#(in this case it's Annabelle but it doesn't look like it because I made this from memory)

[manuinout]

We're in the spooky month, so I COULDN'T RESIST-

Empathy belongs to me!

[blacknedsoul-blog]

The divorce of the White Raven was the chronicle of a foretold death

Now that the White Raven divorce officially begins tomorrow. I wanted to do a little review of why I've been looking forward to this moment for over 40 chapters and the delicious drama to come. 

The chapters of Annabel and Lenore talking in the greenhouse are wonderful for many reasons, but mainly because they lay the groundwork for what the conflicts in their relationship will be from now on, simply put: these two just aren't on the same page. 

Annabel wants to save them both, Lenore wants to save everyone.

Annabel calls Lenore "my favorite," "my darling," and "my petal"; Lenore understands "my companion animal" (and Annabel doesn't bother to clarify). 

Lenore says they are friends; Annabel clearly knows they were a couple.

Annabel tries to kiss her goodbye on the lips; Lenore kisses her hand. 

As the comic progresses -and especially with the last chapter released by the Freepass- the more fundamental root of this problem becomes more apparent: the White Raven don't really know each other, they think they do and, incidentally, insist on not listening to each other.

The Annabel Lenore Knows

The "disappointment rooms" are a Victorian myth (I say "myth" because there is no evidence that they were a widespread practice, although there are cases like Blanche Monnier's, they did not seem to be particularly common. But they exist in this comic, so they will be treated as real in this essay) were isolated rooms where a family member with a mental illness or physical deformity was kept isolated from the world, making him or her an outcast. 

We don't know the real reasons why Annabel wanted to get close to Lenore (this scene make it clear that it was of her own free will, something Lenore knows), but anyway, this was extremely strange at the time, the kind of thing that could severely damage someone's reputation if it became public.

In other words, for Lenore, Annabel not only pulled her out of the spiral of madness she was in, made her feel alive again, and treated her like a person (something that hadn't happened since Theo's death); she also put her reputation on the line to get closer to "the crazy woman in the attic". 

Add to that the fact that Annabel, like Lenore, is someone with an extremely protective personality, albeit in a much more subtle way: containing Lenore's outbursts by trying to distract her, complimenting her when she doubts herself, trying to give her a sense of purpose by asking her to write her a song, and automatically containing her own panic attack when she sees Lenore's horrified expression. 

To Lenore, Annabel is someone who would rather destroy something that makes her happy and be hated than let Lenore suffer for her absence.

This is a gigantic contrast to the Annabel readers know, yes, the basics are there: she is seen to genuinely care about Prospero, and gratuitous violence against someone who cannot defend himself infuriates her. But Lenore does not dimension how Annabel's methods of survival (shaped by her trauma of not being heard, reasons why she machines her way through people) make her a Machiavellian, manipulative and cold-blooded person. 

The last time Lenore saw Annabel in a situation where she could do nothing, she saw her give up. But readers know that this time, Annabel is willing to burn absolutely everything down to get them both out of it.

That is why the Duke affair takes her by surprise. Never mind that Annabel has said she's willing to destroy or trample anyone to get out of Nevermore. The Annabel Lenore knows would not be capable of that.

The Lenore Annabel knows

This part is more difficult to analyze, because unfortunately Annabel's memories are tied to big mysteries within the plot. On the plus side, this comic is excellent at dropping large amounts of information at the point of detail. 

The most obvious: Annabel is carrying around the ring Lenore had when she burned down her house, in other words, "Leo's" charade worked so well that the two of them got engaged. In other words: Annabel has seen this woman burn down a family home (perhaps with servants inside), fake her own death, steal, take a continental trip, change her identity and pose as a man, all to save her from an arranged marriage. 

A very "you and me against the world" situation. A scenario Lenore made possible by lying to basically everyone, even Annabel herself, who must have spent at least a few months believing Lenore was dead until "Leo" knocked on her door. 

Add to that these two scenes: in the first, Annabel seems pretty convinced that Lenore has a good idea of what's going on here...

And in this one, Annabel thinks Lenore is doing this out of guilt.

Again, this is a huge contrast to the Lenore we readers have seen throughout the comic: a person who desperately wants to show others the affection and security that no one (except Theo and Annabel) has given her. A mix of a naturally vivacious and caring personality with traumas from which her need for control stems from anxiety and a terrible fear of abandonment. 

In this light, Annabel putting Duke in danger to keep Montressor away from Lenore was something that was informed, known, and something that Lenore would agree with, because the Lenore she knows would be willing to sacrifice anything to achieve her goal. 

In that sense, that scene is foreshadowing. Not only did Lenore trick her into using a memory that Annabel does not have, but it comes right after Annabel confidently says that "no one knows Lenore better than she does.

The masks

One of the most painful tragedies of the White Raven relationship (besides the fact that it ended with both of them dead) is that one of the two has had to wear a mask on both sides of it: Annabel pretending that this relationship isn't as deeply ingrained in her as it really is, and then Lenore doing the whole "Leo" thing to be "the perfect fiancé" in everyone else's eyes.

Their divorce is imminent because both of them (especially Annabel) are projecting onto the other the expectations they have that are a product of the few memories they have been able to recover, rather than really looking at the person in front of them. 

I'm going to enjoy all the beautiful character development that comes from here on out, because they both have a lot of unpacking to do separately from this divorce arc. And, I hope that, when they can finally reconcile, we also get to see how, for the first time in the history of their relationship, Annabel and Lenore can actually see eye to eye.

[wrtzia]

Your murder - part 6

Summary ; When the police stop all research into your disappearance, closing the case and telling the world that you are dead, the Pogues make it their mission to avenge you.

Warning ; mention of kidnapping, insults, [let me know if I forgot anything]

While John B left to the police station once more, Kiara made her way to your old's house. The front door had been repained since then, hiding all stains of dirt, from the time you used to jump into mud puddle. The flowers you were taking care of, the one that used to be well aligned and taken care of on your front yard, were now all fanned. It was obvious nobody had look after them for a while, probably ever since your disappearance.

Kie knocked on the door, a soft 'thumb' letting whoever was there knew her presence. The door opened on Mr. Martin, your father. He had dark circles under his eyes, themself showing his sadness. Suddenly, the girl felt bad being here. That man lost his daughter and here she was, coming to ask him questions about his ex-wife.

"Uhm, hello Sir.", she started, voice soft and unsure. "I don't know if you remember me, I'm Kiara Carrera."

And obviously, he remembered her. From the amount of time she came here to sleep over, helping with the food and taking care of the youngest daughter, Annabelle. Kiara was his friend's daughter he liked the more, probably because of her well-behavior. So the man nodded.

"Of course I remember.", there was a slight pause, just staring at eachother. "I presume you want to come in ?"

