#(flashbacks to Monty from FNAF SB)

[neonsix67]

I am re-obsessed with this show (specifically it's Gummigoo and Caine that have me in a chokehold). But just when I thought I could escape unscathed, I realised I was in quicksand....so here ya go!

[theodorevg923]

Trauma / Length

Part of the reason I chose Bonnie is because I *haven't still figured out how he would be with a child. Also cause there's not enough content for Glamrock Bonnie. I also have a bit more freedom with him as a Glamrock for the fact he's not cannon. I did form how he is from the others games lores, but he's still "my Bonnie".

The reason I understand my hubby's pain so well is because I was the child stuck without a father because of the law. He's the father without his kids from law pulling them away, severing his familial connection to them. I could still talk to my father, but I have no connection to him from childhood, unlike my older brother who does as he had a few more years together before the separation when I was 3 years old. I still remember exactly what caused the fight, at least from my child perspective, me. And the trauma I've felt for years, struggled with not blaming myself, had destroyed me for so long.

My hubby has 4 other kids other than our own and none of them talk to him. One specifically is because her mother turned her against him at a young age, even though we have court mandated visits. We have thought and talked about fighting for full custody of the years, but decided not to for his daughter's life would change drastically if we did as she lives in another state. The other three are adults now, but still don't talk to him as, like me, they have no connection to him.

My own mother blamed me for the separation, so much so she would take it out on me. Once going so far as to tell me I was to blame. Which typing this out, its probably why I have such a strong connection to Bonnie, to understand his side of the accident in SB. But the hardest thing I've realized, since growing up and becoming a parent myself, is no one came to me to see how I felt. I never received proper medical care, or therapy for the trauma. I became Monty in a way, repressed anger towards myself, constantly blaming myself, everything I did was never "right". Except instead of destroying everything, after I realized the aftermath it caused, I turned to self harm.

I don't have any plans to leave my hubby, ever, but if we ever did, I would fight the law myself for him. To guarantee he had proper visitations, and I wouldn't want child support. It hurts to see how he cherishes the memories he makes with our daughter, as he never got the chance with his other kids.

On the story, I'm going for a heartbreaking, out of their control separation, a car accident. Cept the thing is, she was still pregnant and didn't survive, but Raylie (an OC) did. Bonnie has the support of everyone from the plex, but he's heartbroken, trying to heal from his loss while raising a newborn that looks just like her. One of the biggest struggles he's going to have is not blaming Raylie for it. An I don't have any plans for it to turn romantic as she was his one and only. I don't have any major conflicts planned either, just chapter by chapter of each year or so and the struggles he has, the happy moments, and flashbacks of terror and loss.

My biggest worry with writing is that there's no big conflict, no peak to the story/stories without forcing one. I feel like it's boring to readers without a high point to the story, so I end up forcing one, then lose interest after my fuck up (ex. Theo x Monty). I've pretty much given up on it an switched to Bonnie shorts and 2 long Bonnie stories. Except my VDL story that has since become an original series staring FNAF SB characters x Reader. Out of all my writings, they do have a high peak/theme of hunting for prey.

I did once start my own story years ago, but I gave up because I thought I was being to descriptive in my writings. I have since learned somewhat of a proper balance in describing characters in parts, like from intial meet and adding more during a later interaction. Though eventually, when I'm ready, I may pick my old story up again and rewrite it, still on Wattpad.

Also, sending ya a link to the discord channel me and other writers talk an seek help in our writings. It does get a bit crazy so be warned and come join us!

So, does anyone know any books with mature themes that have a single father as the main character, and isn't a romance? I feel like there's plenty of books, movies, and shows with single mothers in them, but never really anything with single fathers, and the struggles they go through. If you do know any books that have single fathers and isn't a romance, can you send me the link or name of it? I feel like I'm going crazy from the sheer lack of them 💀