#(and dw im not doxxing myself im not there anymore)

[navysealt4t]

please feel free to elaborate in the tags! is 1st person fanfic a complete no go for you? what about in original fiction? why? feel free to be as black and white or as nuanced as u want when answering the poll :)

[wadesprincessboy]

Haha ok im losing it now. She just compared me to her mother who is a violent terf. She said talking to me is like talking to her. Because i "refuse to see ive been lied to". Lied to huh? Oh yeah definitely. I definitely have been lied to. Antisemitism doesnt fucking exist right? Thats why i hide my name. Thats why i wear a fucking cross necklace instead of a magen david. Thats why i panic and beg my mum to hide our mezuzah and our hamsa sign and our evil eyes and all that when people come round for the first time. Thats why i cant listen to hebrew music because i know of someone in my town who was called a slur for doing the same in public. Thats why. Yeah. Because ive been lied to. Its all a fucking lie right? Im brainwashed. Im pretty much a terfs twin!

Yeah this was all deserved right? Im brainwashed. The attacks werent premeditated. They were a justified response to racism from (((zionists))). I think we should just rid the world of (((zionists)))! After all, ill be safe right? If we kill all zionists ill be safe! Because if i stop being brainwashed ill be one of the good ones! And theyll spare me? Right?

Theyll see my name: Shoshana Landsberg (not my legal name dw im not doxxing myself), and theyll quickly check that im not one of those jews before they hatecrime me. Right?

NO YOU FUCKING CUNT THEY WONT! No one gives a fuck. This attack wasnt on the racists. It was on any jew they could find. I told her im scared. Im scared because antisemitism is on a rise worldwide. That this could just be the start. I told her i asked her that question because i was SCARED. I was scared id lose someone else and guess what i fucking did.

Oh and now i get a message saying "oh im sorry you feel that way" FUCK YOU. FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU.

She continued with "but gaza-" OH STFU

This isnt about that you FUCKING CUNT its about antisemitism. Its about a fucking pogrom and you saying it was never that. Its about you constantly denying history. I fucking cant anymore.

Uh so i just sent the friend i was talking about earlier a message saying essentially "what are your thoughts on the amsterdam pogrom" cause i was discussing the issue with my mum and she mentioned that this friend almost definitely thought it was great what's happening and thats eating me alive so i had to ask. I truly hope she answers well.

[c4i-r0]

sorry for being late!!

are you named after anyone? the capital of egypt

when was the last time you cried? 10 minutes ago

do you have kids? no (i am a kid)

do you use sarcasm a lot? no. (yes)

what is the first thing you notice about people? whatever is the most noticeable on them

what color are your eyes? really really dark brown

scary movies or happy endings? scary movies with a happy ending

any special talents? no lmao

where were you born? fort myers, florida (not there anymore dw im not doxxing myself)

what are your hobbies? art, penmanship, does daydreaming count bc i do it an awful lot

do you have any pets? no but i'm getting a cat soon

sports? no i hate sports

height? 5' 3"

favorite subject? biology

dream job? marine biologist

tagging (sorry if you've already been tagged): @brad-bakshi-loves-bugs @brad-bakshi-apologist @publix-freezer-aisle @lack-of-females @you-choose-a-username-first @k4nd1-c0rn @the-writer-nerd-ro @toocoolfordamnation @angelpinkiezz @motherfuckingbrad @pan-left-close-on-the-steeple @hallucinova ik that's probably not 15 but like half y'all been tagged anyways

15 questions 15 people

answer the questions and tag 15 people! thank u brody @walkingmouth

1. are you named after anyone?

yeah!! first name after a movie star and middle name after my aunt ^^

2. when was the last time you cried?

earlier today i cried a little bit bc my big sister was leaving after visiting us!

3. do you have kids?

not yet but i really want them in teh future!!

4. do you use sarcasm a lot?

yes in a jokey way w people im close to haha

5. what is the first thing you notice about people?

hmm idk!! if theyre nice ig lol

6. what color are your eyes?

blue-gray!

7. scary movies or happy endings?

both!!!

8. any special talents?

not really lmao

9. where were you born?

america unfortunately.

10. what are your hobbies?

drawing, writing fanfiction

11. do you have any pets?

2 cats!

12. what sports do you/have you played

none

13. how tall are you?

5'8” i think??.

14. favorite subjects in school?

none i do not like school

15. dream job?

piercer and child therapist. yes both.

tagging: @clandeztine @offtheheezayy @austinwehaveaproblem @mostlytins @daddymikeyway @deesaster @dxzys @h0use-of-w0lves @pagesixlovers @peterpansexual19 @p1ckthep01son @lj-girlie @untitledrockshow @littletroubledgrrrl @teenytinydancer34