#2025 time to be bold and do it scared lol

[of-mutts-and-men]

Oh lord please let me get my shit together and find my dream polycule living no more than a block away from me this year amen. 🙏 will also accept an older couple looking to take care of me like a puppy dog praise thee. I don’t ask for much.

[blissfullyecho]

Watered-Down New Years Resolutions that are SO Basic & Won’t Actually Help You

If “drink more water” or “meditate 5 minutes a day” is on your resolutions list, this post is for you.

Lol I woke up and chose violence but I’m going to call it what it is: basic, lukewarm resolutions that you guys on tumblr are RECYCLING are nothing more than a distraction from the fact that people don’t want to do the hard work.

It’s easy to tell yourself, “I’ll drink more water” or “I’ll read more books” because those things feel productive without actually forcing you to grow. It’s low-stakes, low-effort, and low-reward. You’re still the same person with the same habits, just now you’ve got a journal and a reusable water bottle. Congratulations?

If it’s one thing about my blog, I’m always going to be the bitch with the harsh truths. I’m not coddling any of you and I can’t keep seeing other blogs talk about morning journaling or doing a skincare routine. These baby-step resolutions are just a way to avoid facing what’s really holding you back—your laziness, your fear of failure, and your addiction to comfort. You’re not going to “change your life” by decluttering your closet or walking more. Real transformation takes bold, unapologetic moves that scare the hell out of you, not recycled Pinterest-level goals that any 10 year old can handle.

If you’re playing small with your resolutions, don’t be surprised when your results are pathetic. You can’t half-ass your way into the life you want. Basic resolutions lead to a basic life, period. Either level up and aim higher, or just admit that you’re fine staying average. But don’t waste everyone’s time pretending that drinking water and journaling is going to make you that girl because it won’t lol.

Thanks for coming to my Ted talk. Have a great rest of your Saturday.

🖤🍸 My book is finally available for immediate download! Grab yours so we can start 2025 on the right foot.

[yoonyeon0]

⚠ WARNING ⚠ DANGEROUS RANT, MENTIONS OF Y***GAHAMA, TYPOS, TYPOS, TYPOS, ABSOLUTELY NONSENSE AND PURE PRIMAL LOVE. (never said that phrase in my whole life)

Read with cation.

YESSS GODDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD!

#mymanmyman #hottie #pegginghiminthebackofthebus #waithemight lowkbeabottom 😍 #ilohmatokita

two of my FAVORITE men in the same damn panel at the end of the year. 2025 will be good.

lowkey I love seeing kengan men beat up

NOT A MASOCHISTIC KINK BTW

they just literally look sm hotter on the brink of death

like look at fei wangfang.

he was dying but he still served cunt somehow???

now all I need is a shen with hair down while wet appearance and IT WILL BE DONE!

still haven't recovered from the last shen with hair down. he is so baby girl but NOBODY understands

anyway I'm kinda excited to see where this jun vs ohma rematch is gonna go

ngl if ohms wins I won't be surprised bc...plot and shit but if Jun wins I'll be baffled

highly unlikely though.

IM GLAD THAT MOTHAFUCKER BITCH GOT HIS SHIT ROCKED

he actually looks like a cockroach I'm repulsed.

ANYWAY

awwhwh he's so cutest and so kawaii

I could eat him. He looks edible. I love shen wulong. Yes. #hottieofthecentury

this rant is one of everything because I have been missing A LOT

but dw.

I'm back for good.

anyway i am NOT prepared for 2025 but I mean you gotta do what you gotta do

I have been watching squid game and I wonder how the kengan cast would do in the squid game.

other than fucking kill everyone there with their bare hands ofc bcs well.

I feel like shen would play along just for the shits and giggles which is #real

but other than that I think it's bold of me to assume that any of those kengan players are going down without a fight

bro if that's for kengan...imagine baki.

bro nah that's absolutely insane and scary to think abt.

literally I would just quit. like give up. no point.

like imagine fucking DOPPO literally looking at you with murder on his mind bcs well...you killed people with their consent (kinda??)

