everyone’s in their 20’s and had dated half the team at that point but only making mentions of it.

Like in the later seasons when Rocket showed up I was asking myself who tf this was only cuz there were so many time skips and so many characters being introduced every 2 or so episodes. So when I realized who she was I was like oh shit, and then when she had a kid and a husband? Ex husband? Idk man I’m a kid of divorce so they looked like a divorced couple sharing custody of their kid. And the one second where it was mentioned that Rocket used to date Dick????? It was one single line and then it was back to talking about how Conner is probably still alive. But I was so confused and lost and so mad that we did have such a huge time skip between seasons cuz I like seeing the animated relationship drama! And honestly I’d take seeing anyone else’s relationship instead of Conner and M’gaan considering I started to dislike the pairing at the end of s1 and it’s just been downhill from there. I got so tired of Conner and M’gaan being pushed so hard in the last season I would’ve taken anything else since they’re not the only couple around. Maybe even an episode of that one dude from the wedding who didn’t find out until the wedding day that so many of his friends are members of the Justice league only because they thought he knew already cuz I would’ve loved to see how that went down

HELLOOOO????? i'm so sorry that this got lost in my inbox for almost two months nonnie 😭😭😭 i literally just can't keep up angel, please accept my apology!!!

i 10000% agree with everything you said. i fully believe that the time skips contributed to how little we saw certain characters because the skips occurred so often and with each skip new characters were introduced so i think that they couldn't keep up with their own show. ykwim? and the way i also couldn't recognize rocket when she showed up?? i was trying to use context clues or smth but they really left me hanging. i think i found out who she was through fucking wiki 😭.

i actually loved m'gann and conner during season 1, it was actually during season two that i was getting annoyed with their relationship because of that time jump. i think that i just really enjoyed seeing their relationship unfold and then boom. time jump. now she's dating a fish guy and also she's got a fuck ass bob.

god. they need to let me in that writers room so i can do seasons 2-4 over from scratch!!! like they fucked us over soooooo badddddd

[jos-10-minyard]

13/11/2023

I have so much to say I don't even know how to start this. Maybe discussing about how my mom's being suck a jerk with me this week. She fucking knows about all my mental health shit, and even so she gives me all the indications that she doesen't trust me enough. I already knew she and dad didn't trust me, but receiving the confirmation is tough. Very much tough.

Basically, what happened is: I'm living with my aunt in another state now, to try to take care of my mental health. It's been being really helpful, and she's an angel in my life, I can't express how much I love her and love being here, in my hometown. I'll try to apply to the university in here, so I can stay longer.

But let's go to what really matters now. Thursday, my uncle got his knee operated, and my aunt went to the hospital with him to stay a couple days. At thursday night, my older cousin and his wife came to stay with me and my youngest cousin, so we won't be alone for the night (even though I'm 20 and he's 18). Friday, my aunt told me to call my friends to sleep with us, and so I did.

So here we were: me, Rafa, Ninne and Luiz (my youngest cousin), doing a barbecue and swimming at night (it's really fucking hot here in Brazil this week). And then my dad video calls me. That's weird, my dad never calls me, it's always my mom, but I accepted it.

Dude, the second my mom saw that I was at the pool, her face immeadiatly closed and she asked what I thought I was doing. I explained to her that my aunt was the one to give the idea to call my friends, and she continued to be mad at me. I really don't know why she was mad. Did she think we were having a crazy sex night at the pool? Did she think that I had organized a rave at my aunt's house while she was away? I didn't do any of these stuff. We only had a barbecue and swimmed. Only. Oh, we watched movies too. But that's all. The only boy present in all the situation was my cousin, and that means nothing because I live with him.

Anyway, as we were hanging out the call, my dad says to me to don't do any shit, and I jokily ask "don't you guys trust me?". He answered "no". And hung out. Yeah, that's really fucked up.

See, I don't think I ever did anything to deserve that lack of trust in me. In 20 years of my life, I barely went out of home, I never got home drunk or high, always told my parents where I was going and who were with me, they know all of my friends. Even so, they still don't trust me, and I can't figure out why. I'm 20 years old and they still treat me as if I was 10 and didn't know anything about life and how to take care of myself at all.

Man, they freaked out with me having a night alone, without any "responsible adults" nearby. Imagine when I live by myself? I'm planning to move out next year, if I get into college, and live with my friends and my cats. I think that's capable of giving my mom a heart attack.

Anyway, I'll talk about this with my psychologist later on today. I hope she helps me to not feel anxious every time I talk to my mom. And that I can figure out why the fuck I don't want to come home for summer vacations. Mom wants me to spend january with her, dad and my brother, but, honestly, I feel no will to come back home. It just seem so suffocating! I don't want to go home because that means I'll have the slightly chance to meet my ex without wanting to. And that would be the worst nightmare ever.

Someday I'll tell the story about why he broke up with me. Not today. I have another important things to write about today.

One of those is that I'm under the doubt of having or not Borderline. When I went to the psychiarist, she gave me emotional control pills to take, and I have been taking them since then. She also asked if there was people with bipolarity in my family, and my aunt said that yes, there is, my other aunt and her daughter are also under this doubt. Since this, I couldn't stop thinking and researching about borderline, and it's scary how much I identify with all of the symptoms. All of them.

Also, that would explain a LOT of things in my life. For example, my whole relationship with Mileto, my ex-webgirlfriend. Yes, I webdated when I was 15, you're free to judge me.

Me and her had a relationship that worked based on cycles. There were days where we would be so in love, feeling that nothing would ever end us, imagining a future where we would happily live together with a lot of children and animals in our big house. And, then, the next day we would be fighting so hard that anything would seem to work at all.

Talking to her about it last week, we came to the conclusion that the cycles were there to satisfy both her autism and my possible borderline. By living in a cycle, she would feel safe and confortable, because she would know exactly what's about to happen next, without any scary possibilities that she couln't predict. And I would gladly live in a scenario where I could win and lose interest on her without changing our relationship status.

Yep, that wasn't healthy at all, for neither of us. But we were young and knew little or almost nothing about ourselves, thinking and acting as if we knew everything. That only got us to hurt each other more and more, getting to the point where we broke up definitively, and live happier than ever as friends. She got a girlfriend now, and they're so happy and in love! I'm glad and proud of her, truly. No jealous, just good feelings towards her.

I think that's what love truly is, after all. Being happy about someone, even though you're not the one who got them to feel good.

That leads us to another important point that's been going round and round my head these days: Pablo. He's a boy I met on Tinder when I came to live with my aunt in another state. I downloaded this app because my friends told me so, hoping I would feel a little bit better about my life if I knew new people. They said it would distract my head from thinking about my ex-boyfriend.

Well, it didn't worked 100%, but it actually helped a little.

I started going out with this guy I met there, Pablo, almost two months ago. I think it was 2 weeks after Xande broke up with me. Blame me whatever you want, but I was so desperate to feel a little bit better that I would do actually anything to feel something that wasn't complete sadness and willing to die.

We had sex a couple times, and, in my head, I was certain that it was only this: sex. Hell, how I was wrong.

Maybe I'm feeling things about him, and I'm so fucking scared. The last time I gave all of myself to someone, he threw my heart into the ground and kicked it until it was bleeding. And I'm still recovering from all the wounds he gave me. I had this conversation with Pablo a lot of times, and I honestly think he feels the same, but both of us aren't ready for a serious relationship right now. Specialty me. Seriously, I know that I'll get emotional dependence in anyone that I decide to get romantic with. And I can't do this again. Not now.

