#2) it should be a basic decency to put on some fucking headphones and turn off your sound when another person is in the room

[lannisterdaddyissues]

walked into my dorm room again today and guess what my roommate is doing? playing minecraft again. i’ve been in here for 15 minutes and she hasn’t even had the decency to put her headphones in, so she’s been playing with the sound on this entire time. what the fuck did i do to deserve this

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7/21/21

Oh hey! I’m back ;D

So I didn’t come back after dentist appointment, obviously. BUT, it wasn’t nearly as bad as I was imagining. I mean, it was bad, and it easily wiped out 10% of my net worth in an afternoon. Oops. You know, for someone who puts a lot of effort into living life with zero regrets, I certainly think I would have brushed my teeth a TAD more diligently as a child if I had known my poor smile would have made me unhappy every single day of my adult life while costing me constant pain, grief, and a couple month’s wages every now and again.

Can I be honest for a second? Give you hot take real quick? Hmm, ok, never mind. I was going to type out a spicy one, but while I was trying to find the words, I talked myself out of it. I was gonna say something around the area of “I had it rough as a kid; a took a couple licks from my old man, and I turned out fine” schtick. I feel like that notion gets dismissed too quickly. People hear that and go, “Ah, you just THINK you turned out fine. What you’re not factoring in is that you're a bigoted asshole.” But I think that dismisses it too quickly. I think if we deconstructed the situation a bit, me might be inclined to agree with some of those people. It wasn’t like a progressive, tolerant, patient, honest parenting couple was the one that gave their kid “something to cry about,” and then he turned into this raw, conservative a-hole. His parents were already raw, conservative a-holes. And then they didn’t do nearly enough to make sure that their child didn’t have a rough go of it while in their formative years. But their child was fine. In fact, he still grew up respecting their parents’ choices and decisions that raised him up. He in a very real sense did “turn out just fine.” The main problem was that he respects and trusts his parent’s judgment while his parent’s happen to completely out of touch with modern decency. Hey, did I start this paragraph out saying that I wouldn’t dispense a hot take, but then I went ahead and did it anyway? Hmm.. Well maybe my initial hot take was a little more unhinged, and you’re just reading the walked-back mild-sauce version of my take. But at this point I don’t even know myself what the original take was, so, shrug emoji.

EDITOR’S NOTE: Fuck this is so hard! I took a 2 hour break after that first chunk. I did some useful things (dishes, laundry) and some less useful things (youtube, a banger game of League). So now I just want to hit 1k more in my word count and get the fuck out of here before I crawl in a hole of procrastination so deep I die of the black lung. The hole of procrastination contains a lot of coal I guess. Does that make sense? Not really, but this all counts towards the 1k baby!!!! Here. We. A-go.

Ok, so. Let’s try this; let’s lay out everything that we can say we know for sure we want to happen in this next week. And don’t skip anything! Let’s try to get it all on here and see what it looks like:

Finish my laundry. Dryer cycle, fold and put away On that note- pack for the trip. We need Bathing suit (2! why not?!), undies, shorties, my comfy 90$ pants, shirts for moving, shirts for sitting, sockos, sandals go in the bag and tennies go on feet, hat??, yeah one hat, you never know, sunnies (2 pairs, that way I can kinda just leave lying around and see them more often, cuz when I see’s my sunnies, I wears ‘em. And that’s the kind of life that I’m trying to live baby, anything else? I’m looking at my clothes right now. Hmmm.... One hoodie just to be safe.  I also have to pack non-clothing. Phone + charger, Ipad + charger, Fitbit CHARGED ahead of time (I just plugged it in, nice. This is why we make this list like this). I’ll charge the headphones today later as well. My two books. My fullsized notebook for the analog blogs that will be happening. I just pulled a pen out so as not to forget that ish later. I’ll be bringing this Dark Matter Coffee that I have committed to going out and gathering VERY SOON. If a coffee bar closes earlier than a regular place of business I should make sure I get there before 3. But that is TIGHT, because I want to sweat AND shower AND groom myself to the tops before I go out today. And maybe you’re thinking, Max that’s still 2 and half hours, that’s not that tight. But I’ll also have laundry AND lunch AND I have to finish this goddamn BS, and this is sucking the life out of my like the vacuum of space sucks out your eyeballs. Hey by the way, quick aside, the fucking take that Jeff Bezos going into space (recent news*) was a waste of money is so fucking ice cold. How is that the only thing people can think to say? The problem is it’s so obviously true, and seemingly can’t stick with anyone in power that the comedy is fucking frozen in time. You can’t zag when everyone’s zigging because the zigging is objectively correct. This rich person driving the machine of capitalism directly into our own annihilation has frivolously gone into space and actualized everyone’s childhood fantasy of riding a rocketship into space. And the act of acquiring the means to actually make it possible has made him one of the more reviled figures in modern history; this ruined the idea of going to space “because anything is possible if you put your mind to it” for a lot of people, and it’s possible that this debacle has proven the “anything is possible” notion to be demonstrably false. People clamoring and hustling to try and make sure that Jeff Bezos doesn’t enjoy going into space to me just highlights the impossibility of amazing adventures like these. One of the first people ever to amass the resources to actually manifest one of the most exciting things humans can do: commerical spaceflight; literally the next step towards the ultimate frontier, has forced everybody back over to the truly old and awful take that the money used for this could be better spent solving more tangible problems. For decades, small-minded cowardly people have seen NASA break through the barrier of space time and time again and whined that those taxpayer dollars should have been for like fixing highways and shit. And they sucked for it. That sucks. And now Bezos goes up because we now live in a world where someone can just go up there, which should be so fucking interesting, and everybody else goes, “well this isn’t taxpayer money technically, but it basically is, and it’s actually MORE useful than taxpayer money somehow. This money didn’t have to get filtered through government bureaucracy so it could have like built a bunch of wells in Africa or provided healthcare to thousands of people. This miracle of science and engineering isn’t as valuable as the really simple problems that I can parse as the common man, and I’m pissed!” And it sucks because that ANCIENT complaint is now propped up by the fact that Jeff Bezos could only manage this by sitting on top of a capitalist system that is seemingly seconds away from exploding in a world-ending fireball. So this awesome thing that we’ve all hoped humanity could one day achieve finally happened, but it seemingly only was able to happen because capitalism is crushing millions of people under it’s heel. And I think maybe a capitalism 20 years ago was less divine. We could have seen a rich man in space and managed to empathize with him still. We could have imagined that could be us one day. It’s not possible anymore. The motivating system of meritocracy that keeps capitalism balanced is completely and utterly broken. So when everyone looks up and sees this fucking space trip, the only thing you can even see is blood. It took literal blood to get up there. And that’s not worth it, to anyone. Anyone except Jeff Bezos. Should I bring Shampoo with me? Might as well right. A whole week? That could be 7+ showers. I might need to put it in like a big ziploc baggie. Dark Matter closes at 6. We’re golden babe.

Love ya dude