#(im fuckung terrified)

[kit-kat-jo]

has anyone done this yet

[absolutelyzoned]

oh my god oh my god playing ultrakill here is like im trying to hide the fact im watching porn this is so fucking scary

[the-lonelyshepherd]

whst r your top 3 fav and least fav yellowjackets characters shep

im gonna do LONG answers bc i want to talk about my sillies

for faves…. i love them all so much it’s actually not funny but for my top #1 yellowjackets character of all time it HAS TO go to my girl Lottie

1. Lottie

she’s insane she’s a cult leader she’s a champion soccer player she has big brown eyes she’s been in multiple odd relationships with various blonde girls she’s a prophet and above all she’s just a girl. 

i’m literally just gonna TOUCH on many topics and not go in depth bc i will actually write a full ass essay. if i haven’t already. 

Shes actually one of my fav characters of all time, not even just yellowjackets. deadass she is SO fascinating, both adult and teen version. unloved by rich parents. schizophrenic (or is it really the wilderness speaking to her??? we don’t know!!!) but hides it until it’s too late. her transformation from sarcastic a little odd but generally kind and cheerful soccer player to borderline mute haunted prophet to years later mysterious but successful wellness center (…cult) leader??? INSANE!!!!! 

her whole religion arc with laura lee??? actually one of the DRIVING forces of EVERYTHIBG i could write an ESSAY on this. insane. her weird one sided rivalry with nat??? INSANE!!! (and lwk homoerotic). her obsession with wilderness baby??? this could be its entire own post

also she like… just wants the best for everyone. she’s been put on a pedestal, marked as an enemy, had her words twisted to excuse HUNTING and EATING someone and then told it was her fault. she also couldn’t stop this because she let someone beat her up to let their anger out. she’s so self sacrificial she’s so overly caring and it ends up hurting herself and everyone and all she’s trying to do is understand things. she can’t be a god but she can be a martyr if they kill her quick enough. she’s MY tragic queen no one gets her like i do. i love her so much. also courtney eaton is really fine. irrelevant.

2. Nat

next up is nat. nat is also like. ohmygoodness. 

first of all the most interesting thing about me for nat HAS to be her dynamics with the group. you could put her with anyone and learn so much about both characters. travis? jackie? misty? lottie? shauna? ben? all of them. it’s a combination of nats insanely interesting character and sophie thatcher’s (sorry juliette lewis but it just wasn’t as impressive for me) INSANE screen presence. she shows so much emotion with just facial expressions and fucking steals every scene she’s in. def a huge contributor in making nat the character she is.

also unlike a lot of the other yjs, nat already has a history with this sort of tragedy. we see in her flashbacks with her dad (i think s1.4?)

this stuff sets her up as immediately apart from the group - not only is she a bit of a social outcast, labeled as an alcoholic, a druggie, a whore etc, but she also already came from a dark place and physically spent a lot of time seperate from the other girls. she spends a lot of time w coach Ben and travis, expanding a lot of their characters and making javis death even more horrible for her. the trauma she has surrounding guns and her father also leads to another really interesting thing - above all, no matter how much she pretends she doesn’t, nat does really fucking care. she cares a lot.

i LOVE this kind of character so much, the kind that pretends to be rlly apathetic but is almost more genuine in their kindness than anyone else. nat just genuinely fuckung cares and she’s been through so much and i rghhhhh. her apology to jackie???? hell even her moments with travis. cutting off his dads finger to get the ring when he couldn’t do it himself. i’m losing it. anyways i have to cut this off bc i need to get to my next girl and i WILL write an essay if i keep going. 

3. Shauna

Shauna fucking shipmannnnnnnn (and by an extent jackie because let’s be frl they are kind of one) let’s go crazy girls. Shauna is honestly terrifying. starting strong!!! but it’s kinda true. she has this like weird underlying sense of something violent about her. she’s always wanted more, she’s always kind of lived in jackie’s shadow wether jackie meant to or not. she had this kind of mindset that’s just SO like obsessive??? i kinda sound like a shauna hater rn this is NOT TRUE 🙅‍♀️🙅‍♀️ she is so compelling it’s insane. 

first off sophie nelisse is incredible. actually incredible. like from the BEGINNING she had me FASCINATED with shauna just with her expressions and rghhhh everythibg. the talent is INSANE. 

