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etherealrj · 7 years ago

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loving someone - part one

BLURB : years after the IT incident, the loser's slowly drift apart due to a misunderstanding on eddie's behalf. the misfits haven't been the same since that summer. now eddie comes face to face with the mistake he made six months prior and his world gets turned upside down all because the losers didn't try hard enough.

PAIRINGS : reddie

WARNINGS: homophobia, depression, mentions of suicide

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A/N If we want to be real legit i wrote this while listening to the 1975 and I think its one of the best things I’ve ever done so if you guys like it I’m doing a part two bc I want this to become a series maybe idk tell me what u think!

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part one

part two

part three

part four (coming soon)

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Eddie brought the pale blue inhaler up to his mouth with his right hand, pushing the hard plastic between his lips and holding. He released his grasp on the canister and took a deep breathe, feeling the medicine enter his lungs, relief fell over him. He brought the dispenser away from his lips with an exasperated sigh and glanced behind his shoulder.

“You’ve been smoking again Richie.” Eddie stated with a slight quirk of his eyebrow. He could practically taste the nicotine in the air. He cast a quick look in Richie’s direction before turning back to the book that rested in his other hand.

Eddie was not impressed.

Attached to Richie’s side was a barely conscious female. Eddie thought she was all too skinny to be able to hold herself up right. What a perfect match for Richie Tozier then.

“What are you doing here, Ed’s?” Richie questioned. He had long lost any form of character; his jokes were gone, his bad accents faded away. To an outsider, which is what you would call Eddie nowadays, Richie was a depthless human being void of any personality. He smoked too much and ran with the wrong crowd. He was a mystery to all those around him and if you thought you knew him you were wrong.

“Don’t call me that.” Eddie’s reply was hasty and subconscious. He sat on the table top, impatiently waiting for the boy to leave, he eagerly anticipated Bill’s own arrival, knowing that his appearance would send Richie away. None of the Loser’s, if you could still call them that, had spoken to Richie in months. They barely even spoken to each other, but they had all at least attempted to keep in minimal contact.

All those expect Richie, who a few months back decided to drop off the face of Earth never to be heard from until he resurfaced a few months ago unconscious and laying in a hospital bed. Rumours spread like wild fire, majority claiming him he had tried to O.D but just become another name added to the never ending list of unsuccessful suicide candidates.

He stopped talking to the Loser’s and prevented any of the six to ever get closer enough to try. No one had ever found out the truth as to why the boy had disappeared. He was see moping around town and barely attending school, leeching off whichever drug addicted teenager could supply him with cigarettes. Richie had lost an extreme amount of weight which paired with his tall, long limbed frame made Eddie want to vomit.

Deep down he missed the boy a lot, he’d never tell him that because this Richie Tozier who stood present in front of him with dark circles under his eyes and the forever lingering smell of tobacco was not his Richie Tozier. As he stood in front of Eddie for the first time in five months all the small boy wanted to do was hug him and never let go.

Eddie was beyond pissed that it was now of all times that Richie made his presence in Eddie’s life prominent again, after he left everything else fell apart. Eddie blamed Richie for all of it and he was not too quick to forgive him.

Eddie was broken out of his thoughts by a loud cough. Gazing in the direction of the noise, he locked eyes with Bill and noticed Stan trailing on behind. His body instantly relaxed as he stood to greet his old friends.

Richie turned in his place and watched the interaction between the three boys that he was hardly seen without during majority of his childhood. Enduring all three original members of their little club in such proximity to himself, was overwhelming to say the least. He could feel his face heating up and his heart beat erratically, if he stayed any longer he thought he may just have a panic attack.

So, he took one last glance at the teens who seem to be having a mental conversation between one another, before pulling the sleeve of the ratty blonde-haired girl and heading in the opposite direction.

Eddie glanced over to he now vacant spot where Richie once stood. Repressing the guilty feeling that was creeping its way into his heart.

“W-what’d he w-want?” Bill asked, eyebrows frowning on confusion as he starred at the side of Eddie’s face.

Eddie shrugged his shoulders in response, his head shook slightly. “He didn’t get that far.” Eddie paused to look up at Stan, swallowing a lump in his throat. “Do you think he’s okay?”

“I think it’s a bit late to ask that question, isn’t it?” Eddie felt his hand shake, and if Bill or Stan had ever asked, he would've blamed it on the wind for sending a chill down his spine. They all knew that would be a lie.

“What did I do wrong?” Eddie’s asks lowly, voice cracking through a sob, “What’d we do wrong?” Bill set his arm around Eddie’s shoulder, pulling him into a side hug. A sad smile playing on his lips, as he watches Eddie’s eyes glass over using his peripheral vision.

