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peachcitt · 4 years ago

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this isn’t necessarily about an episode but like,, rewatching trollhunters reminds me of when i first watched it and i told my irl friends how much i liked it and they made fun of me because it was a kid’s show,,,,i literally made the ‘???’ sound out loud because these are the same irl friends that have no problem watching she-ra, mlb, and my little pony,,,,,,,,,make it make sense

#peach’s trollhunters rewatch #peach rambles #anyway i remember after not bringing up trollhunters again except for when i finished it and i was really fucking sad #but they still gave me that ‘youre talking about something lame’ look and i was like FINE. FUCK u guys ok #idk they probably didn’t mean to be so mean and discouraging to me about it but like.#idk i still felt really shitty and i felt like i couldnt talk to anyone about the thing that i really enjoy to the people i trust the most #i never really brought up how hurt that made me feel and they probably don’t even remember tbh #but WHATEVS it’s chill it’s not like it ruined my friendship with them or anything #and it’s not like it’s going to now im doing that all on my own🤪🤙#jk (sorta)#ive just been in a Funk recently #(funk is code for depression and isolating myself from my peers for reasons i cannot articulate)#and i havent really talked with my friends properly in a really long time #in the gcs im in with them all of them talk about their feelings and the things theyre struggling with and i just????? can’t do that??????#im not really a gc sort of person in the first place so there’s that #but it’s also like. when i get bad like this i always feel like there’s no one i can rely on #like all my irl friends seem closer to each other than any of them are to me #(because im always emotionally distancing myself from them oops)#and the one friend that i would normally go to i used to be in love with and now that im not anymore i just feel bad dumping my #problems on him #not that i didn’t before but like. it was different because i wanted him to Know me you know?#and now when i talk to him i speak openly about most things but i keep on downplaying how bad i really honestly feel #so like. there’s that : )#anyways this tag section is a Mess im so sorry #if you read through all of this: literally why but also!!!! don’t even think about worrying about me!!!!!!! im fine!!!#im having a weird night and tomorrow will be better #and if it isn’t then that’s okay because i know bad feelings aren’t permanent #anyways goodnight sorry for dumping my issues in a trollhunters post fjfjdksk

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