and shauna herself is just. so tragic. now you can’t really talk about shauna without talking about jackie. and it’s okay bc i love jackie as well she is my favorite girlloser, resident coldgirl, mislabeled, misjudged queen. et cetera.

and having jackie is such a core part of shauna’s character. when she comes to the wilderness she starts to slip apart a little. rifts form, promises broken and secrets start to slip out. but she still CARES about jackie. she tries so hard to help her do something useful so the other girls don’t turn on her. 

but in the end she was always going to be the one holding the knife. she was always living in jackie’s shadow (at least in her mind) and she had this weird relationship with her where she both villainized and obsessed over her. standard homoerotic highschool girl bestfriendship. i don’t even know where i’m going with this there’s so much i could say. before i end let me rq touch on

wilderness baby and callie. this is also one of the most compelling things to do with shauna. after jackie’s death, shauna is technically on her own. after being so long on begat she perceived as jackie’s shadow, she has, in her mind, autonomy. and things really start to go downhill. first, she’s carrying the baby of her dead best friends boyfriend. which is a situation. but jackie isn’t ever really gone - she’s in shauna she’s in the baby she’s in the meat shed she’s a ghost and eventually she’s a full on fucking meal. so even though she’s dead, she NEVER leaves shauna and shauna is haunted by her forever. normal best friend stuff. but anyways shauna carries wilderness baby to term and loves him so so much and then it turns out he was stillborn. let me emphasize she loved this baby SO FUCKING MUCH. then later as an adult we see her with callie. „i don’t even like my daughter”. the switch up is crazy???? i think i’m running out of room to type fuck but anyways shauna shipman you will always be famous i love you i would write essays on you

okay least faves is actually harder.  beacuse i love them all. i’m gonna say that annoying mustache groomer cop. and like idk who else tbh. nats dad? jackie’s mom??? oooghhh jackie’s mom and dad scene is a whole mother tangent

anyways i hoped you enjoyed me exhibiting symptoms!! thank you for your question idk if you can tell but i love talking about yellowjackets

[dipperthedestructor]

God I dont trust myself with other people at all

[twstwonderlandstuff]

my uni has the opening today and I'm fucking terrified

my ma asked if I was excited NO I LIVE IN FEAR

OF WHAT??? 3HI TUCKINH KNOWSSSS HAHAHAHAHAHA

IM SCARED SOME OK NE HOLD MY HAND 🤣 🤣🤣🤣 😭😭😭

IM FUCKUNG TERUEIFJEJDJDDJDNDN IM SCARED I JUDT WANT TO OLAY TWISTED WONDERLAND AND GENSHIN AND FUNALLY FINISH CHAPTER 3 *SOB* AND TEAD THEIR VIGNETTES AND LAUGHW UTH MY SILLY LIYYLE MEM

[vinnygordon]

I'm sorry but this book's ghosts are down right terrifying already. Like may not have kept me in cold sweat but the thought of dealing with them is awful.

BUT THE ONES THAT ARENT USED ARE HORRIFYING???

The FUCKUNG CHILD THAT IS AN INSTANT GHOST LOCK AND MAKES YOU JUMP??? IM SORRY?

The fact it looks like it's doing nothing as well is god damn awful- I don't know what it is but the fact it STANDS THERE and you have the immediate urge to end it- that's got to be a god damn awful one to fight.

May be a type one but Stalkers sound damn horrifying. Barely any noise, any problem. But they're just slowly following you. Where would their source even be? Just being followed late at night say on the way to another case and you'd barely even know.

Lurkers coupled with any other ghost would be awful. Just stood there and giving you immense anxiety and paranoia for the ghosts to feed off. Like if you didn't know they were there and suddenly it's a full blown ghost coming for you because it's been fed.

That's one thing I love about the series. As scary or not it can be, the universe they live in you damn know why people are so scared.

OH MY GOSH I JUST REMEMBERED THIS THING I MADE LIKE TWO YEARS AGO-

Because the glossary in the back of the books doesn't always include every ghost (usually just the ones in the book) I made an alphabetical list of every ghost sub-type, it's name, type, glossary description, and any of its major appearances in the series.

ANYWAY, I just found it again, and I thought I'd post it for anyone who needed it (I also haven't read the books in a while, so I can't fact-check it now so we'll just have to trust 2020 me)!