He glanced at Stan who just shook his head in disappointment before saying, “We just didn’t try hard enough.”

A/N I get too excited when I write I s2g I wasn't gonna post this today. if yall want part two let me know!

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survivornavarino · 7 years ago

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Rites of Passage

It is time for the Rites of Passage. Take this time to reflect on your journey in this game as well as the people who left for you four to be where you are now. Please play the audio and enjoy your experience.

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Heather

You weren't active much in the beginning love sorry. Love your memes tho

Julia

I never got to meet you, but i'm sorry you got first boot. Who knows, maybe we could have been iconic together?

Shoib

I felt bad about voting you until I found out you voted me :(

Trixie

Heather

Ummm you quit the game. No one knows why. So um... sorry

Julia

I'm gonna keep it real with your ass. I don't like you, I ACTUALLY hate you. And I still did hex your ass. AND the poliece still haven't contacted me so, i'm waiting. (:

Shoib

You were a close ally of mine and then I went to sleep and woke up to find out that you had walked :x. After finding out you leaked some of what I said to Jake I am glad you walked so he was easier to take out.

Trixie

Heather

KING I LOVE YOU. You were so robbed because of all the snakes. But I loved being an outside voter with you and thank you so much for helping me and taking the bullet for me. I will always stan you.

Julia

I never met you rip. Sorry you were booted so early, but you should totally play again, things can change!

Shoib

RIP Honestly you were the best social player on our tribe and Tyler was kinda dumb for playing so hard to get you out but it worked out in the end for me cause I liked Trixie and didn't want to have to vote her out.

Trixie

Heather

I thought you were so sweet, but you lied to me. I was a little bitter while at exile so I was glad to see you leave. You were really sweet tho and I would love to talk to you outside the game.

Julia

So I remember meeting you on swap. You were such a sweetheart and it was kinda sad voting you out. I hope maybe we can talk again in the future girl! You were fun to talk to though fr.

Shoib

You getting voted out was probs the hardest since you were my closest ally and someone I trusted 100%, it sucked that you were put on a tribe with majority faves and they ended up murdering you all but don't worry, I got my vengeance :). I also miss sending you animal gifs everyday.

Trixie

Heather

My queen as much as I didn't want to vote you out, it had to happen. You were my only fan ally left after the Tim bote out and leaked the whole Heather vote to me. You saved me love and I am sorry I couldn't do the same to you

Julia

Okay so I felt SO BAD about your vote. You were DEFINATELY the nicest person in the game. Whenever you complimented me, I felt so good about myself. Also, you are highkey gorgeous! I hope we can talk more when the season ends because I loved your company!

Shoib

You were also robbed and I loved talking to you about snakes and you owning one was pretty dope, you also fell victim to the faves which sucks.

Trixie

Heather

I never got to play with you, WHICH I WANTED TO SEE YOU AGAIN. How dare you be done dirty.

Julia

We never really got to talk with eachother so I don't really have much to say. I hope all is gucci!

Shoib

We did't talk much but you seemed like a down to earth person and your vote out was just due to no one really talking to you much

Trixie

Heather

My fav snake who sucks at lying hehehe. The one who tried targeting me round 3 after making an alliance and accidentally writing it in the chat. Other than you being #messy, I did really like you but never got to working together. I can see us becoming really good friends after this is over

Julia

Hi Tyler! So, first of all SORRY about that blindside. I just heard alot of things going on in that round, so I thought it was the best for me in that moment. But aside from that you were super fun. I remember showing you my HORRIBLE burger confessional, and my knife confessionals. You honestly were such a fun guy. I hope you play again and get a second chance because I think you deserve it 100% b.

Shoib

You are a great personality to have in games but in this game I feel like you just played way too hard and that lead to your downfall.

Trixie

Heather

I never got to play with you either, but I heard good things and that you were done dirty as well.

Julia

DREW OMG. First of all I love you and I think you know that. But i'm such a Drew fan 100%. I was seriously hoping to like F2 with you because I love you soooooo much. I was deadass furious you got voted out. I was like "ummmm are u kiddin me?" But I used your dead soul in the game as a sacrifice so I could do well. I'm very pleased to find out that your a great person to use as a sacrifice because it has worked so far. So PERSONALLY, I believe that you are in f4 with me at this very moment. And that is because I used you as a sacrifice once you died! You are the living ledgend of navarino i hope i made u proud b.

