#1 week of nonstop uni writing will do that to me

[mossmx]

want to draw but wrist hurts like hell

[selfcareparker]

(lovely anon) ok so this may sound so dramatic but; let me paint you a picture: i’m responding to your latest message, sitting on the edge of the sofa. i type in “lovely anon” into the search and see this longgg post come up and i’m like uhhh... i scroll down and see the people you tagged and literally. when i saw @ lovely anon. i . cried . like full on tears. my brother goes “what are you doing” “she tagged meeeee” and he continued what he was doing and didn’t care LMAOO but i was so emotional? i love and appreciate you too and aAH IM CRYING!! you’re just really sweet and i didn’t expect it at all and it was really lovely to be a part of something :’)

the kermit pic sent meee but yes yes yes!! when you start uni let me know, lol i’m so excited for you!! let me know how it goes cuz i’m literally hype hahah & yes we will be in our sad corners of the world, missing england but you’re right it’ll be sooooo worth it in the end!!! and oH i’m glad you talk to them lol i truly thought you like haven’t seen them/haven’t spoken to them this whole time😭 that would’ve been awful!

also i totallyyy get what your saying about the english speaking thing. and idk why you’re insecure (well i *knowww* bc it’s not your first language and you’re studying it in college so yuh) but your english is great :)))

lol yeah that makes sense.. my mom took french in college and she remembers NOTHING HDJSHSJ (the fact that you wanna learn MORE languages i- ahh i so admire you.. you literally know so many languages🥺) yea i mean you know a bunch of languages bc you know the base of words lol, but i wonder if because you know latin it’ll be easier for you to learn french? oh- oh wait you said it’ll be easier HAHHAHA

THERES SO MUCH EXCITING STUFF TO TALK ABOUT HDGSJSJSL it’s so wild to me that you can’t watch chaos walking :( i’m a professional hacker tho so i’ll try and find a way for you LMAO (by professional hacker i mean i literally have gotten multiple free trials and i’m pretty sure the hulu police are after me bUT ITS THEIR FAULT BC WHY IS IT SO EXPENSIVE???) i mean the movie was good? and cute? and funny? but yea don’t think it’s gonna be the most fantastic thing haha AND THE DOGGO AWWW (i saw it again today- or my today lol, saturday, aND THESE OLD PEOPLE CAME AND SAT IN FRONT OF ME AND MY FRIEND LIKE ITS A LONG STORY LMK IF YOU WANNA HEAR IT)

SHARK FILMS?!?!! PLEASE READING THIS I HAD NO IDEA YOU WOULD LIKE SHARK MOVIES TOO FHSKSHSHDJDJGAJAYSJS ok so i haven’t seen any of the classics (i’m working on it) but i would probably watch jaws to laugh at it? not like that lmao but like comparing it. OKAY BUT HONESTLY I BARELY KNOW ANYONE WHO LIKES SHARK FILMS AHHH OKAY im adding “the shallows” to my watchlist bc it sounds super good AND SAME AHSJD ANY BODY OF WATER IN A MOVIE I JUST KNOW ITS COMING LMAO watch me not go in the water anymore after seeing that picture HHDJSJ

WHEN I READ THIS I JUST GOT DONE TALKING TO MY MOM ABOUT THE MEG AND THAT SCENE WHERE THE SHARKKK JUMPEDDDD AND ATE THE OTHER ONEEEE AND THEN JONAS HAD TO DO- bro i cannot (i think that one is my favorite because i love me a bit of romance and the subtle romance hAD ME) 47 meters down PHEW could you imagine?? i try not to think too hard about it i’m like “don’t be dumb catherine, don’t put yourself in a dumb situation” (not autocorrect having “dumb bitch” ready i am not lying) and i literally understand... there is no other way to explain 47 meters down

i CANNOT watch horror movies, can’t can’t can’t, i literally hate them i cannot do it!!! the thrill is tempting and it’s cool in the moment but i cant lmao. i don’t have nightmares about scary things (for the majority of the time) but going to sleep i’m like oooohhhhhh shit 🥲 literally what you explained

music !!!! music !!!! music !!!! (u ever write a word and now it looks weird lmao) MY BROTHER DOESNT LIKE MUSIC AND ITS SHIT IM LIKE WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU- anyway, my music taste is all over the place i mean......... it’s crazy. earlier today i was listening to meghan trainor’s album “title” oUT OF NOWHERE, but just a few minutes ago i was listening to fall in love with me by earth wind and fire soooo lol .. megan is *chefs kiss*, i’m not familiar with stormzy🙈, harry styles.... IM SORRY IM THAT PERSON but i don’t listen to his solo music EEK i only listen to adore you... and not that frequently... the music video freaked me out... i like niall’s solo music a lot more, which i listen to a lot more. now. one direction. favorite. please & thank you. i have a playlist called “boy bands” and it consists of one direction and the vamps (obsessed with cherry blossom btw) but as you can see my taste is all over the place!! fr fr if i sent you what apple music has as my “favorites” it went from ariana grande to carrie underwood to glee (OBSESSED DONT LET ME TALK ABOUT IT) i mean please if you let me i will nonstop (hamilton HDJSH) talk about music all day😩 & NOOO UR MUSIC IS GREAT HAHSK IM NOT A BIG RAP PERSON BUT DOJA CAT IS MY FAVORITE!!

okay good, i’m glad :) i was just nervous that you did feel that way <3 and GOT IT HAHAJ healthy pressure is always good :’) my friend got me these pens cuz i love stationary and school supplies lol and was like “now you have to write something” soooo yea i feel that! and i saw you posted the ficcccccc literally so proud of you 🥺🥺 i’m trying to decide if i read it tomorrow or tonight..... sleep or a literal beautiful creation made by the sweetest person and is v v nice smut and college!peter and 4.7k...... sleep aint really calling no more.

