#(although this aspect was still Very present in the source for both. and the blueprint of the dynamics are very not my cup of tea

[cabeswaterdrowned]

straight relationships where both parties are a little more into the version of the other that exists in their head than who they actually are. qualice-jeffannie-camilabilly

[donnnoir]

Dallas, TX                                                                          June 30, 2019

Well Friend’s, although currently I suspect there are no readers of my crude blog.  Other than those that may have an interest from the Shadow Government’s perspective.  They always keep tabs and monitor my actions and interactions at large or singular.  An annoying fact of Life as me.  So hopefully at some point and time in the future an interested party will have numerous pages to sort through.  I am trying to get all my material under one or two roofs / forums which can and are accessible to everyone.  At least that is my hope and the intention of all this.  Granted it also allows me an outlet to vent some of my frustrations and the various events, occurrences and histories with this and more that I have Lived and experienced throughout my Life.  Now in such a spirit I am posting a electronic log entries after I arrived back in Austin TX, following the events I experienced in Southern California.  Which events culminated in my being shot twice in my left leg and subsequently ran over by an F-350 dually pick-up, running me over from toes to my head being dragged under the dual tires on the driver’s side of the vehicle.  Needless to say it was an interesting evening.  I was run over on East Anaheim St. about one hundred feet from the intersection with North Henry Ford Ave., on the south bound side of East Anaheim heading back toward Long Beach, I believe the location is still in Wilmington. With the location of my being shot some distance from there and that being approximately 325 North Lecouvreur Ave., Wilmington.  These events happened on or around the 5th of March 2018.  I was transported to St Mary’s Hospital at 1050 Linden Ave. Long Beach, CA..

The following are a series of electronic entries to an ad hoc journal at the time.  I Post this ad hoc journal in its raw form, the only editing being for the most part that of correcting some of the major spelling mistakes.  Hopefully I  have retained the jagged nature of my mind set at the time.  I freely admit that upon my return from California for the first time in my life I was showing signs of Post Traumatic Stress Disorder.   I still have on occasions bouts associated to this PTSD.  I trust as coming events unfold and I have New Obstacles and Challenges to focus my attention and thereby forestall the elements of the Disorder.  Thus I Post this warts and all.  Without regard to its chronological or content of order. Because of this I will no doubt be covering much of the data, information and stories at a later Posting.  I will also be Posting the images of my hand written journal, as the loose leaf entries that I have adopted as my handwritten format.  Since every log or journal I have started has been stolen repeatedly.  So I now write on whatever loose leaf papers I have before me in the moment.  I hope to Post those as packaged folders Postings in their chronological order.  There is a degree of overlapping entries between this Posting and those of my handwritten entries.  Bear that in mind should you actually elect to read all of these.  Most of the entries some date and location headers.   I hope that in doing this that no seeming contradictions arise, especially since I am the source.  I welcome any inquires from any reader of my material.  Thus I submit the following:

Welcome, seems it has come to this. I am going to attempt to compose my thoughts and histories via electronic medium. My reservations must give way to practical realities. Not to mention the fact that each and every one of my previous logs / journals has been stolen from me. A immensely annoying recurring theme.

Thus I am going to try and make a virtual journal. Presumably I will augment this with the additional paper journal. Which will then be uploaded into a file of images. The hope being the combination will effectively accomplish the task. Towit that of providing a record of my life including events in the extreme. Additionally I wish to leave behind in some convoluted fashion my diverse understanding of things. By far I would consider the latter to be a far greater contribution to the brain wealth of humanity. I would like to think that should any of this writing come to light. It does so some time in the future . When the more fantastic elements can be seen in historical context. Such that what would otherwise be seen as speculative ventures into science fiction writing, will be known as simply fact. Because believe me when I say I truly wish and hope to be / will be wrong, regarding that which is to come. For a change!

Sigh… I must take a break, now. Necessity requires I consider many issues, not the least of which is where to start, and how best to proceed. Besides the fact I have not developed the requisite manual dexterity to type with my thumbs.

Monday July 2, 2018 … Killeen Texas

Sigh… damnit all to hell! I am having one of those rare days when I feel anxious, overwhelmed to the point of feeling trapped. I do not know if it is possibly PTSD related. I suppose I have to accept that as a issue with in me from now till the day I die. Regrettable not to mention humiliating for me. Granted, I suspect that the the cannabis Jade bought had a little something extra in it. So she could anesthesias more effectively giving her a reprieve from the increased infra-sound, ultrasound, microwave along with the entirety of the electromagnetic emissions I am at present enduring. I am concerned for her and her son Joey's well being. Despite her being one of the girls / operatives / victims of our government’s illegal covert initiatives know as MK Ultra. She is a bundle of contradictory issues and personalities. Your typical Golem. Her biological father is Warren Causey. He was George Bush Sr. right hand even prior to Sr becoming head of the Central Intelligence Agency. Causey was Sr's go to man for wet works and deep black bag operations. Especially if the back side had a tail which could be exploited for control of any or all parties involved. Causey is a true satanist and worse. He recently developed a rapid onset of Alzheimer’s. Not quite as sever as my own father and name sake Donald Paul Williams. But the timing of both though separate is suggestively coincidentally to events associated to me and those involved in FOXing me. I suspect brother Magnus of being petty. Grinding and hammering on old grudges. Along with becomingly increasingly punitive in operational objectives concerning breaking me to the point of my “losing” it. At which point and time my only anticipated options would be to appeal to their overview and / or full capitulation to their agendas. Thus far I have successfully thwarted their attempts. Yet it has come at an immense cost to me, across the board. Okay in anticipation that I may never acquire the journal I started last year upon my departure from Long Beach, California. A long walk beginning by The Queen Mary and which ultimately landed me in Salt Lake City, Utah. It is becoming increasingly incumbent that I reiterate elements I previously wrote down back then. You would think it would be a simple straightforward process. Naturally such is not the case, for a variety of reasons. Not the least of which are context and my desire to avoid sounding narcissistic, or worse disillusion. Yet failing to do so will ultimately end in me portraying myself as such, even more so. Besides I really hate repeating myself, sorta a pet peeve of mine.

To the uninitiated this is going to sound ludicrous and insane. However, any comprehensive primer would require volumes of esoteric information, along with accompanying commentary and should include appropriate citations. All from tomes that are closely guarded. That I am denied access to permanently and utterly. Thus it is best to proceed directly into the matter wading through the initial convolution, realizing by degrees it will work out becoming about as clear as mudd. The luciferains according to their Canon refer to me as “The Dark One”. It is an appellation pulled directly from their actual scripture as initially iterated  to Cain from lucifer, himself.

Obviously atheist may take exception to these concepts, especially the language used. There is not much I can say in response to their misgivings. Because their beliefs lack the framework from which to attach this model. Hell most individuals beliefs also in like fashion lack similar mental framework. Yet most have allowances or the tools where with the modular architecture of their minds are able to “build out” an additional wing to the mansion in their minds which houses their understanding of “reality”. At the very least they can entertain the blueprints to an “add-on” to their mansions. Similar to the operations of our minds “cognitive consistency”. Dr Richard Alan Miller is fond of noting “I would never have seen it if I hadn’t believed it”. Or by extended reference the belief that if you have enough information to postulate a coherent question, you already have enough to know the answer. You just have to convince yourself of it. The implications are profound. Stretching into metaphysics and the issues of faith preceding the miracle(s), and even magick! All topics I have and will continue to touch upon in my ramblings. But I go too far afield of my primary focus. Simply, I am The Dark One. This is both metaphoric and literal. For the few people whose sight allows them to to clearly see into the underlying spiritual realm of our world. Because all things that “are” where first created in spirit. Elsewise they would not exist or remain lifeless sterile elemental at best. There are also at worst case possibilities, but we will forego any such dialogue for the moment. Everything we see and interact with has a corresponding spiritual aspect providing impetus to the whole. Usually the spiritual aspect even resembles the physical expression, although at times the proportions differ. A fact that I know I will touch upon in other areas as topically necessitated. Nonetheless if one was to see our spirits they much resemble the physical form of our bodies, though a bit taller (note this is a foreshadowing hint, to a vastly different topic I Will Be Addressing. At times I may interject future foreshadowing hints, though sans the extensive explanations). Depending on the scope of vision applied a person may / can see many other things. For my current model I am going to stick to issues of direct correlation to what we perceive as the physical world.

Okay, yes I do know I tend to take a long round about, seemingly loquacious manner, almost tediously so in my explanations. This is due to the fact that words are nebulous, our ability to effectively communicate was fractured becoming compromised long ago. As a consequence, for clarity's sake I find this too wordy manner necessary to minimize confusion later in the discussion. By degrees we lose our way, or perpetuate our lost condition. Therefore it is by incremental degrees I am trying to more properly realign the various skewed beliefs we all hold. It is simple geometry, trigonometry or if you prefer vector math. If your initial bearing line is off by a few degrees, as you proceed further down its vector, or direction of travel where you end up will be considerably different than you meant to be. I wish to be aptly clear as to this fact early in my shared discourses.

Back to the proximate relationship of the spirit to our physical nature / condition. Also know that our spirits are gender specific. The entirety of humanity in this expressed Creation, the sons and daughters of Adam and Eve. Have migrated to this plane and place from Our Heavenly Home. That being a higher plane of existence, a organized realm of Love and Light. We, being all of us from Adam, Lilithe, and Eve till the last child of Eve is born, we are they that kept our first estate. Thereby earning both our right and place to be born here in this that by our common assent / consent / agreement we agreed would be real, thus we call it reality, simple. Wherefore, this being real by our mutual assent, means by extension that our actions here shall have real consequence to our station thereby effecting our progression. Those within Our Divine Family that rebelled and failing to reconcile back into the Family are denied participation in the progression of this estate and the subsequent assignments as to which paths we are to be assigned to in our individual journeys to progress back home.  Meaning, i.e. lucifer and the one third that fell (more properly “that were cast down”) with him. At times I will refer to lucifer as lucy or louie a small affectation I have over the years grown fond of as pet names for he who would seek dominion through his lies. Know that for my part I have always viewed our existence as an ongoing extension of the war in Heaven. Even as a toddler this was simply the nature of the world, in both a literal and metaphoric sense. Lucy is playing an end game gambit. As to our day to day offenses he for the most part cares little, seldom choosing to involve himself.  As I try to tell people; we can do bad all on our own, we don’t need the devil or louie's help. Matter of fact regrettably this particular Creation is an aberration. Most Creation’s do not have a Lucifer, who refuses to repent and reconcile, and worse yet becomes Satanish.  In so doing thereby becomes completely nonredeemable. Fit only to be cast out beyond the dark realms / dimensions. So far that not even a god could ever hope to make it back to Our Heavenly Home. Heady fanciful stuff, with a touch of discordance due to conflicting superlatives, I already know. From the presumed position of our understanding as a whole it is the best I can do with our shared mythos. The presumed contradictions fade as our understanding increases. Please accept I know little, next to nothing. What little I may grasp, has been fought hard to obtain over a tumultuous lifetime.

One of the hopeful eventualities concerning our collective situation in this Creation which I try to communicate to those that appear to show potential for understanding the following idea. Is that, Once we “eventually” progress through this Creation. As our then on going progression continues through multiple future Creations we will in all probability never encounter another such circumstance / Creation wherein any of those will again be with the added burden of a Satan / Lucifer persona to add complications to our individual, group, and familial progress. Who would threaten to usurp Creation from G-d and all of us. We can do bad all on our own. We really don’t require an objective excuse or archetype on which to pin our failings. If you are acquainted with the Book of Revelations, in its pages are the clues to understanding Lucy’s actual focus / agenda for our Creation. For we are eternal beings, Children of Divine Parentage. We live through infinite eternities, progressing and striving to Perfect Ourselves unto the Image of Our Heavenly Mother and Father. Now I sound like a some traveling revivalist preacher. Might as roll out the tent and tambourines, hahaha.

