#10/10 song would recommend 1000 times over

[wayfayrr]

This fic was originally inspired by the song Kerosene by tart, as it fits got the strong vibe of a yandere needing more in my opinion and I would recommend listening to it while reading <3 but eventually it spiralled into a full on self-aware sky x reader

And with that tone, they ask me 'If I'm ready…'  

Impatiently asking me to throw away my entire life for them, to cast aside everything I've ever known for the chance, the meagre chance, to stay in Hyrule. To join their duet of death, a fight that seems never-ending.

With only Sky offering me an alternate way, offering instead something more valuable than his own life to me. The offer to follow me, of his own regard instead of a twisted love demanding it of me. 

Yet, still sitting here with Sky has its own charm to it. I don't feel pressured to talk or do anything unlike how it can get with the others at times.

"You know my dove, with a touch of your life I was filled with envy… The fact that I haven't been able to live with you, know you longer than I have. I scare myself sometimes."

His chuckle wasn't as reassuring as he would thought it should be if he were trying to be reassuring to me. He could just be nervous after what he simply just admitted to. I know I would be.

"How would you scare yourself with that Sky..?"

"..."

"... I don't - It's just - I… Sometimes I uh- have thoughts. This really isn't easy to say."

Why is he looking at me like I should already know what he’s talking about like he’s going on about an inside joke? 

“It was a catastrophe, as a result of your sanguine vanity. Your confidence that everything was just a game, when you really knew better didn’t you?”

“...Knew better? What do you mean?”

“That I could see you… that from the moment outside the academy when I was told what buttons you would need to press to control me I started to connect everything, that I was alright with you being the one who had this ability to puppet me? You knew, didn’t you? You fell in love with me at the same time didn’t you?”

“Sky I - I don’t know what you’re talking about.”

Is he - No he can’t be. He couldn’t have known he was in a game. He can’t have been in love with me since then… even if he did know… He should hate me. At best, this is some broken-down mechanical love, some remnant of stray code… Oh what am I doing lying to myself, nintendo made Link as a blank slate, there would never have been any failsafe like that. Because it shouldn’t be possible for him to become self-aware.

“When I first woke up that day it was like there was this other part of me, you it was you, but it didn’t take me long to realise that you weren’t a part of me. You were you and you could control my every single action.”

“My world at that point was a plaything for you but I wouldn’t have had it any other way.  I didn’t need to eat nor sleep when you were there for me, it was like I was complete. I was blinded by looking for Zelda for so long that I wasted the time I could’ve spent just basking in you.”

“I love you more than I need to breathe because you complete me… but you don’t feel the same.”

“Because I’m just a toy to you aren’t I? Be-because you left me. You just left, you left me behind and didn’t come back.”

Everything, he knows everything. Where do I start, how do I handle this? I can’t leave him spiralling like this, it’s not fair to him. Would he even believe what I’ll tell him? Do I want to tell him? 

“Sky I’m not going to lie to you. I did see you as just a game, I didn’t know that you were a person that you were alive. But I know better now. You’re not just a toy.”

“But I was just that to you…  you - you were just like a god that was sent from above to help me in my darkest moments. I didn’t- I mean I know, I shouldn’t have been able to have known any of that but I just - I don’t - I- I don-”

Tapering off into the most heartwrenching sobs after all of that isn’t something I could ever have imagined coming from the hero of the skies. I can’t comfort him. I’m not a monster.But I’m not a god either. Even if that’s what he saw me as, even though that’s what he wants me to be.  

“Sky I’m not a god. I never was, but I do care about you, I’ve said it before and seeing as you need to hear it now more than ever. I love you Sky. The you, I’ve gotten to know over this whole thing with the shadow.”

“But I - [Name] I just -”

“I know this is a lot to go through. It must’ve been absolute torture going through all of that. Can you breathe for me? I’m here to listen to you but I can’t if you’re too stressed to speak properly.”

“I - Thank you.”

The tears staining his face are starting to dry now, leaving streaks as proof of his own sadness, ones that have too much emotion behind to have been faked. All of this has to be true, there’s too much detail on things I’ve never mentioned to him for him to be lying to me based on one thing he’s heard about my own world. Which means he’s been aware of me for so much longer than he’s let on. That he might have known me for far longer than he’s let on. There’s no safe way to ask this now though so I’ll just have to hope he brings it up on his own. 

“I first figured out that I was this character after the dream I had about demise, after I woke up, when Horwell was talking to me about the lost remlit and how he told me to press z to target him, not even calling me by my name he called me Sky. But what made it even worse is I could remember fighting demise, making up with Groose and getting the triforce yet I was back to the start and being called something different.”

“That’s when you knew? Did you realise it was me immediately or did that take longer? You don’t have to answer of course, just talk about what you’re comfortable with Link.”

His breathing is slowly evening out now, clearly his earlier panic is starting to subside. Although now I don’t have my past option of being able to move away from him anymore, not with how he’s leaned all his weight against my side in, if he wasn’t so deeply upset about all of this, what I could call a desperate attempt to keep me by him. With all of this only seemingly proved more by how he’s tangling his fingers in mine to hold my hand tightly against his chest. 

“I first knew it was you when Zelda pushed me off that landing again. Your disgust at her doing that, at her not trusting me even though you already knew it was going to happen at that point. It wasn’t until I was first in the temple with Fi that I saw you properly though. I couldn’t even spare more than a second to bask in your beauty because, well I was scared that if I acted too differently from what you expected then you would just abandon me, but I wanted too more badly than anything. What I wouldn’t have given at that time to just have been able to spare more than a simple glance at you. Who I wouldn’t have killed to get the faintest chance to simply hold you.”

“...What was that last thing you said?”

“What do you mean my dove? The fact I would’ve given anything to spare a glance at you?”

“No that other thing you said.”

“That I couldn’t act differently out of fear that you would abandon me to a lifeless world where everyone was acting like soulless husks only repeating the same line over and over and over.”

“No that very- you know what, don't worry about it.”

The last remains of his tears finally fade away now as he nuzzles himself further into my shoulder and brings up our intertwined hands to kiss my own. Drawing out the moment as long as he can, fitting as he’s spent so long pining for this very touch. What’s going unsaid here is more than enough to be unsettling now, with how overbearing his feelings are getting and how desperate and cheery he’s sounding now. It’s a terrifying combination.

“I realised pretty quickly that it was your second playthrough. That I’d missed out on basking in you because I was too focused on saving Zelda,  but now I’m done with saving. I don’t want to go back to my own world, I don’t want to go back to her with how she’s always asking for more. I wish I could’ve just crawled through the screen and into your arms instead; burn away my past but I never could. I was stuck in that damned game, watching as you were so happy with me even though I wasn’t a person to you - just a toy. I could hear all the things you were saying from you complaining about your day, to how you kept calling me your precious baby girl.”

“Oh so… you heard everything… everything I was saying?”

“Everything. From the sweeter things like when you would apologize for me getting hurt even though I would never have held it against you, to how you thought I looked good in 'that green', how you'd let me do that to you as I finished off a skulltula, even how you thought ghirahim was fatherless. By far the best things to hear were you just talking about your own life, hearing you going on about your day made me feel more real than anything else did. I could imagine myself there with you, as a real part of your life.”

The chill down my spine at that admission didn’t go unnoticed by him as he coiled tighter into my side as if he was attempting for my touch to consume him fully. Like he’s gotten a taste of this touch and he’s wanting some more, like a hit of kerosene or something sweeter. 

"I don't want to go back to how it was before [name], I can't go back to Skyloft. I don't ever want to be pulled apart from you again, because when you finished the game? it felt like nothing was worth anything any more. I'm convinced I would have been better off dead than how I was without you."

He seemed not to be fond of my stunned silence, even still he respected it, letting me have precious moments to gather my thoughts. To say what? Where would I begin with handling this? I can’t question him, he’s so fragile right now and I’m too scared to break him. Maybe just…

“I’m sorry, Sky I’m so sorry. I’m sorry that I didn’t know earlier… that I couldn't help you through all of that, that I didn't treat you like an actual person. Is there any way I could possibly make it up to you?"

If that wasn't the best worst thing to say then, I don't know what I could have said instead. Luckily he seemed to like it if how he’s burning himself further into my side is anything to go off of, proven more by the contented hum he’s let out. 

“Please, just don’t leave me again - I- I won’t hold it against you if it's not your own choice, like how the shadow brought you here to me, but I never want to have to be apart from you again. I want to go back to your own world with you, a brand new life with you is all I need.”

“I promise link, I won’t leave you of my own choice from now.”

“If anything happens so that you get torn away from me - can you start a new save on your switch?”

“What..?”

What good could that be - what if it only made things worse? What if that got rid of his memories? No. [name] you have to trust him on this. He knows so much more about it, he’s the one who’s lived this. If that’s what he thinks the right option is. Then it’s the best option.

“If you make a new save then this time - this time I won’t have to be worried about you overreacting and deleting me - I don’t know if I’ll be able to talk to you -  There has to be some way I can get out of that game and into your arms again my dove. I just know it.”

[slayingfiction]

How I push through writing when I don't feel like writing.

Here are some of the techniques that I use to help me write more often or more consistantly when my laziness/depression/anxiety starts to take over.

