#*a million tiny pancakes pour out onto you and crush you*

[kandidandi]

*Bites your fridge*

you’re meant to bite the stuff inside, idiot

[foxskinxx]

Not the One Part: 2

L; Summary: The reader has a massive crush on the Winter Soldier but he has eyes for a red headed

Warnings: CUSSING. Angst. 

Author’s Note: I’m sorry I haven’t updated this sooner but I went to my boyfriends’ house and didn’t have access to the internet. 

You woke up with your eyes glued shut with dried tears. You sighed as you thought about what happened 3 months and you clutched your chest as you thought about Bucky’s confession. Your eyes started to sting with new found tears as they burst through your eyelids that were still screwed shut but that didn’t stop your heart to continue to break. You breathed through your nose and let it out of your mouth as you tried to lessen the pain by breathing slowly.

You began to get up from your snug bed to get to dressed. You began to dress into some leggings and your favorite tee. While you did your routine for the day, you thought about having to deal with Bucky and Natasha. You sighed as you dried off your face with a towel. 

You stood face to face with the back of your door as you tried to gain some type of courage to walk out that fucking door. 

You can do this. You finally grasped the handle that opened the door and lead you out into the hallway. You shut the door and your feet began to guide you to the main kitchen to start your day with some fruit. You began to feel better being somewhere other than your room that’s filled with anguish and dullness. The smell of fresh brewed coffee began to seep through your nose as you got closer and closer to your destination. 

Steve. He was the first person you saw when you entered the kitchen and you were glad. You saw him leaning against the counter and reading the newspaper as he waited for his coffee to be done brewing. 

Your feet began to steer you to your best friend and suddenly you were rushing into his arms, catching him off guard. He felt a heavy pressure pressed against his side and when he looked down he saw his best friend. 

“Y/N.. I missed you.” Steve finally came down to reality and enclosed you into a warm, safe hug. You snuggled into his chest with your nose and it made the soldier chuckle at your behavior. 

“I missed you too Stevie.”  You stayed in his arms until you heard someone clear their throat and even then you didn’t waver. You didn’t care who it was so you gripped Steve closer. 

“Y/N, doll, would you like some fruit and pancakes?” You pulled back far enough to look at him in the eye and nod cheerfully. Steve told you to sit at the kitchen island as he prepared everything. You sat down on Steve’s stool as you thought about how good his cooking is. 

“Bucky.. would you like some?” At Steve’s comment you stiffened and looked everywhere for the assassin until you saw him right beside you, well there was three stools between you two. You quickly ignored the tightness in your chest as you saw the man and began to pretend he wasn’t there. 

“Uh sure.” 

Silence filled the air as the three of you minded your own business. When the tension got too thick for Steve, he asked you to put on a song of your choice. He knew how to brighten your mood up and you love that about him. You hummed in agreement as you scrolled through your phone and your phone began to connect to the speakers above the kitchen. You picked one of your favorite songs, Dynasty.

You began to sway softly and silently sing the lyrics. When you got more comfortable with singing around the two, you poured your heart out into the song. 

Some days it's hard to see If I was a fool, or you, a thief Made it thru the maze to find my one in a million Now you're just a page torn from the story I'm living And all I gave you is gone Tumbled like it was stone Thought we built a dynasty that heaven couldn't shake Thought we built a dynasty like nothing ever made Thought we built a dynasty forever couldn't break up The scar I can't reverse When the more it heals the worse it hurts Gave u every piece of me, no wonder it's missing Don't know how to be so close to someone so distant

Steve finally fished the food and began to dance with you, he grasped your hands in his and swayed with you.

And all I gave you is gone Tumbled like it was stone Thought we built a dynasty that heaven couldn't shake Thought we built a dynasty like nothing ever made Thought we built a dynasty forever couldn't break up It all fell down, it all fell down, it all fell, it all fell down, it all fell down It all fell, it all fell down, it all fell down, it all fell down, it all fell down It all fell, it all fell down, it all fell down

You began to sing from the heart as Steve let you go and hummed softly as he stood back and watched the music move your heart. 

And all I gave you is gone Tumbled like it was stone Thought we built a dynasty that heaven couldn't shake Thought we built a dynasty like nothing ever made Thought we built a dynasty forever couldn't break up It all fell, it all fell down, it all fell down It all fell down, it all fell down, it all fell down It all fell, It all fell down, It all fell down (And all I gave you is gone) It all fell, it all fell down, it all fell down Thought we built a dynasty forever couldn't break up

When the song came to an end, you jumped due to Steve’s clapping startling you. You smiled shyly as you remembered that you just full on sang to Steve and Bucky. You tensed as you slowly turned your gaze to the soldier sitting still in the stool. Your face became red as a tomato when you made eye contact with Bucky and you quickly broke your gaze away from him to turn and grab your food and head to the lounge area. 

When you sat on the couch in the lounge, you quickly tried to calm yourself down from embarrassment. You turned enough to catch a glimpse of Steve and Bucky talking to each other about an upcoming mission. You released a rather large bubble of air you were holding and you began to grow somewhat comfortable. You began to eat your pancakes and blueberries as you found some peace in being alone in such a large room. 

