#* ⊹ 。*´ ❪ theory. ❫ㅤ ››› ㅤthe revelation of a submerged self .

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how does your muse carry emotions?

rules: please repost, don’t reblog! bold and italicize what applies accordingly.

tagging : @crem8 , @anomalex , @rammattra , @deadlockin , @elaison , @austerulous , @chronal-anomaly .

tagged by : @tlacehualli .

ANGER

jaw clenching, hands balling into fists, teeth grinding, yelling, going nonverbal, vocalizations, stuttering speech, rushed speech, slow concise speech, rambling, quiet, arms crossing, shaking head, curling lip upwards, baring teeth, tearing up, animated, expressionless, projects, internalizes, vents, withdraws, tighter movements, passive-aggressive, direct, physical outbursts, verbal outbursts, pacing, going still, anger boils over in the heat of the moment but cools down quickly afterwards, anger brews slowly but lingers longer, will act out of impulse when angry, will stew on their anger and plot revenge, holds grudges, forgives easily, forgives but never forgets.

JOY

easy smiles, fighting back grins, suppressed laughter, loud laughter, giggles, chuckling, smirks, whole body laughs, covers mouth when laughing/giggling, throws head back when laughing, slaps leg, touches people around them when laughing, looks down when laughing, looks for eye contact when laughing, sparkling eyes, bubbly happiness, quiet subtle happiness, obnoxious happiness, wants to spread joy, quietly savors joy.

SORROW

crying, bottling it up, seeking distractions, wallowing, meditating and processing, avoidance, seeking out comfort, withdrawing, swallowing thickly, talking it out, internalizing it, sad smiles, depression naps, using alcohol, using drugs, seeking out sources of joy, fidgets with sentimental item, sits in silence, broods, gets moody, wants someone to share the misery, tries to hide negative emotions, nurtures others to make themselves feel better

SHAME

blushing, looking away, rubbing at the back of the head, running a hand through hair, clearing throat, covering the face, laughing nervously, laughing it off, overthinking, letting it go, self-deprecating humor, deflecting, getting irritated, smiling, withdraws, crossing arms over the stomach, crossing arms over chest, hands in pockets, shoulders sinking, shrugs, falling into silence until comfortable again, talking a lot to compensate

GUILT

avoiding eye contact, shoulders sinking low, head hanging down, crying, chest aches, lashing out, internalizing, apologizing, deflecting, communicating, withdrawing, grand gestures for forgiveness, accepting fault easily, punishing themselves, martyrdom, victim complex, over-active guilt complex, healthy conscience, internalizes even after forgiveness, seeking redemption, moves on easily, denial, shuts off empathy to cope, lack of guilt/conscience, sorry they got caught more than caused harm, can’t handle knowing they hurt others.

FEAR

trembling, crying, sarcasm/sass to cope, humor to cope, rambles, going quiet, going nonverbal, getting angry, fidgeting, freezing up, impatience, clenching jaw, picking at nails, chewing at the lip, pulling at clothes, adjusting jewelry/clothing/hair, pacing, swallowing thickly, eyes widening, over-reacts, under-reacts, calm, logical, panic, irrational, overthinks, carefully analyzes, talk to themselves, breathing exercises, flight, fight, withdraw, fawn.

[vaqro]

Cole rarely writes something by hand. his handwriting isn't the best, with shaky forms, especially with no guiding lines [e.g. a notebook page ], but he also writes letters in different cases and spaces them out strangely; misspelling is frequent and phonetically spelling even more so [ i becomes ay, night is nite, because is decuase ]. he omits letters or entire words, writes sentences in the wrong order. without the time to revise the text, he can't trust his message to be readable at all. using computers or texting messages on his phone is slightly better because he can use some assistive technology to help him spot what he is doing [ considering software even recognizes the words he attempted to write and points out if sentences have structural issues ] — but again, only if he has the time to revise what he's writing, which isn't always possible. also: when typing, especially with two hands, coordinating letter order is a little difficult; dog is God [ and vice versa ], for example, and he also needs to pause and type out long words extra slowly.

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WHO ARE YOU IN THIS HAUNTED HOUSE STORY?