I don't think I can survive another heartbreak right now. I still think about Alexandre more than I should, more than it's healthy to think about someone who fucking hurt you until you seriously thought about death, because anything could be possibily worse than what you were feeling at that moment.

That's why I'm so scared. I don't trust anyone with my heart anymore. I can't trust. If I do it, there's a big chance of my heart coming back more injured than it was before, and that I can't handle. I need to recover this first.

Anyway, me and Pablo had the most romantic date I ever had this saturday. We spent the whole day together with my friends and cousin, then I watched him playing football (he's a goalkeeper), and then we went to a hidden spot in the city, where we layed down and watched the stars in the sky, talking about everything. It was so simple, but also so fucking meanable to both of us. It really seemed like I was living inside a romance book or fanfiction.

Alexandre said that life wasn't a book, so I didn't need to be so dramatic at all the times. Well, I think I can romanticize life a little bit now, it wouldn't hurt anyone.

[llycaons]

ep10: and then there's THIS asshole

THAT BITCH. sitting on roofs is wangxian's thing!

xxc looking SHARP. the very very obvious exposition here is so funny

see I don't even think the fans are exaggerating when they talk about him being a kinky bitch I think it's heavily implied in the canon text

SO DRAMATIC LMAO

oh! people write xxc and sl as traveling together but actually before this scene they were doing their own thing and just knew each other as friends

aww, younger jc had some principles after all. along with hopes and dreams. the ability to empathize with other human beings. a chance at getting married someday

they keep talking about xy being so young but wwx and co. are only like 16 here and xy is clearly around their age so??? how young could he possibly be. he was younger in the novels but the timeframe is different anyway

WHY IS HE TIED UP LIKE THAT

LOVE this response. it could be him saying "I have no shame and you can't scare with with your implications because I don't care about my reputation' OR it could mean 'I'm already gay and everyone knows it, you bitch. your move'

huaisang they are literally surrounded by corpses. why do you think

wwx latching onto this and them smiling SO big at lwj...jc getting mad at him...ough

side note I think that we can assume that he's at peace with his sexuality and any resistance he has to being into lwj is much more about his hangups around commitment and being loved, and about his embarrassment over being attracted to someone so strict and unfun (and maybe also he feels like he's not allowed to want/have things in his precarious role in the family and therefore ruins his own opportunities reflexively)

lwj I think does have some internalized homophobia to work through but a lot of HIS resistance is related to feeling shame over having desires/emotions esp romantic/sexual ones (father issues, also maybe his upbringing and personality too) and also embarrassment that he likes someone as wild and unconventional as wwx. anyway

nhs waxing poetic about handsome gentlemen for the second time in two episodes and people still write him as straight?

wwx looks so fucking miserable watching xxc walk away with no more info on his mom and jc SEES that oughhh

BIG SEXY IS HERE!!!!! I am of course referring to both nmj and baxia but I couldn't get a good pic of baxia and there's a limit on the number of images per post anyway

jc and wwx looking so pleased at the praise is ADORABLE. I actually think a fun hc is that nmj is the reason wwx knows he's into dudes

also, nmj being the ONLY person to call lwj 'wangji'! he's such a big brother...

oh shit I forgot this. wwx is the one to save xy's life here! honestly this was for the best. despite all the horrible things xy did later, I don't think it would have been okay if nmj personally killed a defenseless man in cold blood just because he was angry

WHAT A DICK I know I just said killing xy in cold blood out of a personal sense of anger would be bad but honestly I don't even begrudge jgy for taking his chance and murdering this guy

he's also SO stupid for letting prejudice and his ego get in the way of doing his job and carrying out his SECT LEADER'S orders

iirc this is literally the only time jgy and wwx are alone in a scene together and it's just a very polite exchange and wwx thanks him for all his hard work while everyone else is feasting after the commander was a dick to him aww. flash forward 20 years and wwx is like 'I never hurt you! Why did you ruin my life!" and jgy was like 'well SOMEONE was going to and it may as well have been me!' insane

this line is more romantic than "'l'll sleep on your roof tonight" imo

ah the gentle longing of first love, unceremoniously doused in the cold water of the realities of war. one of the more background tragedies of this show

OH FUCK THERE'S WZL!!!!! MY GUY!!!!! IN THE CORNER!!!!

fun fact: apparently this is a very famous shooting location and it's used in a ton of cdramas

despite this action I don't think he genuinely cares about nmj, honestly. appreciated, almost certainly. but I don't think he truly respected or cared about many people. it's just that he could see his death right there in nmj's eyes and this choice was a last-ditch gambit to preserve his own life by risking it in the most performative way possible

isn't it wild that wen chao and jiang cheng have the same advice for wwx which is: stop interfering in the affairs of other clans?

even the ego-blinded wen chao can tell that wwx is into lwj

honestly wwx's crush just makes me so sad in this arc. so delicate and new and he's so young and so many terrible things will happen

see I think lxc valuing jgy and publicly supporting him and praising him earned him one of the only spots on the list of people jgy genuinely cares about. I don't think he respects him, at least not enough to not use him to murder his friend, but I will argue that jgy feels genuine affection for lxc and BELIEVES he never hurt him/never wanted to hurt him. this dialogue is mental, it's not a performance

this is also why jgy/lxc is more emotionally true to me than either of them with nmj (even tho I obviously don't support it or thinks jgy would be a good romantic partner), sorry nielan fans I appreciate your perspective but I think this is the more textually supported one, even if it ends much worse

jgy is so fascinating to me like the way he'll twist himself into whatever he needs to in order to survive. he defends himself saying 'he said horrible things to me and beat me' then 'he insulted my mother' then 'he took credit for my accomplishments' and each one seeming to flow naturally to the next as nmj rejected those reasons…very interesting that nmj criticizes jgy for wanting praise and credit, contrasting characters like lwj, who are widely praised for not caring about credit or glory

this last shot of nmj IS haunting tho. jgy may not have cared about him but I think nmj really cared about and trusted jgy, and this betrayal of someone who values justice and loyalty was very hard to take

personal highlights:

wwx comparing himself and lwj to xxc/sl

nhs complimenting xxc and sl in a gay way

wzl in his first appearance!!

wen chao noticing how much wwx likes lwj, which is kind of horrifying but also it's a good measure of just how obvious he is and people do not talk about wwx being hopelessly in love enough

[kedreeva]

This is going around right now and I just want to make it clear that the guy had a real job that wasn't selling his pet chickens eggs, he was just mad he couldn't price gouge the locals and he was getting absolutely dragged for it. And rightly so.

Here's why: there's a lot of tags about people who give away eggs or sell eggs cheap and how pretty much everyone who owns chickens has too many eggs and that's because chicken math gets people. A family of 4 that eats an egg-heavy meal 3-4 times a week probably only needs 4 chickens. You get kind of sick of eggs, at that rate, unless you're super into them, Gaston. You can get creative for a while. Add them to things like meatloaf, bake things, egg wash things, etc...

But at some point it's a lot. And most people aren't keeping 4 chickens unless local regulation prevents them from having more. Because chicken math gets them. They get a small coop with a reasonable amount of chickens. Maybe 4-6, maybe they plan to give extras to friends or something.

And then they love it actually. They love having the tiny little fluffballs in a brooder. They love petting the silky adults and watching them scratch around. It's spring and they go to TSC or wherever to get feed and there's peeping chicks and they already have a few what's a few more chickens? 6 chickens plus 4 chickens is basically still 6 chickens anyway and if you're going to get 10 chickens you might as well make it an even dozen.