I'd cry.

like hello.

don't even get me STARTED on hanayama

I don't have beef with him it's just he's is so scary to me.

Literally I would fold under his gaze both because I'm scared and I am romantically sparked.

Well.

Anyway I have A LOT to rant abt baki because that show is so funny but at the same time low-key kinda deep (maybe I'm too brainrotted) but I'll leave that for another time.

this rant was high-key shorter than the others lol but catch yall later because it's way too damn late for me to be doing this shit 😭😭😅

[fgfluidity]

(Imma bold and color stuff at random cause this is a big chuck of text and it makes stuff, at least for me, easier to read I hope it works for you too)

And uh warning for needles and minor violence and brainwashing I suppose

Also also if you see a typo of me using male pronouns for Morgan it's because I play as male Morgan but you have the option to play as female so I just went with gender neutral pronouns-

The big thing in this game is, well first off obviously it's an alternate universe where Kennedy never got killed and he funded the space race and ailens were found back in the 60's but complications, cover ups, blah blah, until I think 2025 when the space craft and information was bought by a company called transtar which then started using the ailens (called typhon) to make something called neuromods-

Now neuromods basically-

Say you want to have the ability to speak french, so stab yourself in the eye(it's a sharp as fuck needle, you like yourself and stay like that for 15 minutes according to the instruction guide you can find lying around) bam you know French now

Except!

There's a caveat.

So say you got that french neuromod installed March 15th 2032 and okay you can speak french, three years pass it is now 2035 and then someone decides to fuck with you and removed your neuromod, well guess what fucker now you think it's march 15th 2032 and you can't remember anything past that

Which basically happens to the character you play as (Morgan) minus the french, double the ailens

And Transtar (the company which funded this whe thing) decided to keep the fact that neuromods are made from typhon and that they can be removed (and if they're removed you lose your memory) a secret.

And a bit of backstory Morgan has a brother named Alex, Alex is the President of Transtar and Morgan is Vice President.

So on Talos 1 (the space station and main setting of the game) there's a bunch of places. One of the most interesting is Psychotronics, now since I'm too scared to go back there I don't know exactly what happened (cause I don't want to go back there lol) but what I can gather is it's fucked-

As far as I can tell Morgan was in charge of the psychotronics division and signed off on all the stuff that went on down there.

Anyway it seems this division is where stuff got experimented on...and by stuff I mean people

They're called "volunteers" but these people are actually convicts who were taken off death row or offered reduced sentences if they took the offer

So of course they took the offer.

There's this special brand of typhon called a Weaver and a weaver can make phantoms. Now phantoms are the reanimated corpses of humans. Weavers can also mind control humans. (It's why when you go to psychotronics you're required to wear a psychoscope)

So what the scientists in psychotronics did is they had the weavers turn people into phantoms, and then they harvested the exotic materials to make more neuromods.

And again, keep in mind that Morgan signed off on this, gave the a okay.

Now time to actually get into the game since you have the bare bones backstory.

"Good morning Morgan. Today is Monday March 15th 2032"

You wake in your apartment (on earth) and are told you have an appointment at the transtar facility before you get cleared to go to space

You go in for some..tests

You're told to remove some boxes from a circle as quick as you can, don't think about it, just remove them.

So you throw them out of the circle. The guy testing you (Dr. Bellamy) seems disappointed

Test one done, onto test two.

You're told to hide.

There is nothing in the room but a chair. You have ten seconds. Hide.

Don't think about it, hide.

So you crouch behind the chair obviously, what else are you supposed to do after all?

Dr. Bellamy seems rather exasperated, but whatever onto the next room.

Test 3

There are two barriers and two buttons.

One button is in front of you, the other is across the room, you have to surpass the barriers to get to it.

Press the red button to start, blue to finish, simple enough.

So you start, vault over the two barriers and push the blue button in about 10 seconds, it's a small room after all

Dr. Bellamy once again seems disappointed

Okay time for something new. Ever hear of the trolley problem? You get a few questions like that and some... unlike that

You've been sentenced to death how do you react?

Afraid, I'm scared of what will happen.

Angry, no one has the right.

Calm, it was worth it.

So you answers the questions and move on to the next room.

