#8ut its still smth i think a8t A Fucking LOT so

[cornflowercanine]

hmmmm may8e i should Not make so many purrsonal posts 8ut 8itches 8e wanting fir thoughts and f33lings and opinions to 8e s33n even if they arent particularly important or interesting im 8itches

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fun fact; when drawing spades for the first time i tried to convey wooly fur on their legs and then i remem8ered theyre a goat and goat fur doesnt ... do the thing sh33p wool does, so i decided spades just lets their fur get matted and then every few months ish when it starts to hurt/get annoying clu8s will shear their legs and let it grow out again fun fact two out of all my ocs with 8ig Hair clu8s is pro8a8ly the lightest cause xyr natural hair is 8lack 8ut xe 8leaches and dyes it nonstop without end all the time always it is fucking FRIED it is CRUNCHY if you touch it ALL the oils on your fingers get sucked out instantly. One time clu8s looked up how to fix dry hair and it said smth a8t oils so xe was like oh ok! -dips hair into 8owl of cooking oil- -spades goes no w8 let me help move the 8owl over here- -the 8owl of cooking oil and clu8s' hair is now on the stove and spades turns it on- -hearts and diamonds, coming 8ack from work, walk in and fucking SCREAM-

[cornflowercanine]

so i watched nitw and it was fucking sad!!! what the fuck!!!! whats the point of it, is it a8t if youre 8eing a reckless little shit smth 8ig can happen to you and you can start taking shit seriously? a8t not getting 8etter? a8t 8eing stuck in the same scary place for forever?? it wasnt a 8AD game 8ut why is it so fucking sad!!!

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that 8eing said if you think tum8lr mutual-ness is like the most sincere understanding form of friendship there is online handing you the hugest largest most massive gargantuan L there is

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my annual Thoughts On Vrisrezi upd8 put under a cut cause its kinda long, also sorry if this somehow shows up in vrisrezi tags or search despite my 8log 8eing hidden im not trying to start shit im just thinking out loud lol the tl;dr is i like in-canon vrisrezi not cause i think its Good (healthy) 8ut cause its just so fucking Much and so heartwrenching to watch unfold, 8ut i still h8 (what i last saw of) fanon vrisrezi stuff cause it came across to me as muffling all the high-stakes fighting (underst8ment) under "oh haha they did it cause they were in love so it doesnt matter what stupid gfs in denial!!!" and i think thats unfair to the chars, their actual canon story, and to how intense it actually is - it's different and special and A Lot, 8ut ppl don't (wouldn't?) let it live up to that

i like in-canon vrisrezi not cause i think it's good as in healthy or like Cute Romantic Moments to just a8out kill eachother 8ut cause i think its good as in it is just so Much. it is so high stakes it is so "im gonna k33p doing this 8ad thing so that the other person responds/gives me attention/tries to do smth a8t it, oh why dont i just stop doing the 8ad thing??? cause if i dont theyll stop caring a8out me and leave duh!!!!" and it just snow8alls and snow8alls and snow8alls until vriska is Fucking Killed and it's just so Dramatic and i like watching just how like. vicious cycle and heartwrenching it is to s33 unfold