I watch TV. I don't do it with the purpose of zoning out though. I watch something popular and well-liked such as the LOR or Harry Potter to get new ideas on how I can develop my story and apply their in-depth world-building ideas to help develop mine. Without plagarizing of course!!!!

Zoning out and daydreaming. As I have mentionned before, daydreaming is a huge part of my story outlining and world-building process. I'll stand in the shower, or take a walk and think about how my charcaters would act/react/behave in situations, mundane or not. Doing this gives me a better sense of my characters, and sometimes gives me ideas for scenes I use later on.

Work on writing related projects. These work well at keeping me distracted while still being productive on my writing goals. Example, I have one story I am working now, I made a new language (alphabet and numbers included) to include as a cool and fun component for the book. So, at times when I don't wan't to write, I continue creating the dictionary (very fun, 8/10 would recommend). Also, for the same book, my characters don't work off the Georigian calendar and 24 hour clock, so I've been working at creating a new calendar (harder than it seems, 2.5/10 dont recommend). These are side projects that help my story, without having to write.

Reading. You saw this one coming, I know. Reading is great, especially when you're editing, your writing style will unconsciously change to be more similar the author you were just reading. Also, most importantly, I'll be reading and think, "this story is really good, but you know what story I like even better? Mine." then change to writing.

This one is my biggest life saver!! I learnt about a year ago that sometimes I'll get bored of writing a story, and have difficulty keeping on track. That's why I finished my first book in 2016 and just started editing the first draft last week. The solution for me was to work on multiple projects at once, because it was much harder to be bored of multiple stories. I stick to 2, but will sometimes add a third. This is easy for me, because I have a list of over a dozen series I want to write. Don't abandon one project for another, use them as a distraction/ motivation for each other, so you're always furthering at least one project. I've never heard someone say, "oh no, i accidentally worked on this other writing project for three months instead of the other writing project I was doing. Dammit." No, we're just happy we have written something. Be sure to have well outlined story lines before starting, don't just start writing randomly or you'll reach a point where you don't know where to go from there.

Author/ writer projects. Maybe this is building a following, or community to share your projects and engage with. Tumblr, Insta, Reddit, whatever it is. My hope this year is to start up my website to offer publishing services (editing, graphic design, short writing courses) and build a following as a writer. (See what I did there? Never a bad time to self-promote ;) ) Having your own projects like this will help you in the future when you're going to try to publish and sell your books!

Talk with friends and a writing community. Never underestimate the passion that will burn inside you when talking about your story, or when others are talking about theirs. Surrounding yourself with a positive writing community can be the best thing for you as a writer.

Write or read (your story) every day. I'm not going to be one of those people that say you need to write 1000 words a day, that's a lot. But maybe try for 100? That could maybe only take 5 minutes, and at the end of the year that's still over 36 thousand words of a novel. Or just read your story, and I've always found it helped me get in the creative mood.

Make a playlist of songs that remind you of your characters, your story, or just puts you in the mood to write. Then play it ONLY when you're having trouble writing. Playing it while writing will not help, you'll get annoyed with the songs.

Just really can't do it today? That's okay, take a break. You deserve it. There's always tomorrow.

Does anyone else have ways they push themselves to keep writing? Let us know in the comments!

Happy Writing!

[lowkeyrobin]

TOMMYINNIT ; music taste

summary ; you try to get him into your rock/metal music taste on stream and it goes surprisingly well

warnings ; language

genre ; fluff

word count ; 556

guys I'm a fan of every band/artist mentioned don't come for me 😭🙏

masterlist ; my rock/metal/idk playlist

"I'm only doing this because I love you" Tommy groans and sighs, looking at his camera with a 'not angry, just disappointed look'

Chat responds with defenses of your music taste, being much different than many of your friends.

You lightly shove his shoulder and find your rock playlist on his Spotify account, and scroll all the way down to Waiting For The End by Linkin Park.

"This is more like, nu-metal / alt rock. Much lighter than other stuff, I'm easing you in, Big Man" You smile, leaning back in your chair as you share an earbud with the blonde.

Tommy lightly bops his head for the first 45 seconds, then intently listens as Chester performs his lines with the very comforting, slight strain in his voice in which he calls in desperation.

By the two minute mark, Tommy was pleased. And by the end, he gave it a 7/10, signaling he was a Linkin Park fan in the making. That recieved a loud round of applause from you, genuinely happy that he seemed to actually enjoy the art of Linkin Park, the industrial, hip-hop, alt-rock/nu-metal sound of one of your favorite bands.

Next was recommended and voted upon by chat, Cobra (Rock Remix) by Megan Thee Stallion featuring Spiritbox.

Tommy wasn't the biggest fan, but he still jammed out, mostly finding displeasure in Megan's lyrics because hearing about someone's genuine, rough moments made him sad more than anything. He did actually like the song, he just had to get used to hearing about venting and whatnot in music like a sheltered child. He happened to love Courtney's vocals, leading you to switch to Secret Garden so he can hear more.

Sadly, he didn't end up liking Seether or Saliva that much, but he seemed interested in New Years Day and Sleep Token.

He seemed to really like Alkaline, and you replayed it at least five times to he could learn the lyrics and sing along with you. Safe to say when the VOD came out, the editors were going to go crazy and people would end up making the clip a Spotify podcast episode to listen.

Safe to say, it went better than expected, and Tommy had to make a new playlist to share some heavier music with you.

"What was that other one? The one that said reminded you of Superman or Batman or something?" The blonde asks, typing away to make a playlist on his desktop.

"Blurry by Puddle Of Mudd" You smile, patting him on the shoulder, "Chat, this went well. Tommy's joined the cool kids cult"

Tommy places a kiss on your cheek with a little thank you for appreciation. "God dammit, I wanna play Alkaline again!" He groans, returning to clicking away on his keyboard and mouse, adding some songs.

"Got a new favorite song, Simons?" You smile smugly

"Yes! It's very good, thank you!"

He invites you as a collaborator over Discord and uploads a picture of you two for the playlist cover, and leaks it to stream, telling chat to go find it like hunting dogs.

By the end of the stream, you were yelling, and probably disturbing neighbors in the process, the lyrics to 1000 Oceans by Tokio Hotel, slowly closing the stream out with a little karaoke finale.

"Thank you, Y/n"

"Anytime, Tommy"

[desperatecheesecubes]

And we’re into April so my March wrap is here! Part 1 because I read so many things this month :)

Damage (1994) issues 1-4

Dates Read: March 2, March 4, March 15

Review: 4 stars (issue 1) 3 stars (all others)

Thoughts: I’ve read some of Damage’s solo already in my efforts to read through Kyle’s GA run but I decided it was high time I loop back and try to 100% his run. It’s definitely a fun time. Still peeved he isn’t used more. Can’t believe they did a second Damage run and it’s not even about my boy Grant. DC return him to me immediately.

Marble Queen by Anna Kopp and Gabrielle Kart

Dates Read: 5 March-6 March

Review: 3 stars

Thoughts: This was very cute. A fun sapphic story, with good art. It ended on some sequel bait but I don’t know that any has been announced. I will pick it up if it does get announced. The most memorable thing about this is that the first day it dropped it refused to open in any of my kindle apps irregardless of the device or how many times I updated it. So I bought it physically because I really wanted to read it, only for it to work the next fucking day. Infuriating. I will likely rehome the physical copy as it didn’t crack into my higher ratings.

The Affair of the Mysterious Letter by Alexis Hall

Dates Read: 28 February- 6 March

Review: 5 stars

Thoughts: Holy shit this was so good. A fantasy/sci-fi retelling of Sherlock Holmes and I NEED there to be more books this instant. All the characters were so entertaining and the snark unprecedented. I loved the narrator for the audiobook so much that I proceeded to look up everything he’d done. Did I mention how queer this book is? 1000-% recommend

Superman (2016) 37

Dates Read: 6 March

Review: 3 stars

Thoughts: I keep seeing posts of future Tim coming to fight Bruce so I decided to reread this issue. It is a fun time! I deeply appreciate that the cover has fuck all to do with the story. The only character on this cover that makes an appearance is Clark.

Thunder Song by Sasha LaPointe

Dates Read: 5 March- 9 March

Review: 2 stars

Thoughts: I fucking hated this. I read Sasha’s poetry collection-Rose Quartz- last year and thought it was excellent so I preordered this eagerly but I wish I hadn’t. This isn’t a collection of essays, it’s a confused and misorganized memoir, but she’s literally already published a memoir so???? She was angry about so many things but angry at all the wrong people over them. So many of the experiences she discussed here were so deeply deeply relatable so it was very frustrating to have her constantly inform me that I could never understand any of them. The ability to understand and empathize with each other came free with our fucking humanity. If you are othering people by saying ‘you could never understand this pain’ you are doing yourself a wild disservice. Based on its average Goodreads rating it has found its proper audience but god knows I wasn’t that.

Batman (1940) 443

Dates Read: 9 March

Review: 3 stars

Thoughts: I legitimately don’t remember reading this nor do I have any idea what it was about. Cheerio!

The Fox Maidens by Robin Ha

Dates Read: 10 March

Review: 3 stars

Thoughts: Although this IS sapphic the romance doesn’t happen until the absolute end of the graphic novel. I was really more here for the main character eating bad men. She should have done that more. It was a fun read, even if it could have been gayer. I enjoyed learning more about Korean culture and mythology, I confess that I am not that knowledgeable.

