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an-organized-confusion · 2 years ago

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I do believe intrusive thoughts come in various genres and shades.

There's violent ones. There's taboo ones. There's impulsive ones (because yes, it has enough overlap with violent/dangerous thoughts to make those be potentially another, if milder, form of them. L'appel du vide IS still uncomfortable, even if you have full awareness of it happening.)

I think ITs can be associated with trauma - like flashbulbs of What Happened.

I think some ITs can be tinged by grief, too. Thoughts that don't help one be compassionate to oneself. The should/could/woulds that haunt and threaten to take away your joy and precious energy. Despite rationally knowing that what is done is done. You did the best you could with the information you had at the time. There's no use in excoriating yourself over it.

It's trite to tag this with Remus. But that last part kinda inspired me to write this and contemplate on the whole gamut of ITs Remus could produce. Just using the guy as a reflection/expression tool (like lots of SaSi fans already do.)

#sanders sides #remus sanders #(i think some genres of ITs can have a bleed-through with the other Sides too - to make things even fuzzier)#(i've used horror to counter my own fears)#(counter and sublimate them instead of repress or shun them)#(i've been in therapy for like a decade and have grown to understand that a lot of categories don't have distinct lines dividing them)#(in psych there's lots of overlapping ideas and valuable graded language... like severity or frequency...)#(symptoms or the conditions that cause them... at times can simple be traits or subclinical)#(but i think ITs don't fully encompass what remus is or ever was... part of it's an appraisal issue on what brains tend to do)#(when idle or stressed - one can take healthy inspiration from the thoughts or pour focus somewhere else)#(easier to give attn to something than to pull it away)#(... i should probably go eat something - feeling a bit emotionally labile atm)#(yeeeah... all else i'm gonna say is - this is about my brother again...)

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