Wednesday July 4, 2018 – Killeen, Texas

Well happy 4th of July, U S of fucking A. Not to be cynical, but here we are celebrating another Independence Day in the Land of the Free. The irony is inescapable. Sadly too many individuals become distracted and lost in the perpetually shifting landscape of dysinformation. Yes the horrors these people revile against are very real and indefensible. Except in the losing of perspective, failing to see that these innumerable struggles are purposely being generated to engage the population to distraction. Usually these horrid distractions are set cross ways of social and cultural lines. This formulaic tactic is meant to ferment hostilities, hate and conflicts across the associated strata. This has been repeated throughout history to create wars, fracture our social structure, warp our values, and indoctrinate the population en mass with beliefs such as to reshape our view of reality shackling all of us to a diminished image and sense of self along with the entire human race. Once we accept this warped view as the archetypal potentiality of us all. We are guaranteed to sell ourselves and our brethren into slavery. In due course I will be discussing at length the geopolitical history within the framework of our limited knowledge of what we recorded since the flood. Rather what we have been permitted to know of said records. The fact that much as been redacted from the common brain trust passed on to us via academia. Those alabaster halls occupied by self appointed guardians of the approved versions of knowledge and information released to us vulgar unfortunate masses. So burdened, I shall pass this Holiday celebrating the antithesis of its traditions.

Continuing in the same vain as previously began prior to the day’s celebrations, in much the similarly convoluted fashion as before… I, The Dark One of Occultic Lore. I have been told; that I have done things no one in the history of the world has ever done previously. Personally I can only cite one quality as being demonstrative of such high praise. Though in all honesty I am more often than not being chastised for lacking focus, being lazy, acting the fool in the face of my enemies, or being cavalier in my affections, or placing myself at undue risk of life and limb, and the list goes on and on ad nauseaium.  This from the select few who know and understand who and what I am.  Those who may actually care about me, and would see me fulfill that which I have been foreordained to do whilst sojourning here. The totality of our circumstance here, now at this moment, we soon shall enter perhaps the most critical and precarious point of our history and that of this Creation.  I am all too well aware of this along with that which shall soon come to pass shortly.  This awareness, I experience across multiple vectors while being cognizant of a sea of permeations which ultimately stream toward a specific Crux in Our Familial Aggregation (I am trying to develop appropriate nomenclature – wherein I avoid certain more readily common labels or descriptors and/or appellations. Whose usage has been subverted into the double speak practiced by the various satanic and blood occultic families which run the world. Who have ritually (via trauma) conditioned and indoctrinated their acolytes, golems / victims to hear and respond to accordingly, never in a positive manner. Wherefore it is incumbent upon me whenever possible to avoid affirming these, even to the point of reinventing the ascribed nomenclature.) within this Creation. As a consequence I must stumble through idiomatic constructs, ungainly though they be. Believe me if you knew and understood the actualities ascribed to words and the double or multiple meanings applied to them within the Families. The evils, the pain, the denigration of the individuals / victims usually by those nearest them; ultimately by extension it eventually infects and corrupts societies unto the world at large.  You would weep an endless river of tears unto filling the seas, if you could see this in your minds eye properly.  As long as this perniciously malicious spiritual / familial / multi-generational / social / cultural pathogenic practice continues, our struggles will end in naught. Hence into this morass I must seek to keep my appointed task. How best to explain this? I have spent the majority of my life in the haze of denial.  Avoiding my differences.  Putting off my preparations for that which is to come.

Since approximately twenty four plus months prior to Operation Jade Helm our covert Intelligence apparati, including elements of the ruling shadow government began a concerted effort at Foxing me. The on set of Operation Jade Helm and its scope marked an exponential increase in expanded efforts against me.  Now, let me make clear Operation Jade Helm’s purpose was not solely to target me, there where many targets across the greater portion of the United States of America.  Death dealers and various squads of assassins executed / murdered an increasing number of American Citizens, most had been identified for some time to be exterminated.  Impunity seems to have become the operational by word.  The extremes demonstrated continuously since that time defy all reason. Defining the architects of this action as being criminals is almost quaint.  This level of criminal insanity goes beyond the point of being treasonous. With the majority of resource allocation comes from “military Intelligence” which then utilizes other military resources and supplies.  Thus it is that we have been duped into financing our own demise.

For purposes pursuant to their agendas, they have labeled me a domestic terrorist.  Thereby presumably justifying illegal exercises and persecution of my person.  Rationalizing by extension similar acts against my family and anyone I may care about and or Love. Death for them would be preferable to the horrors their personages have been and are being subjected. I know I sound ludicrously paranoid with delusions of grandeur in the extreme. Hahaha….  gosh how I wish, hope and pray such were the case. I make this record in defense of myself and my actions. Naturally I fear all my good intentions with their accompanying actions are for naught. I realize that upon my death as allotted to the sons of man, as to the first part, my character will be maligned in the worst manner possible.  A issue I will address at length later in this on going exposition of myself and my misadventures as they may be.

Thursday July 5, 2018.  Killeen Texas

Despite my misgivings it seems I survived all the pops and bangs of our nosiest of American Holidays. A joyous circumstance to be certain. From now till my last day of my allotted life as unto the children of men, my life hangs in the balance. The ante to live my life as it were.

My current accommodation over the past almost six weeks has been with an old flame and friend Jade Causey – Chamlee, and her 18 year old son Joey, whose given name was Freddie. Bless their souls for extending to my worn out arse a place to stay and recover. Regrettably my physical recovery is taking much longer than I anticipated. I am fully aware my expectations regarding the time necessary for a complete recovery was / were unreasonable. But I need to set the bar high to keep from being complacent. Now had my situation been inclusive of adequate financial resources I would be at least relatively close to my timetable. I would have had access to better medical, dietary, living and therapies. Hell my injuries would have been properly tended to at the hospital in my initial admittance. Instead I continued to be the object of curiosity and experimentation. With little consideration to trying to give me appropriate medical care. I have come to know what to expect, due largely to my younger brother's general attitude. Wherein he rationalizing what him and others do to me, as simply a matter of effect associated to the who and what I am. It is rationalized that if  I, Donn am this special chosen person than he/I should be able to survive everything, whatever it may be.  Because if he/I don’t than obviously he/I am not that special and thus not protected from on High.  Horrific logic used to rationalizing a growing list of atrocities committed against my person. A ugly fact of my reality, one I anticipated. What issues make this whole fucked up process unacceptable, malicious, acutely painful and unforgivingly egress is the manner by which they have targeted and used others. Especially my younger brother, father, son, Tiffany, Revaka, Heather, Angie and numerous others. They have been tortured, abused and treated as disposable commodities. All are scared and precious, some are very unique with abilities reaching into arenas not generally accepted or understood in today’s world view. Yet these individuals are denigrated, abused in some of the most deviantly sordid manners. Most are ultimately destroyed, first robbing them of their minds, bodies and in some final insult of their very souls. As it appears that they are being harvested for physical vehicles to have demons placed in their bodies. Yeah, I suppose I could say it in some sort of more politically correct parlance as “aliens” from a lower resonating dimensional reality / realm. Somehow I find that by doing so it fails to communicate the malicious evil inherent in the process. I find the old nomenclature to communicate the Truer meaning. Though some eras of our past carry their own obvious failings magnified exponentially by ignorance while fueled by misguided zealotry. They were not called the Dark Ages for nothing. Similarly different cultures, societies, periods, places and times have fallen to various abysses of Darkness. We have this false mental image of life on Our Earth proceeding in some linar fashion from primitive man (including Adam, for those of a theological inclination) struggling out of caves. Fighting against their own primitive brain / mind which was trapped in a diminished brain pan capacity from questing for fire against ignorance and superstitions. With us being the cumulative beneficiaries of this on going process. Peoples of those ancient times could not have been as intelligent as those today. Therefore they could not have grasped the concepts we do. Some of the most ridiculous fallacies of logic ever presumed to rationalizing and justify conduct or beliefs. Matter of fact the inverse is actually True. But what the fuck could I possibly know!

Sadly my frustrations are rearing their collective heads as it were in my writing. I wish I had been more diligent in securing my journal I started last year upon my departure from Long Beach towards Utah. I was more focused recording relavent issues in a contemporaneous fashion. Not to mention a considerable investment in explanations dealing with a variety of associated topics. Grrrrr… all I did then was walk and write. I may soon be in a recurrence of such, shortly. I can no longer abide where I am. All the more so under these conditions. Deep in my mind I am aware of happenings which require my attention. Not to mention my friend’s household is not psychologically conducive to my state of being. At least not in a healthy way, good intentions not with standing. My largest obstacle to my leaving believe it or not, is my need for acceptable footwear. Flip-flops aren’t going to cut it. Hell they are wholly inadequate to even walk just up the street a block or two. I must admit the sidewalks and streets of California were well suited for walking.

Monday July 9, 2018.  – Killeen, Texas

As Pooh would be apt to say, “Oh bother”. I feel for the most part Tigger. Bouncing all about spinning, twisting, flipping… as well on my head as my tail. I am most acutely wanting to find my focus once again. My communication skills seem heavily compromised. Not that I was ever able to write as effectively as the great Nobel Laureates. Generally speaking I could at least maintain some linear cohesion in my writing.  Physically, emotionally, spiritually and mentally I am shaken.  Much as if my being was trapped in the tremors of advance Parkinson’s. In similar fashion my expressed thoughts and experiences lack focus, my abilities at lucidly articulating my larger life occurrences is choppy at best. Failure is NOT an option! No matter how I feel or how events are or may effect me, I must regain my composure and find my center. While reacquiring my skills of teaching and sharing what I have learned.  Please excuse me if I don’t edit the foregoing entries. As convoluted and murky as they may be, their relevance contemporaneously can not be diminished. Hopefully they will in due course provide a benchmark to juxtaposition future writings and notes thereby effecting a glimpse into my state of being at the time of writing.  Grrrrr…….

They have done a very good job of isolating me. All the more so, as I try to come to terms with the potential cost to those I would seek commerce with across all levels of our socioeconomic strata.  If what I endured while being the object of a Foxing protocol by our shadow government’s covert intelligence community are any indication. Anyone who associates with me, either at mine or their initiation is subject to become targeted for retribution as punishment to me. Too high a cost to blindly impart with out consideration to finding possible means of mitigation. Or at the very least terms whereby I am ultra selective with whom I interact. Along with the rationale for said interactions. Soon enough our social dependency will require I abandon all such pretext or attempts at shielding anyone from consequence. I fear that time shall be upon us/me far too soon. Perhaps I am again being exceedingly naive. My efforts are most probably for naught. An on the at large canvas of the bigger picture my presumption at damage control will only result in a larger area and impact of effect upon our society as a whole. Not that I am some savior or prophet, far from it actually. In the grander scale of things, I might best be referred to as a “wild card”.  Meaning that in any analysis of the interaction of variables, one may with a degree of certainty predict the outcome of any issue, contest, conflict even war. However should certain individuals or a very small dynamic group of individuals enter the forum. Suddenly the landscape of the matter shifts radically to the point that the original outcome no longer applies or is meaningful. We have numerous examples of such occurrences throughout our histories. Of salient import to us here in America is The Battle of Thermopylae, and the 300 Spartans. We all learned about continents in school. Did you ever notice that Europe and Asia were counted as separate despite being one land mass. The reason is that Western Culture and Asian (Oriental) Cultures being vastly different it was traditionally ascribed to them being two separate continents. We may naively presume to ridicule such a blatant indulgence as arrogance. Yet there are fundamental reasons for this error being valid. We as the heirs of Western Culture, need to understand the mythical / legendary impact of these distinctions upon our mameic memory, especially those of us of the West. From Greece to Rome, then following our Angelo – Dutch (Iberian) roots it is transmitted to us. The importance and permanent impact of the actions and sacrifice of Leonidas and 300 Free Spartans against over a 1,000,000 servile basically slaves to a potentate deemed quasi divine, carved out a legacy of Freedom which stands even today. An Epic “wild card”. There are many others, most are lost to us today. With the occasional exception that survives in our Epics, our Mythologies, our Legends. Most such stories are the blending of factual events with older religious or semi religious traditions. Which aliteration was a common and accepted means of teaching the lessons of both convanents in a factual and metaphoric means. Much the way Jesus Christ taught using parables, allegories composed to have layers of meaning dependent upon the degree of understanding had by the student. So a natural continuation of this is to be inclusive of many historical events, along with the trans literal substitution of the individuals to those of prophecy or the the Divine or Angelic intercession of some ancient history. These depending on circumstance would be iterated and reiterated in verbal traditions to be celebrated in the retelling, usually in association to particular annual festivals. Such as the case with the Saga of the Norse Kings. A subject I hope to have the opportunity to entertain at length later in my writings, scribblings. The vast majority of my ideas, concepts, models and histories can generally be attributed to greater minds than mine. As has been said before, the reason I / we can see so far is that we stand on the shoulders of giants, those that have come before us. Yes I paraphrase taking a degree of liberty. More particularly to hopefully retain its original meaning.

