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Li Tianchen post-S2E12 Analysis

hi! i love this little skrunkle and i'm gonna unpack all the pain behind him leaving his phone on the bench and talk about where I think his character's gonna go from here onwards based off everything that's happened

Firstly, THAT SCENE MADE ME SOB SO HARD. This path he's taking hurts so much. Xixi's last will and testiment was for him to put himself first, a final act of love for him, and now she's dead. She was all he had in a way, the only person he really felt a connection to, and now she's gone forever. Everything that he did for her, it wasn't enough when it mattered the most. He loved her so much that he literally threw away his role as her protector, the thing he's modelled himself to be his entire life, turning that critical sense of his own identity on its head to respect her wishes and to leave her behind, to save himself. Their lives had been a special hell for seven years and she died in it. Now he's alone in that hell, with nothing left to live for yet unable to end his own life himself.

Like fuck, man.

The LTC we saw on the bench was not the LTC we knew up until that point and man, I hate that for him. Hollow and mixed up inside, just trying to keep on moving without purpose, to move towards something that makes some sense to him with the only other person he's ever been able to rely on. He wanted to be proactive about making things better in their lives, and he didnt have anyone to show him how to do it while staying on a good path for himself. He needed guidance in his life and instead he was lead to the slaughter. No one cares for him, and no one will ever show him any sympathy (which is understandable given the sadistic, remorseless murdering). This empty hell is just going to be his life now. With nothing to live for, his recklessness and extremism will be on a whole 'nother level. No moral compass, no principles, no purpose. Anything and everything is above board for this fruit of a nutcase.

My only hard wish is that he gets the justice he deserves, both for the horrible things he's had to endure and also the horrible things he's caused others. I love the complexity of it all.