And then it's 3 years later and they have two dozen chickens in Cluckingham Palace, and it's actually 30 chickens but the babies following mom don't count because one of the "pullet" babies was a rooster so now their chickens make more of themselves every chance they get but there's always a favorite to hang onto, so it will probably be 26 soon, and no one is eating 20+ eggs a day.

And the thing is, you give them to friends and you give them to family and you give them to neighbors and you give them to co-workers if you have them. Maybe you sell some, to cover the cost of feed, and maybe EVENTUALLY you will make back the hundreds you put into the coop and the equipment, if you were thrifty and you're avid about selling. But mostly by the time chicken math gets you, you're doing it for fun and to have fresh eggs from chickens you know are being treated humanely.

And sometimes, if you are also lucky and social, you learn to barter with locals who have other things. Local honey, local meat and milk, local veggies or fruit, local Stuff. This year I traded many dozens of quail eggs for a metal spool I could disassemble and use to hold up netting over my bird pen.

But what you don't do, and what is considered gross by pretty much every other chicken keeper out there, is bitch that you can't collude with all other local backyard chicken keepers in order to price gouge your community together. That's just unilaterally considered being a dickwad.

There's some dude (derogatory) on FB who is PISSED people are pricing their farm fresh eggs at $2 and $3 a dozen instead of $4+, saying it's "disrespectful" and "undignified" and "I'm trying to feed my kids" like Sir, you are on a Facebook group page bitching about your neighbors egg prices because your pet chickens aren't earning you a living wage and you think it's your neighbors' fault, you do not have a leg to stand on here wrt dignity.

Also half the answers are like "I give them to friends and family free" or "I donate them to food banks" or "I'm making them affordable to folks who might not otherwise be able to get them now that they're so expensive in the store" and "if you think you're going to turn a profit keeping backyard chickens you have been wildly misled" and so on, and so forth, and I'm so living for it.

and I can tell you right now, he did NOT like my answer of "if you're trying to feed your kids, I hear eggs are edible."

[nathank77]

1/1/24

8:53 a.m Added to Significantly 9 a.m

So skye and liv dragged their ass getting downstairs. They got down there around 8 p.m. I was exhausted. I stayed with them until about 9:50 p.m. I was so on the fence cause they were talking to livs mom on the phone and they were super loud.

I wanted to go to bed but I didn't want to be a cunt if they were laughing and enjoying themselves. I figured the only way me getting angry was justified was if they played with Riley with her loud toys but I couldn't get mad at them if they played games and laughed on new years eve. I ate which i regret cause I mean I cheated on my diet sadly... and I'll prob have to cheat today bc they got mac and cheese. Idk. I also accidentally ate expired by 2 weeks Ritz crackers they brought down so I'm anxiuos about that but I'm trying to remind myself that once my mother went to the food bank and got twinkies and I ate one and found out a couple hours later they had expired by 3 months... that's when I stopped eating food bank food bc people give old expired shit to poor people but nonetheless nothing happened.. the Ritz crackers tasted good. But I guess we will see what happens..

Anyways skye mentioned how if I went to bed her and Liv would celebrate with the cats.... and then I really wanted to go to bed...but once skye was like I'm going to shower.. i was like if you shower I'm going to bed. And she was like but I got to shower. And I'm going to now it'll only be 20 minutes.

And then liv was like I'll stay down here with you... all mom kept talking about was Riley and how she wished she could come out. And skye went upstairs and I was like a runaway train 🤣 liv was like wait you're really going to bed? And I'm said, "ummm yup, I worked hard on my circadian rhythm and I need my sleep and if I stay up I won't get enough sleep if I wake up to my alarms and if I sleep through them then my circadian rhythm will get fucked up and I'll end up waking up at like 2:30 p.m and going to bed at 8 a.m again and I like being the guy who wakes up at 7:30 in the morning and goes to bed at 9 p.m..I like being at the gym at 8:30 or 9 a.m. thanks for being willing to stay, happy new years!"

And I bounced. I took a gaint Xanax and was out by like 11:30 the latest. I mean I took more incase they were loud.

My only regret besides cheating on my diet is that I had one extra cigarette bc I should have left at 9 p.m and kept my boundaries 1000% in check but I mean I still kept my boundaries. I had 4 cigarettes.... I'm disappointed in myself.. but I'll just stay at 3 from here on out.

I'm getting ready to go to the gym and kick my ass. Skye was talking about joining the gym or buying a treadmill which would have went over my room and been loud af... and I talked her into buying a gym membership bc of all the equipment... and selfishly I don't want her running above my head but I mean the gym actually has a lot of equipment.... like you can't do the workout I do at home unless you buy a lot of shit...

But now she wants me to teach her how to gym lol no one says anything to me about my body but I post on fb all the time and they know I'm getting muscular af and I know what I'm doing 😆 point in case. She wants to go on Saturday with me and I'm like it depends on how my body feels... cause it does. I do full body workout spread out over a week... and I may plan to go one day but then wake up and be like none of my body can take it.

Idk why she wants to join. She's thin. Maybe her whole, "idk how you're going to find a gf with hearing aids at 33 years old but hey at least you'll have abs." Was not only an asshole thing to say and trying to demotivate me bc I'm getting abs lol trying to turn abs into a bad thing or like cancel them out. But she prob is jealous that I'm getting abs lol

It's weird not having seen the ball drop and it would have been fun to play drawfull and do new years like last year... but mom was a downer. And my circadian rhythm is very important to me. I'm disappointed about the cigarette but not that I chose having boundaries bc I didn't want to wait for her to take a shower... and I was really tired. I was thinking the entire time bc i was so tired i could have fallen asleep without Xanax but I know my brain would have never reached sleep stage one without it... but I was that tired...

I know i woke up needing to pee but I had an amnesia moment with xanax. Idk if I peed or not. I think i did but idk. I truly do not know. I don't think i did. I think i woke up briefly planned to and fell back to sleep and dreamed it but Idk! But either way I got a nice 8 hours or 7 1/2 hours and I feel great and I'm ready for the gym.

I'm worried about sleep bc I have to transition back to my regular Xanax dose but I'll worry about that later.

I mean I wish I could have been with a healthy happy family and stayed up and had someone to kiss at midnight... it would have been nice to have a new years kiss but I mean it wasn't going to happen and I'm glad I slept. I do feel I missed out not seeing the ball drop or playing video games with them. Hopefully they make it up today. Bc I need to practice boundaries. I did good last night mostly but I need to do better. Cause my circadian rhythm is a huge accomplishment and I don't want to wait around for people..... and they were so late coming down last night and I was so mad about it.

I pooped my xanax at about 9:50 p.m... much later than usual... but still within my xanax hour. So I still did have boundaries. I just wish I dipped out at 9 p.m.. it was fun besides for my mother and all her comments about how she can't touch the food (they let me grab my food first... so she was just being a cunt bc I had already taken what I was going eat.....) she kept making comments i can't touch it. I'm gross to him. I wish Riley could come out. Etc. She always makes me feel bad about having ocd.

I mean I get first pick and then I'm done. I don't take more, anyone can lick it after I take my food. I don't ask to have the first plate that's my sister being a good person of her own volition bc they know i won't eat if everyone touches the food. But I also don't make a big deal about it. I buy my own food and I'll eat my own food and I'll stay on my diet. I don't flip shit if they forget or whatever..... skyes just being a good person same with Liv and mom wants to be a cunt.

