#(there's some other people in these too but i won't clog their tags lol)

[theantarcticempire]

playlist of antarctic empire animatics and animations

feel free to send me any other animatics/animations (posted on youtube) that i might have missed!

[scopebite]

in relation to

confession of types of tumblr users I tend to filter or avoid in relation to fallout and a few in general

people who hate Ulysses you will die and go to hell but I am not engaging I am not looking <3

people who have not only fallen for but regurgitate NCR propaganda </3

certain types of uncritical serious brotherhood of steel fans ew

Legion bloggers if they're not funny enough to make up for being really into misogynistic slaver fascists but especially fans of what I understand seems like sex trafficking "toxic yaoi" and especially if they act crucified for being into it or clog other tags... like ok I do like pointing and laughing at yassified fanon legion and I like making fun of Vulpes and related content lol but I don't trust like that so we gotta stay away. meta lore shit is of interest. apologism and justification is not.

people that really cannot handle that other people don't like something they're into and take criticism of that thing super insecurely personally bad enough to throw tantrums and harass others about it and especially if it's just some shit they jack off to

as a general rule people who seem to love making problems on purpose and who seem to be way too very into "it's my turn to be the bully" edgy middle schooler mindsets who seem to be endlessly chasing the adrenaline rush of being very angry online and who refuse to disengage from kinnie drama shit

I admit that I am so much more reactive and hateful and spiteful and mean inside and I'm trying so hard to not engage and trying not to be a hostile bitch anymore especially at my big age so peace and love on planet earth *smiling through gritted teeth*

obviously as previously mentioned people who take being blocked personal and/or seem like they will due to other observably insecure behaviors

when I don't like how someone draws a character like yassified meaty MacCready

when I don't like in general how someone posts about a character too much lmao

and content I try to filter or avoid direct eye contact with while I'm sharing with the class

ghoulcy I just don't like it and I personally don't like how it feels like sometimes the booktok smut brainrot girlies reduce Lucy to a hollowed out empty vessel for them to project self inserts into which is in my opinion disrespectful to her character and I think people should learn to and are more than free to just make cringe ass self insert OCs instead but okay whatever but I'm not like hostile to it I don't care that much if you like it

Arcade/legion shit and I'm trying really hard not to say something mean here so I'm being so fucking gentle. Jacking it to putting Arcade in a situation so non-consensual he'll kill himself over it? Fetishizing slavery and misogynistic fascists? Don't touch me.

I won't specify any other shipping shit but of course *gesturing vaguely*

and unserious and not really related to fallout but I filter spotify even though I also post spotify links when I have to but I hate that audios from spotify make you have to open spotify to play and it just annoys me lol

and obviously not making comparisons of this unserious annoying shit to the very serious so fucking serious shit that are on the same list that I also have as many p*do fascist racist transphobic etc terms and dogwhistles and weird abuse fetish tags too eugh as I can ever remember to block/filter

I am a hater I fucking hate things so much and also sometimes things are just annoying <3

I try not to care if you follow or interact with me if you like shit I don't like as long as it's not harmful evil fucked up and as long as you don't bother me about it so I can try to continue ignoring shit I don't like

but like truly deeply I have so much hatred in my heart but am trying so hard to be chill and normal

this isn't a dni because maintaining a dni is too much effort and impossible to enforce but I can close my eyes

anyway

[slasherrabbitmadness]

I have to say, I thank everyone for the support during the last 4 months!

I initially started this blog to test my writing abilities. Despite the randoms from the last 2 weeks telling me I suck and 'get the characters' wrong, no doubt sent over by an art accounts call-out post. I'd say the slew of compliments over the last months say otherwise in terms of writing.

Writing has been immensely fun. Rewarding even! I really didn't expect my fics to do so well. I also wondered if long fics would be appreciated in a fandom that mostly does fun headcanons (I used to write them and vigorously read them, so not throwing any shade, they are fun reads)

To my surprise (and yeah, no duh I wasn't the only long fics writer) long fics were appreciated! It was also a pleasant surprise to see many start to get a lot of notes in a short amount of time! that was incredible!

I'd dabble in writing here and there but never took it too seriously. So the fact I was doing so well at this warmed my heart.

To people, please let writers write what they want. They don't have to write for whatever gender they don't want to. They really don't lol

About my post losing my cool. Yeah, I did lose my cool. I was getting harassed for weeks from legit randoms asking me to do male reader.

Look, I NEVER said writing for male reader was wrong. It's wrong for people to ask me because I just don't want to write it. I never clogged the tags with my fics in the male reader tag.

I couldn't do slasher x male reader justice. I think it's funny though that my words of "Tag me in Male reader stuff so I can reblog it if you male a DILF slashers fic" went conveniently ignored lol I guess because it didn't fit the narrative some went for.

I've said multiple times, "I'd love for someone to write a DILF Bo x Male Reader" and encouraged it, never got a tag for it to reblog :(

Death threats to whoever is never justified for the fics they write or won't write.