And that was it, they were sitting on the red sofa. For as long as they had knew each other, the sofa had never changed. The stain from the coffee (y/n) spilled still there. Kiara was sipping a glass of water, eyes fixed on a picture of her bestfriend with her sister.

"..So, my apologize for coming here but.." The girl thought of her next words, having to choose them carefully. One wrong word and their chances could be ruined. "Me and- Me and one of (y/n)'s friend, Camella, decided to try and work ourselves of what happened. So I would know if..You would like to answer a few questions, maybe ?"

Mr. Martin didn't answer right away, the man taking in her expression. Suddenly, she felt like she shouldn't have used Camella, a girl who (y/n) stopped talking to months ago. But she couldn't talk about the Pogues, otherwise she definitely would be kick out.

The older let out a sigh, hand rubbing his forehead. "..Fine, go ahead."

Kiara had to fight to not let a big smile spread across her face, hiding it by drinking. "I don't have a lot to ask, I promise. My first question is, was her mother in town the day or week she diseappered ?"

The question caught him out of guard, eyebrown raising as he thought. "Yes, from what I know. She atleast was there the days following but didn't stay long. You know she doesn't really like my sweetpie."

Sweetpie, the nickname he always used to talk about (y/n). It felt weird to hear it again after so long, flashback of when she used to still be there running though the girl's head. A soft smile met her face before she nodded.

"Alright and, uh..Who do you think did it ?"

A heavy silence took place, the man not answering. Kiara's heartbeat increased, throat turning dry. She drank again, her free hand playing with her skin. The man's answer could either change everything, or be useless.

"A pervy weirdo."

And that was useless, definitely wouldn't bring them anywhere. But Kiara nodded, pretending it was a big step for her. "Yes, probably..We never know who we can trust."

Main masterlist - part 5

Notes ; I didn't know I had a ten image limit ?? So cutting this one in two part then.

Taglist ; @chalahyung01, @mirellef2001, @voidangxls, @angvl3tears, @kieeslove

[sillylittlepluto]

About Nevermore (Talking about how I was on this group)

Hello! My sincere apologies if my English is bad and if what I say doesn't make sense. English is not my first language. Whatsoever, i hope you all understand that everything i say here, will only be a rant to how i am feeling right now, sad, scared, uncomfortable and shocked.

I was one of the victims from this case, and I'm sorry if I made a lot of stuff wrong. I didn't knew Red was going to expose me, and all the people who got on this group.

The thing is: We only joined because we wanted to talk about women! Since you guys know, talking about stuff that in the "simping corner" was not much recommended to say.

(I'm not covering Crimson's name cus..u know)

Anyway,this was "the sun before the storm", and everything we said,was only to talk about Annabel,how we hated Montessor, how we loved Lennabel and Dolly..

After we created the group, we talked about women, and stuff. It was all like a dream, I found my people! I now can talk about them and they would understand me!

I unfortunately do not have more prints,unless some that were us talking with Crimson,

(This was us talking to him,and speaking about Annabel)

And, by my experience,when I was talking to them, crimson went too far once, and it was when I got a bit uncomfortable with the whole situation.

(also,thanks to Laci, I got those prints, showing a bit on how I was when this happened.)

I was even thinking about getting out of the group, but.. If i did, I wouldn't have people to chat randomly about characters anymore, people who wouldn't judge if I said about how pretty Annabel was or stuff like that..

Now, before I say more stuff about it, I have to apologize again, sorry for everything I did, I understand I am the victim, although I have guilt about not thinking twice, about not pushing myself to stay on the group, even though I was a bit uncomfortable with the sexual stuff..

I, am now 13. Finally able to fit on the discord terms, I've been in discord since 2020, and I know about all the rules,the terms and how horrible this place is. In 2021/2022 I stopped using discord,so I came back in 2023/2024 because of Nevermore. Believing that I could find a safe server and not be judged about anything.

Which looks like it happened. I can't believe Red did this,and I got both shocked and sad when I heard that Flynn was agreeing with her.

Crimson teach me some stuff,that I didn't even know it was tracing, but this is clearly not the bad part of it, the bad part, is that I trusted him, I liked his drawings....

I am not taking this nevermore break because I don't think I..Can? I got too emotionally dependant on this webcomic and I love it dearly. It got me into literature, history, geography and it even made me get interested about stuff that my mom liked...

This webcomic gave me some happiness when I got sad about my favorite tv series like Amphibia and The owl house, fandoms whom got totally forgotten..

Once again,I hope RnF realize that they did was wrong, and that the apology didn't solve anything. People only got even more mad and angry at them..

[josy-woodhouse]

Okay I have to say it.

Will, Ada and Montresor did something way worse than Annabel Lee.

Why? Because motive matters. Now don't get me wrong, a good motive cannot justify an inherently evil action, it however matters more and more when going deeper into more morally grey areas.

Annabel has made it very clear she understands these people, including Duke to be damned regardless of her actions and basically sees herself confronted with a trolley problem that goes: "You, your wife and like X other people are bound to rails. A trolly will run over all but one of you. However if you pull just the right levers, both you end your wife will survive. The first lever you must pull is on Duke." While this doesn't make her actions noble, it gives them a noble cause and one could argue in several ways that she's acting within a moral grey area if we take the situation to be as unshakable as it seems. To make to examples, one could argue in an utalitarian way (this saves more lives than the other option) or in a very human way (this saves a loved one at the cost of a soon to be dead man, who could blame her?). There are also concepts of morality that would condemn her, like for example the categoric imperative or Jewish or Christian (and I think Muslim) religion, in which it is inherently bad to kill a single person even to safe thousands of others.

Annabel considers killing Duke a necessary evil.

Montresor however is acting out of pure sadism and spite and he puts on quite a show to make this clear. He had done so even if he believed everyone would get a happy end and he is having the time of his life killing Duke. That is picture book chaotic evil behaviour right there and by no means redeemable.

Will and Ada? Arguably worse than Montresor, at least not a bit better. This is the kind of stuff that makes large scale modern genocides possible. Hannah Ahrendt (great woman, you should look her up) argues in her book "Eichmann in Jerusalem: A Report on the Banality of Evil" that evil at its worst is not some kind of demonic evil like it has been preached in medieval times, but lays within the sheer banality of an office worker casually doing the phone calls and paper work necessary to send thousands to their certain death, while the office worker goes back home, eats dinner with his family and thinks "I'm just doing my job. It's my supervisors moral responsibility, not mine."

Ada and Will tried to kill for no other reason than because they have been told to do so and the lack of willingness to accept responsibility really shows in their actions afterwards. So I am a bit confused when I see people arguing how terrible Annabel Lee is while defending the "poor boy Will".

