#(bc i was super deregulated by both recovered trauma/csa memories and realizing that the people who lashed out at me

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also they claimed i was "threatening" them when really what i did was slide into one of their dms on discord and caps locked called them a hypocrite for treating me like a white woman when they themselves had a few recent white ancestors and was raised by their white grandmother. genuinely don't understand why it's acceptable to treat armenians like terrorists -- oh wait, i know, the turkish agenda, which a lot of countries including the US profit from.

unfondly recalling when i was partnered with 3 different people, they all mutually decided i was too white and that i wasn't a victim of CSA. genuinely believed them that i had messed up the relationships

however comma (that's a phrase from one of them and i still use it out of spite) i am a victim of CSA (not telling what happened bc these people literally used my vague comments about it as evidence that i was a terrible racist white woman; no i'm not a woman.) and Aremenia isn't part of europe it's part of the middle east making me white-passing middle easterner (genes from my none Armenian parent were mostly from western europe).

nice try, guys, you fucked me up for two years but i got over it and got better. and sincerely fuck you all for labeling Armenians as white. we're from the middle east. plus, the horrific genocide committed by the turks in charge at the time, which is hardly even mentioned in 20th century history classes and most people have no idea it happened, that's how well the turks covered their tracks and hid their war crimes. my great-grandparents didn't escape a fascist regime for people to shame me for my Armenian-ness. (they did pass on a very helpful gene, i believe; when food isn't accessible, i gain weight instead of losing it. probably saved my life during the height of my ED.)

anyway, thanks grandma and grandpa b***jin