#... idk why i said 45 hours i meant 48. 24 x 2 = 48. but it could also be 45 š
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they should invent a trauma therapy that is instant and takes no time and is not painful at all. in fact it should give you ten orgasms in a row.
#borbtalks#less than 45 hours until my first session with an IFS therapist#and im shaking like a chihuahua that's going to the vet#one thing i am freaked out about: you can't really heal in the same environment you were hurt in#like teehee yeah i don't think they can fix me until im no longer regularly being told that im a horrible mean person who's always wrong#... idk why i said 45 hours i meant 48. 24 x 2 = 48. but it could also be 45 š#all this trauma makes me so fucking stupid 75% of my brain power goes to 'uh oh gotta watch for mommy feeling bad :('#but in every single person around me.
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(completed) acowar liveblog
ACOWAR LIVE BLOG (SPOILERS OBVIOUSLY)
spoilers will be ahead... you have been warned
feel free to message me to talk about the book!
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5/1/17 11:22pm- someone help me I've literally preordered the ebook and the hardcover (which hasn't even shipped yet ugh) and I'm so preparedĀ
5/1/17 11:31pm- I've read the first 8 sample chapters so. many. times... i'm ready for the real thing now pls thx bye
5/2/17 12:06am- IT TOOK TILL 12:06 FOR THE EBOOK TO RELEASE OMG MIDNIGHT RELEASE MY BUTT SMH
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chapters 1-8: i kinda like jurian actually (maybe ill regret saying that idk), lucien being protective of elain is making my heart warm, tamlin makes me wanna kill someone, feyre shouldve cut iantheās throat tbh, the twins give out such weird vibes, AND OMGĀ rhys and feyre sending images of themselves sticking their tongues out is my moodboard i love it so much
chapter 9:Ā āBlood rubies or no, you will always have one friend in the Summer Court.āĀ My throat bobbed. āAnd you will always have one in mine,ā I promised her.Ā She knew which court I meant. And did not look afraid. I LOVE ALIS OK SHE IS ACCEPTING AND PROTECTIVE AND AMAZING
ianthe needs to get her filthy hands off of lucien before i strangle her
LUCIEN AND FEYRE GOING TO THE NIGHT COURT TOGETHER HECK TO THE YESĀ
chapter 12: @luciens brothers can you go die pls ok thx bye
chapter 13: CASSIAN IS OK AND SO IS AZ ADHEIOFHJKFAJ MY LIFE IS SLOWLY PIECING ITSELF BACK TOGETHER
āi am the high lady of the night courtā hECK YES YOU ARE
the tender cassian and feyre hug made me sob even more and then the mor hug hauidfghuajkshcdfa the feels
chapter 14: I AM SOBBING I AM S O B B I N G AT THIS FEYSAND REUNION HELP MY POOR BROKEN SOUL
also omg just imagine lucien watching this reunion bc i think his expression would be absolutely priceless
chapter 15:Ā āI was in love with Feyre,ā Rhys said quietly, ālong before she ever returned the feeling.ā whats that noise??? oh yeah its just the sound of my heart breaking no big deal
āI revealed the mating bond months laterāand she gave me hell for it, donāt worry.ā hAĀ
LUCIEN CALLING AMREN A CRANKY OLD AUNT OMG
chapter 16: poor nesta and elain omg noĀ
i really need to know whats going on between nesta and cassian bc theres def something there hehe
chapter 17: MOR AND CASSIAN AND STICKING THEIR TONGUES OUT TO EACH OTHER TOO NOW OMG FIRST FEYRE AND RHYS AND NOW THEM WHAT IS HAPPENING
chapter 18:Ā ādefending the female he lovedāĀ PLS JUST GET TOGETHER ALREADY @MOR @AZRIELĀ
āour familyā MY HEART IS MELTING HELP I JUST WANT MY BABIES TO BE HAPPY
āIt was the first time you had looked ā¦ peaceful. Like you were indeed awake, alive again. I was so relieved I thought Iād puke right onto the table.ā GUYS RHYS CARES SO MUCH ABOUT FEYRE LIKE PLS REALIZE HE WAS SO ECSTATIC THAT SHE LOOKED ALIVE AGAIN HE WANTED TO PUKE BC HE CARES ABOUT HER SO. FREAKING. MUCH.