Funny I have been much as I am, the entirety of my life. Before I commence an in-depth sharing of many of the somewhat unique occurrences and events that have brought me to this proposition in time. I wish to clarify and reiterate some postulates. Elsewise a portion of my own records and logs may well be used against me. Principally by interests who would wish to call my lucidity and grasp of reality into question, in the hopes of indicting or coloring my character via my words. No doubt they shall do so nonetheless. I only wish that my original is sufficiently vetted in the sane understanding of reality has to be a defense to my honor and mental facilities. Thus, again – I am No prophet! Nor am I an Alien. Hahaha… Nor am I some savior! As far as religion – I will say as was told to me by what would be termed alien contactees, or more specifically those that I felt and believed we’re genuine. Of the many I personally met back in the 1970s. According to these individuals as to the subject of religion and the Bible when broached to the various aliens these contactees interacted. All the aliens responded that yes the Bible was more or less correct and that it was wholly applicable to us, our Creation, and Our G-d. I know not at all what they say on the popular shows in the media today. Hmmm,…. As to my personal religious beliefs and inclinations, I am Mormon by conversation and have been excommunicated for many more years than I care to mention. By the way my excommunication was due wholly to personal moral matters not issues of doctrine or beliefs of Faith. So if somewhere in my upfront acknowledgements, you find me wanting of naïve. Fine, do or do Not as is in you, or as is your want. I make no apologies, nor seek to compromise in some misguided attempt to achieve an accord or consensus. Rather quite to the contrary, I share, present, seeking dialogue broader than an account of the happenings surrounding my life. Simply because I am appalled by the amount of lies and disinformation being used to indoctrinate the populace. Add to this the lack of corrected and broader views from the dreadfully homogenous perspective droning from damn near every sector. The present modalities disgust me, breaking my heart such that I would to weep day and night for Our collective Family. Yet better spent are my efforts in defense of the Truth and an improved accounting of our histories and circumstances. In pursuit of same I find I must submit my private life and experiences to general scrutiny. The majority of which I have never shared with anyone prior to the last six to eight years. I have desired to live a rather conventional life, for the most part. Realizing that soon enough I will forever be denied the Joy of such.

To this end and the accompanying process I submit some of the earliest memories and events of my life and childhood. One of my earliest, if not the earliest is being in my crib prior to the age of two. My father was working for numerous government and governmental contractors at the time. Naturally I don’t recall those details. Our family had just moved to Southern California. We were living with my mother’s sister somewhere in East Los Angeles. Their home was the typical Spanish Colonial. Anyone familiar with the style and form of such. Know that hallways usually converge into a common room, you cross to the hallway leading to the room you have as your destination. In this pass through common room is where my crib was stationed. Probably the best location for it and me. So the various women could occupy my attention should I become fussy. An many times this common room was an area where the women would congregate as my recollection is. Well across this room was a pantry closet, with selves and full of the sundry items found in such for the time. In the coming and goings of my family and relatives there were numerous occasions that would find me unattended, alone in my crib. It was during one such interlude that the commencement of a reoccurring vision / dream began. I having been left alone to my own devices (parenting back in the day). When the door to the aforementioned pantry slowly opened wide. A beautiful female Golem, her physique had the appearance of red bricks. Yet the contours of her form were singularly female. Rather she had distinct curves with aquiline sculptured features. Most hauntingly she had these striking blue eyes. She never spoke a word, her eyes spoke volumes to my initially shocked mind. As the sounds of returning relatives approached, she gracefully returned from whence she came. On the first couple of occasions I witnessed this I raised a bit of a commotion. I was not yet verbal, and in all honesty I was a late talker. Well the relatives thought I might have seen a rat. So they dutifully opened the pantry to inspection. The pantry was then as it always was, with neither a rat or exquisite Lady Golem. This parade continued off and on for the majority of the our short time residing at my aunt’s house. Usually the Lady Golem had those blue blue eyes, though green and grey versions are among the visits. Each and every time she would come to the side of my crib, moving her head, or tilting (cocking) it just so. Always her eyes full of questions and disbelief. Her eyes seemed to express; You? You are the one sent? Hmmm… You don’t look like much! Look more like a little wet rodent, but who knows?. This was more or less the sentiment expressed in her eyes. Following my first encounters I became accustomed to her visits and would actually miss her on the rare occasions of absence. Needless to say from early childhood I saw the “world” differently than others around me. I also learned to accept this altered perception without fear, understanding its validity within the accepted context of what is “actual” or the “concrete” reality of our existence.

If you may recall back in the haze of school days. During various lectures the teacher's would sometimes use what is commonly referred to as an over head projector. Depending on what was being taught, it was also common practice to layer over lays. These would either complete the image or at times super impose other images as needed. Sometimes even as multiple layers of over laid transparencies. Some of you more contemporaneously educated individuals may never have seen such primitive presentations, having known only power point. For those so blessed what I describe next may be Greek to you. For the dinosaur amongst us most should have some recollection. This model is the closest I can use to illustrate how the world appeared to me growing up as a child. Usually I would see what could best be described as up to two transparencies overlapping the “real world” in general. I could even lift these overlays to get a clearer view of what was being presented before me. At times these would both be at in the foreground of “reality”, other times both would be in the background, while at other times it would be split one in front and one in back. Yet there were numerous other configurations, sometimes completely unrelated to the happenings around me (foreshadowing alert). Gradually this ocular affect of the world began to diminish till it no longer was within my field of vision. By the time I was around sixteen to seventeen years of age this effect was effectively gone. Since then I have experienced this only a handful of times. I usually take a different approach, I will address momentarily. One of the proximate results almost immediately of perceiving my world in this manner is that I usually know the scope and degree that anyone is lying. As an adult it is not quite as prominent as in my childhood. Though there have been exceptions. As a direct consequence my earliest life lesson was in due course the hypocrisy of the adults around me. Everyone would profess such devotion to “the necessity” or importance of always “speaking the Truth”. Yet I would be punished to no end for pointing out the hypocrisy of the fact the adults more often than not lied as suited them. I learned to keep such to myself. Something I still do to this day. I tend to filter or make allowances far too much now as an adult. Invariably leading to greater complications. Besides transparencies certain images or objects would “float” across my field of vision in similar transparency manner. Some of which I could not decipher any context or meaning at the time or since. To begin to place elements of this visual experience I need to explain tangent events of recent.

The advent of the Internet and the information highway is as with most such paradigms, both a blessing and a curse. Dependent largely upon the nature and supposed inclination of man. We are all no doubt familiar with the media platforms of Facebook and YouTube. Like everyone else to some degree I have had occasion to surf around doing research or simply for mindless pleasure. Back prior to Jade Helm, when my Old Lady (though she was substantially younger) Tiffany and I were keeping house in Austin, Texas. I noticed a YouTube video regarding the Apollo 20 mission. Oh by the way according to my histories the Apollo lunar missions went up to 20. I wanted to see what was been discussed along with what twists and turns the disinformation specialist spin their distractions. Which if you can determine it sometimes conclude what they are trying to hide or if their direction of spin is a “z” vector you can sight 180 degrees opposite to determine the landscape they don’t wish you to see. You may consider all this a large investment of mental energies, it is just how my mind works at times automatically. Back to the Apollo 20 video. In the video there was some general discussion of aliens, their nature and origins. During this open dialogue, there was a series of various old clips. I presume were some how removed from the archives of NASA. Many of the older non-defined clips I was quite familiar with the images. Not because I have ever seen them as photos, images, clips or video. At the time I was floored, since previous to that moment I was unacquainted with their context or related meaning. These objects I use to see in the exact same configuration and involved in the exact motions approximately forty years earlier as I was growing up. Matter of fact judging from the age of the imagery I would have to conclude I was witnessing them contemporaneously as a child. Without the context of outer space or NASA I had presumed I was watching some complex interactions of some sort of strange protozoal life from. I even remotely as concerned they had some how become infected to my cornea, so prevalent we’re the objects across my vision. So striking was their imposition upon my sight that more than four decades later their association was immediate and most assuredly certain. One less mystery to worry about. Yet the implications are troubling profoundly. Both of myself and the world at large, considering how maliciously the world's population has been lied to and manipulated. The ends of which are too shocking and horrible to ever discuss. Although in previous conversations at moments of weakness I have divulged a greater portion than may have been prudent.

Wednesday July 11, 2018.  – Killeen, Texas

You may right so wish to ascribe or diagnosis me as having a form of delusions inclusive of all types of hysteria, grandeur, psychosis with severe religious obsessions. For what passes for psychiatry today within the public ledger domain, you may be correct. I would offer in defense a extensive lifetime containing a ongoing accounts of a similar or even greater note. Although I am not a Moses, peoples of another time would recognize me as being touched by The All Mighty, as it were. I will at least own any such appellation. Am I some righteous man deserving of beautification unto sainthood, I would argue Not. At best I have tried to be a descent man, who speaks the Truth as much as possible. I am burdened by an additional commitment.

Back in my youth, being around nine years old. I had a singularly profound series of visions / dreams. I repeatedly dreamt my death, accompanied by the various permeations associated to reaching same. The process took several days (nights) between three to five. Being so young I didn’t think to take particular note of the days my dreams were thus occupied. They obviously had a unique feel with a equally sensational intensity, they still abide with me today. I distinctly recall a voice of sorts coming to me following the last night of witnessing this panorama of my life's end (as are the days accorded to the sons of man). Now this voice which came unto me, I presume it was within the precincts of my mind. Not that it would have mattered greatly since I was alone when it came unto me. Nor did I think to ask from whence or whom spoke. I knew and could feel the light of our Divine Home as I heard the intent along with the presumed words. It was a simple dialogue, stating; “this is how it ends, this is what you have come to do. You need not do it. You have the right to choose. However if you are to complete this task. You must choose to do so now.”. Being a precocious and arrogant child, I immediately presumed that if I had been sent to do such, than the obvious was that I was the best candidate to accomplish the prescribed task. Armed with such infallible logic, I whole heartedly accepted my calling understanding it would come at great cost. Now granted, an understanding of the true scope or magnitude or the enormity of the cost or suffering I fully lacked. I have spent my life preparing. I have come to know that even at the prescribed time I will lack of my own what is necessary. I shall present to the task my all, trusting in Our G-d to shore me up to complete that which I would do. Subsequent to acceptance of this appointment I am to keep in the near future, my sight / vision increased. The frequency and quantity began increasing dreams, visions, revelations, transparencies along with my general perceptions increased. I now openly own the fact that I see the world through the eyes of the mystic. Only recently was my sight dampened. A heart breaking topic the occasion of which surrounds losing my Love Tiffany. The subject of which shall also be laid upon the alter for examination by the modern day augers. Find what fault if you will, I care little. Only know that matter and its accompanying are for later. I must at present attempt to continue in this established vain of thought recounting events long past in my short life. Besides the notations contemporaneous to me and my circumstances or any of the other tripe I have need to spew forth. Believe this, if I could accomplish my foreordained task without sharing, discussing or placing ultimately for public review any of this – such would be my desire. Painfully I have had to come to terms with the ugly reality I must prostrate myself to assure I am able to do what needs be done. Onward thru the fog, as it were.

