#2ourdust nyc

[fallouttboy]

to me, fall out boy has become, and maybe always has been, a love letter to your past selves. love is messy. love is hard. love feels an awful lot like a tsunami and sometimes it’s overwhelming in a bad way, but if the love is there and real, it’s also overwhelming in good ways. awash in the warmth and comfort of a good love yet knowing through experience that in order to feel that warmth, you have to be a little bit cold sometimes. it’s okay. because you know that if your love is truly capital l love, it’ll be warm again, and it’ll come back. that’s fall out boy.

their lyrics are blunt sometimes, cutting to the core on the first slice. the powerhouses of patrick and pete writing in counterpart collaboration: pete brings the words to patrick’s music. patrick knows how to say what pete writes, without words, perfectly. pete could write lyrics for others and patrick could compose for others but together is where their art is most compatible. the swoops of strings in stardust (the record) with pete’s mood swinging, too-deep truth wrapped up pretty in sarcasm and irony lyricism, the brutal honesty of i think ive been going through it, and ive been putting your name to it or love is in the air, i just gotta figure out a window to break out or talking to the mirror, save your breath, half your life you’ve been hooked on death- there is no other way for things to sound as right as they do. composer (patrick)//never composed (pete).

the emotions were palpable through a stream, i cannot imagine how it felt to be there. the band seemed so high in their emotions: the setlist changes, the riffing, the speeches. tonight was about living to see the life you’ve created. living to see the life you’ve been told you’d never have. patrick’s speech about how he deals/dealt with hardcore imposter syndrome, never thinking he’d do much and not thinking he’d ever get anywhere. looking back and calling himself a “fat little eight year old”. i felt the breath hitch of all of the people of the Garden who know exactly what it’s like to be the fat little eight year old, who know exactly what it’s like to feel like you don’t belong and never will. but patrick said it: you belong. he belongs. our fat, eight year old selves belong. and maybe he meant it as a simple statement with no meaning behind it, like saying a baby’s cheeks are fat, but to me it didn’t feel that way. it felt genuine, from the voice of a man who is, at forty years old, finally comfortable in his skin and body. it felt like a love letter to us, the people who are mostly okay now but still have that voice that reminds them that they’re not as small as the others, never have been, not really. and he dedicated the theme for spidey and his amazing friends, a song he composed for disney (!), to that little eight year old. the eight year old who loved spider-man. the eight year old who could never have ever imagined working with/for a licensed spider-man creation, or playing madison square garden, or being where patrick is. he did that for his past self. he did that to say look. you belong. you made it. we made it.

and xo replacing sixteen candles. to the love. to the fucking love. it’s all for love, everything this band does-every word, every note-love never wanted me but i took it anyway. this, paired with pete’s speech that talks about how it’s important to create art, no matter the weirdness, it just shows how much we and the band mean to them. patrick’s reminder of the band hanging all of their rejection letters from record labels on the wall of their apartment back in the beginning of the band, compared to now, sold out at madison square garden; to the love. to the love. to the love.

to bring in get busy living as one of the 8 ball songs is absolutely insane for tonight’s set. not only for the sheer chaos of it, but for the, well, everything, about the lyrics. to me, it’s a queer song. it’s a trans pov song. you like boys like me better, in the dark laying on top of you. not in the light. not where i can be seen. boys like me, the kind of boy who was born with a girl’s body and socialized as a girl, the kind of boy who doesn’t have any childhood photos as a boy, the kind of boy who hopes and prays to who or what ever that one day he will be boy “enough” for you. boys like me, you like “boys” like me. in the dark, without lights, blackout curtains drawn. you can pretend it’s not a dampness you feel against you but a solidity, you can pretend it isn’t too cool and too slick to be real sliding up into and against you. you can pretend it’s not me, then, better in the dark. you don’t see me.

put into context of tonight’s feelings it’s…a lot, to say the least. pete probably didn’t write it with gender fluidity in mind, it was likely a drag on his “bad boy” persona and being more comfortable fucking him when they can’t see who he is, characteristically, rather than through a gendered eye. either reading is tragic though; either scenario involves a party who cannot be seen in an extremely intimate encounter, and the other cannot bear to see them for whatever reason (pain? shame? i’ve always read it as shame of sleeping with someone the same sex as you, and then also someone who is trans, but hey, i’m queer and i could be wrong).

