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Sillage
noun // a lingering scent a person leaves behind, the impression in space after something or someone has passed by
Genre: fluff? but its going to be a wild ride tbh Pairing: Mingyu x Reader Summary: A Soulmate!AU where soulmates identify each other through scent
A/N: As promised, hereâs the epilogue. Though tbh, itâs not so much an epilogue as just wrapping up some loose ends.....
Part 1 | Part 2 | Part 3 | Part 4 | Part 5 | epilogue
Untold Tales Seungkwan He takes a shaky breath as he closes the door behind him. He sure as hell hopes Y/N believes him, because heâd told her the truth.
Seungkwan looks down at his watch--twenty-five minutes till the rendezvous with Mingyu.
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Sillage
noun // a lingering scent a person leaves behind, the impression in space after something or someone has passed by
Genre: fluff? but its going to be a wild ride tbh Pairing: Mingyu x Reader Summary: A Soulmate!AU where soulmates identify each other through scent Words:Â 8,327Â Warnings: blood, violence, abuse/torture, sexual harassment, death mentionÂ
A/N: Aaaaand itâs done! Thank you everyone who followed me through this journey eheh and especially thank you to @wonnhao for always being my wonderful beta and making my day with your comments c: Also, Iâm going to be putting up an epilogue, so if theyâre anything youâre curious about after reading (about certain characters, for example), hmu and Iâll add it to the epilogue!
Part 1 | Part 2 | Part 3 | Part 4 | Part 5 | epilogue
âWhat is that?â Mingyu drawls from the other end of the room, once youâve stopped screaming. He sounds unaffected, unhurried.
Unworried.
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Sillage
noun // a lingering scent a person leaves behind, the impression in space after something or someone has passed by
Genre: fluff? but itâs going to be a wild ride tbh Pairing: Mingyu x Reader Summary: A Soulmate!AU where soulmates find each other through scent Words:Â 7,274 Warnings: violence, death mention
A/N: I told you it was gonna be a wild ride. (shoutout to @wonnhaoâ for being my beta again lol) âĄ
Part 1 | Part 2 | Part 3 | Part 4Â | Part 5Â | epilogue
Ignorance is bliss, they say.
But how can it be bliss when you feel like your head is going to explode at any moment now? Itâs been hours and instead of getting any work done, youâve been lying on your bed and thinking too hard about the day with Mingyu, and how he just seemed to be a normal guy. Yet he obviously isnât, because it has been twice now that youâve smelled the other side of him. Considering that you had both been in the Quad, alone, there was no reason to doubt you had smelled anythingâanyoneâbut him.
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Sillage
noun // a lingering scent a person leaves behind, the impression in space after something or someone has passed by
Genre: fluff? but itâs going to be a wild ride tbh Pairing: Mingyu x Reader Summary: A Soulmate!AU where soulmates find each other through scent Words: 3,436 Warnings: violence, implied death
A/N: Itâs looking like this fic will be 5 parts?? Also shoutout to @wonnhao for being my beta (yet again lol) âĄ
Part 1 | Part 2 | Part 3Â | Part 4Â | Part 5Â | epilogue
You reach home much earlier than midnight, with the party still going at full swing. Your heart is still pounding, head still spinning, despite the fact that you had had zero drinks the entire night.
You throw your bag into your chair and collapse onto your bed, the events of that night still swirling through your mind. You rub your palms against your eyes, exhaustion overwhelming every part of your body. Unbidden, you recall the feel of him, the warmth as he wrapped his arms around you and pulled you tight against his body.
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Sillage
noun // a lingering scent a person leaves behind, the impression in space after something or someone has passed by
Genre: fluff? but itâs going to be a wild ride tbh Pairing: Mingyu x Reader Summary: A Soulmate!AU where soulmates find each other through scent Words: 3,728
A/N: Again, Iâm sorry Iâm not putting a read more (because the âKeep Readingâ option never shows up on my phone and I canât be the only oneâŠ). Shoutout to @wonnhao for agreeing to be my beta (again) âĄ
Part 1 | Part 2 | Part 3 | Part 4 | Part 5 | epilogue
âAh,â Jiwoo says sleepily, but complies anyway. âHis nameâs Jeon Wonwoo. Hmm, letâs seeâŠheâs pretty tall, nice eyes, a really deep voice. Heâs generally pretty quiet, but if you get close enough youâll find he cracks really stupid jokes and heâs just an awkward guy, I think, but itâs cute. Iâm sure youâll get along great.â
âYou think so?â You hate to sound so desperate, especially after giving her your speech about not needing pity and ânot everyone finds love.â But now that youâre finally close, thereâs a strange sensation in your chest and itâs freeing, because it means that youâre not destined to be alone forever after all.
âDefinitely.â
Five minutes later, you find yourself drifting off to sleep with thoughts of a tall, dark-haired boy with golden skin and a smile like the sun.
â
Getting the covers yanked off you is one of the worst ways to wake up, and so you groan and try to reach for the blanket as Jiwoo does just that the following morning. âItâs too early for this,â you complain, voice cracking.