You heard some shuffling and clatter of dishes being topped on top of each other but you didn’t give it any thought as you were too deep in your own mind. You sighed softly as you thought about how everything went down hill in the past 4 months. 

Your vision became cloudy as you felt the warm salty tears slide down your face and you felt your frame become smaller as the minutes go by. You placed your plate of half eaten food to the side as you brought your knees to your chest and placed your chin on top of your knees. You thought about how you were going to continue missions or even be in the same room with the couple. 

Your whole being shot a foot in the air when you heard a loud crash coming from the kitchen. You turned your head enough to see who was the cause of said crash. 

“Блядь.” Fuck.

Bucky sighed and ran his hands threw his tangled mess he calls hair. He leaned down to pick up what looks to be like a pile of broken plates. You sighed and slowly stood up to help the irritated soldier even though your mind told you to run the opposite direction. When you got close enough to pick up some of the pieces, you squatted down and began to gently pick them up. You didn’t look up at the soldier or even stop when he began to look at you funny when you began to give him help. 

As you found that all the pieces were picked up you stood straight up and walked to the garbage can to throw the sharp pieces away. You got all the tiny pieces and large ones into the trash can with your sniper eyesight. You sighed as you found that you indeed stepped onto a tiny piece. You raised your body temperature in your foot and began to melt the piece into nothing. 

During the whole time since you stepped into the kitchen until this point, he has been staring at you more than normal. You ignored his constant stare and resumed your position on the couch before you were startled. Again setting your chin on your knees with your bottom planted on the couch as though you didn’t even move, you heard someone entering the kitchen. 

“Доброе утро.” Good morning. 

Natasha sounded more cheerful than any other day and you didn’t bother to even wonder why. Their relationship disgusted you and you hated that the man you fell in love with was in a relationship with someone like Natasha. Not that you didn’t exactly like her but they don’t love each other. You know this because they only want the other when they aren’t comfortable in a situation, they don’t want to get hurt or be alone so they are with each other in fear of being left alone. 

This should make you feel a little relieved right? It doesn’t because the man you love still isn’t in your arms and on top of that he bluntly told you he despised you. 

“Доброе утро.” Good morning.

Bucky didn’t hug or make a move to touch her and you relaxed a tiny bit but they were still fucking each other late at night. A stray tear escaped your eye as you found yourself thinking that they don’t care about your love but the one thing they do care about is being alone. He knows that you LOVE him and he turns his cheek as though you disgust him, like you’re the most ugliest thing in the world. 

“Что она здесь делает?” What is she doing here?

“Стив приготовил нам завтрак, и я думаю, что она все еще ест.” Steve made us breakfast and I think she is still eating.

“О, хорошо, ты говорил с ней еще о том, что знаешь?” Oh, well have you talked to her yet about you know?

You exhaled through your nose as you were getting irritated about them talking about you in Russian and their conversation. You tried to block their voices but you couldn’t, Bucky’s voice was like cocaine. You couldn’t get enough. 

“Нет, я буду сегодня. Ей это не понравится.” No, I will tonight. She won’t like it.

“Ей нужно преодолеть это.” She needs to get over it..

At Natasha’s comment you stood up in a instant with a look of hatred sketched into your face as you turned around to face the couple who were already staring at you. Your eyes and hair turned into a red similar to fresh shed blood and your eyes looked like you were a predator ready to kill. 

“Скажи мне сейчас.” Tell me now. 

Your rough and thick Russian accent took both the assassins by surprise, especially since you heard everything they have ever spoken in Russian. 

“Y/N I didn’t know you spoke Russian.” Natasha’s attempt to change to subject made you more angry as you glared down the red head. 

“I think it’s safe to say neither of you know anything about me.” Your tongue coated your words with so much venom, you were a bit surprised but you didn’t let neither of them know that. 

“Y/N maybe you want to sit down.” Bucky’s voice made your hair and eyes add more red tint into it but you visually relaxed at his soft and caring voice. You glared and sat at the kitchen stool and raised an eyebrow at the couple. 

“Y/N first of all we are sor-” 

“Get to the point Romanoff.” You cut her off with an emotionless emptiness in your voice. 

“We are getting engaged.” Bucky decided to cut you with the sword rather than beat around the bush. 

“Y/N?” You didn’t move your eyes, limbs, eyes or anything to show you were alive and awake. The two began to worry and was about to call Steve until you shed one single tear and stood up only to stumble. When your knees hit the ground Wanda was pulling you up by your arms and began to put one arm on her shoulder and her other arm on your waist to steady you. 

“I wish you both happiness and love.”  Your voice was so cold that he even made the Devil shiver in hell. Your eyes looked like a dead fish’s eyes and yet you still manged a smile even when the tears streamed down your face and onto the floor. 

They began to give you a guilty look but they thanked you anyway. You hummed and began to be escorted by Wanda to your room. 

That was the last time you saw Bucky.

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