#570 cals will not kill me lol

[adderallbastard]

had a wawa gobbler everything is ok now

[doublesidedgemini]

10/30

Sitting in the airport waiting to go home! Got here early as fuck. We decided to just check out of the hotel and kill time at the airport. My friend and I split ways pretty much as soon as our Uber dropped off us and honestly, as much as I love my friends, I am so glad to be alone. To sink into my own little bubble, space out into my own little world… I’m grateful for this solitude. I prefer my own company.

I bought myself a book, The Devil House by John Darnielle. I’m going to read a little bit, and I’m pushing myself to start writing again. Hopefully this book will inspire me and I can try to write a little bit too :)

tw: ed, restriction, cal log after the cut!

Of course, I started off my morning with a Celsius berry packet - 10 cals

Grabbed a medium vanilla blue sky with a matcha boost from Jamba Juice at the airport - 285 cals

I’m planning on having one or two cans of tomato juice on the plane (don’t ask — I love drinking tomato juice on planes and apparently this is weird ??) - 60 or 120 cals

I unfortunately have a long ass drive home from the airport, but I am going to indulge in one last vacation treat and get two or three impossible sliders no cheese from White Castle on my way home — 380 or 570 cals

So my total today will end up being somewhere between 785 - 985 cals, minus all the walking I will end up having to do at the airport!

Feels so good to be back at it, actually knowing the cals in my food, being able to log it & write up these silly little posts. I’m bummed about vacation being over but honestly so excited to control my food again that it def makes up for it. I definitely gained weight and bloated in my belly and face especially and I need that to stop immediately lol.

Felt very very unsettled and triggered while on vacation, honestly fuck vacations?! Jk I had a nice time but still. It is just a relief to be able to go back to my eating habits. :)

Anyway hi I’m back sorry for the long post <3