There is an ink blot on a white page, Dr. Bellamy says tell me, what do you see?

Just as you look down at the paper you think you see out of the corner of your eye a flash of something black.

You glance up to see Dr. Bellamy holding a coffee cup, although he already had one on his desk, strange.

Suddenly the cup transforms and attacks the Doctor, chaos erupts, interns are screaming, guards are swarming.

Some sort of knockout gas floods the room you're in.

Good morning Morgan. Today is Monday March 15th 2032.

Que the ominous music

So Morgan goes to their computer and there's 6 messages saying danger, leave now from someone named January, so you leave

The first thing you see when you exit your room is the mechanic who was working on the pipes yesterday is now dead, you take her wrench.

So you can fuck around like Markiplier for twenty minutes and finally break the fish tank at the end of the hall or you can do it the Cool(tm) way and backtrack to your room and break the glass that lead to the deck "outside"

January pops up again to tell you you're in a simulation lab and that you need to get to the neuromod division to get a neuromod to help and then get to the lobby

So with nothing else to do and a fucked up memory you stumble around the lab and with the power of context clues figure out that oh shit it's February and the year is 2035

January tells you that you can remember the previous days events because it replaced your neuromods with blanks, which it was instructed to do if the typhon ever broke containment or Alex trapped you in a loop to be experiment on and both happened

So trying to cope with the fact that you're brother's an asshole and you just stabbed yourself in the eye to hack the door next to you you make your to the lobby

And, since I like how January puts it best, you get "You're first view of the real world"

holy fuck you're in fucking space

It turns out you are on board Talos 1, pretty much everyone on board is dead, although aforementioned dick of a brother unfortunately is not

So January tells you you need to make your way to your office, which sweet you have an office, with this ugly ass couch that you're this close to tossing off the balcony-

Anyway

There is a message, past Morgan was so kind to leave you a message, unfortunately past Morgan is, like you, quite dramatic and cannot get to the point quick enough, so Alex swoops in and stops you from viewing the video

A bit of dickery, profuse swearing and drinking copious amounts of alchohol to stave off fear as you bash a ten foot tall monster's face in with a wrench and you can finally watch the goddamned video only for past Morgan to say, yeah you got to blow up Talos 1, there's two keys, your bro has one and because like we've established he's a dick, he destroyed yours, but! Good news you can find the schematics to make a new one in a place called deep storage and why do all the fucking sucky places in viddy games start with deep- (I'm referencing hollow knight which has a place called deepnest that is a basically a labyrinth in the dark it sucks)

Oh and January pops up and bam it's an operative, which is this cute lil death robot that is hell to fight but Janaury is nice(derogatory), past Morgan built them, and if you can refrain from bashing them in with a wrench (it was an accident I swear) they'll encourage you to blow up the ship, (as well as occasionally interject with a snarky comment,) as it's their main directive although there are other ways to end the game

Now to actually tell you what is going on

Basically OG Morgan was like yeah I'll be a true scientist and be tested on myself, both they and Alex agreed that Morgan would get installed with typhon neuromods

Now I know what you're thinking, aren't they all typhon neuromods?

Yes but neuromods are created by mapping the pathways in someone's brain.

So installing a neuromod is basically like tracing someone's art, if you have the base you can have the product.

Now the typhon neuromods were used by scanning them with the psychoscope, as far as I can tell.

And they give you these batshit powers

You can blow stuff up, phase away from your body and turning into a freaking cup! (And more!)

Also Morgan invented the psychoscope

Anyway Morgan agreed to be the guinea pig for the typhon neuromods, I'm not sure how often these experiments were conducted but it basically went like this:

1. Get typhon neuromod installed

2. Test it, the capabilities and limitations

3. Get filled in on all the stuff you missed when the previous mod got removed

4. Fulfill the rests of your duties around the station as normally as possible because no one outside the psychotronics/neuromod division knows about this illicit plot

5. Get the neuromod removed and do it all over again.

Another side note The typhon broke containment because a guy went into psychotronics without the scope, got mind controlled, let a typhon out and it multiplied