Anyways I had a dream about Elise. A very detailed dream... she sold her account. Someone else had taken over it and started talking to me and eventually sent me pictures... and then she was like, I was the only one who ever owned this account. I didn't buy it from someone... Idk what you're talking about. And then I was like maybe what I thought happened between us never happened and I was crazy and I was talking to someone else i thought was her this whole time.

I'm glad when I woke up I realized how ridiculous the whole thing was..

But yea. My hearing aid appt is coming soon and I'm freaking about not picking the right ones... and my glasses and what people will think about me when I end up wearing them but it's whatever. I may not find someone ever regardless and I got to hope that there is some chance Elise is in love with me even if it's delusional. I dont think it is. But I do. But even if it is it gives me some hope.

[folklore-barnes]

Me being mad at Kyle Shanahan is not a first, but THIS mad?? might be so

straight from the notes app, i'm not even gonna read it again idk so forgive me if there are some typos.

one of my problems with kyle is that he does not learn from his mistakes and he's too idealistic. you don't coach for what you wish you had, you coach for what you know you have. he should not have drawn up that many plays for deebo. he should not have given him the ball again after strike 3. i get it, coaches don't really do things like we do, it's the reason they're there. they're usually smarter, take much more things into consideration, and in his case, he's very patient. maybe a little too patient. he probably could've tried again with deebo in the second half, but after strike 3??? he should not have given the ball to deebo, and in the cases where it was brock who chose to, he shouldn't have either if the case was that someone else was open (we'll get to brock later).

this type of decision making was what lost them the super bowl back in the 19-20 season. james was freaked out, he was not delivering, and kyle still chose to use him instead of using the run game that was working accordingly. and it sucks that after 4 years, he's still shooting himself in the foot in the same way. this is not the type of play caller that i'd like to have, idk why he didn't stick to what he was doing last sunday, which was clearly working, but had he done that, this game could've ended differently. those passes that deebo dropped could've been big had they gone to somebody else's hands. now ik jauan and kittle dropped passes for different circumstances, but they were still producing better than him. deebo should NOT have gotten the ball so many damn times. idk if kyle was trying to make him shake off the insecurity like viper did with maverick in the first top gun movie after goose died and he sent him to fly as soon as possible so he'd shake off the grief. i don't know. but it sucked to see. you're not here to cater to your players, even if they're your favorite players. you're here to call up the plays that will win you a football game. that man was officially on tank mode, knowingly or not, and his behavior is the kinda shit that'll make you lose a locker room, especially those who are newer to this. guys like fred, george, juice, dre, huf and nick, who've been there for a while know what kyle is all about and can give some grace, but the newer guys??? watch out and get it together, kyle. or you're not gonna be around them much longer.

AND BTW, try being a little less stitious next time. it wasn't just the brock and dmo speech that won y'all the game last Sunday, it was also your play calling. you can't run the plane into the ground on purpose and hope that because brock and dmo spoke at the meeting by fate or some miraculous bs, the plane will go up on its own. YOU are the pilot, how about you actually try to fly the damn plane and get it to the next destination, instead of relying on fate and destiny or whatever.

so although i'm mad at whatever bs billy garoppolo said, simply bc it was a garoppolo and it seems ironic when he's kissing the bench in los angeles every week. the truth is, he didn't really call plays like a genius. he went stupid and not in a fun way. i think that's it.

no it's not, DO US ALL A FAVOR AND HIRE AN OC, GET IT TOGETHER OR GET LOST. i love you, king😽

[touchstoneaf]

So okay. I feel the need to speak on this again. I think it's getting out of hand. Yes, I am breaking my own rules enough to watch ongoing developments with interest. Far more so than when I strictly avoided this sort of thing in another fandom (in that case because I knew that the likelihood was much higher that the two guys in question were just goofing around having a good time and leavening the tension inherent in their roles, and by it giving us subtext fiends another layer to find)... But, that was also 20-odd years ago, when that sort of thing couldn't safely exist on the surface.

This is different for me because, yes I am following developments with interest, because in this case it does seem more plausible; partially because the tidbits we're getting from certain socials make it seem like more than just a game (and it would be a kind of a cruel game at this point, played at all of our expense, and I don't think the people involved would actually act that way with us. They're too kind in general, allies if not more). So, yes, there seems to be rhyme & reason behind the madness in this case; real hinting instead of "just goofing around". And the world is different now, and that kind of "goofing around" would not be fanservice anymore, would not be taken so well.

On the other hand, I would be perfectly happy whichever way it went. If we just get this generation's version of Ian McKellen and Patrick Stewart out of this? Well, that would be lovely. If they continue to watch each other's kids, and go to each other's opening nights, and give each other support and love as friends for the rest of their lives... that would be fantastic! The world needs more loving, supportive, kind, gentle male friendships. They don't all have to be sexual. Either way, they are fighting toxic masculinity everyday just by existing. They are part of the fight even if it stays platonic (or even queerplatonic. Let us not forget; that is also valid). Should everybody continue to have family dinners together, and to take holiday trips together, and act like a big extended family... then, how wonderful! What a joy!

If, of course, it's something more, then I will be happy to see it, obvs, because obviously we need an older generation of queers in this world to look to, because we've lost so many, and it would be rather lovely to have that as well, and to have people realize that it's not always just kids out of high school or whatever finding their queer joy (in whatever form). That you can find your happiness later in life in that way--just as so many straight people have whilst working together--yes, that would be beyond great.

But, I'm not really hung up on it either way. Because either way, we have a beautiful friendship in the world that gives us all joy to witness it. (And honestly, because I'm Poly, probably, I find that likelihood to be much more positive than the whole standard Mono rigmarole of "breaking up with somebody to be with someone else". The latter's a tired schtick, and I'm over it. I want to see high-profile people doing this the right way (or at least what is, in my mind, the right way), and everybody being honored in the situation. Loves Do Not Have To Cancel Each Other Out; especially when there are families involved! People can work together in unique configurations, and that's all right if it works for them, dammit! And if anybody tells me DT is not still madly in love with his wife, I think they are fooling themselves. You can't fake what they have when the cameras are on them. And I'm here for all of it.)

That being the case, what I don't understand is when people get all weird and toxic about this thing, & act like they have some kind of stake in it being one way or the other; to the point where they think they can talk badly about other people's partners and families. I Just Don't Understand how they feel like they have the right to treat partners / RL people as obstacles to something that may or may not even be happening. First of all, you're putting negative energy out in the world, and there's enough of that as it is. Secondly, why are y'all taking such a big stake in this? It's not your lives to stake!

MOST IMPORTANTLY, thirdly, if that IS what's happening here, this is a very complicated and difficult situation for them all, and dammit, we should SUPPORT them while they work thru it, the way they support us... Which means supporting however they decide to solve it, not cheering for destruction of any particular person involved.

TL:DR, ultimately it's not our business. We're lucky we have a window, and that we get to smile from the sidelines and cross our fingers. One way or the other, ppl need to chill the fuck out.

[non-binary-lil-star]

I AM AO SORRY I had to jsjsbsvsbbdgd

Touya looks over his shoulder, bored of checking his Instagram once again while waiting for Shoto. The little shit should've messaged him telling that the class would end later cause his teacher was mad at the students or something. Now hes stuck here for another half an hour sitting on the grass outside of a fucking hero school. Honestly.

He gets up, looking around but there's quite literally nothing to do there. He decides to fuck around and find out what all the hype around this place is about.

