#3 AM post

[chronicsheepdrawing]

I have a Game Development Blog but I rarely update it because I'm stuck in a hellish Sisyphean cycle of my own making.

I know I don't have to make something groundbreaking, and I can make something just for myself- but I feel like it isn't worth it or won't reach enough people if it's so specific to what I like.

My skills are average, not good or bad just average, but that isn't good enough in my eyes to attract attention- to get people to genuinely like and be invested in something that's wholly mine. I burn bright but lose that passion quickly.

I'm just sick of it really.

[atherix]

3 am and wanting to write more pre-relationship Midnight stuff with the boys bonding and falling a little more in love with Scar..... wanting to write more pre-relationship redscape of them just spending time together while Grian sleeps and deepening their friendship....... need more mutually pining pre-relationship Mmidnight redscape..........

[coffeestripes]

Bugs!

[overlordinavoid]

Me right before I use my magical mod powers

[justawrites]

I let my demons win tonight

let's pretend I didn't forget to include Kallamar's ears it's 3 am and I wanna sleep,,,

[mayahawkeswife]

25k words in the google doc… yet still no bitches ☹️🤧

[pretttydevilpeach]

🌚🍄

[katkitty887]

bro got so excited for the food im crying

I’ve got another orange cat video to show....

[butchfalin]

the funniest meltdown ive ever had was in college when i got so overstimulated that i could Not speak, including over text. one of my friends was trying to talk me through it but i was solely using emojis because they were easier than trying to come up with words so he started using primarily emojis as well just to make things feel balanced. this was not the Most effective strategy... until. he tried to ask me "you okay?" but the way he chose to do that was by sending "👉🏼👌🏼❓" and i was so shocked by suddenly being asked if i was dtf that i was like WHAT???? WHAT DID YOU JUST SAY TO ME?????????? and thus was verbal again

[cozylittleartblog]

i dont know how to explain it but joining extremely small fandoms with only a few people in them feels like this

[hinamie]

trick or treat!

[paintedcrows]

The Mystery Twins all grown up!! I love them so much. 13 forever, yet always older than me

[atherix]

I just want to thank vanilla tweaks for immediately making these blocks less suspicious bc this is hell on anyone with visual impairments

[culbi]

trying out a new brush and its insane how it can change ones artstyle

[overlordinavoid]

I truly do not understand when people say and claim to love everyone, no matter their opinios, believes, relationship, religion, but then go and say hateful and the most cruel, vile, things about someone just because you don't agree with them.

You are contradicting yourself. You are the very thing that you claim to hate. Why do you do that? You're just lying to not only everyone else but yourself.

I cannot wrap my brain around that, like why would you say the most evil things about someone you claim to love?

Saying everyone needs to love and respect people's opinions and choices but then screaming, crying, threating, when someone doesn't agree with you? Just why.

Your actions speak much louder then your damn words. Act how you say others should. If you cannot act out your own beliefs and ideas on how humans should treat each other, then shut the fuck up.

[lesbianralzarek]

slightly parallel universe where tumblr allows alphabets from other languages to be used in peoples urls, so 2012 bloggers used katakana phonetically to shorten their ridiculously long fandom urls that contained every single ship theyve ever loved so that the whole goddamn thing could actually fit onscreen. a few users started using khmer and sinhala and other alphabets that are hard for monolingual english speakers to parse solely so it would be difficult for most tumblr users to @ them and/or track them down to block. this lead to discourse blogs demanding that people post selfies to "prove" that they arent using arabic for "nefarious purposes" and saying blatantly racist shit like "i block people using sanskrit on sight" or "can you claim ancestral reasons for using ge'ez?". someone gets called out for race-faking because they use chinese but their icon is a white woman, who turns out to just be a fictional character that they like, and they actually are chinese. several prominent and terminally online leftist blogs make bizarre claims about how using alphabets they dont know is basically the exact same thing as paywalls on academic articles because its "hiding information from people who cant afford college". it all culminates in staff making a meme that reeks of "how do you do fellow kids" vibes about how only cyberbullies use bangla, which is widely condemned by literally everyone as being racist as hell, and any further alphabet discourse from then on is shot down hard by merely posting tumblrstaffbangla.jpeg