Shoib

ROBBED, RIP a King, I have taken out everyone who had a hand in your vote out (I think)

Trixie

Heather

It was either me and you, but when I talked about teaming up and getting Jake out, I was honest about it and wanted to work with you. However plans fell through so I had to save myself. We voted together a bit before merge, but merge killed that chance which sucks.

Julia

Hey Ben! So hi!!! I haven't talked to you in ages. I honestly don't remember what even happened on your vote because I had a rough spot I was going thru during your round. But aside from that can we just talk about how you were robbed. I have no clue what you ever did to deserve this treatment. I know you are probably the queen of ponderosa atm though. But I wanna say, you are hilarious. Your lipsynchs. Bitch. I. Am. Still. Shook. To. The. Core. You deserve better and i'm so sorry u were done dirty like tht.

Shoib

Yeah we talked like once lmfaoo, I am suprised you didn't approach me during your vote out since you must have heard your name was going around but didn't talk to me about voting Heather, maybe it was cause you didn't expect anyone to flip. From what I heard Autumn and Eddie changed their votes last minute so RIP you. Also you in the Lana Del Ray lip sync was iconic ngl.

Trixie

Heather

Your vote out was so last minute and I felt super bad doing it to you. We would have worked well together but I thought you had the merge idol

Julia

HI!!! So i've honestly missed talking to you. I remember in the beginning of this game, we got super close. And I know alot of fingers are pointed at me for your vote, which I won't deny I was apart of. But I wanna say I still love you as a person. We just kinda drifted in the end because everything with you got so busy. I hope we can talk together soon because I really love ya, and who knows I can do a few spells 4 you too!

Shoib

Just like with Ben, me and you talked once which sucks cause you seemed like someone I'd get along with but we were on opposite sides and your vote out was like a last second decision. Also everyone thought you had the merge idol lmfaooo

Trixie

Heather

You were SO ROBBED MY LOVE. MY DRINKING BUDDY UGH. I really wanted to work with you for a few more votes, but you wouldn't tell me what anyone was doing so I had to stick with what I knew was happening. I was really hoping it wasn't you to get rocked out because I felt we could mend things, but sadly it was you to go.

Julia

Hey b, soooo in this game I felt super close to you. I remember in the beginning I was drawn to you because I just liked your personality. And during swap I thought we got even closer. Like that TYLER VOTE OMFG. I wasn't having it when he wanted you gone! And we both got him to steppin! And than when we were both at eachothers throats when Matt got voted out. Honestly we were both pretty wild togehter. ALSO not to mention, but being rocked out is an iconic way of leaving. I've always wanted to be rocked out so i'm jealous.

Shoib

I was never mad at you for voting me Mo, I had to act upset so you would keep me and I felt bad guilt tripping you but I had to everything in my power to get the vote off of me, it was nice to talk to you again after Italy and the incident we don't talk about. It sucked cause you claimed how you were gonna get rocked out and I was like "you don't know that" and then it happened dsogbsoigb.

Trixie

Heather

This game I wanted to be so loyal to you, and I was up until my name was thrown out, which I was sad to hear it was thrown out by you. I love and respect you so much as a person and really wanted to remain loyal to you this game, but that didn't end up happening.

Julia

Hi Rebecka! First of all, I apologize for leaving you alone in a jury of MEN. I know you probably handled it well bc ur a badass bitch. But i've loved you since crossroads. I think we can click really well together, and we are both very strong independant women. Also, I love libras :) . Aside from that, I love how you controlled that entire swap with me. You were truly a boss during it and I was absolutley living for it. People wont understand now, but they will soon. I hope you are doing well, and maybe in the reunion we can whip out some astrology together!

Shoib

Ah my secret final 2. Ok we lied to each other a lot lmfao, we were just on opposite sides of the game all game so there was never really a chance for us to work together and also I still think you getting that one vote at tribal is one of the best moments of the season cause it was just so random lol.

Trixie

Heather

I have so much love and respect for you as a person. We always seemed to want to work together, but end up on opposing sides. We need more fire emblem talks once this game is over.

Julia

Hey Mitch!! So hi, I love you. You def tie with Vi as nicest person in the game. I knew when it came to you, there would only be positvity and 0 drama. ALSO I LOVE BIRDSONG. Anyways, I knew you were def a strong player. You were kinda getting it in the beginning, flipping sides on the downlow but still making everyone love you. You deserve plenty of credit in my opinion. I'm really sorry your vote ended in a blindside for you, but I just knew it wouldn't work out in my favor to keep you. I hope you are doing good b!