THE FATHER :ㅤㅤyou’ve made mistakes.ㅤㅤyou see them play out on an endless and nauseating loop whenever you close your eyes.ㅤㅤif you could just interfere !ㅤㅤsomehow pass on what knowledge you now possess to the person you were then.ㅤㅤof course,ㅤnow you know,ㅤyou know,ㅤYOU KNOW.ㅤㅤbut what’s done is done,ㅤleaving you behind,ㅤholding the shards of what you broke in your bleeding and calloused hands.ㅤㅤthey look at you differently now,ㅤso you smile bigger and hope it reaches your eyes.ㅤㅤit’s okay though,ㅤbecause you’re going to make it better,ㅤyou have to.ㅤㅤand god knows you can’t be wrong again,ㅤyou simply won’t allow it,ㅤcan’t even entertain the idea.ㅤㅤwhen doubt creeps in,ㅤyou’ll stamp it down.ㅤㅤwhen things begin to go wrong,ㅤyou’ll turn a blind eye.ㅤㅤthere isn’t room inside of you to hold any more wrong.

tagged by : stolen from @divinitywept . tagging : @deathsighs , @pravica , @76es , @femtaile , @vanctua .

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why do you hurt?

YOU SWALLOW PAIN & FOLD AROUND IT :ㅤㅤyou have always hurt.ㅤㅤyou hold it carefully,ㅤand twisted in such a way that other people don't have to see it.ㅤㅤyou don't choke on it.ㅤㅤyou don't drown.ㅤㅤyou just have it,ㅤthe way some people have freckles,ㅤthis is a thing that lives in your bones.ㅤㅤyou fold instead of fighting because you know how to make yourself small,ㅤtuck away the places where they have clawed at,ㅤswallow the bruises so you seem clean.ㅤㅤnobody needs to see it.ㅤㅤyou will live through this on your own.ㅤㅤyou know what you need,ㅤand relief isn't it.ㅤㅤthis doesn't mean you cannot reach out --- it means it is not in your nature to do so.ㅤㅤyou should.ㅤㅤhiding does not mean you won't be seen.

tagged by : stolen from @tlacehualli .

tagging : @chronal-anomaly , @travilleur , @masteredfear , @femtaile .

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[hands] [other]

SEND ME A WORD AND LEARN ABOUT MY MUSE'S PHYSICAL FEATURES . also sent by @veqva .

cole cassidy has proportionate hands to a man of his general stature and lifestyle. his hands were never either too big or too small. his fingers are long, each knuckle knobbly and scarred and calloused, but they are in no way thin. the skin of his palms is often sweaty, especially when he wears gloves of any kind [ and he does so as to keep his fingerprints off his gun and the gunpowder off his fingers ]; skin is dry otherwise, filled with scars from previous scruffles and the handling of sharp objects in his youth.

his nails are short and gently curved, but he doesn’t manicure them otherwise; the undersides are clean from debris and dirt, but the nail beds are ruined by his anxiety driven habit of pulling at his cuticles. the only moments he ever cares about the state of his nails are when he needs to be either jerome mcginnis, the tradesman of a nice canadian family, or jeffrey wayne, the young socialite adopted by a rich family — both would be expected by society to have have well kept nails and their hands soft. 

his hands also shake from time to time — never when holding a gun or any kind of weapon, but the alcohol and the cigars from a young age coupled with insomnia make them tremble at times. it used to be much worse when he was young [ pre - deadlock, especially, but wholly pre - overwatch ], the anemia and irregular meals causing a depletion in blood oxygenation and the impression of cold under his skin. he is also beginning to notice small signs of osteoarthritis in some knuckles and his wrist [ along some other places in his body ].

it is interesting to note that for all he can change himself in name and appearance as to both survive and work, his hands are one aspect he can not be so easily modified. he carries his stories there, all of them. these are the fingers which joel morricone uses to write his articles and columns, which jeff and jerome shake hands, the same ones cole cassidy and maverick logann kill people. these are the hands that choked his sister, and there is no running away from that. his hands tell the truth his mouth can not speak.

and since we are already on the topic of his hands, we may as well speak of his prosthetic arm. 