Transitions by Élodie Durand

Dates read: 10 March

Review: 3 stars

thoughts: this book was not at all what I was expecting. It’s an interesting perspective to hear from in the trans conversation: a parent who knows nothing about the community but who finds out their child is part of it. I thought there would be more personal emotions in it but… no not really. A LOT of research though lol.

Women of Good Fortune by Sophie Wan

Dates Read: 9 March-13 March

Review: 4 stars

Thoughts: oh man this was fun. Very in line with Crazy Rich Asians. I loved all the women in this and I also enjoyed the supporting cast. I’ll be keeping an eye on what else Sophie Wan puts out.

Action Comics (2016) 1063

Dates Read: 14 March

Review: 2 stars

Thoughts: This arc was bad and I’m glad it’s over

[cats-thoughts]

Valkyrie (feat. Laura Brehm) ~ Varien

(note: this song is part of a trilogy! I highly recommend listening to Valkyrie II: Lacuna and Valkyrie III: Atonement to get the full experience!)

YIPPEE 14 MINUTES OF SONG :D /gen

okay definitely not the most creative answer, but this song is very Ender Knight.

WAIT NO. NOW THAT I'VE HEARD THE OTHER 2 SONGS THIS IS 100% THE GOD OF THE INFINITE

basically, it's a mc oc of mine, an explanation for why so many roleplay worlds have limited lives now.

In the past- very past, I'm talking Indev Minecraft- there were many gods, and one of them was the god of the infinite. Alongside it was its sister, minor god of the Farlands.

The god of the infinite brought respawn throughout every world it went to. Alongside this, it always respawned itself (whether it wanted to or not) and could theoretically take respawn away from anything.

The other gods were afraid of that power and in an attempt to kill the god of the infinite, accidentally killed its sister, farlands, as well. The weapon was an overwrite of respawn, a permadeath blade, but when they tried to use one on the infinite- well, it didn't work. Unfortunately being basically the god of respawn, it literally cannot NOT respawn. Farlands wasn't so lucky, though.

Infinite, Blinded by rage, set about the goal of killing literally everything. Forever. And obviously, the other gods tried to stop it. It was a very, very long fight, between the Infinite and all of the other gods. It wasn't the best fighter amongst them, or even the best magic user. It just kept coming back. Every time the Infinite respawned, it got all of its energy back and was fully healed. A Million Papercuts, and whatnot.

The gods would kill it, and it would be back within seconds, back to flinging itself at them over and over again until one died, and then another, and so on. So eventually they started sending new gods after it, weak but in great supply as the world churned them out to replace dead gods, one after the other, to hold their own for as long as possible before dying. 300 years of fighting, never letting the Infinite rest or respawn, and it finally tired out.

It fell into a deep sleep, (sometime during beta, near 1.9) and the other gods locked it in the void for what they hoped would be eternity.

Unfortunately without its magic, respawn became strained, more and more worlds turning Hardcore (words deleted upon player death, leaving nowhere for the player to respawn, and therefore they simply never do) and infinite respawn worlds becoming rarer and rarer- now there were worlds where you only had 3, or 10, or 100. Or ones where you had to kill other players to steal their respawns.

So they brought it back, locked in a mortal form, without any memories or powers. Now it wanders worlds, exploring, utilizing the fact that it never seems to stay dead to defeat monsters and bosses and escape even the most dangerous of situations unharmed. And everywhere it goes, infinite respawn follows.

It's so traumatized <3

This was literally inspired by the fact that I played a Minecraft map and then, instead of being good at the game and defeating the bosses like I was supposed to, like for example dodging the attacks, I just. Stood still and rapid fired my weapons at them until I died, and then did the same thing again after I respawned. I got over 1000 deaths. I did TRY to play the game as intended but despite having played this game for like. 8 years. I'm SO bad at it you have No idea I am just Awful at it-

[just-a-poor-boy-queen]

Freddie Mercury: The Final Act

Some highlights.

Kash said Freddie denied that he had AIDS. She said her mum called her up and said, "call your brother, he is very ill." Kash did, and asked, "it's not AIDS is it," and he denied it.

Roger called him his best friend 2 minutes into the show.

Brian acknowledged Freddie's struggle with sexuality.

"What I am is all in the songs." - David Wigg about Freddie.

God, the white house coverage of AIDS is soooo infuriating.

Brian and Roger talking about IWTBF video and America's response was funny lmao.

Brian acknowledged that Freddie was gay yayayy. He quoted the daffodil interview and said, "that's not a man denying his sexuality."

Phoebe said Rock Hudson's death made Freddie realise that "I won't get it" attitude is not true.

Anita said of the Kensington Roof Party, "Come and meet my Jim." She said Freddie was very proud of Jim😭😭

Kash talked about Jim. "It was decided that Jim would be introduced as the gardener, but I wondered that he must be a very good gardener because he is always there. Then I put two and two together."😭😭😭

Freddie revealed to David Wigg after the Ibiza '87 that he had AIDS. He said "I'm going to fight it, there will be a cure."😭

God I fucking hate Margaret Thatcher.

The band didn't know about Freddie's diagnosis while they were recording The Miracle.

He told them in Montreux. But they had already guessed.

They agreed to deny everything about his diagnosis and lie through their teeth to protect Freddie.

He told Kash that he had an incurable blood disease. She said, "it's not AIDS is it?" He denied but she knew.

Freddie asked Kash, "I was handsome, wasn't I?" while watching his old videos. She said that was hopeful but sad. She believes that her brother very handsome.

Brian never told Freddie that TSMGO was written about him, but it was understood.

People who had not seen Freddie for a while were visibly shocked on set of These Are The Days on seeing him.

"When I can't sing anymore I'll die." - Freddie once told Anita.

The doc also has other people talking about their diagnosis/people they knew who died of aids. It was very emotional.

Roger tried to run over a reporter once and failed.

Bomi couldn't see him because he looked like a skeleton. He said, "this should've been me instead of Freddie," while reading a newspaper and crying.

John, Brian and Roger stayed at Roger's house all night after Freddie died. When they saw the news, Freddie's death finally sunk in.

Anita said Jim didn't want any limelight so he withdrew.

Roger singled out The Sun and said they were very shitty.

Roger got fixated on the tribute concert and wanted to give Freddie "one hell of a send off," and at the same time raise awareness for AIDS.

The first person to be called was Elton for the concert.

George really wanted to sing Somebody to Love. His cousin that was reflective of his personal life. He was the only one who rehearsed it for days.

Anita said the concert was like a catharsis for the boys.

Elton was very sombre during the rehearsals.

The band didn't know if Axl would turn up at the concert because he never came to the rehearsals.

Brian said that it was difficult to do the concert because they were raising awareness but it was very hard to do it without Freddie.

A treat for George fans as well because the doc talks about his life and relationships a bit as well.

Damn, that intro to StL, George🥺

Brian said Liza was very emotional about the performance. She loved Freddie a lot.

The end killed me. They cut from Liza's We Are The Champions to the band recording the song in 1977. The last note was by Freddie during the Magic Tour.

Kash sings a bit of The Winter's Tale at the end😭😭😭😭

I am crying. This was a very good documentary. 1000/10 recommend.

[mediawhorefics]

thoughts on doctor who!! echoes of previous companions always gets me good, like billie piper as The Moment

oh i have SO much to say about doctor who rip here's an incoherent rant/list of opinions !!

i'm an rtd-era supremacist so i'm DYING with excitement over his return!!! also this 14 news ??? HELLO?????????? SO SO SO EXCITED!!!!

my first doctor was 10 and he has remained my fav through and through. tho ofc i love them all in different ways. (fun fact my beta is the one who introduced me to dw back in the day)

my top three companions are donna (MY GIRL !!!!)/rose/the ponds

yes, i am in love with karen gillan and would like a spare hand in marriage ma'am

my greatest dw heartbreak is the fact that peter capaldi is one of my favourite actors and was probably the greatest ambassador for the show and i absolutely LOATHE the writing for his era.

steven moffat IS my nemesis and i hate what he did with the show. this man should have never been a showrunner. he's good with limits and boundaries and standalone.

full offence, i hate clara with a burning passion, no shade to the actress she's very talented, but everything about that character rubs me the wrong way. from the ~born to save the doctor bullshit to the has no life outside the doctor until moffat randomly decided to half-ass giving her a career to the badly written attempts at her having feelings for 11... truly, i despite this storyline so fucking much. again ship what you like but i don't get doctor/clara AT ALL. it makes me angry just thinking about it now. and she was there for SO long UGH.

my favourite series are s4 & s5 (yes i hate moffat i love s5, its complicated). also s2 because ROMANCE!!!!!

i hate moffat writing women for obvs reasons but i do love river song. highkey as much as i love matt & alex together NOTHING beats 12/river because peter capaldi said i'm playing a whole time lord in LOVE in that one episode they had together and my fucking HEART y'all. i know i have an unhealthy crush on peter capaldi but his face when he looks at her <333 it's almost as good as ten & rose's in love and utterly devoted to each other faces.

doctor/river still don't hold a candle to 10/rose obvs that shit was it. she was IT. rip to 16 yo me watching doomsday for the first time that shit fundamentally changed me as a person. where's that deancas/tenrose comparison post ?? cut me open and that's what you'll see.

i miss rtd era side characters SO much they were SO lived in and memorable and REAL and they made the show. we lost soooo much of doctor who's heart when he left.

its cringe but i ADORE torchwood despite all of its flaws. ianto jones was one of the very first bi-adjacent characters i ever connected with and he is SO dear to me. rip to my boy it's disgusting what rtd & co did to him :((( baby's first bury your gays, i was 17 and i still haven't recovered. thank god for big finish and all the quality torchwood content they produce.

speaking of big finish... if you're a who fan who hasn't tried to expended universe, i cannot recommend the 8th doctor audios enough. he is FANTASTIC and actually one of my favourite doctors. paul mcgann is INCREDIBLE in the role and it's criminal we only have the movie and that tiny one-shot for the 50th anniversary.

