#(it could still be endo but in such small amounts that it doesnt show up in surgery)

[cakesexuality]

Was just having that conversation last night with @schizodiaries about thinking/reminiscing(?) about the hospital and now here I am looking through my BFF groupchat messages from the day of my laparoscopy

The first thing I sent from the hospital was this selfie taken in the waiting room at registration captioned with "Greetings from the hospital"

(I can see at the bottom that my shirt is red, and it was my officially licensed Last of Us shirt... I also had black track pants and a grey cardigan bc I'm still gonna be putting together an outfit while heading to the hospital where I will leave with holes in my abdomen)

Here is the stuffed animal I brought with me... I asked the first nurse what to do with Ulana, thinking I'd get told "Oh you can just leave her in your room" or "You should probably put her away in your bag" but instead I was asked "Do you want me to ask if you can take her to the OR?" so Ulana stayed with me until I was on the operating table, where they took her and put her on my stretcher along with my mask and my glasses

(I went shopping several times in the months leading up to the surgery with the mission of finding a plushie to take to the hospital and the 3 plushies I nearly got instead were a pig in a hoodie from Miniso, a grey and white cat from Build-A-Bear, and a Jurassic World-branded t-rex from Toys R Us)

I remember immediately asking for my purse so I could get my phone once I was returned to my room and I believe this is the first thing I sent to anybody when I got out of surgery... I also texted my mom, messaged a few Discord servers, and posted on Tumblr

(And yes, we have the Mean Girls theme for our chat)

When I woke up in the PACU, I had like 3 blankets so I couldn't find Ulana among them and had to ask the nurse for help but then I immediately lost her again lol, I think I hit Ulana with my elbow when putting my glasses on

(I handle anesthesia weirdly well so while some people don't remember being returned to their rooms and the doctor said I wouldn't remember her coming to my room to tell me what she found, I actually even remember laying on my side with the oxygen mask on and sticking my fingers under it to wipe away drool as my first memory coming out of anesthesia)

It ended up being my left butt cheek, I remember taking off the band-aid and the EKG stickers in bed at home later that day

My mom noticed I had pads on my grocery list which I needed for the first week afterwards so before picking me up, she stopped at Shoppers and got me some pads and this big squishy unicorn bc I had a pegasus-unicorn with me for the surgery to remove my extra tooth when I was 7