âItâs three in the afternoon,â she replies, much too energetic for your liking. âWe have to get you ready for your date.â
âDate? What? When?â You sit up, raking a hand through your tangle-ridden hair.
Jiwoo snickers. âGet it together, Y/N. Date with Jeon Wonwoo, your soulmate.â She rummages in her closet. âI called Jihoon this morning, and he said heâd arrange something at five. Now get up, we have things to do!â
âHow did I sleep until three?â This has to be a new record. You shake your head as you go into the bathroom to make yourself semi-presentable, and when you return to Jiwooâs room, she has changed and is in the process of putting on makeup. âIâll be done in five minutes,â she says, meeting your eyes through her mirror. âGather your things and grab something from the kitchen if youâre hungry, and then weâll go over to your house to actually get you ready.â
You carry all your bags over to the front door, before making yourself a bowl of cereal. Five minutes later, as promised, Jiwoo appears, keys and bag in hand. âLetâs go, letâs go, timeâs running out!â she calls as she heads outside.
You grab your things and run outside after her, making yourself comfortable in her car as she locks the door. âI canât believe you actually found him,â Jiwoo exclaims as she makes a turn that is much too wide, earning her a honk from an oncoming car.
âYeah, well,â you mumble, suddenly nervous, âI canât either.â
Jiwoo pulls into a parking spot and you practically run into the house. For some reason youâre so anxious and sitting still seems impossible right now. At a leisurely pace, Jiwoo follows you into the apartment and closes the door behind her as you put your bags down in your room. âWhat are you going to wear?â she asks as she enters the room to find you staring intensely into your closet.
âI donât know yet. Do you think I should go for a dress, or a tee and skirt? Or is that too much? Would wearing jeans be too casual though?â
âYou are not wearing jeans on your first date,â Jiwoo replies sternly, and that settles it. She reaches inside your closet and tugs at a black floral cotton dress. âThis is cute; wear this. Or, actually,â she says as she finds a pale pink dress, âthis is nice too.â Jiwoo pulls out both and holds them up. âYou choose.â
âI think I like the black one better. More casual, but still cute, you know?â
Jiwoo grins in response. She holds it out to you and you take it, heading to the bathroom to change and plug in your hair straightener. When you emerge fifteen minutes later, changed and hair straightened, Jiwoo looks at you from her position on your bed. âCute!â she comments, and stands up. âSit down. Iâll do your makeup.â
âJust keep it natural,â you say as you sit on the bed. You close your eyes as Jiwoo makes your skin look smooth and cheekbones sharper, dusts eyeshadow and draws liner onto your eyes. The brush is soft against your skin, and youâre almost lulled to sleep before Jiwoo speaks up.
âAlright, go look,â Jiwoo says once she finishes. You do, and you have to admit that Jiwoo did a phenomenal job.
âThanks, Jiwoo,â you smile at her.
Her only response is to grin and check her watch. âWe have an hour left. Knowing Jihoon, heâs going to get there early, and Iâm assuming that heâs dragging Wonwooâsorry, driving him to meet usâso we should probably head out.â
You grab a white bag and fill it with your essential items, then follow her out the door. Once in Jiwooâs car, you let out a breath you hadnât realized you had been holding. âI donât know why Iâm so nervous,â you admit.
Jiwoo reaches over and pats your knee. âItâs fine. Thatâs normal. Just breathe and pretend heâs just any other friend. Youâll be fine, I promise.â
You canât help yourself from voicing your doubts. âI guess, for some strange reason, Iâm scared that it was a mistake and heâs not the one after all. I mean, what if we get there, and Wonwoo and I both realize this was a mistake?â
She shoots you a glance so meaningful that you know she doesnât believe that would be possible. Instead as she pulls into a parking spot at a nearby restaurant, she only says, âThen you make a new friend and enjoy some good food. Deal?â
You take a deep breath. âDeal.â
Jiwoo leads the way inside, where you find Jihoon sitting alone at a table near the back. Jiwooâs face brightens up instantly, and she waves at him, making her way across the small restaurant. Watching her, you canât help but feel enviousânot of her, necessarily, but of her happiness, of her self-assuredness and sense of belonging. You follow her and stand awkwardly at the table where Jiwoo has already seated herself across from Jihoon.
âHey, Y/N,â Jihoon greets you with a smile. âIâm glad you found him. Though I canât believe itâs Wonwoo, of all peopleâow!â He stops abrupty and rubs at his knee, where presumably Jiwoo has kicked him. âAnyway, he went into the restroom. He should be out soon, though. Your table is over there,â Jihoon says, indicating the table behind them.
âHave fun, you two,â Jiwoo practically sings, as though she isnât going to be sitting right behind you.
As you take your seat, you finally place the sense of dread in your stomach: you canât smell anything, even though Wonwoo is in the restroom about twenty feet away from where youâre sitting.