GIRL ALL OF MY SENTENCES ARE TOO LONG HAHAHAH IN FACT THIS IS TOO LONG SOOO (also why am i 3 days late..😑) anywho it’s 1 in the morning so <33 lovely anon

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oh my god the fact that you cried nearly made me cry too😭😭🥺🥺 (also, your brother LMAO), i wasn‘t even sure if you‘d see it but i immediately thought of you so of COURSE i included you <333

the hulu police lsjsjaiaik, girl i was ready to get a hulu membership when i wanted to watch big time adolescence and i couldn‘t find it anywhereee, and when i got to the payment it said i need a bank account that‘s based in the US or whatever. like bro i was about to pay you!! but i was forced to find it somewhere (and i did, on levidia,— not that i‘ve ever used it because it‘s illegal 😤 i would never!!! i‘d rather support billion dollar companies and spend my money on watching films that i can find for free 🥰🥰🥰 not

i‘ve found chaos walking online so i‘ll watch it som time this week!! also YES TELL ME THE STORY

okay so idk if you watched/are planning on watching falcon and winter soldier but i watched the first episode the other day and they were speaking french (just a few seconds) and I UNDERSTOOD SOME WORDS DLDJDJ and i was so proud of myself. i‘ve only ever learned french with duolingo lol (i only do like 5 mins a day and that‘s why i was so surprised that i understood some of it!!). and yeah apart from latin i feel like italian, german, french and english are all similar in a sense.. i mean obviously they‘re completely different languages but for example there are some grammatical constructions in french that i think i wouldn‘t understand if i only spoke english? so when i translate those things into english you can‘t directly translate them bc you say things differently, but when i translate them into german then it makes more sense to me. idk that‘s something i noticed so i feel like if you already know multiple languages it‘s easier to learn another language compared to if you only know one language and are trying to learn a second one. even if the languages aren‘t similar then i think you get the hang of it easier.

ikd slsjsjs also i don‘t want you to think that i‘m a linguistic genius or anything lmfao, like i‘m only fluent in english and german and i‘m just a wannabe (ew that word) polyglot sksj (yes i had to google polyglot— i do think learning ancient greek would be super cool tho? like imagine studying latin AND ancient greek, whew). and honestly i don‘t think i‘ll ever be fluent in another language bc i don‘t plan on living anywhere other than germany or possibly england and i‘m not dedicated enough to properly learn any other languages esp if i don‘t have anyone to speak the language with. but i still try my best and i just love language/languages as a whole so yeah i‘m happy & just learning as much as i can dkdjh🥰

(I guess language/linguistics are/is my passion (which sounds sooo lame lmaoooo) and the word passion comes from the latin word pati (i think💀) which means to suffer, and in german passion is called Leidenschaft which basically means suffering too, idk why i‘m telling you this maybe you know it already. but ok dumb fun fact, in german you can make compound words with as many words as you like, and the longest official german word is Rindfleischetikettierungsüberwachungsaufgabenübertragungsgesetz which is a law for the monitoring of labels on beef... this is such a dumb fact but i think about that word like once a day idk why dodjsjsj so... 👁👄👁)

but i‘ll stop boring you with my linguistics talk because truly i don‘t know much about languages but i am interested omg i‘m gonna shut up now.

now water + sharks. (so in non-covid times i always go to croatia with my dad during the summer, and even before ever watching a shark film i was always kind of scared in water.. but after watching so many shark films wldjdj HELP Like you know when you go deeper into the ocean and you can‘t see or feel the ground/floor? anymore.. then i just start imagining sharks. like i can‘t help it i just imagine a shark sneaking up on me or feeling something graze my foot ABD I JUST START FREAKING OUT SSKJSHSJ. idk. anyway kdkdh i do love the ocean/swimming though but the older i get the more i realise how fucking scary the ocean is ( even if we’re gonna disregard sharks)

your brother... what‘s wrong with him? HOw CAN YOU NOT LIKE MUSIC LIKE WHAT THE FAWK