āI will fight with everything I have, too, Rhys. Everything.ā why do i have the feeling this is foreshadowing something that i am not going to like at all
chapter 19:Ā āWhy should I be scared of an oversized bat who likes to throw temper tantrums?ā this is how true love starts out 400% you go nestaĀ
chapter 21: oh dang it here goes the nightmares starting up again
chapter 22: feyre sees the bone carver as their son omg what can this please happen
chapter 23:Ā āNothing about Nesta could frighten me.ā *cue me audibly going awwwwww*
chapter 24:Ā āShe was the most beautiful female heād ever seen.ā This seems to be a common way of thinking when people look at their mates hehe throwback to acotar
az is such a bean like who else is awesome enough to wait 500 years for the girl he lovesĀ
chapter 26: AZRIEL PUTTNG HIS HAND ON TOP OR MORāS DURING THE MEETING WITH KIER OMG WHY MUST SHE REJECT HIS TENDER HAND TOUCH
chapter 27: mor being depressed bc of what she witnessed at the meeting makes me wanna cry
omg the inner court arguing what is this
chapter 29: tbh az reminds me of myself so much and i think we have the same MBTI personality type((:
chapter 30: the heck is hybernās little minions doing in velaris nonunion go home you aren't allowed here
chapter 32: NESTA IS A SEER WHAT DOES THIS MEAN
chapter 33: āHe did not glance back at Elain. Did not see the half step she took toward the stairsāas if sheād speak to him. Stop him.ā elucien for rulers of the autumn court pls
chapter 34: varian warning amren??? they're friends?? so they keep in touch?? hmmmmmmm sounds suspicious(((;
chapter 36: KING OF HYBERN VS RHYS OMG WHAT AM I ABOUT TO WITNESS
oh jk he wasn't really there oops
chapter 38: I think tarquin should forgive them especially since they came to his rescue but hey thats just me
chapter 39:Ā āAnd it was precisely because of it that I said, āI love you.ā His head lifted, eyes churning. āThere was a time when I dreamed of hearing that,ā he murmured. āWhen I never thought Iād hear it from you.āĀ
nesta being worried ab cassian ahhhhhh
chapter 42: nesta being named emissary omg i love it
āAnd to my eternal shock, a smile tugged at Nestaās mouth.ā ahaha
GAMBLING ON THE FIGHTS AT THE MEETING AHAHA WHY AM I NOT SURPRISED AT ALL
chapter 43: this viviane girl seems cool.. i hope she doesn't end up stabbing my babies in the back:)))
ew no i was perfectly fine with having tamlin absent for the remainder of the book
same @feyre who is 500% done with tamlin and his crapĀ
chapter 45: NESTA STANDING UP FOR CASSIAN AND SASSING OUT BERON IS THE REASON IM STILL ALIVEĀ
chapter 47: I'm beginning to really like helion
chapter 48: too bad i already saw spoilers so i knew helion was luciens dad smhhhhhhh
ok but like if nesta thinks something is wrong, shouldn't you have learned by now that something is usually wrong???????