Five minutes later, when Wonwoo emerges, he sits across from you. âHi, Iâm Wonwoo,â he says, introducing himself with his hand extended, but he shoots you a sad smile.
âIâm Y/N,â you respond, shaking his hand and returning his smile. You both know now that you had been mistaken, and youâre sure your cheeks are flaming.
Wonwoo, however, is polite enough not to point it out. He seems about as determined as you to ignore the awkwardness. Like Jiwoo said, you might as well use this opportunity to make a new friend, right? Right.
You browse the menu and try your best to make small talk. You learn that Wonwoo is actually quite nice. Heâs around your ageâtwo years olderâand goes to the same university as you. He works at a bookstore not too far from campus, something he seems quite proud of. One hour later, you and Wonwoo share a banana split, and you are full and happier than you have been in a while.
You set your spoon down, shaking your head. âIâm done. Iâm too full.â
Wonwoo shrugs and pulls the bowl toward himself. It will never cease to amaze you how much boys can eat. âSo anyway,â he says around a mouthful of ice cream, something you would have found disgusting with anyone else, âsince we have the same free hours between classes, we should hang out more.â
âYeah,â you reply, unlocking your phone and handing it to him. âHere, letâs exchange numbers.â
He takes it and gives you his in response. After punching in your number and returning it to him, you watch as he does the same and scoops another spoonful of ice cream. âDo you normally eat this much?â you ask, amazed.
âNo,â he responds, lips quirking up in a smile. âBut since weâre eating out I might as well eat as much good food as I can, right?â
âIâm not sure that mentality is the healthiest,â you respond, laughing.
âOh, it definitely isnât. But when you donât have time to eat properly most daysâŠâ He trails off, looking out the window for a while before happily continuing to eat.
Your heart goes out to the boy; he must have it as hard as you. Wonwoo finally sits back with a contented sigh as he finishes.
âAre you two done?â Jiwoo asks, amusement apparent in her voice. You jump slightly; you hadnât even noticed her and Jihoon getting up to stand by your table.
âYeah,â you answer. âYou can go on out first. Iâm just going to go pay and Iâll be right there.â
Wonwoo stands up the moment you do, and his long legs carry him to the register too fast for you to follow. You reach the counter as he hands the cashier his card, and you can only stare at him, aghast. âWait, did you already pay?â
âYeah.â
âFor both of us?â you ask, voice squeaking.
âYeah,â he answers nonchalantly as he puts his card back into his wallet.
âJeon Wonwoo!â Youâre flattered and secretly, guiltily, relieved. But mostly youâre just shocked and indignantâyou had just met for the first time today, and you werenât even actually soulmates. And you and Wonwoo had spent a good deal of time complaining about working and studying, and how hard it was to save any money. Guilt crushes you, and it must have been apparent on your face, because Wonwoo gives you a gentle smile and puts his hands on your shoulders, leading you out of the restaurant.
âIt wasnât actually that much,â he says, letting go of you when you near the door. âBesides, if youâre really feeling guilty, you can pay the next time we go eat. And next time, weâre going to some famous five-star restaurant with five-hundred-dollar steak.â
You roll your eyes, but smile at him. âAnyway, thanks, Wonwoo.â
He returns the smile. âYouâre welcome. Anyway, it looks like Jihoon is waiting, so Iâm going to go. It was nice meeting you, Y/N. See you around!â
âJust text me when youâre free or something to hang out,â you say, waving and starting to leave.
âWait,â Wonwoo says suddenly. You give him a questioning look as you turn back around. âI hope you find your soulmate soon.â
Itâs almost like getting a bucket of cold water thrown in your face, and your smile turns wistful. âThanks. I hope you do too.â
Wonwoo gives one last wave before heading to Jihoonâs silver car in the opposite end of the parking lot as Jiwooâs. You watch him get into the car before turning around and going to Jiwooâs car.
âSo?â Jiwoo asks the moment you open the car door.
âWell, heâs not the one,â you answer as you shut the door, and Jiwoo looks incredulous. âBut heâs a nice guy, and Iâm hoping we can be friends anyway.â
âHuh,â Jiwoo says as she pulls out of the parking lot. âThatâs so strange. Youâre sure you smelled someone yesterday, right?â
âYeah, Iâm sure.â
âDonât worry. At least weâre getting closer to finding him. He was near my house yesterday night, so you can just visit, like, every night until we find out whoâs coming and going in my neighborsâ housesââ
You laugh. Jiwoo is taking this more seriously than you are, and itâs your soulmate. âJiwoo, itâs fine. Iâm not going to creep on your neighbors.â
âBut we have to find him somehow.â
âIâm sure Iâll run into him sometime under normal circumstances.â
âWe have to speed things up, though! Jihoon and I were going to throw a party tonight; you should come. Thereâs a good chance that heâll be there.â
âParty?â you repeat. âItâs Sunday. You do realize most people have classes tomorrow, right?â
âWeâre kicking everyone out at midnight.â
You roll your eyes. âFine, Iâll stop by tonight.â
âGreat!â Jiwoo stops by the curb in front of your house. âThe party starts at nine. See you then!â
âSee you,â you mutter as you close the door and head into your apartment. You kick off your shoes and go straight into your room, flopping onto your bed. A look at the clock tells you that itâs currently six, so you have a few hours before Jiwooâs party startsâbut then again, you never arrive at parties on time, if at all.
