#*/ to make a long mf story short...uhhh me being gay. that's what made me pick up angel. lmao

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@candyredmuses​ & anonymous   :   What made you pick up the muse you have?           ♥ meme ♥

          aregthy I thought I answered this before but I guess not? I can’t find it           So it’s kind of a long and slightly cheesy, slightly fucky story, so buckle up, fuckos.

          The first time I watched Hazbin Hotel, I think shortly after it first came out, I didn’t really find it all that interesting. I liked Alastor, in that “well I guess he’s my favorite” sorta way. I wasn’t even interested in investing money to cosplay from it, but I do remember saying something along the lines of, “if someone gave me an Alastor cosplay, I’d do it.” But for the most part I kinda forgot about it, hell I didn’t even remember much about it.           Fast forward to, what, August of last year? My partner @diistortion​ shoots me a message about it or whatever like “check this shit out.” Annnnd he dragged me into, well. Hell hell lmao. And, with him sorta latching (for lack of better word) onto Al, my dumb gay ass turned to Angel, because, like...we’re queer lil dumbasses, of course we had to go n ship them lmao. Ironically, Angel honestly kinda fits me more, despite me being a non-sexual asexual, despite me being into serial killers and cannibalism (AS A CONCEPT...as a concept. I do not condone...any of that), and despite me being a fuckin’ theater kid and showing it XD           But, like. Being queer and living with parents who didn’t know and are generally unaccepting (long story), having been in a rather toxic and unhealthy relationship for...too long a while (even longer story), and then my weird relationship with how I present myself and my gender, Angel really fits in that sorta category (all my shit also kinda ties into my version of Angel, that he’s left the studio/club n gotten off the streets n all that shit). He’s become a comfort muse, in the sense that I can project myself onto him, and it’s still Angel, whereas if I did that with Alastor, it...wouldn’t be Alastor. At least not to me.           Soooo yeah. It started with gay and...well it’s still gay but it’s different now. lol