#(big l if asuna’s actually from some other city like osaka lmaooo. but google tells me that it’s still not as large as tokyo so—)

[deus-ex-mona]

✨unhinged thoughts✨ about asuna in retrospect

spoilers? spoilers!!

so, with moge’s unexpected reveal (via pixiv fanbox) that asuna wasn’t originally from tokyo, things kinda make a little more sense.

if we ✨assume✨ that asuna was from a smaller hometown/city, it’s no wonder that she began to develop a superiority complex from such a young age (upon faring better than her peers, academically and otherwise).

i mean, if you’ve always been the best out of the few people around you, it’s no surprise that you’d begin to develop a superiority complex of some kind (with regards to your peers). i mean, the proof is undeniably ✨right there✨ in front of you! you are the best, the cream of the crop, the heroine amidst the masses!!

seeing as she had not grown up in a huge city like tokyo, the fact that asuna was pretty much a fish out of water (or, to put it in her own words, like a well-dwelling frog that knew not of the ocean) when she arrived in the city was completely unavoidable.

it certainly explains why she began to develop a complex against her fellow frusu members (who were all probably born and raised in tokyo, and thus, used to the competitive and hectic lifestyle of city-dwelling). poor asuna, on the other hand, was completely thrown for a loop and just floundered about in her unfamiliar environment, trying to do her best in a place where she wasn’t the best from the get-go.

that may also be why she had jumped to such horrendously drastic measures the moment she faced a relatively(?) serious(???) problem in the form of her perceived asuna→haseo←miyu love triangle… she had probably never encountered such an “issue” back in her hometown (where she was pretty much accustomed to getting handed everything she wanted on the account of being the ✨best✨), and thus had no idea as to how to solve said issue rationally…

in any case, asuna was clearly out of her depth in this idol business, having gone into it with way too high expectations for herself, stemming from her presumably sheltered upbringing. as such, she crashed and burned in the worst possible way, with her own rapidly plummeting self-esteem preventing her from seeing the genuine kindness of others around her (aside from freakin’ haseo, for some reason).

it’s truly unfortunate, but the way asuna was had pretty much set herself up for failure from the very beginning. had she been more open-minded to her frusu companions, had she been less self-centred, had she been more aware of the positive impact that her idol career had made on others… perhaps her story would’ve had a different ending…

…but with her story being the way it was, all i have to say is…

…please be happy wherever you are, precious vitamin girl <3