You wonder, suddenly, if Wonwoo is planning to go. Jiwoo is your friend, and youâre sure there are several other of your friends that are going, but itâs nice to have someone who wonât be preoccupied with others. You grab your phone and type out a message, thumb hovering over the send button. This wouldnât sound creepy, would it? Well, he knows that considering heâs not your soulmate, you wouldnât be trying to make a move on him. You shrug, close your eyes, and hit send.
A minute later, your phone alerts you to a new message. Itâs Wonwoo, who says that heâll go, but he will most likely be a little late.
Relieved, you decide to get some homework done. Since youâre going to be heading out later, showering seems like a rather pointless option; youâre going to come back reeking anyway. Even if you donât drink a drop of alcohol, the smell of the parties somehow always manages to cling to your clothes long after theyâre over.
You manage to finish an essay before you rub your eyes and look at the clock: five minutes before nine. You head into the bathroom to wash your face before grabbing your bag and keys. By the time you find a parking spot and knock on Jiwooâs door, you can already hear the bass pounding from outside the house. Jihoon answers and greets you with a smile so wide you can tell heâs already had a cup or two. âHey, Y/N, come on in.â
You walk in and close the door behind you, waiting a few moments to adjust to the music blasting from the living room. The apartment is already packed, and you spot a few friends dancing in the crowd. You decide to head into the kitchen, hoping it will be less crowded there.
Apparently, Wonwoo had the same thought, because you find him sitting there alone, on his phone. âHey, Wonwoo.â
He looks up and smiles when he sees you. âOh, hi.â
âI thought you were going to be late,â you say, sitting on the counter next to him.
âI thought so too, but my boss let me out early, so here I am.â
âIâm actually not too fond of parties,â you admit.
He sighs. âNeither am I. I guess thatâs why weâre both hiding out in here, huh?â
You laugh. âI guess so. Do you want anything to drink?â
Wonwoo shakes his head. âNo thanks. I have to drive myself home, and Iâd rather not die on the way.â
âMe too,â you agree. âI meant water, juice, you know, other non-alcoholic things Jiwoo has in her fridge.â
âWater would be good.â
You find two bottles of water from the fridge and hand him one. âThanks,â he says, taking it as you climb back onto the counter.
The two of you sit in companionable silence, both on your phones. That is, until the now-familiar smell hits you again, stronger than ever beforeâso strong that youâre sure, positive, that heâs here in this apartment right now, somewhere out there among the mass of people.
You slide off the counter, earning a curious look from Wonwoo. âAre you okay?â he asks, frowning slightly. âYouâre kind ofâŠpale.â
âYeah, IâmâIâm fine, Iâll be right backââ You leave before he can respond, almost running into a couple making out against the wall right outside the kitchen. âSorry,â you mutter, but theyâre so engrossed in each other youâre sure they canât hear you.
The sheer amount of people in the compact space is overwhelming, so you try to look around before you join the throng of bodies. No one seems to be as confused or searching like you are, though, so you have no choice but to try to find him in the crowd.
After what seems like an hour later, with too many gropes and nearly spilled drinks for your liking, you give up and decide to go back to the kitchen. Wonwoo is gone, though, and the kitchen is empty except for Jiwoo and Jihoon, who have their heads bent toward each other and are whispering together. Deciding to give them their privacy, you stand outside the kitchen, holding a cup that someone shoved in your hands that you have no intention of drinking from.
Itâs frustrating, though, because you can still smell himâyou know heâs here somewhere, but even after that adventure searching through most of the partiers, the smell didnât get any stronger, no indication at all that you were getting closer to him. All it earned you were several suggestive eyebrow raises and guys too close for your comfort.
âWhy are you just standing here?â a voice asks beside you, and you turn around. Itâs Jiwoo.
âSince when do I do anything other than stand there at parties?â you fire back, but thereâs no malice behind your statement, just tired resignation.
Jiwoo shrugs, sipping from her cup. âYou could dance.â
You decide to ignore this. âI didnât know you could even fit this many people into your apartment.â
âI didnât either,â Jiwoo admits, âbut people somehow all manage to squeeze in at parties. Itâs kind of amazing, isnât it?â
âI suppose so.â
âEither way, Iâm not looking forward to cleaning up this mess,â Jiwoo says with a pout.
âThen why did you even decide to throw a party?â you ask, amused.
Jiwoo shrugs again and looks behind her. âAnyway, try to have some fun. Iâm going to go find Jihoon.â She pats your shoulder and heads into the packed living room.
Seeing how youâre not going to drink from the cup anyway, it would probably be a better idea to pour it out before someone bumps into you and spills it on you instead. With a sigh, you turn around and enter the kitchen, pouring the contents of the cup into the sink.