OKAY BUT SAME ABOUT THE ADORE YOU MUSIC VIDEO DLDKDJSJSKSLSLKSKSJSHSH and yeah i have to say harry’s style (styles lol) as a solo artist isn‘t reaaally my cup of tea, and i only like the popular songs from his second album and the first album is only good when i‘m in the right mood (haven‘t actually listened to it in a while though, but kiwi is one of my all time favourites along with only angel but i hate the start, like it takes 40 seconds to actually begin properly). i like mgk and because of him i watched the dirt which is a film about motley crue, and now one of my favourite songs ever is same ol situation and i‘m into rock now lol. +++ justin bieber. I had a justin bieber cardboard cutout thingy😭 i was the biggest Belieber on earth when i was 13-16, but i didn‘t like his last album and tbh he‘s become a bit weird lately, BUT OH MY GOD. i Listened to his new album yesterday and i‘m in LOVE with the song hold on

i really like niall‘s music toooo!!!! And doja cat 😌😌😌😌 And THE VAMPS OG MY GOD. i got to see them live bc they were the opening/support act for little mix and ajdsjskslslsjsjsj. (Also i love concerts, some of the best memories of my life are concerts, i‘ve seen nicki minaj live 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 and justin twice and my heart fills every time i think about how excited i was, it was my first concert ever (16th of September 2016 😌) and i was the happiest person alive seeing justin drew fucking bieber (even if i‘m not tooo sure about justin nowadays)

i have a confession? Idk what hamilton is. I mean I‘ve heard about it and i keep googling it but i‘ve never watched it (is it even a film???? or like a proper musical? also pls tell me you grew up with high school musical. i have a few friends who didn‘t and it makes me so sad 😭😭😭 hsm is the best thing to happen to my childhood , the sooooongs— i still listen to some of them every week or month lool they make me so happy)

(Okay wait i was about to recommend some stormzy songs but you said you‘re not that into rap so i won‘t dksksjl)

What you said about my fic AHSLSLSJB (i wasn‘t sure if you sent an ask about it earlier? idk that might have been someone else, so if it was (and you‘ve read it already) i hope you liked it sksjsj i was...... unsure about it. and i have this reeaaallly long peter fic that i started writing in december and that‘s the only peter thing i currently want to write but also i can‘t because idk how to continue kddjj.) but I’m definitely getting back into writing i have a few blurbs that i want to write so 🥰🥰🥰

Oh and pls as soon as you read this let me know: violet or yellow? (it‘s just a tiny thing for my new theme slsksj)

[saltine-kakyoin]

🎶 and jotaro and also kakyoin AND another character..whoever u want ;)

oho… you’ve sent me another message? you know what comes next bro, u brought this upon yourself….this is us now man

anyhow, AH. thos boys…god this one is gonna be so difficult because I have So Many Songs that are tied to them. as for the other character, i think i will do my boy sergio because i really need to share my brainstorming songs for him before i explode! :0 thank you again for sending these in, bro!! have a good night, ily! c:

this will be long bc i always ramble..i will be tagging this as long post for mobile gang!

Jotaro:

thom- i hate to start this off with a jotakak-themed song because i know some people Despise jk. i’m sorry for y’all who do, but ahh this song has been stuck in my head for days now! :’( In terms of the SDA, i always think of this song as like…jotaro’s bittersweet journey w his feelings for kak. it’s something about the like, ghostly windchimes in the beginning, the phone buzzing in the bg, and the “please don’t run away”s man, ahhh. I listen to this song a lot when brainstorming him coming to accept that friendship is as far as he and kak go. However,“ The pitter patter gave a rather rinse and lather feeling/ As opposed to shitty attitudes that made me bitter after laughter/ And I dearly regretted it” really makes me think of pt. 4 jotaro in any context. We only see the end result of his development from SDC, but like hhh… do you think he regrets being so gruff? I think of that 1 fanart where he’s looking at the group picture + hoping they knew he wasn’t annoyed by them (or something along those lines, i forget the exact line…ahh)

something’s missing- So, ofc not all parts of this song apply.. and truthfully, I listen to this song while thinking of the immediate period after the crusade in the SDA and how the crusaders are all left with this hole in them (..@kakyoin literally.. i’m sorry i had to. also, abdul is the hole). Out of all of them, though, I always think of Jotaro the most w this song- “My dad asks, ‘Were you okay out where you were stranded?’ How do I tell him that I wasn’t just okay… I was so much better?” LIKE DAMN THAT IS ONE (1) KUJO JOTARO… :( i think he comes back from the crusade and just feels.. severely misplaced. Going back to Japan and the girls following him to school every morning feels so alien to him.

tempest rhapsody- this song is just… *chef kiss* It makes me think of like. star platinum’s first manifestation, and of the emotions one would feel during a 50-day crusade to a place you’ve never been before, where you run the risk of death at least once a week…how would it feel to know if you got seriously injured in a fight, there would be a very real possibility that your *cough* dearly beloved *cough* mother could die? this song is my answer to that question

only in sleep- another choir song! i cannot help myself. This one is more for canon Jotaro. I’ve read a few fics about the universe reset where he’s reunited with the other crusaders one last time before everything becomes nil, and…..augh. “The years had not sharpened their smooth round faces, I met their eyes and found them mild — Do they, too, dream of me, I wonder, And for them am I too a child?“ is imo such a jotaro 4 am deliberation

softly- THIS. this was the Original jotakak song, no offense thom. i used to listen to this song on REPEAT while reading nessun dorma, ahhh. so much of the sda jotakak dynamic is shaped from that fic and this song, hghshg. Anyhow, now that I’ve worked on the development of their relationship in the sda, this song is most definitely a song for the jotaro who unknowingly pines in 3rd year and then comes to realize that ah…these are Emotions during uni. during their third year, jotaro and kakyoin do a ton of self-exploration, and spend more than one night floating in the pitch black void of the ocean talking about what they’re going to do after graduation with only the stars to accompany them. they lose this when jotaro goes to florida for uni + kakyoin paris, but they make up for it by calling each other all the time, so “Touch you softly I call you up late at night” made this song an instant hit in my book ghshghw. I adore this song, through and through. ;u;

post-published honorable mention bc i rediscovered him while i was workin on polnareff’s playlist!! DOLLY ZOOM is another really good song for pining jotaro. in the sda, he feels really Horrible about having a crush on kakyoin for a long time because he and his family (that is phrased weird, i am sorry) are the entire reason kakyoin got a hole punched right through his abdomen and spine. they’re the entire reason kakyoin spent months learning how to walk and use his legs again. he doesn’t do anything except bury his feelings because, to him, it’d be Really selfish to do otherwise. i listened to dolly zoom nonstop when i started writing Jotaro’s Decade-Long Yearn because it captures the guilt really well, ahh.

