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How do you think Alina being Zoya-level beautiful would have changed her and thus the series?
In the story, even when Alina used her powers she was never considered traditionally beautiful. I think only Mal ever called her "beautiful". But her beauty never held much gravita in the plot. Only her powers and what she could do with them. Since she was the Sun Summoner, proposals of marriage would inevitably come to her door. One of the most powerful Grisha that lived at that moment. Who wouldn't want her as a wife and therefore an ally?
If she was as beautiful as Zoya then the only thing I can think that would be different is the number of proposals and attention she would get. They would multiply.
But the Darkling wouldn't let her beauty affect him (as we've seen him being unaffected by Genya's and Zoya's great beauty). He would only care about what she can do.
#he's a practical man#but about her beauty in general#when the Ravkans found out she was the Sun Summoner they got ecstatic#her great beauty would be a bonus#the Sun Summoner AND looking like a model? Hell it would be just another reason for them to idolize her#(as we ourselves do in the real world)#anon asks#alina starkov#anti zoya nazyalensky#shadow and bone#grishaverse#grishaverse trilogy#aleksander morozova#the darkling
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Select bits from Sir John's funeral that I just love...
So we have Crozier reading out the part about Jacob dreamed about a ladder, set upon the earth, "and the top of it reaching to the heavens"...
...as we see Collins and Stanley, the two characters whose mental health is a defining part of their character arcs.
Then, "Behold the Lord stood above it and he said, 'I am with thee ...'" as the focus shifts to Goodsir.
"'... and will keep thee in all places, wherever thou goest'".
Goodsir, who later questions "is God here?"
The following line and shot are "'for I will not leave thee'" as we see Jopson and Blanky.
The two men Crozier left. Blanky knew Crozier was, just earlier that day, planning to leave them. Jopson likely knew, as it's remarked later that he knows everything, and perhaps he's the one who tidied away the unsealed letter and wax.
Then the Terror lieutenants, with MacDonald too. "And in Jacob's dream he saw the invisible world, companion to the known one we perceive."
The men who were privy to Crozier's alcoholism, and were part of maintaining that separation between officers and men... but also Hickey and Irving 'perceived' Hickey's true nature.
So, of course, when we have: "So complete it would seem to leave no room for its invisible brother world" as we see Hickey...
that otherness, that not belonging, keeping out of sight, experiencing thing in such a different way but no one notices or even thinks it's there...
And then going back to a shot of the men gathered at Sir John's funeral. "The departed..."
"...who though cleaved from the frame that carried them yet live." They are all departed. Dead. Crozier is the only one who doesn't die, but he certainly doesn't 'stay' in the world he's expected to.
The contrast of the words of virtue and strength, from scripture and used to describe Sir John and saying he's "destined to reign with Christ forever", being heard as we see Hickey in Gibson's cabin.
The white glove over the hand that will offer up Hickey's tongue, his left hand reverently touching the spot, the fact that, all that time later, Hickey has come to believe that he can be a new god and reign...
Finally, for this post, we have "and see His truth amongst us" as Hickey reads Crozier's resignation letter, discovering the truth of Crozier's actions.
And not one of them is god, or has the truth. They are all in this terrible place where the sun has set, in this strange world they don't understand, in this "invisible world of spirits".
There's so much in this scene, so many links, that I just lose my mind every time.