âThatâs quite a waste,â a voice says from the entrance to the kitchen, and you close your eyes. Itâs him. âYou know, if you werenât going to drink it, you could have given it to me.â The voice had steadily come closer to you until you could almost feel himâas well as smell himâbehind you.
âYou should have come sooner, then,â you answer, turning around and opening your eyes, and you almost take a step back.
Heâs tallâso tall that you have to crane your head upwards to look at his face. He has golden skin and mop of messy, side-swept black hair. His dark eyes bore into yours as your gaze travels to his crooked smile. âIâve been looking for you,â he whispers, and you shiver.
âSo have I,â you whisper back, and he pulls you in for a hug. Your first response is to want to pull away or push him off you, since after all, you had never even seen him before. But then you remember who he is, and the reality hits you as you let him be. Heâs wearing a white button-up shirt tucked into black leather pants so tight you can only describe it as sinful, and heâs hugging you so tightly youâre pressed up completely against him. It feels good, and right, but somehow it strikes you that something is off and very strange about this entire situation. You breathe him in and hug him back, tightly, and thatâs when you realize: even if the lemon-mint scent is infinitely strongerâmore citrusy today, more tangy and sharpâitâs muted by the stench of booze and cigarettes.
Never in any of Jiwooâs accounts, has Jihoonâs signature springy smell been muted by any other scent, even when he was drunk or sick. The smell that soulmates pick up on represent each otherâs true personalities, their essence, who or what they were at the very core.
Which is why it makes no sense that in his presenceâespecially pressed this close to himâyou can smell anything other than the sweet-tangy scent of lemon-mint you learned to associate him with.
âYouââ You let go of him abruptly, stepping back away from him but the only thing thatâs behind you is the sink, so it digs painfully into your back as you look up at him.
âWhatâs wrong?â he asks, hurt in his eyes, voice low. His hands reach for your shoulders, but you brush them away impatiently.
âI think thereâs a mistake,â you whisper, staring at the ground.
His hand reaches for your chin and he lifts your head so that youâre forced to look straight into his eyes. âWhat do you mean thereâs a mistake?â He leans in, so close that his next words tickle your ear. âI smell you, and I know you smell me, too. You want to know what you smell like?â
âWhat?â you ask, despite yourself. At this point, your heart is pounding so fast, so hard, thereâs no way he canât feel it given how close he is to you.
âYou smell like the ocean breeze,â he answers, wrapping his arms around you again, and rests his head against your shoulder.
âThatâs it? Thatâs all you smell?â Because you still think he reeks of alcohol and cigarettes underneath the citrus.
âIs there something more I should be smelling?â he asks against your neck, sending shivers down your spine.
âI guess not,â you say. Because there isnât. Yet thereâs something wrong, obviously. Heâs drunk, maybe high. You smell it. Maybe he wonât even remember finding you, saying all these things, come morning and heâs sober. And even though you know you should push him away, leave and try to figure out this mess, find out whatâs going on, every inch of your body is screaming at you to stay put, to hug him. And because you have no inclination to move, to act as logic dictates, you stay wrapped in his arms.
âMy name is Kim Mingyu,â he says after a while, voice slightly slurred, straightening up to his full height to look into your eyes. âAnd Iâve found you.â
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Sillage
noun // a lingering scent a person leaves behind, the impression in space after something or someone has passed by
Genre:Â fluff? but its going to be a wild ride tbh Pairing: Mingyu x Reader Summary: A Soulmate!AU where soulmates identify each other through scent Words: 3,270
A/N: Iâm sorry Iâm not putting a read more (because the âKeep Readingâ option never shows up on my phone and I canât be the only oneâŠ). Also thank you @wonnhao for agreeing to be my beta âĄ
Part 1 | Part 2Â | Part 3 | Part 4Â | Part 5Â | epilogue
At any moment in the day, we humans are surrounded by a mirage of scents. Scents of food, of people, of the new-clothes smell in department stores, of the pizza place down the street and the lingering perfume of passersby. Oftentimes we get so many stimulants that we get overwhelmed and we eventually learn to tune some out, recognizing and responding only to those out of the ordinary.
According to Jiwoo, though, science all goes to hell when you find The One. âYou can tell heâs around when heâs within a mile radius,â she gushes, repeating the story for the millionth time, almost spilling her cup of coffee. âThe smell just hits you, and oh, my God, Jihoon smells like a sunny spring afternoon spent in the parkââ
âAlright, I get it, I get it,â you say, smiling placatingly to stop her before she goes on her god-knows-how-many rant about how Jihoon smells. You, for one, donât think he smells like much besides the sweet cologne he likes to wear. In fact, like most normal people, you donât think anyone smells like anything unless itâs B.O. or overpowering perfume.
Sometimes you wonder if you will ever find The One, as you stare at your friends and their soulmates, or whether youâre one of the rare cases that just donât have a soulmate. Or maybe you were just too intent on other things in your lifeâfinding a balance between work and studying is so hard that maybe you missed sensing The One when he passed. Or what if he was on the other side of the world? Is it even possible to find him then?