So, controversial opinion: in this very specific case, even though Annabel Lee either started this or at the very least didn't stop it when she clearly could have, she hasn't committed anything as immoral as her henchmen committed, who did not even need a motive to kill.

Also I would every day prefer an Annabel Lee willing to kill Duke to safe her wife in the long run over an Annabel Lee that prefers to not be a controversial female character. Let's not forget these people don't actually exist.

[verdemoun]

i found something on tiktok that reminded me of your timewrapped arthur and maybe a lot of the gang it was someone crying over the trope “when the trope is a character born to be a weapon but no longer necessary and having to learn to be a normal person” 😈

this is the essence of timewarp. all of them had to have that painful revelation in their own time that they are not normal and it is going to take years to unlearn those 19th century survival skills

bessie's 'no guns in the house rule' originated because they are all weapons. her and annabelle weren't weapons they had to go through learning not to expect every single person they pass on the street is capable and ready to murder. it only took trying to find the callander boys to realize the fact most died with guns in their hands or at their sides is going to be an issue. first thing a disorientated gunslinger does is reach for their gun. fortunately meeting The bessie matthews face-to-face is enough for most to be star struck enough to not really react to her asking them to hand over their weapons before she starts explaining hi welcome to the future

hosea didn't fully comprehend how much he was a weapon himself. he made it to what was considered seniority as an outlaw because he thinks quick and has a faster trigger finger have you seen his quick draw?? he is not 'just' a con artist he is as much a fine tuned weapon as the rest of the gang.

while he will do anything for bessie and does thoroughly enjoy exploring modern era without the constant fear of being recognized as The hosea matthews, he really doesn't ever move on from that constant overanalysis of his surroundings. he had to live and rely on those instincts so long he can't make them go away. on some days is relieved to use keeping an eye on kieran as an excuse not to leave the house because he never learns to become a normal person in modern era

but the angst and guilt of him realizing how much the gang in general struggle with it and knowing he contributed to that. him encouraging dutch's ideals of saving people who needed saving accidentally becoming taking easily influenced young boys and men off the streets and teaching them how to survive in 19th century which meant being a weapon was necessary. watching the manifestation of a group of adult outlaws trying to survive modern era with not only their pre-existing lifetime traumas but the additional c-ptsd of veterans struggling to unlearn how easy it is for them to see a threat and want to reach for their guns, readily capable of killing another in cold blood in case they were a threat to the gang

not knowing how to help them because he doesn't even know how to help himself

bessie needing to get used to when someone knocks on the door absolutely all of them turn with that dangerous look in their eyes and the comfortable positions they had been in seconds ago now look more like a pack of crouched predators waiting for the call to attack. watching how quickly they could recover from that state becoming longer episodes of confusion wondering why they reacted like that when people knocking on the door becomes something normal

very predictably arthur is the worst because he could acknowledge he was nothing but a killer by the end. but the first time he is walking down the street having settled into modern era and notices he still has his hand hovering over his hip ready to draw for absolutely no reason is so frustrating for him.

arthur would get angry at his relapses into weapon coding. he wanted and got his out of the gang. he has more avenues of exploring his curiosity than ever before and the freedom to still go on his side quests and explore the world in an entirely new context and he still reaches for a gun.

he knows he is safe walking down the street. modern era is objectively so much safer than canon era. he is mentally trying to convince himself he feels safe but those stupid relapses wanting a gun, surveying any area he walks into for cops, the second of suspicious fear when he sees someone in a suit and wonders if they're a pinkerton, are constant reminders that he is still a weapon and he just wants to be normal so badly he feels abnormal being the way he is

[2demondogs]

Lie, Beg and Die | Bessie/Hosea/Dutch

Tags: Polyamory but like it's even more complicated, past relationships, character study Words: 1.3k A/N: Start of a fic that I never finished so take it as a study bc the Ao3 draft was expiring.

Dutch thinks that men don't change.

As if to disprove himself, he had said it with tears in his eyes. Hosea thinks often of how honest his face finally looked despite his same-old pleading, as if he had never shown a real emotion in all those years riding together — at least not real anguish.

Dutch van der Linde cried because he felt abandoned. It was Annabelle who first taught him what grief was; his sorrow then had eaten the rotting flesh of his husk, and he cried plenty in their doubled privacy. She hadn't chosen to leave him but he thinks that if she hadn't been so cursedly in love, the concept of consequences to Dutch's actions might never have clicked in the man's head.

And if the regret on his face weren't the mark of a changed man, Hosea isn't sure what is.

His visits to Bessie and himself began a month after their last conversation. He liked to hear how the boys were doing, and although Dutch often tried to whisk him away, he liked to hear how he was doing, too. He never intended to leave Dutch, doesn't think such a thing could ever sit right in his heart — only the life they led.

Dutch van der Linde is inescapable through anything but death.

It felt almost like normalcy. If it weren't for the not infrequent case of there being blood on Dutch's hands, which Bessie chides him for as if he is just a boy who played outside too long; or the way he smells, like stolen high-class cologne slapped over a month's worth of horses and dirt and fresh-air that turns not-so-fresh after a while; it might almost seem as though Dutch is a close friend visiting from a town over, between the busy life his own family and work has made for him.

Bessie likes to dress as though this is true, for various reasons, but she makes no effort to pretend that Dutch is not what he is: a killer and a thief, just the same as the two of them were.

There's no use running from the truth, she'd say, if Hosea ever asked why. He doesn't ask because he knows this already.

While he clasps a delicate chain he stole — but told her he bought, because in some ways men don't change and their women would prefer to believe they do — she sometimes frowns and asks Hosea if maybe Dutch was right.

Have we changed, or are we lying?

And Hosea won't know what to say. He won't even know if she particularly needs comforted about it, the way guilty men desire; Bessie seems to have accepted that what is... simply is. There's something intellectual to it that implies more forethought than mere arrogance, but what guilt she owns is impossible for him to see.

She's a like lot Dutch, all those years ago. It is what it is, Hosea.

How many times has he heard them say that? More than once, he heard the words simultaneously as they both turned to him.

He sometimes wants to tell them that their sorry trio is proof men can change. Whatever inside of himself that perverted Dutch hasn't touched Bessie, and he hopes that it never will. She is no sacrifical lamb, no angel fallen into the devil's arms; but she is pure in a way that feels too familiar, too heavy in his hands.

Faustian, really, and what an obnoxiously self-righteous and dramatic way for him to self-loathe. Hosea would, most days, rather be arrogant and not think on his worthiness at all then be so preoccupied with it. On rarer days, he finds himself entertaining the way Bessie sees him.

Perhaps he's not only changed but done it for the better, and this is a good man who sits outside and watches the sun rise from their little cabin outside of Cumberland Forest. He makes coffee and breakfast for his darling wife, because he loves her so much and so sweetly. The most depraved of their sins is that his best friend takes them both for a spin once in a while, which is rather gentle all things considered.