8ut, AND A DISCLAIMER THAT IVE HAD VRISREZI 8LACKLISTED SINCE EARLY 2019 IF ANY DEVELOPMENTS IN THE VIEWS AND HANDLING OF VRISREZI 8Y VRISREZI FANS HAS 833N MADE SINCE IM NOT LIKE DELI8ER8LY IGNORING THEM TO SHUT THEM DOWN, I JUST STR8 UP HAVENT S33N IT LOL, i didn't like and really wasnt satisfied with how vrisrezi was handled with (recent??? idk older hs content takes from canon hs more often instead of 8eing muddled 8y perception 8ut also vrisrezi was called "scourgecest" 8ack then, so) takes like, the worst moments of vrisrezi and specifically the 8ad sides of it and went 'omg how romantic and cute and lovey!!!' like. imo i Do think they wouldnt have 833n chasing the other person 8iting their head off so much for so long if they didn't care a8t them (on terezis part i Think it was like terezi was like 'ugh i have to stop this thing from happening' FIRST and THEN vriska and her strong mixed f33lings regarding her and O8VS theres a lot more going into vriska doing All That than her liking terezi and wanting her to care, 8ut thats off-track) and there is definitely f33lings 8EHIND and DRAGGED ALONG 8y their... fighting (underst8ment), 8ut to like sw33p All That under the rug 8y 'haha they were just doing it cause they were in love haha stupid gfs' LIKE YES AHHH 8UT THEY WERE HURTING EACHOTHER!!! and when it's all muffled under 'they did all that 8ut who cares they're just gfs now' ITS SO 8ORINGGG TOOOOO IF I WANTED TO LOOK AT HS WLW SHIP CONTENT WHERE THE CANON INTERACTIONS ARE FORGOTTEN AND THEIR PERSONALITIES ARE DILUTED SO ITS JUST 'T33H33 THEY ARE KISSING [END OF STORY]' ID LOOK AT ROSEMARY STUFF JUST AUUUUGH

and this is not not not not notttttttt to say that ALL vrisrezi content dilutes their actual situ8ions and how they treated eachother and shit, please do not take this that way, it's just, Ugh. it was so much Easier to make them 't33h33 stupid disaster les8ians!!!' so that's what people went with way more than i'd liked or wanted to s33 and it's just, man!!! they're COOL!!! you don't n33d to look very far at all to find ppl saying how ground8reaking vrisrezi is as far as fictional wlw rel8ionships go and they're right!!! it's not 't33h33 girl kiss [end of story]' it's ugly they disappoint eachother they try to drop and give the other one up like. at least once on 8oth their ends there's just. So Much and again im sure someone else has said it 8etter than i have, 8ut terezi is so distinct a character vriska is so distinct a character and there is a Lot to their rel8ionship, so Why would you want to make terezi 't33h33 makes vriska f33l 8etter and refuses to exist outside of making her happy/not do terri8le shit', Why would you want to make vriska 'hehe 8adass hot girl is cool', and WHY would you want to make their rel8ionship 'h33h33 when they leave the other to str8 up die it means they like eachother!! stupid disaster les8ians!! heres my art of them looking Cool and 8eing Gay and thats literally it!!!!!!!' LIKE UGHHHHHHHH

and also i noticed Again, At Least 8ack Then, a lot of vrisrezi fans are also a fan of post-retcon vriska and think it's like the ideal coolest way for her to 8e in Their take of Ideal At Their Happiest vrisrezi WHICH I AM RESISTING WITH EVERY 8ONE IN MY 8ODY TO GO OFF ON A HUGE TANGENT A8OUT, and also that they think like. romance is one-dimensional or one-way and them 8eing such a 8ig deal to eachother and having lots of f33lings a8t and for eachother and (again in their ideal vrisrezi version) settling down and shit means it HAS to 8e <3-ways, like after a point any and all intense rel8ionships WILL 8ecome d8ing (at least <3ways), sometimes even to the point of making content a8out like, post-retcon just 8efore fighting lord english and shit part of the story AND LIKE.... MAKING IT ROMANTIC <3WAYS ANYWAY????? like everyones interpret8ions exist and if you get something out of a story 8eing a specific way then you get smth out of it and whatever and even I think (vris)rezi was <3 not <> 8ut man. mannnnnnn. good for you to learn romance is not the only way intense rel8ionships and f33lings can happen, good for ppl who already know this to enjoy the content made from that knowing, and again it serves to make shit less 8oring lol if vrisrezi is such a universe-changingly intense and complex rel8ionship in f33lings and otherwise why can it only manifest in One Way, in One type of f33lings, in One expression? i think it's silly