#the terror amc#my post#terror meta#i could ramble about this scene for so damn long#this'll have to do for now#it's a quick skim of things that happen in my brain when i see it#but yes please enjoy and please rewatch and describe all the shrimp colours you see in this#i feel like that deranged little guy from it's always sunny with his links/connections map#ugh there's so much hickey stuff a;ldkjf;dsfj and the gibson bit#the invisible world present for jacob you say as you cut to gibson???#the guy closest to hickey and whose bed hickey is currently befouling????#like the implication that gibson somehow let hickey 'in' is undoing me because it's kinda true right???#he's the one who sets a lot of stuff in motion#he's also the one who does the grumble grumble 'we could make a go of it for ourselves' when they abandon ship#lets hickey in lets him out lifts him up#and he's the one hickey kills and *transcends* from consuming#like that guy realises he's a god as he consumes the man he loved#without gibson would hickey have been brought in so easily? made real?#i mean yeah he would because story and whatnot but...#let's just consider for a moment if their relationship had been different...#anyway hickey is very real for gibson
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"all these scary minecraft mods just take away the fear of the unknown so now its not scary and this mod is useless" counterpoint: have seen many hardy fellows shit their pants about them
#also if you dont find Beasts scary you dont have to download the Scary Beasts mod#we notice a lot of discussions around what is and is not scary fails to consider real world incidents#some people find cave noises scary because you never get your questions about them answered#however we can just turn them off and we do. its too easy to avoid once we get spooked#introducing a mod in which those cave noises are connected to survival such as locating scary creachure based on noise#forces us to hear those noises with the added information that they are connected to real threats so we cant reason ourselves out of fear#like dunno guys. what if we just find different things scary
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tonio doing a bingo little here
#this is amusing to me#i do think we’re meant to be laughing AT him#which makes this all less insufferable than it otherwise would be#‚i knew nothing of real love when i was a naive child of fourteen‘#‚NOW however‘#‚with the wisdom afforded to me at the venerable old age of SIXteen‚‘#i think we’re also meant to look back on our own teen years and laugh at ourselves a little#(granted this chapter is less relatable to me than the last one)#(but some of my more romantically inclined peers at sixteen were definitely Like That)#weren’t we all a little bit ‘woe is me i’m the only person in the whole world who’s Different and No One Will Ever Understand’#i mean i was#//#tonio kröger#thomas mann
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Oh this explains exactly why I hated Mean Girls:
Because jesus christ NO!!! YOU DON'T HAVE TO BE LIKE THAT o_O;;;
My family moved around a lot so I transferred schools a lot lol, often in the middle of the school year too. Thanks to that I experienced a wide variety of social dynamics. In the worst, most hierarchic and 'kill or be killed' schools, I was a weirdo outsider, sometimes with literally no friends (which was fine; I knew that wouldn't last forever, bc we were probably going to move again in a couple years). In other schools where there was much less hierarchy and performance, and much more solidarity and camaraderie, I had a lot of friends and was part of many social groups.
Is your school, workplace, family etc. shit? Well, it's not like that everywhere!
You don't have to ruin your life, sell your soul or abandon all morals trying to 'fit in' when the system is shit.
YOU CAN RESIST THE SYSTEM.
#honestly#this kind of reasoning is just making up excuses for your horrible behaviour#'no but everyone else was doing it!!!!'#'we only did it to protect ourselves!!!!!^1'#'we did it because we desired to be accepted!!!!'#fuck off#that's what people holding up other fascist systems tell themselves too#lol#peer pressure is one of the most pathetic things in the world#and cause for so much stupid and horrible shit#oh and 'look!!! in this fictional story EVERYONE is mean! even the home schooled kid and the kids who really want to be kind!!!'#'so that's exactly how it works in real life too!! because the story wasn't made up or influenced at all by an author or anything!!!!'#(lol sorry for the rant ig but i've been mainlining dan and phil for the last few months)#(and dan talks a lot about his horrible school experiences which has made me think a lot about weird school experiences too :( )