Men can steal, kill, rape — what is love to a God that sees all?

Bessie wouldn't like to know that he thinks of robbing the men who ride past, or that every now and then he itches for something much more important-feeling than this quaint life, tucked away from civilization. Bessie doesn't need to know it, anyways, because he thinks all men dream of doing good. His methods were just never orthodox, and he has yet to decide if the ends justify the means. There's plenty to think about, and much more time to do it out here.

Then again, Bessie knows his crimes. She had been humored to learn his real name and recognize it from a slip-up, long ago, where it had been posted in a newspaper.

That had felt like divine intention.

He's chopping wood for the fireplace when Dutch rides in.

Each time, he finds himself more unsure of how on earth Bessie likes either of them. By now, months have smoothed over their mutually wounded prides and Dutch is free enough to place a kiss on Hosea's mouth. It's almost European in nature — but he still feels scandalized, as if he's forgotten the nature of their relationship.

Dutch had explained it to his own gals as a separation between sexes: she was his woman and, well, Hosea was his man. There was little to fear as long they stayed in their own lanes, trust me, darling, you're only sharing first place.

With Susan, the three of them danced because Hosea was young and so was she, and they both liked getting on Dutch's last nerves. She didn't mind their past nor present, but she was not as resilient to the thought of their future. They broke up, used to tagteam antagonizing Dutch over breakfast and dinner.

Hosea can't blame her. He was not resilient to the thought of Dutch and Annabelle's future, either. Still, he wasn't the one who could let go — his last chance for that was holstered on a bleak evening outside Chicago.

At first, it seemed Dutch wouldn't be resilient to Hosea and Bessie's future. Marriage, what a wonderful thing that they could never have. Dutch studied some verses and eloped them anyways, a typical extravagant yet simple way for him to insist that he was not, in fact, bothered in the slightest.

He had been bothered and at some point, Bessie was, too. Hosea supposes that he and Dutch have grown up together and therefore alike — and while the love Bessie and Dutch entertain for each other is certainly not the same as either for Hosea, it exists in its own right.

And she smiles from where she leans on the porch banister, as if she simply adores to see the two of them in love. Happy, or some modicum of it, Dutch's hand on his waist and on his lips, some snarky comment on how he can feel the happiness on Hosea's softened hips. He has been eating better, he supposes, because he's hunting for two instead of six.

Dutch is less polite with Bessie. Square on the carefully painted mouth, fingers faint but very present on her neck. His tanned hand seems obscenely large on her throat. Hosea supposes he has never seen his own on it, and— Jesus, so begins their dancing for the evening, at least his part.

They part, and Hosea thinks he knows what Bessie sees when she smiles at them. Dutch's eyes are soft and so are hers, and Hosea is so glad they know what it's like to be under each other's warmth. It has always pleased him, to say the least.

[ssteamingtea]

Unpopular opinion / slightly controversial Anony here.

Just to clarify beforehand, I was not here for the full two years of the pr relationship. I stated knowing about Sebastian in Oct because of Thunderbolts. Up till GG I didn't know he was in a relationship with Annabelle — After GG, I've been anti shipper since then.

I truly think at the beginning of their pr relationship, Sebastian tried and made it work at some point. Why? Annabelle Sebastian's first actual age appropriate pr girlfriend. And maybe he thought there was a glimmer of hope it working to him.

In this case, it didn't, obviously. Here's my hot take on it for Annabelles doing.

If Annabelle were to get in a serious relationship with Sebastian, that would limit and cut down her baiting by a lot. No more baiting this or that, having to buckle down and get serious. Realizing that she can't bait her boyfriend life like that if she wants it to last.

But she wouldn't go for that, because here's why.

If she was getting serious. That means no baiting of where he's at, together, or where she's at. Baiting engagement, pregnancy, his privacy, him, etc. And the actual possibility of getting back into her career to get the pr girlfriend scandal off of them to be serious.

It's never gonna happen now. Sebastian has made his true feelings known and doesn't hide it. He's forced his feelings because he was told to by his own team. Annabelle just pushes it and pushes it. She's gonna push him to his breaking point of snapping, and then hells gonna break loose because of it.I've heard before from others at Cannes. There was a photo of her that looked like she was crying, and if it was true. He had to snap at her in private.

That's just my hot take on all of this, something new or others haven't talked about yet.🤷‍♀️

Interesting take and I think they definitely wanted him to be seen with someone age appropriate for TA especially. I will say this isn’t his first age appropriate relationship though. In fact, both Margarita and Jennifer Morrison were older than him - and yes I think Jennifer Morrison was a real rs. There are so many pics of him loving her down b a d too

[notafunkiller]

After a joint photo at fellow actor Robert Pattinson's birthday party in May 2022, Stan and British actress Annabelle Wallis made their relationship public from December 2022.// This has been added again.

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In my country they don't change anything. His wiki page is till Leighton only and thank god for that, she's awesome. She's one of this few exes that I actually like for who she is and not for the sole reason that they dated.

A long long time ago I checked AW's wiki profile and saw that she dated soo many guys (ofc only the popular ones are mentioned in wiki) but I found out that she also dated Chris Martin.

I am a big Seb fan but Chris is a literal gem!

Why would someone break up with him? The music they make literallly is soo nostalgic and helps through the stressful exam days, Coldplay helped me stop my overthinking etc etc.

The point is: If she couldn't stay for long with a guy like him, it's hard that she'd stay with Sebby. Because he's far more controversial and all. We need his 2016 ish era back. No controveries only wholesomeness. He gotta take a break from biopics and tryna make some fam friendly content. Again I like clean movies. No smut, no bs and clearly some laugh.

Fresh was again, problematic for me. It was a challenging project for him, but the blood and all- it scares the shit outta me. But apart from that it made me realise that the underlying motive of the movie was to tell that you gotta choose your partner carefully :0

I Tonya, was made at the time of marvel and all, and if I remember correctly in one of the interviews he said something that left the entire crew staring at him and Margot Robbie was just.....cringed I guess? And then he goes on to wonder why people don't want to participate.

The sole reason MCU paired Mackie with him was because he don't say any of the bs and in case he does, Mackie is always ready to divert the attention with his humor!

They made it look like Seb was a shy and introverted guy who couldn't speak and Mackie was the extroverted and funny one. But now's the time we realise the deeper truth!

I think of watching gossip girls after my exam season. do tell what's it like.

(I also like the diversity of this blog, another Seb blog which praises him a lot, and eventually became AW obsessed and shipping blog, doesn't address any of my asks when I ask them something politic given that they talked about shitty US politics multiple times, they avoid controversies regarding his movies, interviews etc. They are not cry babies who would defend him in Adrien vs Seb but clearly this type of behaviour is not appreciated by me. Yours is the only blog where I can find some peace)

I am really glad you feel comfortable here!