There are tall buildings and organized streets as far as the eye can see. The campus is huge and Touya can see his reflection on the windows glasses. His tattos cover most of his face, as well as a good portion of his arms. He initially got them when he first ran away from home, mainly to piss out Endeavor, but he had grown quite fond of them. Dark flames covering his cheekbones and arms, circling his legs, making his jewelry look all the more shiny. Shoto and Natsuo said it made him look like an asshole.

Turning around another corner, he suddenly sees a blonde guy coming his way. Pretty guy too, with big red wings and a sarcastic smile on his face. Hes obviously not a student, unless of course students are allowed to walk around without their uniforms (and repeat the same year at least 5 times).

Seeing he still has about 20 minutes until Shoto is out, Todoroki decides to shoot his shot with the guy.

On the way to him thought, he passes in front of Shotos class, waving at his brother, who sees him and starts gesturing for him to go away. Shotos actions backfired on him, as his classmates looked throught the window to see what he was waving so frantically at and start staring and yelling. The teacher looks at him as though he wanted him dead there and then, and Touya takes that as his cue to go.

The blonde guy is walking slowly towards the exit, messaging someone on his phone. Touya has the weirdest sense of deja-vu when he sees him, but can't point out what in the guy makes him feel like that.

"Hey birdie." Blondie looks up at him "Whacha doing here ? You don't exactly look like a student. "

"Neither do... you...tatto guy" Touya chuckles at that, as the man looks him up and down.

"I'm here to pick up my little brother, Shoto" He says finally

"As in Shoto Todoroki from 1A ?" Touya nods." He's a nice kid, I was just in his class"

Touya hums, leaning on the wall behind him "It's a word to describe him. Weird also might do" The man doesn't seen to be paying attention to what he's saying, eyes set on Touyas various shining piercings.

"Yeah, sure" Blonde man puts his phone in his pocket "Hum-" He looks away "Do you want an autograph or something?"

"An autograph?" Todoroki raises an eyebrow "Are you famous?" The man gasps

"You don't know who I am?!"

"Should I? You were the winner of some hot guy show?" Blonde man flushes, rolling his eyes a bit

"I'm Hawks. Pro hero number two? Fastest man? Winged hero?"

"Not really into heroes" Touya shrugs "I could make an exception though." He eyes Hawks again. What a slow guy.

"Not into heroes? What about your bro- Wait what did you just say?" Suddenly, he seems to realize something "You're Touya Todoroki. As in, Endeavors kid, Touya Todoroki" Hawks eyes widden as he says it

"Yes?" Touya frowns, turning around "I'm also a musician and a political sciences major but whatever"

"Wait, wait!" A red feather pushes his shoulder lightly to turn back around "Okay, this might be a bit weird but I've been begging for your number for forever. I've met all the Todorokis, and yet, the most interesting one seemed to be kept from me." Hawks takes the feather and uses to write something on a piece of paper, that he puts in Touyas pocket. "I gotta go now, but you should call me. I want to inspect further those tattos..." He winks, and takes flight.

Touya is, to say, a bit more than flushed. He rarely gets embarrassed like this, but then again, it's not every day the hero number two says he's been begging your dad for your number. And it's not every day award winning smile drop dead gorgeous guys so openly flirt with him.

As he's about to put Hawks number into his phone, the classrooms door opens and twenty kids run out in a hurry. His brother is the last one, walking slowly as if he can stay back and avoid what's coming. Ha.

Touya goes right to him, ignoring the other kids stares. He messes Shotos hair, just because. "Ready to go?"

"I-"

"Are you really Todorokis brother?!!" A pink girl screams from behind him "He told us you were a crybaby!" She gasps

"He did?" Touya smirks "Well, you can see for yourselves that Shoto here is a liar. He's the crybaby one" Shoto gives him an angry glare.

But pink girl is not paying attention anymore. She's whispering with a blonde boy that looks like a pokemon, a red haired boy and something that could be a shadow quirk or an invisibility one.

"He's so hot!" Denki whispers to Mina

"So hot." She agrees, nodding "Think we can get his number?"

"We are way to young, dude" Kirishima gives them both a worried glance "Besides, how do we know he doesn't have a girlfriend?"

"Or a boyfriend" Denki adds, blushing. Kirishima rolls his eyes. "What? I'm bi!"

"We know" He and Mina answer in unison. It's Bakugous time to roll his eyes "You can't be seriously being like this at shitty half and halfs shitty brother. What's so special about that guy anyway? Bet I can take him in a fight."

"Shut up Bakugou you're just saying this cause you're in love with-" Bakugou interrupts her by using an explosion to fly to Touya, who pays him no mind.

"HEY! Ugly tatto bitch face! What are you doing at my school?" Touya turns to him, raising an eyebrow "Your school?" Shoto rolls his eyes, seemingly considering hitting his head against the wall.

"Kacchan" Midoryia puts himself between the two "Don't treat him like that, he's our friends brother!"

"Hu?! I'm not fucking friends with half and half!" Bakugou yells, and pushes Midoryia away violently. Touya gives him a wicked grin.

"You seemed funny at first, explosion boy. But, see, you've not only talked shit about my brother but pushed one of his friends."

"What do you fucking me-" A fire fist hits him in the stomach. For a moment, he's breathless, throw back all the way to the other side of the street. Soon, Bakugou comes back though, flying and yelling. As he's about to get him with an explosion, Touya just steps to the side, letting him hit the wall, that's torn into pieces. As the kid gets up he puts a foot on his ankle, making him clumsily trip forwards. His friends laugh a bit.

"Let's go, Shoto" Touya makes his way out, and an embarrassed Shoto follows him with a sight. A few seconds later, Aizawa shows at the scene.

"WHAT THE FUCK HAPPENED HE-"

...

Bonus

Hawks *grabbing shotos collar and shaking him * Why didn't you TELL me your brother was an absolute BABE

Shoto * looking like he might throw up * my brothers a WHAT

Teenage Shouto talking about his older brother that's "very emotional" and "is a big cry baby". Everyone in Class 1-A, especially those who have met Fuyumi, imagines Touya as this adorable angel who could do no wrong.

Cut to two weeks later and a black haired, piercing filled man with the most shit eating of smirks is seen at the entrance of the school, about to pick up Shouto. He almost got Bakugou to blow up one of the walls and definitely got the number of visiting pro hero Hawks while he was waiting for Shouto's class to end.

Class 1-A is very, very confused. This is the crybaby older brother Shouto was talking about?? Bitch where???

[punhetamaistriste]

A hunk with a big dick fucked me today.

We tapped each other on Grindr. I was desperate, downloaded the app and less than 4 hours later I was in his apartment riding him. He is a little taller than me, is a trad top (so yeah it's not my first option but I gave it to him), has a chest tattoo with some tribal design that goes down his right arm, is somewhere between 35 and 42, and is balding slowly enough to hide still. I wouldn't qualify him as a "daddy"; he's just some straight passing gay guy. He sent me photos of his face and muscular build (he was better looking in person), and of his thick dick (which was also better looking in person). I put his flaccid penis in my mouth until it got hard before we kissed when I got there. It grew bigger than expected. We kissed and, while I tasted menthol in his mouth, it wasn't enough menthol to hide something that was off. I still don't know what it is, anyway, but it remembered me of another grindr hook-up I had last year who also had a weird taste in his mouth (he was very weird in general, and tried to explain to me why prep is like the ultimate gay vaccine) that I now recognize as the metallic, acid taste of lithium.