Jiwoo leans forward, setting her cup down. âIâm telling you, Y/N, you just need to get out more. Stop denying me shopping trips and just walk around! Youâll find him someday.â
You sigh, not in the mood for a pity party. âIâm busy, Jiwoo, you know that.â Unlike you, I canât afford to take days off of work all the time, nor do I have any inclination to. Jiwoo is off work practically every other day, and the fact that she hasnât been fired yet amazes you. Then again, thatâs probably because you agree to fill in for herâsecretly, of course, because she runs out of sick days too quickly, and the manager is never actually there anyway.
âThen make time, Y/N. You wonât get anywhere if you donât try,â Jiwoo replies, rolling her eyes. At that moment, her phone rings, and you see the name Jihoon appear before she holds the phone, shooting you an apologetic glance.
âGo ahead, take it,â you say resignedly.
She picks up and turns to the side, murmuring into the phone. You can tell sheâs trying to keep it short and quiet, since this was supposed to be a you-and-her night for old timeâs sake, but itâs impossible to miss the gleam in her eye or the way her hands fidget as she struggles to keep her hands from moving animatedly the way she normally does when she talks.
Jiwoo finally turns around again to face you as she ends the call. âSorry, he said he couldnât find the bag of cocoa for hot chocolate. But honestly, I put it in the cupboard, he knowsâanyway. Sorry.â She glances down at her thin white wristwatch. âLetâs go shopping.â
You groan. âJiwoo, you know I canât affordââ
âThen we can go window-shopping,â she says, exasperated. âWhether you like it or not, Y/N, Iâm dragging you around today. We are not going to stay in your house the entire night. You do that enough.â
There is no denying this girl. âAlright. Fine. Letâs go.â
Jiwoo drives the two of you to the nearby mall, chattering on about some new thing Jihoon has done that sheâs currently obsessed about as you stare out the window. She made a good point; youâre often so busy that you canât make time for yourself, so itâs nice to finally relax and appreciate the setting sun. The months have been passing by so quickly that you hadnât noticed the days getting longer, but now itâs past seven and the sun is still out.
As the two of you walk in, you spot a clothing store displaying dresses and skirts that catch your eye. Despite yourself, you tug on Jiwooâs hand, leading her into the store as she points out certain outfits. âY/N, look at this dress,â she exclaims, pulling a blush-pink dress off the rack. âYou would look gorgeous in this!â Jiwoo waves it in your face, at the same time ushering you into the fitting room.
âI donât know,â you say as she thrusts it into your hands. âI normally donât wear dresses like theseââ
âJust try it on,â Jiwoo huffs, and you respond by closing the door and doing as she says.
You have to admit, the dress hugs your body nicelyâmaking it look like you have curves, for one thingâeven though you feel much too exposed and fancy than any occasion would require. You open the door to tell Jiwoo as much, but your words die in your mouth as she gapes with her mouth falling open, and runs in to hug you excitedly. âYes, yes, yes, you look absolutely stunning and I am buying you that dress no matter what you say.â
âJiwoo, no. I have no reason to wear this dress, everââ
âShut it. Who needs a reason to look good?â
âBut itâs so fancy and when would I ever need toââ
âWell, youâre going to have to go to some kind of formal event sometime, right? You can wear it then.â
You close the door again to change out of the dress. As you hold it up in front of you, admiring the silky fabric between your fingers, you have to admit that it really is a beautiful dress. âOkay, Iâll buy it,â you say as you leave the changing room, but Jiwoo is nowhere to be seen. âJiwoo?â
âYeah, Iâm here!â she calls as she comes over, shopping bag in hand. âHere. Itâs the same dress,â she explains at the confused glance you give her, and takes the one in your hand to put back on the rack. âI really just wanted to do something for you, since itâs been forever since weâve last hung out. And Iâve been so preoccupied lately that Iâve been a horrible friend.â She takes your hand. âIâm sorry.â
âJiwoo, itâs not a problem. I know Jihoon is important to you. Iâm not angry or upset. And you didnât have to buy this for me,â you reply as you and Jiwoo leave the store, raising the bag. Youâre inexplicably torn between frustration and gratitude. Youâre tired of your friends treating you like a piece of glass, delicate and easily broken. Youâre tired of seeing them tiptoeing around topics that they think would be insensitive to discuss around youânamely, their partners and their love lives. You know they stop their cheerful gossiping and teasing when you walk in the room, and now is as good a time as any to start fixing that. You lead her to the food court and sit down at an empty table, placing the bag in the seat next to you.
You let out a breath, not quite sure how to voice the warring emotions inside of you. âJiwooâŠthe thing is, I donât need anyone to pity me,â you say quietly.
âI donâtââ she begins.
