#3 guesses for anyone who knows 🤞🏻

[shinaus]

i am exhausted but seeing the band that shaped my teenage-hood tomorrow for the first time in like 6 or 7 years.... so maybe i will rest after that

[pianistbynight]

days 1-7 of a slow but meaningful summer

this is really the only part of traumerei that i can play sort of fluently...sort of, because you can still hear some hesitation as i try to remember the right notes 😅

thursday | 08/08/24

Started Leviathan Wakes

Tested out of U1 in Japanese and started U2 (loving its similarities to French cuz more familiarity = faster learning curve hopefully?🤞🏻)

Practiced piano...some old scales to warm up + the Clementi sonatina (coming back to it after a 2-3 day break was a good idea! somehow my steadiness has improved! also coming to appreciate metronome practice. sight-reading for the day = a few new bars on the 2nd page) + playing around with Kinderszenen (at this point I just wanted to hear different sounds and it wasn't very productive practice)

Read more of the HSP book

Most likely will have to revise my goals bc I don't think I can make decent progress in all the songs I wanted to in 4 weeks...like, to bring 1 L7 song to performance level after years of not performing anything + without a teacher will probably take longer than it used to. Not sure exactly what that looks like yet other than that it's definitely not gonna be all of Kinderszenen... 😂

friday | 08/09/24

practice wasn't very good today...i kept making silly mistakes i didn't used to make. i'm tired. that's why. i also forgot to do my japanese lesson. i didn't feel like reading either. i don't remember what else i did that day.

saturday | 08/10/24

drained of all energy. didn't practice. didn't do japanese. just chilled with @zzzzzestforlife for the most part and started reading what you are looking for is in the library on her recommendation. i love how philosophical japanese fiction is fjsjdkdks ☺️☺️☺️ (and more generally, i'm surprised that for a culture so new to me, a lot of their ways are just...second nature to my personality...it was very relieving. but i also feel that if i were to live in such a place full time, i would be staying too much in my comfort zone...i also don't know that i would want to ever live in Japan since there are also some important aspects about my current home that i'd miss terribly. all this to say, i'd like to visit Japan again at some point in my lifetime.)

sunday | 08/11/24

went to bed feeling very drained, frustrated, and homesick. so as you can imagine, i didn't get very good sleep. my bare minimum goals for today are:

japanese lesson

read zesty's book recs (there's the library book, the secret adversary [which she rec'd back to me after i rec'd it to her a couple months ago lol], and leviathan wakes) ✅

monday | 08/12/24

finally read the last of the clementi sonatina! got it to a "meh" level to polish in the next few days. super excited! played a few other pieces after that but i think i should focus on level 7 pieces for now before jumping into something barely readable but still playable. i should've brought some level 8 sheet music with me too...but i guess i can read from my laptop (god save my eyes if i do that lol 😵)

might put Kinderszenen back on the (mental music) shelf for now.

i also read more of what you are looking for is in the library and i just love how much there is to ponder about what was said. insightful fiction is my favorite fiction 💗

tuesday | 08/13/24

finished What You Are Looking For Is In The Library! it's such a good book. it's a short story collection but each story is in the same universe and while each story is independent (convienient for readers like me who like to take their time with books but sometimes take so much time that they forget what the story was lol), they're connected in ways that...you know that feeling when you bump into an old acquaintance in a completely foreign place you don't expect to meet anyone you know? that feeling is what i felt as i read chapter after chapter. it makes the vast world feel less lonely.

in the evening i tried to memorize and get the clementi sonatina up to speed. i guess i must be succeeding because my dad said it'd make mice dance lol. also played a bit of traumerei...trying to read more of it but progress is slower since i need to pay closer attention to which notes to hold and when to let go of them.

wednesday | 08/14/24

started reading sweet bean paste today (another japanese book... they're quickly becoming my favorite type of book.) i like it so far. there's potential for a lot of warmth and emotion in talking about food, which is just 🥰

also started "Databases: Modeling and Theory" on edx... 🙈 i'm auditing so i only have 2 weeks (until Aug. 28) to access the material (because the minimum amount of time needed to complete the course is 2 weeks gahhh). so i need to be halfway by Aug. 19. in theory i can do this if i put in 2h of work each day. it's too hot to play piano during the day, so i can do databases then and play piano at night. yes, i can do this. (i need to get my brain used to a faster, "left-brained" pace anyway in prep for school in september. 🙁)

continuing to polish the clementi sonatina and started reading this kuhlau sonatina which is pretty fun difficult. it's really just the left hand that makes it suck. haven't figured out how to move so that the staccatos are sharp despite the finger pedaling. i can do it slow, but not fast while staying quiet, so i must be doing something wrong. sometimes you just gotta sit on it, i guess.