I have manic depression (or, as someone said here on this godforsaken site, the fiesta-siesta syndrome) and I am, currently, manic. I'm writing to avoid sleeping right now. While I'm manic I feel very happy, unfocused, hungry and electric (I danced like a mad man while cooking lunch today). Also, I want to have crazy sex sometimes (I'm not a very sexual person when normal). I've been livetweeting my need for sex for the past week. So, I downloaded grindr today and 4 hours later I was getting dicked down. And what a dick! Almost too big (I confess I thought I wouldn't handle), almost as thick as my pulse and from a man who knows sex as if she's the friendly neighbour who helped him move in. I don't know if it's a manic reaction or just that I didn't have penetrate sex months before today, but it was my easiest orgasm. I was TRASHED. But I felt then, and I feel now: the metallic, acid taste of lithium. And it's coming from my mouth.

It's been 20 days since my psychiatrist put me on lithium. I felt no side effects (or, to be honest, effects) but diarrhea in the first week and that fucking taste in my mouth. I can't seem to get rid of it if I'm not drinking water nonstop. But I hate to piss. So I don't want to drink water. But the taste is terrible. So I drink water or juice or whatever non alcoholic beverage is there. So I piss a lot. But I hate to piss. So it goes. I thought lithium would immediately turn me into a normal person, and honestly I'm disappointed that didn't happen. I've been weird all my life, and every time I try to grasp some normalcy it seems to run away from me. I broke up with my almost perfect girlfriend when I was at my worse and didn't want to drag her there, and my life with her was the closest to normalcy I ever got. I talked about her to my grindr hook-up after we had sex, and he talked about his past relationships as well. We showered and drank grape juice. He's on closet. I have no idea what his job is for him to be closeted. We plan on seeing each other again, and now I'm not thinking about sex anymore so it could be never. We both have weird tastes in our mouths and a desire to keep it a secret. Him for his reasons, me to keep my disorder-driven, questionable sex life apart from my real life. I don't want to be seen as a manic depressive guy. Jimi Hendrix wasn't. I am not him, but I can't be defined by a personality disorder that is essentially the worst mental disorder anyone can have. All manic depressives die soon. Only type 2s can live a life. I feel envy of them.

If you ever kissed a person and felt this taste in their mouth, now you know. They are crazy bitches.

[horn-of-leo]

i feel like i talk too negatively when going on rants here so i wanted to share good news :D

I rewatched the whole series again with my sib and it was honestly great to sort of go through the rollercoaster again, especially because she's never watched past the Sanctuary arc(I'm the only one who's watched it full through) so it was cool to experience it again with someone reacting for the first time plus we've made so many funny jokes out of the whole run

I'm gonna just be talking about the whole experience in here of what we've watched (cuz it will be the whole series)

Sanctuary Arc:

The good ol '80s anime, my sibs and I grew up with the English dub(the ADV one), and sometimes I see people saying it's bad but I don't think so, honestly tho this dub was probably the reason I had no clue everyone was supposed to apparently be young teenagers/adults since everyone voicing in this ver is obviously a 30+ year old man, I mean some characters do sound like they recruited the first guy they found at the office to fill in for the role and probably only told them the name of the character but never showed them what the actual character looked/should sound like(*cough* Camus) but other than that I think everyone does a great job. idk probably bias since I grew up with it but I'm telling you that no other dub will go as ham as the ADV one. It's such a shame they didn't at least get to finish the Sanctuary arc and only got up to 60 episodes. I actually got a little sad when we finished out the eng dub episodes too lol and I know there's the other one but I ain't watching it

ANYWAYS, it's honestly very funny to look at all of the fillers for this arc and just know the anime did not know what type of series it was going to be since the beginning, it's like they tried to do a villain of the week format since they had the basis of the mad grab for the Sagittarius helmet that was also apparently the most powerful cloth in the world and it turns you into a super saint that could destroy the world if taken into the wrong hands, and it's the only gold cloth in the world...until like another 20 eps in where they have to start writing around what they had and go with the manga continuity as best as they could

I really do enjoy the fillers that they have for this tho, because it not only gets the main five to like chill from doing the main plot for five seconds but it gets to add more character/bonding between them. One thing I really liked is that there is more development of Saori reaching out to them and making up for how she's treated them in the past since they're all already on edge with her since she was so spoiled and treated them like garbage when they were all kids. So to see them all gradually warming up to each other is great and it makes it more plausible that they'd want to still keep fighting for each other (as compared to the manga where they still hate her even into the Sanctuary arc and they only arrived to fight for their own personal reasons and tolerate her at best because she's Athena, it's so disheartening to read actually, like WHAT'S THE ACTUAL POINT THEN IF THEY DON'T EVEN LIKE HER???)

Another thing is that I really like is how they handled Shiryu's character arc when he lost his sight. As compared to the handwave from the manga, he's greatly affected by what's happened and might have to come to terms that he'll never be able to fight again beside everyone when something like the fight against the Sanctuary is so near. And it's a huge blow to the team as well that they basically just disband right there for a couple of seconds (but then get back a few eps later since the Algol vs. Shiryu fight was earlier and they still had a few more silver saints to get through).

So when the anime cuts back to Shiryu, it's shown he can't adapt to his life right away and is still suffering from ptsd of both losing his sight and the fear of being left behind that he's honestly lost hope that he'll ever recover. But after having his fight with Ohko(anime-only guy he's trained with as a kid) it kickstarts him find his drive to fight again and that even if he is blind, he's found out that it's not the end for him as a saint and his life in general too.

I did enjoy the other fillers about the others doing stuff too, though poor Shun having nothing to his name tho😭(he deserved to have something at least but I guess his character arc is a slow burn since he doesn't really develop as a character until near the end of the arc itself/later arcs)

Anyways on to where the ball really drops at the 12 houses arc:

No need to individually talk about every single battle lol cuz that would get so long and I don't really have anything else new to add while rewatching.

Personally, I think there's quite a dip to where the arc kind of peaks the first time around the Leo-Virgo temple where I start to tune out then basically get interested back around the last three houses where everyone starts to die for real. It doesn't help really that before Shaka's fight, we just have two long episodes of Ikki getting his ass beat and Shaka personally making sure Ikki is getting his ass beat which is a little funny and he was so petty for that.

But anyway after Shaka, it starts to drag a little going on with the Libra house then with Milo having the best anime original fight against Seiya/Shiryu to having the ugliest episode of the whole series.

Also sorry, I only liked the part where Seiya and Shiryu fight him, the actual fight between Hyoga and Milo I start to tune out. Honestly though, while the Milo vs. Hyoga is definitely one of the most disconnected fights of the arc, I did appreciate the fight cause it still is good for Hyoga's development (plus its probably to make up for him doing basically nothing the whole arc until now).

Skipping ahead to the fight against Saga, I remembered that Seiya has basically checked out since Aioria's fight(which I cannot blame since he did get super fucked up during so) but that last hour really hangs on for a good 6 episodes.

I think it was sad we didn't actually get to have the flashback where Saga turns evil since the anime team(godbless them) had to make up the craziest shit to fill in for the story, only for Kurumada to cancel out every single story plot they wrote so they couldn't possibly ever really try to even say it was Saga who was the pope for the last 13 years. Since they introduced Pope Ares as the first Pope's evil brother who has just recently took over shortly after Seiya left after earning his armor and was straight up evil for no good reason that it seems almost stupid any of the Gold Saints could even think he was a good person when the first thing acknowledged by both Aioria and Marin when he was introduced is that he was pure evil. Which isn't even the start of how they tried to write around that plot point for the anime afterwards where it gets even more confusing of where Saga really comes in the picture and basically settling that since it was a good 60 episodes ago, you'd basically have forgotten the lore they've written up to let it slide, which is fair tbh.

