#(ooc: the translations in readmore is really good i should do that)

[incorrigibleimpasto]

°h fuck +he rum°rs are +rue ! d° have p!ss p°°r read!ng c°mphrehens!°n

g°°d f°r y'all +h° ha+e w!ns °r wha+ever

(plain text under cut)

translation:

oh fuck the rumors are true I do have piss poor reading comprehension

good for y'all tho hate wins or whatever

Hey, II pulled a biitch. You losers need to learn how to get more comfortable wiith the iidea of dyiing and possessiing your kiismeses' eyes.

OOC THE HTML IS WORKING AGAIN!!

YE^H TBH WH^TEVER YOU TWO H^VE GOING ON IS WEIRD ^S FUCK. ENTERT^INING FOR ME THOUGH

[freevoidman]

Okay I’m reading through Porg’s update so some of y’all can save your braincells and here are some great highlights (under a readmore bc i couldn’t help but tear into a few things she suggested):

Flat out ignoring that Vergil had changed by the end of the game as a result of V and Urizen’s separate experiences.

In trying to make V and Urizen their own character, she throws out the idea of Vergil being manipulated by the Qliphoth/Urizen (??? somehow??? even though the tree is implied to be non-sentient i believe???), with V being a Devil hunter looking through the remains of Mallet Island (which was completely blown up, turned to rubble, and then swallowed by the sea, so... that can’t happen), finding the cane which makes him youthful and not sick but... having the cane makes it so he can only kill demons through the cane??? for some reason??? And he needs the Qliphoth fruit to heal himself and free him from the curse???

How did she make V’s backstory even more confusing and complicated how the fuck did she do that

Almost immediately after bringing up the cane, she instead changes it to be one of the rings he’s wearing because she wants her “precious V” to use weapons other than the cane, which makes all the prior paragraphs about the cane’s curse and only using it pointless. She’s the one writing this fic, why can’t she edit her own work so it’s more cohesive?

Despite saying that V should be a Devil Hunter, she doesn’t explain why someone who is supposed to be killing demons would form a pact with at least three to fight demons. Her rewrite dismisses Visions of V, and she even states later that the manga is a waste of time as it won’t ever be translated into English (which 1) is not a limiting factor to reading it as many people have translated it already and 2) doesn’t dismiss it’s value at building up V’s character, who she supposedly likes the best).

Also, for someone who complains about DMC5 being a rehash of DMC3, she’s sure doing her best to change it to a rehash of DMC1 (Vergil being controlled by an outside force, bringing back Mallet Island, bringing back Mundus [the cane is supposed to be tied to Mundus]).

V apparently can’t be human because she wants to give him a devil trigger, despite having 3 familiars and his own strength. Okay I guess?

Also it’s really fucking sick how she describes V changing, because it’s apparently V fusing with Nightmare? Devil May Cry has never been one for body horror but she straight up says she was inspired by “The Thing (1982), The Fly (1986), Bloodborne, and Resident Evil 7″ for the transformation imagery and I wanted to nope the fuck out of there real quick.

Her segments of actual fiction writing and dialogue are really bad it’s almost like a parody Youtube skit.

She switches between prose and script writing randomly, it’s really odd. She does it primarily with Dante i’ve noticed? Here’s an example I wrote of what she does:

“Hey, don’t stress out about it will you?” Says John following a few steps behind VINCENT: Don’t get your panties in a twist

And that just happens... randomly? Like, there’s no indication why she’s doing that it just happens.

She straight up writes notes in her fic about the controls for character actions in-game what the hell--

She also shamelessly puts in a link to artwork that clearly isn’t her’s (and I highly doubt she got permission to post about) to try and show what V’s Devil Trigger would look like. I couldn’t find it because I don’t know how pixiv works, but that’s just a shitty move, especially with how she treats artists on tumblr when they draw art of Vergil.