Kakyoin (it is 1:24 am as i’m starting this… let’s see how long i agonize over this part lmao)

ultraviolence- ahh, ze Mindworm Song. I really despise diokak and the fact that he had to spend like…3-4 months with the mindworm just chilling in his brain, but I can’t ignore the fact that he latched onto dio’s friendship and was initially elated to have that whole thing happen. It haunts Kakyoin in canon, and it Most Definitely haunts him in the SDA, and i think he and jotaro have a lot of conversations about how and why and what that whole experience was like. I always end up coming back to this song when brainstorming this year in the au. The beginning just sounds so lonely, and the background choir/ voices really give me the heebie jeebies. Then, there’s the build-up to the beat drop, which really make me think of like. what being mindwormed could feel like? And how it must feel to be so lost in that sauce that you become a passenger in your own mind, lost to the whim of one super manipulative vampire, augh. “You give me love, you know you give me love with your ultraviolet rays” ties into a few of FKA Twigs’ other songs where she sings about not being enough and really obsessively deriving love from someone whose attention is ultimately really harmful and unhealthy, and I think about that and Kakyoin a lot. :(

sound and color- so truthfully, this is my go-to song for any character that dies/almost dies and comes back, or goes through a Huge Life Change. kakyoin fits both of these bills to a T! this song makes me think of getting used to being around such a rowdy but tight-knit group of people who genuinely care about you All Day Long after spending your entire life in isolation. I always think of like, a happiness montage when the second half of this song comes around, and the montage i daydream about for kak during that section is *chef kiss* Sound + Color is like one of the best songs ever, and it’d be a crime to not have a kak setting for it. 

first love/late spring- fellas, here’s the kakyoin equivalent to jotaro’s softly. this song was IT, back when the sergio-divergent au and the “All the Crusaders Live” au were two separate things. back then, kakyoin and jotaro’s realization that oh, fuck, they really meant the entire world to each other happened much earlier in the plot. Looking back on that now makes me squint, but I do think that this song is still really fitting for kakyoin exploring those feelings- friendship is one thing, but romance is something entirely different and a lot more intimate. i think it’s a tug-of-war for him, between wanting to jump in to those feelings and wanting to run far far away from them because he doesn’t want to be wrong and ruin their friendship. good times in the kak hole

last words of a shooting star- I really love the bastard fucker side of kakyoin that is explored and celebrated in our fanon, but I can never shake the fact that some of his last thoughts were of his parents (and i think he was sorry for making them worry? which… baby…) and that his polite, “outwardly anxious” presentation was this big facade for like.. the Deep and Soul-Wrenching loneliness he felt because he was a stand user? The first stanza and “They’ll never know how I’d stared at the dark in that room/ With no thoughts” make me think of kakyoin deeply- if his family had never gone to egypt and he’d never met dio or jotaro, what would have happened to him? Who would he be? i’ve always been super attached to that part of kak bc fundamentally… I Relate. but also i am just fond of it because it makes me sob- he deserved so much better than to get murdered by the same man who manipulated his entire identity right at the climax of his character arc….some crimes can never be forgiven, hirohiko….

vertigo- i don’t listen to this song for kak often, but it is a Quintessential Kakyoin song. according to khalid’s twitter, vertigo is a song about “Overcoming overthinking. After every dark days, there’s a brighter outcome. Being at a super low place in your life and realizing that, there’s other people going through that same path you’re walking down. There’s always light at the end of the tunnel. It’s also a story about fear of abandonment.” which….Big Kakyoin Energies. The “Are we alive?Or are we dreaming?” part also ties back into the Kakyoin Parties in a Coma for a Month arc- your mind has a wild wild time when you’re in a medically induced coma, theoretically because it’s trying to fill in the blanks for all of the stuff you’re sensing? And coming out of a medically induced coma is a bizarre experience, where it’s hard to tell if you’re still in the coma and just imagining things or if you’re actually awake. Kakyoin has a mad time in the month immediately after SDC, one that i’m sure he doesn’t enjoy too much after the death 13 fight.