Also, I think the anime has a better conclusion to this arc since everyone joins up together to jump Saga at the end. Plus Saori got to roast him too so that was cool.

Asgard Arc

It felt very bittersweet to move on from the Sanctuary arc into Asgard. I wanted to give this arc a chance, unfortunately I still couldn't find myself really getting into it. Plus the subs are very bad around this part so it was hard to know what the characters names were and ultimately we just skipped around until there was scene that was either originally in the manga/final parts of the arc that carries on into the next one.

I guess it's not great for group watching when none of us are really interested since the changes of the artstyle/armor designs is a little disheartening to see. Plus the pacing was kinda of not great(?) like the cuts were way too fast or skipped to a wildly different scene from the last that we couldn't tell if we like missed an episode or it was the opposite where we just sat simmering at a scene of the characters acting like dragon ball characters for a good 5+ minutes for padding.

Personally, I do think the character designs are super great though and probably the only thing I wished that happened was that they all lived so their back stories wouldn't be completely useless to know (tho ig Siegfred could die since it had some reason to it, tho it's still kind of dumb how it happened) but I'd maybe have to go back to watch it myself to maybe appreciate it more but who knows? I just wish there are better subs out there that I could probably stand watching it.

Poseidon Arc:

Kind of a lukewarm arc tbh, I don't feel like I have anything else to add really on this rewatch.

I have my gripes about certain characters/stories in this arc and they've made some changes I definitely don't like. Main offender is the scene where Seiya take Poseidon's trident to shield Saori when this scene was originally supposed to be Kanon's redemption scene and ultimately it adds nothing because Seiya just walks it off. Though the only reason why I can guess they made this change was because I assume it would confuse people when Kanon comes back in the Hades arc and it turns out he survived but it wasn't known then and that arc wasn't animated until a good 10 years later. And I'm pretty sure the anime already knew it was wrapping up by then, so they chose to have Seiya take the blow and not seemingly kill Kanon and instead just left it more ambiguous if he was able to make it out of Atlantis or not when they sealed Poseidon. Though it's just my speculation.

It was a little sad to finally finish the whole 80s anime but I think it's good they at least got to finish up til the Poseidon arc. But other than that I think that they had a good wrap up with everyone being happy in the end and they gave Shaina great drip when they're all out in their normal clothes again, so bonus for that ending.

Hades Arc:

Man, this one was super long to get into. Gotta divide them up for each OVA. We're getting into the 2000s babey!

Sanctuary OVA:

I'll be real this one is literally so good. The opening, the animation, added scenes are super cool. The op definitely has that sad 2000s vibe but that's what makes it really good and it really captures the feels of the whole arc too and the song slaps so hard. I'll be real the 3D is a little cheesy and off-putting but they tried so I'll give it to them. I wish the OVAs all had the same quality as this one, it's really such a shame this one was basically as good as it gets Hades arc-wise. Personally, I think everything was done really beautifully during this arc, and I guess it helps that this part is mostly Gold Saint-focused. I really liked watching this part honestly, idk why it has this sentimental value to me, I guess it was just the opening lol. All the scenes just hit and its sad to me ;w;

It was a great comeback tbh, though I guess it's too bad that it's only downhill from here...

Inferno + Elysium OVAs:

I'll just combine the last two OVAs together, because not much good things to add afterwards. It's more of just getting through with it unfortunately. By here, I really can't get invested since technically everyone's character arcs are basically over other than just pointlessly fighting because they need to do so.

I think it was said that the animation studio changed or at least it wasn't the same one like in the first one, and it's super noticeable with how static everyone is and it really only gets worse in the Elysium chapter with its cheesy ass google slides transitions.

Personally though, I like the new voice actors (even if it's kind of sad we don't hear the old ones) but I don't think there's really a problem they've recasted them. I just think there is a point where it's very noticeable that the voice actor is too old for a role and it really doesn't fit anymore. Though the only one I actually have a problem with not fitting at all is Takahiro Sakurai as Shiryu(plus the guy sucks now apparently, but his pitch never fit Shiryu in the first place and that's my main argument).

I thought the opening is great and goes hard. I think it was good they decided to go for at least one upbeat song since most of the tracks are all basically ballads. Also the ending song for the Elysium OVA is so amazingly good, it's such a shame they didn't actually make a real animation to go with a song like that until the last episode(I mean if you just kind of count the slideshow of the characters as animation). This one plus the Inferno one didn't get an ending either unfortunately.

Maybe this was still kind of critical lol but it doesn't mean I hated it or anything, and honestly I think it's good I've found myself invested in something again after a really long time. I think honestly this show has really influenced a lot of stuff about my interests/my own art style too so I'm glad to rekindle my love for this series again!

Overall is the ending of Saint Seiya good? Absolutely not. But did I enjoy rewatching the series again? Absolutely :)

[constantlyunlightening]

Work, work, work

Day 15: Cockwarming

Warnings/Other Kinks: Anxiety/Depression implications and mentions (Doppo is just like thattt), Doppo kinda snaps at the end, office sex/sex at work, dubcon (there's not explicit consent in this so I'm going to put it just in case but the reader and doppo are in a relationship and I meant for this situation to be consensual, but Doppo's anxiety in this situation made it seem kind of sus)

I have nothing but Hypmic on the brain. I love feral screaming Doppo. Would highly recommend listening to him belly scream here. :D I really do want the best for this boy tho. I love him so muchhhh.

Disclaimer: 18+ years and older to read. All characters in this work are 20 years or older. This is a fictional depiction of a relationship and is not meant to be mimicked in real life. I do not condone cockwaming your partner in their place of work irl.

It was always work, work, work with him. Well, work and rapping but Doppo hardly ever talked about his Matenro. It was always about his balding asshole of a boss, his terrible coworkers and work, work, work.

You knew he was a workaholic. You knew that when you fell in love with the guy. But geez. Time for him to learn that self care was a priority.

You had stormed to his office after having spent two hours - past the time he was supposed to get off - waiting for him at home. This overtime was bullshit. The man worked himself to the bone. And he didn't know how to say no. You worried about him! It was the reason why you marched right over to the cubicle. The place was deserted, all except for poor Doppo, sitting at his desk pinching the bridge of his nose and surrounded by paperwork.

"What the hell is all this?" You asked as you came up behind him and you almost felt bad watching as the man let out a shout, jumping out of his seat and scrambling like a frightened rabbit. A few of the papers he had on his desk got caught up in his whirlwind and dusted around the room - a fact you assumed Doppo would be disgruntled about later, but he looked far too nervous right now as he took labored breaths and let wide eyes take in your form.

"Wh-what are you doing here?"

".... You're being worked too hard if the sound of your girlfriend's voice is enough to panic you," you quipped back, ignoring his question for now as you bent over to try to help organize some of the scattered documents that had fallen to the floor. Let him have the time to bring his breathing back to normal. You were mainly pissed at his job for overworking him - not so much him. Didn't need to go give him a heart attack. "You're here late again. I was checking in on you." A pile of paperwork stacked against your chest, you moved over closer to him to set it down on the desk and took your time eyeing the assortment of work he had lying around. This couldn't all be his. Some of them must be pawning off their work, and Doppo just so happened to be the biggest doormat around. A sigh heaved from your lips, and you didn't miss the way Doppo shuddered. How could you? The man tensed up like he was being shot by lightening. "Looks like it was a good thing I did too. This work would have kept you here all night if someone didn't come to stop you."

