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medicinemane · 11 months ago

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You know what sucks, is that I can finally get my hands on a big enough meal that I can actually enough I might actually get full, keep going till the point where it makes me sick enough I throw up a little (thankfully just like a teaspoon, not the whole thing)... and my stomach's still fucking grinding in hunger even as it's also cramping from having eaten too much

I legit think what's happened is all the years of not managing to eat properly have both put me at such a food deficit it'll take so much more than a normal meal to catch up, while my stomach's also shrunk a bit due to the lack of proper meals

Just kinda sucks, you know?

#and by lack of proper meals I mean that some days all I'll get to eat is like...#1 hardboiled egg; 2 strips of bacon; and 1 english muffin w/ jam #and I mean that that's it for the whole 24 hours #so you can see where my theory on this comes from; it's not out of nowhere #eat so much I puke a little; and yet if anything I feel hungrier than before I ate #I assume cause my body is going 'oh man; food; now that you have it I can pump up the hunger chemicals'#'I'd been going light on them cause I knew you weren't eating and it wasn't gonna help; but yeah! more of that'#and it's like sorry man; both still have trouble with eating; and also you fucking got upset with how much I fed you and puked #if I had my shit together the answer is obvious; small meals throughout the day #but I don't have my shit together #anyway; add it to the list of reasons it would be better if I was gone

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