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Okay, quick because I'm have to pick up my cousin...

God this hurt but I read your tags and I really hope Tobi survives and finds some kind of peace. This hurt so much. Fuck you Taijima and Hashirama too. And Izuna! Ugh. All of them!

I know it hurts, I’m sorry (that’s a lie) I’m having a super hard time deciding if Izuna is in on it, honestly duped by his Father along with Madara and Hashirama, or is more loyal to the Clan than his morals.  All of which could affect how it goes.

I will say that Hashirama.... he’s really mentally fucked up in this, like, I know he didn’t exactly come off the best, and I do tend to be Hashi-critical, but this is a young boy being tricked and gaslit by an adult - the parent of his only friend that he almost lost because of his family.  So.  Yeah.  But he and Madara are kinda horrible ninja in this so there’s that as well.

I have three ways that it could go for Tobirama (well, three plus the Bad Ending one that doesn’t even get to Tobi trying to warn the other Clan) - and they both boil down to how Madara and Hashirama react to Tobirama’s pleading with the other Clan (which I’m leaning towards being the Hatake).  

One way is that they still believe Tajima that Tobirama is brainwashed and push harder for that to be broken.   Previously they had been very involved in that because Hashirama want to a) prove his brother wrong that he is not the last of their line and b) save his poor brother and go back to being his brother’s hero (which he kinda lost even before the River because Tobirama had to face that Anija couldn’t save them in a more in-your-face type of way than Itama).  Pushing hard would probably mean that the group within the Uchiha request that they step way back because they don’t know what they are doing - he’s not a child like Hashirama was.  This one ends up as the Falsely Happy Ending because, uh, that group? Is full of Uchiha who have perfected breaking people’s minds using the Sharingan and rewriting them.  So technically Tobirama is happy and a part of the Uchiha in it.  It’s just that he had no real choice about it.

Another is that they believe him and are horrified because now they have to examine everything that they have done, and most of the canon Clans have been absorbed into the Uchiha.  In this the Hatake take Tobirama’s warning as he intended and negotiate to at least keep their religion as they become vassals of the Uchiha.  The situation is.  Well it’s terrible and there’s enough parts of the Uchiha clan that willingly follow Tajima (again, that group the ‘breaks brainwashing’) that even once Madara is Clan Head he really couldn’t change much because Ultra Super Ninja Powers or not, they are just two men.  Tobirama is bitter and it’s just.  Too little too late.  Definitely includes a scene where he tells Madara just what they did when they burned the Tree (maintaining that he never speaks to Hashirama again - he’d sooner bite his own tongue off).  This one has two ways it can go from there - Tobirama stays with the Uchiha Dynasty or Madara gets him to fake it until he is unSealed at which point he fucks off to be a hermit because the Senju are gone and he just.  He can’t.  Idk if Zetsu gets a hold of him in this or even if Zetsu’s plans can work.  Tobirama doesn’t invent the reanimation jutsu in this one.  This is the Unhappy Ending.

The last is the one that I mostly lean towards (and hinted at in the tags).  Similar to the Unhappy Ending, Madara and Hashirama are horrified at what has happened.  But the Hatake spit in the Uchiha’s face and gather a counter army starting with the Izunuka and Arubume.  They don’t necessarily like the Hyuuga, but the Hyuuga already have beef with the Uchiha and the enemy of my enemy and all that.  Madara and Hashirama try to form a rebellion inside of the Uchiha to help, but so many of those conquered claim to be happy now as Uchiha and not with their Evil Clans.  The boys are Confused.  Tobirama definitely chuckles darkly and calls them “stupid, selfish boys.” because of it.  They’ve let themselves be blinded by what they want and never thought about how suspicious it all was. and he’s oh so grateful that they were taking such a personal interest in him Master which kept him out of Those Hands. Tobirama is so, so bitter.  But the Hatake aren’t broken wide open like the Senju were and take Tobirama and Hashirama as a precautionary tale and inform their children about what happened.  That Tajima stole the Senju heir away and left them wide open to be destroyed and they must support and help one another.  The Clan Alliance actually does pretty well as Madara does convince Tobirama that he never wanted this and he would be willing to undo it if he could (he went and looked up the Old Religion of the Uchiha and tried to offer up his Eyes to Tobirama in recompense.  Tobirama told him to use those Eyes to protect the remaining Senju instead.) and thus the Uchiha Rebellion starts as well.  So Tobirama at least gets free and Madara probably ends up renouncing the Uchiha at the end and someone, idk who, goes off and becomes a hermit, but Tobirama does get peace at the end or at least as close to it as he can given that the Senju were literally Soul-bound to the Tree and he has no idea what’s going to happen to them now. (I’d leave it open-ended on that because I kinda like the idea of the lose of that confidence in death).  This is the Happy-ish Ending

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#5

Genre: fluff :)

Word count: <1k

A/n: sorry I've had this request forever but never got it out but here it is! Happy jisung day everyone

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Jisung has pretty lips. Especially when he smiles and they almost make a heart shape. His eyes are also pretty. Even if they're small, they just look perfect on his face. Speaking of his face, what a perfect nose. And to tie it all together that mole just outside his lips. Sigh. You think all of this to yourself because it's much more interesting than anything your teacher was saying. What was she saying?