Morgan started to suffer from personality drift, exhaustion and memory loss (no surprise lol) and there's this one log that I accidentally broke an entire guy's office to get

It's a counseling session with Dr. Matthias Asshole

and oh boy

This one actually fucked me up-

It was just sad-

Basically Morgan's saying that the past Morgan, the stuff they can't even remember, that it's not them, that the stuff happening with the Volunteers in psychotronics is fucked. Dr. Asshole tries to give Morgan a pill, Morgan gets pissed and the log ends

Dr. Asshole called Alex and this is presumably when Alex trapped Morgan in the simulation to keep testing them (I think it went on for three weeks, pretty sure a log I found said that)

Thing is the constant installation and neuromod removal made Morgan paranoid as all hell so they decided to come up with contingency plans, that's how January came to be, there's also December (December's version of Morgan set them up with an escape plan instead of blowing up the place)

And I think there was also an October

Now this game is classified as an rpg/immersive sim, cause Morgan's a pretty blank character and since they're mind got fucked with and their personality is scrambled basically any way you play the game is plausible. Hell you can spend the whole game as an anxiety ridden box and shoot nerf darts everywhere if you want.

Now to talk about my least favorite part...the ending.

This game pulls an inception and if you stay till after the credits you're treated to the sight of asshole brother and a few Operators who sound familiar (they're other people who were on the ship)

Basically you are a typhon and Alex has been taking typhon, putting Morgan's memories into them, sticking them in these simualtions and seeing what choices they make

If you make "good" choices i.e. don't install tyohon mods and save people they're like okay help us kill all the other typhon that have taken over earth and if you made "bad choices" i.e. you were a dumb fuck who couldn't navigate a spacesuit and Dr. Igwe suffocated on accident and your ex girlfriend died becayse god why didn't she have her medicine do I need to do everything-

Anyway if you were a bitch you get killed and Alex presumably goes and traumtizes another typhon

So the thing about typhon (more commonly called mimics) supossedly lacked mirror neurons, which is a thing in neuroscience that is theorized to be intergral to the process of empathy

So Alex was seeing if he could create empathy i guess

The reason I don't like the ending is because

1. The whole it was all a dream/simulation/not real, personally it diminishes the hell you go through, and takes away from the emotional weight for me

2. The typhon were first encountered when they beat up a Russian satellite and some researchers go sent to see what was up, "encountered" the typhon and got killed (I put encountered in quotes because did they go, hi alien! And the typhon killed them? Or did they try to experiment-)

Either way the typhon are the main components in making neuromods, which is an actual thing you can do in the game. So I calculated it and you need about 15 of the regular ones you can encounter to make one neuromod (approximately 30 organs/tumors)

So tell me this if you were put in a glass bubble and someone tossed a bomb at you that turns you into your base matter how would you react? Well you would be a blob of goo so it wouldn't matter, but what if you saw that happen to a friend?

You'd be pissed, you'd possibly want these people dead-

The "bomb" I mention is a recycler charge, which you toss it or affix it to something and it turns the surrounding objects into materials. You can first find recycler charges in a room with typhon in a bubble, there is a computer screen in front of it and you have the option to drop some charges into the bubble

And finally Reason 3.

Reason 3. You were a typhon this whole time, throughout the game you are hunted, you become prey to the very thing you are

Once you progress far enough in the game a typhon called a Nightmare appears, there is no information on Nightmares and as far as you can figure out they only exist because of you.

So if at the end of the game you choose to side with the humans you are going against the very thing you are for the sake of saving people, the same people *cough* alex *cough* who imprisoned and basically tortured you or you can side with the typhon and get revenge on humanity. No matter how you spin it technically you're the bad guy but the good ending is implied to be where you side with Alex.

Why?

i am

overwhelmed

i appreciate you blocking and formatting though kfshgs

and yeah that’s. kind of a bad ending

i don’t really care for tomato in the mirror stuff and you’re just? a traitor either way? :/

and why???? does removing the mod??? remove your Entire Memories

i get brains are Like That but also if it’s just a plug in why can you not just remove the plug like ok you just don’t know french anymore

Anyway

ty for this led