"I'm sorry!" You weren't surprised but the volume of his apology made you jump and as he started to spew off more and more apologies, you quickly grabbed him by the tie and yanked him in, pressing a quick kiss to his lips. You weren't trying to invalidate his feelings by cutting him off, but there was no reason for him to be panicking like he was. And luckily, kisses from you always seemed to soothe him - at least as soothed as someone like Doppo could be.

"Baby," you purred gently, pulling your lips from his and watching the way his cheeks lit up with a dusting of pink. Always so stressed, this one. But the face he made after you kissed him made your heart flutter. Dumbfounded but he still managed to swoon in subtle ways - those aquamarine eyes zoomed in on you like you were treasure. The simple strokes you gave to his hair made him melt - the tension zapped out of his shoulders and he almost started to slump into you. "You don't have to say sorry. But it's time to go home now. No more work."

That cute daze in his expression only lasted a moment more before it was like all that anxious energy plowed right back into him. The word 'work' was enough to flip a switch with him. "That's not right! I have a whole ton of it!" His arm extended outward, waving at the stacks piled high. "I'm sorry but I have more work to do. I'll finish as soon as I can but - I gotta do this or my crazy boss will pile even more work on me! Or I'll lose my job or worse I-ll-"

"Doppo!" You cut him off and tried to calm him down. It worked to some extent but only enough to keep him from screaming or spiraling into one of his crazes. You didn't convince him to stop working though and eventually you had to settle for watching him drown himself in the work in front of him, trying to suppress your groans.

You loved the man. But really?

Playing the waiting game wasn't something you were interested in though. Which is why, after a bit of working, you somehow managed to not only weasel your way into his lap but you also got his cock out of his pants, stroking it just enough to get him riled up as you watched him try not to panic.

"You can't just do that-"

"I just did. Don't worry. The cameras can't see in here. It's fine," you coaxed, letting him stay nervous anyway as you pushed your panties to the side from underneath your skirt causing him to visibly gulp. But he wasn't pushing you off.

"I have to work," he declared, whispers on the verge of being shouts fell from his lips but cut off into a whimper as the head of his dick was suddenly being warmed up by the heat of your body as you slowly sank down onto him - taking him in inch by inch. 

It wasn't until you were fully seated to the hilt, listening to his breath hitch that you gave a tiny huff. "Then work." And your body stilled. No movement other than the flutter and clench of your walls against your hung lover, letting your eyes watch his flustered face. He clearly didn't know what to say and you watched as his gaze flickered around like a chicken with its head cut off - to your face, to his paperwork, to where your bodies were joined and then anywhere but you. Good. Get him riled up. He was panicking but you could feel him twitch inside of you, like he was anticipating for you to move - waiting for it. But you kept your hips locked in place as you leaned in and rested your head on his shoulder. "Work, Doppo. Just giving you some motivation for when you finally get done." Your voice was much to kindly for someone who just pulled somebody's dick out in the middle of a public office. But it managed to keep him from tipping over his brink just yet. Poor thing always got so worked up. Your physical actions may not be helping that necessarily, but your voice always seemed to soothe him over, even if it was only a little at a time. 

"H-how?" You listened to him practically squeak, shifting under you and instantly giving a whine at the slight push against your walls. How was he supposed to work when you were on him like this? How was he supposed to concentrate when you were constricting around him? When you were filling him with molten lava from the bottom up?

With feather light kisses, you trailed a line across his neck, trying to remain still on the cock that was stretching out your insides - forcing the urge to bounce on him like a pogo stick until you both lost even the capability to think of work. You would behave somewhat for now though. Doppo could get his work done. You could get some form of closeness in the meantime. Besides, maybe a good vise grip on him could speed up the process? Or make him say 'fuck it' altogether - hopefully, literally fuck it. "Just work, Doppo. Since it's so important. Ill wait," you cooed, almost as if you were being thoughtful. Too sweet for him to argue and you listened to him give a defeated groan of a sound before he tried to level out his breath and refocus. 

Oh, but that was easier said than done. Doppo had restarted on the paperwork, working around you as your warm body nuzzled into his chest. He usually felt like he was suffocating at work but right now, it felt like your body was trying to strangle the life out of him from somewhere other than the neck. How were you so tight? How come velvety walls were squeezing down on him over and over again without either of you even moving? You were starting to leak out around him, a sticky mess starting to spill out onto his lap slowly - torturous. Maybe you were actually trying to be sweet. Maybe you were actively trying to mess with him. But either way, it was kicking up a bad habit within him. He would reach for another stack, shifting in the chair and causing the tiniest of mewling to escape from your lips. It was a blissful sigh here, a hitched breath there, a tiny hum into his chest and it was going to break him. He was supposed to be focusing but at this rate, he was going to start making mistakes on his work.

You were causing him to silently work himself up. Each climb of his emotions resulted in a string of jitters, and in return had your body clenching even tighter on him. How could you even feel like that? He choked, tugging at his tie to try and gasp for air. You were messing with him. You had to be. You must be mad he wouldn't leave. This was his retribution. To be strangled by your wet cunt over and over without reprieve- without any motion for relief. Well, fuck that. He may love you. But he worked far to hard day in and day out. Pent up didn't even begin to describe it. If you were going to try to rile him up like that, then he would give you riled up because he couldn't take it. Not a second longer. Not with that familiar primal darkness beginning to flare inside him.

His body rocked and you instinctively lifted your head from his chest to peer up at him, the first actual movement he had made since you had sat on him. "Are you okay?"

"O-okay?" He was stuttering his words but unlike his panic from before, this time he sounded angry. It wasn't a tone he took entirely too often. But you knew Doppo. You knew if his buttons were pressed enough, he would snap. He was tea kettle, getting hotter- "how do you except me to be okay-" and hotter "- when your purposely trying to make me-" until he screamed "-loose my fucking mind!?"

You only had enough time to widen your eyes before he flew out of his chair, taking you with him and slamming you onto his desk. The noise he made was positively feral - teetering between a growl and a scream - and without a warning, he was wrecking you, bludgeoning into you with a speed you hadn't even been aware he was capable of. 

"D-D-Doppo!" You were trying to talk but the sudden thrusting was knocking out your capabilities to think. You had been stretched out and horny for a while now but at this pace you couldn't keep up. You were trying to grip at his shoulders for some type of stability. "H-hang on a sec-"

"Hang on?!" He sounded unhinged - a growl ringing in the back of his throat so different from his usual meek - if not panicked - composure. "I've been hanging on! I've been hanging on this whole time! You just had to be on me huh? When I'm at work!" Papers were tossing up into the air around you and you could hear the clatter of the cubicle as he knocked you into the desk over and over. Oh, you couldn't even keep your eyes opening with the way your senses seemed to overload. "All this work - all these damn excuses to pile it onto me - and then you still come in here and give me more work. Too needy? Need my to pound you senseless before I can finish my work? Then that's what I'll do. I'll take you over and over and over again until you're out for days!" He declared, his hands clamping down on your hips and you could already feel the bruises even as the head of his cock shifted up enough to find your sweet spot, leaving you wailing out. "Again and again and again!" He got louder and louder with his sounds, growls and grunts turning into wanton groans and gasps as he split you in two. 

This would teach you not to mess with him at work. Or maybe it would teach you to mess with him more.