EDIT: Porg has now straight up copy-pasted the art into her fic without the artist’s permission which is, we all know, fucking theft. While it is good artistry, is just a weird mashup of Vergil’s and Dante’s. It’s not all that unique and I don’t understand why she had to reference a bunch of body horror shit when all the Devil Triggers in game are essentially just a large flash of light and a seamless transition between forms??? It’s good art, I’m not trying to bash the artist, but... Porg, you could’ve been a little more original here rather than just ripping off another artist’s designs...

Everyone in her fic acts super casually to seeing Vergil alive in the Qliphoth and it’s like... honey, no.

Vergil acts WILDLY out of character holy fuck. Like, I know I should have expected that but this is NOT how Vergil would act in the slightest. She’s pretty much writing an OC.

Building off of this: EVERYONE acts OOC and... it’s not exactly cringey, but it is perfect proof that Porg doesn’t know what she’s doing and hasn’t properly analyzed the characters.

Dante acts weirdly... detached? There’s no sign of him acting like his normal goofball-y self, and he’s much more serious than normal. He actually acts more like cannon Vergil than himself, actually. (He also knows CPR apparently? Which... is a skill he would really never bother learning, so...)

Nero doesn’t act nearly as emotional, and acts calmly for some reason. You can’t feel any of his emotions behind his dialogue, only through the adverbs added to the tags)

V is too informative. He knows way too much about random shit that... no one should rightfully know. I’ll mention it more later, but... V doesn’t act like himself and I don’t really know how to explain it.

Vergil is essentially her OC. Seriously--he’s not as brooding or snarky, he’s far too open and apologetic, there’s practically no sense of rivalry between him and Dante. Weirdly, he acts more like canon V than fic!V does, despite the fact that Porg wants to establish V and Vergil and separate characters. His actions also make no sense when put alongside his canon personality. We aren’t reading anything about Vergil, we’re reading about Porg’s weirdly idealized version of him.

I’m going to make a break in the post here because I feel like this is the part that needs the most attention:

Porg goes OUT OF HER WAY to dedicate a GIANT portion of this chapter to her own OC: Nero’s mom. There are several long paragraphs of establishing the relationship between her OC and Vergil, talking about leaving Fortuna, how they were ‘happy’ and then saying that after a hurricane (inspired by hurricane hugo, you’ll see later) she got separated from Vergil, never reconnected with him, GAVE BIRTH, died from a demon attack with Nero staying near her corpse, and then Nero was found by humans and taken off the mainland to be taken to an orphanage on Fortuna. She wanted a massive amount of time to be taken out of the fun parts of playing Devil May Cry to establish a relationship that would never come back and essentially turn into a 15 minute soap opera inserted into a game about having fun killing demons.

Alright back to the noted highlights.

Porg confirms in her fic that the universe of Devil May Cry happens in the US, and that Fortuna is an island along the southeast coast and I want to fucking rip my eyeballs out at this point.

The ONLY REASON why she is doing this is because she lives in Florida. I know she does, and she just wants to imply that this is all happening near her home turf. How anyone who lives in Florida thinks an island like Fortuna can exist is beyond me though, because playing through 4, most of the buildings are inspired by Italian designs, and no one in the states would build an entire island with italian designs. I’ve been to Florida multiple times--there’s no buildings there even REMOTELY designed to match Fortuna.

EDIT: I have been informed that Porg actually lives in Pennsylvania, not Florida, which makes both more and less sense. Why Florida? Why not a hidden island up on the east coast? Why does this have to be taking place in the states at all Porg???

Yeah, let’s take Nero off the MAINLAND OF FLORIDA after a DEVASTATING HURRICANE and send him to an orphanage on an ISLAND which would’ve been hit the hardest by ANY hurricane. TOTAL SENSE. 

She tries to make her own timeline for the series using actual real world dates and events and it’s terrible (she references Hurricane Hugo in 1989, and confidently states that 3 took place in 1990, despite all evidence for the actual dates of events being fan theory established through circumstantial evidence).

There’s so much horror movie inspiration here--not cheap horror, but really twisted shit that... doesn’t fit with Devil May Cry’s tone at all? In the slightest? She references Jacob’s Ladder, plus all the other body horror media I wrote above.

