#(That shall have to be a picture or something... because I gotta literally yeet this out NOW)

[ducktales-wco-oo]

✩ { @calvinsmuses​​​ } ✩ - Continued from ★

{ ☆ } He’s calling them by that name. 

Even now, when he’s doing what Jayden KNOWS he is trying to do again, Carroll calls them by that name. Like it still means something. Like it somehow is supposed to make what he’s about to say okay. Like he hasn’t called Jayden that for years, held them and comforted them and supposedly loved them for years and PROMISED years more... and is now about to break that promise. Those many promises. Again... 

How is it that Jayden can be certain he could never feel worse than he does at a moment— like the first time he was kicked out of a home, or the second time he was 'returned’ and realized that the problem may be him, or the time when he realized he couldn’t recall how many families it had been... the time he decided that it didn’t matter anymore... that it couldn’t matter anymore if he was going to survive... that time when he broke his own rule and allowed himself to think someone might actually want him around for good- only to believe that he didn’t.

But here he is... small and pathetic and dangerously-close to shattering right in front of the man he both wanted to believe he COULD break in front of, and yet now doesn’t think he should. Because if he does, if Jayden allows himself to splinter into the millions of pieces he can feel stabbing at his heart— puncturing his lungs and making it difficult to breathe, causing his chest to feel like it may concave until he disappears into himself entirely —then he’ll simply be proving what Carroll is unwittingly telling him... 

That Jayden is not good enough.

If Jayden was, this wouldn’t be a problem. Carroll wouldn’t feel the need to push them away AGAIN. Wouldn’t think that Jayden is so pitiful, so helpless that they can’t survive some long distance. That they’re so emotionally weak, they NEED the constant attention. The constant hugs and kisses and... and maybe they have grown dependent on it. Have gotten accustomed to Carroll being there for them— aside from that time when he wasn’t —and now... Now the thought of being without Carroll is an unthinkable as losing a limb. Worse than that honestly. He could make due without an arm, or a leg, or Hell- even his sight; stubbornness likely being more than enough for them to continue pursuing a career in design. But being without Carroll in their life... it feels as if they’d be giving it up entirely.

Because Carroll is as ingrained within it as breathing... Always has been, since they first met if Jayden is being honest; even if at the start he’d been reluctant to allow the new duckling to get too close. But somehow, Carroll had wormed his way in... and stayed there. Throughout everything that came and went in Jayden’s life, and the friends that followed who also managed to stay despite Jayden’s expectations, Carroll was the constant... Maybe Carroll’s right. Maybe his life would be better without Jayden in it. He just NEEDS to ‘learn not to love him’. 

Needs to learn not to love him. For ‘their’ sanity. Carroll’s sanity. Because loving Jayden just doesn’t work... It doesn’t work. It never works. It doesn’t work and Carroll needs to build his own life. Jayden hadn’t been aware that the one he was living right now was so shitty. That Jayden wasn’t part of his actual plan. That the life Carroll REALLY wanted doesn’t have them in it. Forever... What a fucking joke. And Jayden was the idiot who believed it... and throughout it all, Carroll still keeps saying that he LOVES them. Keeps showering them with empty praise and flowery prose, nervous and fumbled as it may be... Like it’s supposed to help matters.

All it does is prove to Jayden that they really are worthless... If someone like Carroll— sensitive and sweet and on the verge of tears... and yet still smart enough to know that Jayden isn’t someone to settle for —doesn’t have it in himself to want them around, then who would? Who should? ... They loved Carroll. Love him... Allowed themselves to TRUST in him, to let their walls down... to not worry about being anything but themselves... and look what that got them? They drove him away. Proved everyone else right. Made it to where even Carroll realized that as much as he might claim to love holding them and kissing them and taking comfort in their company... they weren’t good enough for ‘forever’. Not by a long-shot.

And yet Jayden knows that if they aren’t careful, they’ll try anyway. 

Pleas for Carroll to stay already lie on the tip of their tongue, Jayden swallowing thickly as if that will shove them down. But they simply lodge in their throat alongside their heart, an uncomfortable sensation that rivals the twisting in their guts and the burning in their eyes, Carroll’s form blurred beyond recognition as tears overtake hues of green. He’s going to cry. He already knows it... There’s no mistaking the way they overflow and drip down his cheeks, flattening fluffy feathers with streaks that scald. But if he’s going to cry, then he damn well isn’t going to beg while doing it. Isn’t going to make Carroll think even LESS of him than he already does. Isn’t going to shatter only for Carroll to step over the pieces and OUT the door... 

He might be crying... but they can still yell while doing it. 

They have to.

They have to do something.