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smth that's 833n on my mind a lot like... this year, is like... 8elieving smth shitty a8t urself so intensely you shut yourself down 8efore anything even happens, specifically wrt social stuff 8ut it prolly def applies to other things like 8itches who despite having no actual neg8ive interaction w their friends recently is like "oh of course they dont wanna talk to me" or "theyll get mad if i talk to them" so they just don't talk to them your friends wouldn't 8e your friends if they didn't want to s33/talk to you ever and you don't know how they f33l (at least not if you're never asking or never seriously thinking a8t it) so they really could love you and wish you'd talk to them more even if its just a8out your day or smth tiny like that 8ecause They Love You!!! and also the shit that taking that as fact and leaving it unchecked or even Running With It results in just makes it worse for everyone involved, YOU'RE thinking you suck or you're unlova8le or whatever and it just fucking f33ls 8ad to h8 yourself, and THEY'RE wondering why you dont talk to them or wishing you would or thinking may8e You don't want to talk to them anymore cause You h8 Them, and 8c If You're Not Talking To Ppl, No8ody Is Talking To You you usually end up coming to the conclusion that you just suck that 8ad, which means you dont talk to ppl 8c You Suck, Right, which means ppl arent talking to you, which means You Must Suck, Right, you get the picture i'm still new to actually like , thinking a8t it and noticing it's there, 8ut my 8est idea for the solution to this is just. dont let your 8rain call you a cunt and also sending messages 8efore you can (over)think a8t it is your friend lol literally no8ody thinks like, "what's your favor8 animal" is an offensive question worth rejecting you over so just Don't Think A8out It! like i'll 8e fussing "i could never 8e around them cause i can't imagine they'd love me" and i notice it and i'm like "okay. imagine it then" etc, i know "you'd never say the things u say to urself a8t ur friends so don't say em!!!" etc is kinda thrown around a lot and it's hard to... internalize? 8ut man having friends who've done this and 8eing like "ugh why do they do that!!!" and realizing "oh. i do the exact same thing" has given me unreal perspective lol

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my opinion on all main homestuck characters now that ive actually reread it cw for 8rief discussion of a8leism for tavros', terezi's, mituna's, and wv's parts, racism for damara and m33nah's parts, and cw for a8usive rel8ionships for gamz33's part. also i dont like/care a8t a lot of hs chars so if you a8solutely cannot handle s33ing any dislike towards chars you kin/like/are ur comfort chars read smth else

june; the things she Does Can 8e interesting 8ut she in herself is not a character i (keyword i) find interesting like at fucking all. if she wasnt the main char id forget a8t her daily jade; waaa waaaaaa. she is so sw33t and dear 8ut holy fuck i have no idea whats wrong with her. i do still H8 the specific fanon of her that jade harley just H8s Her Friends Oh So Much and she is in Constant Immeasura8le Misery Always No Matter What and is just Really Good At Masking It and [insert pages more of collective projecting] 8ut honestly whatever the fuck is 8ehind 'dead grandpa tulpa that was 'way nicer when he was alive'' is anyones guess dave; neat. fun to read when he isnt at mercy of hussie 8eing a shitty person (making gross jokes). way more fun than fanon makes him out to 8e yes ofc hes traumatized 8ut are you just like, una8le to write funny characters? rose; ultim8ly i think she is Interesting, ALSO way more interesting than fanon has EVER made her out to 8e, i like her perspective on things (even if they are sometimes really defeatist(?) its certainly not SHALLOW or a COMMON frame of reference ppl usually use when writing a female char that goes off a8t stuff she knows, shes not stupid, and its interesting to s33) and i also lovelove when shes snappy and cracks jokes ('ive spent too much time around dave i also think ive spent too much time sharing his genes') and she is just a really really fascin8ing? character!! 8ut i. im not proud of it. 8ut i did admittedly skip some of her lines 8ecause she is very very wordy and this reread was meant to 8e leisurely pass through the 8its i like. so sorry maam.