the idea of only being loved for with the lights are off and therefore could be anyone the other person wanted in comparison to the love that was so clearly and fully expressed at tonight’s show is kind of overwhelming in juxtaposition. love that is conditional (lights off) vs unconditional (be weird, create weird shit). love that you don’t know what to do with (through the keyhole i watched you dress//never feeling like you belong). patrick playing his big scoring composition entirely alone, on acoustic, in front of a sold out madison square garden. the whole band playing a sold out madison square garden. there’s that interview from a few days ago where patrick talks about bruce springsteen asking him to take a photo of his (springsteen’s) kids at msg, how patrick was starstruck, and how it taught him “take it (playing madison square garden) seriously, but don’t take yourself too seriously”, and i can’t help but think about it in context with tonight. take it seriously (the love, the venue, the fans) but don’t take yourself too seriously (playing a spider-man theme song).

fall out boy is about love. it’s for lovers. it’s for those who want to be loved. it’s scar crossed lovers, forever.

[holytrohmanempire]

“I love your dirty vocals, by the way.”

“I know you like bedroom talk, but I’m serious, I might have to go on vocal rest-”

“I meant the screaming!”

“In a hotel?”

[heirofseaandfire]

get busy living or get busy dying? guess I’ll just die

[glassofpumpkinjuice]

i love that top you’re wearing in your most recent selfie! is it hand made?

thank u, i love that u think i'm capable of making that haha i got it secondhand and the brand is apparently 'sonicpath'

i have knitted some clothing items like hats, scarves, fingerless gloves, wristbands, etc but i haven't tried making a top yet it's a bit intimidating

[abovetherainandroses]

nine people you’d like to know better tag

thanks for tagging us @buildarocketboys ! storm 🌩️ and sprout 🌱 here—we thought it'd be fun if we both answered!

last song: a little less sixteen candles, a little more touch me by fall out boy - 🌩️ // alpha dog by fall out boy - 🌱

fav colour: blue-grey - 🌩️ // green - 🌱 [gee, our internet handles sure make sense]

currently watching: game changer on dropout, dungeon meshi on netflix

sweet/savoury/spicy: not spicy, i am weak - 🌩️ // all of them!! - 🌱

relationship status: we are married <3

current obsession: i tripped and fell into mcr late december and i'm still there (made a new sideblog for it) 😭 i feel like i'm cheating on peterick lmao!!! - 🌩️ // peterick 🤪 like honestly. thats it. 2ourdust has dragged me back in by the balls - 🌱

last thing you googled: "teenage mutant hero turtles" because i was telling sprout about how they changed the name in the uk - 🌩️ // places to get dessert in ktown nyc lol - 🌱

tagging: coming up with enough people to tag is the hardest part but we did it lads. only if you want to ofc <3 @judasisgayriot @elliottwrites @averagehorror @moitmiller @faiasakura @eldritchw1tch @27-royal-teas @pyrchance @starrynyxa

[lightyaoigami]

in honor of 2ourdust starting tonight i am speaking into existence the following occurrences:

bang the doldrums in nyc

ONE mania song besides champion on the setlist. preferably heavens gate but i will settle for church

i'm so excited >:)

[blondepw]

letting this serve as my official manifestation and prediction that taylor swift will be a surprise guest at 2ourdust msg tonight

(my other prediction is any folie, from now on we are enemies, hotel in nyc, or the kids aren’t alright for 8 ball)

[mywinona]

are any of my tumblr mutuals going to 2ourdust?? ill be at anaheim, austin, nyc, milwaukee, and minneapolis. if you are pls dm/chat me and I'll make u a bracelet 🫶

[fallouttboy]

having some thoughts and feelings about xo replacing sixteen candles tonight and having get busy living as an 8 ball.

your secret’s out//through the keyhole i watched you dress//and the best part is it isn’t even a good one//kiss and tell, loose lips sink ships//tell me you like boys like me better in the dark laying on top of you//i don’t blame you for being you but you can’t blame me for hating it//love never wanted me//they said “what are you waiting for, kiss her, kiss her//i left my conscience pressed between the pages of the bible in the drawer//she said, she said, she said “why don’t you just drop dead?”//what did it ever do for me, i say//you said you’d keep me honest//but i took it anyway.

[glassofpumpkinjuice]

here's all my best non blurry photos from 2ourdust nyc!!!

[glassofpumpkinjuice]

hi i will be at 2ourdust nyc in this outfit and i made wristbands to give out!! i'll be on the floor section A for the show pls say hi if u want :)