âJust let me finish. I know that you, and Hana, and Nara, all look at me and maybe you donât say it, but I know you pity me for not having found my soulmate yet. Not only that, Iâm always either working or studying and I never have time for anything, because I donât have the luxury of being financially stable enough that I can take time off and just hang out. And itâs true, itâs wearing me out, but I will ask for help when I feel I need it. I love you guys, and I appreciate your concern, but Iâm really okay. Not everyone finds love, and not everyone finds it quickly.â
Jiwoo takes your hand from across the table. âI know. I know youâre strong, and you donât need pity. I donât pity you. I just want you to be happy, Y/N. And thatâs not going to happen if you keep pushing yourself and pushing yourself like the way youâve been doing.â
You put your head in your hands, suddenly feeling exhausted. âI justâI donât know anymore. I canât just stop working, canât just stop pulling all-nighters to study for tests when Iâm paying for these classes anyway.â
âIâm sure youâll be able to figure it out. And Iâm always here, if you ever need me.â
You look at her and smile. âI know. Thanks.â
âAlright, enough sad talk. I say we each get a cup of ice cream and continue on. There are so many places left weâve yet to explore. We havenât gone here in what, a year?â
You agree and head over to the ice cream shop in the corner of the food court, where you get vanilla with gummy bears and sprinkles and Jiwoo gets strawberry and yogurt chips. Jiwoo leads you into a cosmetics shop, then an accessories shop, and by the time the two of you decide to call it a day and leave the mall youâre both carrying heaping bags of clothes, makeup, facemasks, and accessories.
On the way out the doors you drop a small bag containing some necklaces you had just bought, but Jiwoo is oblivious as she continues making her way to the parking lot. You sigh, hoping to god that the necklaces havenât broken or cracked somehowâtheyâre glassâand bend down to pick up the bag. âWhy on earth did I let her convince me to get all this when I need to save to buy textbooks for next semester?â you mutter under your breath.
As you stand up and hurry to catch up to Jiwoo, a breeze blows your hair in your face, carrying along with it a faint scent of lemon-mint; sweet, spicy, and crisp.
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âCome on, slowpoke, itâs late and I want to get home and shower,â Jiwoo jokes as you reach her car. Sheâs stuffing all her shopping bags in the trunk and you join her.
âYouâre the one who suggested we go to the mall in the first place,â you fire back good-naturedly, done with your bags and getting into the passenger seat. âWe could be home, warm and comfortably watching a movie.â
Jiwoo rolls her eyes as she shuts the trunk and slides into the driverâs seat, yanking on the seatbelt. âPlease. As if you didnât enjoy that just as much as I did.â
âI canât believe we got those shoes. Seventy percent off! And they were so cute, too.â
âExactly!â Jiwoo hums contentedly as she reverses and drives out of the parking lot. âDid you want to stay over at my apartment, or do you want me to drop you off at home?â
âPlease. I love you, and you know I love our sleepovers, but Iâm not in the mood to third-wheel you and Jihoon.â
Jiwoo laughs. âNot likely. I think he just stopped by to pick up something he needed and left.â
You look over at her and raise an eyebrow. âAnd decided to make himself some hot chocolate before he headed out?â
Even with the dim lighting you see Jiwoo blush as she shoots you a sheepish smile. Â âHe does that sometimes. Anyway, I need to turn now if you want to go home, so whatâs your answer?â
âIâll sleep over at yours.â
âWonderful!â Jiwoo continues humming as she turns on the radio, and you find yourself singing along horribly to the pop songs playing. Jiwoo joins you, and by the time you reach her house youâre laughing so hard that you can almost pretend itâs just like the old days, before she ever met Jihoon, before any of your friends had found their soulmates, and you were just a group of fun-loving high schoolers hanging out and enjoying life the way only the young and carefree can.
Jiwoo unlocks the door and kicks off her shoes, heading straight to her room. âCan you lock the door?â she calls out behind her. âThanks!â
You do as she asks and follows her into her room. âJust put your bags in that corner over there,â Jiwoo says, pointing with her chin at a relatively spacey corner in her cluttered room, clothes strewn everywhere. âSorry, I should have cleaned a bit earlier,â she mutters as she picks up clothes by the armful from the floor, gathering them all into a neat pile by the door.
You laugh as you flop onto her bed. âItâs fine, not like thatâs anything new.â
âThatâs true,â she admits, giving the pile one last kick and turning to her closet. She picks through her clothes, flinging a worn gray t-shirt and pink sweats at you. âHere, you can change into those after you shower.â She finds a change of clothes for herself as well and heads to the bathroom, shutting the door. âOh yeah, if you need underwear, theyâre in the second drawer!â she shouts.
âGot it!â you yell back, still lying on her bed. You start a game on your phone, waiting for Jiwoo to finish showering. Twenty minutes later, she emerges, smelling freshly like strawberry shampoo.
You grab the outfit sheâd lent to you and head into the bathroom. âYou can use the extra towelâitâs the plain white one!â she calls after you.
You roll your eyes as you look at the towels hanging on the back of the door: a pink towel with white polka dots, a black-and-white striped one, and a new-looking plain white one. Itâs not like Jiwoo needed to tell you which is hers; you donât think Jihoon is the type to use the sad plain towel when thereâs the perfectly good striped one. But then again, who knows, right?