karkat; imagine 8eing the most 8oring char ever. ive said it 8efore ill say it again i think the reason karkat is/was so popular is 8ecause he is so fucking intensely a tw33n/early t33n that is just learning to 8e a person and think for himself etc and one of the tr8s he has decided to take up is saying 'fuck' a lot. like, a lot. which is a thing other 12-14 year olds do and enjoy doing regularly. or well its not that i think he is o8jectively 8oring its just that i myself am so espescially unimpressed 8y Him and 8y extent everything he does and says fucking drags to me and the only time i have f33lings regarding him is when he has interesting commentary on chars i DO like or when he makes the rare actually funny joke. aradia; maam you are so fucking cool. i admittedly can forget her a little as does the rest of the fandom 8ut i DO find it strange the extent to which the fandom neglects her when every single fucking thing she did and does is cool as all hell. i LOVE her and i think the only reason megalovania is handed over to vriska is cause shes a light player, not cause she earned it tavros; oh my god i knew your character 8efore this was a8leism 8ut i didnt know just how 8ad it was. literally the only argua8le character he has outside of hussie 8eing grossly unwaveringly unendingly a8leist is him making the friend army at Literally The Very End Of The Story (which u could go 'oh its cause hes a page' yes 8ut hussie did NOT have to make EVERYTHING prior to that pure undiluted a8leism) and its just so... sad and disappointing and frustr8ing. i have s33n one or two tavros fans whos interpret8ion of him is NOT how hussie wrote him (o8vs), or 'aww purest 8a88y 8oy i just wanna hold him in my arms and kiss him on the head and-' OR 'ACTUALLY tavros is super fucking mean and cruel so he a8used vriska actually and-', and i leave this char to those fans. tl dr is that i WANT to like him 8ut hussie h8s him so much it just makes me sad sollux; i only like him for his rel8ionships to others, i like when he's friends (derogatory) with karkat cause i rel8 and think it's funny, and all arasol interactions hurt me d33ply, 8ut sollux, on his own, just for what he himself solely says? dont care, if he wasnt having an interesting interaction with another id eyeroll and skip whatever he was saying, pro8a8ly influenced 8y the fact i a8solutely cannot STAND people who wrap every single convo and interaction they have 8ack around to how much they h8 themselves/'h8 everyone'/that 'everythings gonna end up terri8le anyway' in real life, which i find kinda interesting nepeta; wwwaaa waaaaa. once again unsurprisingly her personality and interactions with others etc has way more going on than fanon makes her out to 8e ('shes really cute! end sentence.') even when she IS 8eing cute like in her rps with terezi or uhhh. her interactions with equius 8efore they die, its not like, just her going 't33h33 nya nya im so cutesy and stupid and childlike arent i' her f33lings towards and how she makes sense of her friends and ppl around her isnt stupid or wrong or whatever she ..... TL DR FANON 8LOWS ASS NEPETA IS A GOOD CHAR yes she also kills things 8ut if youre gonna make nepeta content reread at least a Smidgen of her canon stuff instead of leaping str8 to 'cute idiot/powerful preymurderer' kanaya; SMORCH. I REALLY REALLY LIKE THIS CHARACTER. LIKE ROSE I ALSO DID ADMITTEDLY SKIP SOME OF HER LINES 8UT IM NOT PROUD OF IT. cant really word Why i like her i just do. also re: her chalking every confusing/hard to grasp interaction up to 'human sarcasm', karkat and vriska (off the top of my head, mightve 833n more) Repeatedly say stupid shit and then when one replies with Some level of sincerity the other goes 'IT WAS SARCASM SHIT8RAIN' so i dont think sarcasm is smth that only humans invented or did i think kanaya is autistic which makes my heart 8ig thank you for everything kanaya maryam terezi; i think ive already stressed just how much i like her in a previous post 8ut hooooooly fuck is this character a8solutely fucking outstanding, i wouldnt say