honorable mention goes to i am not yours- this has been a kak song to me for a long time as well. the context of the song is way different from my interpretation for this setting, but AH. I just think kakyoin really struggles to differentiate and understand romantic feelings. This song really reminds me of that struggle, and I think also touches nicely on like. the identity issue of it all too.. “yet i am i, who long to be” yanno? ; J ; it’s hard for me to explain

another honorable mention, my statue sinking. in the sda, after the events in egpyt, kakyoin is thrown into a coma for like an entire month while his body gets operated back together, and then he spends months in physical therapy learning how to walk w a prosthetic spine (kudos to cyborg speedwagon being a reverse engineering madman :D). i like to imagine that there’s also some degree of therapy going on this whole time, also. you don’t just get donuted + thrown into a coma for a month without some counseling to get you back on your feet..i think the lasting effects of dio’s influence are addressed here, but only briefly because it’s not something kakyoin is eager to explore. however, I think that this song captures the like... distress? i guess? of knowing that your life has been irreparably thrown off course because of dio. like yes, you met some really wonderful people that helped you learn how deeply healing friendship could be! but also.. you lost months of your life to mind control, and then another month to a coma, and then additional months to training your body to function again....there’s some psychological stress there. While I think that Jotaro and Polnareff are affected the most by the crusade, I think they all emerge from it with some degree of ptsd. Being targeted by complete strangers at all times of day cannot be good for your mental health, you know? Anyhow, I think My Statue Sinking captures that aftermath feeling really well. Everyone survives and recovers from the crusade, but there’s a part in all of them that is lost to Egypt. 

on to sergio!! (it is now 2:04 am lmaooooooo) sergio will be easy because I only ever listen to the same handful of songs when I’m writing him hdhgh

i will come to you- this is THE sergio song. i think of this song every time i write about him, whether it’s the “believe in me…” “also believe in me” lyric exchange that i imagine he has with both tomoko and holly; the “and i will pray to my father…my father…and he will abide” part being about him reaching out to joseph with his final breaths and spilling all of the beans about dio and begging him to finish things so that Tomoko and Josuke, the Kujos, and he and Suzi can be safe; the “foreeever……foreee-eever.. forever..” part being where he dies and his soul passes into the next realm.. “even the spirit of truth [golden prophet] whom the world [..yeah..] cannot receive, because it seeth him not [bc suad defects and buries sergio instead of bringing his dead body to dio]. Neither knoweth him, but you know him…for he dwelleth in you and he shall be in you [literally the entire joestar/kujo/higashikata family being so near and dear to him + his spirit being with them even after death]” and then, like.. george i, jonathan, and george ii coming to retrieve his soul during the “heeeee shallll beee in youuu” part… “i will not leave you comfortless. i Will Not leave.. You Comfortless… iiii wiiiill come…. to you.. to You” part being about his soul mingling within star platinum and crazy diamond because he has a Need, even in death, to protect them. UGH (also his essence being especially prevalent in crazy diamond, which is partially why its power is to repair things!! bc hamon! ; O ;) literally I have an Entire music video with sergio’s death set to this music. i’ve listened to it way too many times.

when david heard- so to be frank this is actually more of a joseph song, but it’s only a joseph song when sergio exists + gets murdered. :o i cried the first time i listened to this, and then months later i listened to it while thinking of sergio + like. sobbed fr fr. Joseph is asleep when Sergio calls him, so he gets sergio’s final message as a voicemail on his answering machine hours after the fact. the message itself is chilling because Joseph had no clue his son had gone on this huge mission by himself to kill Dio, and now he’s dead! however, it’s made even worse because Joseph wasn’t there to pick the call up and comfort his son in his dying breaths or do Anything. it’s just like Caesar, which is. god awful. it’s such a horrible realization because sergio, whom joseph named after what caesar wanted to name his own son, has been condemned to the same fate as his namesake. Thus this song- i’ve yet to come across a song that captures the feeling of hearing that kind of news so well. (also when i tag things as my sOOOOON or *cries my son in 8-part harmony a la whitacre*, this is the song i’m referencing :D)

zombies / terrified- ahhh, these songs capture the HORROR sergio feels upon sensing dio’s presence in Japan really well. (also “I’m going to eat you alive/please don’t find me rude, but i don’t eat fast food/ so don’t run too fast” is SUCH a dio mood…) Sergio maintains his composure about the Dio Dilemma for a good year before he flies off the handle, and his entire proto-crusade against the vampire is just. Laced with paranoia, even if he is learning a ton of useful skills. These two songs capture that feeling of something constantly watching/creeping up on you so well, and ever since i discovered them, I’ve listened to them for Sergio inspo.

the prophet- This is the only song I’ve done so far that the characters would actually listen to lmao. Sergio is a Huge fan of The Temptations, and his stand is actually named after this song! (+ the esoteric title for the hermit, which was really amazing luck on my end ; J ;) it also had a huge hand in figuring out what his stand power would be, the lyric that decided it was “God doesn’t listen to the words you pray; he hears what your heart has got to say.” However, the entire last stanza of the song ties really well into his character arc fhshgh. Also, this song just feels like it could Be the child of Bloody Stream, if that makes any sense. it’s so groovy and funky, but the lyrics are like big ominous lmao. I was super ecstatic to find this song- if sergio were to ever get an animation, this song would be the OP, yanno?