GHOST NAME: Bone Man TYPE: Type One GLOSSARY DESCRIPTION: Name given to a particular variety of ghosts probably a sub-type of Shade. Bone Men are hairless, emaciated forms, with skin clinging to their skulls and rib cages. They glow with a bright, pale other-light. Though superficially similar to some Wraiths, they are always passive and somewhat dismal. MAJOR APPEARANCE: None.

GHOST NAME: Changer TYPE: Type Two GLOSSARY DESCRIPTION: A rare and dangerous ghost, powerful enough to alter its appearance during a manifestation.  MAJOR APPEARANCE: As the monks of the Red Room and the Screaming Staircase in the Screaming Staircase, as the rat-ghost of Simon Wilberforce in the Whispering Skull, and as the Changer in the attic of Lavender Lodge in the Hollow Boy.

GHOST NAME: Cold Maiden TYPE: Type One GLOSSARY DESCRIPTION: A gray, misty female form often wearing old-fashioned dress, seen indistinctly at a distance. Cold Maidens radiate powerful feelings of malaise. As a rule, they are rarely draw close to the living, but exceptions have been known. MAJOR APPEARANCE: A ghost that Lockwood and Lucy have to fend off one for a favor to Flo Bones during the Whispering Skull.

GHOST NAME: Dark Specter TYPE: Type Two GLOSSARY DESCRIPTION: A frightening variety of ghost that manifests as a moving patch of darkness. Sometimes the apparition at the center of the darkness is dimly visible; at other times the black cloud is fluid and formless, perhaps shrinking to the size of a pulsing heart, or expanding at speed to engulf a room. MAJOR APPEARANCE: None.

GHOST NAME: Fetch TYPE: Type Two  GLOSSARY DESCRIPTION: A rare and unnerving class of ghost act appears in the shape of a living person, usually someone known to the onlooker. Fetches are seldom aggressive, but the fear and disorientation they evoke is so strong that most experts classify them as Type Two spirits, to be treated with extreme caution. MAJOR APPEARANCE: A ghost beneath Aickmere Brothers' department store that poses as Lockwood during the Hollow Boy.

GHOST NAME: Floating Bride TYPE: Type One GLOSSARY DESCRIPTION: A female ghost, a variety of Cold Maiden. Floating Brides are generally headless, or missing another part of their anatomy. Some search for their missing extremity; others cradle it or hold it mournfully aloft. Named after the ghost of two royal brides, beheaded at Hampton Court Palace. MAJOR APPEARANCE: None.

GHOST NAME: Gallows Wraith TYPE: Type Two GLOSSARY DESCRIPTION: A malignant subtype of Wraith, found at former places of execution. "Old Crackneck," which killed three agents in Tybern Fields, is the most famous gallows Wraith of all. MAJOR APPEARANCE: Several pursue Lockwood, Lucy and George through Wimbledon Commons in the Whispering Skull.

GHOST NAME: Gibbering Mist TYPE: Type One GLOSSARY DESCRIPTION: A weak insubstantial ghost, notable for its deranged and repetitive chuckling, which always sounds as if it's coming from behind you. MAJOR APPEARANCE: None. I think they were mentioned during the Chelsea outbreak during the Hollow Boy. 

GHOST NAME: Glimmer TYPE: Type One GLOSSARY DESCRIPTION: The faintest perceptible ghosts with an apparition. Glimmers manifest only as flecks of other-light flitting through the air. They can be touched or walked through without harm. MAJOR APPEARANCE: None.

GHOST NAME: Gray Haze TYPE: Type One GLOSSARY DESCRIPTION: An ineffectual, rather tedious ghost, a common Type One variety. Gray Hazes seem to lack the power to form coherent apparitions and manifest as shapeless patches of finality glinting mist. Probably because their ectoplasm is so diffuse, Gray Hazes do not cause ghost-touch, even if a person walks right through them. Their main effects are to spread chill, miasma, and unease. MAJOR APPEARANCE: None. Mentioned during the Chelsea outbreak during the Hollow Boy.

GHOST NAME: Limbless TYPE: Type Two GLOSSARY DESCRIPTION: A swollen, misshapen variety of ghost, with a generally human head and torso, but lacking recognizable arms and legs. With Wriaths and Raw-Bones, one of the least pleasing apparitions. Often accompanied by strong sensations of miasma and creeping fear. MAJOR APPEARANCE: Julius Winkman uses the Source of a Limbless in a ghost-bomb then tosses it into 35 Portland Row during the raid in the Empty Grave. Lockwood also tells Lucy that Flo Bone's old associates, Sinclare and Soanes were killed by two Limbless on the Other Side during the events of the Empty Grave.