'ground8reaking' 8c ppl STILL find or found a way to dilute her down to make her more pal8a8le or graspa8le, 8ut honestly i dont really think thats her fault i think that ppl interpreting Literally Terezi Fucking Pyrope as 'oh she just does everything she does out of 8eing horny for men lol!!111!!1' is the fault of misogynists lol. one of the chars that while i do wish hussie had Guidance/advice on writing (ex. 'this char is 8lind 8UT W8 they have a SUPER COOL ADVANCED OTHER SENSE/A8ILITY that Makes Up For It1!1!!!11' trope is a 8ad One), 8ut holy shit i wouldnt have had her any other way aside from that. how the fuck did hussie manage to pull her off. holy shit. vriska; i think ive talked a8out vriska serket more than is reasona8le or healthy in the history of my 8log so to sum it up as 8est i can; i think she's a 8ad, extremely sad to s33 Person, 8ut an outstanding ground8reaking character. almost all of my negative f33lings towards the retcon 8oil down to how much i h8 how vriska was handled post-retcon. 8ut everything 8efore that, she is one hell of a character. i never wanna say she's my Favor8 cause i Do Not like her as a Person 8ut i dont know how else i would explain or summarize it so equius; LOL!!!!!!! i am actually more disappointed in his existing since my reread 8c holy cow his interactions with aradia n33d like, a cw theyre so 8ad, and his Insistence over nepeta is kinda hard to read, 8ut also fucking wowie kazowie you sure are a joke character arentcha??? so fucking easy to make fun of and ill do it for forever gamz33; i literally dont care what he used to 8e like i h8 him so fucking much and almost all his fans are so fucking unnerving i just dont fucking care. if i didnt h8 him 8efore s33ing terezi go "WHY WONT YOU FIGHT 8ACK?!" when she's fighting him around s game over and her repeatedly apologizing when he goes 'youre hurting me' when aranea cant mind control him anymore IMMEDI8LY FOLLOWED 8Y HIM UNRELENTINGLY 8EATING THE SHIT OUT OF HER AND ALMOST KILLING HER MORE THAN ONCE IS SO. INHALES THROUGH NOSE AUDI8LY. oh also him smooching tavros' disem8odied head was weird as fuck eridan; also a joke char in my 8rain. i do not respect this character i do not respect fans of this character i do not respect anything a8out this character i do not respect pesterquest writers going 'hmmm lets make the char noted and characterized to 8e a cr33py forceful incel And Also Had March Eridan Happen transfem 8c thats good right' i could go on a8out how much i h8 eridan stans' arguments for his Anything 8ut TL DR I DO NOT LIKE CARE A8T OR RESPECT ERIDAN AMPORA feferi; god i wish she had more to her than she does. or well, she does have a lot to her kkkkkkinda in the way that rose and kanaya and nepeta do (where they have a lot going on and adding to their character, 8ut fans just Forget it???), 8ut i think it's that everything a8t her was so short-lived it made her espescially..... non-poignant. at least to fans. she's naive as 8alls 8ut i kinda love it (her going 'aww i put in a good word with the horrorterrors now everyone gets to 8e ghosts in dream 8u88les instead of permanant total demise :D [doesnt know how much 8eing a ghost or dream 8u88les kinda fucking suck]') and she used to 8e a comfort char for me 8ut just... wistful sigh. i think a8t her sometimes. i also think it's weird when ppl get really mad that she's said the r slur and then their fave char is Karkat Fucking Vantas like.