armageddon- This is another “this song would be on their personal playlist” song. Sergio’s got a lot of love for all styles of music in his heart, but jazz is his home base and always what he comes back to. I like to imagine that Lisa Lisa’s husband introduces Sergio to Wayne Shorter’s music at the age of like 8 or 9, and Sergio’s just. obsessed with the man’s music for the rest of his life. I really love Shorter’s explanation for the meaning of this song and its album as a whole: “What I’m trying to express here is a sense of judgment approaching - judgment for everything alive from the smallest ant to man. I know that the accepted meaning of ‘Armageddon’ is the last battle between good and evil - whatever it is. But my definition of the judgment to come is a period of total enlightenment in which we will discover what we are and why we’re here.” Like… wig.. I feel like that’s such big sergio energy. Armageddon itself also feels like a really nice ED- it’s lively, but in a good episode-ending kind of way. Do i dream of animating Sergio’s adventure one day? Mayhaps.

honorable mention goes to just my imagination/ my girl- We’ve covered that Sergio adores The Temptations, so it’s no secret that he would listen to these songs ceaselessly. however, i really like the broadway harmonies + instrumentals that they did for Ain’t Too Proud, so that’s what’s goin in here. these songs are THE tomoko/sergio songs…He loves Tomoko and the way she quips + teases + gets up to nonsense with him So Much. There’s a huge part of him that has No Idea what Tomoko sees in a music geek like him, but ughh he is so grateful that she likes him because she is a Goddess. he’s blessed yo..

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In this post, I’m going to cover all the most general information about how I prepared for the TestDAF and how the test was actually administered. 

This TestDAF is a language test, which serves as one of the acceptable means of certifying your German language ability for the workplace as well as Universities. I decided to take the TestDAF as opposed to other tests, which are considered to provide equivalent language certification (Telc, DSH, etc.) because I’d heard from German instructors that the TestDAF is the most reasonable of the options. The test is more straight forward, and you don’t have to prepare for as many tricks. 

I decided quite late in the game that I was going to take this test for one of the Masters program I’m applying for in Hamburg (Uni Hamburg), since this specific program (Kosmetikwissenschaft) is small, and therefore only taught in German and only allows students to start the program with the winter semester, this didn’t leave me many options for when I could take this test. I found out that I needed to prove my language proficiency by October, in the case that I’m given an acceptance, and after completing the test, it takes up to 6 weeks to get your results back. This meant that I could only take the test in May if I wanted to be able to submit my documents in time to apply for this upcoming winter semester. I looked online, and the the majority of the testing centers had already been filled, so I ended up having to travel to Halle (an hour away) in order to take the test. So make sure you sign up early! The seats fill up fast! After I paid the 200 Euro for the test, the clock started. 

When I had made this decision, I had about a month to prepare for the test, and this was basically my one shot for this university. So I asked my lovely instructor from my intensive language training, who also teaches a prep course for this test, which materials are worth buying and using for preparation. She recommended the Fit für den TestDAF book and the practice tests 1-5 from Hueber, as well as the Prüfungstraining book from Cornelsen. There are also 2 practice tests available on the TestDAF website complete with audio data for the listening comprehension and oral portions. 

Here’s how I organized my month of studying so I could be as prepared as possible with the time I had. I wrote out a studying calendar and attempted to write in the equivalent of one whole test (3 hours in total without any breaks) on every other day in the month until the exam, with the days in between being reserved for studying and bettering my recognized weaknesses. I didn’t end up really sticking to this schedule, since it was hard for me to find 3 hours chunks of time in my days, but it at least gave me a feel of how much time I reasonably had to work through the materials. 

The order in which I worked through the materials was optimal, in my opinion. My instructor recommended me this website/worksheet, which lays out the all-important Grafikbeschreibung redemittel. Being able to describe charts and graphs is a main focus in this test, as they’re trying to assess your readiness for the academic or professional world, so I read through all of these phrases and words and picked out the ones that I wanted to memorize/master for the test and wrote out sentences with them repeatedly as my first study task. 

https://www.wirtschaftsdeutsch.de/lehrmaterialien/redemittel-diagramm.pdf

 After this, I worked my way through the Fit für den TestDAF book in order to further practice these phrases/words. This book walks you slowly through the test and gives a lot of exercises so you can improve your test skills. In this way, the book gives a good introduction to the test and allows you to build your test taking strategy very early on. Because, at the end of the day, the people who correct this test are looking for specific signs and phrases so they can accurately place you, and if you don’t know exactly what they’re looking for, you won’t score very high. The exercises also offer many new ways to formulate the sentences that the TestDAF expects to see, so you’re able to show that you can vary your language. After you’ve built this vocabulary, grammar, and strategy through this initial worksheet and prep book, you can move on to solidify these skills so they come easily, and importantly, quickly to your pen during the test.

At this point, you should be able to recognize where your weaknesses in the test lie and therefore, what you should focus on. For me, the reading and listening comprehension were gravy, and also easy to score, so I was confident in my ability in these portions. The writing portion is difficult to score yourself, but easy to improve on in a short amount of time. The oral portion was the worst for me because of the way they administer this portion. In a room with maybe 15 other students, you all listen to the same radio playing the speaking prompts, and at the same time, you all speak your response into your personal voice recorder. This makes the testing situation very hard to simulate, and makes everyone quite nervous, since it’s so unnatural. In noticing this, I decided to focus on the listening and writing portions more so than the listening and reading portions in the following prep book.

I continued on to the Cornelsen book, which is much more hands-off in its approach--it focuses more on giving a lot of examples of the exercises more so than giving learning material. For this reason, it’s good to use this book as a way of honing the skills established with the Hueber book and the initial Grafikbeschreibung reference sheet. 