❝  Do I know?  ❞  Words sound so broken that at first, Jayden isn’t even certain he spoke them; quiet and shaky and taking every ounce of effort he has just to pass his lips. Fists balled at his sides to hide the way hands want to fidget with the end of his hoodie or sleeves — a nervous tick he was never able to shake —chest shakes with labored breaths, it taking all of Jayden’s willpower to speak through the suffocating sobs that linger just beneath the surface. But talking seems to be keeping the worst at bay... So he keeps talking. Whatever that may bring.  ❝  Because all I REALLY know is that this is the second time you’ve decided to break your promise. Forever and always was nothing but a- a bunch of CRAP!  ❞

❝  And I never even asked you to make it!  ❞  Granted, Jayden had been the one to mention ‘always’ first. But they never forced Carroll to make that promise in return... Still, that doesn’t stop cheeks from flooding with warmth— shame and embarrassment mingling together into the feeling of wanting the floor to swallow them whole —Jayden unable to keep from putting most of the blame on themself for bringing it up at all. Even if Carroll had repeatedly hammered that point in afterward, Jayden had opened the gates. They had allowed this to happen... They had been STUPID enough to believe it meant something.  ❝  YOU did that! You did everything! You’re the one who said you loved me! You’re STILL saying it! Like- Like what? That’s supposed to make this better? Supposed to make it OKAY that you’ve spent years stringing me along like some idiot who actually thought that- that... ❞

No. He can’t stop. Don’t stop... Keep going. 

❝  Y-You should have just left me THE HELL ALONE!  ❞  Voice trembles, expression more pained than the anger Jayden wants to convey. Confused... Betrayed. Glossy eyes focused on Carroll as if answers can even be found, he weakly continues,  ❝  Why didn’t you just stay away the first time? You LEFT me and then- then you said you missed me... and now you’re saying you’ll be better off without me and I fucking KNOW THAT! I know that and I knew that and I- I... You don’t get to just- You don’t get to say you love me and... and DO this... again....  ❞  Losing steam, all Jayden wants to do is curl up in his bed and sob until his voice finally gives out and he won’t have to hear the wretched sound. But glossy glare remains riveted on Carroll, unwilling to lose whatever time he may have left to see him,  ❝  So don’t- don’t give me that CRAP about how great I am or any other flowery, poetic bullshit. Because we both know you’re just talking out of your ass like you ALWAYS do.  ❞

❝  You know... I’m used to people deciding I’m not worth their fucking time. I expect it. And yeah, it’s kinda shitty to tell someone they’re a lost cause, or just not worth the effort of helping, or god forbid- aren’t ‘fit for a family’ -whatever the FUCK that is supposed to mean.  ❞  Jayden hurriedly gripes, air quotes accompanying phrases they’d been told far too often through their life... Breath hitching, fresh tears brim as Jayden bitterly spats,  ❝  But at least those assholes had the decency to be upfront with me! Not make me the fucking dumbass who thought things might be different, when everyone else probably read the writing on the wall the FIRST time Mr. ‘Forever-And-Always’ wanted to play tongue twister with some theater tramp!  ❞  { ☆ } 

[ahjustroza]

Do you have any hcs abt Last Legacy modern au?

Sorry for the wait! I just write very slow 🥺😭 btw I am still writing other requests! I'll post them as soon as I finish writing ✨😌😏 And YES I still take requests😏😏😏

Lol btw I haven't played the catboy Felix tale yet but found his delicious CG. Also, there might be typos etc. My dyslexia was a hoe for the last couple of days (･_･

Last Legacy Modern Au Headcanons

Sage

Lmao the first time you went to his place you faced with an ancient-looking old computer that he found in a garage sale

"It still works"

"Sage with its monitor alone you can heat your entire house in winter"

"Aye, but I don't have to use that to get heated if you catch my drift."

Let me give you a concept: thrift store dates

You took him to a thrift store once and thought it might be fun

But at the moment you entered the store Sage found a damn fake fur jacket and gold sunglasses

He will buy anything with a famous brand logo and say it is original and is an antique

But he'll only do that to annoy people

Mostly.

Sage cares about his looks but doesn't go crazy about it

Before dating you he just lived his life like a street kid like in cyberpunk 2077

Sage and Tulsi grew up in slums and then Sage got an apartment so that Tulsi could grow up in a safe environment

He didn't go to college but made sure that Tulsi did

Sage basically works as a mercenary in the modern au as well

He travels a lot and has to disappear for a looong long time

Tulsi is used to it but you aren't

Once you two are in a relationship and he feels ready to settle down he might get a job closeby to your shared house

You made him realize that he needs his family around him

And now he is not alone to carry all the burden by himself

He knows that if he can't make it in time you will be there to help out Tulsi or take care of all the work for him

He feels lighter around you

Also, he makes many people jealous on the streets lol

Whenever you two are on a date no one can believe that you, a literal divine being, could look at a Boku no pico catboy maid-sama man like him.

He is also jealous of you

But never possessive

He likes to send you out of context memes in the worst possible times ever

Like you got Luigi and Mario animations, doing the waltz, with the Britney Spears' Toxic song during the busiest hour of your shift

He also texted "This us"

The audacity

Sage would also LOVE video games

Especially Final Fantasy games

But he suck at playing them so he makes you play instead

And he'll give instructions too

"I saw a checkpoint in the other room babe,"

"Love, I gotta run away from the boss right now."