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If I take a second to breathe and think and 3 seconds into it someone calls me over the radio to come clean something they could do themselves again I'm going to actually scream
#like god I knkw I'm the only usher here rn cuz im the opening usher on saturdays but FUCK#give me a second tk fucking BREATHE#I HATE when I'm doing something and one of the managers calls and is like actually can you stop what you're doing even though what you're-#-doing is more important and come sweep up this like 3 cernal popcorn spill literally right next to us that we could get ourselves but won'#I hate this job so much I want to quit so bad#somebody else hire me right now so I can leave this shithole#and also have a real job that pays mlre than 10 bucks and hour so I can actually pretend to be a semi functional adult#I can't even pretend right now#I've been stuck in limbo for the last 2 years at least and I really don't know how I'll ever get out#I probably won't let's be honest because I wasn’t born into a world where that's possible anymore#and my mental health has only been slowly but surely deteriorating for even longer than that but it's really crashed and burned lately#but i'm trying#and I honestly don't want to try anymore#I'm so tired
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"Why does everything need to be Gay now it's so shallow to make men attracted to each other when they could be Pure Platonic Friends -"
oops sorry I can't hear you over the sound of me Doing What I Want Forever because I have been watching movies, TV, and animation since the 80s and have watched enough shallow heterosexual romances that would have been stronger as mlm-wlw solidarity friendships to fill the space between stars in a galaxy
#also 1) friends can fuck each other so you're not safe especially since gay guys do this a lot#2) why can't there be a cast with MANY mlm characters where some are strictly friends and some are partners#(bc this is a real thing that happens in the real world shocker I know but sometimes friend groups have several mlm folks)#3) as an aromantic vaguely ace spec person I get the need for good platonic relationships#but uh queer people reading mlm romance into something (often based on their own experiences or representation needs)#that creators refuse to delve into#or god forbid writing it into their own work#IS NOT THE BIGGEST PROBLEM HERE#i can't believe it's the year of our lord 2024 and i am still seeing this thinly veiled homophobic take everywhere#2006 called and it wants its 'I don't wish evil on gays but i dont condone their gay stuff' attitude back#Also when I think about all the shows and movies that came from source material with wlw or mlm characters who were all but TOTALLY erased#Or I think about media about queer historical figures who were utterly straightwashed or had their queerness demonized#or reduced to a footnote or Non Controversial background noise#My rage about this increases like 10000 fold#Anyway TLDR ultimately I fall under the mlm umbrella and that's part of the reason I write the shit I do and I'm not the only one#And I write cheeky posts about it but I actually am genuinely disturbed sometimes at this sentiment#Because no one says it outright but there's this massive undercurrent of an assumption that we don't exist#And we don't create#And we don't create things FOR OURSELVES not even bc precisely because of all the times we were told#'Well that's not really marketable so if you want to see it maybe you should create it yourself'#I feel like I'm talking to a wall here DOES NO ONE ELSE GET ANGRY ABOUT THIS#LIKE HOMOPHOBIA ISN'T OVER YET#ESPECIALLY NOT FOR MLM PEOPLE WHO AREN'T CIS AND WHITE#Like stop calling sex and/or romance shallow when it's gay and SUSPICIOUSLY 0 OTHER TIMES oh my fucking god
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Me: I'm fine about my autism now btw, like I've come to terms with my fixated interests, limited tolerances and social inabilities. The alienation it brings is not ideal but it's just a reality I've gotta deal with now that I know it's just a part of who I am. I mean, it's not like an awkward conversation is gonna ruin anyone's life, is it? We'll both move on from it eventually. This is fine!
