#* does this even make sense dhsjadsa

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describe to the audience what you think is going on with j + np 😉 for all the curious cats out there! including ME!

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⸻ ❛❛ I'd like to be good friends. ❜❜

Judith presents 𝒊𝒏𝒐𝒇𝒇𝒆𝒏𝒔𝒊𝒗𝒆, a stature that does not intimidate! A prey animal to some, a cradle to others. To most ? Mediocre. ⸻ in an environment where appearance matters ( High School is a funny vapid thing, what can I say ? ) Judith melts into the background, maybe it had been like that for Nathan too ? Judith the nobody, Judith the loser, Judith, Judith, Judith. You shouldn't even be looking her way ! & Nathan ? He feels like he's the opposite, He means something, he's somebody, at least in this town, in the school where PRESCOTT is stamped gratuitously everywhere you look. Somehow, Judith missed the memo, secretly? He had been Nathaniel, she misheard his name and went with it until he came barreling down on her, wrath and all.

Only when he started SCREAMING & BARKING that she noticed him, it's 'Nathan' & 'he matters', he has blue eyes not brown. She supposed he has to matter to her too, beside! There are things she does find lovely about him ! She enjoys the way he talks, like he's choking on the weight of it all. ( He's so angry with her, she wonders why. )

𝑾𝒉𝒂𝒕'𝒔 𝒈𝒐𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒐𝒏? She likes him, worst ! She isn't lying. That's the problem I think, when she likes things, she likes to grab at it, she likes it even when it's raw and gross and in prison. Judith isn't thinking too deeply of it, the things he does and the things he will do. Awful and disgusting, the incomprehensible and the unforgivable. Judith doesn't understand these things. ( Does that make her perpetually innocent? Pure? Or just skewed?) In turn, she doesn't really understand Nathan, not really, not where it matters, but she'll accept him wholly nonetheless.