#(OOOOUUUUCHHHH.)

[fruitanddarkness]

What Herb Are You?

Basil • —– ٠ ✤ ٠ —– • ·

You wear a thousand masks and you claim them all. You say they are all you. All parts of you. But some of them you picked up when you needed to be brave, some you picked up when you failed because you were yourself, some of them you picked up because you needed to be stronger for someone smaller, better for someone bigger, useful for someone crueler, and you can't help but desperately scramble for first place, for usefulness, to prove you're worth keeping around, to prove you're the best, to prove you're good enough, valuable, enough.

You just want someone to tell you: You're enough.

You strive for success, to be a role model, to take the lead, to be someone everyone loves, someone who can't fall, someone who can't be hurt the way you were once, the way you're running from even now. Sometimes you just want someone to hold your hand and let you spill all your broken fragments outward but you know you could never let it go. The only thing holding you together some days is the image of perfection and success and security and the worst part is that everyone else needs you to never falter either because you so often are the one holding everyone together too. You can't help but wonder if your emotions are ever your own. If you are just an actor in a life that's not your own, if you were cursed to be a mannequin, a doll, from the moment you were born and placed into a life where you were a child meant to be seen, not heard, to perform, not live, and the jealousy the injustice or the pain is fueled into masks as you take the world by storm.

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[looselucy]

Gutted. I guess this is what happens when you have perfect sex with someone you really care about and then ask to not speak for months. I am totally fucking gutted. Like I’m not mad at all, but my heart breaks for pippa. And for harry too tbh. Oooouuuuchhhh.