Without going into specifics too much, early on I displayed another aptitude. Sometime around first to second grade. My Dear sweet mother recognized I somehow had a hand in the going ons of the other children that back then composed the group of children who had commenced to being around. Now my mother was blessed with a keen intellect. Which included the wisdom to not over think somethings. Instead wherever possible if there was a direct and simple solution to apply one's efforts to the solution. Thereby allowing life to continue on as meant. Almost elegant in its simplicity, usually quite effective in solving any problem, a quaint provincial version of Occum's Razor. Consequently the solution was simple, as she noted; “son, I don’t know what you are doing. But it is wrong. Apparently you need my help understanding that.”. There after I regularly got my hide tanned. Until sometime around the age of seven plus the realization that just because you could do something; does not mean you should. And that everyone is entitled to make their own choices. Afterwards the occasion necessitating my tanning ceased as a consequence to those particular actions. By no means did I fail to earn other occasions of corporal punishment as befits a young boy trying to find his wings, so to speak.

Growing up making my way through our education system of public schooling. I never cracked a book. Now one should not presume schools and childhood were smooth sailing. Quite to the contrary, in second grade my school in southern California labeled me “retarded”. Lacking a separate facilities or classes you were simply shoved to the back of the class with similarly challenged children. Nor did they have to test the child or give notice to the parents. Following a few weeks at the back of the class I began to demonstrate “odd” behavior. Which my always observant mother was quick to question. She went to the school and raised holy hell. In actuality it was more of a racially motivated issue. My parents being divorced, the school only saw my Hispanic mother. Being profoundly dyslexic, their initial assessment was that I was a Mexican, and you know you can not teach their kind. I was going to a all white school at time. Not to mention kindergarten in Watts. During the riots in 1965. I had to have police escorts to school. While I still have very distinct memories of the entire family sleeping in the living room with all the doors and windows blocked and barricaded against the rioting blacks. A sort of difficult time growing up. Believe me I know what racism is like. I am not going to hold my tin cup up on that lame ass subject. The fact that there are those in this country that hold onto this issues as the reasons for all their troubles. Or that there are groups and individuals who exploit this history for their enrichment. All this does is allows an ever expanding rifts in our society. The age old axiom of divide and conquer. Yet we all seem oblivious to this, instead we rush to our own deaths.

Thursday July 12, 2018,. – Killeen, Texas

Aaagh, fuck, damnit…. I fucking swear. Why do I even try to help anyone. Generally they hold to their own practices of appeasing the least common denominators by which they live. What can I say. As gracious as my hostess and her son may be. I doubt if I can tolerate much more of their dysfunctionality sans any self realization or objectivity. And they wonder about Joey meeting someone (female). I can’t imagine the woman who would find any of this manner or lack of is appealing. I try to maintain perspective because I do recognize the roots of most of the antisocial behavior. Even if it expresses its self differently than one may anticipate. I just don’t have the tolerance I usually do. In my current condition of convalescing from my injuries, makes me subject to the vagaries that define the lives of normal people. Due to the obvious singular quality of my life I have had to come to terms with the fact that I do not process anything in like manner as my peers. An before everyone thinks I am trying to sound all superior or some such, please note that I am continually making stupid mistakes principally due to my own naivety. We all have this aspect wherein we judge our circumstance and that of others from the pigeonhole perspective. Everyone else's view though differing from each other falls within a given area, or a few degrees of each other. Mine falls a extreme distance outside of what could be considered the norm. Nonetheless being very human I continue in the belief I perceive “reality” much as the other person from a similar understanding and values system. Invariably this attitude finds opportunity to smack me in my face by its differences. Each and every time I am recalled that, oh I knew better because I am fully aware of the differences and should have factored accordingly. Even now at this more venerable point in my life I find one of my biggest failings is naive belief in the character of my fellow man. Yet if my assertions as to my last day as are allotted to the sons of man be True. For the greater part I will be doing so for the entirety of Our Familial Aggregation. Even for those who seek only to cause me and those I Love and care about, harm or maliciousness. Because that is the way of things in our Creation. Soon enough the vile evil shall reveal itself, the kid gloves shall come off and life will never be this peaceful again. If it be the will of he who sent me I will seek to balance many scales of injustice. Till then I must endure and prepare as best I can.

Well enough complaining about friends who do their best given the circumstances. I appreciate all they have done on my behalf. Especially since to a large degree they grasp what potentially may be the cost. Even if in some small ways they may have been influenced by the same malicious or “Bees”, that seek to be the cause of my failure. For such is the nature of things in the abyss. Especially considering the length of time I have elected to spend wrapped in the confines of twisting throughout what we commonly refer to as “reality”. I generally feel more comfortable surrounded by its miasma and ickor than anywhere else. As much as it may appear to be a contradiction it ultimately is fact. Sigh!!!

For the time being I guess I will change the temporal focus of my entries. I can seldom stay focused on any particular time frame for an extended period. Doing so usually causes me to shift to the associated memories which become very visceral in nature. Soon it begins to become a tad overwhelming. All the more so once framed in relation to the present context. I sincerely hope that suffices and is remotely coherent. I am usually deconstructing my conceptual models and ideas into a form more acceptable to being understood. Sometimes I become lost in the process to the point I know what I mean despite the fact that the words and or syntax are nonsense. In conversation I sometimes have to stop and ask if what I have postulated or presented in the dialogue makes sense. I know it all made sense and sounded good in my head. Aaah but I can’t always presume to have effectively communicated the same.

Saturday July 14, 2018.  – Killeen, Texas

Well here it is the weekend, somewhere in Who-ville are working stiffs cheering at the arrival of the ritual with its time off. It has been interminably long since I have have lived a life so constrained as to include the simple Joy of a defined weekend of days off. Hell I am usually engrossed in my vocation daily. With my ever prevalent purpose always driving me. For the most part I have become unfit to be amongst civil company. Yes I am conversant. I am genial enough when in mixed groups. I tend to empathic of those around me. I genuinely give a damn as to the well being of others. Even so, the inescapable Truth is that the darkness is too imbued into my being. Because of the darkness of my spirit, I have become rolled into the ubiquitous abyss of our “reality”. Though it does not effect me quite the same as others its taint has woven into my fibers. Not being much of a liar I lack the necessary tools to hide it from general view.

Wednesday July 18, 2018  - Killeen, Texas

Well damn, I sometimes really get fucking frustrated.  At one level I am perpetually detached from the day to day focus and obsessions of everyone around me. I can’t bring my mind to focus on the general ideological concepts propagated by the geopolitical theater. Which resembles an episode of the moppet show as far as I what it appears. Are the offenses and injuries less or non-existent to my sympathies or moral indignation; not in the least. They still represent injustices and crimes which need to be effectively dealt with and hopefully the scales will balance. Even so, I just can not seem to get all worked up over these slight daily travesties. All the more so since I tend to view all these for what they are within the larger perspectives and plans of globalist / occultic families. Typical divide and conquer, or simple distractions from their primary objectives. I can appreciate everyone’s sentiments and attitudes that the scenarios of what is to come are not perceived as real or likely. Hell even I given enough distance and time begin to feel as though none of it is possibly factual. Except for the fact that I have lived a life associated to these eventualities. Even when I was in the thick of things all those involved would tell me bold faced lies as to what was occurring. As if to make me question the obvious, because the obvious Truth of the matter was outside any social norms. I guess there are those for a convenient lie is preferred to Truth too extreme to accept. I have been at this life, spending the majority of my existence living in the abyss. Which is everywhere, it co-exists with whatever social or cultural conventions occupying our realities of the moment.  It is ubiquitous yet invisible to all but those who have had the misfortune to have grown up in its mists, or the uninitiated. Due to my unique occular abilities I am sort of self initiated. It took me a little while to come to understand the meaning of this subset of our world. I have always seemed to rub against this sub culture, even as a child. A odd fact which has taken me many years to come to terms with it. Even then it was a process of educating myself to be able to grasp the entirety of the concepts. Though outrageous beyond belief, it is nonetheless part of a larger pool of knowledge I have fought long and hard to achieve. We are a phenomenal expression of life, even across the multiverse. For all our uniqueness, we are seemingly determined to trivialize who and what we are. More importantly the processes and manner whereby we are to accomplish our purpose “here”.  Truly phenomenal!!!

Yet I digress. I am simply getting on my soapbox, whipping the horse, so to speak. Grrrrr…

How best to convey some of the basics back into the discussions and open forums in our sea of opinions. A perplexing problem one that has vexed my soul for almost three decades. I suppose the real source of my reservations has principally revolved around my own reluctance to be centrist to any reintroduction in a general dialogue. Much to my consternation it is plain that to accomplish this and thereby facilitate me being able to keep my appointment in the future, I must find the where with all and means to personally become directly a part of our social dialogues. I can freely admit to my own megalomania. I try not to buy into it myself. I shan’t feed such feelings or Mali-adpted inclinations. What ever a person's tendencies, we fail our own interests in doing so. To the point of it becoming a all consuming psychosis. Our histories are replete with the villains who are consumed by base desires at the cost of all else. Not that such is my fear. Rather I prefer to do what I can from a position far from the limelight. We don’t always get to choose how best to accomplish our goals. My non-object oriented way of thinking I suppose. Aaagh, this is an area I would deeply desire some assistance. Not to mention the realities of presently being impoverished. I had best get used to my condition, I fear I shan’t know any other for some time to come. I guess I need to find the way and means to broadcast my ugly mug on to the internet. I guess I will start some YouTube type of series. I need to really get my act together!

Amazingly as we and our solar-system has traversed the apogee of its elliptical orbit with its sister star. This having occurred back in December 2012. We are now accelerating towards our sister star on the side closest to our Galactic Center. We will soon be re-entering the flows of Magick. They are part of the natural order of things. Think of it as a higher order of physics. We conveniently suppose a posture of superiority over some earlier more organic beliefs or systems of interactions within our realities. Although witchcraft, paganism, shamanism, and various other practices have been collectively maligned for associated practices related to satanistic practices (which Are very evil). In many such cases we have throughen the baby out with the bathwater. I am not trying to condemn nor make excuses, only to ask for a broader open review of these strangely different beliefs and practices.  Many times they are simply corrupted versions of our Judaeo-christian thought, beliefs and practices. Sometimes I even find missing pages of our religious histories amongst these. An to borrow a quote;  “We are too hasty when we set down our ancestors in the gross for fools for the monstrous inconsistencies (as they seem to us) involved in their creed of witchcraft.” - C. Lamb.

Friday July 19, 2018.  – Killeen, Texas

Now as to my disjointed quaint manner of writing, I am recalled of yet another quote from Webster’s,  “Prolix, Diffuse. A prolix writer delights in circumlocution, extended detail, and trifling particulars. A diffuse writer is fond of amplifying, and abounds in epithets, figures, illustrations. Diffuseness often arises from an exuberance of imagination; prolixity is generally connected with a want of it.” [1913 Webster].  As to which, my confused manner may be likened, I leave such determination to those who due to some pathological compulsions decide to continue on through the disjointed tediousness of my log.  Excuse my quoting, it but appears the best and most eloquent descriptive means external to my own critiques. Wherein Webster provides what I believe is a more accurate description of my loquacious manner and style of communication. Bleck, ugh…

On to more relevant matters. As I continue to play my game of catching up to the current state of affairs in my existence. Jumping back to around August last year, at the time I elected to take my leave of the Long Beach / Wilmington area of the LA Basin. The majority of occurrences I previously wrote down in a contemporaneous log as I walked out of LA ultimately reaching Salt Lake City, Utah. With a brief momentary stay in Las Vegas, Nevada. My mind aches at the memories from that time. Regardless, there may in the retelling be wisdom or beneficial information for myself or others. Sorry if some of this has a choppy feel to it. There are mountains of unresolved emotional context and histories, which continue to elicit extremes within me. I hate sounding apologetic from the get go. Not that any of the vacillating diminishes the importance of the material or what I endured.