I find it alarming those in the fandom for men who murder (in Billy's case it's heavily implied he R*ped that girl they found outside and he did terrible things to his sister) people, are shocked and flabbergasted when people write fics corresponding to these attributes (killing, voyeurism, stalking, JAY WALKING, holding people hostage) that these characters have.

"Yeah, but she (she being me) deserves it (being told to choke) for writing rape fics"

Gosh, what pleasant people we have in the fandom/s You also can't turn around and go "She does deserve to get told to choke...BUT THAT'S HOW I FEEL! Don't get upset at ME!"

People, telling someone to choke over fiction is incredibly heedless and ill-manured.

This person was young, so I'm sure more growing up is to be had. Past 18, age isn't an excuse to dismiss alarming comments, that said, we are always growing as people. Do we say terrible things when we were young and in haste? yes, do we regret it when we are older, most people do.

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About mid-August, I just wasn't feeling fic writing anymore. I kept going, hoping it would continue to make me happy again. The last few fics I wrote I did genuinely enjoy writing, especially Professor Brahms, and Librarian Brahms did well too!

I totally understand if AUs are not everyone's cup of tea, I get it. That said, I encourage the other writers to experiment with AUs.

Oh, and Yes, DILF Bo will always be the TOP AU, always. It just really suits Bo lol

I will apologize for being upset over 'lack of engagement' that wasn't cool of me. I 100% get why people are shy! Writers do like the engagement, but I get why some don't engage. I get that way too with the blogs I followed and loved. Don't ever feel pressured to interact with a writer if you feel uncomfortable. Sorry if I made anyone feel that way. Engage with your favourite authors on your own time when you are ready.

...okay I will say if you do end up reblogging a fic, just add some nice tags, even an "I loved this" is enough of a morsel to a writer lol

To the nice comment in my inbox, I got before I rightfully turned off my inbox, thank you! I am glad you enjoyed Professor Brahms and that it hit just the right spot for you.

Please respect writers and their preferences in terms of what they write and how. Writers do tag their shit properly. They do, we all see them do it lol don't all of a sudden act like Polyphemus.

Again, thank you to all who have been kind. Be kind to each other. Bullying those out of the fandom for online brownie points serves no purpose, you just end up getting anons coming to you, thinking you'll 'fight the good cause' again and start more drama.

I have no clue what the future holds in terms of...well...whatever lol But I'll be posting my fics to ao3, where writing preferences and subject matter don't attract crazies from my understanding.

I am sorry I deleted most of my fics from here. Again, they'll be posted to ao3 in due time (when I get an account)

I hope everyone has a great Halloween! You celebrate Channukah, Christmas...whatever, have a good one!

This has been a fun way to test my abilities (I didn't mean to quote Itachi) and I am very grateful that many liked my writing and I hope my fics in some way brought you comfort and brought all the good levels of horny.

Thank you, everyone, again, who has been kind and for all the support.

To my Besties (you all) Love ya!

[fleshphagus]

Sorry I couldn't figure out the readmore

identification removed to protect the innocent and I don't want to clog replies with just a Mildly Related tangent but:

I saw some random mlmtoothpasteflagblogtype get ''dunked on'' today and like yeah, in the Real World ''there's nothing wrong with men liking sports and tools and being dirty and masculine'' is the norm and you complain about people living in this pathetic little online bubble and how they're regurgitating traditional gender roles but you know what. They do live in a bubble. What about it. Lots of (trans especially) people flock to online spaces and have shit tons of friends on tumblr/discord. If one of the only places they can get whatever transvalidation they need is this bubble, OK. And these if things are making them feel better, OK. Anti-masc/androgen sentiment is completely understandable and I agree you cannot have transandrophobia but I think they have a point to a bit annoyed about it. Like maybe they won't grow up, who knows, OP I saw was 22. But the post I saw today by famous funnyblogger said in the tags ''I've never so harshly dragged someone without provocation like this'' and that was so stupid. Yeah sis you really dragged. Wig etc. I'm sure that OP could see your reply and knows who the two tradwife looking blond girls were and got super insulted.

I think if we're going to spend time discussing accepting every plastic/affirming/whatever surgery regardless of contribution to ciswhitecentric beauty ideals the converse can be true without it being the end of the world even if it's a little cringey.

If someone wants surgery to pass better which is a saftey issue and you're going to full ''every surgery is fine'', Fine. - If women raised on instagram and tiktok elect to have nosejobs and tummy tucks and whatever, enforcing unhealthy or racist standards of beauty but its the way of the world or bullying or whatever the cause where it's forgiveable enough it's etc etc it's fine, let's pretend Ariana got that monolid surgery to be more popular and even though asinine and racist - It's fine.

God forbid the cringey transmascs post about ''liking sports is okay!'' on the site where a big sporting event day cannot pass without an infamous ''I hope the goalie scores a home run in sports ball today'' or whatever kind of dime a dozen, oh sports? That thing that makes stupid men yell? Team jerseys are the original funkopops. That shit is just as cringe as ''Tradwife youtuber speech bubble under your MLMurl transman it's ok to like sports'' post.