[sketch-guardian]

Guess who stayed up until 3 AM to finish a sketch that was supposed to be a gift to be delivered on 26/6?🙂....I really hate my slowness🤦🏻anyway-

Here's a drawing of Clover and Jamil sharing a touching moment right after his Overblot🍁❤🐍(with his hair down as a bonus-) according to my dear awkward noodle friend's headcanon about how their meeting went of course😌I tried to reproduce how I imagined the scenario🤔 reworking it a bit to include Clover's unique magic (?)🤷🏻(the background sucks, I know-)

Still, I hope you like it and happy birthday again, even if a bit late Koni🙈☺💜🎉 also I added some close ups, because I wasn't very satisfied with the resolution from afar😖 @hyper-super-clover

(While here are some highlights):

(P.S.: I doubt anyone would care, but I've finally finished my exams🎉✨ so in this period I should be more active both to reply to asks and to draw💖the next post should be on the familiars of RAD classmates and I hope to finish the sketch soon🙈🤞🏻)

[narryffdreaming]

Yayy it’s the anon who asked about gi and harry 🩷🩷🩷 thank u for putting it back up publicly, about to go read!! It’s one of my faves on here! If ur ever thinking about a part 2 (or just a spoiler about what happens next) i would not complain at all

ahh, thank you so much! didnt think gi and harry was something people were interested in, let alone it could be anyone's favorite thing on here haha <3 it means a lot, really!

and about part 2, i would love to share more about them, but it's so hard to write it down when there are sooooo many ideas around my mind! :( like i always imagined the next scene being back at harrys, then niall and his gf arriving back from their date and not liking at all the fact that gi's there... so things get really awkward... and then them also giving harry a hard time for ditching his date (a friend of them), which gianna ends up listening&she had no idea about... so yeah, from then on, there's a lot to unpack! lol from nialls gf (and niall himself) getting to know gianna, to gianna and harrys friendship changing into something else, and also to gianna letting go of all those things(people) that she's attached to but arent good for her at all. lotsss of growing up/character development that unfortunately im not capable of writing in only one afternoon/weekend :( every day i wish i could be one of those writers! lol but i guess at least the ideas are there, so hopefully, HOPEFULLY, one day I'll get to it 🤞🏻

it does mean a lot that you ask about it, tho! i appreciate it a lot. so thank you, thank you <33 hope you're having a great day!

[thaleleah]

I’m so tired 😭 I get really bad bouts of depression sometimes and lately its been a lot. Feeling like I need to take a mini vacay and get away from everything but the only place I can think to go is to visit my mom and then I would have to deal with my stupid stepdad sooooo TBD i guess lol

Tal 🩷 you know what you should do? you and your mom need a girls trip together. a mini vacay. a day at the spa. stepshit can’t say nothing. and if he does… you call me and i’ll take care of him 😂

I've had The Tudors and The Spanish Princess on my to watch list for a while now and just haven't gotten around to it.

tudors is good to watch after watching the spanish princess. despite the tudors coming out before. the spanish princess is like a prequel to tudors. also the guy who plays henry viii in the spanish princess is low key so hot… and it’s season 2 where he is a literal evil tyrant. clearly i like em all bad 🫠

Oh shittttt. Well, hopefully it doesn't take tooooo long. Does your dad want to keep custody of your brother? Or is he gonna let her have the full custody?

since my stepmom is very very unstable. my dad is aiming for full custody himself. and i have to agree because i’m genuinely so scared she’ll end up hurting her own son.

Slow lol. I'm about 2/3 of the way done with it but its put on a mini hold cause I'm trying to participate in a couple events for Avatar in July but those fics are slow coming too lol. I'm hoping I can finish it after I finish the current fic I'm working on tho before I start the next prompt in the event. Fingers crossed 🤞🏻

Ooo avatar has events? that’s actually soooo cool and seems like soooo much fun. how does it work? like do you follow prompt lists made by other creators? this is so fascinating to me 🥰

Tal 🩷 you know what you should do? you and your mom need a girls trip together. a mini vacay. a day at the spa. stepshit can’t say nothing. and if he does… you call me and i’ll take care of him 😂

You are so right! I actually tried to talk to her about going on a trip somewhere and she's not really a traveler (even coming to visit me a state away is a lot for her sometimes) but she seems open to the idea. But of course then she's like "It will have to be a time when he doesn't need me, and hes having a hard time at work right now, and he has a doctor appointment..." and im just like UGHHH FUCKK cause i know it wont happen. So yes, I'm gonna need you to come take care of him 😂

tudors is good to watch after watching the spanish princess. despite the tudors coming out before. the spanish princess is like a prequel to tudors. also the guy who plays henry viii in the spanish princess is low key so hot… and it’s season 2 where he is a literal evil tyrant. clearly i like em all bad 🫠

Yay! Then I shall watch it after the Spanish Princess! And oooooh good to know he's low key hot 👀 I know Jonathan Rhys Meyers plays him in the Tudors and I go back and forth about if I think he's hot or not lmaooo. But I do like villains so maybe that's the appeal lol

since my stepmom is very very unstable. my dad is aiming for full custody himself. and i have to agree because i’m genuinely so scared she’ll end up hurting her own son.

Jesus Christ, yeah its def for the best then that he gets full custody. How's this going? Any progress?

Ooo avatar has events? that’s actually soooo cool and seems like soooo much fun. how does it work? like do you follow prompt lists made by other creators? this is so fascinating to me 🥰

Yep! The people that create/host the event make a prompt list with however many days they want the event to be for and create a specific tag along with it and anyone who wants to participate can pick all or just a few of the prompts and they post that fic on that specific day and tag it to the event tag. It's really fun! But it can cause burn out if you're not careful.

Right now there are 2 events: Survive the Night and Summers in Pandora (#avatarsurvivethenight and #summersinpandora2024 if ur interested in searching them up). The Survive the Night one is a dark/noncon/dubcon event 👀)

I'm very behind tho. I only got to write 2 fics and now I'm writing a Scream AU with one of the characters as Ghostface for the last day of the noncon event but idk if ill finish it in time. Plus I wanna come back and write Godless soooooo bad and its killing me that im putting it off

It's been a second since I've been on here. How have you been, hun? 🧡