#25 year old me would grab a machete and slit my throat in the key of oj Simpson

[subtlesolitude-tailoredtaste]

I have been drowning in quicksand for 4 1/2 years.

Happy Birthday to me. If I ever amass a fortune it would go to proper funding and fight for legislation for safe humane abortions and safe humane assisted suicide.

Until then, I will shut the fuck up and smile at the table. Just like home just like family just like culture.

Shoutout to the Uber rides where the drivers waxed poetic about how hope is a harmful meaningless lie and useless and I should stop it “no offense” and I quoooooote.

Shoutout to the 47 year old for the sobering conversation, I hope it scares me enough to get up get out and get something by any means necessary fuck family. Thanks man.

Thanks mom for these past 4 years you broke my heart while I was trying not to break yours. It’s not your fault none of it, you’re not a victim you’re a survivor. I pray God grants her a thriving life.

🏳️🏳️🏳️

so many chances ya know. so much trauma most before age 10 lollll fear and self loathing. “What a waste, I’m sorry.” On a slab of rock buried if these customs cont to exist.

whatever happens happens, it is what it is.

attitude gratitude regardless. 🎈🎈🎈🎈🎈