Fresh, for me, is one of his best projects. Mimi Cave tried to tell the story of women in that way... no matter how careful you think you are, you have to be extra careful because the society is not trying to help you after all. And yeah, choose your partner very carefully. I also loved the coloring and the way it was shot.

[anothersebastianblog]

lol my Dakota comment sent people are randomly comparing it to Annabelle. it's not related, let me explain.

I don't like her energy as a person and the way she treats others and I gave examples of that. I said that was the reason I would prefer him not to work with her, because I think her projects are hit and miss (and imo mostly a miss, or a 'hit' when its the same formulaic performance) as well because she's an average actress. you don't see Sydney Sweeney bitching about madame web the way Dakota does - she had a significant role too and it makes me think of her as more professional.

I think she has a lot of privilege and comes across as out of touch but gets a pass because she cultivated a 'cool-girl' person with the t-swift 'clique' back in 2014-ish. her comments on her nepotism and privilege were out of touch - not understanding why the discussion is happening and making it about herself and being flippant about it makes me not relate to her - https://pagesix.com/2024/02/09/parents/dakota-johnson-found-the-nepo-baby-debate-incredibly-annoying-and-boring-thats-just-lame/

she also DEFENDED Shia, armies hammer and Johnny Depp - which again gets forgotten for some reason and her flip-flopping on believing women on a case by case scenario is something I don't inherently trust and that's why I also don't respect her - https://www.buzzfeednews.com/article/ellendurney/dakota-johnson-defends-shia-labeouf-and-armie-hammer

I am not calling her a bad person who should burn in hell, or body shaming her (which again is ironic because she is objectively skinnier than Annabelle and not in a toned muscle way and has more wrinkles - these aren't criticisms its just an observation). I don't have any thoughts on who she should date (it just so happens that she dated Chris Martin right after Annabelle) - its more that I rather that Seb wasn't attached to what sounds like a chaotic project with an aging director who isn't that great, and an actress who is mid on screen and unprofessional off imo (NOTHING to do with how she looks).

she also doesn't attract criticism for using her producing platform IG and her personal IG to just promote her stuff and is incredibly silent on political issues for the most part. yet somehow this is being compared to Annabelle who does a hell of a lot more and has done so consistently with choose love and other organisations for years. Annabelle also hasn't turned around made comments defending abusers for the sake of art......

imo there is no comparison as in they are so different its bizarre to even try to compare them with at least how they conduct themselves professionally - the mummy bombed and Annabelle could easily have dragged the script which is what the critics were blaming anyway, but instead was tactful and respectful towards the people who worked on it while acknowledging it didn't do well

I don’t see the point in comparing them either since they have nothing in common but an ex

[queeoretician]

Thank you for saying this! I feel like the reading OP puts forward (a fairly common reading of John) misses a lot about the story, in a way that I find hard to make sense of.

It's absolutely true that the situation John was put in was a fucked up one. It's absolutely true that power has a corrupting influence on people. And there are definitely some wild bad-faith takes on his actions out there (cow wall discourse, I'm looking at you). But saying that it would require an unrealistically virtuous person to make better decisions in his place just seems flatly incorrect to me.

Let me state my position explicitly here: I do not believe that most human beings, put in John's situation, would choose to kill literally all life in the solar system to pursue vengeance against the trillionaires. His choice to destroy the world for vengeance was a choice, and one that other people in the narrative were begging him not to make.

There's a really haunting parallel between the NtN apocalypse scene (p. 310):

N— was all, It’s not going to work. This is going to end with the ships launching and G— getting shot, and you’re going to kill millions of people for nothing. We followed you to save the world. I said, We’re doing that. This is how we save the world. Believe me. C— said, John, your problem is that you care less about being a saviour than you do about meting out punishment. I said, C—, I was just your best man! C— said, You still are. That doesn’t change the fact that you can be quite the most appallingly vindictive person I have ever met.

and the HtN funeral scene (p. 94):

“[…] I never saw her cry except once,” she added in a pointless rush. “The day after. When we put together the research. When she became a Lyctor. I said, There was no alternative. She said…” [...] She cleared her throat: “She said, We had the choice to stop.”

In both cases, the text deliberately draws our attention to the fact that what happened was the result of choices these people made, and that they could reasonably have chosen otherwise. And our story is about the millennia-long consequences of those choices.

I also think that the John-was-doing-his-best reading fails to engage with the role that patriarchy plays in the story.

Given the pervasive misogyny displayed towards Mercymorn in HtN, I really don't think it's fair to give John credit for M—'s insistence on reproductive justice in the cryo project.

More significantly (and unpleasantly), a major thread through HtN and NtN is of John (metaphorically) grooming/sexually abusing Harrow and Alecto. Better meta-writers than me have discussed this at length (familyabolisher here; sophelstein here and here; CW rape & incest on all those links), but for our purposes it's sufficient to say that John calling Alecto "Annabel Lee" is a reference to Lolita, and one that tazmuir (herself a child sexual abuse survivor) has also made in her pre-TLT writing.

This paints the idea of John loving the earth/Alecto in a much darker light, and reinforces the parallels between John's post-Resurrection colonial project and real-world colonialism's imposition of patriarchal social structures (mentioned around the 10 minute mark of this Philosophy Tube video). It's not that it's easy to villainise John because he's a man - him being a man is intrinsically tied up in the harm that he does to our (overwhelmingly female) cast.

Aside: I don't have any good theories about why tazmuir chose for her sexual-abuser villain to be Māori, and I'm a little uncomfortable with this choice as it stands, but that doesn't make his actions within the story any more excusable.

So to sum up: John made extremely harmful choices even when people around him asked him to choose differently, and he is intertextually positioned as the perpetrator of patriarchal violence. Based on this, I don't find OP's reading (that anyone else in John's situation would have done just as much harm) to be credible.

(As rotationalsymmetry said above, I don't want this to be taken as an attack on or moral judgment of people who subscribe to John-sympathetic readings of the series. For me, a big part of the horror of NtN was the realisation that this character who had been built up as sympathetic was lying about a bunch of stuff all along. But I do think that these readings are substantively incorrect, and that they do a disservice to tazmuir's phenomenal writing, particularly around narrator unreliability.)

I think what bothers me most about how John is talked about in the fandom is the implication that a different (implied: better) person would've done things differently and somehow more right than he did.

When the text goes to lengths to explore how suddenly coming into an incredible amount of power in a fatally constrained situation cannot lead to a good outcome.

