#...i went off topic and didnt mean to make a whole analysis but oh well

[arcanavoid]

About Julian

In my post About Dorian I mentioned how people in the fandom typically reduce the M6 into one or two personality traits. I’ll be talking about Julian today and the fandom's treatment of him!

I'm going to try and keep this factual and not opinionated, nothing like “he should only be like this” and more like “this is what he is in game, but people show him like this” 

It's gonna be a long post so if you don't want to get into the topic, or don't feel like reading something long then go ahead and scroll by! I don't mind! 

And if you want to make this a civilized discussion then i don't mind talking and hearing others points out either!

So let's go!

Julian is a Doctor who went to Parka to learn medicine and got most of his experience on battle fields while he apprenticed under Nazali. He started up his own clinic in Vesuvia and ended up being hired by the palace to work on the red plague cure, eventually treating Lucio himself. 

After the apprentice died he was stricken with grief, eventually he had an affair with Asra but it didn’t exactly last. He soon found a cure in the form of killing Lucio through sickly hallucinations of the hanged man. 

Julian is a smart man, who often blames himself for things that were not his fault, even putting himself at risk with no evidence simply to save others or because he feels guilty. He loves people with his whole being and yet doesn't trust himself to be around them as he thinks he’ll hurt them with again no evidence. 

So tell me why most of the Arcana fandom will portray him as, for lack of a better word, idiotic and whoreish. 

I know Nyx Hydra poked fun at Julian a few times, mentioning that he likes to use leeches or make him kinky, but that is simply not his whole personality.

Yes, he can be flustered easily, and easy to arouse, and a masochist. But he is also lovey dovey, and soft and mushy and loves with his whole heart not just his dick.

And he literally went to school, i know its a big joke that he simply doesn't know what a medical school is but he literally went to one… and even if he didnt and there's no evidence of that he was at least mentored by Nazali who definitely did go to school. 

Now again i'm not saying he can't be horny, oh on the contrary he is horny, for someone he loves, not just a stranger. And by all means he's not the smartest man in the world, he actively struggles to comprehend magic and the Arcana realms but that's because he is smart with science and medicine! 

And yes you can write porn without plot with him, he doesn't have to show off his undying love in every single thing he's in. and yes you can make him marvel and question magic and still show his smarts in reality. He literally tries to use logic in the tower's realm and figures out that the realm is looped by testing out his hypothesis. 

All I'm saying is that a lot of people reduce his character when he really is rich in personality, and hopefully this will help bring some light as to what his character might look like more fleshed out. 

Another point I want to touch, is Julian as a background or side character. I’ve written a fanfic that was focused on my Mc, Asra, my friends Mc, and Julian. But my friends Mc and julian were supporting cast, so Julian wasn’t as fleshed out as Asra, but i didn’t reduce him to only horny or kinda dumb whenever he was “on screen” his traits just didn’t show as much as it would if he was a main character.

So what should we take away from this? 

Well, Julian can be horny and isn't the smartest man in the world, but he is much more than that! He's loving and cares so much about the people close to him, he's smart and doesn’t know much about magic but is willing to try and figure it out with the knowledge he has. He gives his whole self to someone, his heart and body. And he does not need to constantly show these traits in depth especially if he's mostly a side character in someone's story. 

Julian is a lovely character, and I would love to do an analysis of him after I re-do his route, but I think this is good enough for now.

Of course you can all do what you'd like with him, but when it becomes prevalent that the fandom is mostly thinking of him in a reduced state it becomes a little saddening, and it's good to remind ourselves that he's not all horny and unknowing! 

Feel free to give your reasoning for making him more horny, since i’ll be honest i don't think as many people think they’re dumbing him down. If anything I think Lucio might be dumbed down more, but I definitely notice the dumbing down of Julian too.

[jessieyardley]

Astro fanatic

So recently.. I have been crazy about astrology. I mean I have been truly studying it. I did hit a point where I just find it too complex for me. That pissed me off. And that episode about his fake age in a way added to it too. But its just so me that I need to get it figured out. So being a google expert.. I did manage to go pass that hurdle.

It has been surreal. I mean I didnt know how close this astrology could really have a break down of my character. I sort of understood myself. My weakness as well as my life purpose. I finally understood what was my issues in the past. Its so enlightening that I felt its as though its a religion. Lol.

I cant say that it's spot on but the general gist of things are there. I have this fire inside of me that kept me going all along. I think thats the Aries fire. I used to hate being an Aries because that makes me a fiesty girl but now after the analysis, I realized its the Arian spirit that keeps me alive. That wrapped up all my weak pieces and protected me. That kept me going despite hanging by the thread.

All I can say is that.. You have no idea what I have gone through in life. You cant see whats hidden behind my sweet smile nor my air of confidence at times. My mentality have went through hell and back again. Am I still sane? I dont know. I guess nobody is, nowadays.

Back to the topic, and I always thought my appearance sorta portray the Aries side of me like a trailblazer that why sometimes I turn heads. Well, its actually the Taurus rising sign in me. Thats why I never really like bold dressing or red color like an Aries. I resemble the bull, ruled by Venus. So I have this earthly quiet presence with a graceful elegant walk. I know I sounded like bragging but please theres so many pretty young things around. What I am saying is that its my sensual nature that attracts people. Not my looks. I never find myself pretty. Attractive yes but I dont know why do I appeal. Maybe its the vibe.

I remember I made a splash with my online profile by using the word sensual to describe myself. Apparently men dont know the meaning of this word. I think 99% thought of sexual and that got them real excited of the prospect of bedding me. Sensual gotta do with physical pleasures not limited to sex. I am sensual becos I feel so much more than an average human being. When I am happy, I am at my top of my world.. When I am down, its just like I am crashing down. Simple joys like eating my favorite dessert just makes me so happy. It can really make my day. The whole freaking day becos I used all my senses to just devour it. A simple movie touches me because I feel deeply for the characters. Even Toy Story could do that to me. I just feel so much. And that's not just the Taurus in me.. I have Venus as my chart ruler and she is in Pisces. So I am an emotional train wreck. Oh boy. Theres just too much weak pieces inside. Thankfully I have both my sun and mars in Aries. Thats the life saver that makes the fiesty part in me. Thats the part that makes me feel like a Superwoman from the Amazon. And the final piece of the puzzle is that my destiny lies in people. I will find true fulfillment in work, in my career. People would energise me. So it really feels like Superwoman needing to blend into mankind. Lol.

It sounds silly that I spent so much time reading on Astrology but its really cool. I feel like I am looking into myself while I was piecing everything together. I still cant make sense of it all. But super fulfilling.

I actually wanted to know the compatibility between us but I realized what is the point when I dont understand myself. And what is the point in knowing about us when its intangible.

I have come to a point I dont wanna think anymore nor act like I am ok with this situation between me and him. It has come to a point that I think its going too far. I dont know exactly what's going on over there and our connection has always been important to me. Maybe not to him. It comes to a point we ain't getting any closer. We dont even have regular communication that I think its getting absurd. When I needed someone, I dont think he is around. I dont have a shoulder to lean on to. And I never know how it feels like. And who am I to make demands? So ironic.

I wanna defy my neptune in 7th house. I wanna conquer the demons. I wanna say no. Its enough. I shall not let myself be in disillusion anymore. I want my badass Aries back to show me the light. It will hurt because I feel so much. But its ok. Nobody died from pain in the heart. I always survive for another day.