@ RTD JUSTICE FOR EIGHT IN THE 60TH SPECIAL

10/donna are the best tardis team end of. that tennant/tate chemistry??? CHEF'S KISS. @ rtd fix her. @ rtd bring her back. i am no longer asking !!!!

christopher eccleston is CRIMINALLY underrated. 9 deserves SO much love. i adore him. thanks @ big finish for bringing him back to me.

matt smith was the best at playing ancient. i still don't know how he did that thing with his eyes where he looked 1000 yo but wow.

cybermen are incredibly boring and i really dislike most of their eps. i'll take 50 dalek stories over cybermen ones idc.

we never should have seen the weeping angels after blink. they've lost more and more of their appeal the more their mythology has been expended on.

i still don't understand the whole silence cult vs silence species thing and at this point, i'm too afraid to ask.

some of us witnessing the andrew garfield renaissance remember frank and his 1930s fruitiness from 2007 is all i'm gonna say.

[bebo-schmebo]

SPOILERS AHEAD

Another HC list! This one is for the sequel of Hermanito, a longer (and currently incomplete) fic called Luciérnaga! I'll be posting HC's and/or going into more detail on certain things in a way I can't in the fic, so don't forget to check this post every now and then! I'll be adding new things to this post a lot as Luciérnaga continues :>

Highly recommend reading all chapters before reading the HCs, lots of them may be full of spoilers!

If y'all have any questions, or just wanna chat about things don't be afraid to message here, my asks, or even DMs!

Currently mostly centered around Bruno, Félix, and Agustín due to Chapter 2- more for the others will be added later I promise fnsjsjs

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- Everyone helps out with making dinner. They take turns, sometimes even fusing turns because it's fun to work together (or in some cases, fun to learn together. Agustín is still not allowed to cook alone yet ever since the bad Cake pan incident)

- Met Bruno, one of his best friends in a hurricane, married the lass of his dreams in a hurricane. If it wasn't for the fact that hurricanes hurt people Félix would openly declare them as one of his favorite things (though anyone who knows the two stories always get a serotonin boost if they see him smile at the sight/smell of rain.)

- Agustín 1000% wrote songs for Bruno but never planned on showing them to him. If you're wondering about the vibes the songs had, listen to Time In A Bottle by Jim Croce

- Though Agustín had a crush on Bruno when they were younger, that's not the case currently. Yes he cares for him, and yes even now a small fraction of those feelings still longer even 30+ years later, but despite how it seems he isn't in love with him. His feelings are a bit muddled and he's learned to simply be. He doesn't need a label for his feelings.

- In the memory, the crush is way worse- and in a sad way Bruno's disappearance kinda helps. Over the 10 years Bruno's gone Agustín works through his emotions again, finally finally settles things with himself, and he becomes comfortable with the feelings in his heart. Talking things out with Félix and Julieta helps. (Julieta thinks it's cute and is hella understanding- doesn't get upset with him, demand anything from him, simply works through things with him. Lets him know that she doesn't love him any less- probably noticed as well, long before he told her. She has full confidence that Agustín loves her and doesn't mind that her husband's heart will always be a bit taken by her brother. Agustín's always had a big heart. That's part of why she loves him.)

(Here's a screenshot of a take I made on this earlier, might help a bit-)

- Agustín and Bruno will never be together, and that's okay. They don't have to be. Agustín worked through things and grew comfortable with the fact that he may never fully understand his feelings when it comes to his favorite seer. He loves Bruno, he loves Julieta, he loves everyone and none of it needs a blatant label. All that matters is that he cares for them and they care for him in turn.

- Félix, Bruno, and Agustín were all close in their teens, but after the older two married Bruno's sisters and started families of their own they accidentally started drifting apart a bit (the villages treatment of Bruno didn't help matters at all)

- Bruno noticed that they were drifting apart and actually encouraged it, disappearing often whenever they became distracted (he fully believed that they should focus on their kids and stop "wasting" time on him)

- Yes, I support the idea that our favorite dads helped hide Bruno's last vision he had before his disappearance. Full on I'm sure they saw it and broke the bridge so that no one else would go looking for it

- Bruno is an oblivious sweetheart, but that's part of why everyone loves him tbh

[longinglook]

thank you for tagging me @jaehwany!! I haven’t done one of these in forever so I am excited!

1. your all time favorite bl and why

I feel like it might be a bit rushed because it just ended but I'll go with Bad Buddy. I can't think of anything that I would change about it except for like, two very minor things. I found everything about it extremely enjoyable, the plot, pacing, characters, dialogue, photography and sound were all excellent. It was funny while also tackling some serious issues, the acting was out of this world and I just felt all the things. 11/10 would recommend.

2. that one bl that scarred you for life

Make our days count :( It was one of the first BLs I watched and things were going so well and I was enjoying it and then... That finale out of nowhere completely destroyed everything. I’ll never get over it

3. is there any bl that made you feel very single?

I think 1000 stars was the worst in that aspect. Since their connection was so intense and deep right from the start I felt very single even when they were't together yet. That's what a soulmate AU of sorts does to you! Bad Buddy also did a number on me with InkPa, the wlw rep got to me and had me screaming and crying. Please spare gf

4. if you could change one thing from a bl, which one would it be?

Oh no there's so many ways I could answer this... So many things to fix... As it's currently relevant I'll say that I'd somehow get Hyunjun to star in Color Rush s2 so that the twist they had to come up with to cover his character's absence wouldn't be needed. I know we're only two episodes in but it's bad.

6. your top five:

- Bad Buddy - Gaya Sa Pelikula - 1000 stars - Cherry magic - I told sunset about you

I think these are actually in order too, I am proud of myself for managing to settle on a solid top 5

7. that trashy bl that you lowkey like

Trashy BLs with accidentally good couples are basically my brand at this point! FighterTutor from Why R U and Markkit from Gen Y are a part of who I am and I will forever love them despite the absolute mess those shows are.

8. your favorite korean bl (it’s important we know)

I think it's Wish You? I know it didn't get much love and objectively it's not the best but something about it really resonated with me and I have a soft spot for it. Plus the songs are amazing and so is the photography. I highly recommend it!

9. but also your top 3 for kbls

- Wish you - To my star (SO excited for season 2 I can't wait!!!!) - Tinted with you (I really enjoyed Jun's character and his acting and the plot was fun!)

10. season 2? which one?

S2 of Gaya Sa Pelikula is absolutely needed but I would totally understand if it never happened :( S2 are dangerous because that's where writers come up with pointless drama to give the established couples some plot, so I would only want it when good writers are involved. I think a Manner of Death s2 could be fun! MaxTul are so good they could fix anything.

11. a bunch of dramas will air soon. which ones are you the most excited for?

I have been so busy with life I have barely kept up with what's about to come out, but here's some:

To My Star s2: it could be great or it could be bad, I have high hopes so I'm keeping my fingers crossed for it!

The Eclipse: it's the teaser that got me the most curious out of all of the ones GMMTV posted, I am extremely intrigued and hopeful + I really love khaotung

Vice versa: I am interested in the concept, it's bodyswap with a twist, I hope it's well executed because it has a lot of potential!

12. tag them!

Ahh I never know who to tag in these especially now that I've been gone for so long!! If you see this and want to do it please consider yourself tagged^^

[dollyrose00]

Twice Concert w/ Boyfriend

Pairing: Chifuyu Matsuno , Sanzu Haruchiyo,  Draken (Ken Ryujugi), Imaushi Wakasa , Kazutora (Kazutora Hanemiya), 

Contains: Aged up characters, Slight mention of violence,  adorable

Story: Y/N want to go see twice and your boyfriend would like to spend quality time together so why not bring him to the concert. 

Chifuy

• Don’t even need to ask him. He already bought the tickets when he heard the announcement for the tour.