"Y/n? Y/n, I asked you a question," she sternly scolds you.

"I'm sorry, what did you ask?" you feel heavily embarrassed and can feel the heat rising to your cheeks.

Trying your best to stay focused for the rest of class, you are more than ecstatic when the bell rings for that period. Caught up in your own little world you don't notice the lingering eyes of a specific boy in your class that you happen to have a crush on.

This is a pretty typical day for you, mindlessly thinking about a certain tall, dark-haired boy instead of your actual classes. What you had never accounted for was the idea that someone could hear you.

If you can hear me right now, sneeze. You jokingly think to yourself, just in case. So, when the boy on your brain sneezed a few seconds later, your heart rate slightly increased. Surely it was a coincidence, right? If you can hear me, cough. You think again, just as a precautionary matter. The boy coughed slightly before asking to go to the drinking fountain. Now you were really considering the possibility, but it wasn't real, right?

By the end of the class period, you were nearly shaking from overthinking about it. There’s absolutely no way. You try to convince yourself that you’re just being silly, and honestly that’s the truth. The only reason you’re even considering it is that no matter how many dumb little tests you did, he passed every single one.

“Hey, y/n,” a familiar voice pulls you out of your thoughts.

It’s him. You think to yourself. “Oh hey, Jisung.”

“I was just wondering if you’re free this Friday,” he sounds confident, but the way he refuses to make eye contact shows that he is still a tinge shy about it.

You’re in the middle of a mental debate with yourself. Is it a date? No, probably not. Why would Park Jisung ask me out on a date?

“I mean, are you free to go out with me?” He changed the phrasing but still avoided the word in question. So it is a date? “Yes, y/n, it’s a date,” he smacks his hand over his mouth like he said something wrong, and you realize that it’s because you hadn’t actually questioned the idea of the date out loud, you had only thought about it.

Park Jisung, can you read my mind? He blinks once. Can you hear my thoughts? He blinks again, making no other movements. “Jisung,” you exhale.

“Yes?”

“Answer the question,” you huff. He does nothing more than blink once in response. Jisung, I like you. Well, that finally got a reaction out of him. His ears slowly turn a tinge of red as his face seems to move without his knowledge. He opens and closes his mouth, unable to piece together any sentence fragments. By now you’ve come to your own conclusion on the matter. Park Jisung, I would love to go on a date with you on Friday. He nods as you skip away to your next destination.

142 notes • Posted 2021-02-05 17:40:39 GMT

#4

Doing boyfriend!Jaemin's makeup fluff

“Pleeaaase,” you pout at your boyfriend, Jaemin, who is currently slouched on your sofa with one leg hanging over its arm.

“I already said yes, y/n, you don’t have to whine,” he jokingly glares at you.

“Yes!” you cheer. “Come sit over here,” you point at another chair by your mirror.

He does as told, and you start putting moisturizer and primer on his face. Once his skin was prepped, you realized the angle was a bit difficult so you plopped yourself in his lap without a second thought. He huffs, eyes going big as he adjusts you slightly. He relaxes again, his hands finding their way to rest on the tops of your thighs, near your hips. All without saying a word to each other, you put a full face of makeup on him.

“All done,” you smile at him.

“Did you make me pretty?” He looks up at you, batting his mascara coated eye lashes.

“You were already pretty,” you giggle, “but yes, you look pretty with the makeup.”

He swivels you around, maneuvering to look in the mirror behind you. “Wow, it looks good, but I think this lip color would look better on you than me,” he admits, tightening his grip on you.

He lunges his pink puckered lips at you as you try your best to dodge his love filled attacks. He lets out a muffled, “stay still,” as he finally manages to capture your lips in his. He pulls back, a proud smile on his face. “I was right, it does.”