GHOST NAME: Lurker TYPE: Type One GLOSSARY DESCRIPTION: A variety of ghost that hangs back in the shadows, rarely moving, never approaching the living, but spreading strong feelings of anxiety and creeping fear.  MAJOR APPEARANCE: None.

GHOST NAME: Pale Stench TYPE: Type One GLOSSARY DESCRIPTION: A ghost that spreads a dreadful miasma, a smell of noxious deca. Best confronted by during sticks of lavender.  MAJOR APPEARANCE: There aren't really, unless you count Ezekiel calling the Skull one in the Empty Grave. 

GHOST NAME: Phantasm TYPE: Type Two  GLOSSARY DESCRIPTION: Any ghost that maintains an airy, delicate, and see-through form. A Phantasm may be almost invisible, aside form its faith outline and a few whips details of face and features. Despite its insubstantial appearance, it is no less aggressive than the more solid-seeming Specter, and all he more dangerous for being harder to see.  MAJOR APPEARANCE: Mainly used in the ghost-bombs during the attack on the Rotwell parade during the Hollow Boy. Can be used to describe many other ghosts.

GHOST NAME: Poltergeist  TYPE: Type Two GLOSSARY DESCRIPTION: A powerful and destructive class of ghost. Poltergeists release strong bursts of supernatural energy that can lift even heavy objects into the air. They do not form apparitions.  MAJOR APPEARANCE: There was one stirred up by Lucy and Holly during the Aickmere Brothers' case in the Hollow Boy.

GHOST NAME: Raw-Bones TYPE: Type Two GLOSSARY DESCRIPTION: A rare and unpleasant type of ghost, which manifesto as a bloody, skinless corps with goggling eyes and grinning teeth. Not popular with agents. Many authorities regard it as a variety of Wraith. MAJOR APPEARANCE: Gorge said one killed Lockwood and George's old associate, Robin, by scaring him and making him fall off a roof during the Screaming Staircase. 

GHOST NAME: Revenant  TYPE: Type Two  GLOSSARY DESCRIPTION: A fortunately rare variety of ghost in which the apparition can temporarily animate its own corpse and cause it to break free of its grave. Though Revenant generate a powerful ghost-lock and strong waves of creeping fear, they are easy to deal with because their body is their Source, thus giving an agent plenty of opportunity to encase them in silver. Also, if the corpse is old, it usually falls to pieces before doing too much damage.  MAJOR APPEARANCE: The Revenant of Neil Clarke --Marissa Fitttes' old physician-- chases Lockwood and Co. up the stairs of her crypt during the Empty Grave.

GHOST NAME: Screaming Spirit TYPE: Type Two GLOSSARY DESCRIPTION: A feared ghost which may or may not display any kind of visual apparition. Screaming Spirits emit terrifying psychic shrieks, the sound of which is sometimes enough to paralyze the listener with fright, and so bring on ghost-lock. MAJOR APPEARANCE: I don't know if the screaming ghosts on the Screaming Staircase was a Screaming Spirit or if it was the Changer of the bloody monks of the Red Room. 

GHOST NAME: Shade TYPE: Type One GLOSSARY DESCRIPTION: The standard Type One ghost, an possibly the most common type of Visitor. Shades may appear quite solid, in the manner of Specters, or be insubstantial and whips, like Phantasms; however, they entirely lack the dangerous intelligence of either Shades seem unaware of the presence of the living, and are usually bound into a fixed pattern of behavior. They project feelings of grief and loss, but seldom display anger of any stronger emotion. They almost always appear in human form.  MAJOR APPEARANCE: Shades are so common that I'm sure there are several, the only notable ones I can think of right now are featured in the Screaming Staircase. 

GHOST NAME: Shining Boy TYPE: Type Two GLOSSARY DESCRIPTION: A deceptively beautiful variety of ghost that manifests as a young boy (or, more rarely, girl) walking in the center of a cold, blazing other-light. MAJOR APPEARANCE: There was one haunting the Old Sun Inn in Albury Castle that Lockwood and Co., with the help of Quill Kipps, get rid of in the Creeping Shadow.