• He packed extra batteries  and even provides you with a banner for the concert. • At the concert some of the girls that are standing near bye keep looking at him while he is singing word for word to  “Fancy” . • He has already become a favorite among the other girls • You get a little upset since he is being very friendly with the other fans. He notices this and decides to pull you closer to him and start slow dancing. Placing kiss on your forehead and whispering about how he is having a great time with you. • 10/10 recommend to go with him

Sanzu

• He didn’t want to say no since your friend bailed on you , but this isn’t want he wanted to spend his time doing. • He has already scared off a few fans around you once inside the venue. • He decided to leave you since he isn’t enjoying himself and head to the back for a while. • When he comes back you are dancing with a few fans and jumping up and down with a guy who is a little to happy leaning close to you. • He yanks him back and start cursing him out. • Quickly jumping in you break the fight apart and pull him back. A slight argument breaks out between you guys and security comes over asking you guys to leave. • Luckly you don’t get banned from the venue • However you just waisted some money • -1000/10 concert experience

Draken • Doesn’t understand the interest in the group but doesn’t want to argue with you so he comes along. • He loves seeing you happy so he will pick you up placing you on his shoulders. • After a while you feel bad for the other fans and ask him to place you down so you don’t block them. • After a few songs he is dancing with you and waving the light stick in the air

Kazutora • Kaz is super sweet and clingy so its expected he would be going with you to the concert. • He didn’t bother to learn any names or songs since he will be spending the whole time cuddling you. • Expect some jealous looks since Kaz is happily clinging to you with headphones in. • After a while he will get bored and attempt to get you to leave or pay attention to him. • Knowing how his emotions can get you decide to entertain him for a while. • “The Feels” is being performed and you are singing the song to him and dancing in front of him. • He leans close to you grabbing the back of your neck bringing you close for a kiss. “You look so beautiful “he whispers in your ear • After the concert he is very eager to listen to the  album • “We should do this more often”

reblogs appreciated <3

[adoreinbloom]

thank you @quickpauseinconversations and @lavenderhrry, @laurelier and @harrysputa for tagging me <3 finally found time to this!!

🌼 what do you prefer to be called name-wise?

just cerys - i think the only people that ever nickname me is my family 😭

🌼 when is your birthday?

13th january (yes i did used to tell people my birthday was the day after zayn’s as part of the ‘tell us a fun fact about yourself’ activity when I was younger)

🌼 where do you live?

england

🌼 three things you’re doing right now?

sorting my vinyl out, watching netflix and drinking a cup of tea

🌼 four fandoms that have piqued your interest right now?

the harry and louis fandoms mainly, and the overall one direction fandom? (but in terms of blogs, I still follow some blogs for the uswnt because I got obsessed with them when the women’s world cup was on)

🌼 how is the pandemic treating you?

good in the sense that I’ve worked all the way through it, and ive been in a lucky position where ive not been furloughed and still have my job. just a bit shitty that ive been working from home for the past 18 months, and there seems to be no end in sight for ever going back into the workplace properly. it’s not been good on my mental health in the slightest if i’m honest.

🌼 song you can’t stop listening to right now?

good wife - kacey musgraves (listen to her new album it’s absolutely incredible)

🌼 recommend a movie

I don’t really watch a lot of films but I would always recommend ella enchanted because it’s like not the best but i absolutely love it. also any high school musical because it’s a classic.

🌼 how old are you?

21

🌼 school, university, occupation, other?

i have a full-time job

🌼 do you prefer hot or cold?

1000% cold. give me blistering cold winds and snow and rain over summer anyday

🌼 name one fact others may not know about you.

I dislocated my thumb during PE when I was 10 and now i’ve got a double jointed left thumb (which when I was younger i thought was a very cool talent!)

🌼 are you shy?

i think my anxiety makes me shy around a lot of people. like if i’m in my group of friends, i’m loud and i’m comfortable, but the minute someone else joins in that i’m not 1000% comfortable with, i just barely speak because I overthink what i’m going to say.

🌼 do you have any preferred pronouns?

she/her

🌼 any pet peeves?

people who don’t pick up their feet when they walk, or those who are really too placid about making plans. I can’t be dealing with ‘oh we’ll see where it goes’ like no tell me where I need to be on what day and what time, that’s all I need to know.

🌼 what’s your favourite “dere” type?

I have no clue what this means so none????

🌼 rate your life 1-10. 1 being really crappy and 10 being the best you could ever be.

maybe a 6?

🌼 what’s your main blog?

this is my only one

🌼 list your side blogs and what they’re used for.

i don’t have any, I applaud anyone that can keep up with side blogs because I can barely even hack one.

🌼 is there anything you think people need to know about you before becoming friends with you?

I’m either super quick at replying (within minutes) or it’s hours before I respond. there’s no inbetween

i’m so sorry i’ve had this in my drafts forever! (also apologies if I’ve tagged you and you’ve already done it)

I tag: @zouisgf @farawaytatmybeloved @tanktop-lou @quickpauseinconversations @canyoncurl @hotharreh and anyone else who wants to do it!!

[yourlocaltreesimp]

AHHHHH I LOVE HIM SMMMMM

you’re really making me obsessed over these self aware! aus.

Copy and pasted This was a request from @yourlocaltreesimp and @sketchyspook as a continuation of self aware sky!! This man has my heart and soul <3 we've got two skies trying to come to terms with each other while reader is stuck in the middle <33 Btw if ever there's a one shot you'd ever like a continuation of I'll always be happy to write it if you drop a request <3 seeing as that's how this came to be in full, I had no intention to carry on with sky otherwise The first - second

[masterlist]

... “And why do you look just like me?”

This is so different to what happened the first time, he’s less emotive with his face still rigged to the model the way he’s moving seems far more stiff like he’s fighting against the game. The biggest difference though?

He’s petrified.And not of any one thing in particular every single thing is setting him off, from how my link is looking at him to even the feeling of his skin from what I can see. Link - the one on my side I mean - is hard to read, tensing up, gritting his teeth and looking at his other self like a threat. 

“Why are you both just looking at me like that - what - I - I - please I can’t handle anyone else keeping me in the dark - no one seems to remember my name - my real name- I don’t… this is all so… so”

Even his crying sounds similar to link’s - my link’s - oh I’ll need to come up with nicknames for them both now otherwise there won’t be an end to the confusion. Anyway it sounds similar, but far more broken, almost as if he’s having an existential crisis during his breakdown which, to be fair, is probably what is happening. One of us needs to explain everything to him and with links reaction? I think it’s going to be up to me.  With a quick glance at link telling him to stay out of this, moving to sit closer to the screen to talk to him face to face like a real person, all I have to do is hope that it goes well; that he doesn’t do anything rash.

“Link - I’ll explain whatever you want explained to you that I can with what I know, you just need to calm down enough to ask alright?”

That stopped the crying, his head jerkily moving so that his eyes can meet mine with each movement he makes becoming more fluid and natural. Each second that passes only seeming to bring him more alive all the while link behind me only seems to be getting more upset over it all. 

“I - I - Yeah… I can calm down, th-ank you..?”

“[name], you can call me that if you want or whatever you’re comfortable with.”

“Ri-ight then feather, what’s happening - why are you watching me? And why - why does he look like me?”

Anomaly, I think that’ll suit him, didn’t take kindly to me being called a nickname so quickly but he’s the one who wanted to play the game so badly so he’s got to suck it up. Besides it’s not like he’s got to shatter someone's worldview, hopes and life, that falls on me. I can comfort anomaly later on, when this is cleared up. 

“Link you, aren’t real. You’re the character the player controls to play through this game you’re in, we weren’t just watching you, he was controlling you.”

“...”

“As for why he looks like you? He is you, a version of you anyway.”

“One who managed to learn about it and get out on his own, guess that makes me your better self huh?”

Because that was the right thing to tell a version of yourself having a breakdown, he had the decency to at least look a little ashamed when I turned to look at him. Not that his remorse helps how replay seems to have gotten worse again, this time the sound of crying pairing with tears streaming down his digital face. Even if he isn’t the same link I’ve been living with, his tears still hurt far more than any wound. 

“So  none of it - nothing - I went through is real, I’m not real? This is all for nothing, Zelda's not, she isn’t real either, so she, I’ve been through so- You helped me through it all…”

“Link..?”

“He - I? - said he got out, I - so that means I can too right? You - You’re not going to put me through everything, through learning all of that and keep me trapped in here right? Please [name], feather, please don’t make me stay here.”

“So you can try to take the love I earned? [Name] you were right I should never have played it.”

Oh, he knows exactly the right way to word it to hurt replay as much as he possibly can, it’s like he feels some sickening joy at this version of himself sobbing his heart out and knowing he’s the cause of the pain. Replay’s face has nothing more than horror on it now, he’s more scared than earlier. Hopefully anomaly comes to his senses soon so he doesn’t traumatise him any more than he already has. 

“Link, can you go getmy first aid kit and some extra bandages? I think they’re in the bathroom.”

“Wait dove you’re not planning to - right?”

“I didn’t leave you stuck and come on, love. I know you don’t actually hate him.”

“I - sure, for you though, no other reason.”

He didn’t fight me back at all, proving my own point that he most likely just feels threatened when he has no reason to be. Maybe replay staying with us will even be good for him, I know he’s been struggling adapting to being real and not having anyone who he can really relate to; replay being a version of himself in a very similar spot should really help. 

“[name]... you told him not to play? W-were you scared of this - of me learning? Of me being an issue… is that why you told him not to?”

“It wasn’t about you coming to life persay, I said it as a joke about how he got out of the game. He broke something that was very expensive to replace and I was teasing him over it. I know he was just saying that to hurt you though, so don’t worry about it. I’m sure he’ll calm down if you give him some time.”

Arguably it feels more like I’m facetiming someone now, his movements are so life-like he’s just like a real person, just in time for him to show a shy smile. Was this what anomaly would’ve looked like if he wasn’t in such a rush to get out that he was on the verge of corrupting the data while he was still in it. It’s unnerving, but less so than when he shoved his hand through the screen without warning. 

“Besides I think I have a way to prevent you from breaking anything hopefully, my boyfriend’s just getting it set up. It shouldn’t take long but seeing as we have a bit of time… is there anything else you wanted to ask or do you wanna talk for a bit?”