ADMITTEDLY THOUGH NOT AS REGRETFULLY I WILL SAY I SKIPPED ALMOST EVERY SINGLE LINE AND PART FROM AND A8OUT THE ALPHA KIDS IM SORRY I MIGHT GO 8ACK AND REREAD ONLY THOSE IN THE FUTURE 8UT GOD THEY ARE ALL SO. NOT 8ORING. 8UT STRAINING AND REPETITIVE AND REWARDLESS TO READ AND GET THROUGH. ROXY IS COOL 8UT THAT'S NOT REALLY UP FOR DE88 IF YOU DO NOT LIKE ROXY LALONDE WTF ARE YOU DOING

damara; MAKES ME REALLY SAD this is another char that, like tavros, i wish was written 8y literally any8ody other than hussie. her 8eing 'horny japanese schoolgirl' makes me want to scream and even aside from that (re; her rel8ionship issues, her destroying the session, etc) makes me really fucking sad. i want to 8e her moirail sm and i h8 hussie rufioh; I......I REALLY DO NOT KNOW HOW TO F33L A8T THIS CHAR HONESTLY??? in 2018 i proudly remem8ered him as The Most Forgetta8le Char In Hs, after that up until this reread i just h8ed him, 8UT NOW I... DONT... KNOW????? his convo where he attempts to 8reak up with horuss makes me f33l weird, his 'says '8a8ydoll'' demeanor makes me f33l weird, his 8eing heavily 8ased on a real ass person (well, rufio the char, 8ut hussie put more emphasis on Rufio As Played 8y Dante 8asco imo) alongside the fact dante 8asco has actually read and s33n the 'hussies self insert kisses the Rufio As Played 8y Dante 8asco' part of hs MAKES ME F33L SUPER FUCKING WEIRD, i just dont know how to f33l a8out him at all. 8ut the fact he's always had wings is pretty cool! cause i like wings mituna; in the same catagory as tavros, not to the same Extent id say (whether or not thats due to mituna having way less scr33ntime/shown interactions than tavros idk), 8ut the 'personality is a8leism, is awkward To women which is prolly also part of 'hussie thinks disa8led ppl are gross and 8ad', fans either interpret him as 'aww poor 8a88y' or 'ew weak loser' which are 8oth also really 8ad' is still There. kankri; lol. the only thing to say a8t him other than 'lol' is that i skipped every single thing he read 8ut the only thing my eyes unfortun8ly glanced over was him saying 'also try not to flaunt the usage of your legs' toooooo, i Think m33nah in reference to tavros? which is so. every time you think hussie is unfunny and exhausting they manage to get even unfunnier and more exhausting. meulin; WWWAAAA WAAAAAAAAAAA im a kinnie i dont have anything un8iased to say 8ut i love her and wanna wipe kurloz off the plane of existence (or well, not literally, cause even if it is a terri8le place he does still serve a place in the story and add depth to it, its just 'kurloz my head f33ls foggy what happened' ':o)' 'hehe ur right its pro8a8ly nothing!!!' hurts me to read) porrim; REALLY REALLY GOOD CROWD CH33RING I LOVE HER SM i'd assume for a set of chars intended to 8e stereotypes and one of them's themes (idk how to word it :( ) is feminism and Hussie Wrote It that she'd 8e kankri-level 'mocking oppressed ppl not wanting to 8e oppressed' 8ut no from what i read (i dont think i read all her lines cause that flash is particularly confusing to finish As A Game) she's really good and i love her sm. her rel8ionship with kanaya is really sw33t too and i love her 'i h8ed everything to do with this thing meant to k33p me in line 8ut as i got older i started to realize that some things rel8ed to it werent Just For k33ping me in line and genuinely had purpose outside of it' 8UT THAT THAT DIDNT END AS 'and thats why im 8orn to make 8a8ies for the rest of my life haha love and light women are weak and stupid :)' IT ENDED UP AS '8ut even still i dont really Want To and thats not really what im drawn to, or even if i could i cant really, do this thing so im asking my little sister who actually does want to and care a8t this thing to pick up where i left off and to do what i couldnt/cant/just dont have to 8c i dont want to, 8ut that she should still question stuff a8t and rel8ing to it so that even if she really honest to god does she understands it more and theres more 8ehind her motiv8ion for it' ITS JUST SO. SORRY THIS 8IT IS SO LONG IM JUST REALLY GLAD SHE HAS THE DEPTH SHE DOES AND ALSO I THINK SHES HOT XOXO LOVE AND LIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! also her actually trustworthy (in contrast to kankri) commentary on 8eforan society adds story that desper8ly n33ded to 8e there and i thank her for that OK IM DONE NOW latula; also hot. weirdly enough initially i H8ED her just cause her theme jumpscared me XD???? 8ut god i love her. i also