for years, cassidy has been secretly assigned to spy on doctor mina liao and her classified project, as to ensure neither were compromised — be it against liao or in favor of a second omnic crisis. spending so much time together, mina and cole developed a secret romance. after the catastrophe that was the mission in rialto, cassidy was sent to oslo more and more often — going weeks and sometimes months by mina’s side in and out of the watchpoint. it coincided that, in one of these visits to the watchpoint, talon invaded and set off a bomb in the building, much like what happened in rome. this time, cassidy wasn’t so lucky as to not be in the direct blast zone of the explosion. debris and equipment pinned him down, and his rescue’s success depended on his arm being amputated in the field. 

afterward, he stayed under the care, among others [ albeit in dwindling numbers at this point ], of doctor angela ziegler / @veqva, who oversaw his recovery. a second amputation was needed for the fitting of a new arm. he went through the initial steps of physiotherapy in zurich but didn’t stay for the final fitting for the arm overwatch had developed for him. lost and grieving, cassidy made his way back to the deadlock gorge. eventually, with ashe’s help and knowledge in cyber mechanics, he designed and found a trustworthy medic for the procedure.

ashe could have arranged a clinic or hospital for the procedure, but their status as outlaws made things a lot more difficult. factored in as well the fact cassidy could be recognized in some way as the blackwatch agent involved in the fallout in italy years prior [ it also matters that cole was not in the mindset to accept things without pain. he opted for a riskier procedure because it was less of a risk to ashe and deadlock, and because it would hurt a lot ]. so they recurred to a ripperdoc, a type of medic able to perform away from the scrutiny of legal establishments, at a better price. it is not always guaranteed a painless procedure, and complications may rise. as a consequence, his remaining limb is riddled with scars and suffers from phantom pain on occasion. it is not only worse because the initial port and cyberization were made by overwatch.

the result is a stylized model that is unique to him. chrome plates with a clunkier appearance than the usual streamlines and elegance found in other prosthetics. the arm is slightly bigger than his flesh hand due to an error in calculating, but it maintains the same overall level of productivity. the skull is an aesthetic touch, bright blue eyes powered by an internal battery.

the limb is also designed with boosted strength, speed, and resilience. it never grows tired, and it doesn’t feel pain — while keeping tactile prowess. it is able lot sustain a lot more damage than flesh and bone, the titanium skeleton under the chrome plates strong enough to bash someone’s head in. therefore, while having no built-in weapons or mechanisms, the prosthesis is still quite a force to be reckoned with.

a great advantage of his arm compared to common models is the power injection. while yes, the prosthetic is connecto him through cybernetic nanites, as courtesy of overwatch, the limb itself is motorized. it counts with hydraulic mechanisms and servos that run near silently but provide him all the necessary fine motor skills in his elbow, wrist, and each finger. which means he is relatively safe from EMP blasts and other types of electrical outages. 

not to say cassidy doesn’t have fiber and plastic models. they are crucial when he needs to not be recognized. he has a simple plastic white arm and the same one in red. he also counts on a very fragile, rarely used model that is covered in synthetic skin. it is nearly impossible to distinguish between his two and when he is wearing it. he bought the first two models under an alias, and they were relatively easy to install and switch out despite the lack of cross compatibility between them and his original prosthesis. the synthskin arm he bought after a large bounty, in japan. it is relatively new and, again, not used often.

the mismatched weight, however, often affects his gait. his left hip and shoulder are the most affected, which also affects his already damaged knee in attempts of compensation. when able, especially now that he is once more with overwatch, he showers and sleeps with it off so as to not exacerbate his joints further.

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which tragic death would you suffer?

THE UNFINISHED :ㅤㅤyou die,ㅤhand outstretched towards the sky,ㅤas if to say I'M NOT DONE YET. ㅤㅤthere are so many things you still have to do,ㅤso many goals you still have to reach.ㅤㅤyou've spent your entire life working towards them,ㅤand doing nothing else,ㅤonly to die before knowing what accomplishment feels like.ㅤㅤthey'll say your death was a pity,ㅤthat you had such a bright future ahead of you.ㅤㅤit is one you'll never get to see.

tagged by : @femtaile .

tagging : @tlacehualli , @yunhuntress , @deadlockin , @pravica , @chronal-anomaly .

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what does your heart look like?