"It's not the boss, bosses have their boss rooms. This is an obstacle"

Sage also suck at filing taxes

So good luck with that

I can see Sage having PTSD treatments because of his traumatized childhood and the life he had to live until now after settling down with you

You convinced him to go to therapy and Tulsi backed you up

So he will take medications every day

At first, you had to remind him a lot, but then he just made it an addiction and now doesn't need reminders

He was never happier and finally had a taste of a healthy and caring relationship with you

He is also not so terrible with putting the IKEA furniture together.

Felix

He got expelled from Harvard.

Then his rich father had to convince the headmaster to reconsider the decision and Felix ended up with suspension instead smh

Felix's grades are great but he has disciplinary issues

I can see him majoring in criminal justice and mortuary science

Or maybe just mortuary science

Escell was very disappointed in him.

He is also famous for dating with the valedictorian among Harvard graduates

Then they broke up and you yeeted yourself in his life

Or he yeeted himself to your arms

He literally dramatically fell one day and you happened to be close to catch him

Then the Titanic music played in the background with the slow summer rain fell down to your heads

You are hot so he was flustered

Like he internally screamed when he fell in your arms

Or shall I say fell in love?

You two then started as friends since not too later he found out that he might actually have a chance with you after you mentioned your love of video games and romance books

After starting to date he confessed that he has an AO3 account asddgf

Rime was a burden too

He was the one who broke Felix's heart

But still wanted him to only love him and him alone

Then you were like

"Hoe listen to me..."

Rime hot

But no

Felix cried until morning the day you fist fought Rime in the grocery store parking lot

AAHGDHFA

Scylla secretly approved your determination that day and watched the fight afar

Escell got drunk and Florian came home the day after for everyone's explanations

The deeper your relationship got the more a part of his family you become

I mean every Friday it was now a routine that Felix and you attended family dinner

No one even asks anymore they just put your plate down and Escell hides his most expensive wine bottles from everyone

Felix is not good to live in his own house though

He always lived with someone in the house so he wasn't alone

Ever.

When you moved into the same house with him Felix was relieved

You two will be emos together and watch fifty shades of grey movies during the quarantine

Please ask Felix if he thinks the movie is interesting, he will avoid you all day long

Then become a blanket burrito at night lmao

Oh btw he might tell you random facts about mortuary

Like you are in the shower and he comes in to brush his teeth

Then he'll tell you a fact you didn't have to know then leave

"Truly fascinating, if you ask me."

He is also the type to text you from the other side of the room

Or call you from the other room to ask you if you can bring him something to eat

Felix would also love to go to the farmers' market too

"Finally some quality food."

Whenever you two go on a vacation together

lmao someone ALWAYS takes his hand and reads his palm

Only to be ended up getting scolded and getting a proper palm reading from Felix

Anisa

Call her and ask if she wants drive tru

"Love, it is thREE IN THE MORNING, I have work tomorrow-"

"So two? Or nah?"

"Get a coffee."

Actually, she wants a cookie but won't admit it

She knows you'll get her a cookie

You always get her a cookie with coffee

Anisa might be a great investigator if you ask me

If not a detective or a police chief or lieutenant

But I think she would work in law enforcement

Or she might also start her own company and rise as well

Unlike Sage and Felix, Anisa will not live in the same house with you before she decides to settle down for good

It's not because she doesn't want you around her

But because she is always at work and doesn't want to leave everything to you to handle at home

But she is always with you on her day offs

Will call you once a day at least

Text you during her breaks or whenever she can

If you can show up at her workplace during the lunch break she will take you to the nearest coffee shop

"Their coffee is not nearly as good as yours, but among other shops, this is the most drinkable one."

She will spoil you during your dates!

She likes to see you smile and will do anything for you to have a good time with her

So expect sweets, movie nights, amusement park dates, or just traveling during both of your yearly week/month offs/breaks

She won't admit it but likes it when you try to match your clothes with hers

She will know your favorite everythings lol

Take her to a dinner date and she will be so happy and feel spoiled

She will let you paint her nails

Let you get all the hot water in the shower

Will let you wear her clothes

Pillow fights are allowed every now and then

When she gets sick she'll try to power through but likes it when you baby her

Whenever you get sick she will try to not fuss over you but every 15 minutes she'll ask to take you to see a doctor

She is a cereal gal

You might have to drag her to bed many nights because she will take work at home

Oh my god, do play dungeons and dragons with her

If you visited somewhere she has never been she will ask a lot of questions about your trip

Likes to binge a tv series you two found online

Also enjoys just silent but comfortable moments with you

When you read your book she will gaze at you

All heart eyes

Will put her favorite picture of you two as her profile picture in her social media accounts

Will like your every post

ALWAYS TEXTS BACK TO YOU. ALWAYS.

Never leaves you on read/seen

She will either give you a proper text or just let you know that she is busy at the moment

Also if you come home later than her she will ask if you want her to prepare anything special you want for dinner

otherwise, she'll do dishes that you both like anyway

If she is late, she'll call you to ask if you need anything from the grocery store, etc.