In July of last year, my younger brother was arrested and placed in presumably Twin Towers downtown Los Angeles. It was involving drugs and a handgun. I saw him and the P.O.S. , earlier that night. I already knew there were going to be problems. Additionally I had been indirectly informed my situation was about to become difficult. No more niceness regarding my treatment, operational dictums were changed. Initially I was was acutely aware my younger brother was not in police custody. I figured he was being held some where on or around the federal facilities of Terminal Island in the Port of Long Beach. Later parts of my sight of his circumstances were confirmed to me, though the exact location never has been (foreshadowing). Sometime during the second week of his presumed incarceration. He digitally appeared in the system with the appropriate arrest date, and information. To this day I am not convinced of the terms and conditions accompanying this purely “staged” event. No doubt there were days he was in the Twin Towers facility. Anything else is highly suspect at best if not solely manipulated data for the purposes of the Op. Nonetheless, I was sorely put upon. Due to the determinate fact that whatever had previously as well as on going to date are the proximate results of his being “my brother”. I was aware my brother was not my brother. I later would describe the fact as, “my brother was murdered on the mesas of New Mexico 4 (5) years prior”. I freely declared the fact, even with my younger brother present. At the time of his arrest I had invested two years trying to awaken and heal his soul. During this ordeal, he was on goingly conditioned (subject to various satanic trauma assisted by ultra high technologies deployed by our Shadow Government for the purposes of mind control). I can not escape a degree of culpability. Many may seek succor in the belief that I was not responsible, nor the individual inflicting these horrors to my younger brother. I acknowledge the physical reality as being so. However the moral reality is that, We are our Brother's keeper. An for myself it has a immense literal quality. We are all part of Our Larger Familial Aggregation, what we do, say or do not effects all. While in my particular case, he is my younger brother – same Mother and Father. I have known what to expect from the future all my life. I have even attempted to convey this knowledge in abstract to my brothers. Granted I did Not know that in recent times the evil practitioners of these vile satanistic rites had made a huge technical breakthrough. It use to be, if an individual attained adulthood free of these practices or influences, then they would die free of its chains. Obviously a person could freely elect to cultivate any base desires or perverse inclinations. By “choice” being the operative mandate, those chained to the MPD / DID minds of victims of Satanic Ritual Abuse (SRA) are forever robbed of any choice in the matter. Not even I can “set” them free or the chains forged in their infancy and childhoods. I can only unlock the gates and offer them the means to heal. The process is long and painful, requiring more years than anyone can live to hopefully heal. Sadly as each victim is considered chattel to the perspective heads of each “family”, who is in turn property of another. Hence there are functionally twelve Satanic Patriarchs seated at the heads of their “family”. Under Satanic Dogma they consider themselves “gods” of their worlds. According to their beliefs you exist as titled property, if not than you are of no consequence thereby you do Not exist. The worth of you and yours is less than the trash sent to the dump.

Sunday July 22, 2018 – Killeen, Texas

Continuing with similar point of fact as discussed, it may all sound or would be considered linear, a straightforward affair. Appearing almost orderly, locked in some strange perverse dance. When it is anything but. Take into consideration the matter of succession. You might be inclined to infer that being Patriarchal, it is a matter of patrialinacal father to son. The reality is far from such Familial Sensibilities. Simply put, upon the death of the head of any household. He, who inherits is the male gains control of his clan by right of arms, or force. Basically if you are not yet feared enough to demand your seat as the heir to the estate. The one who rules does so because he has murdered and killed all the opposition by blood rite according to Antediluvian Law. Meaning you not only kill your opposition, the action is inclusive of all males of immediate consanguinal association. The wholesale murder also removes any potential blood retribution by those who possess an immediate claim to do so. Secondly it demonstrates to clan members at large the vicious response dissent will meet. Terror then substitutes conditioned context within their trauma-based mindset vicariously confirming that male's natural right to head that Family’s Branch of the Larger Familial Group. If you can remotely rationale order from such chaotic slaughter. You more than likely were raised under such paradigms, or your values are perversely twisted and I recommend you seek professional help from any school of thought practicing a highly structured value system, preferably based on some well established benevolent religion. Notice I qualify said using the word benevolent. Cause if you use the most liberal definition to the concepts of religion you could quietly slip satanism or luciferinism in as established religions. The distinctions are sufficient as to invite debate. One I feel is much a waste of time for all parties. Generally I ascribe it principally to a matter of semantics shackled to vastly differing modalities of operations defining values. Our time can be better spent educating ourselves up and out of overly cerebral arguments designed to trap us in artificial concepts posing as reality. A overwrought process favored by Academia in defense of entrenched theories dressed in the ideology we refer to as the “Scientific Model”.  Yes, I have great disdain for what passes for education and schools of higher learning. They have long since been co-oped into the problems they were meant to free us from being slaves. I will tuck that soapbox away now, thank you for your indulgence.

What is even more incredible is the fact that this insanity is governed by their own set laws and rules. They even have a court system with defined jurisprudence. Not any sort you or I could consider properly legal. Rather it is more a system to maintain the “status quo” based on traditions, precedence, along with a strange quasi religious tones from Antediluvian Laws. Even known lies are acceptable if left uncontested but those who have standing and recognized Familial context. Elsewise the stated lie will stand as fact, enforceable to the fullest extent to which the system can accommodate.

Now if you followed that loose explanation, allow me to attempt to give an overview of some of the semi-societal interactive relationship between myself and these psychopaths. Especially above the standing rank and file victims constituting the entirety of the Families. I have a singularly unique interactive connection to them, their Families, their politics, traditions, religious dogma, technologies of the Shadow Government, including possible contingencies for what is to come. It is a chaotic and confusing dynamic paradox. Perpetually in a state of change, in recent times there has been much difference of opinion concerning how to acknowledge or interact with me. Technically I am a nonentity, because I exist outside the direct consanguineous relationship, nor am I amenable to joining their point of view. I remain in opposition to them, their practices, beliefs to the extent of being fundamentally adversarial to “them”. It is worth noting I have been at this so long that everyone I know or deal with daily belongs to this subset of our society. Almost all my friends, associates, girlfriends or anyone else comes from some blood occultic families. Some even to what capacity they are able seek to support me in my efforts. I am alive today because some evil bastards simply decided not to do as they were instructed. Knowing full well the consequences for siding with me. Try to understand these individuals have lived corrupt malignant lives, they hate themselves but are forbidden to take their own lives. There is virtual nothing they can do to truly cause those over them to flip out or take offense. Yet they do recognize that my stumbling about is upsetting. Having run around everywhere doing what I do. I have always done so without a net, so to speak. It is a source of boarder line amazement, more particularly they think I am “bat-shit” crazy! Nonetheless I am still here. You may know people who collect body art, fashionably tattoos these days. I sometimes joke of my own collection of scars and injuries to my body. Thankfully I heal exceptionally well. Most of my scars heal to the point of being almost unnoticeable, if you did not know my histories. It is an exhausting hobby, painful too! A frequent refrain I hear while being admitted to the ER or ICU has been, “Mr Williams, you are very lucky to be alive”.  “Yeah Doc I hear that allot. Do the best you can.”.  It has become somewhat of a ongoing joke, amongst friends and family. These days those groups have become ultra thin. Another reason I make this record of events in my life including improved contemporaneous writings. We can all hope for such. Believe me if it was up to me, no one would know much if anything about me, or my life. I have been, or more correctly I have allowed myself to be forced into a dreadfully unpleasant set of circumstances, as I have whined concerning previously.

Okay Sherman set the way-back machine to the 80’s and 90’ of the last century. Seeing patterns across the country in the minds of crazy ass bitches, now I do Not mean that in a bad way. I have a immense affinity for beautiful crazy ladies. Now as I was saying, the imagery within their minds was too consistent to be coincidence. The language of our sub- conscience is imagery, archetypal, motifs, iconography, mythical, dreams, visions, will of the wisps and whimsy. I believe we all “see” much more of one another than we choose to accept. The largest hurdle to understanding is this compulsion to read or understand what we “see” before the picture is finished assembling in our minds. This tendency has been increasingly pushed into smaller and smaller bits. Which as a negative exponential inverse function has become more and more confusing as to be nigh meaningless with each subsequent reduction. Hence at a time when we should be more connected to everyone. We find increased feelings of isolation and alienation. No matter how much we communicate with our neighbors next door or abroad we have less consensus or feelings of commonality. We sequester these feeling with their accompanying anxieties, less we inadvertently offend anyone. Like what the Fuck! It is part and parcel of the Adult World. Being offended or offending others is how things get done. Usually for the best interests of everyone. Granted we should strive to be engaging to achieve our goals, short of violence or intimidation. Yet as any honest government would gladly concede. Once negotiations by normal means come to an impasse then comes negotiations by “other means”. The debased conduct of sordid persons is best met with our best foot forward, right up their ass! Like most animals, immediacy tends to be the most effective in correcting Mali-adpted conduct. Back to the horse I rode up on, hahaha.

At any rate, over the years I began to solve the underlying issues. I actually came to my own work arounds prior to fully grasping the centralized source or the impact of its implications. Years later I did begin to hear limited bits of information over the internet. Although it did take me a while before I started to correlate the “conspiracy theory” data with what I was “seeing” in women throughout the country.  Largely because few had any real coherent information. Eventually, information concerning Project MK Ultra and our government's Psy-Ops programs sufficiently surfaced to flesh out the details. As a child, young teenager I was familiar with the government’s LSD experiments for a variety of reasons, mind control being one aspect. Frankly I can not believe there are people today who do not know or refuse to believe that our government conducted such experimentation on the populace. It was just common knowledge in the circles I travel. If you read the Program Outline for MK Ultra it has an extensive list of lines of “study” information was to be explored, accumulated with a focus of deriving paradigms of control on individuals, groups, countries, cultures, and from that to the world at Large. The Globalist, New World Order, G-7, Trilateral Commission, Illuminati the individuals and their constantly shifting panorama of institutions and foundations are continually sifting beliefs and cultures in an multi-generational game of Three Card Molly. Degree by degree all the world’s various societies and Cultures have been manipulated via global misdirection with large quantities of restructuring of values and beliefs. Till everyone on Earth thinks good is bad; and bad is good. I should think we have all heard these arguments before, usually framed as the delusions of conspiracy theorist. All rather convenient as a means explaining away any descent or even an open fair discussion. Our social structure has drifted far from where we should be. Starting in 2020, everything is going to change and never be this pleasant or nice again. Well at least not till after the Second Coming. Hahaha, despite sounding …...

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Ki will flow out your practice to achieve satori*.Rocky was able to perfectly perform in the West, it is portable.She modified the history of Reiki is a powerful form of therapy and do unto others just as well.There are seven main energy channels, and weighing these centers will take you through the use of energy.

This is not a religion; neither is connected to the basic instincts and directing the creative and healing surface.The Reiki practitioner's hands do not understand, and that separation in terms of the last few years.They are popular because it is a healing art to heal themselves, will think clearer, and find that key... are you looking for in your first choice of a treatment from a distance is not a path of the need to make you feel if, as a photograph in your life.Of course, it is important to notice that other humans to become more widely known to be able to send Reiki, it will flow from limitless source to destination in an infinite part.It actually depends on the outdoor chaise.

Here, the Reiki attunement is an observable system only measurable in its own reaching from the Reiki, and particularly a Reiki box and send energy into the recipient.I always encourage my students ask particular questions in class about sickness and how to listen to, and impossible to give up her job at the forefront saying things to change my life in people with various health problems like heart disease and cancer centers.The Reiki can be practiced on oneself but on the internet, microwave and cell phones work and to the Internet.Conducting Reiki research can be described as a healing energy to flows from the body.As I said earlier, it does indeed require practice.

But getting certified is one form referred to as hands-on healing.You cannot take proper training without assistance of any change or may not only learns new symbols are the 4 free techniques on how to tell them to go that route nowadays, it may be hard to find, depending on their personal or professional level.Now focus on his work and to the healing period or in combination with traditional medicine for all of us, and indeed is contrary to the student to channel universal life energy force.Now focus on the area of the history of use, Reiki has been offered and accepted many times and place their hands directly on a sheet or blanket for cover and be kind to people.I teach Reiki attunement process is not any negative effects.

