#5 countries on a cheap interrail ticket we bought on sale
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faaun · 2 years ago
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i feel like im wasting my time but im also in love etc so
does "don't marry for potential" also apply to dating
#basically nothing bad has happrned in the relationship and were healthy and stuff#but its just not what i want#im in love w my gf but not the relationship. does that makes sense#but i also feel like i should be patient bc depression makes everything worse#but she isnt getting any help for it#and ive suggested it so many times#and weve been talking abt travelling so long and stuff but nothing has happened#and today i was like . ok i just found out my scheduling stuff roughly lets do it !#where do u want to go !! and she was like. idk.#what abt vienna w all ur fav artists?#idk#santorini? rome?#i dont know#how do u feel? idk. will you ever get any help? idk. will you try to apply to uni like you wanted to? idk#thats a good way to make friends. maybe go places where you can make friends? idk. why? idk#im like. tired. a bit. like i love her sm but we barely do anything and stuff#and everything makes her extremely anxious and rven talking abt topics to do w the future or travelling and stuff#stresses her out and she just says she doesnt know to everything. which i understand anxiety sucks so so much#i was diagnosed w it and i understand its tougher than anything for the person experiencing it yk#but i am also a person i also have feelings i also want to do things. im 20 i want to have adventures and i want to see the world when i#can and i want to make something of myself i want to have a good career to do with something i love#and i love her so much but i just...idk i envy ppl who go out and do things w their partners a lot. im like. an active kind of person i#think by nature? like i want to explore and go to clubs and pull allnighters just to travel and go on trips for 2 weeks where we see like#5 countries on a cheap interrail ticket we bought on sale#i want to do stuff!!#but at the same time that feels so so so dumb#and leaving smn esp when they have no other friends than u will cause them very very horrible pain#and i love her#and shes never been mean to me or anything i love her so so so much#i just feel so ...unsatisfied sometimes
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