AN OPEN DOOR, A BURNING HEARTH :ㅤㅤyour chest is wide open,ㅤand your heart is a home.ㅤㅤothers are welcomed in readily and asked to stay.ㅤㅤyou are comfort and love,ㅤeverything you were never given but so desperately want to provide for others.ㅤㅤyou have built this welcoming hearth with your own two hands and won’t see anyone else left out in the cold.ㅤㅤbe careful to not burn yourself out trying to keep everyone else warm.

tagged by : @femtaile .

tagging : @offenseonly , @freedomsbounty , @76es , @deathmarked .

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cole is such a good cook of simple foods, though. he makes stews, soups, bread, pie. he can make some noodles, grill some tofu, and chorizo to go with toast. he may even try to cook something from a friend's childhood if he finds a recipe. but it's all simple. family cooking. hearty breakfast and dinner. a nice cup of coffee to go with it. interesting too is the fact he rarely does it for himself. alone, he barely bothers with some bread and coffee when he doesn't opt for some whiskey and calls it a day. or he needs to be on the move so he lives off whatever he can find on diners and stops.

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had to go & read something sue wrote about tattoos and it immediately makes me think of cassidy's own tattoos. i will one day [ hopefully soon ] create a proper overview of his current tattoos, but for now, suffices to say all his tattoos are some form of memento. to people in his life that are no longer here, to parts of his life he's had to abandon — hence why he kept the deadlock insignia on his arm all those years until he lost his arm [ and then went and got himself a prosthesis that is cased like a skull ]. the body keeps score, and he certainly has the scars to tell those stories, but the tattoos are his choice to tell other stories too.

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Which Tragic Character From Ancient Greek Literature Are You?

PATROCLUS : ㅤㅤyou are patroclus, ㅤfrom the iliad by homer, ㅤdoomed by fate to be stuck in a love story that has no place on the battlefield. ㅤㅤalthough you always have the best intentions, ㅤYOU HAVE TO REALIZE YOU CANNOT SAVE EVERYONE. ㅤㅤyour unwavering loyalty means you often lose yourself in the process of putting others first. ㅤㅤtake a deep breath, ㅤremember who you are, ㅤand that you are deserving of the same love you try to put out. ㅤㅤyou are kind,ㅤ you are strong, ㅤand you give and you give but it is never enough to protect those you love. ㅤㅤin the end, ㅤit's not even enough to protect yourself.

tagged by :ㅤnobody . tagging :ㅤ@wormregards [ daniel ] ,ㅤ@76es ,ㅤ@divinitywept ,ㅤ@crem8 ,ㅤ@tlacehualli .

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what is holding you back?

THE INABILITY TO SEE THE GOOD IN YOURSELF, ㅤTHEREFORE RELYING ON OTHERS TO PROVIDE IT FOR YOU : ㅤㅤyour heart is so full for the people you love.ㅤㅤ it's sweet,ㅤ but you've now forgotten how to care for yourself. ㅤㅤyou only seem to see great things in the people around you. ㅤㅤthey're wonderful, ㅤand you . . . ㅤ YOU DON'T LIKE WHAT YOU'RE SEEING IN YOURSELF, ㅤRIGHT ?ㅤㅤ you need to be reminded that you're enough. ㅤㅤthat you're talented.ㅤㅤ that you're worthy.ㅤㅤ that's partly the reason why you reach out so much. ㅤㅤyou need to hear it from the lips of someone " better " than you. ㅤㅤbut afterwards, ㅤit makes you feel even more guilty and upset.ㅤㅤ you feel like your actions are self absorbed. ㅤㅤyou're aiming for perfection because you see it in others. ㅤㅤyou're failing to see the flaws in everyone else. ㅤㅤI PROMISE, ㅤYOU'RE NO MONSTER. ㅤㅤi could say this again and again, ㅤbut will you believe me when i say you need to find it out for yourself ?

tagged by :ㅤ@tlacehualli . tagging : ㅤ@crem8 ,ㅤ@motife [ your pick ] ,ㅤ@amplifying ,ㅤ@cranedre ,ㅤ@deathsighs .

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are you a soldier, a poet, or a king?