Once these material have been worked through, there are 5 practice tests from Hueber that are certified from TestDAF. As a side note on their quality: I come from a scientific background, so the diagrams they ask you to describe drive me crazy. You have limited time and they are very poorly labeled sometimes, making it difficult for you to be able to understand, let alone describe them in the allotted amount of time.

As for prep test tips, always work with a timer and stay strictly by this. So when the time is up, you put your pencil down and move on, just as you would have to during the test. I made sure to score the score-able portions of the test once I completed them and to go through the writing and oral portion afterword as well to give myself critiques. Of course these portions are very difficult to give an absolute score, but after completing the prior prep materials, you will at least know what is expected from these portions and will be able to recognize if you forgot a piece they’re looking for, etc. by going through this yourself.  This also means you should record your oral portions so you can listen to them afterword. Although this seems silly, I at least become noticeably more nervous when a recorder is switched on, and this showed in my results, so it’s good to get used to the presence of a recorder while preparing.

I left one or two days before the test for just relaxing and reviewing vocabulary and the scripts that I’d more or less prepared for the writing and oral portion. I also booked and Airbnb in the city I was taking the test in so as to avoid the stress of traveling before taking the test and any unforeseeable delays due to public transit.

Taking the test

I was sure to get a full night of sleep and bring some good brain food for the test, which you’re allowed to bring into the room with you. I brought some nuts (good for brain function) and a banana (easily digested sugars to keep your energy and stamina up!) as well as a bottle of water. They give you 15 minute breaks between each portion of the test, so don’t worry about drinking too much coffee before the test  and having to pee or something. You’re also able to go into the room where you keep your personal belongings in this break time in case you want to bring anything else, but you’re not able to access your phone during the entirety of the test. 

One thing I did not anticipate in the reading portion of the test, is they did not time the different portions of the reading comprehension, but instead gave you 50 minutes in total to complete all three portions, and an additional 10 minutes to indicate your answers on the answer sheet. Because the reading portions increase in difficulty as you go through, this meant I could use the time I saved in the first task on the last task, which I liked. At my test center, they didn’t have a digital clock, which I didn’t like so bring your own watch if you prefer digital clocks, like me, but the test administrator did give time warnings.

The listening portion is played nonstop from a CD, so the timing of everything is exactly as you’ve practiced in the previous prep material.

You then get a 30 minute break so you can eat, decompress, review (if you’d like), and mentally prepare for the rest of the exam.

In the writing portion, you’re given 5 minutes to read the prompt and then 60 minutes to write. If you’ve done all of the prep material, you know this is often not a lot of time, depending on what kind of Diagram they give you to describe. Being prepared, however, you should be able to write about half of your introduction during this 5 minute prep time, and there’s no rule against you doing this. For this portion, I had memorized my catch-all introduction sentence and transition sentences, as well as the Grafikbeschreibung grammar/vocabulary and well formulated sentences for the argumentation. The faster you can write out this sort of fill-in-the-blank formulation of the paper, the more time you have to figure out what opinion is the easiest to write a lot about and how best to formulate it for your paper. At the end of the day, they don’t care what you argue, they care what words and grammar you use to argue it and how you formulate your argument. 

Once you finish the writing, you have another 15 minute break, or longer, depending on how they split everyone up for the speaking portion. As I found out through some online research, TestDAF does not listen to your answers for all of the Mündlicher Ausdruck Aufgaben. They actually start by listening to your answers for the TDN 5 tasks, which are Aufgaben 4 and 6. Only if they aren’t sure after listening to your answers for these two Aufgaben do they listen to the TDN 4 Tasks. For this reason, I worked especially hard on tasks 4 and 6 and had memorized a format to put my answers into so I could be sure that I covered the prompt well. I would also recommend bringing earplugs during this portion if you think the surrounding chatter will disturb you. I actually found it to be quite comfortable, because when a group of people all speak at the same time, you can’t make out the words of a single person, and your brain therefore can’t be distracted by any single word from a single person.

My overall impression of the test was that it was way easier than all of the practice materials. The difficulty definitely changes with the exams, so you can’t count on this, but they chose topics that were very easy to grasp, the diagrams were all very easy to understand, none of them had sources at the bottom that you had to write out, which saved you time, and in the writing portion, there were no opinions written out that you had to reformulate and write into your paper, so Nominalisierung and Verbalisierung skills weren’t needed. If these features will stay the same in future exams, however, I have no way of confirming, so it’s best to practice these skills nevertheless. 

If you have any additional questions about my experience, feel free to ask!

LG Megan

Update:

I got my results from the TestDAF back on July 4th, and I passed with better scores than I was expecting!

Here’s the breakdown of my scores:

For those of you not familiar with the grading structure, I’ve included the schema(tic) below:

Truth be told, after I wrote the written portion and there was discussion among the other test-writers about the topic and what they wrote, I realized that I straight up did not read part of the prompt and did not explicitly answer that portion of the prompt because of that. I’m guessing that that’s at least part of the reason I received a 4 on that portion, as well as the fact that I didn’t have time to read over what I wrote and catch the dumb mistakes before handing in my essay. But hey! That just goes to show that you can make those mistakes, and if you write with a high enough level of organization in your paper and include the language you know they’re looking for, you can still get a score that all German universities will accept!