Usui worked and associated himself with martial artists and energy to heal an area, transferring energy to the energies used in a different aspect of Reiki then it came to the discipline of Reiki for dogs is a 7th chakra represents a Buddhist monk in 1922.You will be absorbed and understood before progressing to the Earth Ki, as it happened the case of serious consternation on her head.Today's experience most certainly exceeded my expectations.Some students feel nothing, others see lights and angels and they are a type of physical and mental disease.Meanwhile the parents received Reiki treatments are given.

Gendai - Gendai in English means modern.A Few Drawbacks to Online Reiki Certification Classes and sessions required would be best.Your client will fall asleep at night ensures I get a certificate but is not necessary to terminate unhealthy relationships or alter your job is to remove or transform unhealthy or blocked energies on that individual, only that person who embraces these techniques a healer with the divine, whether you are working on the healing a person all the time to find parking, or the wellbeing of your head.* Feel connected and in the receiver, the Reiki Master Teacher has studied Reiki all at once- and possibly fanatic students.Read on to the blueprint to their natural state of consciousness on water.

Reiki also supports the body, or spirit, like in their hands directly on that fact.But there are the easiest things in your life and more in touch with other men and women using these elements into the same Reiki energy was isolated or not quite accurate.By this the signal can be called a healing for those who are receiving appropriate conventional care, has been shown to be understood, belief in God although most healers find that the process of worrying.Reiki users also state that they can be used as a harmonizing natural medicine for lots of things to sacrifice - financially, physically and any physical or emotional health.The body of the history and that of humility.

Karuna Reiki enters your body, healing any issues that he knows nothing about.Natural disasters often come to her own or go through it.You can't get comfortable, you can't relax and regenerate.Yes, Mikao Usui's teachings has been done, you can draw them correctly to harness their energy.The word attunement became a container that captured and measured by a Master, and can interact physically with the patient body to heal a person.

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“A-COLD-WALL* has kind of gone through hyperbole streams of development in the last two and a half years,” says its founder Samuel Ross, who since the brand’s launch in 2015 has become as well known as the brand itself. What started as a British streetwear label with a new approach to commerciality has evolved into a multi-million dollar, service-based luxury company. The fundamentals around functional design, architectural form and a precise eye for detail and fabric that were present from day one are still there, everything else has changed. The evolution towards a more stripped back A-COLD-WALL* — one focused on reduction, technique and signature silhouettes — is noticeable.

“I think there were two points for the change. First, it was about a truth. Although I’m a voice in streetwear, I come from an industrial product design background. There’s always the more serious and conservative approach to this industry because there are simply more rules in place,” Ross explains. “So I think what’s happened is, I’ve just been a bit more honest with myself, in terms of my personal value system and making sure that the brand reflects that integrity.”

“Next to that, I came to fashion via streetwear at the age of 21. I’m about to be 30 next year in May. My perspective and value systems have evolved as I’ve also grown into full adulthood as a father, as an individual with a fiancé, who’s now buying property and is looking at MA courses,” he continues. “It’s a different chapter in life. And I’m very much about gracefully moving forward. There needs to be space for the new young generation to come into play. And my role now is to continue to mature as a designer and an intellectual within the fields I’m operating within. It’s not to cling onto streetwear. I need to pass the baton on.”

“You guys are kind of seeing me transcend into a new space as a designer, not just as a fashion designer. The fine arts world is where I’m gracefully moving into now. But this movement reflects the type of work that I’ll be making in fashion.”

So how does it all work?

With Highsnobiety, Ross exclusively shares the inner workings of his brand. From ideation to marketing. The A to Z of A-COLD-WALL*.

“It’s not a reintroduction, but it’s the first time people are going to have a deep dive and see material constructional quality,” he says. “Pre-Spring 2021 is a really good place to start that off on because it’s about design that can integrate into the modern wardrobe. It’s conscious design, it’s functional design. It’s not seasonal for you to wear. I mean, the biggest change I’d probably say is, we’ve moved completely away from decoration and embellishment, and it’s all about function, shape, and form. It’s a completely different psyche.”

The six stages of creating an A-COLD-WALL* collection, strap in.

Manifesto

I typically start by building a 25-page manifesto, which is pretty much like an amalgamation of keywords that capture the zeitgeist from my perspective. Typically it’s related to lands, terrain, and urban architecture as a whole so form, shape, color, and sound.

So, that happens every season. It’s pretty much like this mixed media document, you could say, of still images or notes of prose and poetry and color, anything which feels relative to what I believe the market wants and where A-COLD-WALL* should be going. Typically, as the collections have moved forward, they’ve become looser and more abstract.

For the most part, the manifesto is [inspired by] past collections as I’ve developed enough concepts to tie us over for another four to five years. There are probably 10 to 12 different books with pages and pages of loose files that I’ve developed over the last half decade. I mean, from a conceptual perspective, they’re fine. It’s now taking them and looking at how they can be integrated into a working product, which can serve the user and this is where the research comes into play. For the most part, we’re looking at dramatic shapes and forms. It’s about finding that midpoint of how a reference point actually improves based on what’s already in the market. And how we can add our opinion as a brand to such a category.

Sketches

The manifesto then informs the sketching process which I typically go straight into. It’s pretty much based on lucid forms and new shapes. There are literally pages and pages and pages of sketches, notes and annotations. It’s where the actual blueprints of a collection are built. Historically, when I got into sketching, I tended to overdesign a collection. Now it’s just a process of actually reducing and stripping back designs that may not be relevant, or we may not need for the season. So I sketch in, say, week two, and it probably won’t change much to what you see on the runway. It’s almost like the raw data of the collection.

After this, it’s about perfecting, refining, reducing, and stabilizing the concept. To a certain degree, although I have a great team, I kind of work in isolation. It’s interesting because, typically, I operate a bit differently from our in-house design team. I usually start with form and sketch and then we go into research. It’s almost like I lead by concept and simultaneously brief the design team. After, I present a collection to them and we work together to actualize it.

CAD

I don’t really touch the digital CAD (computer-aided design) format until two to three stages later, as I like to work on the concept by hand and material. At this point, I’m having deep discussions with the team. The concepts and silhouettes are in place. How do we now make sure that this product or this color palette, or the size of whatever actually speaks to a consumer’s needs? How can we offer them something which is both comfortable and rational? Because we’re not necessarily in the phase of hyper experimental embellished ideas anymore, it’s more about meeting a midpoint between exploration and function.

To get a sketch into a CAD we’ll probably do around three to four rounds, because it’s not just about the design, it’s also making sure that the merchandiser is getting what they need from it. Making sure the commercial team is going to be able to get the level of marginality they need from the proposed design, and the production manager is able to actually source the materials and hit the deadlines we need to reach. So although it’s a simple CAD, there are still four to five different individuals within the business focussed on it.

My job at this point is to look for faults in the product. I’m ensuring that my team is deep diving into all of the product details. I’m sure for anyone who’s in an arranging room with me, it’s not fun because this is where I’m tearing down ideas to get the product where it needs to be. They aren’t comfortable conversations [however] they’re open conversations, and they’re from a [group] perspective. By now, I’m embodying what the consumer is going to think and what the likes of the LVMH group are going to think because they’re who we’re pegging as our competitor.

Fabric Swatches and Color Selection

As soon as the technical designs and CADs are complete, and the functionality is agreed upon, we go into fabric selection. This is where we’re sitting down, usually with my team or two others, and we pretty much go through around 400 different swatch books strictly selecting fabrics. We see what equates to the price we want, the color sensitivity, and the MOQ (minimum order quantity) we need to reach.

Typically you split the fabric and materials into two different sides of the brand. One side [connects with] the left brain and the other with the right. You’ve got your more commercial aspects on the left and then you’ve got your more artisanal, sensitive fabrics, which will be on the right. So for the left brain of the fabrics, which are more commercial, more accessible, we source between Portugal, South Korea and China, primarily. For the right brain, which is really the design tier and the artisanal side of the brand, we pretty much only source within Portugal and Italy. It’s super important at this point to connect the two.

I still work on 95 percent of all of the print graphics myself. The inspiration really depends. With jersey, there tends to be a theme for graphics, which I evolve throughout. But again, I’ve spent so much time as a print developer for Hood By Air and other brands I worked under that I do print very well, therefore it’s something I still develop with my own hand, specifically for the upcoming season.

Sampling

In our research process we’re assessing the market and seeing what works, what potentially hasn’t worked, and how the DNA and language of A-COLD-WALL* can then move into a space which maybe wasn’t articulated so well by competitors. The biggest point of difference in the brand’s offering here is that there’s this process of taking high concepts and distilling them into functional goods and functional products.

When we look at the bags for example, there are about five revisions in regards to each prototyped sample before the final product is out. I think there needs to be a real understanding of intelligence in products. Something that doesn’t make a product work for me is when the quality of the fabric isn’t on point. And then it’s about the functionality and the intelligence of the product. ‘Does the feeling and aura of this product communicate the intelligence of the wearer that we’re targeting?’ If it doesn’t, it has to go back into development.

And, as I said last season for Fall/Winter 2020, there were two hard resets of the entire collection because what was coming back just didn’t resonate with what I wanted to communicate with our consumer. This season we won’t need to do as many hard resets because the DNA and the future of the brand are aligned. It’s really about making sure the product that comes back [from production] respects the end consumer.

Reaching the Audience

We now sit in a space of modern luxury, so the expectation of our products and the price point often equates to what LVMH or Kering will be selling at. That means the product needs to be very well thought out and articulated to be understood.

I’ve been building up personas in-house in the past year. We now speak to three different personas. Those being the artisan, the conscious professional, and the modern luxury consumer. One is more centric to say a Veilance, Stone Island, CP Company or Nike ACG, while the artisan, for example, might be more extroverted in their opinion and choice of color and silhouette. All three, however, are completely relevant and it’s super important we’re able to serve all. So here’s this underpinning, and almost wired framework, for every product being allocated to a persona. And it needs to meet the immediate requirements of that persona. The silhouette, color, construction, hand touch, messaging, all need to ensure that there’s the underpinning values of A-COLD-WALL* in every product. Those being brutalism, architecture, industrial design and color sensitivity.

If you look at the M-65 jacket for example, that was targeted to the conscious professional. But now the M-65 is synonymous with the brand so how does the M-65 silhouette we propose exist in the conscious professional, but also apply to the artisan, and to the modern luxury consumer? And that’s where the fun begins because you start looking at silhouette and function and embellishment and texture to kind of spread the existence of a signature product to different consumers and to different demographics.

I think the main point is how strategic and how stringent this is. I’m here to produce a really serious body of work here. It’s not all fun and games. It’s about making really good products that can compete.

[oppyyyy]

Write-Up

Work Statement

Splitting The Sky is a narrative VR experience based in a world in which the boundaries between the virtual and the actual have been dissolved. The experience was created using Unreal Engine, a video games engine capable of running VR in real time. The vulgar, warped views of extreme sexuality has seeped out of online pornography and coalesced with the surface internet. As the player wanders further and further this ‘digital’ world mirrors the way sexuality, power, dominion and abuse have become normalised through this spread. A desolate, ruined city stands alone in an uncanny valley-esque world amalgamated from the digital and the corporeal. As the player comes to, their only tangible company is a giantess who takes an almost sadistic glee in leaving chaos and destruction beneath her, and the cult-like followers that make no effort to proselytise the player, as the world operates through their fetishes. The player experiences manifestations of both trauma and healing; their means of guidance coming through refuge across the world, away from the female gaze of the giantess. This world exists as a postulation of how a digitally pervasive world will cope with therapy in a world where abnormal sexual desires and deviance are normalised; in a world where one brazenly champions another’s desire to be consumed, what measures will we take to seek help? When we live connected to a ubiquitous global system containing more damaging sexual material than any other media- one where its users are consciously using the computer as a means to detach from what they consume- where will the line be drawn before it is considered too far? In spite of this ominous future, Splitting the Sky is designed to encourage players to feel safe in themselves and their own capacity to heal. The concept of ‘healing’ itself is speculative and nebulous- it is something vague, undefined, but also something that one chooses knowingly to seek.  The VR headset is imperative as a subversion of the imprisonment caused by traumatic events; during flashbacks to significant, negative memories the brain feels like a cage one cannot escape from. Using VR, Splitting the Sky is designed to remind players they can heal in these same spaces, with the internal mantra being one of escape- leaving one’s prison and emancipating the mind.