He seems flustered now, blushing red and everything, it’s kinda sweet more but does this me that he’s also. Be real with yourself [name] what are the odds that the same guy fell for you twice. Those would probably be higher wouldn’t they now I think on it. That look in his eye doesn’t make sense if he’s not as much as I hate to think it. It’s the same way anomaly looks at me, tamer yes but still has the same obsessive energy behind it, like he wants me to give him permission or he doesn’t understand why he feels like the way he does. Hopefully it won’t cause issues. He seemed to back away a little when I felt arms wrap around my shoulders, clearly someone wasn’t as pleased with how he was looking at me, while the other doesn’t like not having my attention. A nip at my ear was all I needed to turn back to him. 

“I hope you understand why I don’t like this, I love you far too much to consider losing you to another version of myself… but I did go and get the first aid kit like you asked. I don’t see why he needs it, can’t he just bring a potion with him or down a guardian potion beforehand?”

“Thanks love, I really appreciate it. You do have a point though, but still it’s better to prepare for the worst.”

“This isn't going to change anything between us, because I can’t lose you my player, just - just promise me that alright?”

“Of course link.”

Then the promise was sealed with a kiss to his cheek, tension leaving him instantly now that he knows his position as my partner isn’t at threat. Honestly it’s so cute how territorial he gets, nothing bad has ever happened and he’s the best partner you could ever want outside of that so really it’s not much of an issue. Other than that how many people can say their ‘fictional’ crush both reciprocates and gets possessive of them, it’s a very small number as far as I’m aware. Now all that’s left to do is for replay to break his way out. Replay’s already tearing up again.

“So then me what do I have to do to get out, and - and to throw away my past.”

“Break the screen, put your hand up against it and break the glass. I’ll be honest though, it will hurt a lot.”

“So I should take a potion right, to make it hurt less?”

“I didn’t take one, but if you feel you’ll need it. Go ahead, it’ll only prove you’re less than me.”

That final insult seemed to make replay steel himself, gripping a potion in his hand staring at it like it was what threatened him instead. He didn’t drink it though. Instead he opted to take his shield and use the pointed base to break through, faster and arguably much smarter than my beloved anomaly did, reaching out afterwards to pull himself out leaving my tv in a broken pile yet again but replay himself was left relatively unharmed in comparison. Was link really that desparate to be with me before? I can’t say that I’m not flattered by that, I only wish he took his own health into consideration. Now I’m simply stuck between the two of them staring at each other, I wonder how long it will take them to grow up and stop silently arguing.

[razberryyum]

So you’re done with The Untamed and want more, what now?

Reposting this since I’ve updated it with new info/links. Again, I entered the fandom via The Untamed so I’m by no means a MDZS expert, just tried my best gathering all the resources I can which I hope will help some new Untamed/MDZS fan out there. If you spot any errors, don’t yell at me, just let me know and I’ll correct it as best I can, especially for any future reposts.

READ THE NOVEL

Read the original web novel the show was based on: The Untamed (aka “CQL” or “Chen Qing Ling”) was adapted from the BL web novel, Mo Dao Zu Shi (aka ”MDZS” or Grandmaster of Demonic Cultivation) by author Mo Xiang Tong Xiu (”MXTX”). Yes the novel came first, CQL is only an adaptation. In the novel, you get the uncensored romance of Wei Wuxian and Lan Wangji, where they are canonically married and living happily ever after. The novel goes full into R18 territory so please tread carefully.

All four volumes of the novel can be purchased from the original publishing site, JJWXC. The site’s in chinese but here’s a tutorial on how to navigate it and purchase the books:  JJWXC Tutorial Link.

There’s also the option of purchasing the physical copies from Yesasia which might be easier but it’s also more expensive since they’re the middle man: Yesasia MDZS Link

It would be wonderful if you can support MXTX-laoshi by actually buying the books, especially since the cover art is so beautiful and the extra chapter volumes come with a lot of awesome extra goodies, but of course there’s also the option of reading the fan translations graciously provided by the Exiled Rebels Scanlations team at their site:  

They translated all the novels including the bonus chapters in their own free time and are providing the fanslations for free so please give them some love for all their hard work.  

WATCH THE ANIME (aka “Donghua” in Chinese)

Watch the anime based on the novel: The donghua was released before The Untamed. Two seasons are already available (23 eps total) with a third season in production and a special chibi version of the donghua in production as well. The Eng-subbed donghua can be seen using the WeTV app or on Youtube:  YT MDZS Donghua Playlist

Grant it, the donghua is even more censored than The Untamed, but the donghua team still managed to sneak in some easter eggs (f.e. WangXian naked bathing scene in the cold springs from the novel...in The Untamed they were fully clothed) and more importantly, the animation is just gorgeous so it’s absolutely worth a watch despite the censorship. 

READ THE MANGA (aka “Manhua” in Chinese)

Read the manhua which is ongoing and is being officially translated by WeComics, available on their app for free. Search under the name “Mo Dao Zu Shi”.

Unfortunately, the official translations are more than 20 chaps behind the raws and there have been complaints about the quality of the translations in the past, but I believe they’re starting to improve so since they’re official, it’s always better to support the official source.

The raw untranslated manhua can be found on the Kuaikanmanhua app. Other than being in Chinese, some of the chapters (f.e. the most recent ones) are behind a paywall, but here’s a tutorial on how to purchase the chapters, provided by @chiharuzushi on Twitter:  Kuaikanmanhua Tutorial

The chapters are quite cheap...I purchase 1000 KK coins for 10 rmb ($0.14) and each chapter is only 68 KK coins so even if we end up with 500 chapters it’ll still be...er...quite cheap overall (don’t make me do the actual math). The most painful part is figuring out how to set up the Kuaikanmanhua account, but otherwise, if you can read Chinese or know enough of the story by now that you don’t really need to read the words, the manhua is definitely worth reading because it’s less censored than The Untamed and the donghua. 

LISTEN TO THE AUDIO DRAMA

Listen to the audio drama, which is at this point the most faithful and LEAST censored adaptation of the novel we will probably ever get! Wei Ying’s voice actor in The Untamed is the voice actor for his audio drama counterpart. (Yes, almost everyone in The Untamed is dubbed by a voice actor, EXCEPT for Nie Huaisang. Ji Li, the actor for NHS, was the only one who used his own voice. Lan Zhan in The Untamed shares the same voice actor as his character in the donghua). 

Each episode art of the audio drama is AMAZING. Google Translate works well on the site, you’d want to see the listeners’ comments cuz they’re just adorable and hilarious.

Official links on Maoer FM:

Season 1: Maoer FM S1 Link

Season 2: Maoer FM S2 Link

Season 3: Maoer FM S3 Link

The audio drama was supervised by MXTX-laoshi, the author of the novel, so a lot of love and care went into the production, and it shows. The audio drama is behind a paywall but I remember it’s relatively inexpensive. Here’s the tutorial on how to purchase the audio drama from the Maoer FM site:  Maoer FM Tutorial Link

Ngl, it was tough at first navigating all that, Google translate helped, but once I figured it out, it was all so worth it because in addition to the MDZS, the site houses a lot of other wonderful audio dramas. There are also MDZS fan songs on the site that are near professional quality and oh so good.

Suibian Subs have kindly translated the episodes and their translations are available here:  Suibian Subs MDZS Audio Drama

Show them some love too for translating the episodes, but please if you can, purchase the episodes so you can support the audio drama team which have done an amazing job.

There’s even a Japanese audio drama which the Chinese AD team helped spearhead, available on the MIMI FM app. Here’s a tutorial on how to purchase the eps (half of the first season is out): MIMI FM Tutorial

It’s in Japanese but just follow the pictures. I’m hoping that the Japanese audio drama will end up being the MOST uncensored version of MDZS since Japanese BL dramas are not afraid (and allowed) to go all the way to R18. XD

MORE THE UNTAMED CONTENT

Lastly, if you’re just thirsting for more Untamed content, there are two spin-off movies you can watch. The first one, The Living Dead, is kind of centered on Wen Ning and Sizhui post-CQL. 

The second one, Fatal Journey, is focused on the Nie brothers, Nie Mingjue and Nie Huaisang, with a cameo by Jin Guangyao. It takes place prior to Wei Ying’s return from the dead.

Of the two movies, I definitely recommend Fatal Journey more. Both movies are available on the iQiyi app, which offers a one month free trial for first members. Each month afterwards for VIP is $6.99.

You can also go on the WeTV app for even more Untamed extras: WeTV put out a special edition cut of the show which tightened up the story AND features the original ending that was intended before censorship forced the production team to come up with the more ambiguous one we saw in its original run. It was a simple matter of rearranging certain scenes and getting rid of the separation part, but imho it really made all the difference to the ending.

There’s a ton of behind-the-scene cuteness that you can watch and also concerts with the cast in Thailand and Nanjing. VIP subscription to the WeTV app is $5.99/month and the Nanjing concert is for rent for 3 months at about the same price.  

The show also put out two official soundtracks, one for the vocals and one for the score. Both are available on Amazon and iTunes. For Amazon though, you can search under “The Untamed” but they did this weird thing where the vocals one is listed as “The Untamed (Chinoiserie Music Album)” (wtf) while the score is just listed as “The Untamed (Original Soundtrack)”.