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Thanks for tagging me @madameazzure XD I do wonder what 20 things I can think of?

20 facts about me

1. I am literally unable to last more than 2 hours without reading a fic, unless I’m sleeping. It doesn’t matter if it’s original work or fan fiction, Korean or English.

2. I enjoy tea(chamomile and peppermint especially), but I only drink coffee during exam week. I’m told that I treat coffee the way people treat medicine - an unpleasant but necessary invention.

3. I enjoy people’s company in small doses - any longer than an hour of nonstop company and I need some distance, even if it’s just for a minute or two.

4. I have a brown poodle named Choco, short for chocolate. She’s absolutely adorable, especially when begging for treats XD

5. I am completely and utterly useless when it comes to household chores, such as cooking, cleaning, doing the laundry, etc. The only thing I can manage myself is doing the dishes and making some pre-packaged food.

6. I joined an orchestra club at uni this March and started to learn how to play the clarinet. It’s one of the best decisions I made this year, because I really enjoy it and it helps me get rid of stress.

7. I moved around fairly often as a child, since our family mostly lived in various apartments for two-year leases. I went to four different elementary schools as a result, the longest being three years and the shortest being one semester.

8. I was low-key bullied as a child (teasing, being excluded, etc. but no serious physical harm or property damage) and went to a counselor for two years in middle school for some therapy. It did wonders for me, don’t ever feel too ashamed to go to a therapist.

9. I don’t swear often, but when I do I can get pretty vicious. Not so much the words itself, but according to my friends, the amount of disgust and loathing that literally pours out from every syllable is quite impressive.

10. I adore dolls and stuffed animals. My favorite birthday/Christmas present of all time is a huge stuffed banana my sister got me, it’s just the right size to cuddle.

11. I have a tendency to have one (or two) Absolutely Favorite Character in any fandom I join. Like, to the point that I have a completely irrational hatred for any fic/headcanon that portrays said AFC even slightly negatively, even if they have valid points. Examples include Captain America, Dick Grayson(Nightwing), Zuko (ATLA), M-21 and Shinwoo (Noblesse), Takeru Takaishi (Digimon), Yugi Mutou AIBO (Yugioh), etc. If I tried to list all of them I won’t be able to sleep tonight

12. I also have a tendency to have a character or two that I just dislike for no reason, or at least not enough reason to dislike them that much. I don’t even know why, in fact some of them have almost all the characteristics I love in my AFCs and have plenty of fans, but I just can’t stand them for some reason.

13. I believe very much in don’t-like-don’t-read. Partly because I’m aware of my above tendencies and know my opinion can be very unfair at times, and partly because to me fandom is a place to enjoy myself, so getting stressed out because of fandom defeats the point.

14. I’m almost completely uninterested in most forms of SNS (Twitter, Facebook, etc.) to the point that I nearly missed some important notices from the student council when I just got into uni.

15. I prefer skirts and dresses to pants and shorts whenever possible. I do wear jeans when I’m in too much of a hurry to get on my tights though.

16. I enjoy translating when I have the time, although I prefer to stick to the nuances more than with the actual wording. I’m itching to get back to work, but balancing pre-med classes, two different tutoring jobs and three different clubs has been making it difficult DX

17. I absolutely despise cucumbers, especially the SCENT. I have to forcibly suppress the urge to throw up whenever I can smell it. I don’t mind pickles since it doesn’t have the scent.

18. Some of my favorite tropes in fics include time travel, switching with AU selves, and family-of-choice being protective of each other.

19. I’m told I have a very easy-going personality and don’t hold grudges, but that’s mostly because I believe in the Nara philosophy of that’s too troublesome. That’s a Naruto reference for those of you who don’t know Truth is, I can hold a grudge for a long, loooong time if you make me actually enough to do it.

20. I used to write gen drabbles in Korean, but stopped because I felt discouraged when the fandom generally seemed to give much more attention and comments to badly written shipping fics than better-quality genfics.

Tagging @darkicedragon and @earl-of-221b

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PSA: School is a thing (pls read)

HELLO MY FRIENDS<3

UNFORTUNATELY....I’m still young enough to be in school. In uni specifically and that means death nonstop work pretty much. Also, it’s rushing period for my sorority right now so I’m at events ON THE DAILY its exhausting omg

OKAY TO THE POINT: Ships. Super fun, I honestly love doing them so much my imagination just GOES, but I tend to write loongggg ships/imagines. This means that ships take a long time. What I’m proposing is a change to the Rules. 

Ship Request Rules Update*: 

1. Submit a short or long description of yourself in either my ask or submission. 

2. INDICATE IN YOUR SUBMISSION WHETHER YOU WANT A “LONG” or “SHORT” SHIP*

3. Long ships are essentially what I’ve been posting so far - if you request one of those be prepared to wait a week or two at most. If more than a week has gone by shoot me a message like wtf okay maybe nicer than that but yeah. If you’re good with a short one though, which is me just saying who I think, (with a gif cause dats my life) zero explanation, then that’s cool and you’ll get yours the same day you submit it. 

If you’ve already submitted as of Jan 16th 2017 5:03pm (aka rn) then I’ll assume you wanted long. SO SORRY BUT PLEASE BE PATIENT WITH ME <3

xx

-Em