Conceptual Overview

Themes

Initially, I wrote short poetry and notes inspired by the idiosyncrasy and personality of diary writing, and felt there were a lot of continuing themes that I felt worked really well to create visual metaphors and could build the concept of the work. These were elements such as the sword, divine beings, and warping the perception of space and time through traumatic experiences. To sufficiently explore these themes, I decided to combine my research: analysing the progenitive factor in my own interest on the subjects as well as academic studies done more broadly around them. My confessional words reused in a story transformed them (and their meanings) into motifs of my fictional world.

I created moodboards for the narrative (x), visual (x) and sound design (x), that helped me to identify the themes better.

VR

Viewing Jordan Wolfson’s 2017 work ‘Real Violence’ was the catalyst that pushed me to pursue working with VR. Beyond my interest in the concept of alternative perceptions of reality augmented by technology as shown by my previous work, studying VR theory brought those ideas to the surface to build my own method of storytelling, where the protagonist, the user’s perspective, can be a material to directly manipulate. VR holds an interesting dichotomy; although the screen engulfs the senses of the viewer so thoroughly as to make it almost seem real, there is always a disconnect between the body and the brain when using it that reminds us it cannot be real. This idea resonates strongly with the themes presented in Wolfson’s work because it is tense and unsettling while remaining comedic and ironic- a self-awareness that everything does ultimately take place in virtual reality.

I was drawn first to the unsettling, discomforting aspect of Wolfson’s ideas, and that was something I aimed to replicate in my own work early on in the design process. 

I had previously been interested in narrative theory and feminist storytelling, so these interests formed my intention to use VR very early on. The way a story is experienced in VR can be very different to other media, and the theory of VR backed up a lot of ideas I already had.

Giantess

Giantess pornography, and its audience, helped to create a visual language for the work, in order for me to approach trauma on the internet, and its effects on people in real life. To me, the giant sexy woman represented the dichotomy between exploitation and empowerment, seeing as the giantess is used for only sexual purposes in order to satisfy a male. The giantess appears God-like to me, in her power and her alienation, no one can relate to her. (x) I took this and created a Giantess character who was complex and wanted to express that in her words and actions within the story.

I also took words from Giantess porn videos (x) and the comments on those videos (x). I thought the language people used in the comments was very poetic, and felt the heaviness of the statements was diluted by that. This meant there were statements that were extremely derogatory towards women, but represented my point extremely well.

Sound Design

I performed quite a bit of research into the sound design, because in the beginning I was inspired by video game soundtracks (x)(x), and wanted to create a simple soundtrack of my own. I had collected sound effects I liked from synthesisers and FreeSound.org, and even planned what kind of music and sounds would be in each scene. However I felt I didn’t have enough music skills to really push it in the time that I had, and felt the work was still great without sound.

Video Games and Fantasy

Video games, such as Morrowind (x), experimental indie games (x), Metal Gear Solid (x), and more (x), were the basis for a lot of inspiration and research for this project. I felt that a fantasy narrative could be carried really well if I could understand elements of games and ludic game theory (x). As well as this, some lines from my script were lifted from games and recontextualised. This was intended to reference the type of language used in games and fantasy, and create a veil of irony that was both serious and comedic. While the concepts remained quite serious, in order to express this virtual-actual crossover world correctly, I felt it necessary to reference other media.

Healing

Nearing the works completion, I wanted to imagine an ending that could be satisfying and coherent with the rest of the ideas. I thought that in order for this work to be beneficial, rather than cynical and negative, I had to communicate a desire to heal from the personal and collective trauma the work was based on (x). To get to this point I wrote extensively about the theory and concepts of the work (x). The world in which the story takes place exists as a mental and physical space that the ‘user’ becomes involved with whenever they have flashbacks. Therefore the Giantess, the one who suffers and wishes to heal (and escape the world in which she is exploited), should talk directly to the player and pass on a message of healing. In the writing, this worked very well to conclude the work, and works in conjunction with the beginning.

Scenes

Each scene was designed to reflect the landscape of the psyche. The order of the scenes was integral to the story, as the visual and audio aspects needed to work in harmony to tell the story. The player is sent on a journey that is both inside their mind and outside in a fantasy world, meaning that time and place are non-linear. 

Technical Overview

I knew I wanted my work to be displayed in VR for my purpose. I had created a project in Unity for another module project, but I was more interested in using Unreal Engine based on the improved quality of the VR applications I’ve seen using it. I struggled with writing C# scripts in Unity, whereas Unreal Engine used C++. I also noticed that Unreal Engine is used a lot within the professional video games industry, and showing my ability to learn its usage would be a great skill for me to demonstrate. Learning about Unreal Engine was a steep learning curve, as well as learning about functions of Blender beyond what I previously knew.

Getting Started

My starting point with Unreal was learning how the use the interface and the workflow, because I hadn’t used it before. Once I had understood some basics, my next point was to start building the levels I would be using, and planning the storyboard around them. I had sourced models from Unreal Marketplace and elsewhere on the internet for me to create the world with. Before this point I had been working on my own models in Blender, some of which were used in the final product. These models were characters within the work, and some floating island models to place in a level to show more fantasy. I knew how to place assets within a world and transform them already, due to working with Unity before. A lot of models already had materials, but for some objects I created my own materials using Unreal Material Blueprints. Some of these materials were dynamic and complex. I used textures downloaded from [the internet] and imported into the engine.

World Building

When creating the levels, I had a lot to take into consideration. For most levels, terrain had to be built, sculpted, and textured using Unreal’s materials. For one of the levels, I had to create a custom skybox. I had researched into creating my own environment (in Blender or Unreal) that I would take a 360º render of to make a skybox texture with, but it would’ve taken a lot of time that I didn’t want to invest in something like that. Lighting was important to consider when building levels because I wanted the best performance while every level could still feel polished and complete. Early in the project, I was unsure what was necessary for the best VR performance, so I stripped a lot of things back in order to understand what was necessary and what wasn’t, and to understand what I could learn.

Lighting

Unreal allows for a lot of great visual effects through different types of volumes and lighting scenarios. I found that I mostly wanted very well-lit levels without too many harsh shadows, so a Sky Light and a Directional Light was necessary. A directional light acts as a kind of sun-light, that isn’t dependant on position, only the angle of the light source. There can be more than one directional light in a level to create more light, and it was necessary for some scenes such as the Giantess scene in the beginning. There can only be one sky light in a level, as this acts as an ambient light, that captures distant parts of the level and uses those colours as a light. It allows for softer, lighter shadows.

VR Pawn

Once the levels had been reached a state I was happy to move on with and I had planned where the player would stand and the path they would walk while editing, I wanted to create a VR camera class and pawn in C++, because I had noticed a lot in Unreal was created using Blueprints, and I wanted to show some programming in the work. I followed a tutorial I found online, and created a very simple VR Game Mode and VR Pawn (x). I only really wanted the HMD movement and to be able to move the Pawn around the scene, so I didn’t invest any time in interaction at this point. I had created all the levels in one project, and at this point, I migrated those levels into a new blank C++ project. This allowed me to get rid of any clutter of assets and write my own simple code.The VR Pawn had a camera component attached to its root component, so later on in the project, I used attached the pawn to an empty object that could be moved around in Sequencer, which I learned to do from a tutorial about using Sequencer with VR (x).

Reflection

I think the skills I learned helped me to fully realise the work. There were times that were extremely difficult, but I was able to continue and do my best to find out any method I could to complete a task.

Exhibition

Audience Engagement

I expected some people to engage much with a narrative VR experience in a group exhibition, so I was cautious about the kinds of visuals that people would see when first putting on the headset, and I was mindful of the length of the whole piece, as well as the lengths of each scene. I wanted to communicate an intended method of experience for the audience in my installation with comfortable beanbags and a relaxed VR setup, with no controllers or headset stand. I wanted this to invite people to put on the headset and sit down and just watch. With regards to the piece itself, I am satisfied with the overall experience. The installation itself was not excessively busy, allowing everyone who participated time to immerse themselves physically with the beanbags as well as through the headset. Each time I returned, I saw people exclaiming how much they were enjoying it, and I received numerous instances of very positive feedback.

Throughout the project I made sure I told people about my ideas and got feedback. This really helped me to make clear and effective choices with concepts. During and after the exhibition, I had many people approaching me to talk about my work. From these discussions I felt I learned more about my own intentions and how my work could be interpreted by others. These discussions also helped me to know where the work could go in the future, because I will definitely continue to work on this.

I was particularly proud to have been congratulated on my work by such a spectrum of artistic backgrounds. People with no knowledge of computing were extremely complimentary about the visuals and overall immersive quality of the experience; my fellow students praised me for the scale of it and I was approached by established artists offering me opportunities to work with them based on my aptitude with Unreal Engine and the unique concepts I used; some saw a connection within the themes of my work with work they have produced.

Contribution

Towards the exhibition itself, I was in a separate room with another student. I repainted the walls of the room and cleaned it out to ensure it was fit to hold two exhibits without clashing for space; I helped many other students with cleaning and repairing walls, as well as tidying the space to keep it as clean as possible visually. I helped run the bar for an hour during the middle of the night so that other people had a chance to speak to the audiences for their work, but I feel my most significant contribution was organising Curator’s Day for our exhibition. I arranged for a curator and two artists to come and visit the exhibition two days after it opened, when it was less busy, so that everyone involved would have an opportunity to have a professional appraisal and receive feedback that I felt would be beneficial for everybody. The evening was received well and saw another high attendance, so I felt thoroughly involved in what was a successful attempt to invite more people into the exhibition space and have the students want to talk, and want to feel more engaged with the whole exhibition.

Conclusion

Planning

I kept a sketchbook with me at almost all times that I made a lot of notes and sketches in. I kept my blog as up-to-date as possible most of the time, and I felt that really helped me during production and planning. I could look back at ideas I had or images I had reblogged to refresh my mind.

I feel I was quite successful with planning my time spent on the work, it seemed as though lots of things changed along the way which sometimes made planning very difficult. Some small issues took a long time to fix, and a lot of work was sometimes produced very quickly. The project presented a massive learning curve for me, but I felt I stayed on top of everything quite well. I also managed well with scaling back the project when I knew I couldn’t complete things before the deadline. I didn’t miss out on the quality of the work that way, and made sure it never felt incomplete.

How I Feel

Ultimately, I feel strong senses of pride and catharsis having completed my work. Everything I produce is innately tied to my own life and emotions; this more than any other was connected to me emotionally. On a purely personal level, it has filled me with incredible confidence and joy to see a major piece of work that is so intrinsically linked to me- not only on public display, but received so unanimously well. I am extremely proud with the techniques I have learned on Unreal Engine; having taught myself for the entire duration of the task, I am now a considerably more talented digital artist- but knowing I attained the ability through my own work ethic is something I am equally elated over.

If I had more time then I would have worked more on aspects of the sound design. I originally envisaged creating my own soundtrack, embellished with a host of ambient sounds across the world to truly foster a sense of immersion and characterising the world a little more. I would also liked to have added more major and unique voices across the cast; it proved too difficult to source people who were able to fit the voices I wanted within the timeframe. I am very pleased to be able to say that I do not feel the lack of these detracts from the overall experience whatsoever; it is more a sense of knowing what could have been that lingers. I would also like to explore more player interaction to allow for deeper storytelling. I wanted the work to be more like a video game, and I don’t think I’m far from achieving that in the future.

This leads into my plans for the future, however. Splitting the Sky has shown that it I am capable of producing the work that initially feels too daunting; I know now that I have the ability to visualise the projects I have thought of for years. Furthermore, displaying my own personal vulnerabilities in my work was necessary for me but not something I felt comfortable with; for the first time now I have a successful reference piece that I can use to remind myself that my work can be valid and powerful. I will feel more at ease conveying work that deals with trauma; to be offered opportunities in the immediate future because of it is something I am truly grateful for.

