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lliquidllyrium · 7 days ago

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Thinking about Illario spending his life mourning a cousin who had already decided he will die, who had given his life to the thing he knew would kill him. Thinking about Illario watching with morbid fascination as that same cousin must do the same, loving Taliesin and mourning her in equal measure because she is a Crow, can only ever be a Crow and she lives solely for the ones that love her because she cannot muster up the will to live for herself. She accepts the inevitability of death to the point where sometimes it seems she is running towards it because she Does Not Want to be Here.

#taliesin de riva #THINKING ABOUT THE OUTSIDE PERSPECTIVE #she pushed him to spare Illario because she knows what it’s like to be betrayed by the one closest to you #she knows what it’s like to LOSE them and she wanted to spare Lucanis that feeling #Illario is free because of her and now he gets to watch this twisted little role reversal #Lucanis is in his shoes now…forced to watch as someone he loves lives in total disregard of their own life #unsure of how to get them to value that life to the extent that they do #resigned to the fact that they may one day have to watch this person die because the thought of death doesn’t bother them as it should #and the worst part is it isn’t even as satisfying as he wants it to be #this is the man who had forced him into a corner to the point where he felt the only option was to put him out of his misery and take his #place and there’s hella resentment there #but now he is watching the cycle repeat and it’s just…an empty hollow feeling #and he almost wants to grab Taliesin by the shoulders and shake her and tell her to wake tf up and see what she’s doing to the man she loves #because he KNOWS what it’s like to be in those shoes he KNOWS how twisted up inside it makes you #like watching a ship sink in slow motion #like watching it sail straight for the rocky coast and knowing how little you can do to stop it #wouldn’t it be fucked up if that’s what fosters an understanding and tense reconciliation between two brothers #Lucanis finally understanding what he put Illario through and maybe he can’t forgive everything right now but he can better understand why #he did what he did now #(he is not going to plot Taliesin’s death I swear I’m just drawing parallels)#dav thots

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