Also me: physically unable to watch beyond the first word of the first question of The Assembly because oh my god what if someone says something awkward or controversial or someone can't make themselves understood people are gonna get mad and scream about it online and I will freeze up and be stuck in the backlash forever I don't know how to handle conflict AT ALL let's just hide in the corner behind the sofa instead wait what if I became a hermit actually yeah yeah yeah that sounds good let's do that
#unresolved trauma? never even heard of her haha 😅#maddie debrief#that 2-minute intro/taster did nothing to calm me down either btw#I'm never comfortable around the types of shows where 'difference' becomes the core conceit of the premise#oh. so you've created a format dependent on making a socially alienated group face the social rules that made them alien in the first place#and then deriving your conflict from the 'natural contradiction' between the two?#sounds like the exact kind of conflict-seeking environment where I can let my normal guard down enough to meaningfully challenge#my deeply rooted feeling that people generally find me cumbersome to be around and mostly just tolerate my presence out of necessity#lovely that#(like i say I haven't seen the show#so idk if it is actually like that or if it's just the promo material stirring shit up as per usual#but as of rn I do not feel welcome in this room)#why does the 'we're not so different after all' always have to come at the climax and never the midpoint of the story?#why can we never find more than personal gratification in that realisation?#why do we always focus on the difficulty of coming to the realisation rather than the conflict of putting the realisation into *practice*?#I know why#it is because the human imagination is far more limited than we like to believe#and we find it hard to even *imagine* a world that we haven't seen functioning for ourselves yet#let alone find a purpose in *acting* on the idea#(especially if we ourselves currently feel dependent on the status quo for our personal welfare#which is why shows made to depend on 'difference = conflict' make my blood run cold)#so if we have to see to believe - how many cases of real world functioning equity does the average person understand?#very few. so let's instead lazily invert the state of power in an existing dynamic that people are familiar with#thereby reaffirming its false dichotomy through perpetuating what is essentially the same old conflict#while claiming to subvert it when in fact all we have done is reverse the dominance while keeping everyone locked in their roles#can someone just put some thought into how we might create a format that aims to loosen up the underlying skewed power dyanmic#so that everyone has to work together to prevent the elevation of a single way of being over all others#because that just becomes suffocating to *everyone* in the end#and that can still *acknowledge difference* but not as a source of conflict - rather as a source of collective strength?#but the story of changing one perspective will always be easier to both tell and enjoy than the one about building something new
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i don’t think y’all understand what it’s really like being of african diaspora descent
#cade’s things#cade’s thoughts 💭#mostly for nonblack people#cause the way y’all’s people have been exploiting us and our bodies the way we talk the way we dress our languages n dialects#for y’all to go “black people don’t have a culture it’s American culture !!!!”#“only white people have culture !!!!”#do you know how damaging that is to a black person’s self esteem#having us think that we’re nothing MAKES us want to stick together because we can only depend on ourselves n our people#like it’s not that hard to say you like black culture and the feeling of being black but you will NEVER know the traumas the pain and suffe#ing we go through because of people like that and our “allies”#it just sickens me#like it’s US black history month but it just feels like no one cares yk ?#not saying that palestine is less than us but like in the real world unaffected by palestine and its genocide#it’s just like every year it gets worse and worse#hearing people who look like me being discriminated and killed daily in different countries and the one i live in#it hurts man
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it is so very important to be critical of the things you enjoy
#nothing is perfect and we do ourselves a disservice by pretending it is#especially when the problems are perpetuating/contributing to real world issues#no swans allowed#like/reply if you read
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#this has been going on for a while but it’s worth mentioning as cautionary tale as well as a evidence that it’s not so painless.#but before I can really make my point we need to understand how some of us are quite uncivilized and more ignorant than we like to admit#we live a great new world that’s never been so since we started civilization as far as we can find archaeological evidence and#somehow we keep acting like we had better#it’s that many of us the poor the working the middle and the affluent think#that our material wealth is for real ours and somehow we can disassociate ourselves from all responsibilities#simply put its to act like living in democratic earth but expect to freely condoning and funding uncivilized things#the cautionary tale is that for any of you rich assholes like chinese russians arabs persians egyptians#do not get so uncivilized to advocate war and expect to keep your toys abroad in the civilized earth under the world order#and faking or staying low key won’t work. if war is to truly break out#all you Uber rich chinese and russian and arab mofo will lose all your shit.#mark my words-if you’re so Uber rich and cannot understand it then that’s how uncivilized you’ve become#russia#ukraine#taiwantalk
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i’m not good with words so i probably won’t describe it right. but the black/white mentality online sometimes of things with any flaws being ‘pure evil/need to be destroyed’ and expecting the alternative to be whatever arbitrary things the person decided are ‘perfectly healthy’... does not do anyone good.
i mean yes, we could go into it being an extension of purity culture, of conservatism mindset etc but like. at an even more basic level, especially because online spaces have a lot of younger people:
its really bad to view YOURSELF that way. and when you’re viewing even things way outside you that way, you might be viewing yourself that way. that relationship in X novel is bad because person 1 didn’t communicate right away, and even if they learn and improve through the novel you’ve already decided they’re “too flawed”, or maybe the person 1 never fully improves since its a novel and ‘awful’ to ‘moderately decent at relationships’ is the arc instead of moderately decent to ‘perfect.’