Straight up just tears Vergil’s arm off which sure, I guess we gotta make THAT a parallel between Nero and Vergil. They can have a father son moment over being physically maimed.

In the scene immediately before this, Urizen picks up Vergil by the head and roots around Vergil’s memories (somehow???) to show him all the ‘bad moments’ in his life to traumatize him. She describes it as the audience getting flashes of him falling to hell, charging Mundus, being Nelo Angelo, etc. 

This causes Vergil to cry and beg for Urizen to stop. Then Urizen rips off his arm. So. Yeah. Another point for the OOC!Vergil/OC-taking-Vergil’s-place board.

Also this point ALONE made me realize that Porg does not know how much time, effort, and money needs to be put into making assets. Like, the entire fic she was stressing that everything be done in 5′s HD Graphics--including the ruins of Mallet Island, so I have to assume she’d want these little snippets in HD too, which would be a massive money hole creating these assets for one scene that lasts maybe ten seconds total.

I know I stated it in one of my earlier posts, but most of what she’s writing would fit better with a sequel for the reboot series, not DMC5. It would make her OOC writing of Vergil make sense, all the horror movie inspiration and body horror shit would fit better there, especially all the crappy dialogue too.

She somehow made Griffon even MORE annoying than in cannon.

BTW if I had to listen to poetry while fighting the final boss of a video game, I’d sooner turn my PS4 off. Not that poetry isn’t cool and all, but it cheapens the final fight and distracts you. It wouldn’t work.

EDIT: I realized this point made no sense without context, sorry. Porg made the Book of Urizen (the poetry book by William Blake referenced multiple times by V) either weirdly prophetic or made it out like Blake had inner knowledge of demon powers or... something along those lines, and V magically has the knowledge that reciting poetry from the book about Urizen will... harm him? Weaken him? Open a gate to hell (she mentions a portal appearing near him)? It’s very unclear, but she essentially rewrites Urizen as the final boss, and makes it three stages (V [Griffon recites some verses, which is what the first point was about], Vergil and Dante [this is where Vergil gets his arm ripped off btw], and then Nero) with all three of them reading poetry from the book to deal the ��final blow” to Urizen. I’d much rather have Vergil be the final boss than have to go through a three-stage boss fight while every character I play as recites poetry to kill the boss.

She mentions Dante using Sin DT against Urizen but I’m pretty sure with her fuckery of the game’s events Dante can’t GET Sin DT? Because there’s no fight between Nero and Urizen where he’d intervene?

COMPLETELY IGNORES VERGIL’S DEVELOPMENT OF WANTING TO TRAVEL WITH HIS BROTHER THROUGH HELL TO ELIMINATE THE QLIPHOTH FUCK OFF.

Also she changed the lore of the Qliphoth so that it sprouts semi-naturally around every 500 or so years? So... shouldn’t leaving the Qliphoth roots be fine now? Since it’s natural?

Nico acts like growing back arms is totally normal

Wrote an INCREDIBLY shoe-horned in moment in the van with Dante filling Trish and Lady in about finding Vergil and everything that happened where, once again, Trish and Lady act almost completely nonplussed that Vergil is alive after 20+ years in hell, with about 9 of those ten years being trapped under Mundus’ control and corrupted by the Demon King

Seriously why is no one surprised in this fic that Vergil survived? Dante has a brief moment before finding him, but everyone finds out and accepts it like flipping a switch (once again--ESPECIALLY DANTE, which is NOT how the grieving process works)

Porg states that the ending is trash because the twins are fighting in hell, but completely ignores that most of Dante and Vergil’s lives have been built on conflict and they like fighting demons, especially Dante. Both of them were happy and doing what they love.

She also completely ignores through this entire thing that Dante was really fucking depressed in the novels leading up to 5 but hey I don’t even know if she can read.

I can vaguely agree that Trish and Lady were sidelined and they should’ve had a bigger role. However, I can’t fault the directors for not doing this, because they were already developing three playable characters with their own unique fighting styles. She writes all this shit about the story, writes notes about controls and mission layouts, but forgets that it takes a lot more than pressing a single button to code a game.