If you're putting John in dialogue with the concept of the "magical girl", which Muir has said he is (a little tongue in cheek, but)--these are young, often profoundly unready people, who often get taken advantage of by the people who give them their powers. And like, yes, John is not a teenager, but I think that's part of the point, is that at no point is a person really prepared to become as powerful as he did--even before he merged with Alecto. Even when he was fully in control of his powers, even when they were given with honest intent and trust, even when he used them with the best of intentions and tried to do the right thing, there was no way for him to be prepared, especially given the situation he was in.

And it's funny to talk about how bad John must be in bed, but also, this isn't a scenario where John is some self-deluding Elon Musk-like villain or loser. He is genuinely trying to do the right thing, in terms of rescuing the Earth's population, rescuing the Earth Herself, and doing it ethically (see: M--'s insistence that they perfect the cryo containers until they could transport pregnant women).

I really do think this is something people are blocking out, because it is one of the uncomfortable parts of Muir's message with the series. But ESPECIALLY because the people "critiquing" him as an embodiment of patriarchy and empire are failing to see that part of Muir's critique is of human vulnerability to power: That is, that power corrupts.

And this even has echoes with Gideon & Harrow's story! Harrow begins the series in a deeply unequal dynamic with Gideon! And she does horrible things, not just because she is traumatized, but because she is traumatized and has the power to act her desires out on Gideon. She might have the motive (trauma), but that's not enough without the means (power).

And, yeah, I do have a semi-salty angle on this because people are frequently loath to think critically not just about axes of oppression but individual relationships of power when it applies to them and to people they like. ESPECIALLY when there is a very vocal segment of the fandom that is enthusiastically pro-harassment. It's very convenient to villainize John and actively dis-identify with him, because otherwise, you'd have to face the question of whether you'd do any better in his place. But the thing is, the mission of revenge he embarks on is a lot closer to many peoples' hearts than they'd like to consider.

That's the whole point.

[delicatebluebirdruins]

resident evil 7 mia and ethan

can I go on a weird tangent? for a sec? I got reminded today that at some point playing through RE7 and leaving Zoe behind my mind just went blep. In the first hunger games book we hear about a hunting trip that Katniss and Gale went on where they watched two people run for their life one was murdered and the other was captured and there was a line where Katniss and the girl who was captured lock eyes and Katniss says "you never forget the face of the person who was your last hope" after thinking of that I went off on a different thought about Peeta getting hjacked in the last book and programmed to kill Katniss.... and Katniss just not being able to deal with it and everything aka Katniss wasn't qualified to deal with Peeta's hijacking which is a huge minefield.

Much like Ethan with Mia yes Ethan was a ass to Mia but she did chop his hand off with a chainsaw and there is a element of he knew something was rotten with her job (they both say so like Mia at the start of the fucking game "i did lie to you I shouldn't have" and Ethan on the boat after fighting Mia, fighting Mia again; molded; Jack three times and Marge twice and poor deputy anderson was a thing and the clancy chronicles), as Mia's spouse Ethan was suspected of having something to do with her disapearence by the police (something I don't see get brought up often) for who knows how long (depending on the cops it could have been a short amount of time or they could have been so certain they tried to get a false confession when my mental health is shit I watch true crime and one of the videos I watched by Eleanor Neale two parter I think can't remember it but it was one of the many cases she has covered where all cops are bastards) probably from when they realise a ship full of people went missing to their brains catching up and realising how one person miles away can cause a huge ship full of people to disappear

also I love how Ethan says "try" to Mia after she say's she can't and then Evie destroys the boat and draw Mia into the Annabelle and to the tape where she remembers everything clearly. I say clearly because as Mia says she only remembers a little and its a hard difference between reality and halluicantion because Evie made her hallucinate a door not being there

Mia: "Ethan, thank you."

Ethan: "Who the hell else was I going to choose?"

Mia: "Ethan!"

Ethan: Mia, I know you've been through a lot. But we need to talk. You had something to do with all of this, didn't you? Look, I just wanna know the truth."

Mia: "Ethan, I honestly don't remember."

Ethan: "Try!"

"Is that the boat? How the fuck did that get here?"

"You're OK. What the hell was that?"

"What the fuck? What is that? What is that?"

basically how can a traumatised person help another traumatised character when it was bascially a cause and effect, Mia caused Ethans trauma it was the last thing she wanted don't get me wrong but it still happened much like Chris trying to protect Claire by not telling her even a little bit about what happened in the Spencer Mansion. But him not telling her lead her to go too RC.(its also why I think a RE5 remake is so needed because Chris is traumatised as fuck and it doesn't show through much like OG 4 didn't show Leons shit mental health) its basically their traumas going against each other like pinballs (thanks ladyknightthebrave video about Haunting of Hill House for putting that line in my head).

and Mia calling Eveline a little bitch was her both resigning herself to her fate whilst also trying to provoke Evie as she saw it happen with Alan he was infected yes and possibly dying but Evie killed him (also with Alan is when Mia got infected- cutscene death of a friend) and it worked Evie doesn't show up again until Ethan is in the salt mines and when we see Mia again she is hooked up to a IV in the helicopter

[the-broken-truth]

Can you please do a part 3 for the Mackenzie Hunt and half werewolf teen? Thank you

Yandere Lovestruck: Platonic-Yandere Mackenzie Hunt + Half-Werewolf Teenager [Met Under Moonlight]

⦁ Cooked Meat [Check]

⦁ Spare Clothes [Check]

⦁ Now Shoes in case old ones break [Check]

⦁ Charged Phone [Check]

Okay, you were ready to go.

Tonight was the night of the Full Moon - the night the wolf inside you wanted out and needed to run wild. You placed all of the items into your backpack before walking out of your cabin, locking the door behind you as you looked in the direction of the setting sun. You jumped down the stairs before running in the direction of the lake - not your usual hunting around, but this time - you had no choice this full moon.

'Damn that sheriff.' You thought.

The sun began setting the closer you got to the lake and as the full moon began shining, you felt the wolf inside you stirring inside you before you closed your eyes and let the transformation flow over you and you bolted through the forest until you reached the cabin before the sun fully set and the moon shined in the night sky.

"I see you arrived." A familiar voice called behind you, causing you to turn to see Sherrif Hunt with her Pack (2 Women and a Male).

"It's not like I had a choice. You threatened to kick me off the outskirts of Havenfall." You narrowed your eyes at her.

"I didn't threaten you. I gave you a choice: Either join us for the Full Moon Run or Leave Havenfall." She said.

"How is that not a threat?" You growled.

"Because I - The Sheriff - made this decision." She smirked at you.

"Doesn't matter. I'm here now, what do you want?" You asked.

"We're going on the full moon run before going hunting," Mackenzie said as she looked at the women and man behind her. "This is my mate - Freya, My Pack Mate - Annabelle, and Annabelle's Friend - Damian."

"Hey! Nice to meet a new pack member!" The woman - Annabelle - said with a smile.