But my point is, about yourself: no one is perfect. You will NEVER be perfect. Please don’t hold yourself to the expectation you MUST BE PERFECT and anything less makes you pure evil/irredeemable/awful and unworthy of being treated fairly. The best anyone can do in this life, is try their best, notice when they do happen to mess up or someone lets them know they have, and practice trying to do better next time. You can improve yourself for a lifetime, for decades go to therapy and do all the right exercises and work on yourself every time you slip up even a little AND give yourself breaks so you don’t work yourself to death being overly critical of yourself nonstop... and still by your death you won’t be perfect.
When I see people get very intensely angry about fiction being imperfect, about wanting it ‘perfect,’ it makes me worry maybe they can’t take and accept their own imperfections. That they see themselves as pure good or evil too, and either naively think of themselves as “perfect” which leads to ignoring when you do actually harm others or yourself (which will happen sometimes), or think of themselves already as irredeemably bad and never able to fix it (since any imperfection even if working on it is “not good enough” according to such a thought process). And that’s an awful way to live. You need to be able to care for yourself NOW, think you’re worthy of respect and fairness NOW, think others critiques of you can be put to constructive use so you can grow, think of yourself as the sum of all the years of growing and improving you ALREADY DID and how that’s a wonderful amazing thing you’ve accomplished!
This purity culture idea just seems like its very prone to making the people sucked into it self hate because humans just never can be fully perfect, or sucked into never improving and growing and rejecting times they maybe should for their own wellbeing because admitting they have any flaws makes them forever ‘awful.’ That’s not true. You’re not inherently bad, period. You’re not bad for having flaws, you’re normal and human and alive. It’s okay to have flaws, its okay to gradually work on them because humans can only improve so much at a time, its okay to realize 2 decades later that oh you still have this negative thing you do and then maybe work on it then. The reality is we will never be perfect, we will still find our share of some kinds of flaws when we’re very old and about to die, and we need to be able to accept ourselves and appreciate the progress we constantly make and recognize we are valuable and inherently okay as people even when there are still flaws or new flaws come up.
#rant#basically just. if you view yourself with purity culture. u can hurt yourself very badly#and when u start seeing your outside world as black white pure good pure bad? then its a slippery slope to viewing#yourself and other real people that way#in reality? a parent can be very loving and healthy and STILL fuck you up a little and still need to work on it until they're 60#in reality? you could've had divorced or absent parents and that made you play out#subconcious abandonment issues on your crushes in high school and the truth is you WERE a jerk#but you werent 'pure evil' you were simply doing all you knew how to naturally do at the time#and you simply could Not have done better until someone or yourself NOTICED you were acting out your abandonment issues#and even once you work on those issues in therapy or self help? it will be a lifetime of those traits instilled from childhood#rearing their ugly head to some degree. not enough to be a jerk anymore yay#but enough that you still might get irrationally jealous. or irrationally fearful when someone is emotionally close#we don't ever become 100% perfect and we cant expect ourselves or others to be#we are ALL flawed in a myriad of ways and need to be able to accept people have flaws and are still Good and Worth existing#because we ARE flawed people. everyone we know is#when we put some people on a pedestal as perfect we lie to ourselves and hurt ourselves and everyone else
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As much as it'd give me the warm and fuzzy feelings if God was shown to be vaguelly (and only very vaguelly otherwise you sacrifice the whole ineffabeness of it all) on Crowley and Aziraphale's side it doesn't particularly matter and can't matter. Both Heaven and Hell are primarily guilty of caring too much about what God thinks. They are both caught up in what they think God wants and do either that or the exact opposite, mirroring precisely the same image. Characters can only be free of this if they stop overthinking God and focus on the real and tangible infront of them. It's about doing good first and caring if that makes God your enemy or ally second (or third or twentyfifth or not al all).