She just doesn’t know what she’s talking about. Seriously, none of these things are cohesive or edited properly, and despite her saying she wanted better for Vergil, or Nero, or Dante, or V, she writes all of them incredibly out of character and doing illogical actions. I just... I don’t get it.

The best part is--I can’t even tell her about these things, or give constructive criticism. She moderates the comments on her fic and isn’t afraid to delete anything she doesn’t agree with or can’t make a ‘passionate rant’ about.

[biinarysttars]

Pride!

Djkfdghd I have more feelings about Pride. Like a Lot more. I should put this under a readmore but I’m going to force everyone to read (or at least scroll past) my thoughts

favorite thing about them: He’s a fantastic antagonist! He was so well built up to, and he was almost a surprise. I remember when I first saw Selim Bradley... well okay I thought he was the Fuhrer’s butch daughter, Celine Bradley. But then after that my next thought was “man I sure hope there’s nothing Up with this kid”, and as I said that I immediately knew that there Was. I might’ve started out as an Envy stan, but I loved Selim the second I saw him & that translates into my feelings of him being a villain. So just. Everything, I guess, is my point

least favorite thing about them: I mean?? I sorta wish that there really was nothing up with that kid. But I’m not that upset about it, all things considered, because then there would be no Pride so!!

favorite line: There are So many. I’ll limit myself to 2 because those are the ones that showed up on the website lmao but here we go:

"Stop this. Stop this. PLEASE STOP!!!"-- His last words. That’s so!!! Compelling to me. The begging, the shame, the desperation. Idk, this is the first we’ve seen him emote through the whole show, and what we see is Pride’s fear.

"Wrath and like do not exist in me. There is no wrath, or lust, or sloth, or greed, or gluttony, or envy, such emotions have fled from my father. My name is Pride."/"I'm not angry. I'm never angry."-- I love this detail? Idk the Pride I RP @pridesshadows​ is absolutely OOC but this is something I’ve paid special attention to. Also! He’s only ever introduced himself, to my knowledge, with the phrase, “My name is Pride.” So. Idk, I love it when there’s Details for me to pay attention to

brOTP: Bold of you to assume Pride could have a friend. That being said I know that IC Envy doesn’t like him that much, but like. On the RP blog I absolutely Love RPing with Envy so that, I guess

OTP: Bold of you to assume Pride could land a S/O!!! I mean. I’d smooch. But also I run the risk of getting killed. So. Y’know, give or take lmao

nOTP: Pride x anyone. Don’t put him near anyone. A canon thing that’s been said is that he doesn’t care about anyone-- he doesn’t think of anyone as anything but as a tool, and the second that tool fails him, he throws it away and gets a new one. Lock Pride in a box. He’s my fave but he deserves to be alone

random headcanon: I have 3 and they’re all vaguely related

His persona as Selim Bradley isn’t entirely fake-- when he was Actually that young, he had a similar innocent and curious nature. This was torn down after a few century’s years of abuse and whatnot

Pride’s main role is to pose as a student and gather information-- keep up with trends and language and things

He likes to cook, even if he doesn’t eat. He just likes to Make Food & then throw it out I guess

unpopular opinion: I really like his ending. I don’t know if this is a “popular” opinion but I once saw someone complain about how he “becomes” Selim Bradley for real at the end, saying that it “redeemed” him. First off. No. Pride died! He’s dead now!! Now it’s Selim Bradley, a Good Boy who cares about birds and does his best and loves his mom!! I went on a whole rant, but ultimately, I love his ending because it’s not his. It’s Mrs Bradley’s. She lost her husband and her son, and she learned the truth about them, and probably wondered what she’d had to begin with!