wow would ya look at that...something was wrong *scowls*
chapter 52: where the frick frackle jensen ackle did jurian come fromĀ
chapter 53: ok but i totally called jurian being good
....tamlin still being a tool i seeĀ
chapter 55: they keep mentioning their dad so i have a feeling he's in trouble/being held captive
chapter 56: nesta helping heal cass omg yes
YES MY GIRL SURI
chapter 58: I've never wanted ianthe dead more,,,,WHO DARES SHOOT MY GIRL SURI HREIAOFHJAKEF FIGHT ME
chapter 60: i literally bawled so much when suri died omg i sounded like a dying horse
chapter 61: this episode of honestly hour features feyre and mor going head-to-head about decisions and relationships... stay tuned for the next episode
chapter 62: amren and varian kissing hm how do i feel ab this
chapter 63: ELAIN IS AN ACTUAL SUNSHINE WHO DARES TAKE HER AWAY (of course its az my little bean who notices she's gone)
also I'm betting ten bucks lucien will find her and save her (prolly not gonna happen but it would be cute if he did)
chapter 64: EW SHE HAS TO BE IANTHE WOW THATS UNFORTUNATE
rhys andĀ feyreās goodbyes felt more like a pep talk than a sad goodbye but thats just me
ok thanks for saving feyre @tamlin but for the record i still hate you
chapter 65: omg nesta hugging feyre and all the sisters being all nice and cuddly makes me so happy
chapter 66: the moriel shipping part of me is very sad but yunno maybe this means i can keep az for myself (or elain can have him idk which direction sarah will take this) and mor can be eternally happy((:
sooooo does this mean elain x az is now gonna happen bc like az is gonna need someone to help heal the hole in his heart and elain is such a sweetie but what about lucien????
chapter 68: but are we ever gonna know what feyre saw in the mirror?
chapter 69: tender az and elain moment omg that was so cute i love my smol beans
āI would have waited five hundred more years for you. A thousand years. And if this was all the time we were allowed to have ā¦ The wait was worth it.ā AWEEE
rhys and his lil speeches to everyone dang what is this
chapter 70:Ā āAnd then Nesta began screaming. Not in pain. But a name. Over and over. āCASSIAN.ā IM SUCH NESSIAN TRASH IDOFHAJDKFA
chapter 71:Ā āThis was it. The last moments ā¦ the last time I would see them all.ā nothings even happened yet and I'm already crying
āHe told me that heās got three daughters who live here. And that he failed them for many years. But he would not fail them this time.ā well shoot i have no words rn and tbh i kinda forgot their dad existed the past few chapters
chapter 72:Ā āShe wrapped her arms tightly around Cassian, those gray-blue eyes bright, then they were gone.ā THEY GIVE ME LIFEEEE YESSSS
chapter 73: OK AMREN WHAT ARE YA DOIN???
chapter 74: ....welp... bye bye mr archeron thanks for saving my babies and also wHERE THE FRICK DID YOU COME FROM?? nesta and elain and feyre being sad is making me sad
OK WHY IS CASSIANS WINGS GETTING HURT AGAIN??? i feel like this is sarah starting a new thing likeĀ āhey! lets just end every book withĀ cassianās wings getting ripped to shreds!!ā
āI have no regrets in my life, but this.ā His voice shook with every word. āThat we did not have time. That I did not have time with you, Nesta.ā FRICK OMG THIS IS IT. THIS IS THE MOMENT I BECAME COMPLETE NESSIAN TRASH. AND THEN THE KISS. OH MY. I CANT. I JUST LOVE THEM SO MUCH.
and elain coming to the rescue omg heck to the yes
chapter 75: nesta stabbing the king is tHE BEST. i can't just feel the pure rage and emotion radiating out of her as she twists the blade in his neck. think of the people she's doing it for. her dad, her sisters, her new family, cassian. this scene gives me so many feels
amren saying she's glad she met feyre awe
chapter 76: AHHHH RHYS IM SOBBING NO FEYRE HDAUKHJD AHHHH WHY DID RHYS DIE ON PAGE 666
chapter 77: feyre screaming for rhys nononononono i feel my soul shattering
rhys was DEAD and he comes back making a JOKE....why is this not surprising
chapter 78: lucien is back ahhhh it feels like he was gone for the whole book tbh
yes drakon and miryam hauifheajkdfhajfha
chapter 81: RHYSANDāS POV YESSSS
talking aboutĀ feyreāsĀ ābeautiful laughā ahhhhhh they're sooooo cuteeee
chapter 82: i LOVE the fact the book ended with them all peaceful. they deserve it. i love everyone. i am happy. goodbye.