Finally, most of the male members of the cast took part in a fan meet and greet at the start of the show, before it became hugely popular. The entire meet and greet is available on youtube subbed: The Untamed Fan Meeting

That’s it for The Untamed and MDZS. If you end up liking the novel enough to want to read more by the same author, MXTX-laoshi has also written two other BL novels, The Scum Villain Self-Saving System (aka “SVSSS” or “Scum Villain”) and Heaven’s Official Blessing (aka “TGCF” after its Chinese title). Both have been fully translated by fans (but always try to buy the original if you have the means, as a way to support the author!): 

SVSSS Translation: BC Novels Link

TGCF Translation chaps 1 - 24:  Sakhyulations Link

TGCF Translation chaps 25 - End: Suika & Rynn Link

As with reading any BL novel (aka “danmei novel” for Chinese BL books), please heed the warnings and if it’s not your cup of tea, just exit out of the page and move on with your life. No big deal, right? 

Anyway, hope all this info dump helps someone! If you’re brand spanking new to this fandom, welcome, and I’m so jealous of you! Would love to relive stepping into the world of MDZS/MXTX/danmei novels all over again since I feel like I’m already running out of stuff to read and I’m beginning to panic a little. 

Happy watching/reading/listening!  

[vanishingpod]

It’s Sunday, which means another round of Podcasts We Love at Team Vanishing Act! 

1) Unwell: We may be slightly biased because we’re also Chicago-based and therefore rooting for this show (and their actors) like CRAZY, but that doesn’t mean it is not ALSO one of the most phenomenally written and produced audio dramas we’ve ever heard. It’s a little bit of everything, a surreal modern Gothic, a mother-daughter tale, a small town mystery, a supernatural slow-burn, a haunted house, a dark comedy, and many other things we don’t want to spoil for you. It’s touching, thrilling, immersive, and funny all at once, and that SOUND DESIGN! There’s an episode set in the house during a storm that is just *chef’s kiss.* It’s amazing. Find them @unwellpodcast

2) Brimstone Valley Mall: Look, we love a well-executed joke about Hot Topic so we were bound to love this. Set in 1999 in a suburban mall, with an ensemble of misfit demons from Hell, this is a show that is so specific in the vibe it wants to create and so committed to immersing you in it, you can’t help but be won over from that awesome theme song onward. It has some of our favorite comedic punchlines in any audio comedy (there’s a line about Satan’s favorite dish in episode one that I’ll never get over, I was 100% in love from there on out). Anything less than full commitment from the actors would not have worked and I’m happy to report they are batting 1000 (is that the phrase? whichever one is the great one)--perfect pairing of material to artists in every way. We love. Find them @brimstonevalleymall 

3) Mockery Manor: SPEAKING of music! This is our current binge and holy shit, guys, every song legitimately bops. There is at least one fully-produced musical number per episode and they are each better than the last--where is this soundtrack and how can I buy it? Set at a theme park in Britain in 1989, this is an old-school murder mystery filled with vivid, funny, lived-in characters and paced exquisitely. The worldbuilding of the park is so incredible from second one, I feel like you can picture it immediately. There’s a sequence in episode 3 where a character takes a late-night turn on a ride called Heart of Darkness, and the combo of writing/acting/sound design/music made my jaw drop in how vivid the picture in my head was right off the bat. I’m rationing the episodes I haven’t listened to yet because I want them to last as long as possible. 

4) EOS 10: And now, moving from our new loves, into a recommendation of a favorite that was a gateway into the world of audio drama for us. It’s pretty well known in the community at this point, for VERY good reason, and for many of the reasons we love it (ragtag bunches of misfits is kind of a Thing for us). It’s got everything: doctors--in space!, gay space pirates, an exiled hypochondriac space prince, grumpy characters learning to accept that they have a heart and care about things while fighting it the whole time, a female character that is just absolutely fucking feral (come to think of it, these are all Things for us). Our producer, Lauren, has cried about this podcast a non-zero amount of times (ok fine you got me, a non-1 and non-2 amount of times too, let me live). It’s lovely and made us fall in love with this medium and for that alone, we can’t thank it enough. Find them @eos10podcast 

If you end up listening and love them (or already do), send a review their way on Apple Podcasts or Podchaser--we’ll be doing the same! And if you have any recommendations of podcasts, send them out way, we’d love to listen! 

[tsum-samu]

what it’s like dating them

w/ kuroo, akaashi, bokuto, and atsumu

just some random bullets on dating these cuties

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ʕ•ᴥ•ʔ authors note: these are really just some random thoughts i had abt these boys !! enjoy <3

kuroo

> i think everyone knows and collectively agrees that kuroo best boyfie

> he takes such good care of you , sick? here is some soup ! cold? here’s my jacket bby ! sad? he’s got his arms open to give you the warmest hugs and his phone ready to order some take out while you binge some random show/movie

> buT just as much as he takes care of you , you need to take care of this big baby bc he rlly does work himself to the bone with volleyball and school

> i think he’s the type to be possessive but not in an  overbearing type of way

> like he trusts you so so so much but if someone starts chit chatting with you and he doesn’t like the vibeSSssssS he’ll walk right on over to you, grab your hand, and yank your ass away

> his name for you n his phone is either gonna be “kitten” or “my dna helicase” there is no in between with this headass of a dork

> he loves cuddles, holding you is so healing to him honestly

> he probably gets up early and has a schedule he follows to a T but if you wake up when his alarm goes off and ask him to stay with you for a few minutes then he’ll most likely turn into the biggest simP and/or tease

> “yeth baby ofc i’ll stay and cuddle with you i love  you so so much”

> or

> “aww does someone need their strong boyfriend to hold them hm? you love me that much hm? i mean who can rlly blame you i am the best hm?”

> we hate it here we really do 

> there are gonna be times were its him, kenma, and you or the team hangs out with you both , and if you all get along ?

> he’s gonna get on one knee ! marry him ! 

> he loves his team and he loves you so the fact you all get along ? he loves it here, honestly 

> he really is just the biggest dork who loves and appreciates you with his whole heart pls take care of him

AKAASHI

> he’s so pretty 11/10 recommend

> akaashi is so soft with you

> he’s always there for you and is ready to take care of you 25/8 but that also means you have to do the same for him

> he needs someone he knows is there for him and will want to take care of him

> it is a mutual ting bby

> your nickname on his phone is probably something rlly soft and sweet or its just your name

> 10/10 has an album on his phone of pictures of you, some he took of your knowing but most of them are candid's

> he can’t help it the bby is just so whipped and your just so pretty, i mean how could he resist taking cute pictures of you ?

> doesn’t always initiate cuddles and stuff but loves when you do, he rlly likes when you lay/sleep on his chest bc it makes him feel strong and like he can protect through the night

> if you and bokuto get along he will 100% die for you 

> like dats my bby and my other bby getting along !! no one is doing it like me

> days where you both just chill in silence while you study are indeed a thing, and you both always help each other on topics you don’t understand

> so wholesome

> overall he loves you very much and is extremely whipped for you but its okay you’re equally as whipped

BOKUTO

> can i pretty please just say that i would die for this man? like i love you please lemme give you a kith

> your relationship would be so chaotic but so so wholesome

> always has a hand on you and just randomly throws out compliments 

> he rlly wants you to praise him so he’s constantly trying to impress you 

> akaashi tells you all of his weaknesses

> he definitely texts you at 3am to go grab food and watch the sunrise

> bokuto is such a good boyfie but there are times where he’ll need you to reassure him and take care of him 

> loves holding you and playing with your hair , its just so calming to him

> he likes to hold your hand all of the time bc it kinda grounds him and it just rlly makes him happy

> please love him i am begging you, take care of my bby for me

ATSUMU

> my other bby

> so wholesome but so fun

> you both roast each other all the time but he also praises you all the time

> “god you’re so stupid” 

> 2 seconds later

> “i love you so much your so pretty”

> i pray for you tbh

> omg omg he would probably make a rlly big playlist of song recs for you

> the playlist would be amazing and have like a 1000 songs on it 10/10 recommend

> he would walk up behind you and just hold you against him at the most random times

> def does not care what people think ‘nor does he care whos watching you both

> he’s so sweet and loving but he also has no filter and sometimes it can be curse

> but its okay just tell him if he hurt your feelings and he’ll quickly apologize and give you kiss on the forehead

> he just rlly loves you but sometimes he doesn’t know how to show it

> if you date him your guaranteed to besties with his brother, it is truly just facts

> all in all please love him and take care of him just as much as he does you

[grailfinders]

Fate and Phantasms #110.1: Hassan of the Hundred Personas #1: Asako

Today on Fate and Phantasms, we’ll begin our exhaustive look into the various lives of the Hundred Personas, and how best to represent them in D&D 5e. If we hurry we should be able to squeeze 3 Hassans in each week, meaning we’ll be done in time for Halloween!

We’re just messing with you- we’ll get all 100 Hassans into a 20 level build if it kills us.

Check out the Hundred Personas’ build breakdown below the cut, or their character sheet over here!

Next up: You have chosen...wisely.