"I'm not joining your pack." You said before turning your back on them, "This is a one-time thing before I go my own way during the Full Moons." You groaned.

"Is that what you think?" You heard the Sherrif say as you looked at her.

"What are you talking about?" You asked.

"If you are going to stay in my town, you're going to be in my pack. I don't allow stray wolves into my town." Mackenize smirked.

"You're serious? You think I want to join your pack!" You roared at her.

"I don't care what you want, [Your name]. You're going to join us...or you leave Havenfall."

[kmp78]

About losing fans, I don't think he cares about that. He doesn't do anything for his music group at all. It looks like he and his brother are tired of it. They actually abandoned the music. Someone said that when Jared won the Oscar, it was the beginning of the end of the band Thirty Seconds to Mars. And it's true, he's now more focused on acting and rock climbing. That's why he bought a house in Vegas closer to his friends climbers and places where you can 🧗🏻Well , and another investment . He doesn't really need fans anymore, and he doesn't care about their opinion. Merch will be bought in any case, especially mother hens who consider these "boys their sons, and really want them well and a good wife" lol. If he does not show interest in her even in custom-made photos , such as in a supermarket or on a deserted road , where it is unclear where the paparazzi came from, and she is always trudging like a stray dog. Then either he's such a crappy and untalented actor who can't play feelings even for paid photos, or she's in such a deep friend zone 🤦🏼‍♀️🤦🏼He has more feelings and emotions for Annabel Wallace and Chloe , look at the photo where they are together

The reason he has never shied away from flaunting CB or AW is because neither one ever sucked his dick and neither one's presence in his life would make echies lose sleep and bowels. 🙄

Can you even imagine under any circumstances where he would EVER IN A MILLION YEARS allow the (extremely young and skinny model type) woman he was exchanging bodily fluids with to do THIS? 👇

No way, no how, no fucking chance in hell! 🙅‍♂️

But, since neither one of these are leaving lipstick marks on his pecker, their faces on VV is not gonna be a problem.

However VK doing the that would cause a fucking riot! 😵

And, as we remember, it really truly did... 😂

Gee, why didn't he invite his good buddy VK to do a little wave and have a little giggle fest on camera like he did with AW and CB...? 🤔

If it's the exact same scenario, then why the fuck such different methods?

HmmmmMMMMMMMMM? 🤔

[criminal-lymindless]

starker ft. the conjuring au 🏠

"Diabolical forces are formidable. These forces are eternal, and they exist today. The fairy tale is true. The devil exists. God exists. And for us, as people, our very destiny hinges upon which one we elect to follow."

// Part 2 //

During a particular morning, a reporter went to visit them, wanting to ask questions about the notorious room in the house where they kept objects related to the cases they had investigated so far.

Peter was hesitant about it; most of those people used to accuse them of quackery. However, Tony, on the other hand, had decided to give the reporter named Everett Ross a chance, willing to give him the opportunity to know more about their investigations.

Peter decided to stay in the living room while Tony led the man into their secret room, unlocking the door.

"We keep everything locked in here." He explained to the reporter and pushed the door, entering the place. "Feel free to look around. Just don't touch anything. Trust me. You don't want to be touching this stuffs --Unless your that desperate to die, then okay."

"Wow..." Everett looked around, he was clearly amazed by the things he saw there. "This is crazy..." The man commented. “So all these are taken from cases you've investigated?" He turned to look at Tony who nodded positively.

"That's right. Everything you see in here is either haunted, cursed or has been used in some kind of ritualistic practice." Tony clarified as he walked between the shelves. "Nothing is a toy." He added and watched Everett crouch down to look at a stuffed animal. "If I were you I wouldn't touch that."

Everett suddenly took a step back once hearing that and stood up, clearing his throat.

"Uh...If I may Mr. Stark, but Isn't it scary or doesn't it worry you to have all these items right in your home?" The reporter questioned.

"That's why a priest comes by once a month to bless the room." Stark explained. "It's safer for these things to stay in here than out there. Who knows what would happen if they did. Probably the end of the work." Tony chuckled a bit. Everett Ross nodded as he listened to Stark.

"So it's like keeping guns off the street then?" He said. "But why not throw everything in an incinerator? Destroy them?" The man asked curiously while taking notes, now standing in front of Tony.

"That would only destroy the vessel." Tony assured him. "Sometimes it's better to keep the genie in the bottle." He winked at him.

The reporter looked around once again after hearing that. He was a bit anxious and when he started talking again, Tony watched him carefully, eyed him up and down. He had an idea on what was making Everett nervous, and the REAL reason why the man came over to visit them.

Which is why he needed to act quick.

Tony clapped his hands together, giving the man a fake smiled as he signal him to follow him. "Already then, if you don't have anymore questions we can finally wrap this shit up--"

"Is the, uh, Annabelle doll here?" Everett interrupted Tony before he could even finished his sentence. The reported looked around for the familiar the doll everyone has talked about.

Shit.

Stark sighed and muttered a few curse words to himself. So much for acting quickly. He reluctantly pointed to another direction, "Right over there. But we don't have time for--" Everett ignored him and walked up to where they kept the doll.

Tony is really starting to consider this interview was a bad idea, and maybe Peter was actually right for once. He walk towards the reporter and the doll, where it was stored in a wood and glass case they had built for it.

Everett looked at the doll for a few moments before turning to look at Tony again. "You said she's a conduit?" He asked and began taking notes again.

Tony only hummed in response. He was getting really tired of this interview and needed to wrap this up already. They couldn't be this close to that doll, even if it was safe on that wooden glass case. Anything is possible.

"But what does that mean?" The reporter turned on his tape recorder this time.

"It means that a very powerful demonic has latched itself onto her." He told Ross as he looked at the doll for a second. Glaring his eyes into her empty one's.

"So when you guys investigate these hauntings, how do you stop them from latching onto you?"

Tony shrugged. "We have to take great precaution." He explained trying to remain calm.

"Is that what happened to Peter then?" The man then questioned.

This cause Tony to snap his neck at him, arching an eyebrow. His mood suddenly changed when he heard that. "...What about him?" Tony frowned. Everett seemed a bit nervous after seeing his reaction. He knew damn well he's stepping into some sensitive stuffs.

'Could be another reason why Ross came over after all.' Tony thought to himself, looking directly at Everett. 'Why would this guy need this information anyway? Couldn't he just fucking read in another newspaper?'

"Well, Father Strange told me that..."

Oh, that little fucker--

"That was different." Tony snapped. Not caring that this was being recorded. No one comes after his baby boy. Not even some fucking priest with some shitty weird name. Fuck Stephen. "What happened to Peter happened during an exorcism. Nothing else."

"And what's the difference?" Everett challenged back.

Tony was about to tell Everett to 'fuck off' and leave because he was being bothered by the intrusive questions, when he heard something coming from behind one of the shelves.