#sage reads acowar#acowar liveblog#acowar#acowar spoilers#a court of wings and ruin#a court of wings and ruin spoilers#nessian#acotar#acomaf#a court of thorns and roses#A Court of Thorns and Roses Series#a court of mist and fury#bookĀ liveblog#sarah j maas#feysand#feyre#rhys#rhysand#cassian#nesta#elucien#elain#suriel#amren#mor#sage reads ya
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HAMLET (PART 1)
pairing: daveed x reader
warnings: swearing ?? honestly idk also itās written like text format ig??
words: 1153
summary:Ā āGood luck with Hamlet, Daveed.ā Daveed texts the wrong number and for some reason, he keeps texting.
notes: this kinda fics are a Thing in AO3 so i was like,, letās do it fuckers anyway hereās the mess i created also its literally 2 am will i ever go to sleep at a decent time
request
bold is reader
italics is daveed
regular is rafa
THURSDAY
(9:03) Fuck I want to audition for Hamilton
(9:03) I donāt know if I should do it tho
(9:04) Help
(9:25) Go for it I guess
(9:25) But I donāt know who you are why are u asking me this
(9:27) Rafa??? its literally your best friend?? Daveed???
(9:31) Not Rafa bud Iām sorry to burst ur bubble
(9:32) Good luck with Hamlet or whatever tho
(9:38) Sorry, new phone. I mustāve written Rafaās number wrong
(9:39) Did,,, did you just call it Hamlet
(9:39) I canāt believe this
(9:50) Idk what Hamilton or Hamlet or whatever is, Daveed
(9:54) Itās like a musical
(9:54) About Alexander Hamilton
(10:00) ā¦.
(10:00) A musical about one of Americaās found fathers?
(10:02) Yes! It sounds fun and I wanna try
(10:08) Jesus Christ who wrote it
(10:15) This friend of mineā¦ Lin Manuel Miranda
(10:26) I think he wrote In the Heights
(10:26) Thatās cool
(10:30) Yes he did in fact write that
(10:36) Is it going to be on Broadway?
(10:40) Hopefully! I want to audition for the off-Broadway version rn
(10:40) Wanna see it? ;)
(10:49) Delete that winky face
(10:50) Also he wrote In the Heights
(10:50) So this new Hamlet musical must be great
(10:55) Hamilton***
(10:55) God Iām sure itās gonna be great
(10:55) It has hip-hop and rapping and everything
(10:57) Good luck with Hamlet, Daveed
Ā (12:34) Iāve been trying to figure your number out for like five hours
(12:35) I literally gave it to you???
(12:35) YES but your handwriting is literally like hieroglyphics or some shit
(12:36) ANYWAYS THING IS what if I audition for Hamilton?
(12:40) That musical you told me about?
(12:43) YES THAT ONE
(12:44) Iād say go for it, bro
Ā (16:34) I decided Iām going to do it
(16:36) Wrong number again
(16:37) Oh no Iām just updating you. I talked to Rafael and he told me I should do it
(16:40) Huh, you got his number right this time?
(16:40) Also, do what?
(16:42) Hamilton!! And yes, it took me around an hour, but itās not my fault he canāt write
(16:44) Ah, Hamlet
(16:44) Good for you, I guess
(16:47) Why do you keep calling it Hamlet
(16:48) Who hurt you
(16:54) Why do you keep texting me, Daveed
(16:59) If you donāt want me to text you, why do you keep answering? Itās not my fault you want to talk to me but wonāt admit it
(17:03) You want me to stop answering?
(17:03) Thatās perfectly fine with me
(17:10) Iām
(17:10) I was kidding
(17:15) Oh now youāre living me on read?
(17:16) Fine.
Ā FRIDAY
(3:10) So are you going to answer ever again
(3:10) Because honestly you seem cool
(3:11) Are you even awake
(3:13) What even is your name
(3:14) Iām calling you Hamlet
(3:15) Because you WONāT stop fucking calling Hamilton that
(3:16) What the fuck ???
(3:16) Itās three in the fucking morning ???