songs i associate with them: Okay this one is solely about my RP blog dfjkghdf but I have a Playlist that details Pride’s feelings in 5 songs over basically the entire course of the RP “plotline”. It has All Eyes on Me, his feelings when Father left the homunculi and by default, him in charge of the plan; perfect nothing as he tries to fulfill the plan as it steadily slips through his fingers; ‘Cause I’m a Liar from when he starts treating people worse and worse and starts lying to himself about the plan still being a thing; ECHO is his character crisis as he struggles with a “purposeless” existence; and finally, Ghost Rule is him finally admitting to himself that he’s given up. Also!! Evan’s concept comes from For Forever from Dear Evan Hansen, and sometimes I think about their wedding to Voices in My Head from Be More Chill, and also sometimes in the shower I sing a very emotional Requiem again from DEH, and it’s Pride’s Feelings about everything he’s done

favorite picture of them:

I did it really quick so it’s kinda bad but fgdhjkgh please Enjoy

[worldoftheskeptic]

Rules

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Do

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[blindedguilt]

Will be posting OOC for this because I don't care to put too much attention on my alt, and this will be a bit of a longer post so I'll be putting it under a readmore for convenience's sake, but hey there!! I don't mean to intrude, and this isn't exactly the easiest thing to bring up, but Shinjuku Roundtable was one of the older translations i worked on with a couple of friends (Along with 1.3, Magnitude Negative, and both interviews and retrospectives for World Inside) and I do wanna start off with that I hoped you liked it!! My older translations aren't great and I apologise 😭

As I said, it's a bit difficult to bring up and I wanna preface with saying I'm not at all mad at you for posting this!! This is the first time I've actually publicly brought it up and I've been debating on whether or not I should (I really am sorry for saying it in the form of a repost too, unfortunately other options weren't available:() but I did want to clarify, all my works on Accord's Library are being held without my consent and the publicity from them is causing a lot of turmoil and stress both online and offline. I've tried asking them to take them off, but unfortunately they when I asked they weren't budging.

To further clarify, I had joined Accord's Library when I was still pretty new to the fanbase and was unaware of just how,,, awful it could be? People were pretty passive-aggressive to me mainly for my favourite character being Leonard (Along with a few smaller reasons relating to preferences and/or opinions as far as the games/characters/my translation work was concerned) since just about the first day I've started, though, I hadn't realised it or thought the isolating behaviour/treating me as a suspicious person was "deserved" because Leonard was "problematic". One of these included a mod member who did consistently laud me as being a "normal" Leonard fan compared to all the "crazy" ones out there (the difference was that i was,,,, really, really ashamed to openly talk or share anything about him after seeing people's reactions when i said i liked his character after first entering the fanbase) and I ended up placing a lot of stress on myself to keep those expectations and "prove my worth". Essentially, though, I felt like shit without ever really knowing why and never really batted an eye at it until they had falsely accused a good friend of mine (Who was the first person I met who also enjoyed Leonard's character a similar amount) of being an predator with intent to go after children after a conversation with me where they spoke about their experience dealing with OCD and their guilt over the intrusive thoughts resulting from that. The mod ended up posting a callout on Twitter which resulted in a huge wave of harassment, threats, etc. mainly consisting of mutuals of this mod and fans of Accord's Library that followed that account seeing my involvement in the conversation and the addition of my own dealings with intrusive thoughts (While I never specified what nature they were, I did make it clear I knew what they were talking about, which seems to have led people to think I was also a predator or sympathetic to them). I ended up having to delete my old translation blog (drakengard-translations) and step away from translation entirely as a result. I can't say what's happened to my friend who was the target of the callout since I've been unable to find them since the incident, but to my knowledge, they've had to completely abandon their discord account and (hopefully) start a new online life somewhere else as a result. I really hope wherever they are that they're doing better, because I can't imagine the harassment and bullying they must have faced because of how my actions led to a sensitive conversation about mental health getting misinterpreted in such a disgusting way.

I didn't end up leaving Accord's Library till roughly a few weeks to a month later, where the harassment and isolating behaviour (Especially around the release of Magnitude Negative, where a few disparaging comments kinda pulled out the last screw) finally did me in. While at the time I didn't hold AL or that mod accountable for any of it, and really just blamed myself for my short-sightedness and inconveniencing everyone, it took months of grieving and processing to realise that whole experience was… Off? To say the least.