THE SOLDIER :

There will come a soldier / Who carries a mighty sword / He will tear your city down ㅤ- - - ㅤThe Oh Hellos .

righteousness. ㅤㅤstrength. ㅤㅤviolence. ㅤㅤyou see a door and break through it. ㅤㅤYOU WONDER ,ㅤSOMETIMES ,ㅤIF ANGER IS THE ONLY THING YOU CAN FEEL.ㅤㅤremember : ㅤㅤlove is passion too. ㅤㅤyou made your own rules and will follow them to death. ㅤㅤyou try and forget that there is only one rule, ㅤand that it is "FIGHT". ㅤㅤYOU ARE TIRED OF FIGHTING. ㅤㅤyou try to forget that,ㅤ too,ㅤ and keep going. ㅤㅤyou dream of quiet. ㅤㅤYOUR LOVE IS WHERE YOU HEAL. ㅤㅤgod knows you deserve to ㅤ[ really,ㅤyou deserve to. ]

tagged by :ㅤnobody . tagging :ㅤ@tlacehualli ,ㅤ@chronal-anomaly ,ㅤ@76es ,ㅤ@veqva ,ㅤ@parieur .

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WHAT FLAVOR IS YOUR SOUL?

CINAMMON : ㅤ ㅤ oh, ㅤchild of spice, ㅤyou are bound to the core of the earth.ㅤㅤ can you feel the heartbeat of nature pulsing through your veins. ㅤㅤyou are the mouthful of autumn that scorched through your throat. ㅤㅤyou are the pepper of life that wakes up the weary. ㅤㅤthe foolish and shaking will attempt to dilute you with sickening sugar, ㅤdo not let them. ㅤㅤyour spark is what keeps us alive, ㅤmy dear. ㅤㅤkeep burning, ㅤlittle star. ㅤㅤyou see the beauty and the light, ㅤbut oh, ㅤyou have been fed poison and refuse to drop it onto other's tongues. ㅤㅤbe wild. ㅤㅤI know what your heart is chanting. ㅤㅤrun. ㅤㅤrun. ㅤㅤrun.ㅤㅤ run dear, ㅤfind your story. ㅤdo not trade your spirit for safety. ㅤㅤyou are a child of the earth, ㅤforever seeking, ㅤforever dancing.

tagged by : ㅤnobody, stolen from @dpsdiff .

tagging : ㅤ@crem8 ,ㅤ@bllakcat ,ㅤ@femtaile [ widow ] ,ㅤ@divinitywept, ㅤ@tlacehualli .

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WHICH TAROT CARD ARE YOU?

THE WORLD : ㅤ ㅤ power is a heady thing. ㅤdo you have what it takes to control it ? ㅤㅤyou thought you did, ㅤfor a long time as you gained more and more. ㅤㅤpower only begets more power,ㅤ after all. ㅤㅤmind your breaking point,ㅤ mind your load,ㅤ mind how high you’ve climbed up the ladder ; ㅤ it’s against regulation to stand on the top rung. ㅤㅤyou could get hurt up there. ㅤㅤyou could fall. ㅤㅤi’m not sure that i could catch you, ㅤso high above the rest of us. ㅤㅤdon’t look down. ㅤㅤmind the ceiling fan.

tagged by :ㅤ @austerulous . tagging :ㅤ @mrjane ,ㅤ@divinitywept , ㅤ@str7fe ,ㅤ@motife [ junkrat ] ,ㅤ@tlacehualli .

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why are you unlovable?

YOU ARE A GHOST : ㅤㅤ you have fallen from everything you've loved,ㅤ they still love you,ㅤ but you are so unrecognizable these days they don't even know what to do.ㅤㅤ LET THE SUN WARM YOU AGAIN,ㅤ it's not all bad.

tagged by : ㅤno one, i found this quizz .

tagging : ㅤ@femtaile [ amelie ], @vanctua, @tlacehualli, @dpsdiff [ hanzo ], @crem8, @motife [ hana ]

[vaqro]

𝟎𝟔.   𝐉𝐔𝐏𝐈𝐓𝐄𝐑   !