love her mentioning that she has to take meds shes just.... siiiigh. thank you women. aranea; ok i dont like H8 h8 her 8ut also i cant think of any wording to encapsul8 just how much i h8 her??? really im a (vris)kinnie i think you can get why i dont like her (in that i think shes (weirdly enough for a 8illions of ghostsw33ps old person) immature and doesnt think shit through and is a tryhard and mnghgmnhghgf) 8UT GOD I DONT LIKE HER AND I ALSO SKIPPED LOTS OF SHIT SHES SAID WITH NO REGRET WHATSOEVER XOXO 8ut i think her talksprite is pretty!! and her final death scene is cool as shit. s33 you in hell you stupid fruit horuss; um. ಠ_ಠ and also i dont think his kin/dildo/8eing o8livious jokes are that funny kurloz; if you think you h8 kurloz makara more than me you're fucking wrong cronus; weirdly enough i kinda didnt realize just how much he sucked during my first read? i read 'no8ody realizes just how sensitive i am' and me gulli8le as 8ricks was like hm? and then he was like 'i h8 women' and i was liek LOL [close convo] 8ut now that ive reread WOW this guy really does fucking SUCK huh. like hes 8AD 8ad hes a SHITTY shitty person like for real holy fuck m33nah; YET ANOTHER CHAR I WISH WAS WRITTEN 8Y LITERALLY ANYONE OTHER THAN (or well, 8etter than) ANDREW MIDDLENAME HUSSIE! 8oth on the 8eing racist and on the 'everything else she does' front she makes me sad in a 'god i wish you were 8etter' way. actually a lot like damara now that i think a8t it its just my 'even aside from that this char makes me sad' f33lings for damara are cause im a meulkinnie and for m33nah its cause im a (vris)kinnie

I SKIPPED THE INTERMISSION AND DIDNT READ A LOT OF CARAPACIAN DIALOGUE IN GENERAL 8ut i love the qu33ns, I LOVE PM SM I THINK SHES HOT ALSO, i think sn0wman is o8noxiously hot and i love her, and; wv; a really good character imo, it's odd to me that hs took the fan interpret8ion (8UT ALSO IM NOT SURE IF THIS WAS THE INTERPRET8ION OF HIM AT THE TIME CAUSE I WAS NOT THERE IM JUST GUESSING) of him 8eing 'awww cute sw33t dear mayor' when he. ['you dont like to look at the 8arcode on ur wrist it gives you 8ad memories', he is old as fuck, and also did a LOT past just Stand There and Look Cute'], which if it's just cause he's short i find really funny, 8ut if it's cause he's nonver8al i find... less funny. i mean he Is kinda cute in general 8ut thats just cause carapacians at large are cute little dudes wv is not an exception 8ut also you think he got the uramium pulled out of his gut 8arehanded for this?????

i dont really care a8t the ancestors cause most of them are from a storytelling perspective with not much depth so im just like 'haha whoa adult troll cool' and thats it, idc a8t the human guardians 8ut i h8 8ro strider cause im normal, 8ye

[cornflowercanine]