'What if God's plan is really to get them together?'
'What if God actually wants the angels and demons to think for themselves?'
'What if God actually wants the Earth to be saved?'
These questions are missing the entire point of the story.
I cannot stress enough that this is a satire of Christian fundamentalism written by an atheist and a Jew. What God really wants or has planned is not remotely the point. God could be dead for all that it matters. We're never going to know more about God. And we're not supposed to base our notion of what's right on what God wants. That's what fundamentalism does. Good Omens is specifically subverting that.
The only real answer to these questions is 'It doesn't fucking matter.' We're talking about right and wrong, good and bad, as it affects people (human and otherwise). We have to decide what happens. God doesn't get a say. Maybe they'll approve, maybe they won't. Fuck 'em either way.
#good omens#i'd say it's not just about christian fundamentalism#it's about fundamentalism in general. about ppl focusing more on ideologies then other ppl#about the cold war and how it fucks both sides and most of all those caught inbetween#i'd argue also with adam's plotline in the book about how revolutions that will magically fix everything aren't real#amd attempts at changing everything in one go end in tyranny#how we sould be weary of simple fixes and brace ourselves to do the long grueling work of building a better world
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It fucken WIMDY
#personal#windy wondy the last week or so make me feel wonky#the vibes in the air are strange and offputting. we taking our rest we showing ourselves love and kindness#lot of things coming to fruition soon and the world and i need the downtime#but goodness i wish the wind didnt make me soo tense. its not even hurricane zone here wind and storms have always just made me feel Bleh#can one eat too much tuna? is there an unhealthy amount of tuna my body craves the salty vinegary bite of tinned tuna#is this related to the weather ?probably not but theyre inexplicably linked in my mind.#i wanna sit in bed and eat like 12 tins of tuna at once is that too much omegas or salts for my pretty small body?#i simply do not know but i hope all of you in real hurricane or flood zones stay safe and dry
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I hate a bitch who goes into a fandom or themed tag/tags things with that fandom or theme just to criticize and bitch about it? Or call it boring and make people feel guilty about it? Like literally do something better with your life. I don't go in my tags for you to shit all over something that I have a relatability to or connection with. Like you 100% have the right to criticize it and even feel repulsed by it, but Tag your shit anti-(insert theme) and hang out with your own group. This isn't twitter.
#like I did not go into the LAC tag to hear you say you hate villians or characters who can do stuff like that#i went there to express my personal traumas and find a symbolism and representation to my experience with cptsd#or that they're vile and that people who are innately good are completely better and you only care about them#news flash in some peoples world nobody is innately good#we're fighting with pain and trying to find a comfortable reason that the world tore us to shreds. one that isn't worthlessness.#we're trying to see love#immediately blocked#why r u here#like u really just went in there to say "opposite of you/your interests are better” urs should not exist bc bad and make us feel ashamed#we know this#our life has taught us nothing but this and this was supposed to bring us comfort#this obviously doesn't apply to people ruining a space/tag that is actually support harming people/being predatory irl.#blow those places to smithereens#but I really think its okay to see a lil bit of ourselves in fiction. For a lot of us we are impacted by traumas and human monsters#there's something to be said for villians or 'bad people' we can love at a distance without them actually harming us.#when we've been shrunken and ripped away from love by those creatures irl#we can still love them and they can't hurt us for that like real people have.#opinions
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#look i'm very okay being wrong on this if we get more information later#but the fact that people keep taking the reporting that the taylor swift concert attackers were “radicalized online”#to say “see your jokes about hating taylor swift on twitter have real world consequences!”#hits me somewhere between funny and disgust#the radicalization pipeline is extremely real and misogyny plays a HUGE part in it#but i think we are doing ourselves a real disservice to pretend stan twitter is a major factor#like. you shouldn't make jokes about murdering celebrities you don't like or their fans anyway!#that's bad for plenty of other reasons!#but if we're being intellectually rigorous i do not think “it radicalizes people into supporting the islamic state” is one of those reasons
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