#10thEntryofBefore

[matt10bth]

After 26, Before 27

This is my 10th entry of After and Before. Every time I read my entry I become much more aware of the things I need to improve, that are hard to improve, and the values that I let go and instill myself.

I wonder if what I'm doing is enough, or do I need to make a big step to change everything. Do I need to change everything? When everything is perfectly fine as it is.

Things I have learned so far in life.

1. Patience is the first definition of love in the bible because it is the first thing you need to learn and practice. The more I rush things, the more it will slip away from me.

2. To love is to let go, if you truly love someone you need to let go of them because they can never really reach their potential if you cage them.

3. Do not be afraid, it is okay to fail in life, to suffer in life. It is more important on how many times you stand up after you fall rather than how many times you win. Failures don't define you but should motivate you.

4. Do not compare yourself with other people, but compare yourself to what you are in your past. Be grateful also to your past because you cannot be who you are without the lessons along the journey.

5. Life cannot be fulfilling without giving. Do not count the things you provide and measure the things you are receiving.

6. Understand the people that surround you rather than judging them. Fill your with compassion, and I will tell you, you can sleep at night at peace without holding grudges.

7. Consistency is greater than doing things with a big impact. Things last longer and improve if you do it step by step. Take a little step so you can start things now.

8. When everything does not go in your way, do not be afraid, because you have God as compass. Let your compass direct you where to go, all you need to do is to follow it.

9. Do not let your hatred define and be the objectives of what you are going to do next. Even if the result is good, if the cause is not right, it does not justify it.

10 . Now you commit a hundred mistakes in life, be glad because you are still here and trying to correct and heal from them. It is time to make things right and stand up again.

I should accept I would never be the same again. There are things I cannot change but can amend.

My message to the 27-year-old version:

Every step, and back step you make is essential to your journey. (MOVE ON)

Some pains would repeatedly try to break you, but just hold on because it will make you stronger. (YOU HAD JUST KILLED ME)

Do not be afraid to show yourself, the very best version of yourself. Stand up and fight for it. (DEFY)

Try again, no matter how many times, try and try until you achieve your goal. (THIS IS MY REWRITE)

Well, that's life. It is full of color, from the darkest and lightest shade. (LIKE AND DON'T)

Search the world, search the people, search the meaning of life and love in God's terms. (HEY! LET US FIND SOME ALIENS)

I have created so many poems, songs, stories, and other forms of literature, that they will never define me, because every piece of my writing would only be part of who I am. My intention is for them to become an inspiration, and comfort when someone needs it.

Every time I write it significantly helps me to accept things and grow from them. I hope God someday I can share the lessons and stories I'm writing so I can inspire other people too.

I finished writing at 6:47 PM.