180 notes • Posted 2021-05-10 21:00:55 GMT

#3

Park Jisung Masterlist

☆ favorite ♧ series

Secret Smooches

Name Your Price

I Believe

The First Date

Christmas Cookies

Daisy notes☆♧ (open ended)

2:13 pm

His Bucket Full of Dinosaurs

9:02 pm

Scary Movie

2:23 pm

Cutely Clumsy

9:32 am☆

Pinching Game

Box of Chocolates

9:38 pm☆

Fluff prompt 1+2

Fluff prompt 17+18

Fluff prompt 5

Fluff prompt 19

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Fluff prompt 10

Fluff prompt 8

Fluff prompt 2+18

Making Out

Fluff prompt 6+21☆

Fluff prompt 18

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186 notes • Posted 2021-06-16 16:41:01 GMT

#2

8:54 pm fluff

"Hey Jeno can I wear this? It's kinda chilly," you ask the boy sitting next to you on the couch. The two of you had been watching a movie together like usual. It was a tradition that started years ago for you to spend Thursday nights curled up, watching really terrible movies.

He looks to the hoodie he had recently taken off and nods. The thought of you wearing his clothes leaving a slight pink tint across his cheeks and the tips of his ears.

You slip the hoodie over your head, relishing in its newfound warmth. Breathing in, you unintentionally inhale his scent. It smelled good. That thought hadn't crossed your mind before now, but you smile unconsciously at it.

Turning your head, Jeno is already looking right back at you. "Do I look silly?" You giggle, pulling your sweater covered hands up to your face.

"Just a little bit," he says, leaning in closer. "I'll fix it." He brings his hands up to your head, smoothing out the hair you assume was messy from putting on the hoodie. He sits still for just a moment, clearly deliberating something in his mind. You jut out your lip, looking up at him as he leant down and placed his lips to your forehead.

It seems like he notices what he did as he shoots backwards, nearly knocking himself off the couch. "There," he nods at you, "much better."

"Thank you," you shyly cheer, suddenly very aware of the way Jeno makes your heart beat faster.

198 notes • Posted 2021-05-04 01:12:06 GMT

#1

1:57 pm, fluff, no warnings

"Can I pet your hair?" You shyly ask Renjun. You'd be lying if you said it hadn't taken you multiple weeks to build up the courage to ask.

"Huh," he acts like he couldn't hear you. Upon realizing you were not going to repeat yourself, he smiles, nodding. "Y/n, please play with my hair."

He takes a seat in front of the sofa, patting the cushion for you to sit behind him. You offer him the remote and he turns on some cartoons as you slip your fingers through his scalp. His hair was soft and fluffy, just as you expected. Even though it had been bleached and dyed, it still looked healthy.

He hums a little, letting you know that he likes it. Slowly, he leans his head back, it landing in your lap. He looks at you upside down. "Y/n?"

"Yes," you stammer, feeling the heat of your blush all over your face.

"Can I kiss you?"

You glance at his lips. They looked so pink and sweet. You gulp, shakily agreeing. Never removing your gaze from his lips, you note the way they turn upward in a smile after your answer. You lean down to push together your lips, feeling that same grim of his against your own.

Sitting back upright, you look at him for some sort of clue as to how he felt about it. He's still looking up at you, a wide smile on his mouth that previously connected with yours, and crinkled eyes showcasing sparkles and genuineness. He licks his lips subconsciously and turns around facing you. "Can you do it again?"

198 notes • Posted 2021-05-29 23:27:30 GMT

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[sorceressmidnight]

Midnight Sorceress

Chapter: 7/? [1 - 2 - 3 - 4 - 5 - 6 - 7 - 8 - 9 - ?]

Chapter 7: Good Guy Tony

Words: 1443

Warnings: Some cursing, bruises, hospitalization, broken bones

Primarily following the events of the Marvel Cinematic Universe, it revolves around an original character.

Description as posted on ao3:  A member of SHIELD is forced to struggle with her mental stability and keeping her secret as the craziness surrounding the Avengers crashes around her. She ends up befriending Tony and Pepper, who help out her mental health a great deal, but will they be able to help her with her secret? Something that could destroy her if she uses it too much… What will happen when Tony tries to convince her to use it to help the Avengers?

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This chapter happens during Age of Ultron and somewhat after.