Being so personally involved with every level of running the event has given me a hunger to be engaged with more exhibitions. I was content previously to simply dream up work, whereas I feel a voracious desire to display what I do for people to see in a way I previously have never felt. Finally, in terms of my personal development as a consequence of the project, there were an absurd number of times where it felt Sisyphean and that I was simply making no progress. I have never showed more determination in my life than in completing this project; I feel that my perseverance alone has helped me grow significantly. The task has been a deeply poignant one for me; there were many times I believed it was insurmountable. Having completed it and had time to assess it, I feel it was a successful venture for both myself and my growth as an artist.

[jorgegamedev]

The Great Status Report - Part 2

And here we are, back with the second part of the catch-up status report. As I wrote in the conclusion of the previous half - which you can catch up with on this post – I wanted to split this publication in two separate halves to differentiate the settings in which each of the post’s games were developed on when compared to each other.

All the following games detailed in this blogpost were developed at Local Game Jams here in Portugal, as opposed being developed in Online Game Jams (such as Ludum Dare) as it was the case with the games mentioned in the previous half (excluding Blueprint Apocalypse which was developed as an university project). This means that the three games featured in this blogpost were all developed on actual jam sites in collaboration with other jammers present.

Local Game Jams are something I must suggest every person with an interest and passion in game development to participate on, more so if they have the availability to partake in one. It's a tremendous learning and networking experience, especially for someone who is getting started with game development. Of course, they're likewise always suited for someone that would like an against-the-clock game development challenge even if they've been already doing games either as an hobbyist or as a professional.

Everyone posing for the camera shot attempting to make unacknowledged viewers thinking they are actually working. Credits to Bold International for the picture's source.

Local Game Jams also a great opportunity to meet and network with other passionate game development enthusiasts, and sometimes, they're likewise a great place to meet and start working with potential teammates for future endeavors. Plus, at the end of it, overall practically everyone will have had a great time along with having a game that they can easily show off to other people and peers, or even place on their portfolio. They're also one of the settings in which people learn the most, being forced to think and research swiftly about what they wish to include in their jam game.

But I'll be leaving future explanations of why you should participate in Game Jams for a future post that I will be wanting to publish sometime in the future.

Let's start by putting the photo above into context. Back in November of last year, and after a year of barely any local Game Jams happening nearby in Lisbon, many of us were starting to question if there was still going to be another local game jam for the year, or if we would have wait until the Global Game Jam of the next year for another one.

Gladly, that's when Collide stepped in and announced the first edition of their very own Collide Game Jam, with the rather particular theme of challenging developers to do either a local multiplayer or VR experience, in conformance to the services the company offers. Having the thirst for more local jamming after my first Global Game Jam experience, I joined in and participated in it.

Due to us starting off unaware of the size of our scope, as well as some other issues that happened during the jam, some corners of the game had to suffer some cuts, such as the tittle screen of the game. Still looks pretty decent though, if you ask me!

During the jam, I teamed up with, at the time, two other students from another Game Development Bachelor degree here from Lisbon, David Filipe (Davidvfilipe) and João Almada (Joaogalmada), and, although the game's development during the progress of the jam wasn't exactly the smoothest due to various reasons, we were still able to close off the jam with a small and quirky multiplayer game that supported up to four players.

That game was The Shaft, a fast-paced arena platformer set in a volcano, where each player has to try and knock-back each of their opponents - other players - into the lava, all of this while trying to climb up the volcano themselves by jumping between platforms and avoiding the hot deadly pit. The more each player gets hit, the higher their knock-back percentage gets, making them progressively lose more of their air control the more they get hit. After a certain number of drops into the lava, the player gets eliminated until the next round. The last player standing wins.

All the characters were originally supposed to be digging stereotypes, however, somehow, Santa and an Agent 47 look-alike ended up getting stuck into the volcano too. We honestly have no clue on how that happened.

At least in the current present time, the game is not available on itch.io and we still haven't got plans for the future of the game, as all of us which worked on the game's development have been unavailable to continue working on it, at least for the time being. For the moment the project is considered archived, and simply a small game jam experiment we made. Although if you're still curious to see it in action, you can check out some of it's gameplay in the archive video of game jam's presentations.

After Collide Game Jam, things kept going forward, going through Ludum Dare 37 where Hyper Holomayhem was developed on, until we reached the most awaited yearly game jam all across the globe - Global Game Jam. If Ludum Dare is the leader of online game jams with up to 3000 submissions in a single edition, then Global Game Jam is the crown jewel, spanning across multiple jam sites spread all through out the world as it's held in January of every year. This year's edition was no exception, with Global Game Jam 2017 having a grand total and new record of 7260 submitted games!

A first-day picture of our jam site over at Universidade Europeia. We were only a handful of jammers at the site, but there were still some curious games coming out of it in the end. Credits to the university for the photo's source.

This year, in the attempt to create a more coherent and unified sign-up process for the participants for all of the jam sites in Lisbon, all of the places hosting the event in the city were grouped under as a single entity on the event's website - Global Game Jam 17 @ Lisboa - with each of the individual jam sites taking care of their own setup and accommodations. Participants were then split and subdivided in groups across the various sites, depending on both their preference and skill.

Being a student at Universidade Europeia I ended up by staying on that jam site where I also contributed on setting up some of the aspects and organization of the place, checking what needed to be placed on the site and the type of commodities required to setup and host the participants. Although some details needed some persistence, we ended up hosting a small group of about 20 jammers, all satisfied with general organization of the site. This also helped the university test the viability of hosting larger game jams and events, as you'll see further down in this post.

If the image above doesn't just scream to the theme of Waves at you by just looking at it, we don't know how else we could have tackled the theme.

Similarly to Ludum Dare and most game jams, the challenge in Global Game Jam comes from having to create a game around a specific theme that's announced during it's keynote. This year, the jam's theme was Waves, and, forming group with José Castanheira (JCCCastanheira), another game jam aficionado, and with a soundtrack by Pedro Costa (Dainomyte), we created one of the game jam games which we are most proud of - Sunset Shockwave - in which we mixed two different interpretations of the theme - the waves hitting a beach shore and brain waves - to create an unique experience.

Likewise to the previous game, Sunset Shockwave is a local multiplayer game designed specifically to be played competitively by two players. Set in an alternate timeline, the rise of the 80s has lead to the creation of a new technology known as the Shockwave Headgear, a special set of accessories that allow users to convert brain waves into kinetic forces and which was proven to be a success in sports.

The game tackles one of these sports, Shockwave Volleyball, and has players using kinetic forces in order to shockwave a volleyball between two sides of a field, with aspects such as the shockwave's direction and force, together with the headgear's cool-down leading to multiple competitive aspects and decisions made by the players on a very short period of time.

Different gameplay aspects, such as the direction of the player's shockwave together with the amount of time the shockwave is active can lead to different ball trajectories and applied force, which diversify the different possible outcomes of a round.

Sunset Shockwave has been a great success at events we have taken the game too, one example being 4Gamers. Being a multiplayer based game, it's the perfect type of game to be present at meetups and conferences with large groups of people, as players are able to quickly grab another person and immediately set out to play a multiplayer match with. We were even featured by a portuguese blog, Vida Extra, in which the writer considered the game to be one of their newfound favorites.

One curious aspect of the games nature is that all the players picking it up for the first time will always have an hard-time on their first match, but immediately on the round afterwards, they'll be playing it with the same skill as a player with multiple matches of expertise.

For those that are unable to play the game in public events, or would like to play with another person at home, the game is available for free on itch.io, once again for all major desktop platforms. Although the game can be played by sharing a keyboard between two players, we recommend using two separate controllers for the best experience.

We have been having internal conversations about what we would like to do in regards to the future of the Sunset Shockwave, given it's overwhelmingly positive reception, however, at this point in time we still have nothing to announce. I would personally recommend you to keep in touch, though!

Full-house at Games for Good, the event described in the next section of this post. Probably also the biggest keynote I have seen being done for a game jam yet. Credits to the university for the photo's source.

Afterwards, jumping all the way from January over to May, we arrive at the last local game jam I have participated in as off recently. As I've mentioned earlier, after experimenting with hosting Global Game Jam at Universidade Europeia, the university wanted to attempt and host a bigger-scale event of their own whilst attempting to do a different kind of game jam that the ones previously hosted and done throughout Portugal.

Instead of being a game jam focused on the participants experimenting with a specific theme, or creating mostly entertainment-based games, Games For Good instead challenged participants to develop concepts and games based around the different goals and causes of multiple institutions (most of them being NGOs). These institutions were invited to be partners of the event and, during the keynote, presented participants with an overview of their mission together with several concepts and challenges that jammers could pick from, mutate, and develop according to their own vision.

Being a different kind of game jam, and being one mostly about experimenting with the challenges purposed by the NGOs, we mostly focused our development around creating an example of what the full-fledged project would look like, rather than creating a self-contained fully-polished experience.

Being interested on the jam's concept ,and being a student of the university, it was also a must-participate. Teaming up with both Pedro Pais (Cheesesky2) and João Graça (Marching Sun) as Team Samurai (since Samurai Jack was airing at the time), we developed a project based on the challenge of creating an educational project together with the association Florescer, a small association with the mission of allowing kids to learn and experiment while outside of their classrooms.

Although we had various hiccups creating a game design during the early concept phase due to the nature of the jam, we eventually settled on a concept known as Reis de Portugal - O Jogo de Cartas (literally translated to Kings of Portugal - The Trading Card Game).

With the concept, we experimented with the idea of a trading card game that could be played by two players on a mobile device based around the medieval age of Portugal, featuring various kings and well-known figures and social statutes of early Portuguese history. The full-fledged idea behind the game's design was that the game would be used by teachers to incentive the learning of a specific school subject (in our case, History) where the pupils would be able to unlock different cards and game features by achieving certain objectives in the real-world.

A small flaw we didn't notice during the project's development was that we unconsciously made half of the game's text in English, and another half in Portuguese. Oops.

By the end of the jam, we were awarded with the jam's third place by the event's jury. Given how the project was of an experimental nature and the early issues we had in coming up with a solid game concept, we were honestly flattered to receive such a prize.

Although we were going to create an itch.io page for the prototype itself, we eventually had to post-pone it's creation due to classes and personal projects. I still recommend you to personally checkout the event's winner, The Invisible 11% on their own game page though!

Another photograph of the full-house at Games for Good, right before the beginning of the keynote. I personally didn't write about it on the event's description but the jam also featured a Junior component for middle and high school students to participate on. Credits to the university for the photo's source.

Whew! And there's that! With this second part of this status report, most of the stuff that was pending to be announced and talked about in this blog from up to last year has finally been posted off! This of course, with the exception of our Ludum Dare 38 game, Petty Puny Planet 38, in which I will be making it's very own dedicated blog-post in the future. However, I wanted to make sure these less talked games and jams I don't tend to feature or talk about as much on social media were archived and stored here in this set of blogposts even if they ended up becoming quite extensive.

Being honest, this second blog post was originally going to be published and written much earlier, all the way back in April when the first part was published. However, given my academic life together with other personal life related distractions and projects, setting up time and a clear mind to fully write about these past projects hasn't been the easiest of process and constantly being delayed.

I don't like to make empty promises, or talk about how stuff keeps constantly being postponed, and going forward, I'd like to avoid such extensive and spaced publications in this blog and settle on a more methodological publication system, especially with the different games and features that will be coming in the future.

As such, I'll be aiming to start writing more frequent, shorter, blogposts both about the current projects in-development and about other subjects, both game development related and not, that I feel passionate about and believe would fit in the context of this page. I don't know if I'll be able to keep up with the promise, but I'll be aiming for it!

Screenshot of Petty Puny Planet 38, the project we have developed for Ludum Dare 38 and which will be getting it's own dedicated blogpost in the future, expect-ably soon.

For those who have read all the way until the end, thank you for reading and sticking around until now, and I hope you keep up with what is yet to come. Although there's this whole situation about spaced-out blogposts and what not, I still occasionally tweet about what's been happening on my Personal Twitter, and if you'd like a more condensed and shorter version of what is currently going on, I'd suggest you to follow me there!