#(OC is basically tall with dark reddish to auburn brown hair and similar dark eyes)

[koushirouizumi]

* d o . n o t . r e b l o g [likes ok]

title: donor pair: taishiro[u], hinted koushiro x past not-quite-partner implied summary: original version of an old vent-fic bc im battle-worn & tired warning: bit of angst-y introspection over-the-years style but otherwise a good end

Koushiro Izumi is five years old when his parents bring home a computer. * Koushiro is eight years old. His family registry is displayed clearly {before him} . His parents don't know that HE KNOWS .

{ HE ALWAYS KNEW } * [ in another place , ] Koushiro is eighteen years old. He finished high school long ago. * Koushiro is twenty years old. Does he even want a family ? * Koushiro is in his early twenties. His parents are once again celebrating their anniversary. He smiles at them yes I WANT A FAMILY * Koushiro ages some years. ‘ Maybe if I TRIED, ... ’ * He gets put on A WAITING LIST for a d o p t i o n {... a waiting list ...} [....?] * Koushiro is around twenty three years old. HE'S STILL WAITING FOR A REPLY. * Koushiro is twenty four years old (or so) when he realizes for the second time exactly how broken the systems across the world really are. * [ in another place , when he is in University , BUT NOT AS A STUDENT --- ] Koushiro Izumi is twenty five years old when he MEETS TAICHI YAGAMI. * Koushiro is a few years older. He could wait FOREVER if he HAD TO, but ... ... * [ the ORIGINAL WORLD ] Koushiro is hitting his late 20's when he reads about {that} technology. Koushiro wonders. " If this technology had been around before , to help my mother , {would I not have BEEN A D O P T E D ? "} ... He's not sure how he feels about these thoughts. { It hurts, a little, maybe -- or, more }

{ he doesnt want to think about it anymore } * [ the ORIGINAL WORLD ] Koushiro is hitting his thirties. {He's STILL WAITING.} He wonders " Am I being " " SELFISH " for considering ‘THIS’ INSTEAD ? After all, {THIS} SHOULD BE EASY , R I G H T ? * [ the ORIGINAL WORLD ] Koushiro is in his early thirties when he meets her. SHE'S NOT THE ONE HE WANTS . SHE ISN'T " HIS WIFE " ... But , her, too, he cares about her, too * " Didn't you want a family ? " she asks , ... Koushiro nods , mutely , she smiles , " You're not being selfish . " * Koushiro is a father not much later * Koushiro is in his thirties when he realizes he's A D O P T E D this girl all the same .

{ ITS - ALL - THE - SAME } * [ the ORIGINAL WORLD ] Koushiro is in his thirties when he once again meets Taichi Y a g a m i . *