#-ote how and why the fuck would a THOUGHT send me to the deepest recess of hell. like wtf i dont deserve that. i have been told im a good p-

[rainbowgod666]

PISSCLAIMER.

Now that i have your attention with the word "piss": below the cut is my fucking VENT POST. Yeah i made one of those, fucking fast upon the eternal proof that I Am Very Dumb.

I have fucking ASPERGERS. So take everything you read with this in mind. I may have brain problems but this is just a report so that people STFU about my mental health.

To future me: be aware that This Is Not A Place Of Honor. I know you will want to read this and i Hope to all the italian youtube pantheon that you fucking WONT unless you have rebuilt the strong mental walls we had before. Dont go near the Elephants Foot IRL. You are better than me. So you will understand. Fallo per te e per tutti noi. Fallo per la tua famiglia, per il tuo futuro, e per la tua salute.

AND FOR ALL THE FUCKS YOU OTHER PEOPLE CAN CARE ABOUT: USE THE ASK BOX TO ASK CHARACHTERS FROM BASICALLY EVERY POPULAR GAME EVER. THATS WHY I PUT IT!!!

Honestly i think i should stop using the 2 tags on this post (at least for my personal shit) because i need to close this once and for fucking all

All of this happened because i separated from my (then) girlfriend, one day then looked at the Qxir "codex gigas" video, looked at how he represented the devil telling the little monk how to make The Bigass Book and i thought "that hing has 2 tongues so hes probably a good kisser" realizing a second later that thats le foken devilé. Like holy shit. It was Genuinely Traumatic. The only abject terror i felt after that was almost a year ago and it was when i got stitches on my hand because i was careless playing on the beach.

When i kept having The Thoughts i was fucking TERRIFIED. And because it DID happen that they "went away" (only to come back later) i am still scared

Do you even know how fucking terrifying is looking at something and thinking something Really Bad? And dont you pull out the whole "brain cop" thing, cause in my case, it was a stitched together abomination in my brain made out of biblical creatures, mostly demons, who could not get out and started harming me. I dont give a tenth of a trillionth of a SHIT what You say i had to do.

I genuinely thought I had a brain tumor

So yeah. If youre wondering WHY am i so unhinged on the internet? Well thats because here is the ONLY PLACE LEFT where those pesky "consequences" and "responsibilities" wont subjugate me like the cringe equivalent of emperor nero (which btw, is apparently why the number "666" [before i came up as a kid and fucking STOLE IT] is associated with Very Big Bad Hell Shit).

I am still confused as to WHY did i suddendly become "religious to the point of legally being american". Will i ever find a thicc lively girl to kiss with tongue and to shower with love and affection? Fucking hopefully. Is all of this caused by stress? Possibly. How old am I right now?

NINE-FUCKING-TEEN

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