"Excuse me." He murmured before walking towards the place where the sound came from, sighing as he found the familiar face of a little puppy crouched behind the shelf, weaving his little tail.

"Dum-E, what the hell are you doing?" Tony sighed as he looked at the puppy he had adopted with Peter years ago. "You know better than snooping around here, darling? Did you touch anything?" Dum-E only barked in return.

"Alright, come on." Tony took Dum-E into his arms. "You can't go into this room, no matter what, remember?" He said and after making sure Dum-E would stay at the kitchen with Peter where he would watch him, before he went back to where Everett was.

"Alright Everett, listen the fuck up--"

*******

Somewhere else, a Family had just moved to Rhode Island after loosing their Jobs and home. They were both skeptical and dejected with this new change in their lives, however they were stil glad to have found a house at their current state, where they would move in with their five children. Even if the house was actually an dilapidated farmhouse.

The family was know as the Barton's. It included Clint and Laura Barton with their five children, Cooper, Lila, Nathaniel, and the twins Wanda and Pietro. The twins being the oldest and Nathaniel the youngest of the Five.

The Barton's didn't take long to fit in, each kid sharing a comfortable bedroom and the parents managing to keep the expenses with the money they have left while one of them look for a job. It was great. The Kids would go to school, Clint would continue to unpack or fix a bit on the house, Laura would make food while also do a bit of cleaning around, and Nathaniel would run around playing by himself until his siblings return from school.

Things were going incredibly well until unusual situations started happening in the house.

At first, it was just weird sounds that came from different parts of the house in the middle of the night, then, objects began to show up in different places without anyone touching them. Clocks would stop at exactly 3 am in the morning.

Everyone in the house was aware of this, but no one had spoken up about it yet. They all thought that they were probably suffering from mass hysteria because of stress. Which was quite possible.

However, it was not until one accident that made it impossible to ignore the situation. That one accident that made it clear that something was going on, and it was not because of mass hysteria, but something connected to the house and the weird things that were happening so far.

Funny how it happened the night Wanda woke up in the middle of the night after feeling someone grabbing one of her feet.

The be continued...

[whimsically-ominously-auspice]

I was using my phone flash light on my belly so they could see each other.

If i put it right against my belly it was like a spot light so they were dancing and all all "tah dah!"

Its also a fun game to play for you other preggers.

If the baby moves you move the flash light where they move. Then update the game to move the flashlight in what you feel. Like if you feel like kicking then you wiggle or if you feel a slide you slide the light

The trick is to hold the flash light against the belly this way they can tell more easily your communication

And believe it or not babies can see light as soon as their eye balls develop.. Meaning grow in their head -- exist.

So putting on your most favorite song and making a flashlight dance against youe belly to the tune... If an against the belly then off ... Or a slide or a jiggle, or a slide up and slide down...

Tiny babies can float and dance and move to the light or away.

You can ESP the game if its dance with or away from the light. Or you can also say it out loud. They understand your native language.

They're created understanding vocabulary.

Bigger babies you can feel them move.

All humans have a 3 to 5 pound mass protecting the baby from the environment.

Mine have a 10 to 15 pound protection, 10 on top and 15 in the middle. If i roll into the fetal position they have a 55 pound protection. So mine will come out extra strong. Because they (painful to me) push and lift the stomach weight as do all human babies. I wear a 41 around the bra band. So that doesn't really help... But a bra band of 34 is gonna have less pound of tummy weight.

I can lift several pounds off my kids. By pulling my stomach up on the middle. Jazmine says it's like 10 or 14 pounds.

Overall my particular pregnancy has 22 pounds of weight between them and the environment. But its all "squish" so its like if I fall on my stomach or am kicked then they feel like they're in a trampoline or water bed.

That is why i drink so many full sugar sodas despite diabetes.

To protect my unborn babies in war.

And ballistics show that they won't retrieve a bullet from their bodies if I am shot in the stomach or any place in my torso.

I don't like to eat a lot so i just have high calorie crap. Junk food junkie.

And so i could now stop because since Bobby died and can no longer military snipe and kill people to protect me. Evil people will die if they come within 10 feet of me, they will begin to lose their wind. And will suffer and whither on the ground and die. Unable to do anything but pray and gasp for air in complete fear.

That may been Windy's idea. But it was all my decision to implement it and expand it to the suffering behind ability to comprehend.

I am that angry. So.

Meanwhile they move and bounce around so much I feel like I have to pass out from the intense pain and I just threaten to put them in a playpen after they're born or take a nap so they stop and they behave. I do let them know it hurts but after 5 or 6 hours of being brutally attacked from inside my body i have to get them to stop.

They are in full size normal beds with just the side rails that are bought for toddlers. And these bed snuggly things that are pillows to make a little bed.

I didn't like the Moses basket as it was told here... The truth about Moses babies and how Annabelle was kidnapped about that.

So these have no handles and are all soft pillows made just for babies. And just better overall.

I was just gonna put them in the XL twin bunk in the RV with the safety rail on the bottom bunk but their soulmates said they wanted to sleep with them and so I said they needed to be a bit safer than just rolling around in the bed with them. Just in case of being rolled over on by one of the boys and smothered.

I was always super worried about that with Annabelle whom I let sleep with me during the day. When she was newborn. Although she did have a bedside bassinet. It just feels good to have them close.

And with twins I dont feel they should have separate cribs. They should be encouraged to live and play and even sleep together.

Being born should not rip apart their bond. They know how to take care of each other better than parents do.

And so I implement a law that we all pick the week clothes in advance so no one is fighting for what they wear on what day. We will plan in advance and each have a day we get to pick and dress them and take care of them.

We will schedule a rotation.

Erica now has me feeding them in public so.. For breakfast one gets formula and for dinner the other. Because Jasmine absorbs the vitamins better at night. And Windy during the day. And they both get super hyper so they both will have two dinners. One early and one later.

And we have onsies/pajama scheduled for their late night dinner. Then they have to potty and will likely change... To have fresh clothes to sleep in if others are holding and feeding them. So lots of photo times.

Then fresh outfits for breakfast

So other parents these girls are coming out potty trained. We have a whole schedule about going potty after eating. So it's about holding them on the potty because even potty seats for toddlers have the hole too big and they potty in the commode then clean up like a regular adult. And no shitty diapers.

But they did request pampers for certain times of the day for just in case. Because they're nervous about not being able to hold it or being leaky like me who has a kidney failure issue and two infants on parts of my body that causes an irritable bladder that is impatient.

But they're super babies in womb for 18 years so they will be fine

Last night I saw Jazmine and she's absolutely beautiful and I know Windy doesn't look much different.

Very much like Annabelle as a young child

But I don't have a sonogram photo to share. Just what I saw while I was falling asleep.

80 days.