Itâs amazing what a nice hot shower can do, you muse as you dry your hair, staring at your reflection in the mirror. You look happier, you realize, and less stressed. Taking some time for yourself is probably something you should do more often.
When youâre done, you head back into Jiwooâs room to discard your dirty clothes into one of your many bags. You head into the kitchen afterward to find something to drink, where you see Jiwoo and Jihoon talking in hushed tones. Jiwoo has her back to you, but Jihoon spots you, giving you a smile and a wave. âOh, hi, Y/N. Jiwoo mentioned youâre staying over.â
âHey, Jihoon,â you reply, giving him a smile back as you walk over to the fridge. âDid you miss Jiwoo too much or something? I thought she said you had to grab something and leave.â
âI did,â he says sheepishly, rubbing the back of his head. âBut I realized I forgot my flash drive here so I had to come back and get it.â
âNext thing you knowââ You begin, but then the smell hits you again, stronger this time: definitely a lemon scent, but also sharper than a lemon scent would smell, and sweeter. Jiwoo and Jihoon are still staring at you, though, so open the fridge as you continue on. âNext thing you know, heâll be coming back for his headphones, and then his hat, and then his socks, and then at one kernel of popcorn he dropped on the ground yesterday,â you say wryly as you take the carton of orange juice and close the door.
Jihoon laughs and grabs his keys from the counter. âI promise I wonât intrude on you girls anymore. Anyway, Wonwooâs waiting outside in the car; I said Iâd drive him home, and then I have to head to the studio to work on some things. Iâll see you tomorrow, okay?â
âOkay,â Jiwoo says as he pulls her in for a quick peck on the forehead and leaves, probably out of consideration for you.
âYou want some orange juice?â you ask Jiwoo as you grab a cup.
âNo, Iâm good, thanks.â She takes a seat by the counter, scrolling on her phone.
âCan I ask you something?â you blurt.
Jiwoo looks up from her phone curiously. âWhat?â
âDoes Jihoon still smell like spring or whatever to you?â
âYeah,â she answers, looking at you strangely. âWhy do you ask?â
âNo reason. I was just curious.â But a million thoughts float through your mind then. Jihoon still didnât smell like anything to you when you walked past him, and yet there definitely was a lemony scent. It isnât Jiwoo, or yourself either, because she uses strawberry-scented shampoo and vanilla body wash. Which means there is only one explanationâŠ
Jiwoo seems to have reached the same conclusion, because her face suddenly brightens up. âYou smell him, donât you?â she whispers excitedly. âYou smell something.â
âSmelled. Itâs gone now,â you whisper back, as if the two of you are conspirators, speaking of some forbidden thing.
Jiwoo gasps. âIs it Wonwoo? Jihoon said he was in the carââ
âI donât know, you said itâs a mile radius so it could be anyone on this streetââ
âBut what are the chances you smelled him just when Jihoon arrived? Itâs got to be Wonwoo, Iâll tell Jihoon to set something upââ
âOh, my Godââ
Jiwoo jumps off the seat and runs over to hug you so suddenly you almost fall over. âIâm so happy for you, Y/N! You finally found him, oh my goodnessââ
âBut what if itâs not him?â you ask. A mile radius includes a lot of people. For all you know, it could be someone visiting a neighbor.
âDonât be ridiculous. Iâll mention it to Jihoon tomorrow when he comes over.â Jiwoo grabs your empty cup and drops it into the sink with one hand, turning you around with the other. She leads you out of the kitchen and into her room. âItâs past midnight now. We should sleep and get you ready for your date tomorrow.â
âTomorrow?â you squeak.
âYeah, Jihoon hangs out with him a lot. Heâs a nice guyâIâm glad heâs your soulmate,â Jiwoo says, beaming, and turns off the light.
You settle on one side of the queen-sized bed, and Jiwoo flops onto the other with a very unladylike oof. âThis is nice,â she comments. âItâs just like before.â
âYeah,â you agree, and the two of you lapse into a silence so long youâre sure sheâs fallen asleep. But you break it anyway. âCan you tell me about Wonwoo?â
âAh,â Jiwoo says sleepily, but complies anyway. âHis nameâs Jeon Wonwoo. Hmm, letâs seeâŠheâs pretty tall, nice eyes, a really deep voice. Heâs generally pretty quiet, but if you get close enough youâll find he cracks really stupid jokes and heâs just an awkward guy, I think, but itâs cute. Iâm sure youâll get along great.â
âYou think so?â You hate to sound so desperate, especially after giving her your speech about not needing pity and ânot everyone finds love.â But now that youâre finally close, thereâs a strange sensation in your chest and itâs freeing, because it means that youâre not destined to be alone forever after all.
âDefinitely.â
Five minutes later, you find yourself drifting off to sleep with thoughts of a tall, dark-haired boy with golden skin and a smile like the sun.
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