#(also the lack of water aura in the second pic is because i actually have not bought it yet. spent all my money on the rest of the outfit)

[catboytenya]

i hope i absolutely baffled the person i just bought a g1 from

i bought a g1, fully gened it, and then turned it into a sign

i love being a lore lair

additional context that in my opinion, makes it funnier

i also gave the sign a sprite

[seraphira-lilith]

Selfharm AU

Shouto Todoroki centric fanfiction

Inspired by this piece of art:

Or, to be precise, this certain part

@msbubbleswow1o1 I hope it is okay when I show this sinnipet of you work?

When I saw this pic I just had the idea "What if Shouto made the scar himself when he was little to get rid of his fathers half?"

I actually have a whole and through-thought plot, but you get the basic idea.

And this is the

Beginning

When Rei called her mother, Shouto overheard everything

Rei left the can with the boiled water behind and Shouto, being scared that his mother will hate him because of his father's side, decides to get rid of it before Rei can leave or hate him

He takes the water and pours it over the left side of his face (the scar is larger than in cannon)

Rei stumbles over him silently crying and giggling and calls the ambulance

Enji is furious and the whole family gets beaten up for their failure to protect his masterpiece

Touya runs away after that

Shouto is blind on the left eye but Enji isn't bothered by that, he thinks he can beat the self-destructing habits and the injuries out of his son – he's wrong

Shouto starts hurting himself more

He only ever hurts his left side and when he trains with his father he does everything to keep his right side unharmed

He refuses to use his fire

He gives himself frostbite with his ice-Quirk (lost two toes because of that)

He starts cutting himself and they have to hide all the knives and scissors in the household

He also stabs himself with forks and pencils

The older Shouto gets the harder he hurts himself

If you put enough force behind a blunt object it can penetrate skin as well

He also bites and scratches himself (sometimes he takes whole chunks out of his body)

With eight he starts breaking his hand or his foot by placing them between the door and the frame of it and then closing the door

After a while he starts using hammers to break his bones

He purchases "tools" with a stolen credit-card to harm himself even more (whips)

Rei stays at home and isn't send away because she's not at fault for Shouto burning himself

Natsuo, Fuyumi and Rei try to stop Shouto from injuring himself but it doesn't really work

After a while the three of them get scared of laughter – or, well, Shoutos laughter because he starts laughing whenever he hurts himself badly and with the time this maniac-laughter is the only one he has

Momo and Shouto become friends when she finds him at one of the rare parties at the Todoroki-estate

He was biting himself when she found him and she took care of his injury and distracted him enough so that he didn't do anything else that day

After that she was allowed to enter the house whenever she wishes to do so

Shouto is not allowed to leave the house because he could use about everything outside to harm himself 

Shouto actually never thinks about killing himself because he wants to keep his mother's half alive

But he cuts off his fingers over the time and his whole left hand when he's eleven

Shouto does indeed know that he's causing his mother emotional pain but he also thinks that destroying his father's half is the only way to ensure that she keeps loving him

When Rei finds him after hurting himself instead of Natsuo or Fuyumi he always apologizes and it doesn't matter what he did to himself, he will kneel in front of her and beg her for forgiveness

He also doesn't care about the pain and what happens with the injuries, Shouto often goes training with Endeavor although he just broke his leg or something like that

Endeavor is actually terrified of this behaviour but he doesn't let it show

Shouto doesn't really care about being a hero or becoming anything at all – really, he doesn't even want to spite his father, he just wants to keep his mom loving him

but he figures that if he does good things, then his mom will like him more, so, hero it is

During the recommendation test he's constantly fighting the urge to harm himself but his father threatened him that if he wouldn't act like he should in public, Rei would be punished in his stead 

He's still gnawing on the stump of his hand when he thinks nobody is looking

But the lack of stress relief and the fear of causing his mother more pain make him give off a really creepy aura and Isana dislikes him even more than in canon because he thinks somebody like Shouto really shouldn't become a hero

Shouto actually finishes as first place before Isana because he is so scared that if he doesn't that his mother will be hurt by Enji

Nobody knows about Shouto's mental condition because Endeavor kept it under wraps, the only ones who know what's wrong with the youngest Todoroki are: Momo, all the Todorokis', the private teacher Shouto has and the two doctors Enji hired so that they only take care of Shouto and nobody else

First days at UA

The first day at UA Shouto is just trying to wrap his head around being outside of the house without supervision for a long time

Although Momo is keeping a close eye on him

When they change for the Quirk apprehension test he doesn't care to change in a stall because at home everyone is more of less used to seeing all his scars and bruises and injuries - but most of the other boys of the class really are not

Except for Izuku who has his own bunch of scars, thanks to Katsuki

Shouto notices that

During the test Shouto is itching to harm himself again and uses the chance to overuse his Quirk whenever he sees fit

Izuku is constantly catching his eye with his familiar behaviour and with the way he uses his Quirk to hurt himself as well 

Shouto isn't quite sure if Izuku is like him or like his mom but this boy is important now

Shouto talks with Izuku, Ochaco and Tenya after school but gets dragged away by Natsuo shortly after

During the first Villain vs. Heroes exercise Shouto gets the last proof for his theory that Katsuki is like Endeavor and that Izuku is like Rei and when Katsuki starts to beat Izuku up he's actual seconds away from jumping into the fray to defend the small boy

When Katsuki attacks Izuku, Shouto decides that the greenette is like his mom and that he needs to protect him and keep him close

After that day Shouto hates Katsuki

Shouto joins the Deku-Squad directly and Momo with him