Shoib

I am so sorry for lying to you so badly before tribal cause I knew you were panicking and I made it worse however, I was also nervous since my name was going around and I tried to do everything in my power to get the vote off of me and telling you to vote Eddie was the easiest way for me to do that. I didn't want to vote you or Autumn but the chances of us actually making final 3 was impossible.

Trixie

Heather

When you saved me, I was so grateful and had my vote written down and sent in to the hosts the next round because I wanted to show how grateful I was for those who voted to keep me. However things changed last minute, and I wanted to let you know, but I wasn't sure if it would be to late or not. Then when you and Julia got into the huge disagreement after I was sure you hated me after the vote as well. I flipped to you during your vote out because I did still have faith in us working together after that vote.

Julia

So you may/may not think I have beef with you. I wanna settle that, and let you know that I do not <3 . I personally love your personality, and I loved talking to you. Though we did have petty drama, on my part it was stratgey/game related. I also LOVED it when you dragged me saying "Let the two brain cells survive" ICONIC! I even made it my mood message. I think that you and I made this season pop off/lit. Like WE WERE the drama, WE WERE the entertainment. Hopefully there is no beef on your side, and I hope maybe we can get on a call and I can teach you some fun witch stuff!

Shoib

Ok your vote out musta been so frustrating, I mean first you had Jake lying to you, it was an instant and then the person you least expected to vote you, voted for you and the people you least expected to vote with you, voted with you. It was next level fuckery. I want to apologise if you felt like I talked to you like you were my "dog" or "slave" because that's not how I meant to come across at all, I am not saying that for your jury vote if I make the end I just don't want to make people feel like I talk to them like shit unless they deserve it lmfao. My ego is just an act cause it makes the game more fun for me and gives me freedom, it also is like a strategy to make people not target me so they're like "oh keep him around no one will vote for him in the end".

Trixie

Heather

The amount of times I wanted to get you out after merge, but each of those time actually working with you was hella fun. I flipped on you during the live hands up round because you were playing such a great game and I would have wanted you gone later anyway. You were just too good and I respected your gameplay so much.

Julia

Ugh disgusting! Jake the flippin skank snake! JK! (im jking only a little). I love you, and I think this is well established. Even though u SNAKED me on a few occasions, we were able to sort that shit thru!! I'm glad we got to play another game together and actually be real with eachother. Ily u brat and I hope u survived jury bc idk if u did.

Shoib

Ah Jake where do I begin, you know I love you and after finally playing a full on game with you I realise why you are so good at them, you are incredibly smart and social and you understand why you had to leave. The only thing stopping you from winning was a bitter af jury (which they may be, idk). I wanted to be honest with you when voting you out so I was and I was a dick about my idol cause I just wanted it to be an entertaining tribal lol. Sorry for flipping on you at the instant but you know me, it's in my nature to flip.

Trixie

Heather

Queen of all Queens. The last remaining of "the other side" Us actually working together was my favorite part if this entire game. We would usually discuss little bits of the vote and then go our own way, but then when it came down to it vote against the each other with our "sides" We did have success with the Jake vote. I knew getting you to ftc would be a shoe in for you to win, but I have so much respect for you and will prob stan you in every game I see you in.

Julia

So truly, I do apologize for being fake the entire season to you. It was sad to do, but it was strategic at the same time. I remember I did wanna work SO BADLY with you but it never worked out. I blame jake 100% for this (no shade). But it's truly upsetting we were put in a position to be after eachother after becoming friends in the crossroads reunion. I think you are very strong. It's hard to be on the bottom the entire game. And from personal experiance, I have never been able to hold underdog position as long as you did this game. I want you to know that when I voted you, it was only because I was intimidated by you. You in my opinion were a threat to win. I'm really happy you made it as far as you did, and I do believe you did deserve to make it further. It was just too risky to have you stay any longer. I hope that this game dosen't ruin our friendship from before because I really do like you. You are a femenist icon i could only wish to become.

Shoib

Ok how tf did we both make final 5? Like whettttttttttt? We were the most dysfunctional duo in the game and kept lying to each other yet in the end we still kinda trusted each other which is weird, you are a great person and fun to talk to and I knew at final 5 it was me or you since we were considered the biggest threats. You played HARD and you know I thought of you as a threat, I didn't make it a secret lmao, me and you were responsible for the most iconic tribals, the first one when we got people to go to rocks for us and then the second one where I flipped and voted Jake and you flipped and voted Eddie lmfao. What a ride honestly, I wouldn't have had as much fun without you we were kinda rivals but like not rivals idk our relationship in this game is fucking weird but I still love you. TRUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

Trixie

#TurnUpTheHeat

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