Race and Background

The body that housed the Hundred Personas in life was almost certainly human, but we’re not limited by spritework like FGO is- that means we can account for all 100 personalities taking the reigns instead of just having one main character talking. To make this a bit easier, you’re going to be a Changeling. This gives you +1 Dexterity and +2 Charisma, as well as Changeling Instincts. This would normally give you two skills we’re getting anyway, but thanks to Tasha’s we can swap it out for Any two skills. As one hundred people, you have some leeway in what skills you pick, but I’d suggest focusing on intelligence and wisdom based ones- you’ll be good enough at the other skills to make up for it.

Of course the big selling point of the Changeling is its ability to Change Appearance. As an action, you can change your appearance and voice, as well as gender, race, height, and weight (as long as you stay the same size). You can’t turn into creatures you haven’t seen, and you can’t add or remove limbs (sorry if you were hoping for centaur Hassans). You stay in this new form until you change appearance again or die. Sure, in FGO all the Hassans are human, but why would that be the case in D&D? Toss some extra races in there for flavor, why not?

Similarly, you could probably pick any background you want, but for the sake of consistency we’ll get Acolyte again to match Cursed Arm. This gives you Insight and Religion proficiencies.

Ability Scores

We’re using point buy again, but for the exact opposite reason most people normally do- we’re not minmaxing, we’re maxminning for optimal coverage. When your specialty is Literally Everything, you can’t afford a negative modifier. Make Strength, Dexterity, and Charisma 13, and Constitution, Intelligence, and Wisdom 12. You’re not the strongest servants out there, but you are the most well-rounded.

Class Levels

1. Rogue 1: Technically there’s better classes for you to start than rogue, but they get a lot of skills, and skills are your bag. You get proficiency in Dexterity and Intelligence saving throws, as well as four rogue skills. Again, any skill are technically fine, but I highly recommend at least picking up Stealth and Deception. You’re all assassins, and if you can keep the fact that all 100 Hassans share a body a secret you’ll be a lot more intimidating.

To make your skill domination even more complete, first level rogues get Expertise, doubling the proficiency bonus of two skills. Again, I highly recommend Stealth and Deception for this. You can also make a Sneak Attack against creatures you have advantage over or are otherwise occupied as long as you’re using a finesse weapon, adding 1d6 damage to the attack.

You also get Thieves’ Cant, and unlike every other rogue we’ve made you can actually use it, since you’ve got 99 accomplices built in with you. Communication’s important in any relationship, especially when you can’t leave.

2. Fighter 1: You probably have some idea where we’re going with this. For now, you get a fighting style. Gozul the Strong isn’t that delicate, so grab Unarmed Fighting to get him some solid damage. It’s not synergistic, but these kinds of disagreements are inevitable in group projects. 

The good news is while one of you is out fighting, the rest of you can spend your bonus action on a Second Wind for a bit of healing once per short rest.

3. Fighter 2: Another benefit to being multiple people is ganging up on idiots who think they’re in a one on one fight. Thanks to Action Surge, you can take two actions in a single turn once per short rest. That’s almost like being two people, right?

4. Fighter 3: I can see that wasn’t enough for you. I get it, you’re a discerning customer. That’s fine though; feast your eyes on the Echo Knight! This subclass lets you Manifest Echo as a bonus action, creating a copy of yourself that you can attack through. I’d argue that as a changeling any one of your forms could still count as a copy of you, but that’s a fight you’ll have to wage with your DM. You can also Unleash Incarnation a number of times per long rest equal to your Constitution Modifier, adding an extra attack from your echo when you take the attack action. ...Don’t expect to use that too often.

Echos have an AC of 14 plus your proficiency bonus and 1 hit point, making them slightly harder to kill than you were in Zero. They use your saves, and you can swap places with them as a bonus action plus 15′ of movement.

5. Rogue 2: We got the obligatory subclass out of the way, so now we can focus back on your main class. Your fighter levels just gave you a great reason to use your bonus action, but your new Cunning Action gives you even more flexibility, letting you dash, disengage, or hide as a bonus action.

6. Rogue 3: We have one subclass, what’s the harm of another? As a Phantom rogue, your Dissociative Identity Disorder comes to the forefront. You hear Whispers in your Head, giving you one skill or tool proficiency that can be changed at the end of a short rest, giving you incredible flexibility. You can also use Wails from the Grave, which I couldn’t think of a good renaming for, to deal half your sneak attack dice in necrotic damage to another creature after using your sneak attack on someone. Imagine this as another you popping out to make the most of the opportunity. You can use this a number of times per long rest equal to your proficiency bonus.

You also get Steady Aim, exchanging your movement for advantage on your next attack. This uses your bonus action, but it basically gives you free advantage with your Echo. Remember, it only shuts down your movement. You’ve got 99 other bodies ready to go.

Also, your sneak attack reaches 2d6.

7. Bard 1: I don’t really have a flavor justification for this one. I guess you could get philosophical and point out how the self is just a story we tell ourselves to make sense of what we do, but that’s reaching. 

Anyway, you get proficiency in any one skill, Bardic Inspiration, some d6 you can pass to allies as a bonus action to give them a bonus on attacks, checks, and saves, and Spells that are cast with Charisma. 

Grab Minor Illusion for another way to make a copy of yourself, Message to keep things quiet on missions, Comprehend Languages because let’s be honest at least one of you probably has heard of Duolingo by now, Feather Fall and Longstrider to keep up with Cursed Arm, and Healing Word. Medicine is a skill in this game, so you’ve got to have a bit of healing.

8. Fighter 4: Use your first Ability Score Improvement to round up your Strength, and put the other point into Dexterity for later.

9. Bard 2: Second level bards get one of the three reasons we came here: Jack of All Trades. This feature adds half your proficiency to nonproficient skill checks, so the few things you’re not good at, you’re still good at. You also get a Song of Rest, adding 1d6 to healing done at short rests while you’re in the party. Not... totally in character, but it was free. Your friends can also add your Magical Inspiration to their healing and damaging spells now.

Speaking of spells- it doesn’t matter what you get this level, we’re swapping it out next level anyway.

10. Bard 3: Your last subclass is Lore Bard for three more skill proficiencies as well as Cutting Words, letting you spend a use of inspiration as a reaction to reduce an incoming attack by 1d6, possibly making it miss you. You also get another round of Expertise for two skills of your choice.

Your last spells are Enhance Ability to make your skills even more powerful, giving the target advantage on one kind of skill check for the duration. If your DM allows UA, you can also grab Mirror Image to make three copies of yourself that will take damage for you.

11. Fighter 5: Fifth level fighters get an Extra Attack with each attack action. There’s two of you fighting- two attacks should be the minimum.

12. Fighter 6: Use this ASI to become a Skill Expert. This feat rounds out your Dexterity, and gives you one skill proficiency and expertise with one skill.

13. Fighter 7: Our last stop in the fighter class gives you an Echo Avatar, letting you see and hear through your echo for up to 10 minutes. While this is effective, your echo has a range of 1000 feet. The Hundred Hassans made for an effective spy network in Fate Zero, and now they do in D&D as well.

14. Rogue 4: Use your next ASI to gain some more Strength so you and Gozul can tag-team enemies effectively.

15. Rogue 5: At fifth level your sneak attack grows to 3d6, and you can make an Uncanny Dodge as a reaction to halve the damage of a single incoming attack.

16. Rogue 6: You gain Expertise in two more skills, pick whichever are the most effective by this point.

17. Rogue 7: Your sneak attack is now 4d6, and you get a big bonus to your echo’s (and your) survivability thanks to your Evasion. When you make a dexterity saving throw to avoid damage, failures deal half damage and successes deal no damage at all.

18. Rogue 8: Use this ASI to bump up your Constitution for more health and another unleashed incarnation per long rest.

19. Rogue 9: Ninth level phantoms can make Tokens of the Departed as a reaction when a creature dies near you. While holding one of these trinkets, you have advantage on death and constitution saves, and you can destroy a soul trinket to gain one of two effects- either a free use of Wails from the Grave, or you can ask the spirit trapped within a question. I really don’t have a good way to flavor the latter option though-maybe a temporary form of introjection, but that’s really stretching. You should probably just use it to stab people more.

20. Rogue 10: Your capstone level is another ASI. Bump up your Dexterity for a higher AC and better knife skills.

Pros:

You have one of the strongest skill checks so far- if you pick your proficiencies the way I did in the character sheet, you’ll only have one skill with a modifier below a +5, and with Enhance Ability and planning, you’ll have advantage on any important checks. You can also use your phantom proficiency to pick up niche skills that other builds wouldn’t bother to have. Laugh all you want, but the one time you need chef’s tools proficiencies, you’ll be ready.

You are great at being a spy. You have an amazing stealth score, and can use your Echo Avatar to sneak into places and teleport a thousand feet at a time. You can also squeeze info out of the dead, and could probably disguise yourself as any random occupation you could think of.

Rogues and Echo Knights mix together very well. Your echos have a lot more survivability than regular fighters, and they help you get off your sneak attacks much easier, and the extra attacks don’t hurt either. You also get plenty of HP from your fighter levels, and can mix that together with a rogue’s evasion techniques. (Also, your echo has good AC, so your cutting words can be very effective to keep it around) 

Cons:

We’re one level short of Reliable Talent, which is a must-have for a skill focused build. I would almost recommend getting rid of the last fighter level to grab it.

Your spells are pretty useful, but you don’t have many spell slots, so you’ll have to be careful.

The game’s got way too many tools for one swappable proficiency to cover them all, so even with your best attempts, sometimes you’ll just be bad at something. The horror.