I realised, beyond just not wanting to be associated with the site for how much the judgmental attitude of its followers and staff had utterly destroyed my drive to translate, something I had started out of motivation for my friends and other western fans of the Drakengard series to get the whole experience, that AL's publicity of my works was becoming extremely emotionally triggering for me and the fact it laid grounds for further harassment.

Aside from this RP blog, which I normally try to keep separate from my work in translation when possible, my alt blog has been my first attempt to put myself out there publicly since the incident that unfolded about 2 years ago, and even then I remain extremely conservative with who I follow and interact with. It's caused a good bit of damage to my mental health to the point it began to affect my professional life, with out-of-the-blue anxiety seize ups and random crying fits that even now I don't know the exact "trigger" for. I've dealt with anxiety and the occasional breakdown before all this, of course, but honestly, nothing to this extent and after 2 years of fighting to move on and let go to minimal progress it quite frankly scares me!

I had attempted to reach out to the owner of the site to request my works be taken down for the sake of my mental health (and now, though it wasn't such an issue at the time, professional life), to which the owner refused, citing the one rule that people who had submitted to the library couldn't remove their contributions - which, sure, I walked around it at the time and continued to try and state my case that I didn't want to be associated with AL anymore or face constant anxiety from the threat of harassment, but what bothered me with this is the fact it was never stated or even made clear to me when I initially joined the site.

After a while, I fell off as a result of a sudden death in the family, but later decided not to return to negotiations as it was clear both that it seemed unlikely for them to budge and that I wouldn't be able to without sharing personal information about my life and mental health that very well could have been used against me in the future. For as many good intentions as the owner could have had, I wasn't comfortable trusting them with such sensitive information unless it was completely certain my works were getting removed off that site one way or another.

I guess it leads me to my last point: I've been debating and have been VERY reluctant to share this story not just because I don't like issuing callouts, starting drama, or even just because I don't want to potentially put a target on my back after everything that's happened again, but because Accord's Library is such a useful and well-loved archive for so many fans of the Drakenier series. I didn't want to stir up any guilt, anger, remorse or disappointment with users and fans of that site. It really is one of a kind, possessing the kinds of materials you can't get anywhere else — It's honestly a bit anxiety-inducing, putting this out there as the fun-ruiner for an already niche fanbase with a mountain of rare side-materials when a lot of people might not even believe me (While I can't account for everything, as the mods Twitter account the callout was posted has since been deleted as was the server the conversation initially took place on, I do have other receipts from private conversations I've decided not to share just out of a respect for privacy). This blog in particular means a lot to me, so I'd hate for anything to happen to it. :(

I just wanted to say at the end of it all, I've found for as many times as I've said "I quit, I hate this fanbase and everyone in it" that I still do want to translate. I still do want to keep contributing to this fanbase!! There are artbooks and novels and guides holding all sorts of information that can completely redefine what we know about Drakengard as a whole!! But I just can't bring myself to knowing the translations me and my friends (Who haven't even been credited on AL, if I remember correctly) who put so much dedication and effort into are being held on a site that's caused me that much harm without my permission. I won't say none of it is my fault, as I was young to the fandom and naive not accounting for just how insane and manipulative parts of it could truly get, nor am I blaming all of AL for the actions of one mod that led to the truly horrible bits, but after all the abuse and anxiety and shame I was faced with largely fueled by it's publicity of my works and the recognizability it had given me, I feel I am owed that much at least: just to go private and have my works belong to myself. In an ideal world, if I had control over my works and they could truly be my own, I'd like to take a break with my translations and keep them to myself for a bit to allow myself time to finally take a breath and move on before going back and trying something new.

So again!! Please don't feel like I'm blaming you for any of this, but if you could at least share these with the context that Accord's Library knows these are up here to my (continued) detriment even despite my requests to get them taken down, I'd really appreciate that!! Thank you :) And sorry for the long post :')

I cannot believe this is real.