Tony plopped down on the bed, kicking his shoes off and letting them plop to the floor. It was the room that Clint and Laura was letting him stay in until they left to finish the fight that had been started. He heard the door open and turned his head to see Kiana walking into the room with him, closing the door behind herself. She pulled her shoes off, grabbing the ones he let fall to the floor and setting both pairs next to the door. He sat up and looked at her as she sat down at the edge of the bed. “Hey,” she smiled softly. “Hey…” he offered a half smile, “Ugh… I seriously can’t believe this.” He groaned as he plopped back against the bed, covering his face with his arm. “We’re stuck here… while he’s out there… he’s out there doing who knows what!” She crawled up further on the bed, leaning on her elbows while lying next to him. “We all need to allow ourselves a second to breathe. If we rush out there right now, who knows what’ll happen.” “We don’t have a second to breathe! This is worse than New York! He can access anything on the internet! It’s not just a bunch of enemies shooting at us and breaking buildings! I... “ He buried his face into his hands, slightly pulling at the ends of his hair. She gently grabbed his hands and pulled them off of his face, staring down at him and giving a soft smile. “We’ll figure this out together. We’re like a family. We have each other’s back.” He looked up at her as she spoke, eyes widening as he looked over her neck, a large bruise there around where Ultron had grabbed her by the throat. He reached his hand to gently touch the bruise, eyes watering as his lips parted, struggling to find the words he wanted to say. He pulled her against his chest, holding her tightly and resting his head against the top of hers. “This is my fault… I… I got you hurt… This… This would have never happened if I didn’t insist on bringing you out to fight… Pepper was right. I should have let you go with her when she left…” “Tony…” “I’m so stupid… I have to stop him…” he was brought out of his daze by the sharp feeling of nails pinching his cheeks, a stern look from the female he was holding. “Tony. You didn’t know what was going to happen. I’m sure that girl used her powers to make you see something she wanted you to. She fed on your paranoia. People make mistakes Tony… the best thing we can do is work to fix them as best as we can and I’ll be with you the entire time. ‘Kay?” She smiled brightly at him, gentle blue eyes filled with hope meeting harsh brown eyes holding a mixture of anger, self hatred, and sorrow. He gently cupped his hand over her cheek, pulling her face down before pressing his lips against hers. Her eyes widened, a red flushing over her cheeks before swiftly pulling back and staring down at him with widened eyes. “T-Tony… I know you’re upset… but what about Pep?” He sighed, covering his face with his hands. “I know… I’m sorry. I… dunno. I’m just so confused. I’ve never felt like this before…” He groaned. “Well… why don’t you talk about it? What are you confused about?” Her expression changed as she talked, slightly worried about him. “I… It’s just… I think... I like both you and Pepper? I don’t know… You’ve both been there for me in different ways… I’ve never been more comfortable than when you both have been living with me… Yet I’m still extremely worried… I’m terrified of anything happening to either of you.” She couldn’t help but laugh, resting head against his chest as she tried to stop herself. His brows furrowed, pouting slightly and poking her cheek. “I’m having a moment, what the heck is so funny?” his tone was offended, but his expression showed he was joking. “You don’t remember, do you?” she laughed, looking up at him. “Just continue or let me finish being emotional for the first time in my life,” he jokingly mocked, knowing she knew that was definitely not true. “You were joking a while ago, when you were flirting with me,” she rolled her eyes with a giggle, “you made a comment about convincing Pepper to be poly. I dunno how she’ll even feel about the idea, but we can talk it over when things calm down a little. She’s a lot more understanding than a lot of people I know. I mean being polyamorous isn’t even that unusual. There are a lot of people who are in poly relationships. We’ll work on that later, though. Right now we have to focus on saving the world, mmkay?” He gave a soft smile in response, kissing her cheek and nodding before letting his head fall back on the pillow.

Tony ran into the hospital room, barely having time to breathe after landing. He frantically looked through the numbered rooms, almost missing it before sliding around and making his way into the room. “Oh, hey Tony…” Kiana weakly murmured from the hospital bed, bandages around her head, covering her eye. There were bandages on her arms as well, while the rest of her was covered with the sheet. “What did the doctor say?” he asked so fast, he forgot to breathe until he managed to get it out, taking a deep breath afterwards. “I should’ve stopped you from coming… I… I should’ve taken better precautionary actions to make sure it didn’t happen…” he murmured to himself. “Hey… It’s not that bad. I just need to take it easy for a while and let my body heal up. He said I should avoid using my powers for up to a month and up to a year or two before I can use my powers at their full potential again. It just means I’ll have to get used to cooking with my own two hands again,” she laughed softly. “Don’t worry, I’ll hire you a personal chef. I want you doing as little as possible until you’re completely better.” He leaned down, hugging her as he rested his head on her shoulder. “What other problems did the doctor say?” “A couple of broken ribs, some other broken bones…” she winced softly, rubbing her head. “C-can you call the nurse? S-sorry… I’ve been having trouble thinking due to the pain... “ “Yeah, of course. Anything you need, just let me know.” He walked out the door to find a nurse.

