#*hands u these dichotomy-esque thoughts* for u MJ :]

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rant abt aruyuki i want ur thoughts 🤲

AHA…. Aru is completely at peace with the fact they don’t think Yuki could ever love them to the point where when Yuki starts initiating physical contact with them (ie goddamn. Holding hands.) they just kinda lopsidedly smile & mentally go “I’m thinking too much into this aren’t I” meanwhile Yuki’s well aware of the fact they’re goddamn enamored with him but he’s not aware of his own feelings ala saying aloud to Hinata “I think about kissing them a lot but I mean who doesn’t” and Hinata responds with “literally nobody. Nobody Yuki. Get help.” And when Aru finally hits the portion of their life where they realize “huh. I don’t think it’s ‘normal’ to feel as though you possess no connection with humanity as a concept. Also there feels to be a chasm in the very core of my being that is only filled with the love I possess for my friends & well aha…. Mostly Yukiteru Amano” it’s also about then when it hits Yuki that oh shit. He’s kinda sorta in love with. Them. But he still thinks they’re unattainable thanks to their intrinsically unearthly & inhuman nature. But for once his doubts don’t stop him thanks to the fact that he’s more than aware of them being in love with him as well so there’s “no real risk.” And Yuki doesn’t really hit on them because he doesn’t know how to for one and for two the only times he “hit on” Yuno was to attempt to keep her mentally stable before she realized she was in fact using Yuki as a living coping mechanism & suffering extreme comphet. So he just kinda starts to actively try to talk to Aru more & Yuki’s, ironically enough, naturally a physical type of guy which he didn’t even known until the whole “nooo my new lesbian best friend faked her death in a park but it’s ok we’re now all besties :)” fiasco went down & he obtained friends. So while Aru’s trying to be extremely respectful of Yuki’s space bc they don’t wanna make him uncomfortable, Yuki will just walk up and be like “hey *takes their hand in his* how’re you doing” anddddd. Aru pauses blushes and goes “well enough” thinks “don’t say it don’t say it don’t say it don’t say it” and then accidentally says “I love you so uh. This is great.” And Yuki turns bright red and against his better judgement goes “fucking sick your feelings are returned” with Aru literally blinking twice before saying “holy. Holy shit. Damn you’re telling me those kisses meant something” and Yuki shuts his eyes and goes “and I was somehow unaware of it at the time? Yea. Yea.” “Cooool…… btw you are like. My strongest connection with my humanity my love for you gives my life meaning beyond giving everything I can for the sake of others happiness. I love you dearly intimately intrinsically and uh… can? I hug you?” “Oh you can kiss me even I think” “cool. Epic. Sexy even” “if you say pog im going to kill you” “alrighty I can respect that, I mean—“ anddddd Yuki kisses them silent before burying his head in the crook of their neck & saying “and would you do me a favor & not just show up nearly die for me and vanish for a while. Please.” “I suppose I could work on it, just figured you didn’t want me to hang around beyond my usefulness” “you fucking idiot, I need you. Please don’t be an untouchable light in the distance for a while. Please remain my personal star. My guardian angel, even.” “Ah… of course. My apologies, my dear Yuki. My very love that grounds me.” “Jesus Christ do you have to be so poetic right now” “you called me your guardian angel I’m just trying to keep the vibe going” “yea that tracks.”

And from there on out Aru doesn’t nearly die for love’s sake and only appear when requested, instead they kinda. Don’t leave Yuki’s side, which is what they truly wanted to do from the start but they figured Yuki wouldn’t be extremely fond of it. Like to the point of they share the same couch every night just bc Aru sleeps better on the couch. Like the second they become Official after months of “I love him soooo bad but I’m probably thinking too deeply about his actions (has been thrice kissed by him in the heat of the moment)” “huh idk how I feel abt them but I wish they would stop throwing their life between imminent death and me. And stop giving me so much space. And start initiating physical contact with me again. (Has kissed them thrice over in the heat of the moment)” Yuki’s like “ik you’re probably trying to be super respectful of my boundaries especially after me & Yuno went through. Uh. That. But please please please hug me & kiss me and hold my hand. Aru. Aru I’m touch starved for genuine love and u possess a lot of it” and after the thirty seconds it takes them to process this they go ^_^ and bury their face in the crook of Yuki’s neck. And awkward Yuki doesn’t know what else to say so he jokes “uh.. somebody call heaven because an angel’s missing” and Aru is dead silent for thirty seconds before chuckling “that’s awful. Please never stop talking.”