(3:16) What the fuck are you doing
(3:17) Why do I feel like you donāt like me texting you
(3:18) ITS THREE A FUCKING M
(3:20) U sound mad
(3:20) Technically itās seem not sound because I canāt hear you but
(3:20) You know
(3:22) Go to sleep, Daveed
(3:23) HA so you remember my name
(3:24) Itās not that hard to scroll up
(3:26) I feel the love
(3:29) Good night, Daveed
(3:29) Good night Hamlet!!
(3:30) Donāt call me that
(3:32) Right
Ā SUNDAY
(7:21) GOOD MORNING
(7:23) Blocked
(7:23) Reported
(7:23) Why are you up?
(7:25) One, please donāt block me. Two, I have work!!!
(7:30) Nice. Want to hear a fun fact? I donāt.
(7:30) Why are you texting me at 7:30?
(7:35) Because I am exited!!! Iām auditioning for Hamilton today
(7:37) Sorry, I meant Hamlet** ;)
(7:40) Are you making fun of me
(7:40) Whatever, Iām going to make pancakes.
(7:40) Good luck with Hamlet, Daveed
(7:42) Is that your go-to phrase
(7:45) It is now
Ā (14:29) Fuck Iām about to do it??? Audition, I mean
(14:30) Oh my God. Where are you??? I need moral support
(14:35) Alright fuck Iām going to do it literally in five seconds pLEASE wish me luck
(15:01) OK I donāt know where you are
(15:01) But I did it and I think Iām having a stroke
(16:45) Oh shit sorry I was at my friendās house
(16:45) How did it go?
(16:47) I donāt know??? They told me they would call
(16:48) This is my first time doing anything musical theatre-like and Iām so nervous
(16:49) Like, was it good enough? I mean, I donāt know? Iāve been having a breakdown for the past hour
(16:50) I bet it was great
(16:50) I hope you get the part, Daveed
(16:52) I hope I get it too
(17:00) You will
Ā (21:10) Do you think I can do a decent French accent?
(21:19) I donāt want to be mean or anything, but why do you keep texting me?
(21:19) Also, where is that question coming from?
(21:23) Does it bother you? That I keep texting you, I mean. Also, I just realized I auditioned to play Marquis the Lafayette, and heās French. If I get cast Iām going to have to do an accent even when I sing!
(21:30) I think you could definitely do it, Daveed. And it doesnāt bother me, Iām just asking. I donāt really know who you are.
(21:42) Alright so my name is Daveed. Iām from New York and Iām really cool, obviously
(21:50) If you feel the need of saying youāre cool, youāre definitely not cool
(21:50) Also, youāre from NYC? Huh, me too
(22:07) Shut up, I am cool.
(22:15) Sure, Jan
(22:19) Did you just sure jan me
(22:20) I think thatās what I did, yes
(22:28) I canāt believe I just got memed
(22:32) I canāt believe you just said memed! What does that even mean?
(22:35) When someone uses a meme on you??? You know, memed
(22:48) Jesus Christ are you a twelve year old
(22:48) Youāre twelve and you auditioned for a musical?
(22:57) I am NOT twelve years old
(22:58) Are you?
(23:04) Iām not, Daveed. Stop stealing what I say
(23:10) Nah
(23:10) I guess Iām going to start saying āGood luck with Hamlet, Daveedā too
(23:13) Iām copyrighting that
(23:16) Good luck with that!
WEDNESDAY
(18:38) IM ANNOYING I KNOW BUT AHHHHH
(18:40) Umā¦
(18:40) Ok I should explain that
(18:42) You shoud, Daveed
(18:45) I GOT A CALL TODAY AND
(18:46) GUESS WHAT
(18:48) Iām going to say you got the part just because you seem pretty excited
(18:52) I AM EXCITED
(18:52) I GOT THE PART
(18:56) Thatās great!
(18:57) We start rehearsals soon
(18:59) You got cast already, but Iām going to say it anyways because itās kind of a tradition now
(19:00) Good luck with Hamlet, Daveed
(19:01) Thank you. Really
#what the fuck is thisjfdsk#daveed diggs#daveed diggs x reader#daveed x reader#daveedfics#hamilcast#hamilcast imagines#hamilcast x reader#mywriting
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