Tony visited Kiana every single day she was still in the hospital, making arrangements at the tower to make it easier for her to get around while still healing up. It was between five to six months before she returned to the tower. The two were sitting on the couch, her surrounded with lots of pillows, as he brought up some clips off of the internet. “This kid has been acting like a vigilante. His whole scheme is like spider boy or something.” “Super human abilities or just?” “It seems like it, just watch,” he responded, starting the video as it showed someone dressed up in red and blue running around and stopping minor criminals. They watched some more videos, most of them being news clips, but some being random recording from people on the street watching the incident happen in front of them. “Lemme guess,” she pursed her lips as the last video was stopped, “you want to recruit him for the Avengers?” “No. I mean he seems like he would be a useful ally, but I don’t think I’d want to drag him into this. I already know who he is, so I can go visit him when I need to, but I want to try to avoid that for now.” “Oh yeah? Is he a teen?” “Good guess. I don’t want to drag him down into this lifestyle if I can avoid it… but… if need be I will go recruit him.” “Good guy Tony trying to let Spider boy live his life as normally as he can.” “Shut up,” he laughed, wrapping his arm around her shoulders and pulling her head against his own shoulder. “Anyway, I got some of your favorite movies and food is on the way.” “Good. Pizza?” “Yeah and some other stuff. Might be a few ding dongs.” “Ding dong,” she giggled and pressed his nose, looking at the television as a movie started.

[pipesandsushipersonal]

Update [Trigger Warning] : The censoring of victims never ends

There will always be someone wanting to shut others up, to make the sensitive topics invisible. Whether they know it or not and regardless of their reasons, this creates an atmosphere that makes those who are affected by these topics invisible as well. 

Tonight, my mother told me something I’ve heard from her numerous times before. It seems no matter how many times she repeats it, however, it never hurts less. And it never invalidates less. 

Trigger warning for the topics in the first 2 tags.

A little background: I am nineteen (19) now and have been in therapy for about a decade so far. Tomorrow is my first psychiatrist appointment at my new counseling center. I aged out of my previous center, and it’s taken a little while for me to get set back up. Now that I have, it’s time to re-tell my background, my ‘story’ so to speak. Again. This is something I always dread with new places. I hate not only having a growing list of strangers who know these details (no matter how legally bound these professionals are to silence), but especially having to say them. During intake you really only say a very brief summary of what has happened in your life (that which affects your mental health) but one question alone can be heavy and incredibly loaded in a way that just answering yes or no gives them so much information on its own. Delicate information, especially if you are still considered a minor by the law. 

You see, for one under the age of 18, this question could very well mean the destruction of your home life, or at least the disruption of your life. I am not under 18 as stated before, but that fear of what could occur were I to answer yes is still very deeply instilled in me.

Anyway. I only mentioned that because it provides necessary background to understand the small conversation that I had (or didn’t have) with my mother.

She called me over to where she was sitting on the recliner watching t.v., saying she needed to ask me something. She hesitated, saying she didn’t want me to get angry, and I urged her to just say whatever it was on her mind. I assumed it was about my boyfriend, some sort of precautionary statement about who know’s what. She took me slightly by surprise, however, and instead said that tomorrow at my appointment she didn’t want me to mention anything about my brother. I didn’t understand what she meant at first, I guess I just thought she was over that. Apparently not.

She asked me not to mention what happened with him, to basically Lie. Again. This is the same as when I was little. Throughout my entire childhood and until now, Every Single time that she suspected I’d be presented with the chance to speak out I was censored, shut up, silenced. I will say I understand she just wants to protect her other child, I always have. What I still cannot take is how much she doesn’t understand why that hurts.

When she said that I didn’t really reply, just walked back to what I was doing, trying not to get upset. She then said “Or just tone it down, don’t say the whole extent”. I told her, this is just for medication, none of that is relevant in this appointment and will not be asked. I wasn’t going to tell her yes or no, partly because I had already answered their questions in the intake and partly because this many years later it is no longer a possibility for it to affect him in any way. What I say, due to my age, is now 100% confidential. I am now an adult and whether I tell them or not, they cannot take it into their own hands which is what had happened in the past. She has no reason to worry, so I tried to tell her not to without getting into an actual conversation because lord knows I was already getting upset as it was.

Once again, this is to be swept under the rug. I am to keep quiet and look after everyone else except myself I suppose.

It’s whatever, I guess. There’s nothing I can do to stop those words from coming out of her mouth each and every time I am to meet with someone new in the mental health system. It just hurts, and I can’t avoid that sinking feeling I get in my gut when I hear her say that.

It just takes me straight back to the times I was told the same thing when I was a child. And the feeling of being silenced never changes.