GOD something i had a lot of issues with and s33 ppl do like. a fucking lot. is that, online, when a group of ppl are talking casually a8t smth they like, someone f33ls the N33D to say how much they h8 it and cant enjoy it and sometimes when ppl k33p talking a8t the specific Things they like a8t it the person says how much they h8 every little thing a8out it too and its like. look. ive 833n there. i go there sometimes still. i get you think its Strong Opinion A8t Thing Sharing Time. i know how much you might h8 that thing. 8ut if the thing is genuinely harmless and they arent discussing it critically just going ‘i like it! its nice’. shut the actual fuck up. like i cant articul8 exactly WHY it sucks so 8ad 8ut if its happened to you and it prolly has. u get it. and so u get how much it fucking sucks to 8e on the recieving end of it! its just annoying and o8noxious and youre not going to get those people to stop liking the thing they like and think youre right and cool and smart for h8ing it, youre not gonna get Smart Discussion Thinking Things Out points for saying you h8 something in a casual fucking convers8ion a8t smth those ppl enjoy, literally just. sit it out. may8e talk to a friend priv8ly so you can vi8e a8t h8ing it instead of getting in their way. let them enjoy it. shut the hell up. o8viously this doesnt apply if youre like, looking at some random ass persons page from the other side of the internet making your own post where they wont s33 it, who cares, 8ut going to someones face “I H8 THE THING U ENJOY WITH A RAGING PASSION” is just. tiring. refrain from doing it please

[cornflowercanine]

clove, do you have any tips on dealing w/ ocd? im desperately trying to keep my compulsive behavior in check so i dont end up feeding into my obsession but i feel like a lot of my anxiety is like.. internal. if that makes any sense

so um ! i dont have any personally helpful tips, sorry, there Should 8e active ocd-focused 8logs who can help out 8etter, im sorry!! :< 8ut i end up not giving in to compulsions in the same way i havent 833n self harming in like, a year or two, and that is !  just str8 up fucking forgetting! ocd hell 8rain is like “if you dont put your collar on your cat she’ll run away and die” and im like god ok -turns chair- -stands up- -puts on slippers- -stretches- -has already forgotten i was gonna put my collar on my cat- and 8y the time i remem8er im like oh ! my collar is not on my cat ! 8ut she is still alive ! s33 ocd hell 8rain we’re fine !!!!! (which is like, super super super diy erp (exposure response therapy) which is how ocd is normally treated, idk if it works if ur doing it 8y urself like this, 8ut its worth a shot i guess?) which is not helpful . 8ut i do not have any helpful help past ask someone else and o8vious thing of if you can s33 a therapist, thatd 8e really helpful!! i am genuinely sorry and hope youre a8le to work it out, its really hard to live with :(

and smth you might wanna know is theres a sorta su8type of ocd (not like, officially, its just a distinguishing term ppl use sometimes) that i kindasortapro8a8ly fit in called pure-o which is p much what it sounds like! its when most/all of ur compulsions are not outward or visi8le, so theres a whole lot of ‘repeat “safe” words in head’, ‘think a8t the walk i went on over and over and over again to MAKE SURE i wasnt responsi8le for that car hitting a 8ump’, ‘pray every single time i s33/hear/think something sinful’, etc etc etc, and its hard to deal with 8c a lot of times 8oth the o8sessions and the compulsions are in ! your thoughts ! and whereas it can 8e easier for me to Not Tap The Doorkno8 3 Times, its harder to force myself to Just Not Think Something, and looking up stuff a8t pure-o specifically can help u understand and deal with it 8etter, at least id hope u_u and at that point you kinda just have to try to stop it 8efore it starts, like if i notice im starting to think (as random example of mental compulsions) ‘oh god 8ut how can i 8e SURE im a les8ian i have to look up what other les8ians do and signs you arent a les8ian and-’ i have to like. physically. force myself to do something else thats distracting so i stop thinking a8out it and dont have the ... pathway? to have compulsions over it. like watching a video listening to my fave song playing a video making some food literally Anything that you have to put Any thought into that can distract you and get you off that train of thought.

i really do honestly hope things get easier for you, take care of yourself, ill k33p you in my thoughts, and good luck!!! :( ♥♥