#*HAPPY INCOHERENT SCREECHING* /POS

[penncilkid]

*BREAKS DOWN EVERY DOOR* /POS

HI, CAPS LOCK BECAUSE I'M FILLED WITH EMOTION, THIS WAS BROUGHT TO MY ATTENTION BY @agentplutonium BUT HOLY FUCKING SHIT, THERE IS OFFICIALLY A NODERUM RECORDS FIC ON AO3? OMGS 😭 /POS

AND TO THE AUTHOR OF THE FIC: HI, AS SOON AS THEY SENT ME THE LINK, I IMMEDIATELY RECOGNIZED YOUR USERNAME FROM TUMBLR, YOU ARE ALWAYS SUCH A DELIGHT TO SEE IN MY REBLOGS/NOTES

I'm going to try and read it in the next few days but I immediately downloaded it because AUGH, what a fucking honor 😭💕 /gen /pos

Itty bitty me never could have pictured a day like this actually coming. You have no idea how much this means to me. /gen /pos

[Also you can find the fic here if you would like to check it out]

[yumgrapejuice]

THE REVEAL THAT UNDER THE CLOAK HE'S LIKE ROTTING INSIDE ? THE JOURNAL ENTRIES ??

Just- *inhuman screeching* /pos

I GASPED OUT LOUD FORREAL AT THAT REVEAL, LIKE, MY MOM'S SLEEPING IN THE NEXT ROOM AND I'M JUST TRYING NOT TO MAKE INHUMAN SOUNDS

okay but !! i absolutely LOVE using mc skins to reflect a character's state, it's sooo cool and adds so much !! that reveal actually reminded me a lot of a character from my dnd campaign where she's under constant stress and has gotten very weary lately but she's using magic to make herself look Fine and Presentable because she has to be!! otherwise she's gonna lose it!! and i think the fact that ghostboo is actually trying to hide his true state says... a lot

like, okay. we know he doesn't technically experience emotions. but he still cares? even though he says he doesn't? he said he didn't to c!aimsey, but that can't be right. out of everything, he definitely cares about his soul. as really clearly stated in the journal entries (which also are making me go insane) but also in the way he's so bitter about not having been revived yet. like, he doesn't actually want to be dead. he just doesn't wanna feel the pain. and death was supposed to bring that!! just that it's not so simple. that pain didn't go away, not really, and the fact that no one cares just adds so so much. his soul still feels the pain, and he doesn't want that. so he's trying to be Happy and pretend everything is Fine, to the point of hiding his true state from others. because that'll make them act weird and that'll shatter the illusion of Happy and Fine. which he can't have.

and what else can he do, really? besides try to make the pain lessen by ignoring the causes. and just waiting for someone else to fix it. "they know how to [revive people]" SO DO YOU!!! but he doesn't do anything about it!! why? because if he does, it'd be like admitting that yeah, no one else cares enough? would that be too painful to admit? or is it something else? godddd

fuck this situation is so complex and i am losing my mind over it lmao sorry for the incoherent rambles gksjfnsjfjje