#8ut now im excited to 8e 19 it sounds like a cool age im gonna 8e an adult 8ut not like OLD i :3 | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

cornflowercanine · 3 years

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8eing a l8 t33n so far is when im Close to 8eing a specific age im like HAHA YES FUCK YEAH IM GETTING FARTHER AND FARTHER AWAY FROM 8EING A KID THIS IS SO RELIEVING 8ut when i have JUST turned a certain age, thinking of the next age ill 8e makes me go 'OH GOD OH GOD IM GONNA 8E FUCKING OLD THIS IS IT'

#clove rambles #wow tag suggestions just fucked up hard there O_O it recced me all tags id used w 'clove' in it 8ut my main ones #anyhoo #when 2020 started i was like OH GOD IM GONNA 8E 18888888 AUUUUUUUUGH THIS IS ITTTTT IM GONNA HAVE TO 8E AN ADULT #i dont remem8er much from when i turned 18 i just remem8er how relieved i was 8ut i think knowing id turn 19 next #also made me f33l :aarezz:#8ut now im excited to 8e 19 it sounds like a cool age im gonna 8e an adult 8ut not like OLD i :3 #8ut then it makes me scared to think im gonna 8e 20 next year cause then it f33ls like i wont 8e allowed to 8e like....#someone dicking around and ill have to 8e a Mature Responsi8le Adult:tm: as in #an adult with a jo8 and house planning to get a spouse and kids and shit which [retches]#actually i was scared to 8ecome an adult (as in; 18) for a LOOOONG time and i think i realized this a while ago?#8ut i am not scared at all of 8eing an adult or adulthood; im just scared shitless of capitalism and how unavoida8le it is #i think when im actually close to 8eing my next age then its clear to me nothing has to drastically change; i can just k33p Existing #and if all adulthood meant Now was just 'you r33valu8 how u handle rel8ionships and react to things' and shit like that #not only am i not even slightly scared of it i actively want to lean into it as much as i can #8ut when my next age is far away idk what my life will look like 8y that point; meaning i could 8e trying to get a jo8 and move out nd shit #and what 8eign an adult Now kinda Leads to is .... [capitalism] to the point other adults will say how much 8eing an adult sucks #and then ONLY give examples of having to 8e an 'independent adult' in capitalism #little to nothing to do with adulthood in and of itself just as a person not as 'if i cant make 20$ 8y this w33k ill 8e homeless and die'#WHICH IS TO UNDERST8; /TERRIFYING/; and also extremely makes me f33l like ill die; which sucks :P #i forgot what my point was! capitalism strips you of humanity i think? i am still learning a8t this shit so i dont know a lot #8ut i know the fact that; to society and to my landlord and my employer i have to do lifeless meaningless shit unendingly #in order to get rewarded with gr33n paper to 8e d33med as deserving of my life and of food and of friends #SUCKS MORE THAN I CAN PUT INTO WORDS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#personal

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