#1. try again. 2. drink water. 3. eat a mint. 4. I'm getting fat
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equalperson · 6 days ago
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sometimes I believe that My tendency to avoid telling My family when I'm having health issues is just the result of avoidant cognitive distortions, but then I actually do it, get told that it's "normal" and/or a lifestyle issue, and realize the real cognitive distortion was expecting help at all -_-
#personal#I'm struggling to breathe and My heart rate is high. inhaler doesn't help. go tell My mom about it and she says#1. try again. 2. drink water. 3. eat a mint. 4. I'm getting fat#and then last time I told her about this same issue she said#1. I have anxiety from too much silence (I'm auditorily hypersensitive? noise gives Me anxiety not the other way around)#2. I'm so sedentary that it's only natural that standing up would give Me tachycardia (I obviously stand up multiple times a day everyday)#3. I don't need a therapist (which I've been asking for) I need a physician#and it's just a ton of excuses to deny what I'm saying. because how is it just in My head but I need a physician?? make up your mind#am I crazy or sick. it's literally just whatever makes Me look like I need the least intervention in that moment#medical neglect is a bitch man. it's not even that she doesn't want Me to be healthy. she absolutely does#but she just never wants to believe that it's THAT bad. I can't have anxiety because it's just cabin fever#I can't be delusional because I'm just spiritually gifted. I can't have an arrhythmia because I'm just fat. so on and so forth#she constantly doubts that I'm doing anything for My health on My own (I literally asked for a fitness boxing game this christmas#and yet she doesn't believe that I exercise in My own time until I outright tell her)#and never believes that I'm suffering beyond something that can easily be solved. it's so patronizing#she acts like I've never heard of breathing exercises for anxiety or exercise for hypertension. everyone knows that!!#you acknowledge that I know so much EXCEPT when Me being knowledgeable on a subject would mean that I'd be able to recognize when My health#is failing. once she said she thought I had hypochondria as a child and I increasingly believe that influences how she sees My health today#she said she never told a doctor because she didn't want Me to be dismissed in adulthood and yet she does that same thing to Me#and honestly I do get anxious about My health! I developed contamination OCD when I was fucking eight!#but that doesn't mean that I'm just being compulsive whenever I suggest a need for medical/psychiatric attention!
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skinnyvanilladreams · 7 years ago
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weight-loss masterpost
This is what I've been doing for the past month! Of course I've been fasting too! I ate like this Mon-Thurs and then try to fast Fri-Sat-Sun, and if I wasn't able to fast I ate the smallest low cal non fat thing I could. This was not recommended by any doctor or physician, I am no nutritionist and I do not encourage what I'm doing.
1. Breakfast at 6.15 am: I drink a blueberry banana smoothie everyday, which is: 1/2 cup of blueberries(40cal) + 1/2 of a banana(52.5cal) + water(0cal). I add a spoon of collagen powder which is 40cal more just because I want to repair my skin, nails, etc.
2.Lunch at 2:40pm: Protein is key! Fish, meat and poultry should be there in your plate.(200-300cal)  No white rice, fried potatoes, etc, etc. The only sides I have are boiled sweet potatoes (1/2 sweet potato=68cal) and lettuce salad(8cal) with 1/4 of an avocado(80.5cal) and/or 1/2 tomato(22cal) with lemon and salt dressing.
3.Dinner: I usually skip dinner, because where I live its served around 7-8pm and its a small meal so I just remove the unnecessary calories from my diet. However, if I decide to have dinner I usually go for a 2 egg omelette (130cal) + a slice of edamame cheese (101cal) and i consume this before 7pm.
4. Water intake: Its usually between 1.2L and 3L a day! plus several cups of green tea, chamomile tea and mint tea with lemon and a sprinkle of cinnamon.
5.Excercise: I always try to take the stairs and get some of those 10k steps, but I do a 3h workout one day a week and I have divided it into three parts. When I'’ finished I take a cold shower so it burns brown fat.
a) Cardio: I start with the treadmill at its highest inclination and at a speed of 5.5-7 (45min), then the elliptical machine at the glutes setting (35 min), finally the Total Body Arch Trainer (30min), rest for two minutes between machines.
b) Machines: I bench press at 60lb (30x3rps), then the ab thingy (20x3rps), triceps (30x2rps), hip abductor (20x4rps), deltoids (25x3rps). It takes me about 40 to 45 minutes to finish with the machines.
c) core: I do squats with an 8kg kettle bell (20x3rp), russian twists with a 5kg circular thingy (25per sidex3rp), leg lifts (20 per sidex3rp), donkey kicks (20 per legx3rps), 1 min plank, double leg lift (20x3rp), and 1 min mountain climbers. Takes me around 30 minutes.
Finally, I would like to say that this is what worked for me and, again I am not a doctor or a weight loss specialist. I count every calorie I eat and do not wish it upon anyone stay safe and hydrated loves x.
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