There's that post that talks about ''some of your favorite things will simply not be possible under anything other than capitalism'' re multiple blockbuster movies (not even just aimed at mcu fans), sports shouldn't exist like it does to day that's absolute truth. I only mildly like sports. It's not that big a deal to admit these things. But do I enjoy seeing 10 thousand people in comradery? Sure. You wanna dunk on me for it? Sure. Unironically it's sad you do not know the epic highs and lows of [high school football] sports.

It's really not about the sports lol. I lost the plot of this post long ago. What is tumblr but ever growing separatist communities through dash curation? ''Don't blame separatists blame the conditions that make them want to separate'' or whatever. The dunking post just caught my eye because the cis girls get in on it too and where is that in the tmatrans>tmetrans>cis section of opression olympics that this site lives and breathes on? "Subverting power structures and hierarchies is working within their confines which is both bad and good, I am very intelligent." (I am saying this, as a joke and seriously.)

I'd love the return of forums. The only problem: All the coders are transfemme, the transmascs could never make their own mlm boards. (Joke haha Jokes because you reached the end)

[cuntess-carmilla]

yeah that's what i was gonna say i don't know a single person who isn't a little bit in pain most of the time everyone in my family all of my friends and my coworkers pain is literally part of the human experience don't get me wrong i'm not saying that sucking up pain should be normalized or whatever if you can treat pain you probably should! but i feel like this is a bit misinformative bc then that makes literally everyone i've ever met and probably will meet disabled and then the term disability begins to mean nothing disabilities are not just about symptoms but how much they impact your quality of life too its the same with MH if you feel a little anxious most days but it doesn't cause you any damage in your relationships or quality of life then you probably don't have an anxiety disorder! tag response i dont say that to be invalidating but i also think not every experience needs to be pathologized if you have pain every day and it takes a toll on you like really feels wrong and you can't get anything done or every enjoy your day then please please get all the care you can but having a bit of neck pain from sleeping with a bad pillow for a few months is not the same as having a chronic illness/disability having sore feet from standing for 8 hours straight at your job is not a disability but a pain caused from your employers be we are not meant to stand for hours on end our bodies aren't built like that. we need regular resting periods its like that post saying if everyone is depressed rn bc of capitalism it's not bc everyone is mentally disabled but rather the society we live in is inherently disabling most ppl i know with pain every day is bc of sitting at a desk all day or standing all day with no variation in activity again not saying pain is good but that some people won't know if something is chronic pain or situational pain bc their situation won't seem to change ok i will stop my rant here i am so sorry op for clogging ur tags i wont blame you if you block me god bless your heart i know you have very good intentions and want to validate people's experiences i don't think this post was 'bad' but rather just a bit misinformed or misworded so thank you for trying to raise awareness to chronic pain and disability i am disabled myself so the sentiment is important here i just have seen a lot of ppl pathologize actual normal stuff and that caused them a lot of confusion and more pain bc they didn't know how to process it properly

I already said this to the buddy above (who never responded back to me despite me not insulting them or anything lol) but I used the term BASELINE for a reason. Baseline in this context means that it's pain you feel by default, not because you slept wrong, are sore from exercise, etc. God why do none of you know how to fucking read.

What they called the difference between regular pain and chronic pain is fucking stupid too. What makes pain chronic is it lasting over 3 months, not the damned "source" of it. That's LITERALLY the medical criteria for what chronic pain is. The duration of it.

And guess what; plenty of people DO become legitimately disabled from their jobs taking a toll on them. Do they not count just because Capitalism™ gave it to them instead of having been born mutants like I was? Do they not need the same resources suddenly because their joint pain was caused by a miserable job, unlike my joint pain that is caused by my collagen being a piece of shit? Are we gonna deny a wheelchair to someone who now needs it from an accident they got while working instead of having been born with paralysed legs? "Sorry ma'am, you got this from Capitalism so you're not a Real disabled uwu"

If that sounds stupid to you, then why is it ok to deny people who're dealing with long-term physical pain (CHRONIC PAIN) they acquired from their jobs the same access to community and other resources that people who'd be chronically in pain regardless of activity can get by declaring themselves chronically in pain?

And yes, you ARE surrounded by people who maybe are not disabled per se, but who're spending most of their lives being unhealthy (chronic... unhealthiness...) because they're working class people who have no option but to sell their physical labor and wellness in order to survive. Fucking duh.

Like at this point it seems you're clinging really hard to your Disability Club Card annoyed that too many people are getting in the club but for all the wrong reasons. A LOT more people are chronically ill than they realize, and in disability politics there's a saying that we're the biggest minority (20-30% of the population depending on where you are) that EVERYONE CAN JOIN AT ANY TIME. At times of rabid unchecked capitalism more people are going to join than ever. But you're too worried about feeling speshul instead of about offering community to those people. Ok!

This deserves its own post:

The normal level of daily pain for an able-bodied person is ZERO, without needing to take pain medication, not even off-the-counter meds.

Not a little, definitely not enough to be "distracting but tolerable" with or without Tylenol. ZERO. (I'm shocked too every time I remember that the norm is to live pain free unless something happened to you, I know.)

If your baseline of unmedicated daily pain is above zero, you're dealing with chronic pain and you need to come to terms with that reality.