✰ ⸻    𝐏𝐋𝐀𝐍𝐄𝐓   𝐇𝐄𝐀𝐃𝐂𝐀𝐍𝐎𝐍𝐒    !   ༄ㅤ/ㅤalways accepting . / @femtaile .

is your muse a lucky person ? do things randomly tend to go their way without much effort, or do they have to work for bad luck ?

now, the cowboy wouldn't consider himself a lucky person; after all, survival has nothing to do with luck. It took skill, both active and passive, for him to reach where he is on the road. it took a lot of hard work, and a lot of playing his cards right. However considering the path with his life took to get where he is now, he would consider himself quite lucky in the way things did go wrong a lot of the time and he did suffer quite a bit he lost his family early on, had to work as a child in gruesome environments such as factories and farms; he broke away from the from the only people he ever called true friends. blackwatch was considered by many around him a true lucky point in his life. the fact it took him from a life of crime and immorality into something he could call noble. it doesn't end well, though, does it?

when was the moment in your muses life that they had to grow up, a situation where they just knew it was time for them to mature ? perhaps a traumatic event, maybe even an exciting one !

as the fourth child of a happy and stable family, cole was never expected to grow up so quickly; he could do things at his own time, at his own pace: he could fail and he could succeed and no matter what he would be loved by his parents and his siblings. The truck time That changed when his lands were stolen by omega corporation and his family was butchered in front of that night scarred him deeply; in the span of hours, he became an orphan, alone in the southwestern desert, having to fend for himself in the worst ways possible.

cole found work in places no child should be working [ not that any child should be working ]. his first job, at the pork factory, was especially traumatizing. this is where he had to process remains and discard entrails — living and breathing dead bodies cut open and disemboweled. for someone who grew up to that point respecting animal life [ the ranch was small, the livestock raised respectfully ]. the shock of saying those bodies in a similar manner to the ones of his family only added to the toll. from there the cowboy became more and more cynical and jaunted — less willing to trust people.

julian, someone who came to meet at the ace valentine megafarm was the exception, at least at first. they became inseparable friends and, eventually, each other's first love. Julian would eventually betray him to save his own neck from certain death. cole never forgave him. ashe would come a little later after julian, showing him that family is something you can choose. the three of them, alongside a hacker called frankie formed the deadlock rebels. It was a good time while it lasted. then, he would spent fifteen years serving blackwatch.

so it is safe to say that in a short span of life [ seventeen years, though the most of his trauma happened from eleven onward ] cole had to go from that happy – if naive – child to a hardened, cynical men. a killer. a mercenary. a soldier. a bounty hunter. he never had the opportunity to access what happened to him in anything but a dissociated way; he can't frame himself within the parameters of his old name and that is not a coincidence, but truly a consequence of his life experiences: that he refers to himself only as Cole Cassidy.

has your muse found their happiness in life ? their purpose ? if so, when and how did that happen ?

He has had his moments of happiness, though brief and sparse, in life since the incident at the ranch when he was eleven. for all he reserves his criticism for overwatch [ especially at the end ], he cannot deny those fifteen years were his happiest. he had a family among those ranks: GABRIEL REYES, ANA AMARI AND HER DAUGHTER FAREEHA, ANGELA ZIEGLER, AMELIE AND GERARD LACROIX, GENJI SHIMADA, LENA OXTON — just to mention a few names. however, as it is known, that moment in his life came to an end in a long and torturous process that left him feeling empty inside. then, as a bounty hunter and mercenary [ a man on the run from many things ]. It's not that he didn't want it, it is simply that he didn't think himself for deserving of that feeling.

DOESN'T DETAIN HIM FROM REACHING FOR THAT SUNSET. this idea [ an archetypal notion of the lonesome hero riding off to sunset, symbolizing he has prevailed over the antagonist ] he has that will find his happiness when he is done working, even though he believes, deep down, he will never stop until he dies — the hero cannot exist within the vacuum, after all. be it the epic or the tragedy, the hero rarely lives on to the end of his own story [ doesnt keep him from accepting the call ]. so he entertains himself with the fantasy he will buy himself a farm, raise some livestock and grow his own food; he may even have a family. it is less of a plan and more of a distant daydream. whatever happens, happens.

what gives your muse confidence, what makes them optimistic ? or are they pessimistic ? what makes their life purposeful ?

The cowboy's confidence relies and foremost on his own abilities. he is fully aware of what he is capable of, as he is entirely aware of how far he can take a bluff. it doesn't make him particularly optimistic toward any outcome — simply that given opportunity, he can go down fighting a good fight. he has no deep purpose in life, especially as of the time around recall. he wants to find widowmaker, he wants to free echo, but thats about the end of it. ANA'S LETTER PROVES, HOWEVER, THAT HE SEEKS A HIGHER PURPOSE. the hero fights not for himself, but for those he considers dear to him and / or swore to protect.