GHOST NAME: Solitary TYPE: Type Two GLOSSARY DESCRIPTION: An unusual ghost, often encountered in remote and perilous places, generally outdoors. Visually it often wears the guise of a slender child, seen at a distance across a ravine or lake. It never draws close to the living, but rather radiates an extreme form of ghost-lock that may overwhelm anyone nearby. Victims of Solitaries often hurl themselves over cliffs or into deep water in an effort to end it all. MAJOR APPEARANCE: None.

GHOST NAME: Specter TYPE: Type Two GLOSSARY DESCRIPTION: The most commonly encountered Type Two ghost. A Specter always forms a clear, detailed apparition, which may in some cases seem almost solid. It is usually an accurate visual echo of the deceased as they were when alive or newly dead. Specters are less nebulous than Phantasms and less hideous than Wraiths, but equally varied in behavior. Many are neutral or benign in their dealings with the living--perhaps returning to reveal a secret, or make right an ancient wrong. Some, however, are actively hostile, and hungry for human contact. These ghosts should be avoided at all costs.  MAJOR APPEARANCE: Well, are you ready for this? The famous Annabel Elizabeth Ward of the Screaming Staircase was a Specter, along with Edmund Bickerstaff of the Whispering Skull, Arabella Crowley (A more detailed less important case that Lockwood and Lucy go on) in the Hollow Boy, Emma Marchment a ghost that Lucy and her Rotwell team fight during the Creeping Shadow, also the main variety of ghost on the subway at the auction where Lucy and Lockwood attempt to steal the Skull back during the Creeping Shadow, and La Belle Dame of Tufnell's Traveling Fairground was a Specter, too, in the Empty Grave.

GHOST NAME: Stalker TYPE: Type One GLOSSARY DESCRIPTION: A ghost hat seems draw to living people, following them at a distance, but never venturing close. Agents whoa re skilled at Listening often detect the slow suffering of its bony feet, and the desolate sighs and groans. MAJOR APPEARANCE: None.

GHOST NAME: Stone Knocker TYPE: Type One GLOSSARY DESCRIPTION: A desperately uninteresting ghost, which does precious little aside from tap. MAJOR APPEARANCE: None.

GHOST NAME: Tom o' Shadows TYPE: Type One GLOSSARY DESCRIPTION: A London term for a Luker or a Shade that lingers in doorways, arches, or alleyways. An everyday urban ghost. MAJOR APPEARANCE: None

GHOST NAME: Wisp TYPE: Type One GLOSSARY DESCRIPTION: Weak and generally uninteresting, a Wisp is a ghost that manifests as a pale flickering flame. Some scholars believe that all ghosts, given time, degenerate into Wisps, then Glimmers, before vanishing altogether.  MAJOR APPEARANCE: None.

GHOST NAME: Wraith TYPE: Type Two GLOSSARY DESCRIPTION: A dangerous ghost. Wraiths are similar to Specters in strength and patterns of behavior, but are far more horrible to look at. Their apparitions show the deceased in his or her dead state: gaunt and shrunk, horribly thin, sometimes rotten and wormy. Wraiths often appear as skeletons. They radiate powerful ghost-lock. MAJOR APPEARANCE: Several pursue Lockwood, Lucy and George across Wimbledon Common in the Whispering Skull. They are mentioned many times, but other than the Wimbledon Wraiths, there are no notable appearances. 

[mothcyberia]

I feel v alienated frm society rn (as edgy as that sounds) just by my own mind ,, not by anybody else. Ive had so many fucking dissociative episodes of just depersonalization/derealization. Its taken such a huge toll on all aspects of my life especially socially like communication and even normal speaking with people have been so hard and Im so frustrated with it it makes me so angry im not doing this to myself ( at least i think im not) Idk ahhh I know I look so edgy and shit and yeah my thoughts are really terrifying but i dont actively wanna die ,,, but its like someone inside my head is telling me its the only way out and its fuckung cripping to do anything, fucking anything. everything is spinning in a cycle, im terrified shitless of being trapped in this loop ive had so many nightmares and actual experiences of being stuck in a limbo,loop,paradox with drugs or just going hysterical or panic attacks. yeah i uhhhhhhhhhhhh need help?? dontg kno3w u dont kneo i dont know